Confessions

>>55381694
I become known as one of my groups best DMs after we kicked the first one.
I'm known for planning out the session and events.
>I make most of it up on the spot. I just know how to push my players into making it work out and be badass while doing it.

Just so it don't seem like I'm bragging, I'm not the best, just known as the best who is willing to DM. After our first DAM said he needs a break a retard became DM. Then I took over cuz he sucked.

>>55381694
I cannot into long term campaigns: if I try to go further than 3 or 4 sessions, I lose interest and stop planning the skeleton of the game and everything stops.

For the first time, I actually stopped replying to a group chat completely after I lost interest in the game. I feel bad that I didn't even justify my stopping responding. Then again, the guys didn't contact me per PM so I suppose they weren't too concerned about me stopping showing up.

Lastly, I am the cause of most of the drama in another group. I was very cross that the other players all seemed to be so connected to the goings-on that I threw a mild tantrum and briefly shat all over the game. Not proud of that moment at all.

>>55381694
I continue to return back to this message board over and over again in order to argue pointlessly about the same topics as nauseum despite it rather demonstrably exacerbating my existing mental health problems and causing my actual life to deteriorate as a result.

Last year I was in a long term relationship, living in a penthouse in another country, working full time in law and studying a CS degree, had a hugely active social life and was 140 lbs, had cut out drink and drugs, had 15 k savings.

Then I started going on tg a lot.

Now I'm unemployed, penniless, 180 lbs , single, drink a lot, living with my parents and the only time I go out is to play warhammer.

>>55381694
I don't like games, tabletop, roleplaying, board or video games, I don't enjoy playing. But I like reading the stories here and fap to elves.

>>55382142
Damn man I hope you are just fishing (You)s.
I have a hard time imagining how someone can go from that successful and
in order to that messed up because of a mongolian basket weaving board about
make believe table games

>>55382498
I don't think I was happy , the lifestyle I was leading was good on paper but exhausting, I had no time for things like gaming i actually enjoyed because of constant parties and events, work and girlfriend duties etc, I was tired all of the time, I was miserable in my job and didn't enjoy what I was studying just doing it for future $$$ so I dived into comfort of the board as a way to deal with it rather than actually face the issues , it wasn't booze but it was a slippery slope as it were . I actually made a few shit posts here about it and everyone told me to leave my girlfriend...so I kinda did.

I'm probably more content now than I ever have been though honestly.

I constantly feel like the best DM/Player there could be.
I look at people like Colville and Mercer, I have played with many different IRL DMs and watch D&D on twitch all the time, and it always feels
like such a bad and stupid way to play D&D.
The thing is that these last few years being ridiculously anti-social has prohibited me from DMing and playing. My spaghetti levels have gone off the chart.

Other people's games and way of playing always feel so weak and wrong. How the fuck does anyone find 5es wild sorcerer's
wild magic table so "le fun haha xD". 95% of items in D&D have always been these stupid meme shits you see
in cartoons for 5 year olds; the ones where wizards have pointy hats and blue robes, and every barbarian is Schwarzenegger.
How can someone unironically enjoy playing or leading these kinds of adventures?

The confession is that I'm doubting myself as a human being because of this. It's much more likely there something really wrong with me
rather than that I am truly the top1% of DMs/Players but just can't seem to play atm because of aforementioned anti-social stuff.

>>55382605
Usually people tend to shit on people they're jealous of, could be that tbqh famalam

I constantly fear that my friends don't like my games when I gm and they just do it to shut me up despite the fact they keep volunteering for the games.

>>55382605
I also feel I'm the best DM/player out there.

Although I unironically like the wild magic table.

I think this means we have to fight to the death.

I really want to start an online gaming group as a DM, but I change what systems and rules I like on the fly constantly in my head, can't decide on good setting details, and am overly picky with player characters.

It's almost like I want to be a forever gameless DM.

>>55382398

How is this a confessional? Are you actually the DM in this story?

>>55381694

I suggested that the DM geld one of the PCs for attempted rape of a princess. The DM then did it, but gelded all of the PCs except mine. (Was playing this dirty bounty hunter)

To this day none of them know it was me that suggested it.

>I am Brax, Master of Eunches. Look on my works, ye mighty and despair.

>>55381694
I'm starting to think that my inability to find a game that lasts reflects more on me than anything else.

>>55382660
steven you fuck

>>55382498
Come on, this is obvious bullshit.

>>55382086
try running 1 shot campaigns. Get little short ones online or buy a few books. Something you can beat in 1 or 2 sessions. 2 or 3 if your push it. 4 if you dick around.

4e is still my favorite edition of d&d and is the only one I will run because it's the only one I feel comfortable enough to dm for. I haven't been dm in a long time because no one I know wants to play 4e.

>>55381694
I know exactly what die I have to roll, but I keep asking my DM which one because I know it irks him

>>55382699
I wish it was... Though I suppose we live in a cynical age where anything vaguely sincere isn't to be believed.

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>>55381694
I like devils in sundresses.

>>55383895
Fuck you Kevin

I actually want to play a fetish oriented campaign.

>>55381694
I want to play tabletop games with meatspace strangers as a way to meet and make friends with people around me. (I have none.)

Instead I keep running games for my college friends online, who are great players and fun to talk to and always an IM away, but aren't meatspace friends nearby, and aren't new.

>>55385005
have you tried f-list?

I don't like RNG, including dice, and it drives me to min-max to reduce (or if possible, eliminate) the effect the roll has on the outcome.

>>55385180
You poor unfortunate soul.

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I'm a talentless hack who can't into creativity for years now and have based vast amounts of the current sci-fi campaign on Trials in Tainted Space.

And by "based" and "vast amounts" I actually mean copied and majority.

>>55385200
And like a retard I forgot to spoiler the image.

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I flirt with other characters because it's cute/funny to see the players get all hot and bothered.

>>55385200
So is this like a Magical Realm sort of deal or what?

>>55382634
Hey man, usually I'm just happy to have a table to play at. I'm sure you're fine.

>>55385349
The campaign or the source material?

>>55385379
Campaign.

>>55385404
No.

>>55385462
wew

I love crunch, I think it's fun as long as it serves a purpose and works well for you at the table.

I also primarily play for "the story" in the sense of finding out what happens through "sim" play. I play for the characters, their drama, and their struggles.

The combination of the above two things means almost none of my posts on the subject goes unattacked.

Having varied interests is apparently anathema to RPG forums.

>>55381694
I simply cannot play a game without having regrets later of how it went, and the small amount of times this not happens I can't but think that it was partially thanks to luck and/or others, not me.

>>55385306
You're the ugly one. The reason the act the way they do is because they don't want to hurt your feelings by telling you the truth: you're awkward and weird and just being around you is unpleasant.

Whenever there's an option for an 'alternative class progression' or 'prestige class' or even 'substitute levels' I always take it. I like feeling special.

>>55381694
I get into lore discussions and sometimes even shitpost about rules on games I don't actually play.

>>55386472
>I get into lore discussions and sometimes even shitpost about rules on games I don't actually play.
PROTIP: That describes a majority of /tg/

>>55385200
Wow. That is either balls of steel or desperation.

>>55382142
Correlation is not causation, mate

>>55385834
Sticks and stones, anon.

>>55385732
Isn't the story the main reason to play? An RPG with an awful story isn't very fun.

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I put magical realm stuff into every one of my characters regardless of it will ever actually come up.

>>55381694
>I have many connected daydreams with a plot, have felt deep feels with them and have ruined the whole thing with a resurrection arc
>for my post-apocalyptic campaign, I base a lot of the scenery and locations off of Garrys Mod maps

>>55381694
I have zero confidence in my ability to roleplay or be a useful part of the team, and I'm also certain my lack of confidence only worsens things.

Also, I really liked this one guy everybody else hated, and he got kicked.

>>55385732
>The combination of the above two things means almost none of my posts on the subject goes unattacked.
That's gay, it's literally one of the most common views on /tg/. Probably you're just abrasive about it.

>>55385732
>Having varied interests is apparently anathema to RPG forums.
Heh. 2 of my favorite RPGs are Apocalypse World, and D&D 3.5. That should give you an idea of how schizo my interests are.

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>>55385044
>tfw I realized that I've had more successful games on f-list than real life
Hold me.

>>55381694
I made a setting using influences from pol. Black people were orks and elves were jews.

>>55388274
:¬|

>>55381694
I've ruined my local game store. This week, we've finally hit 60% of the table space of the store, taken up with our various world in flames games, and I'm the one who started dragging people in at random to try to learn the game.

I haven't actually put any effort into DMing. I ran a game that I did some prep on, while we had other games that I could play in, but the rest of the group all desided to drop their games for various "reasons," and exclusively play mine. Since then, I've half assed four games simultaneously in an attempt to get my group to get off their lazy asses and let me play.

It worked. Now I can cut the fat and focus my half assery into a single game, and be PC again.

>>55381694
I once left and ghosted an online group i had been GMing. And it wasn't a rando-group on the third session, but a relatively long-running one, nearing its second year for me and two players and in it's third campaign.
It wasn't even that intentional: Because of some pretty BS sounding reasons i had to bail on sessions last minute two or three weeks in a row and then i didn't have the motivation to run the week after so i just didn't log into Skype, and after that the shame and embarrassment was too much to ever get back on.
I kinda hate myself for being such a coward, instead of ripping of that band-aid, saying 'Sorry Guys' and getting a bit of shit i still have regrets and feel bad years later.

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>>55388532

>>55388577
I don't know if this picture is supposed to show empathy, sympathy or antipathy, but i'll take the (you) anyway...

>>55381694
I dislike railroading, I think it stifles creativity, and makes the player's actions moot.

That said, my confession is That I know exactly how the campaign will end, with minor room for variation in it's ending. They still have freedom on the journey, but it will lead them to the ending I have planned.

>>55388216
That picture hurt.

>>55389004
>I know exactly how the campaign will end, with minor room for variation in it's ending.
What exactly do you mean? Do you mean
>Everything, from fights to new characters to everything else is meticulously planned so that the players have no choice but to follow this exact plan with no deviations
or
>The start, major points and the ending are planned, but the ways to reach them are free for the players to choose
Because you could call both railroads, but the second one is FAR better than the first one

>>55385005
Vorefag her.
Never had a chance to play with other vorefags and do a bio-dungeon ala-Jabu-Jabu style.

>>55389554
a la you uncultured anglo

>>55388216
What is f-list? May have interest.

>>55389142
Oh, the second one. The in between is aaaaaall the players, but it will ultimately lead to the BBEG, and the ending I have planned.

i want to play warhammer at a GW store but i always feel out of place and like an unwated stranger.
I have a room and a table at my house but my roommate never seems to want to play and my brother only plays on his days off of work. even then 80% of the time my bro just stays at his house smoking pot and sleeping.
i dm for a good group that gets together every other month it seems. when i try to pickup a group at my local game store i again feel out of place. i thought that i was more social than this

>>55389691
https://www.f-list.net/
Online ERP community where you can make profiles with all your kinks and turn-offs, seek other people with similar interests and roleplay with them

I fudge rolls to try and make the players experience more fun

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>>55381694
I keep posting about political shit here because I long for a discussion with someone who disagrees with me but is willing to actually engage in an well spirited argument instead of the sort of retarded shitflinging that goes on in /pol/.
I also keep getting banned for it.

t. Nazi Finn
inb4 I get banned for this

>>55390028
>I keep posting about political shit here
>well spirited argument instead of the sort of retarded shitflinging that goes on in /pol/.
anon, are you dumb?
Do you think people willing to make well spirited arguments will argue with you? No, they will keep silent and hope you shut up.
Do you know who will reply to political shit? People that want to do retarded shitflinging

>>55389979
Fudging roles is fine, but if your doing it a lot I think that means your designing encounters poorly.

>>55390087
I have actually had very good political arguments here on /tg/, for example the nature of parliamentary democracy and how it is a flawed system.
Far better than I have had on any other board.
Even if the discussions stay completely civil, I usually still get banned tho.

>>55390106
This

>>55389979
design your encounters/challenges/whatever so that you don't NEED fudging. If you need to fudge, do so, note what went wrong and try to incorporate it in future plans

I can't into emotions or personalities, so I've basically given up on making anything other than sheets of numbers and maybe a random picture stuck on. That's a lie I tell myself to avoid facing my own laziness. Which is also the reason I have shelves full of RPG material I haven't read and a bunch of campaign ideas that haven't gone any further than a vague outline on a bit of paper.
Sometimes I worry I've forgotten how to be creative.

>>55388216
Is that a thicc Tomoko?

>>55390175
>Is that a thicc Tomoko?
https://exhentai.org/s/4320b2bdf9/882638-28

>>55389932
Thanks! We talking about DnD, pathfinder, GURPS RP stuff, or freeform?

>>55390324
That fully depends on what the rest of you want to play. Basically it's a forum with multi-person chats that also gives you the ability to mark down your kinks so that like-minded people can find you

>>55390344
That sounds pretty cool! Final question...
Can it be done on mobile? I am rather constantly on the move, phone is pretty easy for me.

>>55390344
Chats? Is there an option for PbP?

>>55390391
I think so. My only knowledge is second-hand

>>55381694
I dont really plan things out and I still chastise my players for not putting enough work in preparing for a session. I pretty much just wing it and they love it anyway. I guess Ive been at this too long.

>>55390135
>I have actually had very good political arguments here on /tg/
No you haven't. You're an idiot so you think you have, but any true intellectual would liken your arguments to a farting contest in the sewers.

I use real life issues as my venting point in tabletop. My character is a killthepoor character and i run campaigns in shadowrun where the johnson has some sort of kill the homeless job

>>55382577
You're a faggot and it has nothing to do with /tg/. You lost all that shit because of you and your choices, dipshit. Please stab yourself a couple times in the stomach.

>>55385306
Most likely a tolerated creep whom everyone would wish would get his head out of his ass enough to consider how uncomfortable he makes others.

>>55381694
I've never actually played a tabletop RPG before.

>>55381694
I dislike my best friend's characters in my games and I can't tell him because he will be hurt.
He is always so excited about his characters and they suck and he always plays himself with a big quirk when he pretends to roleplay.

I don't know what to do.

>>55382605
I feel the same way constantly. I am doing this for 14 years and I never saw anyone coming close to my abilities. Sometimes I see potential but then it weavers.
I am stuck as forever DM and i was told countless times I am the best at it. But its getting dry for me, I want a DM good as me to run a campaign where I am the player.

>>55381694
I play Heroclix...

>>55392148
>I want a DM good as me to run a campaign where I am the player.
you want a good GM? Train one. Get one of the players you know that is enthusiastic and shows potential and teach him. Let him GM. When he makes mistakes help him. When he doesn't know what to do give him advice. Generally try to increase his ability. Maybe he won't reach your standards. Maybe he will surpass them. But in any case you now have a chance to be a player

I genuinely enjoy 1d4chan.

>>55392189
Mage Knight is better fgt

>>55391825
>he

>>55382142
Kinda the opposite. Started browsing /tg/ as a kissless virgin neet.

Now I'm in a long term relationship, and thinking about when I'm going to pop the question. I own a house and just landed my long time dream job.

I still get irrationally angry about elves though.

>>55392254
I still have flash backs to the first and only time I played mage knight. It took us 13 hours.

I've never hated a game so much in my life despite winning .

>>55390383
I think there's actually an app.

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>>55381694
>I routinely GM drunk/high
>I put way, way more effort into creating fictional cuisines than is necessary or sane
>One time, my friend and I made a setting, a city-state roughly based on medieval Venice. Early on we had a neat idea that we both knew was magical realm but threw in anyway because it fit the tone and themes very well. As we developed the setting, we kept having more ideas for it and what started as a minor facet of the world ballooned into an important part of the setting's culture. To date, it was the best setting either of us have ever made

>>55392266
Good point.
As sick qs the double standard is, if a chick is doing it, she'd get away with it scott free.

>>55392511
Link please? Android user here.

(Captcha: Close Market)

>>55392676
Yeah, well, here's the thing about that.
Men are much more likely to be noted for doing stupid shit like that, because (wait for it) dudes are high-risk high-reward folk, for one, women are discouraged from doing shit like that because it's weird, and the women who do do it anyways are assumed to have some sort of rationale for it while guys 'just do it because they're stupid'.

>>55392688
It's called AndFChat. https://wiki.f-list.net/AndFChat

>>55392952
Many thanks, Anon. Many thanks.

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>>55381694
I'm a furry, but the 'I like anthro characters' not the 'I jerk off to this daily' kind, no one really knows because I'm also an unabashed Imperial Guard fan and I'm to loyal to mix the two, I'm not a heretic

I tend to play furry characters like catfolk or lizardfolk in campaigns, but I'm a forever DM now.

But now I try to not put any anthro NPCs in my campaign so I don't scare away my players by accidentally showing my power level. I'm also too scared that I'll alienate everyone if I try and get them to play Ironclaw or something.

It doesn't bother me that much, but I'd love to be able to dust off one of my furry RPGs and play a game in the setting without the fear that my players will immediately jump ship.

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I've never actually played a tabletop RPG in my life.
>I browse tg/ every day
>I watch "RollPlay" on youtube
>I've read every storytime on sup/tg
>Every time i hear of a new setting i compulsively create a character, i know i'll never play
I want to play but i'm just to god damned autistic to ever join any game.

>>55395099
Believe in yourself. Roll20 was made for autists to play.

And if you really can't handle socially communicating with people, at least try sitting in on a session and just listening. Maybe that will get you over the hump.

I often have 1 or 2 people who never play and just listen in on my sessions.

>>55390391
Yes. Most ERP happens over the f-list chat, which you can google and find pretty easily.

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I accidentally recreate backstories for other fictional characters while trying to come up with my characters history.
so far i've made deku, luke skywalker, prince zuko, guts, and rider fucking 1. my latest character has become tiefling malcom x, which is better, i think?

>>55397308
I didn't realize Malcolm X was fictional.

>>55381694
I have 30 minutes to plan for a murder mystery session of D&D for my campaign and the only thing I have planned are lists of characters in the castle. I called of last session because I didn't have enough planned, and I could never find the right frame of mind to get into to actually plan so I have got nothing after two weeks, even though I told my players I wanted a little longer to plan so I could do it "properly".

>>55398102
You have two options.

Come clean with your players and do something else with your players because 30 minutes is definitely not enough time.

Or, do what I do when this sort of thing happens, go balls to the wall, and have something far more dramatic happen in this session that takes up all of the players/characters attention for the session.
Return to the murder mystery if/when suitable.

>>55397419
He was a myth made up by the media.

>>55398279
Well, for what it's worth I managed to get through that session. I managed to place decent amount of focus on the few clues and ideas I was able to work out/only didn't have on paper so they didn't start going crazy interrogating people or anything, and some good rolls meant they got a decent amount of information from it. It also helps that we all spent a while at the start just catching up on the past week, and talking about recent vidya.

I feel like I'm getting a bit too comfortable with improvising sessions though, usually run them without too much planning, but I felt kind of stressed out by it this time, so I think it's about time I try to break the habit for real. All in all, short session + socialising/new game probably saved me, but everyone seemed to have fun, so it's still a win in my book.

>>55399895
That's the biggest goal, Anon. Players having fun.

I've run a game for a long time now, and to this day I've never really truly stated up an entire character, and just ball parked the bonuses.

Whenever I get compliments I feel like a hack, considering how much time they think I put in mechanically to how much I just make up and think is cool.

I've used "Dude this is so much work" as an excuse before not to run because I didn't feel like running that week.

>I'm a huge /pol/ack but express it in healthy ways (making modules and classes involving ancient christian magic and gnostic mysticism)

>Every game i've run is a disaster because I always put off working on the fucking thing

>I consistently bite off more than I can chew when I decide to make something /tg/ related and abandon it

>>55381694
I am ever paranoid that my party will lose interest in my game, yet due to how busy we all are we can usually only meet twice a month. Because of this, I sometimes allow for ridiculously over the top scenarios and abilities I know they'll love, just to keep them interested.

>>55381694
im kinda average at GMing.
can't stand other people GMing because they always do something wrong.
i've been making a homebrew tiny sub20 page system that's pretty okay for about 4-5 years now and that's the only thing I want to play/run

can't keep my meatspace games alive due to real life issues eating my players away

i feel like giving it all up