Because the other one died. Post your secrets.

>>25322809
I can't sleep at night due to depression and loneliness. It's only getting worse. I also have a thing for sabotaging my relationships.

I complain about shit I'm already working on and changing so no reason to complain but I like to come online and exaggerate my situation is worse than it really is to get a few (yous) out of it

I'm also quite successful but like to visit/complain/shitpost on 4chan

I gave the cold shoulder to a friend/girl I like after I saw her talking to another guy. I was able to fix the problem before it got bigger by talking to her the next day. Still, it bothers me that I treated her that way after feeling jealous even though we're not even together.

>the "optimist" friend
>>everyone comes to me with their problems
>I listen to them and give them encouragement
>Month of May
>dream internship I got cancelled due to change in management
>same day I find out, dog dies
>Insurance refuses to pay for brother's hospital stays
>Family desperately needs money
>My friend starts fucking the guy I have a crush on
>Everyone goes quiet when I need someone to talk to
>Still expect me to smile and be perky for them
Fuck, I'm so tired. I'm so stressed I experience tactile hallucinations of blood pouring out of my ears. A sharp pain followed by the sensation of fluid running down the sides of my face. One of my female friends began comparing my dog dying/loosing my job to her boy trouble and I honestly want to scream. I'm just so passive I say nothing. I feel like I'm about to snap.

Hired a prostitute. Lowkey have an addiction to Craigslist casual encounters just to see if I can or am attractive enough for someone to like me based on no merit other than my physical appearance. Unsuccessful.

I'm poly, but my girlfriend isn't and doesn't want to be.

So far I've stayed satisfied with porn, but sometimes it gets hard, no pun.

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I'm 21 and a virgin, never had a girlfriend.

I'm balding, in vegas currently and my scalp is burning. Seriously considering just getting a buzz for the first time in my life when I get home. Like, it fucking hurts. Probably should just do it.

I feel incredibly lonely. I think about suicide despite having 10 grand in the bank, a 8 grand car, and having the ability to pay my own tuition no problem.

I don't have a single friend that I can call close. I feel disconnected from everyone.

I'm going to go get drunk and drop $100 gambling by myself.

I run a premium Snapchat that I've kept hidden from my bf. My fave porn star follows me and I've made a few hundred dollars. I also fuck a few of my guy friends when my bf is at work

>>25323117
Please be careful, anon. If you must go with craigslist girls, be safe. And most people aren't attractive enough to merit relationships based solely on physical attraction. (Though I'm sure your aren't nearly as bad as you think.) If you care to put in the effort, try meeting people with similar interests.

>>25323128
Shave your head. If you're balding, might as well rock the bald look. And please invest in a hat/sunscreen to protect yourself from the sun. And don't feel bad about feeling lonely, despite your fortunate circumstances. Suicide won't make that better, however. Putting yourself out there might be helpful. I've never had a boyfriend either, so I understand.

I used to be a camwhore on this board years back and was slightly underage. I have a son now and am very worried that one day my pictures will resurface and that he will see them.

>>25323148
If it's any consolation, I feel like 9/10 pictures posted here will fade out into obscurity, left to die on some dude's failing hard drive until history forgets them forever.

>>25323146
I think I'll wait another month and shave right before the start of the semester. Maybe I'll buy some slimmer fitting clothes too. I'm 6'2" and skinny so at least most lost girls won't be able to look down at my bald head. I'll try to rock the aesthetic if I can. If not, my balding isn't too bad yet so it may be salvageable for another year or two.

I just wish I had a close friend or a relationship. Do you recommend anything specifically for putting myself out there?

>>25323158
That's what I'm hoping for. I've only stumbled across my pics on Tumblr before, posted without my knowing or consent. It was really odd, because it's been years since I've posted here, and the Tumblr thing was semi recent

I've been cheating on my fiance since the week after we got engaged


Killed in Afghanistan (not really a secret to the gubberment but I mean, I dont tell anybody)


I made a bigger girl slit her thighs for me just for laughs. Blocked her after she sent it. Didn;t give her my real anme or anything but we talked for months.


Used my fathers position when I was younger to get a girl to suck my cock in a bathroom. Yeah..


welp

I'm very lonely. I have a place to stay but I was informed that someone is moving in here who I don't find a good influence. So I have to hustle extra hard at my two jobs and it blows dick. My two closest friends have careers and GFs and I'll most likely see them rarely for quite awhile.

I haven't had a GF in years and I'm 22. And I'm a virgin... But I guess I'm not completely fucked. But I feel lonely without a companion. I'm jealous of my friend with a GF. What's the point of having this job when I can't even have fun and enjoy and bring happiness to a woman. :(.

>>25323164
I'm assuming you're in college. I'll suggest clubs, ironically, seeing as my only experience with one was one of those disastrous anomalies. Honestly, trying to get into online communities is your best bet. Besides coworkers and classmates with similar majors, the old model of friendship is pretty much outdated. Bars are still pretty fun places to meet people, though, all stereotypes aside. I currently work at a craft beer bar and some of our regulars have become friends.

>>25323165
While that is surprising, I would highly recommend not making a fuss to the original poster on tumblr. Time will take care of it, in the end. Even if those picture where available by the time your son came of age, and I mean no offense by saying this, I don't imagine there's anything about them that would make them more attention grabbing than the millions of terabytes of information floating around the web. Lay low, and the web will forget you.

>>25323185
This

Laying low is all you can hope for. Maybe being strict with the computer would be in order so he won't be inclined to make similar mistakes.

You and my wife are fucking, she asks to get rid of me. You and her SHRINK me down to bug size..how would you get rid of me? Willing to send pics tho the people who give me creative, morbid, disgusting, sexual answers!

i am not looking for someone to just ask for pictures, I would send pictures eventually, but im after a good conversation about my fetish
i have no limits.

Lukesixx6 kik

>>25323185
Coworkers are currently the only group of people that I do things with, but it's usually seeing movies and antisocial shit. I don't really connect with any of them. Maybe that's my fault though.

I'm definitely not a club person, but I'll have to give it a shot.

Also, online dating sucks as an average looking guy.

Thank you for the advice.

>I am 100% a pervert
>I wish I was bi. The fantasy of sucking cock and fucking/getting fucked is so hot, but no matter how hard I try I just can't find myself attracted to men irl
>I would fuck my sister in a heartbeat if given the chance.
>My dream girl would definitely have to have an incest fetish.

>>25323215
>Coworkers are currently the only group of people that I do things with, but it's usually seeing movies and antisocial shit.
Oh man, I feel this. Mine invited me to go see suicide squad and they all loved it. I put on my biggest, most fake smile for that one. But going for drinks teds to lower everyone's barriers, if you're down for that. Also, lighting and perspective, my man. As a photography hobbyist, trust me. 99% of dudes on dating websites would look so much better if they took a second to think about this.

>>25322809
I want to find a couple and role play with them as my parents and having sex with the mom. Either through a cuckolding situation, or drunken celebration gone astray, or "family game night" like the good old days playing twister, except now son is grown and hot and he's pressing his manhood right into his mom's ass because of some lucky spins.

... I had really shitty, unattractive parents growing up and was mostly raised by my grandparents. I'm 24 and been stuck in relationships since freshman year of college so I'm running out of time before i look older and this not only becomes sad and pathetic but unrealistic. I don't even know how to begin and I don't want to cheat but I think about it pretty much every day.

>>25323219
>that's okay
>pegging/traps
>repress those feelings
>come up with some bs "taboo" explanation to explain this fantasy

>>25322861
You sound like a shitty person and someone who would be a terribly jealous controlling boyfriend.

>>25323180
Get to /fit/ and sort your life out. If you want to be wanted you've gotta be something worse wanting.

>>25322809
I think I'm falling for my best friend's wife. He has reclused himself from myself and his wife, consumed by a hobby and me and his wife spend a lot of time together.

He recently had a dream about shooting us after she told him she loved me and on the side I'm having frequent sex dreams about her.

I absolutely hate sex with my bf now. He was my first but I've recently tried new and bigger dicks so his isn't working for me anymore. Plus he just lays there, doesnt react at all, and he goes on his phone while I blow him. I wanna punch him in his nuts

>>25323322
Sounds like you need to either talk to him or break it off instead of cheating on him.

>>25323328
I've tried. He's been abusive for years and gets suicidal when I try to leave

>>25323340
Then leave him and let Darwinism do its thing. Or call the cops and stop being a statistic.

>>25323341
Lol if it was easy I would have done it by now

>>25323345
It is, you're just a static and a stereotype. You love the pity you get from people when crying about your woes and you have become dependant on him because he gets you that attention. Fuck off.

>>25323346
/this
Whores gonna whore

>>25323346
Lol no trust me, I want out, I need out. I'm so fucking ready to be single after 6 years of this shit. This fucker has me trapped

>>25323352
If you're trapped, then cops need to be involved. And you need to stop talking about getting out and just DO it.

>>25323359
I don't wanna hurt him. Regardless of what 4Chan thinks and how much of an ass waffle this guy is, I'm not a heartless wench.

>>25323365
No, you're both ass waffles and you're retarded not heartless. Go see a shrink cuz you both are fucked in the head.

>>25323369
Yeah thanks lol I've noticed

>>25323365
>not a heartless wench
>boyfriend is abusive and threatens to commit suicide if you leave
? ? ? ?

>>25323371
It's complicated

>>25323346
>>25323322
Notice also how she talked about the sex first and even admitted to cheating and suddenly turned herself into the victum
Fucking whores should be made fuck pigs and raped to death

I'd like to fuck every one I meet. That's just how my sex drive is. But I can't live with myself if I did. Plus I don't have the courage to do it. It just eats me up inside.

>>25322809

I genuinely want nothing but the utter extinction of all negroid people.

There's a girl in our group of friends who's the most perfect human being I've ever met. She's sweet, warm, pretty, cute, smart, caring. Being around her, talking with her, seeing her smile, feels so damn good. I have a girlfriend, whom I love, but I've been head over heels in love with this girl since the day I met her. I have no interest in cheating on my girlfriend at all, but I'm not sure what to do with these feelings. x_x

>>25323638
Stop being her "friend" and move on. Also break up with your girlfriend. You're shit.

>>25323297
Idiots

>>25323653
Whoah, you don't choose how you feel. Calm down. I explicitly said I have no interest in ever cheating on my girlfriend.

>>25323657
Glad my only response was so we'll thought out

>>25323116
There are always people out there that will listen to your problems, many help lines and online communities will listen (y)

heck even il listen if you want!

>>25323662
You do choose how you feel. You need to grow up and realize no one is perfect. You only like her for how she makes you feel. You /think/ she is perfect. Either realize that you're being an asshat to yourself, your girlfriend AND that girl, or drop her as a friend so you can forget about your stupidity and not jeopardize your relationship.

>>25323670
There needs no elaboration, friend.

>>25323638
Honesty is the best policy. If this is not something that's going to go away in a few days then you should tell them both. Sounds like you have time to choose so I wouldn't choose right away. You can end up without a girlfriend and without a friend, but if it really is eating you up inside then do it

I love this girl, she's everything I want in a woman except for one thing. She is big and that bothers me. I wish it didn't because I love her so much and I hate myself because she is the first person I have cared about in my whole life. I've obviously hurt her because of this, many times. I think she's had enough but it still haunts me.

I've never had a 4chan hookup.

I would've liked to, but there's literally not one attractive poster from my country, nevermind city.

>>25324022
This is a secret? Like 99% of people here haven't had one. Stop looking for a pity fuck.

>in a relationship
>she is my first girlfirend that took all my first times from me
>i adore her to death
>she has alot of experience already
>often think about what could be if i were to break up with her
>get mad at myself that i didnt gather experience beforehand
>get jealous alot of times
>love her but also regrett instantly hopping onto a relationship not "living" a little
i really do love her but my curiosity is killing me

>>25323128

Why would you just have 10 grand in the bank? Put it into bonds or a stock ISA.

>>25322809
I'm Still in love with the girl who I pushed away. I joined the army, and now I can't stop thinking about her.

I was selfish, didn't think she'd leave me like that. I can't help myself. It hurts so bad to see her dating my best friend now.

I'm so jealous.

>>25324022
It's not even that great. Meet some real people.

>>25324022
>tfw my best fuck has been with someone from 4chan

>Been a whore more or less since I was 12, due to different reasons. (15 is legal here).
>Probably Daddy Issues
>Given up on the thought of ever finding a mate in life, or having kids.
>Sorta mentally retarded on paper (openly known)
>Turned 22 today, yay.

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I sneak out every night with little to no clothes on in my back garden with all the neighbours houses around and I take picture requests for older guys and I can't stop myself but it feels so good and embarrassing

I'm in love with my boyfriend. So in love with him. I want to tell him but I'm worried that it's too early since we've been dating for only a month or so. I know it's not a big problem like everyone else's, but I still wanted to share

Finally convince my wife to fuck our Shepherd, she didn't knot with it, and said she wasn't too keen on trying again, although she liked it. I'm going to try and get her drunk and horny and see if it'll knot her this time. Will also try to record/take pictures.

>>25324577
Happy birthday anon. I 1st least hope you are enjoying yourself/being a whore. It can be fun.

>>25324328
Don't put it all into stock or bonds, the market is volatile and they aren't as inversely correlated as brokers would have you believe.

Put some in stock, some in index funds, and keep about 30-40% in a higher interest account like money market or a municipal bond if you don't need the money any time soon and have an emergency fund.

>>25324577
Happy bday slut :)
May you have a good cocksucking day.

>>25324750
Thank you.
Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't, and sometimes I couldn't care less.

>>25324803
Thanks.

>>25324703
My man... :)

Trying to find a sexting partner for last 2 months. Not that big of a secret but hey, no one knows about this.

>>25325427
It's taking you 2 months? Holy shit.

>>25324487
You're welcome.

A year ago (almost to the day) my high school sweetheart/love of my life and I saw each other for the first time in about a decade. She was passing through the town I now live in and asked if I was free. Against my better judgement, I invited her to my apartment. She planned ahead and brought me beer from her new town and we had a few drinks together for the first time in our history. The conversation was though provoking, meaningful, and incredibly sweet. She somehow looked better than she had when she was in her late teens. We slept with each other and it was, for lack of a better term, beautiful. I slept better that night than I have in ages. We woke up the next morning; she showered, I made coffee. We sat cross-legged on the couch sipping coffee and she was gushing about how incredible the night before had been. We hugged and kissed and kissed and kissed before she left. She was crying as I lead her out to her car. She drove off and I cried because I was finally complete again.

I would have offered for her to stay longer, but it was awkward when her fiance had called shortly after she arrived to make sure she was doing okay. It would have been more awkward had my gf returned home from her trip to find a strange woman sleeping in our bed. In the following 2 weeks, my highschool sweetheart broke her engagement with her fiance and my gf and I discussed breaking up and moving on. My highschool sweetheart and I were sure this was our time to be together and discussed it heavily. A month later my gf and I were making other plans (still living together, mind you) and I found out my highschool sweetheart had gotten back together fiance and moved up their wedding to my fucking birthday.

I am a growing exhibitionist. At first it was a curious nudeness in the back yard, although I have become more and more brave about going out. One of my most memorable experience of last year(when I started) was when I went into a pool about a block away from where I live. I enjoyed the cold water on me as I never had before. I had gotten really excited then, and went into the driveway where there was a camera and a motion sensitive light, and laying down in clear view of it, masturbating to the point of completion, where my cum went about a foot high and landed back on me. The walk back home was the most embarrassing, easily my favorite moment.

>>25322830
YANA

When my bf goes to sleep I go on omegle and play with my pussy for random dudes

When my bf goes to sleep I go on omegle and play with my pussy for random dudes

I am not really sure what is wrong me


Am I sad? I dont think so, am I depressed? I'm not sure, I feel I have been depressed before, and it doesnt feel the same.

I am alone, and I think it will be this way forever, mostly because I will never

I like to think I am decent looking, I'm not fat, have hair and full beard, almost 6' tall and not a micropenis


I suffer from social aniexty, and it is getting worse. Growing up, I had a family member suffer the same thing, and my family always told me to not be like that, even though I related to him so much, we are best firends, and though we dont talk as much, he knows I love him and vice versa.


I have my own apartment, my roomate sucks, constant fights with his gf where he sounds like a manchild.

I have a job that makes money, but I feel my life has halted, and this is it. I dont see how I will ever overcome this, I graduated college but I cant go take to a counsler to apply for graduation ffs.

Most look at me normal I imagine, in reality I am a 25 yo virgin who have never had any romantic occurrences, I rock my head when I sleep, and forever alone, at least I feel that way.


But I'm not sad about it? The only thing that makes me sad is that I will stay stagnent while my parents wither away, and once they are gone, my social aniexty will cause me to kill myself. I hope to find a way to beat it

>>25326147
Try*

Curiosity got the better of me one day and I decided to watch some animal porn and now even the sight of a dog gives me a whole lot of thoughts.. has anyone had any animal experiences? Would love to know how you approached it and what it was like.
If interested kik - elliott182

>>25326147
I've learnt that the older you get, the more that anxiety is diminished. I'm not talking older in terms of years, but in terms of experiences.

Here's what I feel has helped me so far.
Do more things, anything. Say yes to life. Friend asks you to go to a tattoo convention then go.
Don't stay in the corner all alone, interact. The more you interact, the easier it gets.
Increase your testosterone. Increasing your testosterone gives you that magic "no fucks given power". Eat right, exercise enough, sleep enough, and supplement if needed (zinc,iron).
Try to avoid the shitty temporary feel goods (alcohol, drugs, sweets, vidya, tv)
STOP WATCHING PORN AND MASTURBATING EVERY 3 HOURS. really, that shit fucks with your brain more than you think.

This is all from experience. Turn cruise control off and you're going to be surprised at how much you can change in a short time.

Ohh and I forgot, look for the clues. If she laughs at your shitty jokes way too much, she likes you. If she looks at you and brushes her hair, she likes you. Cut your hair, buy some Jcrew shit, don't be fat, and be ready to fuck up because it will happen.

>>25323379
Literally just trying to justify your own cheating, he probably has something called borderline personality disorder and the closeness that he believes you have actually damages him, tell him to get therapy as his behaviour has caused you damage, do this after going back to your parents place, if he cares about you then he won't do anything, if he loves you he'll be extremely hurt and will try to contact you a bit but will leave you alone if you tell him to, if not then threaten police action against him, he won't understand that his behaviour has caused you to feel trapped and it's best he doesn't know you've acted out and cheated on him. He will then have to deal with the harsh reality that his behaviour, even if it's not "his fault" as such, has caused him to lose you, emotionally and physically, he will have to seek therapy (tell him that he probably has bpd which is why he behaves this way, but only do this when you are physically safe and not able to be harmed in case he is actually just a psycho), then if he cares he will seek therapy, maybe after a few months get in contact with him again and you might both be able to help each other get through it. If he's stuck with you for 6 years, and yes, he probably does suspect you've cheated etc, then it's because he loves you, give yourself and him a better life and end this now.

I've had this exact same shit recently, turns out I had trapped my ex girlfriend and not even realised that's how she felt, she seemed happy most of the time and that's because she often was, but when I had let's say an "episode" and then later either forgot or didn't really understand what I'd done, she thought I was gaslighting her, this all led to her feeling extremely used and abused and I just can't let this happen again.

I don't know what made me do it, but I've had 3 or 4 gay hook-ups and I regret it. I don't even like it that much, I just like the thrill. I know it's a meme to say no homo, it's just I'm too weird to pull chicks.

>>25326110
Ebin

Instead u should post here tho, sbt or sma or some shit

>>25324583
Show us some pics, slut

>>25326235
>>25326235
>>25326235
Btw sorry I started off this post angry cos of your posts about cheating, but then quickly realised there was much more of an underlying problem here. Also if a borderline personality disorder person knows you've cheated it won't mean they want you to leave or just end the relationship, there's basically no correlation, their actions aren't easy to figure out and can seem random, e.g. i basically once felt some incredibly strong feeling of abandonment just cos my gf left the room and couldn't deal with that pain (she'd gone to the kitchen lol), that is no way for anyone to live and either he means to abuse you and you need to get out, or he doesn't and the situation is still awful and you still need to, there is a way to handle this! It might be possible he gets help and can fix himself/his behaviour, and you can do, then maybe one day you could get back together, but you shouldn't be together now

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>Found out why I've been having a hard time with life lately and dealing with certain things
>Its this place and my addiction to 4chan holding me back
>We are not benefiting from this experience at all, it is like a prison and I just keep coming back
>Rough night you can say and a lot of thinking has been going on...

I have a very naughty secret, heehee

>>25323117
Dude, me too. I'm just addicted to seeing who's real/catfishing prostitutes though...

>>25323916
Then go to /fit/. Tell her you want to get healthier and you'd like it if she did it with you to help keep you motivated.

I have never fapped in my life.

I regularly fantasize about being raped ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

>>25326937
Is it really rape if you want it though? Doesn't that just become rough, aggressive sex?

I don't think I have a secret. Everyone knows I'm suicidal. They think I have secrets, though, so I guess my secret is... that I have no secret! When people ask if I have secrets, I say, "Of course I do," but when I really think about it... Everything about my life, at least the people closest to me know. I had an awkward sexual experience with my same-gender cousin that sorta scarred me, but wasn't rape. It was really confusing figuring out that I'm bi due to that experience, but that is well-known around the people that I speak with often.

>>25326943
idk it's this weird inbetween. I guess it's consenual cause I want it but in my fantasies it's more of a stranger just taking me without asking. Which could definitely be argued as rape since there's no consent beforehand. Brains are weird, yo.

>>25326951
Yup. I'm just curious because I've heard of rape fantasies before, but never really understood exactly how it works

In high school, I got a thrill from toying with guys, especially the ones who liked me. I flirted, teased them, and made them think I was interested in them. It always ended with me rejecting and ignoring them once they mustered up the courage to ask me out. I found it especially thrilling when they had girlfriends. Just the fact that I could destroy his relationship was exciting to me. I had a lot of guys wrapped around my finger, just waiting for me to finally give them what they wanted.
I eventually got bored of it and stopped by the time I graduated. I know it was a shitty thing to do but I can't bring myself to feel bad or guilty about it at all. It was just something to keep me occupied.

>>25326992
Yeah I mean if it actually happened it would be fucking traumatizing and I wouldn't hesitate to put his ass in jail for 20 years. But as far as a purely fictional fantasy, it's nice to think about I guess

I serve any man I meet so I can be enjoyed by all. I believe men should be served and women should be dominated.

I wonder if I'd still be gay if I wasn't beta

>>25326951
>>25326992


Look up consensual non-consent.

>>25327005
You're such a scandalous whore. Very strategic scandalous whore as well

>>25327090
this is b8 but this is how things should be tbqh

>>25327005
It's fair. I did the same thing to girls, just flirted literally all the time, sometines swapped pics, teased about kissing and maybe more, and then purposefully never followed through. I love the thrill of flirting and exploring the other person, but didn't want attachment

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I really want a trap for a bf but I'm afraid to talk to them because I am a big dark giant of a woman. I had one for a long time but we didn't click all that well. I guess I'll just bury myself in work and projects.

>>25327274
Try your luck. Quite a few of them have a mammy fetish, at least according to FetLife.

>>25323140
Whats your snapchat ?

>>25322809
Posted so much good content for you fucking chucks and I don't get nearly enough recognition as I deserve

>>25328002
What content?

>>25322809
It seriously feels good to cross my legs & squeeze my junk. Does anyone else have the same feeling?

>>25326930
WTF, everyone fapps. M or F?

>>25326236
Did you top/bottom? It's normal dude, don't worry about it.

I post in the male chubby thread knowing it's full of guys but just pretend it's all women for cheap validation. I feel pathetic.

>>25328053
Become a tranny. All the cool kids are doing it.

I'm starting to think that I'm going to die alone. I'm 28 years old, still a virgin, and have never been in a relationship. The loneliness really getting to me.

i have attempted suicide 4 times on different occasions and i know i can just end it easily whenever i want as i have a gun in a box stashed away in my closet, my depression and anxiety always has me to go pick it up but im too much of a bitch to do anything

Last night I got drunk with my bf and a few friends. Two different couples were fighting over who should get to have a threesome of foursome with me. Nothing ended up happening, but it sure was a confidence boost that so many people think I'm that attractive.

>>25327274
post tits

>>25322809
I'm good with women, and all my friends comment on the attention I get, for not being that attractive.

They don't know I'm a virgin

My older brother wants to fuck my mom. He is like 30 now.

I secretly hate all of my friends, even though they have done nothing wrong to me.

>>25329606
Post kik

I have a girlfriend but I'm dying to fuck a friend of mine.

I don't have feeling for her or anything I just wanna eat her all and give her a good pounding

>>25328785
Stop being a little bitch.
Think of it like this, would you ever go sailing with a shitty captain on a shitty boat? That's how women think, your girlfriend is going to be your first mate. Nobody wants to be on a shitty boat owned by a shitty captain.

I'm 21 years of age and since 19 I've been a male escort, I've not had one enjoyable sexual activity in my life and I only seek suicide at this point.

>>25329606
which one did u want to hook up with ? why?

I seriously want a really, really professional makeover so I can actually be attractive for once. I'm that desperate.

>>25330078
ever have women customers?

>>25330100
No, I was in talks with this one women though but she lived too far away for the short noticed meet she wanted. A common theme with my escort work is clients that want to meet but live too far away.
I mainly get old guys that want a hj/grope. Have sucked a few guys off before but the rancid taste just gets to unbearable for me.

>>25330128
how much do u make? are there any that u look forward to seeing?

>>25329896
Why do you want my kik?

>>25330083
I don't want to disclose too much info, but one of the couples I find more attractive. Especially the girl. So I would've gone with them if something had happened.

>>25330142
what did bf think? have u done this before?

>>25330135
I charge a 150 dollars an hour, a low price I know but surprisingly I get some people calling up asking for "friend rates" ofcourse I refuse such cheap clientele. As for clients I look forward to seeing there's a couple like this one guy who pays me just to piss on him or sit on his face, I also like this rich old alcholic guy who supplies me with lots of booze and mainly talks to me or just has me gliding my ass against his cock with no insertion. I'm looking forward to next Tuesday's client, a guy paying me 300 dollars to tie my legs and arms up and then take a video of me "struggling" to get loose from the rope.

>>25330152
He wanted to watch me with the girl I find more attractive. We as a couple have never done anything like that, but before I started dating him there was one time where I had sex with a guy and two girls.

>>25330175
how was the mfff and what did you do with them? did u cum? what did you want to do with the more attractive one?

I hate my body. I hate my gender. I'm stuck here in a place that doesn't except homosexuals much less someone wish they were born different. The worst part of it is, I'm a good actor. People think I'm happy, and that I am what I say I am. I even dated just to keep up the act, and had sex when I had too. I hate who I am.

>>25330170
sounds like you're gonna get raped . good weekend plan! do they taste different?

I have a fantasy of being paid for sex.
I masturbate to cp.
I wish I could try all white cocks, but I'm married to a Mexican. I've cheated on him with 2 men, white cock was the best.
I'm a fucking pervert and a whore.

>>25330189
Hopefully I won't be, it's taking place in a busy town centres hotel so there should be some hopefully near bye who could hear if things go awry. I've sucked around 7 cocks since I began and only 2 had district tastes one which was kinda salty and another which tasted like a gross onion which I wasn't able to suck for more than a few seconds before dry heaving and explaining I can't suck such a horrible tasting, phimosis having, revolting cock.

I know my ex bf was cheating on me the whole time we were together but I was in denial, loved him so much and thinking he'd change eventually but he didn't. Now I'm getting with someone else and starting to feel happy again my ex is showing renorse. Part of of me wants to get back with him but I know he won't change and the new guy is awesome.

>>25330240

Ever stop to think why he cheated on you? Was he a shitty person or did you just not give him what he needed?

>>25330242
It was a LDR and I tried to give everything I could. It's tough being in different continents but we had plans to meet.

>>25322809
I sometimes shit in my own hand just because I like the way it feels and smells

I am a girl

>>25330240
>>25330247
As a guy who has been on the "cheating" end of this, the fact that he's coming back means that something seriously made him reevaluate things in life. If it was LDR, maybe he didn't take it as seriously as you until you could actually meet. Its hard to judge a relationship before that happens. Depending on how long this went on, wouldnt it be a big waste to not meet after waiting so long in a LDR? Since you yourself said you were in denial it sounds like you two didn't communicate well.

Also about the new guy, he's new and different. Every new relationship will feel like that after you "get out" of something.

I also want you to take notice, you said you loved him. Did you at least talk to him about the cheating and resolve it? Maybe there's a reason and love, if its there, would be worth having the conversation. Especially considering the communication issues that likely lead to this. It does mean that there's something there, if he's coming back to try to fix things AND being honest with you now. Maybe its remorse, but maybe its actually love and this guy know he fucked up. Really bad. And he's sorry and just wants to make it right.


But what do I know. I'm just a 4chan loner in the wrong thread. Good luck anon

I hate the fact that I'm gay, that I have actual anxiety issues telling people still even though i've been out for like 6 years, and it's depressing have 0 chubby gay guys near me since I'm stupidly picky (not by choice)

Shitty/dumb reasons to be bent over about, but it's been messin with me more than usual lately.

>>25330293
I always insisted in communication, that's all we had due to distance. I didn't ask directly but he was always vague when I expressed concerns. He has history of cheating in the past but told me he was willing to change and I believed. I've been called dumb from my friends because of that. Deep down I think he never believed we'd meet.

While he was ghosting me (probably flirting with others) I've met this new guy but kept being friendly. He knew what I was going through and was being supportive at first but then told me about his feelings later. I still kept him as a friend and kept trying to work things out with my ex until I caught him hooking up with someone online and I completely flipped.

I don't think it's love or if it ever was, there's someone else in his past he couldn't get over but maybe he knows I'm starting to move on and he's losing his orbiter. I did what I could to leave the communication channel open but every time he hurt me I walked away because I couldn't deal even knowing what was going on.

Thank you anon, I appreciate your words and wish you the best.

>>25330293
I guess I'll post my story so poster I replied to can get some insight into what the guy may have been thinking.

I met a girl online. It quickly became intense and we talkes every day. I was happy. She seemed happy. Then life started keeping me busier. That made her unhappy. I started to feel pushed away in a weird way with how she had normal conversations with me less and less. Eventually it was purely sexual. Almost every day. I have never been a very sexual person and lost my V pretty late, but I had enough experience to not freak out over seeing nudes. I obviously was into this girl but it made me less into it because she was getting so pushy. I felt like all connection between us was lost and she only held on to the sexual part. We were also LDR and waiting to meet for about a year. I started meeting girls on tinder. Not many, but a handful and non amounted to anything. A few dates. One I went on a hike with. Most were platonic. One got close to romantic but she had baggage and didnt want to wrap me up in it so bailed. Regardless, I still told this LDR girl that I wasn't cheating because I knew I would want to be with her eventually. Just at the time life was stressful and I wanted somebody to be my friend. She wasnt giving me that. I just needed to hold on until we could meet and I was sure the friendship part would rekindle. But I was impatient. I only tried to talk to her about it like twice, she took off her clothes and dismissed it asking me why I wasnt interested anymore. She didnt see that I needed a mental connection and was struggling to maintain it. Struggling to maintain this whole thing so that we could meet. I was also on a different continent.(really ironic some of these coincidences...)
Anyway, that's the setup. Then something happened really bad in my life. Somewhat my fault and somewhat related to the behavior that developed because of my relationship with her.

(1/2)

i have terrible impulse control and usually end up cheating in my relationships. i have a day or two that i feel bad but then i get over it. i accept the consenquences but i've been caught like once

>>25322820
me too

>>25330361
Continued..

I ended up in an extremely bad place for several months. I reached out to her for support and at that point there was no trust between us and she left me to deal with it alone. And I did. When I got out of that hole, I reached out to her again and tried to come clean with everything that happened but she wasnt interested in hearing it. She ostricised me completely and didnt even give me a chance to speak. And its really sad because all I want to say is that I love her. And hoping to get to tell her that one day is what got me through.

So, >>25330247
my advice to you is give the guy a clean shot to say what he needs. And really listen to him. Cheating is bad. But a cheater doesn't come clean. Something LDR is really easy to let go and maybe he didnt realize what he felt until it was too late. I know I didnt...

>>25330348
This second post does make it sound different from what I did, other than meeting. Deep down I knew we wouldnt meet. And that's what's happened now.
He sounds like he had a sidebitch... Not just a few casual dates while waiting to meet. That sounds like a cheater, not a guy who cheated.

>>25330361
>>25330380
I always tried to listen as I said here >>25330348 I think I was too much actually. Always felt annoyed with the fact of being so pushy and trying to reconnect with him. We're both going through some rough period but I thought we were a team, working together and pushing each other to improve.

I've tried. Last time we talked he was going to sleep and I said "I love you" he replied with "good night". Then I just started to get distant but still hopeful until I saw him flirting online.

Do you still have ways to contact her? Or is it over for you now?

>>25330390
Yeah I guess once a cheater always a cheater. That's why I think he didn't love me, he's just missing the attention I used to give him. If I get back, he'll keep doing it.

>>25330403
Thats sad... I always hated when people replied to something like "I love you" with just goodnight when they do it because they know it hurts you. I'm sorry you had to deal with that. I guess the new guy is awesome. Lol

And no. She blocked me on everything when I tried to come clean. She changed her phone number months ago when I was neck deep in the shit, literally considering suicide. Her doing that didnt help. She completely ditched me for being honest and never let me explain myself. Now theres nothing I can do but hope she changes her mind..

>>25330424
I feel sorry too. Wish I wasn't baited like that but it's life. I'm getting to know the new guy better, we're not dating yet but we got closer and I'm enjoying the time we spent together.

I got him blocked as well. Said I don't want to hear from him anymore and hope he had fun with the traps he's been hooking up with.

It's bad that we can get really angry and hurt we shut down completely. I'm sorry you had to get through all of this. And like me, had communication issues. Being sexual is also something that kept us together for a while but even that he lost interest, makes sense him having a side bitch but I guess he was also afraid of ditching me.

>>25330454
Do you want to talk about this some more and not load up this thread?

>>25330475
Sure where should I contact you?

>>25330575
Whatever works for you. Skype or kik?

>>25330611
Kik is better.

I once poked holes in my condoms and had sex with my ex who cheated on me and had her convinced she got pregnant from the bitch boy she cheated on me with and so far she's bearing my child and she doesn't know it yet

>>25330618
I have a breeding fetish but I don't want kids.

I recently lost my virginity to a prostitute.

>>25331583
Good or bad?

I wanna kill myself, but can't afford materials to do it in a nonpainful way

>>25331797
What you lack is imagination.

>>25331816
Fair point

>>25325588
Well, don't no where to exactly look, been trying 4chan and reddit but no luck so far

I've cooked myself food and desserts using my breast milk. People have eaten it. In my defence they didn't ask for some of my food, they ate it without my consent.
I just prefer the taste of my own milk over cows milk or plant based milk, so why not use and enjoy it?

>>25332316
I would love to cum on food for my SO to eat

I'm an ephebophile, i generally try to stay away from my little brothers female friends. But honestly i find them really sexually attractive. I hate it.

I'm a white male but only get off to black male white female interracial porn

Cheating on my girlfriend turns me on. Add me on sc sambo975

6.4ft, English. Like a good chat to some girls ;)

>>25332321
My husband has that exact fetish. He has a lot of interesting food based fetishes

>>25332398
I used to have a thing with my ex about me cumming in her tea/coffee before she drink it. Never actually got to try it out but it's too late now. Miss her.

I love ruining peoples relationships, already did like 4 time, once to a close friend, I don't know why I do it, probably because I really envy those people.

>>25323148
weirdly, I have two friends in the same position. I guess it's a lot more common than you'd think.

By the time he's old enough to accidentally come across them? those pics will be old, considered low quality, and completely unidentifiable as you now. there are nudes of me out there from when I was underage, but I'm pretty sure nobody is sharing or fapping to those blurry 640x480 images anymore.

>My secret: one time my moms friend tried to fonger me in the back of my moms car

>>25332331
Literally any straight guy dude. Everyone thinks about it but doesn't talk about it due to them not wanting to be in jail and a social pariah. Even though 16 year olds are physically sexually mature.

Ephebophilia isn't uncommon in the slightest, it's just never admitted to.

>>25323694
Yeah, you're right, because you're clearly just throwing an insult at me for the sake of insulting. Fuck off troll

>>25327041
I think. It's woman have this fantasy because it's how things used to happen between men and women. Also the fact that you are sexy enough for a man to spend years of his life in jail just for a piece might have something to do with it. I bet in your fantasy the guy is probably attractive.

Was accused of rape by crazy bitch, escaped the country before she could do anything about it. Long story, won't post unless there's interest.

I didn't know how I'd feel about being in an FWB situation with my best friend but I'm actually enjoying it. I do miss the emotional intimacy of a regular relationship but it's still plenty of fun.

He's in love with my blowjobs and that's a huge ego boost for me since I hadn't had any sex since I broke up with my ex two years ago. I told him that was my favorite part of the whole thing and I would replay the sessions in my head over and over. I thought it was cute that he got excited and said "Me too! God it was amazing" idk it's just a relief to be around someone who's accepting of how shy I am with intimacy at first.

Worried about how things will turn out but I'd like to try to think of it as two very close friends that want to do things to make each other feel good.

He flips all the right switches for me. It's a shame that we could never date.

Once when my little sister's ugly little friend came over...she snuck into my room when she thought I was a sleep and started sucking my dick.


I made her continue and fingerbanged her at the same time. Could barely get a finger in her. I unloaded in her mouth and she swallowed. She came and started shuddering.
Ugly little cunt passed out.
I carried her into my little sister's room and laid her on her air mattress on the floor and left her there. I kissed her on the forehead and walked out.

Havent had sex in over 15 years.
Incredibly shy and have anxiety, but I can't drink. (Medication conflict) Also borderline autistic.
As a child my father fucked me, made me suck his and his friends dick, took pictures, and I'm still working on leting it go.
Dont have a job and can't really work because of some disorders.
I have clinical depression.
I live in my sisters basement, and I will be 34 this October.

>>25323164
Can you grow facial hair? It can bring attention away from your baldness if you keep your facial hair well groomed

>>25333041
No, you're just a raging faggot and probably still in high school. Fuck off nerd

>>25323617
The loss of diversity would be bad for humankind in general. Just satisfy yourself with knowledge of the inevitable death of purity. There won't be any "black" people after enough time, as crossbreeding will destroy the traits you hate as you know them today.

>>25333659

Obligatory
>blacks
>humans

>>25323116

If you don't show the emotion your feeling how do you expect people to comfort you?

>>25323174
>
I made a bigger girl slit her thighs for me just for laughs. Blocked her after she sent it. Didn;t give her my real anme or anything but we talked for months.
How did you get her to do it? Do you feel bad?

>>25333568
>Resorting to calling others kid.

Troll better

Non-sexual secret:
When I was a kid I sprayed an entire can of mace in the house while I was home alone, and my family was dumb enough to think it was a gas leak. My sister carried around the empty mace can for "self defense" for a long time after that and if she'd been assaulted and tried to use it, it might have gone pretty badly. They never found out but I feel pretty bad about making the entire family panic about a gas leak because I didn't want to admit it.

Sexual secret:
I usually develop fetishes based on seeing it in a picture/porn or something, but for over a year now I've had a pretty strong fetish for girls with strapons and pegging, but woman-on-man strapon porn is disgusting and the girl on girl stuff is all "pro" porn and pro porn is boring. So I have no idea why I've got such a strange fascination with getting fucked by a woman. I haven't told anybody I know for a few reasons, one being that not many women are into it, and the other being that most of the women that are into it are also into cuckold shit, and cuckold is the stupidest fetish ever created.

In short I'm having been having an affair with my boss. Juicy details are as follows.
>work at hotel
>been having an affair with assistant manager.
>fuck at work whenever we have the chance.
>new thing we've been doing is remote vibrator in her pussy at work.
>basically she has to carry around this buzzer thing so that whenever a guest needs her or me, we hear the buzz and know that there is someone at the desk
>see where this is going
>I convinced her to put it in her panties at work. So where the buzzer is pressed, wherever she is in the building, she gets some stimulation.
>last week she went to the break room to grab a drink. I pressed that buzzer so much she came.
>spent the rest of the shift dealing with customers while she dealt with the mess
>worth it

>>25322820
I feel the same. Really don't know how to deal with it.

>>25334603
I've actually made a little bit of progress. I stopped masturbating and looking at porn. I feel like my mental health has improved a tad.

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I'm 20 years old and throughout my teenage years I have always thought I was bisexual but recently I came to the conclusion that think I'm just 100% gay. Also I'm joining the army in two weeks and I'm afraid of popping a boner while in the showers. But I also can't wait to see other guys dicks...help me.

My friends A and B broke up recently and I've been feeling very conflicted. I've been trying to help A be able to move on and not regret the choice she made, because B cheated on her. B hasn't hardly talked to me outside of accusing me of convincing her to break up with him. It's not the first time, but it's never been true. This time B accused me of going for the rebound and it made me extremely angry. I thought about it and I feel like maybe somewhere along the line it wasn't entirely that I wanted A to be able to get over B, but that I could be the one to share happy moments with A. I feel annoyed at myself for letting that happen and maybe it's because I recently got rejected by two girls on the same day (it's complicated). Either way, I don't want her to get back together with him, partly for her sake but partly for my own selfish reasons. I worry that he'll try to get back together with her on her birthday in a few days or that she'll try to stay friends and it'll go back to how it was because she wants to invite him to a con she paid a ticket for before they broke up. I'm angry at myself for what I'm feeling, but ultimately I want her to be able to stand on her own two feet.

I guess ultimately I really just don't what I should do and am angry at myself. What B said to me is bothering me a lot.

>>25334164
>responding to me without a comeback

Stop wasting my time

About three years ago I was forced to change schools because for the past two months I was being attacked by kids from a drug gang in my area. I was forced to defend myself multiple times and stabbed on 16 separate occasions. I kept this all a secret from my family and the police by preforming the stitching and other medical procedures myself in the comfort of my car. One day, after I switched schools I was walking home from work around 11pm when one of the guys I had left the school jumped me. He shoved me to the ground and pulled a gun, he told me that he was on his way to kill my family and if I tried anything he'd make me watch. I sat there with tears in my eyes as he pulled the hammer back and told me to prepare to die. As I braced myself for the pain to come he suddenly started to laugh and tucked the gun saying "I'm not letting you off that easy" and told me to run. I did, but not far, I had had enough of this constant fear so I trailed him into his neighbor hood were I ran up behind him and kicked him as hard as I could in the back of the legs, he fell to the ground screaming but before he could call for help I pulled the gun from his waistband and shot him 8 times. He died on the scene and when the cops came I explained what happened. There was a lot of court hearings and I was let off without any charges as I was defending my family. Only me, my family, and those police involved know. So when kids at my new school (which is much nicer than my old one) joke about how I never want to fight I always wonder what they would think if they knew they were talking to a killer.

>>25335393
You will be so fucking tired and rushed, you wont have time for boners until you deploy. Then you can find other faggots to suck off.

>>25335759
Good for u bro

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I'm 28 and married to a wonderful woman. We haven't had children yet but are looking to start soon. I'm terrified of having a baby with any kind of birth defects. If our child would be developmentally challenged in any way, I secretly hope that it would die rather than take my entire life away from me to raise it.

I am currently dating a woman I have no desire to be with. I shouldn't have ever gone on the first date because the thing that currently bothers me the least about her was the fact that she's 38, while I am currently 27. I'm not against couples that are together that have large age gaps but I myself and rather uncomfortable. So, here's how it started, I was in the middle of deleting dating apps and profiles across the board because they were destroying my confidence and producing zero results, so I had decided to commit to just living my life and letting whatever happens just come. I wen't to delete the very last profile when I had noticed a message. I read it and saw her profile. 38 years old, I should've stopped there but I let the facts that A. She's pretty and B. I had not fully come down from desperation mode, lead me to message her back and arrange a date. Went to a movie and she is completely all over me and I let it happen and even go along with it, after all she is pretty. We go back to my place for sexy times and it just starts. I decide that whatever I'll just have some fun for a while, bad call. As I let this charade continue I'm learning things about her that make this situation worse and it happens every time I see/talk to her. I've learned of a whole mess life problems. She has a kid (which I knew about but didn't mind) and this kid is like a catalyst for every problem in her life. Starting with her dead husband, a military pilot who committed suicide suffering from PTSD, she drops this one on me the very first date AFTER we had sex, and ever time we've gotten together since she has dropped something new and heavy on me concerning him. Stories of grotesque suicide attempts, PTSD meltdowns, etc. Every time it's a new story. Then there is her abusive mother, whom she and her child live with. According to her she calls her a slut, tells her she's useless and that no one likes her, very awful things, if true I truly feel bad for her.

>>continued.....

>>25335876
However, every time she has an issue with her mother she calls me, in tears, talking of suicide and just wanting to end it. This is multiple time a week and while she's visiting. I have had 0 interactions with this woman that has not lead to drama. There are other things she tells me constantly that lay on the drama and problems this woman has dealt with and if they're true ( I have no reason to doubt her but I'm only getting one side of the story, from someone who even if they're not true has some emotional and perhaps mental problems) I just want to break it off with her and I need to sack up and just tell her but this woman is so emotionally unstable that I just don't know what to do. The thing that makes this the hardest and perhaps the worst thing about this is that on the second date and every other second since she says "I love you." I can't even comprehend this emotion towards her and yet she is ready for whatever. I could ask her to marry me today and she's be ready to. In the back of my mind I'm seriously worried she may commit suicide if I break it off. If her life is really as bad as she says and she already truly has those thoughts now, then it's not out of the realm of possibility. Can I deal with that? I just want out. I'm a coward and I care too much about other people. I need help getting past this, I need a solid out for myself, I've even considered getting back on dating sites to find someone I even think I have a remote chance of hooking up with long enough to tell her I've found someone else. I'm equally about as fucked in the head in some sense but I feel in much less significant way.

Pretended I was alright tonight even though I told myself that if I couldn't go to the bar and pick up a chick I would kill myself.


I didn't pick up anyone, now I've gotten a ride home from my parents and I feel like shit.

>>25335996
That is just plain stupid, got any other meaningful aspirations in life?

>>25326449
Go to bed, J.T.

>>25326930
Don't start

>>25330207
Too good for pepperoni or sausage pizza??

>>25335736
>Do you know who I am peasant?!?!

I'm a satyr and it gets more uncontrollable every month. I keep getting into new sexual fantasies, it always escalates. I'm currently into incest and really want to fuck my mom and two of my close cousins.

>>25329624
>post tits
You first, boyo.

I secretly masturbate to nudes of my girlfriends best friend who's a pornstar.

>>25333432
My secret is that I'd still fuck this woman and feel fine about it!

I have a diaper fetish but that's not even the worst part, I got blacklisted by other diaper fetishists for being an autist on fetlife. So now I'm blackballed by the community and I can't go to events or conventions or anything.

I don't really mind because they're all mentally insane freaks for the most part but I'm basically a reject by the rejects of the sexual world.

>>25330207
Fucking hot
Kik: secretsthrowaway
If you want to talk

When I was a kid my mom overdosed on prescription meds (pretty sure it was accidental, there was a bad mix with two of them that docs didn't really warn her about).

Anyway, the sight of her still blue body hunched over in the bathtub is what I picture to not cum when having sex. It is literally the only thing that works.

>>25336819
>secretly

>>25337886
Jesus fuck

I think I found a guy that I won't cheat on and I could trust completely.. I even won't do cam or go on soc actually.

Too bad, he's in the UK.

>>25337921

Been in a similar situation. It sucks.

>>25323116
Are you a teenage girl?

I've downloaded a "Fake Text" app so I can receive a text message every few hours from fictional characters telling me "Keep your head up!" or "What's up? Been thinking of you" because I don't have any friends. When I hear people talk about how "I HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE AROUND ME YET I FEEL SO ALONE" I get genuinely upset because I'd kill to have a bunch of acquaintances that come to me with their problems cause at least then someone would be talking to me. This is my seventth day without a conversation. Over the past few years I've developed some kind of Denationalization Disorder and I often think I'm not real, I'm just someones Tulpa that was forgotten about that so happens to be really advanced. The only person who talks to me was my therapist, then she told me last week she's going to send me to someone else and I haven't heard from her since and that was my last conversation. Last time I got a text from someone that wasn't me I went into the bathroom and cried from relief cause it was some kind of clarity telling me "You exist!"


I had a teacher in grade 4 who really messed me up for some reason. She would go out of her way to prove me wrong especially if I was right, she'd cherry pick articles from google searches to try and prove me wrong. One time someone threw way a whole granola bar and she lost her shit at me saying it was my fault or some shit that kids in Africa are dying. She came into class one day crying and made a joke about "Let's all just sleep for a period lol" then she left and didn't come back for two periods. I remember her and a janitor would hook up and makeout in the hallway in the middle of class. I haven't thought of Miss Soaper in maybe 10 years and now those experiences are all I can think about.

>>25338024
I'm not a very good friend (why I choose to not have many) however, I would message you on Facebooks messenger once in awhile.
Nothing too serious but at least someone to prove your existence for you.

I failed my classes and now I can't transfer but my family still thinks I'm going to another college in the fall because I haven't told them yet.
If I wasn't so shit and fucked in the head, I would have graduated this year. At this point, it's going to take me a total of 7 years.

I'm seriously thinking about just leaving my life and family behind so I don't burden or drain them of money anymore.

Right now, this moment here, is the most lonely, alone, separated, whatever that I have ever felt. Right now I don't feel a connection to any other living thing on this planet. I think the only way people would realize I've gone is by not showing up to work. And then they'd just worry about filling my shift. I'm at the point right now where my destiny is to be found dead in the hotel tub by housekeeping on Monday morning. And I don't know how to get out of it. I don't know how to cope with it. I don't know how to make it better. I'm lost. I'm alone. I'm broken.

hey anthony. im sorry im a total spazz and blocked you out of my life before actually speaking to you and telling you how i was feeling and how you were making me feel. anyway, i miss you. i miss the way you made me feel but most importantly i hope youre doing well and finishing school strong. you deserve all great things.

>>25326951
>>25326943
rape fantasy usually involve yourself playing victim but not knowing when its going to happen or if there going to tie you up or how long they will use you or what holes you have agreed can be used. fyi

never really connected with the 'rents. they are divorced and I don't really talk to one. but the one i do talk to is suicidal and im his basement baby. i wish he would. the insurance he has on himself is incredible. id be set for life. i have a stable job. so i could just make it last.

i'm a lesbian, but i sleep with dudes because i'm so desperate to be loved and seen as sexually appealing by anyone. it's just so much easier to get guys than it is to get girls, and somehow their praise means more to me?

i'm a socially awkward gay guy who despises flamboyant gay people
>>25338076
why not just go community it is cheaper ?
>>25339002
everyone wants love one way or another

I find myself being more and more confused about my sexuality. Like, I feel like in a mindset, I'd rather be a girl, but in a more society kind of way, I'd rather be a boy. idk, crossdressing ain't really helping.

>>25339062
I am going to community college. Even though it's cheaper, I hate the fact that me not graduating this year and I'm still using the family's money. If I could, I would actually pay for it myself.

>>25323128
I had a gambling problem myself. You just need a good alternative I'm life like a hobby. Like working out.

>>25322809
I'm a 21-yr-old handholdless virgin man, but that's hardly a secret. My secret is that part of me is obsessed with the idea of having a relationship and becoming a perfect husband and father, et cetera. My main fetishes are even women showing sexual satisfaction and impregnation.
But the other half of me has realized that I can't even take care of myself, much less a family. I sort of hate myself. More than anything, I want to leave my parents' house and never come back for anything other than Christmas/et cetera. They have been in my life so fucking long that I just want to get away from them. I love my parents, but being in the same house as them is physically exhausting. I also fucking loathe having to deal with my little brother, not because I hate him, but just because I don't want to deal with him constantly looking for my validation.
I know I should be grateful to my parents, but I just don't want to deal with them any more. I wish I could just hand them a check for all of the stuff they've done to me and go away to live my own life. I'm currently living at their house working on an internship before my final year of university. I feel like I would do so much better in life if I didn't feel like they were constantly looking over my shoulder.
Maybe it's me projecting, but I have a computer tower here I haven't set up despite being here a month, and I know exactly why- because I feel like this isn't my home, as I should. My parents ask me to call them every week while I'm at college, and I just want to tell them to get off my fucking back and leave me alone. My mom is concerned about me not getting any dates, but I'm actually not looking very hard. Wanna know why? Because I just fucking know that she's gonna bother me as soon as she finds out I'm going out with someone, and I don't wanna have to deal with that shit.
Basically, at some point I stopped trusting my parents and then figured I couldn't trust anyone else.

23/f

I actively seek married men to have sex with. I've been doing so ever since I had sex with my best friend's dad when I was a teenager.

A few weeks ago I had a threesome with 2 married guys in their 50s after drinking at a bar. The fact that they have a wife and kids at home is such a turn on for me. I know it sounds awful but it takes two (or 3) to tango.

It may be because I've always had daddy issues but I don't dwell on it. I lost my virginity to said friend's dad and since then, I never really had a steady relationship with guys around my age.

I have more in depth stories if anyone is interested.

>>25337865
Who said it was a woman?

>>25339186
My kik is popcock80 pls contact me

>>25339186
As a married guy let me just say, goddamn I wish I knew you!
Although it's be more fun making them, I'm interested in hearing more of your experiences

>>25339186
More stories. Anal or dp?

>>25322809
I enjoy consensual sex in the missionary postition for the purpose of procreation.

>>25339707
Don't forget the firm handshake afterwards for a job well done

>>25338875
Most insurance companys don't cover suicide

When I (M) was 4, used to touch my cousin (6) at family events, under blankets next to rest of family, in private.

One holiday she said she would stop. Over 15 years later, we've never brought it up with each other.

I've spent the last 3 years looking for an old online friend I lost contact with. She was depressed and didn't really have a social media presence because her parents made her delete them. One day she suddenly stopped talking to me. I hope it's because she changed her phone number or something, but I often worry she killed herself. I know I should just move on, but it just bugs me. I still have her number, though not the cash or technical knowledge to know how to track her down based on only that, her first name, one photo, and state she lived in.

The worst part of it is I can't even remember her last name. I know she told me it and that her voicemail mentioned it, but I wasn't a good enough of a friend to remember. If I did, it would have made finding her a whole lot easier.

I fucked my life up dropped out of uni, work a shit ass job, stuck with a bf who thinks i post in these shit ass threads hate my life need to be there for fucking everyone listen to there shit be understanding be around all the fucking time

Stop posting shit, stop reading shit and stop being shit

>>25339935
You could easily fix your life if you just got some fucking english lessons. Jesus christ that made my eyes burn.

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>>25339953

You could easily fix yours too, so instead of going around being a pathetic cunt and a grammar police, how about taking the rope and put that rope around your neck in a nice slip knot fashion then hang yourself off the nearest thing that could take your overburdening weight.

Many thanks.

>>25339935
Meh it's called being lazy and pissed.
My life shit as it is, is still most likely better than yours.

>>25340006
As a white male who makes 100k, with a steady career, i very much doubt that bitch.

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>>25340030
>100k
>shit posts on /soc/
Yeah that really adds up cuck.

>>25340102
Cuck? How does that even remotely make sense, regarding the information you have about me?

Your insult is on the same level as the hobo who called me "four-eyes" last week. Good job!

>>25333852
This I have such a fucking hard time convaying the pain I'm in because growing up all my issues were ignored or made fun of so as an adult I just suffer in silence to the point of mental insanity and it's so fucking hard to open up I'm like a damn about to burst at any second I almost started to cry because I was having a rough day and my niece acted guinenly concerned when I mentioned being stressed out but I had to suck it back up and move along
Hell it doesn't help being betrayed by the few I've opened up to life's a joy ride
Atleast I've got alcohol and weed

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>>25335759
wtf are you me?

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>>25330475
>>25330575
>>25330611
>>25330614
Stop online dating. Get a partner you can touch.

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>>25340109
Well it looks like my random insult hit home, if a random hobo calls you "four-eyes" then surely you look like an utter cuck to be insulted by a lowly hobo.

Thanks for the insight into your life, I have a few suggestions firstly stop projecting your insecurities by saying you're such and such well off, also grow a backbone and don't let someone walk over you especially a hobo.

Have fun cuckle mcfuckle.

I've been thinking about killing myself after my ex stopped talking to me and started dating a guy on another continent who's 100x worse than me in every way.

I still love and miss her so much, even after what she put me through.

when i was little i sucked a dick for like 10 seconds in a christian school bathroom.

I'm sick of my husband, my sex life is unfulfilled. I hate my personality, how I act, who I am, my abilities and my motivation. I was destroyed by an abusive relationship in my teen years and I dont think ill ever recover.

My secret is that I still wake up every day and I dont know why.

>>25330207
honestly curious if person will actually answer on KIK

>>25335913
dude...get the fuck out of that situation asap.those kind of relationships are cancerous for you.she gets someone that she can count everytime a problem come up.you are getting nothing from it.months will pass and you still will be there.Also she might try get pregnant on you or do anything in order to keep if you try to go away from her.so do it quickly and quiet.
in order you didnt get it.break up with her now.not tommorow not today NOW

>>25339186
Willing to hear more stories.
Need kik?

I wish I had access to a gun so I could shoot myself.

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I have been with my boyfriend for over a year and a bit longer now. I thought doing this would help me forget.

But....I still think of my ex boyfriend a lot, despite what he's done to me. He's the worst person I've ever come in contact with in my life. He ruined me psychologically, and messed up my academic record. I have much more anxiety now than I ever did before.

Yet I still love him, and I know that I always will, no matter how twisted or wretched that love might be. There's still a spot in my heart for him that I reserve.

My boyfriend has been amazing to me. But I think I would throw him away if my ex ever wanted me again...even if it'll be 10 years from now.

I feel pathetic. I feel like I'm only using my current boyfriend as a safety net, and the outlet to my loneliness.

>>25340770
That sort of destructive relationship does take time to fade. A long time.

But it does fade. 10 years from now, you won't be thinking of your ex all the time, or be willing to let them back in. But you might still be two or three years from now.

>>25340850
You say that but its been 7 years since my abusive cheating boyfriend and I still dream about getting back with him.>>25340850

>>25340647
just stab yourself lol

>>25340978
Or jump off a building

>>25340863
that's sad, if he's scum as you say you should be repulsed by him. There's no way he's that special, in fact I'd wager he's probably a little bitch

I have dissociative identity disorder and it makes my life completely unmanageable

>>25322809
i've been traumatized because i have a small dick and my whole social status was destroyed publicly.
i hate and fear women. i also hate myself and project the hatred to women.

maciek why

>>25338024
We can chat on discord or something if you need someone to talk to about stuff like breathing and surviving in these mean streets.

Lacey, I wish you would talk to me

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I'm ashamed of my own weak personality. I'm afraid that I'll always be too lazy to get what I want.

I really love kids, and I really want to be a dad, but I completely hate women and I'm scared of ending up in a shitty relationship that ends in divorce just like 99% of adults I've ever met. For this reason I'm trying to make myself much more religious, and I'm going to service weekly plus a weeknight study group and have really integrated myself to this community. But my heart's barely in it, I'll come home from service and smoke weed and watch twerking gifs while listening to religious music, complete hypocrisy.

Seeing big families makes my heart ache, I adore children and love every minute I get to spend with them. I pretty much feel like the only way to get a big family of my own is to secure a very traditional, submissive religious girl, not necessarily a stay at home mom but that kind of personality. There are no examples of successful marriage around me and in my entire life I've only ever met 2 couples who made it through their 40s without getting divorced, I'm not misogynistic because of r9k I'm misogynistic because of real life.

I'm really flip flopping on whether I want to force myself into a strict lifestyle when I'm just not that type of person based on the assumption that it'll help me find an incredibly rare non-garbage woman. Or if I'm introduced to some women through the community will they themselves be secret hypocrites like me, and she'll be the same as any other girl, and I'll end up getting screamed at for stupid shit and sleeping on the couch and divorced like everyone else.

I'm a fairly attractive female. i haven't dated in years after being raped. the though of even having sex makes me uncomfortable and i don't know if/when I'll ever get over it. I've (unsuccessfully) tried dating again but I end up ghosting them and it makes me feel terrible.

>>25338024
I wish I could reach out to you, or have some type of genuine conversation with you. It looks like you might have some great and unexplored thoughts in there that you've never shared, I'd really like to listen up.

>>25341553
I have intimacy anxiety and end up ghosting them because I fear being hurt.

>>25341553
who raped u and what happened? have you had sex since then?

>>25339689
I've had sex with about a dozen married men but I strictly have a thing with guys on the chubbier/huskier side over 40, even though I've done it with married guys around their late 20s early 30s.

I've known my friends dad since I was about 6 years old. I would go over his house all the time to swim or just hang out. I was over there more than my house because I hated being home.

He's always been super involved with our school functions and sports and was a church elder for our church. I was around 12 years old when I had started to have a "crush" on him it was an innocent kid-like crush. He's about 6'4"... a big guy former college football player. A redhead.

One day when I was 13 some of my friends were at his house swimming. Afterwards I was going to sleep over. So i was about to shower immediately after. The garage bathroom was taken by one friend and the first floor bathroom was being used by my best friend. Her mom said I could use the upstairs bathroom to shower so I did. After I took a shower, my friend's dad walked in on me completely naked. I was shocked at first but I immediately was turned by a man looking at me naked. I remember him taking a long look but apologizing saying that he didn't think anyone was in here and shut the door. We didn't tell anyone about that event. I'm pretty sure he did that on purpose though.

I was actually trying to actively put myself in that situation again. There was another time at the end of that summer when the same thing happened after my friend's older brother farewell to college party, so there was a lot more people in the house. I was going to sleep over the house again, and all the bathrooms were occupied. I went ahead and helped myself to the master bathroom, and I noticed that someone was showering in there, and I knew that it was my friend's dad. I waited a few minutes after the water stopped running and I walked in to see him naked as well. It was my first time seeing a naked guy.

>>25342722
Continued...

I also noticed that he was hard. I must of stood there for 5 seconds just awestruck. The thing was that he didn't try to cover up too... he said "excuse me" in a laughing tone and I said that I was sorry and I didnt know anyone was in there. I shut the door and he said "no worries" and that I could take a shower when he was done.

This made me have an intense attraction to him and I would try to make it obvious every time I saw him. It was much later, when we were in the middle of our affair that we talked about that event.

When i got to high school, I got a hold of his phone and we would text every once and a while. He would play along with my advances and say that he would go out with me if he wasn't married... Idk if he was serious but we always had a playful tone when we talked or texted. I would also "mistakingly" send him nudes.

One night during my junior year, he said he said he would help me with college scholarships. That night, it was my friend, myself and him. His wife was in a religious retreat (which is why I made it for that night). He was helping me with this particular scholarship that his family has been giving out for years for $5k (guess who got that scholarship?)

Late into that night, we were working in his study... my friend was asleep in her room. Him and I were talking about my boyfriend at the time, and he brought up of I was still a virgin, which I was. I told him that I was waiting for the right guy... for him. He then made his move and we kissed...

He asked me of I was sure I wanted to do this and I said yes. He stripped me down and went crazy on me. I was trying my hardest not to make noise when he went down on me so that my friend wouldn't hear me across the hall. I unbuttoned his jeans and started to give him head. He lifted me up on his desk and asked if I was on birth control because he didn't have condoms. I lied and told him I was. He asked me again if I wanted this and I said yes...

Continued.

>>25342769
I guess he was super sensitive or didn't have sex in a while because it took him less than a minute to finish inside of me.

In the morning, I went to rite Aid to get plan b. After that, we would have sex as much as we could. Things got serious to the point where when I went to college 2 hours away, he bought me an apartment in which I stayed for 2 years. He would make visits regularly while he told his wife that he was at work or on business.

Things fell out when his wife started to get suspicious. It was good while it lasted.

>>25331797
Literally drink gasoline. Or just take a nap in a garage with a running car. Shit senpai, it's not hard.

>>25322809
My boyfriend is emotionally and verbally abusive

It started a few months ago, he began screaming and yelling at me constantly. He throws things at me and says he wants to beat me. He calls me retarded, tells me I'm worthless and all this crap. I'm really tired of living like this. I feel like I want to leave him, but sometimes he is very sweet to me and we really connect.
I'm being naive, right? I need to leave him? How come some days it's perfect and other days he's threatening to kill me? Fuckin a. We've been together nearly three years. Advice please

>>25343314
You should definitely dump him, you don't deserve thatm her is the shitty person and he is just projecting that into you. I know it's hard because I've been in tht situation but all the way around (abusive gf) Even when you feel it's perfect sometimes, it's not worth it in the long run. It is bad for your mental health and it could be dangerous, you are worth infite times more than him just dump him please and you'll see there are much better people out there willing to TRULY love you. <3 u can kik me if you wanna chat to anyone, as I said, I've had an experience like this before... kik: hunterexodus

>>25343344
Thanks! I started packing a box of my things last night... the worst part is that we live together. I don't have anywhere else to go really :(

>>25343360
Good luck!

I have never caught them all.

>6 months ago
>husband and I going through rough time
>trying to recover from his affair
>we're not making it
>visit friend just for girl talk between two married women
>talk, have some wine, talk, have more wine
>sitting next to each other on the couch
>she suddenly leaned in and kissed me
>kind of stunned. not a cheek kiss but right on the lips
>she asked if it bothered me and I said no
>two minutes later we're in her bedroom and she's undressing me
>lots of groping on her part
>I can't believe this is happening
>I've never even considered being with another woman in my life
>we end up naked on her bed
>she eventually goes down on me
>I have the best orgasm I have had in years, maybe ever
>we get dressed and sit quietly in the livingroom
>she asks if I'll come back to see her
>been back twice each week for the past six months
>unsure what to do... keep it quiet? tell my husband? divorce?

>>25343420
Enjoy your b8 kid, i bet you use rotom w fgt

>>25343471
Tell husband and get him involved. 3 way will set him straight.

I tend to lie alot.How do i become a honest person?

>>25343526
I cant lie for shit, maybe we should teach eachother.

>>25343499
My friend isn't interested.

>>25343471
do you have children?

>>25343550
yes. early teens

>>25339186
>>25342722
>>25342769
>>25342783

That is so fucking hot. I wish I would've had that experience.

I sometimes dom sissys on omegle pretending to be a woman I try to encourage them to "unleash their sissy self" through better eating habits and healthy habits
I feel that once they develop a healthy lifestyle they stop wanting to be a sissy

>>25344211
evil genius

I kissed my boyfriends friend at a party last weekend. We were drunk and high on MD (not an excuse o know but I'd have never done it sober)
We've wanted to fuck each other for years but we're both in really good relationships. His girlfriend is so much hotter than me too.
We stopped after a minute or two. He wanted to carry on but I forced myself to stop.
I feel so bad about it but we've both agreed not to talk about it again.

I showed my cock to my bff's mother in law
Not unwarranted btw
I could care less but my wife would be super pissed

I want to start my own incest family with a pedomom
Please kill me KIK: secretsthrowaway

i go on tinder to boost my self confidence by just having the profile

>>25343314
Do you have family?

>>25341049
Honestly interested in talking to you.
It's a fascinating disorder to me, and have been intreasted in possably be-friending someone with it.
The idea of having many friends within one body seems nice.

I really would like to find a single mother what wants me to fuck her with her young daughter.

I've got a loving girlfriend but am still secretly in love with my best (female) friend from high school who I never dated. I know we'd be good for one another, but after almost a decade of pining after her I think I'm in love with the idea of her that I have in my head.

When i was 15 i meet up with to homosexuals, one 29 other 36
Long story short, they fucked me in the ass

>>25323116
If you need someone to talk to im here. Daddy_nidoking

>>25324577
You got kik. Daddy_nidoking

>>25327061
Kik me. Daddy_nidoking

>>25330207
I got a white cock for you. Kik daddy_nidoking

Might have just lost my job, won't know until the boss gets in and my emails get some light. Basically as of this morning none of my systems are working.


Going to keep my chin up until I hear back from them

>>25345941
>>25345968
>>25345976
>>25345961
The definition of thirst.

On multiple occasions I have secretly jerked off into my girlfriend's teenage sister's used panties. Sneak into the hamper, wrap them around my dick and go to fucking town, blast an extra thick and heavy load right on the inside of the crotch part, soaked so much it drips through the other side of the thin fabric.

Never did it on a fresh pair.

>>25343588
Kill yourself

sub m 18 and i love to show off myself in my garden or on walks. just love the humiliating requests and being a bitch and feeling horrible haha. if anyone is interested in toonight my kik is attila666pwtdb make me feel horrible

>>25322809
when i was between 14~16 ive molested younger kids (7~10) while i was discovering my sexuality

>>25347409
I should add that now its all ok with me, im not a pedo, but sometimes Im thinking, did I broke those kids back then? how are they doing now?

>>25347147
Thanks for your input.

I can't stop thinking about killing myself. The only thing that stops me is my kids. I wish things were different. I fucked up my life so bad. I work really hard but nothing I ever do is enough. I feel like such a failure no matter how hard I try. I wish I could just take my babies and run away from everything. My husband won't work and says he hates our kids all the time. He hates me for being pregnant. I'm having a lot of complications and my health is been going down hill but I still have to work all the time because I'm the only one supporting all of us. He won't even take care of the kids whole I'm at work. I keep the bills payed and a roof over our heads but like can't even afford food. Im so depressed and just want better for my kids. I don't know what to do. I fucked up my life and even worse I'm messing up my kids lives too. I just want out

I want to watch my wife get taken advantage of by another man. I want to watch him seduce her, get her drunk or drug her, then fuck her brains out. Something she'd NEVER do irl.

>>25347517
>>25347517
Get rid of your POS husband. Seems like with him out of the picture life would be better for you and your kids.

>>25347517
Man the fuck up and stop being a whiney cunt. If you care about this shit head husband of yours more than the kids then get rid of the kids. Less people to feed. If you care about having some small semblance of self respect and an ounce of integrity then get rid of the shit head husband. One less person to take care of. And less bullshit to make you feel bad. Do you think your kids like to hear their father talk about how he hates them? He doesn't do shit he's not helping anything and honestly seems like he's just making you feel worse
What a pussy you are, anon.
(I hope your health improves)

>>25342783
The only way this could be hotter is if he knowingly fertilized you on the reg

>>25347420
They're fine. Most kids touch and explore each other. It's completely normal and natural.

Have a fascination with my cousins...all female...I'm the oldest and the only male.

>>25343471
she's married too? what do u usually do with her? what is her pussy like compared to yours?

>>25347508
Husband cheated on me and almost ruined our marriage welp guess I'll be doing it weekly lol
If your dumb ass didnt have the sense to think of marriage counseling but decided to cheat weekly cause lol who cares he did it once he deserves better especially when you're old enough to have kids in there teens together

I just want to move super far away where no one I know can find me but I dont want to hurt my parents even though we never talk and I have nothing in common with them other than being related. Life sucks and all this stress is making me physically sick lately to the point where it's seriously messing with my health.

>>25348155
Just do it, you can stay in contact with them if you feel like they'll be hurt, start fresh, it's normal to want to do that.

>>25326110
What tags?

>>25348207
It wouldn't really work out. My parents are super religious and do goody. All I want is to be able to live freely from all their nagging and judgement but I can't because they are my parents.

>>25348426
Yeah but parents have to expect their kids to want to go and live their own lives, I'm just waiting till I can afford it to go move somewhere new, meet new people, leave my old life behind

>>25348441
Live a pretty vanilla life. Never did anything crazy or had a sexual open/wild woman. *Shrugs* sometimes I wonder if I missed out or something. I feel like I am rambling but I feel like vanilla sex makes my world pretty plain. I follow all the rules. No one would ever suspect I even visit a site like this. Anyways, if any crazy females want to chat hit me up I guess? Show a vanilla guy what the wild side looks like. Don't have snap, Kik, Reddit. Got a throwaway Skype:Linkmaster242

>>25341547
Deathcrush is gold.

>>25322809
You ever see The Wall, OP?
I can't help but feel like I'm starting to turn into Pink.

I don't see a point in socializing with other people and I've realized that I constantly feel like every effort I make to better myself is futile. I just focus on my shitty art that I force myself to finish for consistency's sake and also because how will I improve otherwise? I just feel like I'm trapped in a cycle and I don't even think I care anymore.

I know, I know. This post sounds incredibly whiny and you're all welcome to judge me for it.

>>25350138
We all feel like that at times. I think it's better to try than it is to not try. At least you feel good about having tried even though it might all fall apart anyways.

>>25323126
I hear that. I haven't said I'm poly out right but she is completely closed off to the lifestyle.... Also vanilla.

I grew up with multiple psychological problems and mental illnesses. Now. At 30, I desperately need to go to the doctors about my head but i'm scared about the result.

>>25350178
I'm 33 and have mental disorders. I take medication every day that I hate, but without it I would have killed myself by the time I was 11.
My advise to you is not to be afraid of the result, or that you might need medication, but be afraid of what you might do or miss out on if you don't get checked out.

>>25323117
Literally me.

My wife won't seek help for her very likely chronic depression and anxiety, and it's taking a toll on me.

Best thing I can do is keep going. I know that everyone is getting desperate to do stupid shit against me. But I have a 5 figure inheritance building interest so I couldn't give a shit what anyone thinks of me. It's just funny hearing all the empty threats and bullshit. It's even funny knowing no one else knows I have this. I'm not even using it. I'm just waiting for the interest to build so I can use it as a rainy day fund.

>>25350509
>>25350178
I have diagnosed split personality disorder. But I'm not taking my medication. I'm just hoarding it for an easy way out if I need it. Majority of it is sleeping tablets and such. But every time doctor or support worker asks me if I'm taking it. I just nod my head and say yes.

23 year old furry gay loser. Works part-time. No car. Blows money on furry art. I fucking hate myself but I can't stop. I don't have a single real-life friend and quite frankly dream of the day I shoot myself in the face. I want friends but no one ever puts forth the effort to talk online. Real-life I go into fucking attacks if I'm around strangers. I hate my existence and pretty sure I have depression or something. I hate how I look and act but I'm too unmotivated to change. At this point I'd be fine with being a slave and shot when I'm no longer useful.

Probably won't read responses, sorry.

>>25351396
Hey man ill talk to you

>>25350138
I felt like that when I was 18. Also listened to The Wall a lot. I just pretended like that person died. If I had died I had no reason to give a shit what other people thought.

>>25351396
Ulysses?

Pretty sure i'm in love with a teacher, or at least have an hardcore infatuation for years. We're not even that close.

>In a dying relationship
>Don't like to have conversations with her anymore
>Don't even like to hang out with her anymore
>Something is stopping me from ending it, fear of change? loneliness? Some semblance of love?
>Sex sucks too now
>not in a good way
>last time we fucked, i just said "I'm done" rolled over and went to bed, didn't get off or anything
>she's in depression for reasons
>been trying to help her though this
>its been like this for a year
>her depression stems from the betrayal of her two "best friends" and her fucked up druggie mom
>I'm genuinely upset I'm not enough for her
>I should be more supportive but she's bringing me down too

Now I'm just sitting here going though day by day like nothing happened and I don't have the balls to end it for whatever reason. no one knows I want to end it, I play the "perfect boyfriend when her family is in town which makes it suck even more.

on another note.

>girl at work flirting with me
>I doing my best to keep it professional (so far so good) but fuck she's cute
>feel my heart skip a beat when she called out to me
>really feeling it from this girl
>I'm starting to day dream and making plans to get my life back together

I need to end this before I start ANYTHING with this girl but I don't even know how to approach the topic with my current fiancee, oh yeah forgot to mention we're engaged to marry, but she doesn't give a shit about it. I've picked the wedding colors talked to the venue and the photographer, I picked all my groomsmen already all the while dragging her around getting half-assed answers.

Fuck I wish I was hit by a bus or something. just take this shit right out of my hands.

I cut off a nearly perfect relationship because I felt like she was brainwashed by the religion she followed (was a muslim) and ever since I have been alone and even worse than I was before the relationship.

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I think i might be either dense or really desperate.

>meet friend when you started going to college
>as in the second day you became friends
>at that same day she's already using my legs as a pillow
>always be okay with such things
>hold hands with her
>put foreheads together
>hug a lot
>kiss cheeks a lot
>some months passed
>one day she tells me she loves me
>tell her i love her too
>spend like that 3 years
>friends always telling us we should kiss and such
>say: lol no, I'm straight, find me a bf
>friend comes out as asexual
>ok.jpg
>still hug her and kiss her
>she doesn't mind
>she actually gets annoyed when i don't do so
>suddenly
>other friend tells me it's not normal
>that we shouldn't be doing stuff like those
>that we look like a couple
>teachers might think we're a couple
>shrug.gif
>one day friend says she might be a lesbian
>tell her that such thing it's impossible because it might be just an infatuation
>she hides in my chest and says she's past that point
>just hug back

So, i think she just likes another friend of us because they're always talking, but that friend has been really busy so she's not able to hug her like other times when she didn't work and study.

I think i should help her with a confession or something to our friend so she can be happy, but that friend of us is also straight so maybe that's why she's reluctant to tell her how she feels.

>>25327061
I must admit that you are actually a cool and generous person for that

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>Attend college because my parents wanted me to
>"You don't want to flip burgers your entire life"
>"Don't disappoint us!"
>Settle on a Law degree
>Keep failing out yet tell my parents I'm doing fine
>This goes on for a few years
>So ridden in shame that I decide to move state
>Keep up my "education" charade... don't know why
>Parents so proud of me because I was first in the family to get a degree
>Guilt gets to me from the years of lying and not doing anything with my life
>Haven't seen my family and years because I can't face them
>They think I'm doing my Legal interneship thus why I can't go see them
>Try trades but not a fast enough learner
>I am literally useless
>I have given up
>This entire time I have been working as a waiter in a shit restaurant
>This entire time I have been living in my car
> No friends, no family, nothing
>I hate myself

>>25334276
>fetishes are just created out of nowhere

>>25335861
What birth defects do you mean? I know some people with birth defects who are more succesful than most people on this board. As long as the kid is not mentally challenged, it may turn out just fine

I'm a good-looking guy with a sub-as-fuck GF, but she doesn't know that I desperately want to be dominated. She wouldn't be able to handle it or do it well. I just want a woman to grab me by my throat and push me to the ground then sit on my face. Is that so much to ask??

I'm also a little bi-curious, but mostly just obsessed with the idea of sucking cock, not getting fucked.

>>25323638
How did you meet her?

>>25351737
Dude! Don't be a fucking retard! Are you in the US? Go look for the nearest drywall/metal framer/plumber. Be nice, ask for a job and tell them you're willing to learn. You'll probably get a job as a trainee, you'll be fine. Muscle memory that shit. The faster you work, the more work you're going to get. I work in the industry, believe me.

>>25351637
Stop being such a pussy. Ask her this... "Do you like X?" If she says yes and shes afraid to talk to X them help her out. If she says not, ask her if she likes you. If she does like you.....tell her that ain't going to work out because you obviously don't reciprocate. Good luck.

>>25351117
You are an idiot, that inheritance is being wasted. Why?
1-) Money doesn't buy happiness, get some friends because it doesn't look like you have any. Get a hobby or something.

2-) inheritance or not, build your fucking path in life and stop counting on your grandad's money. Interest, what a joke. Start a business, invest, or lend. Do something with it, it's obviously very important to you.