Dont hold them in any longer - free yourself!

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>>25273893

Sole legal guardian of younger sister. Love her to death obviously, but i regretfully sometimes wish i didn't have anyone to care for. Ive had to play the role of caregiver for the majority of my 20s, and its very hard at times. The thought that i have essentially put my life on pause until she is old enough to take care of herself is a little depressing at times.

I hate thinking negatively, but sometimes the reality of my situation stares me right in the face. This weekend many of the people i started college with in bachelors and associates programs are completing graduate programs, they are married, they have fulfilling jobs and houses. I have none of that because we've just been scraping by.

I've started using my pain medication to get high. I've been really depressed for several years now and have often thought about either killing myself or just taking off and disappearing.

But the pills make me happy. I feel good again. I don't know if I'll be able to stop.

>>25273893
i pretend to be confident as fuck but I am insecure about my not even 5'' erect penis.

Feelsbadman.jpeg

>>25274290
You're currently experiencing the moment in time where you make the decision that dictates the rest of your life. You are aware of your dependence, you are aware of your depression. Don't become another statistic.

I suggest psychedelics, namely mushrooms with loving friends, in nature. Buckle up.

I hate myself

>>25274922
>anon is dependent on substances for happiness
>try this substance! this is an important moment! don't become a statistic!
Come on, man. It's like you're not even trying to give advice.

>>25275114

If you've ever tried psychedelic mushrooms you'd know how ignorant you sound. They are literally the opposite of addictive. After you take a large dose you don't want to again for a long time.

>>25275114
While I personally agree with your sentiment, anon's suggestion is based in the idea that many people have positive breakthrough experiences on mushrooms and similar substances. It's anecdotal but I have had many friends/acquaintances confirm this phenomenon.

i don't know if i love my girlfriend of 8 months

I'm starting to miss my psycho ex, despite the fact that I've told him to leave me alone for 9 months or so.

its been a couple of months now and I still miss my ex.

>>25274290
You should look into kratom. I used to love poppy tea (morphine) and I stopped taking I and now I use kratom. Less addicting, not bad for you at all (on the contrary it can be argued it's good for you physically).

>>25275530
Don't make the same mistake I did. Break up while you can if you're not invested. If you need to give her a concrete reason that even you don't know tell her that partly it's unfair and wrong for you to continue the relationship if you're not fully invested. Be honest about it. 8 months and you should have a feel if she's the wife type. If you have doubts right now, they will multiply.

HOWEVER if you meant your comment as "I still really like her and there's no reason for me to break up with her, but she loves me so much and I'm not at that point yet" then maybe you should give it more time. It at 8 months either way you should know if she is potential wife material and if you woukd be satisfied with continuing don't stay with her out of fear that you won't meet someone else. It'll get to the point where you'll resent her.

>>25275531
Whys he psycho?

>>25275577
my issue is that she's ready to marry and have kids and i don't even know if that's what i want in life. she has absolutely no life outside of me and therefore zero interests or hobbies that i can share with her. i don't feel like i get anything out of the relationship other than emotional validation.

I-Im a normie

After my cousin died of a drug overdose, I solely blamed myself. I am a criminologist who specializes in drug crime and drug treatment rehabilitation, yet I never spoke to her. I know that she was 70 days clean, took heroin after having 1-2 beers and died not due to overdose but mixing depressants. She had no idea how dangerous it was.
After that I fell into a pit of alcoholism and pain medication addiction. I was still in college and barely able to think because of how I kept numbing my self up. I got into a ton of physical fights are parties just so I could feel.

the worst part is, that was my most successful year of college. 3.7 and 3.8 GPA those semesters. When I was clean I hovered around 3.3

I'm a smarter person as an addict

>>25275656
Wow okay you sound exactly like me. She had no interests outside of the relationship amd I NEEDED a gf who has other interests/passions. I did not want to have a gf who's entire happiness rests on the well being of a relationship (with anyone). Over time this became more apparant and after 2 years I had enough. I felt the way I did at about 7 months and after that it just turned into resentment. After about 9 months she started to get lazy with herself because in her eyes the relationship was going great (because that all that matters for her happiness) and she felt no need to improve any other aspect of herself. Obviously I don't know all about your relationship but so far it sounds sinilar to mine. If you bring this up to her or have brought it up before she's likely going to say she'll vhange but give it a week or 2 and she'll slip through the cracks thinking you won't realize she actually is probably incapable o doesn't think she REALLY needs to change.

>>25275662
same

>>25275656
Don't get me wrong. I loved her a lot but there were just some things that were too big for me to deal with. Her wanting to get married after a year, not having any other passions/interests, having the mentality that unconditional love exists (imo it doesnt. All love is conditional and is possible to lose it. That belief is one reason why she never felt the need to improve) etc. After a certain time I was satisfied with having her as a gf and we still laughed amd enjoyed eachother, but I felt like i was in a pergatory just waiting for something to change

For 8 years, I have gradually distanced myself from everyone I know. I don't allow myself to be vulnerable ever and I am almost always sarcastic when I speak. My niece loves me a lot, but I have been avoiding her too and probably making her feel like I don't love her.

I do all of this because I have no self worth and I think about dying almost every day. I don't want anyone to like me in case I take the plunge. Funnily enough, I've basically made myself dead to everyone anyway (or at least a non-person, someone you forget exists until attention is brought to them).

>>25275580
He has done some crazy things is all

Convince my wife to fuck our dog. She said she liked it but wasn't too willing to let it happen again. I plan on getting her drunk and horny and convincing her to fuck the dog again.

>>25275758
like?

>>25275974
Why are you curious or want to know?

>>25276003
eh seems interesting, just inquisitive i suppose

I'm a daddy dom and my current gf has no idea whatsoever. I have an LG sub that's not her.

I get emotional satisfaction from both women, just in different capacities. Willing to talk on SC or Kik about it too.

>>25276003
The more vague you are the more intriguing it is. Plus this is a secrets thread and youre anonymous so theres not really any reason not to spill t

i know a person for a while now and I want them so badly but i dont know if its romantically or just lust at this point

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>>25276008
>>25276010
He frequents this board to see if I ever post, so I'm not disclosing anything he did. I'm paranoid

>>25276059
fuuuuuuckin hell hahaha
damn

>>25275972
Haha my husband tried getting me to do that. What's the attraction if you don't mind me asking? I'm pretty sure my guy really just like the idea of how degrading and humiliating it would be. Also that he has me submissive enough to do something like that if he tells me to. I got to scared tho and didn't. Seems like it would hurt and be dirty

There are days where I'm pretty sure I've given up on trying to form meaningful human relationships, especially with women, even though I've never actively sought out a partner and just kind of had them happen naturally over my life, the past few years have been bad, every woman I've met has been some kind of internet stereotype that I never thought actually existed until I finally met one.

Die hard feminists that think men are the worst thing to happen to the planet (but still want to fuck them all.), stoner chicks that will fuck for $10 worth of pot and have had more dicks inside them than the phone book, and crazy chicks with diagnosed, unmedicated bipolar disorders that seem fine one day, then the next they're contacting everybody you know including people you work with and telling them all of your fetishes because you slept in late and they thought you were ignoring them.

Maybe I should just build a cabin in the woods and get a dog.

>>25273893
I'm quite a normal guy, have friends and am quite social. But every single time I find a girl I find pretty (and sometimes she does find me attractive, based on how she looks at me and other stuff) I completely block myself from trying to tell her about my feelings.

It's not that I can't talk to her at all, it's that I can't tell her about my feelings for her. And this has happened to me for a few years now.

I even say stuff to myself like "man up" or "dude, it's just a person that has feelings like you" or "there's no problem if she rejects you, it's not the only woman in the world". Not even drunk I can't speak what I feel. It's just the same feel again and again, I freeze myself completely and start to avoid any conversation related to the topic with said person.
I'm quite starting to hate myself at his point, I hate so much to not be able to control myself.

>>25276079
As a fucked up degenerate (male obviously as per last post), I can tell you two different perspectives on it both of which are mine.

Perspective 1) Porn has made a lot of people develop fetishes for WATCHING their partners have sex with people, because they spent decades masturbating to just WATCHING other people have sex. This is also my view on why cuckolding is a thing, it's stupid, but it makes sense.

Perspective 2) As somebody who is a zoophile, I've let a couple dogs mount me and it's really fucking hot and feels great. I have three female friends online who are in a similar situation and prefer it over normal sex. But take this with a grain of salt, I would never try to talk somebody into it, it's something that if you have an attraction toward it, it tends to be great, but if you're just doing it because somebody else wants you to it can probably be emotionally scarring.

Basically my point here is, don't let somebody talk you into it unless you really want to try it before hand or it could really fuck you up.

I used to work with this woman, she was next to me most of the time taking pictures and oh man I wanted to bent her over so bad on the work station, idk why I just always had the urge to fill her up with my cum. I also always wanted to follow her to the bathroom and face fuck her just because. I'm such a pervert. She looked trashy only the first day she started working with us but I never stopped thinking about it.

Also, on a morbid note, why has no one made a site where suicidal people can sign their possessions over (either to be donated, gifted, etc) if they don't have a will [see: alone] so that the state doesn't just take and give/sell their shit?

Started subbing for a bear a few weeks ago. Not really attracted to guys. Too hard, they smell and dicks are pretty terrible.

But i am so quietly desperate for intimate contact that i saw the chance and took it.

Being man handled and used is a mixed experiance, but being held afterwards and being told what a good boy i am feels good.

I keep my affairs pretty quiet. My folks hate gays, my friends hate gays and no one would understand why i decided to do this.

I'm severely considering paying a prostitute to just spend the night and cuddle with me. I'm getting so lonely and depressed that I'd rather have that than sex.

>>25276213
apparently professional cuddlers are a thing

http://thesnugglebuddies.com/

everybody thinks of me as the most loyal girlfriend, but I have actually cheated behind my bf's back a few times and no one knows about it (I think)
it turns me on when I cheat

>>25276213
cuddlr is an app
>>25276235
why not leave him?

>>25276244
I still love him, there's far too much behind to leave now
just turns me on to secretly do something with others

>>25276231
They're very specific with what you can do with them. I'd rather a prostitute because of how open they can be.

>>25276235
Tell me the details about the sexyest times that you cheated like a dirty little tramp:)

>>25276251
I did a threesome once, it was a first for me, very pleasuring

>>25276260
Tell me about your other times, what are the details about the 3some. I'm getting off on this.

>>25276282
how do you even manage that? haha
well the threesome was just the 2 guys going on me in front and back, one came on my body the other in my mouth
all the other times are just simple sex, nothing too special

>>25276295
It's very kinky, are you daring enough to post a nice nude of yourself to help me cum tonight? I mean if you like to go behind his back.. Why not :p

>>25276319
Jesus christ man, there are like 30 other threads for this kind of thing.

>>25276319
I'm not posting nudes of myself here, no

>>25276295
did you know the guys from before? how did it happen? did you cum at all?

>>25276328
what are the cocks like that u usually cheat on husband with? what is your husbands cock like? how do they feel compaared to each other?

>>25276372
one yes, my friend, and the other one was his friend. I fucked my friend before and he offered this as an idea, I accepted. I did cum during sex
>>25276381
not husband, bf
I don't care how they look as long as they're clean and looked after. my bf is average girth, 16-18cm I think

I was always a nerdy awkward type. I was still a virgin at 25, and I got laid off. My successful gay friend offered me a place to stay. Once we got drunk and he offered me $500 to suck my dick. It turned into $1,000 a week to sleep in the same bed and let him blow me once per day.

I am straight and had to use porn and it still wasn't always easy. Used viagra a few times.

I never touched his dick except for incidental touches while we slept.

Never told anyone this. People just thought I roomed with my buddy. He's not even out (or a flamer).

>>25276406
What gets you off about cheating? Does it make you extra wetter then being with your bf?

I haven't had a relationship with anyone for 5 years running

>>25276510
it's exciting to have sex secretly, experiencing different shaped cocks etc
and yeah I do, because of the excitement

>>25276534
Would you have an online affair to always keep you wet and be a little slut for me online to never have the excitement leave?

>>25276583
no I only do real stuff

Currently the sub in a financial domination relationship with my ex-girlfriend's new boyfriend.

>>25276626
Well where are you, also what if I paid you

>>25276642
in europe. and paid me for what?

>>25276637
bruh.....

>>25273893
despite all we've done, he still gives me the cold shoulder and i'm still willing to do anything for him. i know i'm too good for him and that's the point, really.... I'd do anything to please him.

>>25276661
To be a dirty bird for me sometimes

>>25276753
what would I have to do?

>>25276773
It wouldn't be anything too obscene, let's talk about it a little more privately. Can you email me? [email protected]

>>25276823
messaged you

I get crushes really easily. It doesn't help that i'm terrible around women

I look at some women and suddenly think they're amazing and beautiful and start projecting my future with them in it.

My behavior kinda changes to give this outward appearance of confidence which doesn't work because i'm a dork whos faking it.

I get sad sometimes because I feel like nobody has ever thought of me this way

my husband won't fuck me anymore due to being desensitized to porn (and not giving it up). So now I want to just fuck other people on the side since he would rather jack off to porn. I'm starting to feel like watching porn over fucking me infidelity so it's making me justify wanting to cheat on him. Probably won't do it though.

>>25277166
I think you should if not giving you enough attention, how old are you? And would you be in to chatting more privately?

I fall for people way, way, way too easily. Combine that with being ugly, it leads to a lot of stupid heartbreak.

>>25277183
22, yeah sure we could. do you have a disposable email?

>>25277197
Eh don't use my email on here much, could you make a throwaway kik or snap? Can post my info so don't get flooded with other ppl

I love my husband to death, but he's been depressed lately and has been ignoring my needs, and I am so emotionally/romatically/sexually starved. It's starting to make me depressed as well. Masturbating when he's asleep just isn't cutting it anymore and I don't know what to do.

>>25277213
Have an online partner for when you feel like this/lonely? How old are you and would you be interested talking more private?

>>25277211
sure just give me a few mins

>>25277221
Okay sounds well

>>25277219
I'm not into cheating on my husband, if that's what you're implying. I just don't know how to talk to him about this. Every time I bring this up, he just kind of brushes it off.

>>25277229
you're not me lol

>>25277229
nvm i guess we are in the same situation lol... i feel you

>>25277229
That's understandable. I'd make it clear and honest as you're saying/feeling rn. Hope the best!

>>25277234
>>25277238
Lol

>>25277238
It's okay. I just love him dearly. We met here, actually, four years ago. I'm just sad and a little distraught tonight.

>>25277248
depression isnt an excuse to neglect your partners needs. I have chronic depression and still give out sex on my worst days.

>>25277246
Thank you. I just don't know how to have the conversation in a way he doesn't feel is an attack on him. He takes it so personally when I voice my concerns, but I don't mean it as an attack. I'm just sad, a little drunk, and wondering what I can do that will make him understand from my perspective.

>>25277252
I know he feels bad about the lack of intimacy, but he doesn't do much to alleviate it. If I do get sex, it's for about five minutes until he's done with it. I feel like it's my fault sometimes.

>>25277260
it's not your fault, he's just not putting any effort into the relationship. my SO is depressed too but puts no effort into treating his depression. I work-out, eat well, and do everything else to make my depression better so it doesnt fuck with our relationship. He doesn't do this at all for our relationship and that's why im considering cheating. How long has your SO been like this? Mine has been this way for almost two years, I never thought I'd want to cheat.

>>25277257
Anytime np, I'd just be open on how you're feeling with the lack of attention you're getting. A real man will know and can tell, i wouldn't act "mad" about it but more concerned if makes sense? Like almost give him the feeling damn near going to cheat if doesn't change? Just my advice

>>25277238
I'm still waiting too lol didn't forget, lmk to post either kik or snap

>>25277266
i tried making an account and honestly i felt skeevy doing it. maybe in another few months if things don't improve haha.

I like fapping on omegle and seeing a girls reaction to my black dick.

>>25277271
Hah really? How come? It's just a throwaway and up to talk more on your situation. I definitely could help you.

>>25277264
It's been for about six months. I wouldn't judge you at all, as I don't really know your situation. I just don't think I'm at that point yet. I'm just lost.

>>25277266
I wouldn't want to threaten him, because depression has been hard enough, and it hasn't been years, just half a year. I'm just whiny I think.

>>25277284
try paying attention to other guys, not flirting, but just talking to other men more often. This is what I'm considering doing, maybe it'll make him wake up.

>>25277278
ok give me another few

>>25277278
littlebagel94 kik

>>25277294
Awh yeah i totally understand. Just frustrated with what you're not getting is what i can tell, hope it changes and he realizes!

>>25277295
Sounds well, just add me when done! Kik is youngcaesar24

>>25277295
I think it's just I don't have male friends, and I work from home, so I don't really have that option. I'm at home most days, and the only males I interact with are my brother and my dad. I just wish he would understand that I'm not mad, just upset. I can be patient, but our life before depression was sex almost daily, a lot of flirting, cuddling, physical displays of love and emotion, and that has died with his depression.

He won't see a doctor though, and insists it will pass. I'm not sure if it will.

>>25277309
my situation is just like yours. I used to have guy friends and that's when I noticed he made more effort to keep me around. do you want to add me on kik too to talk? might make things easier for us.

>>25277308
I've been patient, but I'm just sad. He works from home like I do as well, but has been working bare minimum. He's just playing phone games or MtG or Madden all day, and I just work and play WoW, because he never wants to do anything else. I just miss the physical intimacy, not just sex, but hugs, cuddling, kissing, etc.

>>25277315
I don't have kik, and I'm pretty sure he'd get upset if I had one. He'd think I was cheating, because the last time I used it to talk to friends he didn't like it. Says it's too shady.

>>25277325
you can hide it if you wanted

>>25277326
I'm a terrible liar, honestly. I just am not sneaky enough. All I'd want is a friend, though.

>>25277308
>>25277309
Your life before feeling like that is what i want and been looking for, enjoying life! I don't know if a doctor would help much, think he just needs to realize what you feel. If ever looking for a male friend to talk your issues with, can always save my kik or msg me to talk with! :) I'm a good listener

>>25277331
is there any way you could talk on something else? im a girl so its not like im gonna want to be more than friends lol

I found my Jesus Master and lost him.

Fuck.

I think I'm damaged good/cannot vet guys for abusive behavior. Don't actually believe in damaged goods or diminishing value of a human because of the actions of others, but like... no one is gonna wanna date, let alone marry, a girl who's been emotionally dunked on by assholes.

>>25277333
I feel like it's my fault because I've never really been a very pretty woman, nor am I good at being sexy. Maybe if I were thinner and more attractive he wouldn't be so un-attracted to me while depressed. I've been trying to lose weight since he started feeling down in hopes that it might make him feel a bit better looking at me. I try to do as much as I can for him, but it just doesn't feel like it's enough. I've just gotta try harder.

>>25277339
Oh I know :) but me being bisexual, he gets nervous that I might "turn on him" sometimes, haha

>>25277350
girl come on! he's silly. i do wish we could find some way to talk we have a lot in common

>>25277346
Never feel as though his lack of sexual drive is your fault. Your body is not at issue, his mental health is. Take him to see a therapist instead of trying to "make yourself sexier." No matter how you look, he'll feel little until his real problems are solved.

Also, don't listen to the guy who wants you to have an affair. It's creepy and disingenuous for him to want to talk to you.

tl,dr; get him to a doctor, don't worry about your body, don't have an affair.

>>25277364
An affair is an absolute no for me, but I do worry because I've gained a bit of weight since we first met due to a birth control implant and a new seizure medication, plus I've been a bit lazy working from home. Getting him to a therapist is like pulling teeth, because he "doesn't believe in therapy" and such. I'm just drunk ranting honestly. I can't do much about it if he's not willing, aside from sneaking away to the bathroom with my vibrator in the middle of the night to get some sort of physical release from it all. I've even become a bit addicted to otome games and reverse harem anime. I can at least live vicariously through media.

>>25276099

"I completely block myself from trying to tell her about my feelings."

How does one fix this problem? because I seriously have the same problem, and it hit me hard 2 years ago, and I really can't stop thinking about it. I feel like the only way to fix this problem at this point is ask any random girl for her number and even if I get rejected, I'll at least finally be able to know that I have the strength to ask at least, so that the next a girl is actually noticeably interested in me, and vice versa, I'll be able open up more.

>>25277345
>I think I'm damaged good/cannot vet guys for abusive behavior

The latter sounds like a more real problem than the former. Bad luck in previous relationships doesn't sound like a deal breaker to me

>>25277388
I mean, I get a little better at it every go. Went from a guy who explicitly gaslit me, threatened to kill my dogs, publicly bragged about cheat, etc, to a dude who was just emotionally shitty and half the time I think it was learned behavior from childhood, onto a dude who was just not excited about dating me and refused to compromise.

Maybe by the time I die I'll be able to pick out a decent boyfriend.

>>25277388
Sorry, not to go off on a self pitying tangent, but I feel like it's not just bad luck, ya know? Like I didn't walk away from those relationships the same person I was when I went in, and now I have all these weird little hang ups.

I get really anxious when my guy stops responding for some length of time because that was a weird isolation tactic an ex used to get me to grovel even when he had been in the wrong.

I'm super sensitive to criticism because an ex would call me disgusting, lazy, fat, etc.

I worry CONSTANTLY about angering/upsetting him and will repeatedly ask, "Are you angry with me?" because I spent months on egg shells around one ex and literally doing something as benign as asking to hand me the toothpaste would make him lose his temper.

If my boyfriend isn't like, extremely explicit and forthcoming with compliments or niceties, it wears on my self esteem because nearly every guy I have dated couldn't seem to find it in themselves to be kind to me. Even if verbal stuff isn't their love language and I *know that*, I still get really antsy if I don't hear them say they like me and stuff about me.

Like who the fuck wants to put up with that shit.

>>25277398
>>25277426
Sorry to hear about your past problems before, with those type of guys, no one deserves that and can tell it's bothering you.

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I posted on this board way too much and I probably have a bad rep now.

>>25277426
You sound exactly like me except I'm male and she's female. The almost reflex-like asking of "are you angry with me?" hit a fucking nerve.

I would say, well at least there's someone else out there like you, but honestly it just sucks, I wouldn't want to be with me either. I don't know why anyone does.

I want to join in with my old social circle, but then I see a girl I loved having fun in amongst them, and back away because I don't want her to know how much I still feel for her, or how much she hurts me, or how self evident it is that she (and everyone else in that group) seem to be perfectly happy without me in their lives.

But I can't stop myself from wanting back, and from watching from a far. Just can't help myself.

>>25276103
"This is also my view on why cuckolding is a thing"
>It is not new. Porn can be addictive though

>>25274290
This is how I've become with drinking. It just numbs me and makes me escape my pain. I don't think I'll be able to stop either.

>>25277631
Jesus, is that you?

>>25278182
This post appeared the second I sat at my computer so, probably.

I'm attracted to fat girls. From chubby to full blown landwhales.
Nobody knows.

>>25278182
I died for your sins and it didn't do much and it kinda sucked to be dead so I came back after 3 days.

>>25276111
probably because it would be legally very complicated and anyway the state takes a lot more if its not family related
Plus suicidals don't really care about that generaly

I've taken over a new role at work and the guy before me is leaving and really isn't trying to do any more work on this stuff...

Thing that sucks is I have to go at this alone and take care of what I can, I'm sitting here in my home office and can only sit on 4chan, I have a lot of work coming up and it isn't that I'm afraid, it is the time required and how long will it take for me to be fully immersed in this role

>I'll learn what I can
>They just threw a bunch of work at me and I have to figure it all out from crumbs

I honestly don't know how much longer I can be with my girlfriend at this point. She's a lovely person but in between her mental health issues and this feeling that I'm missing out being tied down at 20 it's just caused me to feel depressed and irritable at literally everything

bump for justice

Are you ok

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I've been having fantasies about Jennifer. Most of it involving tying her down and fucking all her fuck holes until I've filled up each and every one to the brim with my cum. I've thought about gang banging her with a few friends while she's tied up, fucking her until we were exhausted. One of my favorite ones is dping her with her boyfriend, we would take turns between fucking her cunt and ass and she would look up at us when we're about to cum and beg us to cum on her face with her big green eyes.

I hope she reads this and masturbates to it in secret. Just letting her know that there is someone out there with these fantasies about her is enough to make me hard.

>>25277197
funtimes9169 at gmail dot com

>>25273893
I would definitely shit on someone if they were down

>>25275120
This. Isolated mushroom meditation leads to something very special.

bump for justice

I have been in couple with a girl for two years now but in the other hand I was in couple at distance with another woman for 1 year and half.

I know Im a massive shitbag and I lack guts to break up with the first one, even though I will soon move out with the second one ... But I don't know ... I am really good at acting and covering everything up and that's why I don't know how to break up with her because I succeeded to make both happy and breaking with one of them will be out of the blue, but I need to do it cause I can't hide something like moving in another country but I don't know how and its making me crazy

>>25277644
It's fucking horrible. It really bothered the last guy I dated, even when I tried to explain it was a shitty flea I picked up from being scared all the time AND made a conscious effort to stop. But then he'd get mad if I asked if he was mad and it was vicious cycle.

People feel all bad for you and shit when they find out and assure you it wasn't your fault and you didn't deserve it, but get real tired real quick if you have any lingering issues. I don't want to be patted on the back for them, I want them gone too, just some empathy would fucking rule.

Also on mobile, diff id, yadda yadda.

>>25277426
>>25279830
It depends, after you get comforted and your partner says he's not mad/ loves you (if that applies) do you tell him that he's lying and don't believe him?

>>25279839
I like to think that if that had happened, I would try to calm down and take him at his word.

Sadly didn't happen. He'd just get increasingly irritated and short with me, which prompted more asking if he was upset, and so on.

I used to live with a female friend of mine and while our friendship fell apart completely over that time for various cohabitation-related reasons I also developed completely degenerate fantasies about her and even months after moving out I still fap to thoughts of her constantly. While living with her I kind of repressed my attraction to her just for practical reasons but once she started to get on my nerves I couldn't help myself, masturbating to her became the only way I could release the pent up anger about the bullshit I dealt with while sharing that space. But it went so much deeper than I thought it would to the point that it cycled around and then all of a sudden I was legitimately attracted to her. For the last few months I was there I would sniff her dirty panties when I had the opportunity. The secrecy and fucked up nature of the situation only helped it to become an even bigger turn on. I never let a hint of this slip out around her presence but it was such a rush to hate fap over her while she was in the next room or whatever. I moved out now and we're actually on much better terms but I still have these lingering thoughts in the back of my mind. And she still turns me on.

>>25279655
8 grams is probably too much, though. Just a bit of personal experience. lol.

I have a dilemma in that I have developed the most counterproductive fetish imaginable. I am into headshaving, and whilst I started out enjoying the thought of it happening to cute girls, I started to wonder what it would feel like to experience it myself and now it is on my mind all the time on loop. Obviously this doesn't sound all that bad necessarily, but I am trans and about to start hormones, so having long hair is an asset. On one hand, I am invested in looking more feminine, avoiding sticking out as much as possible and doing things to build up self esteem (those months and months of regrowth aaa). On the other hand, this is realistically my last chance to try it forever, it would answer all my questions (and help me write a project I'm working on for /d/) and the prospect of doing a complete 180 on my image is a hell of a turn on. Barring my self perception I fear my family would worry, so I am stuck. I keep leaning towards going the simple route and not shaving my head but the urge is making things very difficult.

I am really really sorry if this was a nuisance, I will delete this post if it's a problem. I would post on /d/ but sometimes you just need a different approach when expressing these things.

Approval seeking behavior got me surrounded with people who just wanted to rip me off. I grew so scared of people I just verbally destroyed them before they had any chance to hurt me. I pushed away potentially good people out of my life because of that. Sorry

>>25278577
>being thrown under the bus

I'm so desperate to not be alone anymore that I started hitting on girls from my country on pornhub.
Haven't tried a regular dating site before

>>25277870
Cuckolding as a fetish is pretty fucking new.

In older times, people killed their wives and their wife's lover for cuckoldry. Now, beta males just get off on it.

>>25279850
I could deal with that then.

>>25273893
I love and miss my girlfriend even though I think she is a scammer. Sometimes I have no will to live, now that she's gone, and I fear the day that feeling overwhelms me.

>>25275712
>Don't get me wrong. I loved her a lot but there were just some things that were too big for me to deal with.
nothing is too big if you love her.

>Her wanting to get married after a year,
ask her if she will wait, she probably will

>not having any other passions/interests,
a good wife cares about her family first, anon. do shit with her.

>having the mentality that unconditional love exists (imo it doesnt. All love is conditional and is possible to lose it. That belief is one reason why she never felt the need to improve) etc.
it does exist. and you're fucking brainless to give that up. you may never find it again.

>After a certain time I was satisfied with having her as a gf and we still laughed amd enjoyed eachother, but I felt like i was in a pergatory just waiting for something to change
then you should have told her. sometimes new experiences are all it takes.

don't cut and run, dummy. you throw away a perfectly good girl who loves you, and karma says that the Universe probably never offers up another one for you to love.

>>25276059
>He frequents this board to see if I ever post, so I'm not disclosing anything he did. I'm paranoid
i doubt that, girl. damn.

>>25275531
>I'm starting to miss my psycho ex, despite the fact that I've told him to leave me alone for 9 months or so.
you love him, go back before he stops loving you.

can't stop lurking for bbw's on omegle/chatwebsites to fap to.
Nothing special.

>>25277345
>I think I'm damaged good/cannot vet guys for abusive behavior.
If you want to meet a kind, loyal, and trustworthy man, [email protected]

>>25280849
Do not tell people this you psychopath.

>>25277398
>Maybe by the time I die I'll be able to pick out a decent boyfriend.

Decent boyfriend: [email protected]

My girlfriend just left me and I need someone to talk to.

>>25280904
>Do not tell people this you psychopath.
it's obvious she loves him and she said some of the things he did were "a little" psycho.

everyone is a little psycho when it comes to love.

now if he's lying, cheating, stealing, gaslighting, whatever, yeah like nah.

My best friend went to see his family over the weekend. He spent a huge amount of time texting me and was oddly open and expressive in our conversations, including NSFW stuff. We'd say good morning and talk about our plans throughout the day and say goodnight to each other before we went to sleep.

We started talking about our friendship and I told him I never had a friendship like this. And he said "Where both parties like each other a lot and actually want to spend time with each other and talk to each other and are sad when they can't?" ... which sounded like a heavy thing to say but that's how I definitely felt. How we felt.

He said that he owed me favors for being so kind. I told him I didn't need any favors because I did everything because I liked him a lot. He replied, "The thing is, I feel exactly the same way. I do things for you because pleasing you pleases me."

This friendship.. The way he makes me feel, how truly caring he is to me twists my heart up in knots. I have to convince myself that he's doing these things and saying these things because he's such a kind-hearted person. There has to be nothing behind it. He's married to someone that seems pretty fantastic. It's nothing.

But it's still driving me crazy because there's this little irrational voice in my head that says that there's something there for me. it's stupid and I have to hold my breath to keep foolish things from spilling from my mouth. Fucking hell... of all the people on the planet, why did I have to end up falling in love with him?

Not a secret I guess, but I can't bring myself to discuss this with anyone. I'm dating a widower and not only does she wear her dead husband's ring on a chain around her neck and have his pictures on the wall, we made out last night while standing next to the box containing his ashes. I just feel so weirded out by that, it haunted me for hours

I fell for a girl from here awhile ago. Now that I actually got someone miles better than them in all departments ( looks, personality and personal achievements ), I laugh at myself for ever stressing over that person. They seem so insignificant in comparison. It's strange how you can go from manic levels of obsessions to this feeling of liberating indifference. I love it; I don't belong to anyone anymore, not even my current gf.

>>25281002
I know how that feels.
I guess on a more secret level, with the exception of the current one(for now) I've cheated on every girl I've ever dated(36 so far)

I am a legal alien

>>25280990
You're still a fucking loser for putting anyone on a pedestal. Where did you even meet your new girl?

>>25273893
I'm so annoyed with this place.
I'm so tired of taking pictures and getting one or two responses while other people take a shit pic with a potato and get twelve guys drooling over them. What the fuck is wrong with me? people will specifically reply to everyone in a thread except me.

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>>25280919
He has lied and cheated on me

>>25279920

>8 grams

Goddamn son.
Has anyone really been far as decided to use even go want to do look more like?

>>25281507
Do you have to continue to tell him to leave you alone, or you told him once and he's gone?

>>25276009
Kik?

I love my boyfriend a lot and he's so good to me but lately I feel like I want to fuck his friends. The shitty thing is they'd do it in a heartbeat. I don't think I'd ever be capable of hurting him like this and it's more so just a fantasy I have. I want it to go away, it's making me not want to have sex anymore. I've never cheated on anyone, I've always hated the concept and I'd be heartbroken if he cheated on me so I don't know why I'm thinking this way right now..

>>25280983
But see, it sounds to me like he fell in love with you too.

>>25281622
It's because women can't stand emotional security and stability, if the man isn't giving you an emotional roller coaster, you're going to make one.

You can deny, but your secret says otherwise.

>>25281587
On plenty occasions, with plenty of accounts made specifically to contact me

>>25281640
Meh then you know he hasn't changed or moved on, it would be different if there were evidence of growth

>>25281640
Huh, ID change.
I'm not sure if I just miss being in a relationship with someone or if I miss him as a person. I just know that the likelihood of being in love with someone so intensely like that again is very slim

Have a thing with this girl in my school, on and off for a couple of years. my anxiety issues made it impossible for me to ask her out. been out a few times, and each time has been somewhat awkward. I know that she still likes me because her friend accidentally told me while drunk. worst part, she's leaving for after this school year. feel like a complete idiot for wasting 3+ years and not actually asking her out. now, i have 2 months until she leaves. was gonna ask her to prom as well but she's not going. she doesn't know that i know that she's leaving, should i tell her? should i actually ask her out for real?

>>25281649
I know how you feel. I'd say just go for it, you only have so many good days in you, but I also miss my ex.

>>25281627
The deepest, darkest part of my heart wishes that to be true. I'd never pursue him though.

I'm in a completely loveless relationship. We rarely fuck and when we do, no passion. No after sex cuddles. She resents me, I know. I don't have a good job but neither does she so we're constantly struggling. She's taking school currently. She wants me to keep my job, which is fine, but to also work on the weekends, also fine. The one place that contacted me said no to weekends only. She regularly cusses me out and makes me feel less than dirt. I feel so worthless. I've never wanted to kill myself before now.

The only reason I haven't left is our son. I'm afraid I'd never see him. He's my whole world.

>>25277879
drinking is the worst

>>25281633
*tips fedora*

>>25275672
you just have an easy major

IM 21 years old and in about 2 grand of debt to the bank and too embarrassed to tell anyone because my family have always been broke and i don't want to end up like my dad

>>25281684
What do you mean about good days? And how do I know you're not him lol
I think I'll just wait if I ever hear from him again

>>25282179
Good days as in healthy, happy days. I live in MD in the Us so I doubt it's me, it's a big world

>>25277229
Im in the same situation, except shes my gf (we've been together 7 years and have a kid together). Anyways I found out it'd because she's going through depression. This whole time i thought i didn't turn her on/attract her anymore. She's always sad and cries for hours at Nights. Truth is idk how much longer i can last in this situation.

I don't know why I keep playing online games anymore, I'm not willing to put in the time to get really good. When I win I feel nothing, only the losses get bitter. It pisses me off when I lose, especially when I play with friends and they let me down.

>>25282023
One thing about debts is that they don't go away, get help before the amount rises to a point where you can't pay it off.

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>>25274368
Hydropump mate

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>>25280901

>>25280901
That's so pathetic

I am addicted to drugs and have had a life long desire to kill myself

I just want off this sad fucking ride

I was with somebody for nearly 4 years and broke up with them six months ago.

It was not a hostile breakup but she is literally incapable of leaving me alone, she wants me back. She always says things like "I'll never find anybody else like you" and alludes that her life holds no value. I'm not sure whether this is an attempt at getting pity. She needs to move on. I don't mind the odd booty call that happened since I'm single and I have needs too, and I've been very open about having zero desire to get back with her. I care obviously, and I hope she doesn't do anything stupid like hurt herself, but the depression and dependence are 3/4s of the reason i left in the first place.

I am concerned i will have to say something truly heartless and hurtful that i don't mean just to get her to fucking grow up and move on instead of clinging to the shadow of a relationship that really wasn't super great.

>>25276406
You sound like my ex

I jack off to degenerate shit to hide the fact that I miss having loving vanilla sex with my ex

Running into you a couple of months ago hurt.

I don't know if you still visit /soc/.

Why did you cheat? lie? I didn't leave the house for a few months afterwards.

I'm in shape now, and I'm coming up on two months sober. I'm also seeing somebody else, who I'll likely end up marrying.

Do you not feel ashamed, though?

Do you really not care that you hurt a person who loved you, and only wanted to see you happy?

Anyway, You came to mind while I was going through the list of people who've willingly licked my asshole, and you're one of them.

x

>>25273993
My older brother was my legal guardian through high school. We're 5 yrs apart. He helped me become independent the last time I asked to borrow some money he said no and told me that I was capablessed enough to figure it out. Best thing to happen to me I grew up fast. We're not financially comfortable at all but it's been an upward trend ever since. Nice thing about being on the bottom is the only place to go is up. I love you bro!

>>25281666
Take her out for ice cream. I'm sure she would be flattered to hear your story. I made my move with my schoolyard crush and she slapped me in the face like in the movies. Never banged but she got the point and we got friend zoned

There's a girl that works at the Safeway in my town. She would always make a point of talking to me whenever I went in shopping. Most people avoid talking to me all together but she seemed to go out of her way to chat me up. I wanted to ask her out but I felt it might be inappropriate while she was at work as I didn't want her to feel pressured or awkward because she was at work and not in a casual setting. Unfortunately that's the only place I ever saw her and I'm not sure she works there anymore because the last several times I've been in she hasn't been there. I feel like I screwed up in not asking her out. I sometimes wonder if she wanted me to ask her out. I could probably find her on Facebook, but friending her just to ask her out seems like it would be way too creepy. Oh well.

>>25277197
thundercox 8 at gmail dot com

Been so frustrated that I've been getting a nagging urge to find a pregnant chick in my area and just beat her into submission then take advantage of her unconscious body.

It's a weird thought that's crossed my mind more and more, but I've acted against it since it'd only be fun for a day until I'd feel bad for getting my hands dirty.

>>25283221
Now THIS sounds like my ex

I fucking hate this time of year. I can't fall asleep when there's light in the sky, and this close to summer is solstice, there's light in the sky at fucking 0400. And since I turned fucking 26 last summer, I'm waking up between REM cycles. And it's only gonna get worse for the next month before it starts getting better.

I should move to Canada... I'd get to live further south at the same temperature range, and have every girl I encounter thinking I had a.super sexy accent.

So badly wish that I'd been able.to get my degree rather than drop out because of depression rendering me catatonic too much of the time... There's a demand for electronic engineers in Canada. Fuck.

My wife has chronic depression. If it lasts a day or two it's fine because I do whatever she needs to get better. Whether it's support or leaving her be, she eventually gets to a point where she talks about it.

When it lasts many days, like it did this time, it's just utterly and mentally exhausting. She finally snapped out of it and talked about it and feels better. This also means no sex in 4 days, so she's horny as fuck and definitely wants the dick. I'm so exhausted from working a mentally draining full time job, and then having to help her I really don't want to, I just want to sleep. Instead I'll have to bite the bullet and make her cum, fuck her, and go to sleep late. That sounds really entitled, first world problem.

She's been doing this so much more lately that she's got me thinking about the young, slim, fit, taller than me red head that wants my fat balding ass for who knows why. I don't want to think these things, but she won't get help.

I'm cheating on my girlfriend of two years (we're in a ldr) with my best friend and the best friend doesn't know we're still together.

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Each day that goes by, I feel more like I'm realizing that I'm transgendered. Either that or something else completely. I like having a penis, but I just wonder often what life would be like if I was a girl. I know I don't pass and considering I live in Mississippi, I doubt I'd ever try to dress up for a while. I hate this feeling so much and I just wish I was normal. My best friend passes as female, and it makes me so jealous. I want to be pretty, but I feel like I'm ugly.

I sleep 20x better when I'm in a call with someone. You'd think I'd sleep great with someone in the same bed as me if that was the case, but no.

This isn't normal and fucks with my life.

I sometimes think about what would have happened had I rejected my boyfriend.
I think about how a homie of mine used to hang out with me alot back when my boyfriend would ignore me. He'd tell me there's no chance my boyfriend would cheat on me. Don't worry about it. We'd then end up hanging out at the beach together all the time. In the mean time I'd text my boyfriend pictures of us and text him begging for him to come out and spend time with me. Turns out he did cheat on me. Cheated on me with at least 6 different women and wound up in a 3-4 month relationship with one of them and got that one pregnant. Something just lead to him and I fixing what was wrong with him. He and I are in good terms and I live with him now. We're in synch and get along so much better now but it seems at the cost of a very dear friendship between my homie and myself. He's become very distant from me. And whenever we hang out without my boyfriend we grab each other by the hips and share each otehr's beers at teh concerts we see each other at. He's going to a music festival I've been wanting to go to sinc eforever ago. And oddly he's bummed out about it. told me he wishes I could go with him. Even after mentioning a girlfriend of mine wants to go with someone she can trust, he insists that he wish es I could go.

I guess I'm an asshole for giving my boyfriend a second chance because I loved (love) him so much because sometimes I do think about the what if's

Fuck. I saw him today. It wasn't planned. We talked for a while before he had to go back to work. He hugged me and I felt like I wanted to melt. I wanted it to last longer. I wanted to kiss him so badly.

I've been feeling sad all day about him. I hardly ever get to see him in person. He was able to hop online for an hour or so before he had to leave again. I felt so lonely and I wanted to tell him that I missed him.

I'm in such a fucking mess and I don't know how to deal with it. I can't tell him how I feel because it wouldn't change anything. I can't withdraw because he's my best friend. I can't throw myself at someone else to try to force the feelings out. I don't want to put someone through that. I boxed myself in when I should have been pushing him away a long fucking time ago.

It hurts way down to the bone to think about how he's so blissfully unaware. How he's already sharing his life with someone and is so very happy (I hope). I do want him to be happy, I really do but.... I guess I'm selfish. I can't just be a good person and think "Well hey as long as he's happy then that's all that matters" and just fucking move on like I should be doing.

i was in an abusive thing and i hate myself for it and i'm lashing out at everyone and am probably going to lose my friends and ugh i feel lonely and unsure how to stop being angry

27 year old guy, almost exclusively attracted to 15, 16, 17 year old boys. Never acted on it. It sucks but it is what it is

>>25284189
Its so depressing knowing that there are people like you in the world, spineless scumbag

>>25284224
I feel this so much, its always awkward when waking up imo and its awkward when the other person isn't sleeping.
I like to make a little pillow person and cuddle up to it while talking to someone, but feel uncomfortable when it's a real person? Whats up with that.

I'm lonely eck

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I want a girl I can masturbate with about all my sadistic and guro fantasies together, and hear her talk about all her masochist fantasies, but IRL we mostly just do light bondage and collar play and cuddle. It's not the fetishes I want to do IRL that I feel would scare girls off, it's the fantasies, and I want to find a girl equally excited on the opposite end so we can just picture it all together.

Vivisection and cannibalism are some of my big secret fantasies, and I want to be able to share them with someone I trust and would enjoy hearing them about her. I'd never do it IRL, especially if I could just tell someone and not be hated for it, but I would like to lick a girl along the places I would 'cut' and imagine it with her in person.

This went 0 to 100 so fucking fast, holy fuck. He asked me if I wanted to be FWB. This is bad. This is very bad. I want him but Jesus fuck I don't want his wife to be hurt if she ever found out. I can't do it. Fuck fuck fuck fuck. This is a fucking mess.

I met a guy here and we hooked up three or four times. He ended up ghosting me in late April. I did some light sleuthing and was able to find his facebook. I found out he's engaged to a woman he's been with since highschool. I panicked and closed the page. Shortly after that my phone was stolen. I decided not to tell the fiancee because I don't have definitive proof to back up my claims. Their wedding is next month. I feel like a piece of shit.

>>25285915
maybe he's in an open relationship?

>>25276079

OP here. For me the attraction is based on the fact that I've been into this kind of thing for a while now, but I've come to learn that it's not something I enjoy doing myself, but still like.

Then comes the other side which is I like to please my wife, and more so, see her being pleased (which is why I also like her using things such as toys, etc). I know that it is something that she can really get into, if she opens her mind up a little more, and seeing all these videos with women doing it and how much they enjoy it makes me want to experience seeing my wife go through the same amount of pleasure... because there's few things that can really compare (or nothing) to a dog's knot, and a dog continuously cumming hot jizz for 10+ minutes while the knot rubs the g-spot.

There might be psychological things in here too, but mainly it's what I wrote.

I'm in love with my girlfriend's sister...

>>25285915
Get over him. It was just sex and good times.

>>25279808
Find a way to tell her. Try to support her through the breakup. Because it's possible she never saw it coming. I'm currently experiencing something similar and she is completely unavailable now. I can't contact her in any way.

I can't even understand when and how it started, I still love her with the same intensity and I feel like killing myself every day.

I'm an extrovert but have no friends. zero. I don't want a boyfriend or anything like that. just other female friends to do basic bitch and trap hoe shit with. I don't think I'm ever gunna find it.

I just hate it because that's my life goal. I feel like everyones life goals are actually normal. mine isn't sad and pathetic

I'm lonely.

>>25283419
now you have an excuse to look her up.. say that you didn't want her to feel pressured cuz she was at work and its totally ok to say no now.. she will think its endearing

>>25273893

I have a life in two kids. Yet I think about killing myself constantly I think I figured out a way to drain blood from myself using a peripheral vein that would leave me brain dead but my organs functioning so that they could be harvested. And actually spent the last year bringing up in a joking manner how much better off my wife would be when I'm gone

>>25287387
>
well your kids won't be so dont be so selfish.. they need you, get professional help

Why am I doing this? Why am I torturing myself with looking in, when I can't join in? And why won't her presence stop hurting?

>>25286546
I feel exactly the same. I just want people to spend time with. I can't ever seem to get around to making life happen.

im adicted to sex and porn and I have nudes of most of the people i know, they dont know it but i tend to hack in their pc's and steal nudes, or impersonate other people in order to get nudes of my gf's friends and family, if someone ever got into my portable drive and showed it to my gf it all would be over, + i CANT say no to a pretyt girl, even a normal looking girl, that offers me sex, i just cant, even if id rather do something else, im always horny and i cam with randoms alot

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Years ago my sister got me to fix her laptop and while doing so I went into her firefox settings and copied down all of her saved passwords and now regularly go into her facebook and masturbate over her talking about being a slut and the handful of nudes she's sent to a few guys

>>25280906
greekfag?

>>25276637
Holy shit

Had a dogs fuck me on a few occasions

>>25273893
I'm here for the first time. It went b -> lit -> fit -> pol -> r9k, and I'm not sure whether this is the logical progression or should have come before r9k. At this point I'm considering posting my picture in a rate thread, although I think I'm uglier than average in those threads. This place is ruining me. I had something going for me, but now I'm just indifferent and tired.

>>25288365
nice! post more pls.. pics too if you will..

>>25288943
m or f? story please

>>25281958
criminology prelaw legal studies
suck me.

>>25289100
The first time was with my shepherd mix. He was starting to get frisky with pretty much everything, so I decided one night I should give him what he was looking for.

As I undressed it was as if he knew he was finally going to be able to breed. Before I even got on all fours his cock was visibly ready.

As I got down he immediately mounted me. He was having trouble at first and as I was about to guide him in, BOOM! Bullseye.

His bestial pleasure is the greatest fuck I have ever had. He was on a mission, and it was accomplished. Every single thrust was ecstasy. Even after he knotted me the pleasure was still flowing.

>>25289387
how old were you ? did you cum? did you taste his cock at all?

>>25289400
20
I have never cum that hard before or since.

>>25289428
what were the other occasions that dogs fucked you? any chance you'd post a discreet pic of yourself for fapping purposes?

i am male
only the last few years realized i was bi
sucked off a guy in a adult store glory hole, after he waited for to come out and asked me to go back to his place. sucked him off again and he pounded my ass, as he is fucking me, two of his friends come over. they take turns fucking me and i go ass to mouth, slobbering on their cocks. all three pissed in my mouth and i drank it down, along with thier cum. then they picked me up and all three moved in and got thier cocks in my ass and fucked the hell out of me. greatest night of my life.

i would love to get gangbanged by 100 to 200 guys

i have sucked off 5 dogs, i love how they continously cum in my mouth.
would love to get fucked by a dog but hasn't happened yet.
would like to get fucked by a dog while i suck another dog off and they just keep switching places so that i suck both off and they both fuck me for hours.

>>25289475
how was it ducking cock for first time? how was it getting fucked? what were their cocks like?

>>25289435
Most of the other times were with the same dog, but the most notable time, outside the first time, was with my Uncle's boxer.

After everyone else had gone to bed I let him into the guest room I was in and it was a great mix of fear of waking someone up and getting a good pounding. No regerts

My secret is I have an unhealthy preference for women who are mean, abusive or cold. Ultimately I always end up getting myself in trouble because of this but nothing makes me feel more alive or excited. Why can't I just be normal

>>25289496
honestly i love cocks and i love sucking them. i love swallowing cum and having it sprayed all over my face.
the three guys i was with had nice cocks, all were about 6 to 7 inches.
my favorite kind of cock is uncut, big, fat and curves downwards.
the fucking was awesome as the guys i was with used lube and they actually took really good care of me.

>>25289523
I've had a thing for girls who are damaged goods for quite some time now. I don't know why, it always ends up with the girl cheating on me. They recover and I get shat on.

>>25288033
Liking sex is normal. Keeping nudes of everybody maybe not so much.

>>25289534
Same really. It's especially appealing to me if they treat me like shit. I just wanna shout at my brain to stop enjoying things that are bad for me lol

>>25289541
I don't like it at all though. I'm no white knight but I just can't leave girls who I see are wasting their lives away.

I had maybe one or two relationships where the girl wasn't damaged goods, still ended up cheating. I don't think I can survive another one of those.

Now I just stick to taking care of my dogs, they're more loyal than my exes

>>25289534
I'm in agreement with the having a thing for girls who are damaged goods. As the song goes; 'I'm looking for baggage that goes with mine'

Just wish one of those broken girls would, for once, take a chance on someone just as broken as them.

>>25289552
Yeah thinking I should just stick to my cats instead of seeking out more people to treat me like shit hahahaha
inb4 my cats leave

Really wish upping my meds didn't give me heart palpatations, I feel like the current dose can't get the worst of the depresson.

I can play the "ignore the pain"-game so and so long but eventually it pushes through.

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>>25289083
The problem is she's been dating a guy she's serious about for a couple of years now and when they started dating she deleted most of her conversations with other guys and now they live together so obviously she doesnt talk with him about sex on Facebook.
Luckily I saved all of her nudes but there's only a few "naughty" conversations left that she didn't delete

>>25289569
I realized that our pets will die eventually lol

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>>25289584
Here's one of her nudes

>>25289610
Lol it's okay, so will we

I had sex with my best friend when I was 13.idk why but I have always felt guilty.fyi we are both dudes

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No one knows about my gf.

>pic related

>>25273893
Im a guy who likes to wear women clothes, okay thanks bye

>>25289960
lol jesus christ mang,

I hope you're treating her well at least

I am not sure if I should sleep with a hooker or not

I'm 28 years old and I have multiple mental disabilities, including bipolar disorder, AADHD, OCD and some bullshit called Oppositional Defiant Disorder (which given the way I have acted my entire life may actually be a real thing, when I stop to really think about it.) I also have a 13" titanium rod in my leg that causes me a lot of pain, but since the bone never fused back properly, it's there to stay. I have an allergy to nickel, which is commonly found in these types of implants. Because of this implant, I can no longer work the shitshow menial jobs I once relied on to sustain myself.

I've had sex with about 8 women since the age of 18, one of whom I was in a serious committed relationship with for about 4 years before she admitted to cheating on me and then dumping me. I fought for her (a mistake to be sure, I don't need you to tell me) and failed spectacularly. The last time I talked to her she sent me pictures of her having sex with her new boyfriend, who is far wealthier than I can ever hope to be.

I have no job, no education, no training. I worked a bunch of shit jobs on and off, getting fired from every single one of them, usually for arguing with a superior. Trying to get on disability, but even if or when I get it, life won't be much easier.

I know I will never have kids. I will never continue my lineage. It ends with me. I have an IQ of 182 and yet I have failed in every aspect of life because my brain is defective. The only woman I have ever truly loved wants nothing to do with me now and knows that I am a failure. I live in a camper with no air conditioning and no plumbing, and I get my electricity and wifi from my grandma. I keep all of this to myself because generally other people just belittle me for not being a "man" or for being poor without any consideration for my mental or physical ailments.

Every day I think about killing myself. At least I won't die a virgin.

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>Friday night feels
>New at this job
>Working here a few months
>Kept asking for projects and demanding interesting work for my dept
>They gave me a client alright, they mentioned it was an easy one and should be done asap
>I'm still new here and the senior people will not respond to my questions at all
>Nobody wants to help and they want to hold onto the knowledge for themselves
>Every time I need an answer I have to go to other depts and my own team won't respond to my emails
>They gave me this project to watch me fail
>I'm doing the best I can given the time I've been at this company the thing is so many of my own team members will not follow up with the questions I've asked
>They want me to fail and quit working for this company
>Currently 2am
>All I can think about is the massive project that goes live next week
>Thinking about my deadline of setting up six data centers across the US and nobody on my team will assist with this
>Either they don't know the answer to the questions I have asked or they don;t care about me at all at this company

>>25281431
post pic and let's see

>>25274290
I've started taking my old ADD meds again. They numb me and being numb is starting to look preferable to feelings sad/negative all the time.

>>25281431
I'm curious who you are too, what you look like, I lurk threads but I never really comment.

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Every year I become more of a social failure. I used to be able to hold conversations with people and go hang out with friends sometimes but now, I can't even talk to someone regularly without it being awkward for me.

>>25290916
>new at job
>wah wah give me ME the interesting new project even if i am new here and lack experience
>wah wah they gave me a project and cant handle it. who would have thought!
>wah wah no one is saving my ass because i act and talk like a cunt

I feel trapped in a life that I have no idea how to escape from. I know there's things I could be doing, but I just never know where to start nor do I have the energy to figure it out. I'm just stuck in this endless cycle of depression and some days I just want it all to end.

Everyone knows me as a laid back person who is generally a nice guy but underneath it all of my charm and sweetness lays a soul that craves twisted things. I want to use and destroy. To abuse and consume. Nobody thinks I would cheat but I have and don't feel bad about it. My current gf isn't very kinky but I am and I crave it like a drug.

Sometimes I feel guilty but the hunger builds inside and I need to it.

My nuts are soooo sweaty but I'm not ready to leave the gym yet. When I go home I'm not whet gonna shower lol

I think I'm crossing that line from drug use to abuse. Gonna try and stay sober for a few weeks.

too scared to ask out this girl that works at starbucks

>>25292168
hi

>>25292168
I know that feel anon. Know that feel.

I'm a colossal faggot, and I fucking want all homosexuals to burn,(including myself I guess. Only fair,) and I can't stop beating my dick to gay porn. A friend of mine tried to hook me up with a guy recently and he was actually really cute, and I look like fucking shit no matter what I do. He did it as a joke, but the whole time I felt so god damn red in the face, and realized that the whole "IT'S NOT GAY, IT'S A FEMININE PENIS!" argument is a complete load of shit. Especially if they're on a very much manly guy.

>>25293683
Just get into traps.

>>25293686
>Implying I wasn't
>Implying traps aren't fucking gay
>Implying implications that imply traps where any implied form of heterosexuality

>>25293691
Well, it would help in thinking they're feminine. Or just find a guy for you that you can dress up like one.

>>25293696
In what fucking universe would it not be gay? In what fucking universe can someone stand to be around someone who can't stand to be around themselves?
No, I'm just going to do the right thing and die bitter, and alone.

>>25293702
May as well fuck as many guys as you can before you do that.

>>25293706
Well, you got at least one good point.

>>25293710
Exactly. Or find one really good fuck and just use them.

>>25293713
Isn't still wrong to fuck someone else when you're not exactly in a good mental state? I'm not a virgin, just only had sex once. (The one time in my life I can't keep a boner. When presented pussy on a god damn silver platter.)

>>25293720
Eh, it depends. I mean, some guys would probably not care about it. You get horny, you wanna fuck sometimes. FWB. You may forget it if you get into it. During, at least.

>>25293727
Well, thanks for chatting with me on this. Don't really got anyone I can talk to about this kinda shit. Still doesn't feel right to me on the whole "not in a good mindset, but hey still gonna fuck" mindset. So I wont do that, but I'll mull some of the other stuff over at least.

>>25293740
Of course. Hey, maybe the guy you talk to about this is one you can fuck. :P

35 straight dude here
I was raped by some dude when i was little. He made me suck his cock. I suppressed pretty much all of my memories about and cant recall details anymore, just that it happened.

I think that screwed me up completely. I have an insane sex drive that makes me completely unfit for any kind of relationship. I cannot relax because as soon as my mind calms down, it wanders off to sex.
The stress on my brains makes me depressed.
Also because i am thinking about sex allthe time, i need to come up with different stuff to keep me interested and ive had some serious fucked up fetishes.

>>25292117
>>25291855
Ha, no thanks. I've posted enough to know that I'll never be enough

>>25289523
This is kinda cute. Mean bitches need love too, I guess.

I'm in an "open" relationship I guess. Boyfriend lives in another country, and we've been dating for 2 1/2 years. We've never visited each other yet, don't know if we ever will.

As much as I love him, I've been finding myself unhappy with him. He's a pretty big manipulator, overly sensitive, and he sometimes threatens to kill himself if I even hint at wanting to break up for good. I feel like I'm staying with him just to keep him happy.

As of the beginning of the year, we mutually agreed to keep our relationship open so that we could both keep our options open, in case we find more suitable people closer to us. My boyfriend is insistent on staying committed to me, despite people being very interested in him, but he doesn't flip out at me talking to other men (he's admitted he's kind of into cuckhold stuff).

While making friends on Kik, I met a guy that I'm really into who lives a few hours away (my boyfriend does know about him). I've found myself happier talking to him than with my current boyfriend, and I'm wondering if I should break up with him and see where things go with this other guy. I'm really not sure I want to keep staying with a person I'll likely never meet in real life, but I worry about him harming himself if I leave him.

>>25293948
Thats one abusive LDR. I dont know how old you are but my advise would be to break it off and break it hard. Destroy all connections you have, all means of communications and go for the guys that you are actually happy with and doesnt manipulate you.

>>25276087
Dogs are not crazy, bitchy, whiney, or sensitive soo not a bad plan man.

Someone wants to try findom with me. I think I'll go for it.

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I've shown my body a lot on the internet, i'm a bigger girl, and I have nice curves but i'm too scared to show anybody that actually knows and talks to me, so I just post on places like here who I know like bigger girls. It makes me feel bad that i've done this before, but sometimes i get so lonely knowing that I don't want to show my fat body to anybody that knows how I am on the inside and my "Pretty" face. I just wish I could be intimate with one person and only show them, then i'd never feel the need to hide myself and stop showing myself to random people because it hurts makes me feel like a soulless person.

>>25295698
where do you live anon?

>>25295698
That's sad, I don't know about anyone else, but my compliments are always genuine to posters so I hope you know that. Also I used to try and be socialable with the girls but that was years ago with a different thread culture. Anyway I bet you know people in real life who think you are pretty.

>>25295925
Scotland.
>>25295955
Hey thank you I really appreciate that. People think i'm okay, and some people say I have a nice face but it's not common to meet people that like bigger girls in that way.

You don't love me anymore. But I'm not letting go, if you want to be free, you should say it.

>>25295977
I like bigger girls and you sound great, do you have a Scottish accent? You might enjoy checking out the audio thread, if you enjoy Anons attention. Unfortunately I'm in America. Maybe try the chub contact thread to see if there are Scot Anons.

>>25281510
Yeah, you wanna talk about fucking ego-death. My wife sprayed me in the face with half a can of hair-spray thinking I was a hallucination because I only gave one-word answers to her questions. She thought the hallucination was bad, and she thought that would make him go away. I remember the taste, and that she had about a dozen eyes at the time. We made the mistake of playing Pink Floyd music, and Comfortably Numb lasted fucking forever.

I hate my body. I feel like im fat even though i know by others standards im not. And i feel so stupid for feeling this way, im a guy and you never hear about guys haveing problems like this. Ive started counting calories, and ill probably start working out soon. I just want to look nice again.

>>25286015
god damn care to elaborate?

>>25273893
I hit a person while driving through Vermont and did not stop.

>>25295977
Love Scotland and bigger girls.
Add me on kik if you ever want to chat: d00d81

>>25273893
I've been rejected by so many woman that I am starting to associate them with sadness and I am becoming unattracted to them because of it. My libido is dying at the age of 22

>>25295698
where abouts in Scotland anon?

>>25297720
>>25297720
Edinburgh

>>25296933
Kek brutal. Nice dubs

Confession time. I fucked him.

He suddenly started to open up more ever since last weekend, and we reached a point where we were talking openly about sex. Our preferences matched up nearly perfectly and I jokingly said that I would be all over him if he were single, and he asked "Do you want to be?" I went over to his place last night.y. I was nervous and he asked, "Do we want to get the first kiss out of the way?" We kissed on his couch then moved on to his bedroom. We pulled our clothes off and he dipped his head down to suck on my breasts. I was already wet and aching, and I ran my fingers along my pussy and used my wetness to stroke him as we kissed again.

He ate me out for a little bit but I was so fucking impatient that I made him stop so I could suck his cock because nothing gets me wetter than giving a blowjob. I wrapped my lips around his cock, took him into my mouth balls deep, and made him cum in less than two minutes. I was surprised because there was no warning. I almost gagged on all of the cum spurting at the back of my throat, but I swallowed every damn drop. He was stunned by how well I sucked dick and told me that he loved it, and loved being with someone who's so into oral sex.

We took a break and pretended to care about watching a movie for a bit before I asked him to go at it again. I sucked him off again and he asked me to lick his balls and I was like holy shit yes and just went to town all over him with my mouth. It was such a fucking power trip to watch him watch me go down on him and being showered in lovely compliments. I loved every fucking second of it. Circling my tongue around the tip, rubbing it against the rim of the head. Feeling the head press against the back of my throat as I stretched my tongue to press against the base and balls.

(1/2)

>>25298996
I stopped to keep him from cumming and told him that I wanted him to fuck me doggy style. I was so dripping wet that he slid in with one smooth push. He moaned and gripped my hips with dear life as he buried himself deep inside me. I was so fucking wet, I rubbed my clit as he fucked me. He bent forward and told me "I won't last very long like this, it feels too good." He was right. Before I knew it he had shoved his cock balls deep inside me and I could feel his cock twitching as he came.

I wish we could've kept going but it was really late at night and I had to go home. He kissed me twice more before I finally left.

I can't wait to see him again for more. I'm so excited and bouncing-off-the-walls horny. I'm going to ask him if he would like me to buy him a cock ring or use my bullet vibe on his cock or bring over some other toys sometime. We'll have to practice with him lasting longer because he really needs to fuck me harder. I wonder if he just hasn't been getting any sex regularly and needed some proper attention?

(2/2)

>>25299039
You sound like a great girlfriend.good job

>>25299039
This was absolutely written by a dude

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I had sort of a self-reflection moment about my experiences and why they seem to color my fetish palate so.

From my experience, women don't seem to enjoy giving others, or especially me, a sense of satisfaction or pleasure. Every good grace or platitude is met with a bited undertone of 'I shouldn't have to do this for you' or 'you only get this once because you didn't respond exactly how I liked it' way, in or not in so many words. Little moments of backrubs or a breakfast in bed ended in fights, especially if I ever asked for it beforehand. Not even as cause and effect, just I mention it, later it happens, then it's a fight. And I wonder if, the hurt I feel about these incidents that others don't like doing things for me, the doubts or confusion as to why, and the anger about them, bubbled up dominant into a joy of sadistic fantasies. As in, I feel this way as a sexual repentance for the wrong, a way to extract fun and power through fear or rejection as as a energy for the play. But I also want her to enjoy it, so maybe I have internalized being treated well or not earning things directly or fairly as a pain for others, that they shouldn't have to bear?

What I really hate though, is how I have to analyze my own sexual joys like this. That it can't just be 'what I like', I have to get introspective, and I see other people don't or don't have to. No one cares why femdom is the way it is, or why the gays down the hall are so into scat-play that they smell. But I'm the hyperanalyzed, all my actions are reprucussions for my society not adapting to this or that, or I'm too inadequate. I can't tell if that's real or a gaslight, and I just want to be with someone who enjoys doing things for me, and allows me to explore these feelings safely, and I don't know who to talk to, or where to start, and it's frustrating.

I know I started with the other post on guro, but fuck, this is 4chan, I was horny and feeling antsy, I don't know how to explore this stuff right.

>>25273993
I know you.

not much of a secret but I havent gotten laid in 5 years

I wish I had some one to really talk to about it but I don't feel like any one would really understand, or perhaps I'm just mental

>>25273893
I've never really been able to say this to anyone but I think my parents screwed up my ability to form relationships with other people?

I mean, I was always a quiet/reserved child but when I was seven, my mother went into a mental hospital for a long time and at that time, underwent Electroconvulsive Therapy. I never really realised she was depressed as a kid, I guess she hid it well but after the electro therapy, she became a lot moodier and would cry all the time.

Anyway, I'm not sure if I initially felt guilty that she was crying (as if it were my fault) but regardless, that was eventually superseded by guilt for apathy towards her. Like, after a certain point, I could no longer be bothered to try and talk her out of bad moods. (This was something I had to deal with from about eight until fifteen).

At the same time, my mother and father started fighting and eventually my father moved out (he was rarely home anyway due to work, so we didn't spend much time together). Problem was, we were also kind of rural, so I wasn't really used to socialising with kids before my mother got ill and after that, I was still kind of alone, except now she was overtly depressed and emotional most of the time.

Anyway, I guess my problem ever since, I've always had very nebulous relationships with other people. Like I want emotional intimacy (especially that of the paternal kind - but seeking it from either parent, especially my mother, is uncomfortable because I feel little love towards her and at least some resentment - truth be told, the person she was before she went into the hospital and the person after are two completely different people) but my relationships never get very far because I have to force those feelings.

>>25300159

Like, rarely do I feel satisfied/content around other people (usually it just takes the edge off the otherwise crushing loneliness) and usually even if they come to like me, I notice a disparity, like I struggle to feel a similar fondness for others.

Something that bugs me a little, is that, I think there are people who like me but I can't say this to them because it would hurt them. Like, I can't say "Sorry, I feel nothing towards you", though in truth, sometimes it feels like it slips towards resentment, perhaps because I hate the fact that I have to maintain these social connections, almost as if they were flowers.

To some extent I also realised that part of me was scared of opening myself to people because I'm scared that if I get too close, I'll be "obliged" to help them or I'll begin to feel sorry for them and it stresses me because I'm scared of that pressure, of being loving someone and thus feeling compelled, because of that affection, to put myself into another emotionally draining situation, albeit, out of choice this time.

That said, I don't think the fear I describe above explains my complete aversion/dislike of others. Like, maybe it's just because I'm also now slightly depressed and bitter but I find myself being rather callous towards strangers (i.e. people in chat rooms), like, it makes me feel a lot better - briefly - than proximity ever does. But again, this also kind of bothers me because I know I'm making other people feel bad and souring my own potential relationships with other people.

>>25300159
>>25300167

>i know these feels

rough stuff anon.

do what you will, but I suggest you do your best to forgive your mother. if not for her then for yourself. that stuff can bury you if you let it.

but obviously its easier said than done.

nearly murdered a guy when I was younger

used to work in the drug trade

was planning on using profits to gain immense influence in a certain third-world country

I used to prefer banging taken/married women

worst of all, this one absolutely no one knows, I like to read (good) fanfiction

>>25273893
Me and my little brother made out when I was 7 and he was 5. And I'm a guy

>>25300196
I don't blame her personally, for what it's worth. Like, I get that she can't help but as you probably appreciate, it's hard to feel any real strong emotion towards her either.

I don't know what I did to make you go from considering me your best friend to not being able to talk to me much/if at all in the span of a week.

Whatever I did, I'm sorry.

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I'm a functioning drug addict, which enables my appetite for sexual deviance.
I'm reckless with my health/body, already have caused irreversible damage and live with the consequences. A burden so heavy it tugs me closer to the presi face.
I hide the scars well enough, sometimes forgetting altogether, however:
.The world doesn't disappear when we close our eyes, but it can change overnight.

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>>25299938
>Still hasn't realised that women want you to take from them what you want and will despise y ou if you dont.

Its mostly bitching to provoke you enough to put them in their place brah. There is a reason most women warn you they're no good at the star of involvement.
Always look at what they do, don't listen to their explanations because they will never escape their innate solipsism. Do what YOU want to do at any moment. Don't be afraid to yell or intimidate her. Talking down to them gets them especially wet.

>>25299938
I've learned that whatever your own little sexual fantasies are, don't be ashamed. Most if not all people are just as deviant or much more taboo.
And if they deny that one fact, then they are into the really crazy shit.
Everyone is crazy, everyone is awkward, everyone has issues. You do you and fuck the rest.

I'm so fucking frustrated with trying to date. I'm turning 28 this Sunday, and am still a virgin nor have I ever been in a relationship. All I want is to experience that love that comes from seriously caring about someone and all that comes with it. I'm incredibly shy and introverted so meeting new people is extremely difficult for me. I'd like to think that I'm average looking, but have had almost no success with online dating. I just hate having been alone for so long.

>>25300958
Instead of forced or filtered interaction, I would suggest structured interaction. Take a class, find a club where there are women. Then you already have an icebreaker.
I wont lie to you though, its trial and error. So just start testing approaches and methods. The pussy is nothing to frustrate over.

I wish i could stop emotionally investing myself in everyone that gives me any sign of affection. Like i pretty much fall for anyone that shows me they care, and it always hurts so much.

>>25276059
Does your name begin with L?

I'm in a poly relationship currently. My long term partner knows my new girlfriend and I know her long term boyfriend. Neither of them know we're fucking at all. Even more that it's without a condom and that I've been cumming inside of her.

>>25284948
Does your name begin with L?

>>25290177
Pretty similar here, scary how high IQ doesn't seem to make it so mental problems don't happen :(

My gf of 6 years broke up with me then started dating my best friend. This was all about 3 months ago, i broke off contact with both of them but since we kinda share the same group of friends its hard to forget about them. I don't know whether im angry or sad. This is all compounding with my grades dropping rapidly and im starting to not be able to keep up with my debts. Some days i think just how easy it would be to walk into the wilderness with no intention of coming back.

>>25301773
Mines not super high but I think it does the opposite ignorance is bliss

>>25301727
This this times a million

Don't feel love for anyone or anything. Don't love myself. Always alone even if i hang out with people. Also have a std that doesn't help out either.

>>25300524
M?

I live a pretty normie life, but I just have this want in the sexual department to dominate someone. Male or female but it gets over the top I feel like I'll never get to experience it.

>>25289619
U got kik or post more nudes

>>25289619
Add me spikedkiller69

>>25276015
what makes you think its romantic

I had completely moved on from my ex emotionally and was ready to leave her for about 4 months before I finally left her.

I'm not sure what's wrong with me. No matter how hard I try, I can't feel emotions for other people. I don't feel sad for them, or angry at them, or care about them at all, but I also understand that a lack of empathy is a big sign of mental problems. I don't have violent tendencies, which is good. I just don't really feel at all, but I wish I could.

The way I've felt since I was maybe 9 years old is I always wanted to be a girl I wish and wish that I could wake up in the morning as a girl but when I'd talk about that I'd get called a fag or a retard or my dad would beat me. Then once I hit 8th grade I started exploring my sexuality and I found at times that I'd rather be a girl or that girls weren't as attractive to me as I had once thought. I talked to a therapist about that and they said it was just a phase so I repressed that for awhile. Then towards the end of 10th grade I started cross dressing and I started to notice that I felt more comfortable in women's clothing than men's clothing. That went on until about the summer before I turned 19 then I joined the military to try and run away from how I felt and it only confirmed that I wasn't exactly straight, and then I started thinking more girly thoughts everyday and well here I am, a few months from 20 and I feel depressed

I've let guys come over to my house to jerk off and cum into my sisters panties

Struggling alcoholic at the age of 19 and still in love with the woman who stole my heart and left me

i hope i die in my sleep tonight

I've wanted to leave my current girlfriend for the last three years. She emotionally a complete train wreck who refuses to try and work on herself. She refuses to have any kind of intercourse I would enjoy, all she does is masturbate and sleep all day and uses my money to buy weed for her undiagnosed fibromyalgia. I'm fairly certain she hadn't tried to get a job the entirety of our relationship. And she did if I leave her she'd probably kill herself. The only course if action I can see without the constant fear of her blood on my hands is suicide.. but I don't want to die. I feel like I'm stuck in limbo because I'm a coward.

I wanna fuck my partner's sister

>>25304406
Been there.. you gotta leave.

It will destroy you but you will either thrive eventually or be in the same spot, but with only your problems to deal with

I struggle falling asleep by myself.

I stay late at my after-school job as a clerk so that I can have sex with my bosses. It started with just one of them a couple of weeks ago but now both of them stay after work with me.

>>25304406
oh god im so sorry. i resonate w this bc i have almost been that gf. is she aware of her situation? have u tried to encourage her to get like medical help?

I'm really really into scat play

>>25302330
???

>>25304406
You need to take care of you first always. It can be really hard and you can try to help but YOU matter most right.

when i was 16 on holidays, i was sick and spent that day in the hotel alone, and went out onto the balcony and jerked off, the balconies all connected to eachother so neighbor could easily see, halfway through stroking i noticr a woman in her late 30s / 40s watching me stroke myself and she was smiling, i let her see even more and when i came she licked her lips, did it again the next day and i came so quick, never spoke or even touched her sadly, now i'm 19 and have a thing for older women and being watched, anyone want to message me, hmu on kik or skype, wildboi1998

>>25280814
>In older times, people

You have no idea what people did in older times, and probably in any times, ever. Get the fuck out of here and take you shitty ass knowledge with you

>>25289584
>haha
>haha

What a mentally ill retard of a sister you got there, dude

>>25290177
>I'm literally a genius but my adhd and, wait for it, ocd ;.; is ruining it for me

Fucking kill yourself

>>25304478

Do they cum in you?

>>25273893
I raped my bestfriend in highschool when i was drunk. Afterwards, she apologized to me saying that she was using me when we both know that i forced myself on her. I stalked her for my entire college life, even calling girls i was in relationships with at the time by my friends name during sex or in casual conversation. Eventually my friend grew fearful of me and tried to cut off contact. I became friends with her new boyfriend just to follow her more easily.

>>25305859
You need to get some fucking mental help dude. I'm trans and I get I'm "mentally ill" but you just brought a whole nother level to the chess game.

>>25305897
Oh believe me i know. However, an official diagnosis is a stigma i cant carry into my profession, so i have to carry this around and let it fester, even though i know it's horrible.

>>25305925
Find a hobby that'll distract both financially and mentally
I suggest table top gaming.

>>25305930
Funny you mention that. I actually dm once a month with a group of dudes from college.

>>25298996
>>25299039


>>nothing gets me wetter than giving a blowjob.

Definitely a dude wrote this

>>25305533
Does your first name start with an M...

>>25275719
don't do it man, i used to feel this way too but was forced out of it thanks to a good friend of mine. you have worth and someone somewhere loves you, always remember that please

>>25292137
>project completed successfully from my end just waiting on other depts now
>Also picked up some more projects

>New shit to complain about
>Client decides to light a fire and wants to complete project asap and now I only have months to get it all done...
>Nothing really to complain about but I like to bitch on occasion

All I want to do is make a guy cum. I've never done it before and want to know what it's like.

>>25273893
mental health declining tried seeking help but they just brushed me off so day by day i let my mind slip into darkness while i build up the courage to kill as many people as i can before i off my self

>>25284189
I broke up with her today.