You know the drill

>>24880314
I browse this shit all day when my gf isn't around...

>>24880322

lol same dude

>>24880323
mine would give me some "rape culture..." lecture if she knew about it...

I wish I had never discovered 4chan. I know for a fact my life would have turned out better if I hadn't

I'm cheating on my wife with a slut from /soc/

>>24880559
How??? I'm gonna need a play by play tutorial.

>>24880582
> be married
> hang out in soc
> message one of the sluts
> she's a slut, she wants sex
> doesn't care that I'm married
> keep fucking

>>24880588
Okay but how do you keep that from your wife without her knowing?

a smoking fetish, getting really hard seeing attractive young females smoke

>>24880623
It's easy to hide. Plenty of ways to chat and arrange things secretly. Then make an excuse about where I'm going to be in the evening.
The only thing that's hard is staying somewhere overnight - that needs a lot more planning.

Cheating is crazily easy if you want to do it.

>>24880637
I'm about to meet up to fuck a married dude from soc and I'm not trying to get him caught. That makes me feel better about being a homewrecker. Hahah

>>24880649
Is the fact that he's married part of the fun or just a happy accident?

>>24880658
It's part of it for sure. I don't think it'd be nearly as hot if he wasn't cheating. I don't want to ruin his marriage though bc that would be terrible and even though I'm a shit person, I don't wanna fuck someone's life up.

>>24880661
Wouldn't be your fault if he lost his wife. He's the one in the relationship. Cheaters deserve it and the wife would probably get everything.

>>24880661
I love how there are girls who enjoy being the other woman. Much easier to fuck someone when they know why you're trying to sneak around.

And it's hot to have a girl grab your wedding ring when you're fucking her.

>>24880672
Fuck. I'll definitely have to do that. He's never cheated before so I don't want him to be stupid about it. Obviously this isn't the point of this thread, but do you wanna Kik? :3

I really like hairy girls. And traps. And trans mens. And trans girls. And meaty clits and lips.

And I really like pee play.

And scat.

When I was 14 or something, I just got it in my head that i wanted to wear a diaper for a day. So i biked to the store, bought some and then wore them around for like 8 hours. It took a few times to work up the courage to use them, but eventually i did....and it was amazinggg.

Ive cornered myself to a pretty niche market though, so i sometimes worry i'll be alone forever, or if i do find someone i'll have to keep these fetishes secret or ill lose them. Not a lot of young hot lesbians that don't shave, have biiig clits and lips, and are into pee play and diaper play and scat.

>>24880681
are you m or f? I'm down to kik and talk about my cheating experiences ... jd_g3

woah boy here we go
First time ever saying this anywhere

For a year or two my older sister used me as practise for kissing and touching eachother when I was maybe 9/10 and she was 12/13 (hard to remember).
I didnt know better at the time and once it stopped it was never once mentioned or acknowledged again.
Honestly I truly forget it ever happened sometimes but when it springs up I wonder just how much it fucked with who I am

>>24880681
You sound incredibly fun.

I'm in love with two people at once and if it was feasible then I'd want to be polyamorous. I used to believe that I was a strictly monogamous person but my capacity for love is greater than that. Maybe I'm greedy. Maybe this is my savior complex. The problem is that I do nothing in degrees. I always love far too much or far too little. I don't know how to let go and return my feelings to a place that's socially acceptable.

I get horny and let my dog lick pb off my cock

I had a threesome with my step sister and her friend, and sometimes we get each other off

>>24880322
Lame AF. I wouldn't want a guy who's upset at me for browsing this.

>>24880919
Thank you! I'm just a horrible person. Lmao.

>>24881039
Greentext story

> I am 22 years old, married, have a child, and take care of my mother.
> I constantly think about selling all my possessions, maybe even whore myself to a couple of dudes, and take my whole income tax return and run.
> Run far the fuck away.

>>24881409
ah, forgot about the part of wanting to kidnap my child, too.

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Had a sex dream about my sister and can't stop think about fucking her. She looks so hot to me now and I want her really bad. Pic related.

>>24881409
are you hot enough to be a whore? hows ur sex life?

My younger brother used to sleep in my room with me because he had nightmares on an almost daily basis. I've always had the inability to sleep properly or on time, so I would start to touch him while he slept and he slept pretty heavily. Keep in mind I was 11 and he was 9 at the time and I did it out of curiosity more than anything else.

>>24880314
I have a long-term bf and have always thought of myself as straight, but fantasise about a married woman I know. She's late 40s and fat, I'm 27 and slim. I don't know what's got into me. She turns me on as much as any guy ever has.

I got my little cousin (by 5 years) to kiss me. She had a crush on me and wanted to. I knew it was wrong, but a bunch of my other cousins did stuff like that to/with me, so I figured it was sorta normal. Considering how many stories I hear from friends/4chan/experience, it's not crazy I guess. I might also be remembering it wrong.

>>24881409
full body pic please

Mine is to have a sexual emcounter with a transsexual. Even though I have a gf. She asked me one day if I was gay and told her no. She thought I was sense I look at shemale porn. I told her it's just something I always was interested in.

I love to watch girls gain weight. Watch their asses get bigger, tits, hips, thighs... love to fuck thick girls too. It doesn't mean I like that ssbbw shit.

I like to compare their old pics to new pics

>>24881089

I'm a kinky guy, and I've done some shitty stuff so by no means am I preaching, but..

That attitude screams sociopath to me. You can appreciate his wife's feelings should the truth come out, but you don't care enough to not go through with it anyway?

> 15 at the time, male, it's a blurry memory.
> 7-8 yo cousin and I go upstairs
> We watch t.v. And then I have this urge to touch him (I was abused as a child too, so I guess I perpetuated the cycle unconciously)
> I start getting my hand near his privates and making him touch mine (clothes on).
> He doesn't complain, probably confused.
> We separate and day ends.

> He stays for a sleepover while our parents go do some business.
> And then I go full weirdo with him most of the night. (We [4] agreed to sleep on boxers).
> Start from touching to rubbing each others privates against themselves. Really sexual, no penetration just male scissors...
> He migrates to another country days after.
> Still wonder how much I might have damaged him as they did with me.

>>24880637
are you guilt at all? do you think your wife could cheat on you too?

>>24880314
I haven't had a job in years and live with my dad again. Thinking of jumping in front of a train before my 29th birthday rolls around.

>>24880866
had similar experience...

>>24882178
>are you guilt at all? do you think your wife could cheat on you too?


I don't feel guilty really - not as guilty as I should, probably.

She wouldn't cheat on me. She's not that sort of person. But I'm not sure that I'd mind if she did.


[ ID changed since I moved from phone ]

oks said this in these kinda treads before i like to trap dress really nicely garderbelts stockings the works then do cam shows i have made abit of tokens not close to what i spent on makeup and clouthing tho , this i also like to ride dildos

>>24880866
I had very similar experiences.

(F/29 here)
Here's my list:

My brother and i, when we were maybe 5 and 8 yrs old, experimented with toys. Not sex toys. Literal kids toys. Poked each other's genitals with a plastic toy shovel, barbies, you name it.

My older cousin never had a sister so he bribed me so he could see what was underneath. He said he would play little mermaid with me if i showed him what was under my panties. I got the better end of the deal because i got to see his dick too. To this day, that was the first and only uncircumcised dick i have ever seen IRL.

Friend's dad molested me when i was 7 or 8. Had his daughter and i straddle him and kiss him. He also used to wrestle with us in our underwear. I am positive he did more to us than all that, but the memories are very fuzzy.

Female cousin and i learned how to kiss from each other when we were maybe 12. We were hiding in a closet, imitating kissing scenes from movies. Lol. Her mom caught us though. Quite awkward.

Almost lost my virginity in a threesome when i was 15 on a cruise with my family. This 18yo guy, another 15yo girl and i were all fooling around and we almost fucked him (both of us were virgins), but he had too much to drink and threw up... i truly wish it had happened because that would be a helluva story to carry forever.

Signed up for AFF when i was 18. Fucked a 55yo government agent, a 40-some/yo, and a 39yo.

The list goes on....
Needless to say, i dont normally share these things.

>>24881028
Ive let my pit bull fuck me AT LEAST dozen times. i call him upstairs and as soon as that door closes, he knows whats's up...

>>24881061
Yeah really. Who gives a fuck. Browsing isnt wrong. Fuck those overcontrolling relationships.

Friend of mine's gf wont even let him look at anything over pg13 bc of the nudity. He is almost 30. We all give him so much shit, but he says she is "his queen". Vomit.

>>24882604
How does it feel getting fucked by a dog? Do you feel dirty and slutty?

>>24882608
this is pretty hot, the novelty of it is exciting. im too much of a control freak to let this happen but on paper it sounds fun.

having an overbearing girlfriend

>>24880334
Yer gonna go to jail anon. Dump the bitch. Gently. Or yer gonna go to jail

Maybe tell her ur gay now

>>24882600
>Friend's dad molested me when i was 7 or 8. Had his daughter and i straddle him and kiss him. He also used to wrestle with us in our underwear. I am positive he did more to us than all that, but the memories are very fuzzy.

This is why you should never believe womens rape stories

>>24882697

No, it's why men should be genocided with only a few crippled and left for breeding purposes.

Remember ladies of /soc/, abort any and all male fetuses!

>>24882712
woman cant even open jars how ar you ever going to wipe out men top kek

I don't get it.

This girl gives mixed signals, and hints towards days that shes free so we can do something. But she never fucking agrees to a day. Either says she's busy, but we should, or just out right ignores it.


Nervous? Insecure due to loose skin (She visibly has some)? or what?

>>24882639
Oh it is amazing. I loved whenever he would knot inside me, and how the cum would just pour out of me (quite literally) when i stood up afterwards.

>>24882753
Do any guys know that you did that? Would you let them watch?

>>24882745
Just ask her about the mixed singles. Skip all the bs

>>24883738
I suppose. It's partially that I am honestly afraid of losing her as a friend incase it goes poorly

seeing a petite half asian/half latina hooker on friday and then a skinny russian hooker with huge tits a week later

>>24882287
i was unemployed for a year after getting sober and then getting fired (this is as an adult with a wife and kid)

after a while I thought, "I'm probably going to have another job at some point before I die, I just can't control when" and after that it became easier.

got a job, quit, got another, quit, went to school for a bit, got another, still have it, got promoted

shit changes, I'd stick around a bit longer

>>24882169
>> He migrates to another country days after.
where are you from and where did he migrate to

>>24880866
do you think it did? how? just curious...

>>24881453
Kik me I wanna jerk off to her

Usernametm50

I think I might be at least bi.

I fantasize about and want to see (physically or on video/pictures) all of my exes being fucked by other guys.

I think i legit might have an std.

>>24881061
I mean, wouldn't it depend on the intentions of someone coming on here? What if your SO was using /soc/ to find girls to cheat on you with?

If he's just browsing, who cares. But adding girls and making plans? I'd have an issue with that.

>>24883926
Would kill to watch my ex get fucked. Since we broke up she's been in gangbangs and orgies

Would love to watch her suck a cock and hop on dick

I have finally come to realize that I'm not that actually good looking. At all. I just thought I was a 6 or 5 but I feel like a 4. I want to get cosmetic surgery. I have horrible acne scars which is definitely needed but my nose is normal. My nose has a dorsal bump and I plan to remove that. A nosejob feels possible but to get clear skin seems literally impossible right now which makes me cry. I am hoping the scientists behind the Skin gun get FDA approval within a year and can start working on cosmetic surgery for scars. I constantly get depressed on my looks because it feels like it's impossible to change them. I'm planning to save up money right now for the possibility of clear skin and the nosejob. I want to finally be happy with my looks. I want to feel handsome.

>>24884867
I've been told I was attractive my whole life, but never felt like I was (I'm a male). I went down the path you are talking about. I'm usually lazy, but the idea of getting cosmetic surgery motivated me to make money. I went from being unemployed to making around six figures over the course of two years. I lived at home and got procedures from work done on my nose, tattoo removal, lasik eye surgery, moles remove, skin tags removed, stretch mark lazer treatment, lazer hair removal, you name it. Honestly, I don't really think it all even did anything. It's all about accepting who you are and knowing that there are different people out there, some nut job may even think you're a 10 and treat you well.

>>24884935
That's true but I'd like to feel good about myself. I know it's not all about the looks in a person. I could see somebody probably liking me right now which is possible, no doubt, but I want to like myself. I just wish I could like seeing myself in the mirror for once. It really ruins my day just looking at my myself and seeing the scars and nose (mainly the scars).Thank you though!

>>24880314
i had sex with two prostitutes, i have never had sex outside of prostitution

32 m virgin los angeles

kik: zsasza

My only friend won't talk to me anymore and I don't know why. My own father hates me and makes me cry on a regular basis.

Really been thinking about dying again lately.

>addicted to small penis humiliation porn
>average penis
>pretty sure I have herpes
>10k in debt while no degree and working shitty wage job
>got kicked out of military

should I off myself?

i've lost count with how many people i've had sex with

I have murdered several drug dealers in my state over the past 8 months

I have a GF of 8 years and I don't want to have kids with her. However, I have a raging creampie/impreg fetish. I wanna find some cute chubby little slut with big tits and a pregnancy fetish, get a hotel room and knock her up all night long. I want her to know about me cheating and I want her to have a cheating fetish herself

>>24881018
Does your name start with j or b?

>>24885050
go on..

I'm fucking my girlfriend's sister regularly. She's not that much hotter but she's far more depraved.

I am the sub in a financial domination relationship that I'm in with a guy who I went to high school with. He was an effeminate guy who I would describe as emo or scene. I was a senior when he was a freshman and I was obsessed with his feet because he always wore sandals and had very feminine yet large feet.

I had found his Instagram accidentally and sent him a message through an anonymous account to see if he would be willing to enter a financial domination with another guy. He responded positively to the idea so I outed myself and he remembered me after I sent him a photo.

This was a few months ago and I love serving him. I am currently in chastity and 60% of my earnings go to him, I also drive for Uber and 100% of my earnings in that go to him.

He is finishing up his senior year of high school and living life on easy mode. I can't complain because I get to massage and lick his soles every week.

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>>24885264

>>24882122
Rationally acknowledging the potential consequences of something but going ahead with it anyway because you horny af isn't sociopathic, it's being horny.

>>24885286
No, being horny doesn't mean you can't prevent yourself from doing (or not doing) things. It is being sociopathic while being horny.

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Shortly after I discovered my now ex-wife having an emotional and possibly/probably physical affair with a guy she worked with, I brought home a chick from the bar when she was out of town coaching. Made her squirt and gave her a creampie right the fuck on our marital bed. Another time she was out of town and I brought home a stripper that had been one of my HS students several years earlier. We played Super Nintendo for a while and then fucked but I was too drunk to cum. Made me feel like less of a cuck and now I cheat on my girlfriend every once in a while when she's out of town and don't even feel bad about it. Pic and link related, her name was Liz but stage name was Cali. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pZf3iV_l67Q

>>24885008
You know why.

>>24885241
What sort of "depraved"? Is she trying to outdo her sister?

I'm in love and want to fuck my best friend.

She is also in love with me and wants to fuck me.

Problem is, she has a boyfriend of 5 years that she doesn't wanna break up with just because they've been together for so long.

I'm going to get them to break up.

There's this qt that I wanna ask out but she knows a bit about my past shit involving my ex who I broke up with about 3 months ago. Can't help but think she won't see me as a possible interest because of having recent history. What do?

>>24885142
Neither. A

>>24885008
So what is it you won't say to your friend that had them stop talking to you?

As >>24885444 said, you know why this is happening. Might as well admit it here since you can't admit it to them.

>>24885046
I wish I had that "problem"

i had sex with my best friends older sister, 4 years later and he still doesn't know

>>24885683
ur getting cucked

>>24882287
man, don't do that shit to the train operators - fucks them up :/

>>24886041

negative

she spends more time with me than with him

we've spent almost every day together this past month and she spent one afternoon with him last month. we almost fucked but she felt bad about cheating so we didn't. she gets wet just sitting next to me though, it's fucking unreal

straight male. want to experiment with guys. also wanna get my dick rated / dirty talk on kik

There's a lot of my friends who think that I've only slept with my husband, and maybe one or two other guys before I was with him.

In truth I've completely lost count of how many guys I've had sex with, or even just dicks I've had in me. We have an open relationship and I love it. I also used to slut around a lot before I met him. I'm not ashamed of it, I just don't care if they know.

>I will tell you where the bodies are buried?

I'm in a stable relationship with my girlfriend but prostitute my self out to kinky old men to pay for my domino's pizza addiction and course materials.

I wish i was kidding.

>>24886156
>you do care.

>>24886256
Nah. Sounds like you do though. Go you.

>>24886156
You sound like my kind of girl. Wanna fuck?

>>24880314
Man this is gonna be super fucking lame but here goes;
I'm 18 in an open relationship and one of the men I am seeing is in his 40's. Issue here is that I'm starting to develop some pretty intense emotions for him, I honestly could care less for my boyfriend anymore, but I also know that a 40 year old would never ever be interested in me because I'm too young an immature and I have no experience.
I also have some pretty extremely jealousy issues that make it hard to be with him, but I can't leave. I can't stop seeing him because it kills me when I'm away, and I just want to sit and listen to him talk forever. I don't know how to handle it.

Skype is punkk-slut if anybody wants to contact me

>>24886596
>I also know that a 40 year old would never ever be interested in me
Don't believe that. Check out the DDlg threads for examples of how that relationship can work, and work really happily and well.

And I'm gonna bet the man you're seeing has his own version of what you're thinking, his being "how can someone so young and vibrant ever want to be with someone as old as I am?"

H,

I'm nauseous from thinking of you, so I haven't been eating much.

I needed to know what you wanted, and it wasn't me. That's fine.

I'm well-equipped to keep myself occupied, but distractions are a pitiable foundation for happiness. (Contentment?)

All as if I'd care for having someone who'd only have me out of lonely weakness.

-

P,

I still admire you for all the reasons I did before, but it's become undeniable that we're all wrong for each other.

We want different things. Stop trying to make yourself suit me; you'll only resent me for it later.

I know you don't love me, and that you haven't for a long time. Where there were once spontaneous gestures of affection, there grew scorn and flippant dismissal.

Watching contempt take the slow place of love is a torment far beyond any I'd ask for, and I did ask. (And you acquiesced to appease me; the choking, spanking, wrapping your fist in my hair with enough vigor to cause me to wince, using it as a sort of leash to guide my head down.)

That you've been trying to reassemble what once was is all the more painful.

Stop.

You don't love me: you've grown comfortable and you're afraid of change.

>>24885041
>got kicked out of military
What did you do anon?

>>24885050
Hi Duterte

>>24885264
What do you live on?

>>24885457
I also want to know

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I'm currently been dating a girl for two solid years, I love her.

But I'm also attracted to my male best friend, we experimented once. I told him it wasn't my thing, but it fucking was.

I am now currently questioning if I'm bi or whatever, though I don't want to destroy my current relationship nor my friendship.

end it all.

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I no longer have any friends and the only woman I've ever loved can't be with me.

Something interesting has been happening lately the man that used to be my best friend who's no longer really my friend has to started to become something different... a brother of sorts.

I never knew him to be religious and although I was brought up in a very religious household I've strayed away from it slightly as I got older, but now we have talks faith and what God has planned for us.

We read and watch the news seeing and knowing that what God has planned is coming, it's nothing nearly as melodramatic as the "apocalypse" or what is spoken of in Revelation.

We talk about how the hardest part is waiting for when it is to come and knowing that he has a plan for us but not knowing what exactly that is.

While waiting for what is to come I'm trying to fulfill a personal quest of sorts, one that I know he would want me to... but I've been family miserably at it and sometimes my faith wavers and I wonder if it's better not to build anything for myself knowing what is to come.

>>24885241
Please tell me how you managed this

Nothing gets me as hard as cuckold porn and I frequently masturbate to it.

I don't want to be a mother anymore. I want to pack bag, run away, and never return. I'm so tired of doing everything by myself. I have a demanding medical condition and my 3 year old is fucking developmentally delayed. My son's father isn't in the picture anymore due to a no-contact order put in place after a domestic assault charge for beating me up. I can't fucking do this. I want out.

>>24885767
Alex? M/f?

>>24889515
Put him up for adoption before it's too late.

>>24886879
I actually am into DD/lg, my aforementioned relationship is Dd/lg.

But the thing about this 40 yo guy, he's VERY open. He's extremely attractive, in the military so very fit, and probably has...well, the perfect personality. He can get any woman. He fucks endless amounts of much more attractive woman than me, who I have no doubt are also more intelligent and more fitting for him.

He goes long amounts of time without texting me, even if I've texted him. He could go a week without even thinking about me. I have no importance to him, no more than any other woman he sees. I'm not special to him.

Well I had a reoccurring dream about a me and my friend as kids discovering this tunnel in my basement. Well I finally got the nerve to delve through my crawlspace and sure enough there is a tunnel there.

>>24889515

See this >>24889870

I share my GF's nudes with my best friends

I have borderline personality disorder and only my best friend knows. I haven't told her much because I don't like bothering other people with my problems.

My normal me is a balance between my two personality sides. One is mean, cynical, angry, a jerk, but a confident alpha. One is kind, naive, paranoid, easily upset, anxious but usually happy.

I hate it so much when I get out of balance. My best friend is great and I'm closer to her than I've ever been with anyone but I can't bring myself to talk to her much about it. It's also worse because I'm in love with her and she has a big crush on me even though both of us have our own relationships with other people and we'll never be together.

cutting is an addiction. I haven't done it since july 2016 but last night i had a crazy random feeling of just wanting to die as soon as possible, and the strongest urge to cut i'd ever had. I kept thinking, where can i put it? not my arms, because i work in t shirts, i dont want it on my thighs, thats ugly, not under my left boob (used to do it there, but I dont like the scarring), and i finally settled on my right upper calf. i try to stop myself with the argument that im too fucking poor to be breaking my razors and shit for self harm but jesus fuck.

I can't get my hands on vodka (I stole some from local grocery market and now its all locked at the front of the store), which is the best thing, ever. I didnt even know i had a drinking problem. i love to drink. i love getting drunk. i dont drink because i enjoy the beverage I drink to get stupid. I dont stop when I should, and i say embarrassing things when i'm drunk and when im sober im just trying to find ways to get drunk. I'm still under 21 so cannot purchase it myself and i have no friends.

I'm in an LDR and i really fucking love him/he's so great. I'm really fucking insecure and try not to act like it, "do you think im fat? are you sure you love me? you don't think i'm crazy?" etc. I want to ask these but dont. which is good. but ive put on some weight since we met over 2 years ago, and im worried hell reject me and not find me attractive (muscular and curvy-thick, but i am constantly worried if other people think i look fat, because i cant tell). I dont mind my size THAT much, im recovering from EDNOS, and i'm starting to get comfortable with my bit of chubs but what if we have sex one day and he thinks im gross??? my biggest worry about accepting my body is that other people (my SO included) will think im ugly or too chubs or fat. idk. I exercise frequently, so not requesting tips.

im an incredibly lonely and self loathing alcoholic who wants to kill herself.

I want a nose piercing but I wouldn't be able to handle the questions on why I got it..
I'm male btw

I've recently realized I'm an alcoholic. I have an extremely addictive personality, but I kept thinking I was fine since I could go days without a drink and be fine. I still can, but I can't stop thinking about it. I strictly drink vodka, and even though it tastes like ass it's a taste I want to keep tasting. I love the way it makes me feel, I love the carelessness, I love the recklessness, I love not giving a shit. I think about it when I've had a bad day, I think about it when I've had a good day. I can't stop thinking about how much I love the numbing sensation that courses through me when I hit the drunk stage. I'm not even 21 yet, and I can't go a day without craving the bitter poison on my tongue.

>>24891329
lets be friends

>>24885041
Leave the country and start over somewhere else dude.

>>24885050
How....

I cheated on my ex so many times that I can't even remember the exact number, with like 15-20 chicks I met online. Then I married my wife never cheated on her in these 5 years we are together, however every time we fuck I think I'm fucking some of the girls I fucked before.
Sometimes I miss those days, I think that to have sex for the first time with someone is the hottest thing in world

I feel quite confident that I am either in the early stages of transcendence or psychosis.

Within the last half a year or so I have lost almost my entire appetite and almost all apparent ability to feel emotion. I don't get sleepy anymore, although I do still sleep mostly out of habit, and I am finding it increasingly easy to complete physical and mental tasks that were previously more difficult for me.

I don't know what the hell is going on, and I haven't told anyone about it because I sometimes think it's all in my head, but then I also start to wonder if all of the limitations that kept me whatever I was "pre-transcending" were all in my head, and then I sort of have an existential crisis so I focus on something else.

Somebody help me figure this out, it's a little frightening.

So many secrets. Where to start?

I am have fetishes for really hairy girls, asians, indians, midgets.

I have another snapchat account I use to talk to girls and shit on that my gf doesn't know about.

I have a very convincing fake fb account which I use to pretend to be interested in girls and I get nudes from them.

Part of me wants to physically cheat on my gf because I have lost some of that physical attraction to her but I don't think I could actually go through with it. I think I would feel too guilty.

90% straight and will never get the experience that 10% wants.

>>24891478
You might be experiencing some pre-psychotic break symptoms. You need to go to a doctor and get some help before you develop schizophrenia or something.

i cum to stolen pics of the same girl every night for the past 7+ years

thinking about leaving my trans SO. thought i was cool with it but i miss being with other girls and im starting to not be attracted to her at all.

>>24891704
Assuming it is some sort of mental affliction coming on, will seeing a doctor prevent me from developing the affliction?

I like trans with very tiny dIcks

I portray myself as very normal and innocent at times, while in reality I love sucking cock and do it with friends behind my bf's back

Trans MTF here. Used to be all about the monogamous stuff, And fantasies were just fantasies.

Now i'm married, being a slut has a huge appeal.

I have been fucking a beautiful 20 yo girl and came inside her half a dozen times. She's going to get pregnant and have a baby. Then yesterday, I met thus 21 yo girl. She's not as pretty but freaking flirty and horny. We ended up fucking in my car and I came inside her twice. She thought it's safe day but who cares.

>>24893460
How does one meet girls, got any advice

Every few months I go on okcupid, make an account using my own picture and own personality, and then message girls in the philippines. I tell them that I'm moving there in the next few months and I want to find a girlfriend. I tell them I'm very rich and, once they're smitten, i ask them to show me their tits and look at my dick etc. Then I cum and feel shame and don't do it for a few more months, until the urges hit again.

Wallowing in my own misery instead of taking a chance to go out there and find someone. I am one of the numerous batshit femanons that browses this board... The cynical outlook coupled with soul crushing depression are not attractive traits. Physically desirable to some. Average to others. It's the autism that buggers it all. I am slowly accepting my fate as a bitter loner. The path to becoming a wizard awaits me.

>>24893644
You are a femanon, so there is always a chance you could still get laid simply because you have the female bonus.

Males don't have that bonus and will always be considered losers and weirdos for still being a virgin.

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>>24893682
A silver lining maybe? No strings attached seems daunting. I have a feeling that I'd be left very empty after such an encounter. Girls can be losers too.

I'm 27, gay, virgin. The last time I ever did ANYthing with another guy was when I was 13. Since then no kiss, no touch, no whatever. I tell myself it's no big deal, no need to force it, one day I'm gonna meet some guy. But I don't want to admit to myself how much I need love, how much I want a guy to embrace me, to feel a guy's warmth against me. Fuck sex, I don't need sex, it's just urges, I can masturbate. But I crave intimacy and I don't want to admit to myself how much, because if I did I'd break down.

Another one.

I didn't drink any alcohol until last year. I told everybody it's because I don't like the taste. But the truth is I'm afraid I'll get addicted. I have a very weak willpower and I always feared I could become alcoholic. (Also I've seen my father drunk and I told myself I never want to become like him. It's not that he becomes violent or anything but he disgusts me in that state. I fear that one day if he annoys me too much I'll tell him.) Last year I discovered a wine I liked the taste of. Then I tried vodka and enjoyed being drunk. Recently I discovered I like beer. I get drunk alone in my room, avoiding my flatmate. I don't want to admit to anyone I started drinking alcohol. I don't want to think about what this means. I'm drunk now.

>>24893769
Another one.

I always wanted to be a writer. But I never write. I never ever told this to anyone because it makes me feel like a joke and a failure. How the fuck did I ever want to be a writer if I never ever fucking write.

Shit. This one hurts very deep.

I am a narracist and becoming sexist too. I used to be a good christan boy till I went in the militaryand became a adult. I have a addiction to sexting and getting nudes, besides being on the dominant side. Had real clingy GF. I don't see women as people anymore. I can just use them for my pleasure. People say I am really nice and like to talk to me. Yet, even when I can comfort a woman in tears and make her smile I thinking about How I can maliupate her to fuck her. I have not done anything like that yet but the want is strong. Should I just go full pig and try to be a player? I like being a nice guy I don't wanna be a sexist.

>>24893644
can we talk? I am not trying to be creepy.I just like to comfort people. my kik is conroyboy.

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>>24893879
>>24893895

A quick question. How do you go from this
>>24893879

To this?
>>24893895

>>24886596
I kind of want to hear more.

>>24893898
>>24893923
because most femanon are bombard with dickpics and sexual convos all the time on here. I like being a good male friend instead on here. I felt the more postitve non sexu contact I make with females, the more I can get out my head and not be sexist. Plus helping people is always nice.

>>24880314
I have a cuckold fetish my gf doesn't know about.

I killed a 9 year old boy in Syria

I want to give a guy head again and possibly get fucked too but I always pussy out

I fucked my best friend's gf and she got pregnant. Kid was born and it was very obviously mine and they broke up a week after he was born. He has to pay child support. I did this in spite because he had sex with my gf before I ended it with her.

>>24882600
This is very hot.

>>24882604
This is hot too.

My confession:
I'm an older guy and I just love fucking girls who are 17-22yo. I can't stop myself from doing it, even when in a relationship. I love little sluts who are discovering sex and want it so much that they're happy to do it regardless of dating or relationships or anything. I've had at least one regular slut on the side now for the past ten years. I usually do roleplay that involves spanking or student-professor dynamics or Dom-sub arrangements. Praise be to sluts and the joy you all bring!

>>24895178
>He has to pay child support
why?

>>24880314
i miss my ex. even tho she said she loved me and didnt, even when she told me to my face she didnt love me, i still loved her. i wake up to the thought of her lying next to me, only to wake up in an empty bed. her smile haunts my every dream. i cant escape the love i felt for her. and im constantly reminded of her through social media and friends. i should hate you, i should move on with my life and forget about all the times i gave you my heart and watched as you toss it aside. I hate myself for loving someone who never loved me back.

32, m, been with my gf since i was 18, never had sex with another person, now really want to fuck someone else (girl, guy, honestly it does not matter), feeling confused cause she does not show similar feelings

I'm a bisexual girl & when I was in early high school 14-15 ish I ran a fake Facebook of an emo guy so I could get nudes from lonely emo girls with daddy issues

I don't regret a single thing

>>24896806
genius

I blaze my days away getting high because im unhappy in my relationship and dealing with a fuckton of mental problems.

I want to be a slave for females. Cleaning them up after the toilet etc. I'll also do it for the friends and family.

I have a diaper fetish and I'm worried that one day I won't be able to get off to anything without diapers being involved. Already like 75% of everything that gets me off is diaper-related.

Most women can put up with a foot fetish but no women like diaper fetishists.

I love smelling and licking dirty knickers I'm not sure if I care if I get caught.

I've been dirty chatting with a guy on kik behind my husbands back, if he lived closer I don't know if I could stop myself from seeing him

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At university I fucked the girlfriends of three close friends. I even got one pregnant.

I love my wife but she is boring in bed. I feel a real close connection with a woman at work. My wife is way more adventures with anther woman in bed with us. Since there both bi I want us to become a polyamorous triad but it will never happen.

>>24896806
Did you ever have daddy issues yourself?

>>24891246
Go get one, i got one and i'm a dude and everyone loves it, follow your dreams my child

>>24897426
What's wrong with you

My husband is cheating on me and i secretly get off to it, i'm afraid if he knows i know, things will be different.

>>24897547
So you're a female cuck? That's sort of hot. Would you ever want to watch?

>>24897547
This is hot, how do you know for sure he is?

>>24880314
sometimes i show my natural nippiness.
atashi ga bai-sekushou des'.

sadly though i have asian dick syndrome. :(

WTF CAN I DO WITH A 2 INCH DIKK?

so my sex life consists of xvideos and the 5-knuckle chuckle.

any women into prostate massages?

>>24880582
as the fly on the wall, he cheats here.

he thinks jacking off to pics here is cheating all because wifey said "if i catch you on 4chan..."

masturbation is not cheating except to control freak spouses and the like. it aint in the bible because nobody who wrote NT fanfic dared consider the possibility out of respect for the normally conservative readers.

you want porn, read the OT. song of solomon talks about child marriage and thje breasts of a sexy jewess. her sister is the child bride and she's skanked up.

>>24880661
you are hot. feel free to update us. we are all erotica fans of yours now.

>>24880649
do tell.

>>24880672
there r also wives who have met the other woman, and end up becoming best friends.

theytrust each other but have written off the husband who is now divorced and is sticking to backpage hoes.

but then i believe wives who get divorces are legal prostitutes.

>>24880689
r u woman?

>>24881039
are you bisexual? and do you have a penis?

>>24880689
How hard did you get hit my dude, Jesus

>>24881061
i dont want to cheat with you losers.

you just prove that divorce is legalized prostitution.

>>24881409
may i be dude #1?
who is gonna take of your mom is you run away.

>>24881468
that is normal. you did nothing wrong.

>>24881543
it is a crush, dammit.

buy a dildo vibrator. juice up with batteries.

a BOB (battery operated boyfriend will save yore marriage).

>>24881548
i got my eldest niece to kiss me, frenching.

she was 6 i was 30something..

then suddenly she was not allowed to visit me mom's....

>>24882094
shemale porn is not gay porn unless you would want to be a bottom.

>>24880649
you are no sociopath if you forget about this.

>>24881453
so you look like your sister and female.

but u are 5'9 and she's only 5'7

>>24882169
u r not damaged. u are fine. stop thinking I am damged. i wonder how i damaged my cousin.

you are ok. you passed the test. you shared.

>>24880672
When I want to cheat, I keep my wedding ring on, when I don't, I take it off.

Crazy the amount of women who are more interested in married men.

>>24897547
I do too! My husband knows though and its actually hotter bc now he knows to take video or call me during it.

>>24897678
It does mean that people around you might realise that you're cheating. But unless they're going to do something, it's much hotter to just keep the damn ring on.

>>24882604

This is so fucking hot and I want to watch you do this sooo bad. kik CalicoBines puhleeeaaase kek

I have a fantasy of raping my ex in the ass.

i left my wife of 5 years for a younger woman that was more attractive, taller, had a nicer body, more libido like I have (my wife had no fucking sex drive), more mentally stable and had less issues (like suicide and shit), and who was more content with the thought of being with me forever than my other wife was.

She doesn't even know the real reason why I left her.
I could not be any fucking happier

Every single night, my heart fills heavy with crashing waves of misery. I've wondered now for years as to when I became so broken and glued together that I can no longer acknowledge the deep sadness that slithers through my veins. I wonder if this ever filling loneliness will ever stop but I think it's my fault. I've convinced myself that I am so unlovable I will never allow myself to be loved. There's this place inside me that doesn't make sense, and I'm just this scared little girl, and I wonder how many of you feel this small, and I wonder if there's anything I can do to help and make it better for you. I think often of the words I read once "It's okay if the only person you save is yourself." When am I done saving myself. When am I done fighting to love myself. If I kill myself, would I still make it. Could I still make it then? I've sought for years answers upon riddles my tounge made but never created. I haven't written here in such a long time but this will always be home. This dumb little website that one day will cease to be. This is home.

>>24880538
>not greentexting the story
anon pls

I'll never be happy no matter much plastic surgery I get

>>24880314
I beat the shit out of a dude who tried mugging me and stomped the shit out of his unconscious body, i heard he'll never be the same he has no idea who did it

Sometimes I think about joining the various discords or skype groups posted here but then I remember I'll just be ignored and shit on like every other social interaction on or off line in my life and I don't.

I dislike how fast I am starting to like you

The guy I love lives 4,500 miles away,I've thought about abandoning all my friends and job to be with him but I know deep down we're never going to meet. I continuously tell myself he and I are not meant to be but it doesn't make it hurt any less.

I was abused by my dad and bullied constantly as a kid. I was the smallest fry, the weak link, the social reject. I was the good son that got ignored in favor of the spoiled son. There's so much more to it than that, but 2000 character limit.

Every time I thought I found the right woman, she eventually grew cold and tossed me aside. I will never be good enough for any woman, which sucks because I miss holding someone close and being loved, and really want to be a husband and father.

I live only for my best friend, I have known him since preschool, we see each other weekly. Our other best friend died in a car accident when we were thirteen, and I know that my suicide would hurt him deeply.

But I still fantasize about killing myself and leaving a trail of riddles for my friend to follow, which would lead him to my unfinished memoir, thriugh which I pour out my broken heart and soul to the world.

I want to make the people who hurt me and destroyed my life regret what they've done. I just can't let go of my past and it haunts me every day.

I've browsed 4chan regularly since December 2003. For most of this decade, it's been for whistfully nostalgic reasons because I really miss the old internet culture. I miss my /b/rethren :"(

My boyfriend wants to marry me, and I don't want to have someone tie me down (commitment-wise).

I'm female and think I'm falling in love with my female best friend. I've never been attracted to girls before (sexually), I was usually pretty disgusted at pussy, but I realized thinking at some point I would not mind eating her out if I could make her feel good, hell, I'd probably enjoy it.

I have a boyfriend, as well, who I love, and had a dream in which me and said best friend almost fucked, I left, came back and saw boyfriend and best friend cuddling and realized I did not know who I was more jealous over.

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Honestly I just want to die. I'm empty. No one wants or needs me. I don't need anyone or want anything. For some time I wanted someone, but I have come to realise that I am so disgusting on all levels that it is only normal for them to gently push me away and pretend that everything is ok, blah blah blah, just fucking say there is something wrong with me, ok, I'd fucking get it. I got it now, yaaaaay for myself.

I even had some goals for my life, but now I have dropped them all. Just considering moving abroad to some Western European country so I can pick strawberries or shit like that for minimum wage. Haven't gone to school, neither do I care to. I'm dropping out, again. Besides nothing went as I expected, so what's the fucking pojnt. Deleted all that I had written this year because I wanted to write for some time. It's all rubbish and daydream fueled shit that doesn't stand up to any standard.

All pointless and obsolete now.

I need death and nothing else.

>I am so exquisitely empty.

Been considering going to the local breakwater and jumping in the sea as it is cold as shit and too deep and too far away from the coast and too close to the sea currents to survive that jump, but my only concern is that I might get my body dragged to the beach and that would make my family unhappy. At the same time, fuck my family, you've caused nearly all of my misery anyways. I have always wanted to drown myself ever since I am fifteen and this might be the best time for fullfilment of that one sincere wish that I've always had.

Blah blah blah... just my ranting. Glad I've at least cut contacts with all of you. Should've had let you guys known I'm leaving, but I am past goodbyes and shit. I'm an ass anyways, so whatever.

>>24898633
If you think of leaving this world behind, why not do it gradually, rather than in one go?
make escape your one solitary goal.
build a situation in which successfully leaving your surroundings is a possibility and then just run.

after all, what's the worst that could happen? death?

>>24893789

Dude, same. I actually have decently successful Tumblr & Twitter accounts. I've had my chances to break into legit journalism and I've wasted them out of fucking fear

>>24899027
Stop it? Maybe find enjoyment in the things you do, instead of how you look?

>>24899507
If I had been you, I would have joined them in their cuddle.

>>24899935
You're only 20. If you're going to kill yourself, at least wait until you're 30 to see if anything changes.

A girl mentioned going to a Tea House, and she pushed for it to be on Valentines day. (My friend offered this week, but she seemed set on Valentines day)

We then found out that the Tea house is closed by 4 PM on Valentines day (Early than we agreed) so, he mentioned it to her, and she said to go the following day instead.

Instead of immediately agreeing to her new day, he sent this suggesting a new place "Great, can't wait to finish Monday. Well the place I was thinking of is called Sake House which was recommended to me by a friend and it shouldn't be too busy that day and I could make reservations plus we could stop by the Museum because Tuesdays past 4pm is free, but whatever works best for you is fine with me."

Then she sent this "Wow... you really thoughts this through... I'll get back to you" (Emojis used, Thinking and Upside down smiley, in case they don't show up)

We do think that she may be poorer, so she may have suggested the Tea house as she knows that it is not too expensive, yet is still sorta intimate? And She is unsure if she can afford it, so she is sorta holding back from outright agreeing? Does this seem possible? And assuming it is, is their anyway to let her know that she won't have to pay for it?

>>24902104
For what its worth, she's been kinda flakey in the past. She would cancel the get together at the last minute with a legit reason. (Happened twice before)
But for what ever reason, she messaged him randomly asking to get coffee a few days later. Which they did and she said they should get together again, and she recommended this tea house.

And coupled with her other actions, (Flirts with him, Hovers around him constantly, Sends 150-200 word text messages regularly (Probably with a friends help) and other stuff and having him help with "What is Love" project.) It seems like she might be genuinely interested, but probably is nervous/shy, especially give that she has never had a relationship. But then theirs the age gap. He's 19 and she is 28.... So there is a sizable age gap there... But still this seems odd?

>>24902108
That all sounded really weird.

And fuck you for reminding me it's valentine's

I'm 27, I've slept with maybe 20 women or so, and all of the sudden I find myself terrified of being intimate with anyone, physically or otherwise.

My close friends are confused because I'm attractive, charismatic, and they know I'm not gay. They really want me to find a girlfriend, and I'm running out of excuses.

>>24902275
How does it sound weird?

Other than it kinda jumping around and all?

>>24902740
Same boat. Crippling fear of being happy/growing up.

Not so much a secret but I have a lesbian Skype acquaintance and neither she nor myself have ever had a valentine.

So I asked her to be my friend Valentine. She said no which was slightly disappointing, but she did say it was a sweet gesture which was nice.

So A even though I know you get sad at times, I hope you have a nice Valentine's.

>>24899935
What is so disgusting about you?

>>24902756
I feel a little guilty. I was a total ugly duckling, all I wanted when I was a teenager was to have girls like me.

Now I got exactly what I wanted, and it somehow just makes me feel sad. Ennui

>>24902773
I have grown to despise normal women, I like em faulty. I think it's because I fear having my heart broken and I want a girl that won't leave me. Apparently the solution is to date the unstable ones. Also intimacy anxiety because I have little experience with girls.

>be me 16
>lost my virginity when i was younger to a guy my best friend
>aint had any sex and horny asf
>buy dildo
>when parents arent home sit on the landing (halfway down the stairs there is a little turn around and a little seat by the window
>close the window and ride the dildo and blow my load all over the stairs
>spent 20mins cleaning up before my parents got home fuck jizz and carpets
and thats how i became straight

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I am insanely attracted to my half sister. We didn't grow up together and would only see one another when I'd visit my dad. She's so fucking sexy. I wanna fuck her and watch her get fucked. I wanna see how she cums and watch her take dick and quiver. She makes me diamonds.

>>24902858
She's hot as all fuck, I don't blame you.

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I committed the Whitechapel murders back in '88.

>>24902767
My every seam, my every thought and everything that I do.
>>24902081
I don't need your advice, fuck off to rate thread or something.

I have way too much shit going on right now.

>Broke up with my shitty ex years later than I should have.
>Realized that I've developed genuine feels for the friend I was just messin' with.
>My boss/old friend started getting really fucking handsy with me.
>My other friend has developed a really creepy fucking stalking obsession over me.
>Keep making an enormous fool of myself towards the friend I have feels for and within that friend group.

A-at my other friends don't think I'm fucking nuts.

>>24903543
kys fag

>>24903558
You disgust me.

>>24903561
no you are the disgusting one anons was helping you and you just fuck him off? stupid faggot kys

>>24903564
"Helping". I've received all sorts of "help" all year, I don't need anymore.

And no, I don't give a single fuck about being helped or having any advice given.

>>24903566
>posts in vent thread
>omg stahp replying to my post
Stop fishing for attention

>>24903592
You're retarded. Anyways, that "Fuck off" post was adressed to someone specific. Unless you haven't noticed, I never mentioned my age anywhere, so... I don't need help from them especially.

It could be (You) though, but I'm too slow to play internet detective right now.

When I met my Gf she was a full on lesbian, all ive ever wanted since i was a teenager is two girls to live with me, to take care of, watch them fuck etc.something about having a threesome is empowering. (Former fat ass beta, now near 30 down to 180 pretty fit) but now shes 180ed on me and nearly hates anything with a vagina, i resent her deeply for this. Every day I get closer to death, older balded, im worried that soon No one will want me/us as shes gained up weight become super picky about girls. Its become psychological cancer, i dont want to talk about her day. Whats for dinner, whats on tv, if its not helping us secure a girlfreind its useless, now we barely fuck as if she gets pregnant life is over. Its hard to live a life of depravity with your failed aboution screaming for food and shit wiping every 30 mintes, but if she could just get over her self and meet a girl, she has no idea the unending oragams shed have to endure.....

Always like getting off on fantasizing my girl in a blow bang or glory hole,

Her high school friends called her the self proclaimed queen of bjs

>>24903595
more pathetic than I thought

After I started to masturbate to tranny porn I am no longer attracted to actual women.

>>24880314
Dude here. Was molested two separate occasions. First time older neighbor girls. Second time was best friends older sister. I was about 6. You'd think that shit would be dope but naw it fucked my life up pretty bad. Still get anxiety around women sometimes.

>being 21 years old
>still a kissless virgin, I was really depressed and desperate about it
>install tinder
>match with a cute chubby chick
>talking a lot with her. She says that she'd never fuck a virgin
>start lying about my sexual history/experience
>build up a "quite good in bed" image
>finally met her after a week
>get drunk. First kiss, first sex, etc

>It was terrible. I was drunk af, barely felt anything.
>After 20-25 mins(I don't really know, there is a chance that it was less. My time sensation was quite lost...) of fucking her in missionary and cowgirl, all I was thinking "So. This is sex. I don't understand the hype"
>After a while I got bored, said to her that I won't cum
>"ItsOK"
>She serves herself a big plate of spaghetti
>Me: Then I'll go. Bye.
>She: Bye
>Write her in text that I was a virgin
>Instantly blocks me on all social media, IRL she acts like I was dead or anything
>Being depressed for months about this

>Finally met a nice girl(on Tinder)
>We are together since end of may
>I'm lying to her about how I lost my virginity(I tell her that it was with a chick living the room next to mine in the hostel of the uni /She was my girlfriend in my made up story/)
>Planning to move together with her, but still afraid to tell her the truth. It would be wierd after this much time.

>Also I like shemale porn and anal play

>>24903926
Anon, you made the fool's mistake of putting something on sex that there isn't, then found yourself disappointed with the truth.
Fear not, most people's first time is shit, but the worst thing you can do is be ashamed of it.
>also, girls tend to freak out when they take a dude's v-card, dunno why, I had the exact same experience when I told the girl YEARS later

>Being 25yo
>Giving maths lessons to a girl, parents pay me for it.
>Girl is 16yo, perfect body.
>After a few jokes, she flirts
>weirdbutok.jpg
>One time during a lesson she goes to the bathroom
>Comes back a little minute later
>Gives me a remote, tells me to use it whenever I want.
>wtf.jpg
>Curiosity, I try it.
>Hear the sound of something buzzing under table.
>"is it what I think it is ?" "Yes".
>instant diamond
>she goes on her knees and start sucking me.
>fuckshesgood.jpg
>proceed to fuck.
>Happening since a year ago
>Getting paid to fuck her in every room at her parents.

>>24881453
You should rape her...she's hot

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I've been told irl that I have very good looks and that I can pull girls but the only thing holding me back is my mentality. I've also been told irl that I'm crazy, insecure, and reclusive, and that I'm harming my chances. I've only been with one girl before and I'm 19.

I don't really enjoy my girlfriend. I've been fucking a tranny while she's at work, I even enjoy talking to the tranny more.

>>24903932
>Get in touch with old friend I had a crush on when we were like 15-17.
>Rejoin friend group.
>Realize I've caught the feels real fuckin' bad.
>At this point he's a 25-year-old handholdless virgin who has had enough bad experiences to be terrified of women/feels/catfishing.
>Have a couple of drinks last night.
>Talking online.
>Spill my spaghetti everywhere and plainly tell him that I have developed real feels for him, but have zero expectations and just want him to be comfortable and move at his own pace.
>He shuts down and goes offline.

I feel like I fucked up real bad and I don't know how to fix it. I think it was just too much for him.

>I got my gf into being a cuckquean
>I cheated on her and she loved it
>The chick was gross though because she wanted someone non-threatening
>Now I have no more chicks to bang because my gf wants to be denied for other chicks, and no chicks are down to fuck a dude in a relationship.
>FML, I'm living a nightmare version of my dream

>>24904146
Good for you

>>24904343
god i hope this isn't my boyfriend...

I can't stand the relationship I'm in. I'm afraid if I leave she'll kill herself. Also I live with her. She's constantly depressed, hates living, wants to die, constantly tells me I'm the only one keeping her here. I really should have ended things a long time ago but its been five years now I think. I lie constantly to please her cause I can't handle arguments or conflict. I've acted happy for many years but I just can't do it anymore. I've become so miserable. I think about what if I was single or in a relationship with a more attractive person and then I hate myself cause I don't want to be an asshole that cheats. I just want to be alone now. I'm skinny af and I don't think any girl would find me attractive. Sometimes I think I should be a mean person so she'll break up with me but I have no where to go and feel horrible for being mean. I feel like a dishonest person and a bitch for not being straightforward

i pretty much constantly let my boyfriend think i just don't have a sex drive. really it's through the roof, but sex with him is so boring that i can't stomach it.

i want to cheat on him. but i won't because im a pussy and also guilt would eat me alive.

>>24905976
I can send you something to help relieve that tension ;)

Honestly though you should try to have a heart to heart and let him know what he can improve. If you're both open and on the same page everyones happier

I'm just waiting to find a anon in AZ who will let me suck his cock. Been bicurious for years. Like discreet free head, I want to try it so bad

>broke up with my ex 5-6 years ago after a really long relationship and have been torn up about it ever since
>moved to a new state where I have no friends or family, basically alone
>want to start getting back into dating and feel like a fucking fedora
>start talking to one chick I met online through a game and found out we live really close (like an hour's drive)
>we send nudes and talk dirty about how we want to fuck the shit out of eachother
>she stops responding
>just want to fucking die at this point and not even try

I get approached by women and approaching women seems to garner good results, but I'm tired of playing these stupid fucking games all the time. At least just tell me you found someone else or you don't feel it, instead of getting hung up and stuck with my own thoughts about how I fucked up something,

>>24880314
>be poop
>popopopopopopop

>>24904343
Hey, we've all been there.

>Found out from friend of gf that she cheated on me
>Have the where's my droid app on her phone because she always loses it
>She heads out to go spend the night with her friends
>Couple hours later I follow to location the app gave me for her phone
>Borrow friends car so she doesn't recognize me
>Find out her street walking in the middle of Baltimore
>Watch guy drive up and she hands him all the cash she had on her
>Notice its her ex
>He was pimping her out
>Drive off
>Say nothing and about it when she comes home
>Suddenly everything makes sense as to why she's always gone most nights when she doesn't have a job

>>24906899
dude you're gonna get an STD

I live in a shared flat and one of my flat mates is trying to mock me all the time to ensure and maintain his position in the pecking order. He thinks he's somewhere middle, actually he's second last and everyone besides him knows that - I think he actually might know, but is simply refusing to realise because he couldn't stand that truth. Anyway, I'm pretty annoyed by his attempts to subjugate me just because I'm "the new one" in the flat.

Well.... now the plot twist:
He has a crush on a girl we both now, since years. Actually he's knees deep in the friend zone and she is annoyed as fuck by him being that clingy and even tried sometimes to avoid contact to him at all because she was so fed up of him.

Where do I know this from? Well, her.
I have an affair with her for a year or so now - I didn't knew about his feelings when this all started, so... I wouldn't have had started this if I'd knew, just to avoid the possibility of hurting his feelings, but... After all what he's trying to make me go down the pecking order - I don't care, whatever he's saying, one call and he'll be broken for years.

Oh, funny note:
Last time she visited our flat he was cooking some roast and we both were with him, talking about stuff. Somehow we got to the point of him mocking me all the time and I just said something like "I don't care if I have some kind of vent for my anger from time to time".
She actually answered "Well then, go look for some vagina and fuck her really nice and hard, I bet theres no better way to vent off and on top of that you're making a girl happy." And then she smiled that smirky smile you only notice if you know it's there. I guess what she really wanted to say was "If you're fed up by his actions come, fuck me hard and feel good knowing you get the girl he's trying for 15 years to get now."
> feelsgoodman.jpeg

>>24881018
That could be me.

>>24885142
Mine starts with one of those letters.
Does yours start with an S?

I'm one of those serial cheaters. I've been in my relationship for 7+ years and have consistently cheated on him with probably 100+ partners a year.

I lead a totally normal life, and I'm scared at some point what I do in the darkness is going to come to light. At the same time, it would be such a relief to be open with everything.

I'm afraid even if I stop cheating, I'll always have a void from lying to him for so long.

>>24907057
I wish I had a girlfriend that enjoyed cheating on me

Im generally feeling convinced im going to die alone. Im always the single guy in the group, my longest relationship was 3 years. I am sociable but never the guy people want. Just over giving my hopes up..
>inb4 rk9

Male by birth,I want to come out and transition publicly to my actual transgirl self.

I just hope it'll work out if i ease into it..

>>24893442
Kik me! I'd love to help you with that. grogshop11

>>24902858
Kik me and let's talk about it


Usernametm50

Broke up with my abusive bf a month ago. Got diagnosed with PTSD and stockholme.
It's been difficult af. I'm slowly starting to realise the day-to-day sadness I feel is going to become my new normal now and this is the first week I've been able to stay at work without needing to leave. I still hid in a fucking back office and cried though. But I miss him so much, it was really crazily addicted earlier, I tried to subtly tell him I was happy to be his cock/money slave who'd just take any physical abuse and be ok with him cheating if he'd take me back.
I'm now hoping he'll fuck it up with the new girl, realise he's too old to be doing this shit again and message me since he's done all the breaking already.
It's not like I'm some unemployed fatty, I'm leagues above him but I'm so tired of the constant sadness running through my head.

I'm less "obsessive" now but I just miss him in other ways. Normal "grieving" ways. Tv shows and plans we had, holding him at night, watching tv and relaxing together, giving him a back-rub, making him happy made me happy, planning things made me happy, the subtle way he did things made me happy.

I wish he knew how much I cared.
I still want him to be happy.
I wish that he'd still call me if he was ever in trouble or sad. He has no friends in his life anymore that have known him longer than 3 years and I wish he'd just taken the risk and been honest and put me first for once and then he could have had something solid in his life instead of the constant moving and changing friend circles.

Everyone keeps telling me he never felt anything at all but I don't think I'll ever stop checking in on him, send a birthday message once a year or something, even if he never responds. I just want him to know I care.

>>24907449
You sound like a fucking psychopath.

I'm into so many fucked up fetishes that I hate myself and wish I was dead. Including getting fucked by dogs, wearing women's lingerie, pegging, etc, but the worst part is I could never be more than friends-with-benefits with somebody that actually accepted any of that besides maybe pegging, because I'm also judgemental as fuck.

>>24905962
She needs serious help from a psychiatrist and the support of family and friends.

Now I'm 18M, but when I was 15 my married male neighbor seduced and fucked me- multiple times.

my ex wants us to be friends so i said i want space but im ghosting her

>>24907517
Hot.

My secrets are shit compared to everyone else's

I love sharing pics of my wife... I even take them now pretty much just to share with guys... I love the idea of people fapping to her...

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I visit a prostitute at least once every two weeks. I imagine snuffing willing women often while masturbating.

I won't ever love a woman unless she's completely sick in the head, but I know that most girls that sick have issues that make having a stable relationship impossible. She would probably have to be a dogfucker, pedophile, literal whore braindead plastic Bimbo for me to truly love her.

I like encouraging girls to do drugs. I like seeing women being nasty and out of control. I like encouraging women to lose weight. I like seeing them suffer for me willingly.

The hardest I've ever cum in my life was fucking a sleazy hooker raw who told me when I was already inside that she had HIV. I came the hardest I ever had when she said that. Luckily, I'm still clean.

I don't know how this happened to me. I think I discovered the internet too early. I had no traumatic experiences and had a pretty normal life...Yet I'm so completely fucked up sexually and mentally.

I've had girlfriends but none of them have been sick in the head enough for me to really be horny enough for them except for one. Then she moved to Germany, hoping to become a gangbang slut there. BAKA.

I've been single for a year and have been on countless horrible tinder dates and it's really getting me down. I know you don't need to be in a relationship to be happy but I feel really empty without having a qt bf to cuddle me. I've contemplated suicide so much because my pathetic-ness is infuriating to me. How am I going to meet the one and love them if I don't love myself?

>>24880314
A married guy has a crush on me, I find it hot as hell.

>>24907640
Most people don't love themselves, you're fine. Especially most women. Stay strong and:

1. Find validation from your own actions by making sure to tally your small successes( going to the gym, yeah! Cleaning your room yeah!)

2. Change your self-talk to be more positive.

3. Consider seeing male escorts ( srs).

4. Make positive life changes( lose weight, cut down on drinking, take an online class).


If all else fails, become a camwhore temporarily. The dozens to thousands of men gushing over you will help on your down days. Be advised, only do so temporarily.

Good luck.

Seen the video of the Whitney something fucking a dog felt disgusted and threw up

>>24903184
This made me Lmao...

my friend fucks me in the ass all the time
basically we have a d/s relationship and tell your folks were just roommates

I can't stop fucking cheap hookers. I have a pretty wife who loves me yet I keep doing the same shit over and over.

Can't figure out why I can't stop. Ideas??

>>24908171
go gay its cheaper

abdl fan

>>24907623
Kik: PurplePinkBlue1234

I've taken up crossdressing and I'm stupidly afraid this'll come back at me. Worst part is I have the small frame for it.

>>24907449
lel you sound like me

>>24907640
I'm in a similar situation I've been trying probably too hard for the last year with online dating.

I haven't been looking for hookups or one-night stands I just want a relationship.

I want to come home and snuggle up next to a qt gf and brush the hair out of her eyes as she falls asleep in my arms.

Out of the whole year I only have one good date, and I learned towards the end of the date that she happened to be a high-priced call girl.

I don't know what it is but it seems like I just have the worst luck.

I've been married for 6 years, she knows I'd like a threesome with another woman, but doesn't know I want to see her fuck another dude. And I'm only 25.

>>24899339
Just do it

>>24907499
Literally in the process of doing this but writing anon secrets helps with the crazy

I'm secretely a holocaust denier, don't believe it was nearly as bad as its claimed to be. I even took a class on the holocaust and still wasn't convinced.

>>24907623
Kick me anewfriendhi

You care enough to enuire into my extant status but refuse to reconnect with me. And if you aren't with and haven't been with him since you went radio silent then why aren't you with me? What really is so wrong about me for you? You say all this shit, caring supposedly for me to have someone yet you know that if it isn't you it isn't happening. I'm about all out of patience and I swear, I'm about to start doing some real drastic shit if you don't start spilling what the fuck is actually up with you. I'll find out what I want to know whether you have the decency to be forthcoming with me or not, and if I have to go to that length then I'm gonna find out shit you don't want me to. Pick your poison.

I'm fading. I have lost every now. The love of my life left me, yet has the nerve to contact me without pause and hurt me even more with it after telling him several times I can't handle it. My mental health dropped down to it's lowest point so far ans it keeps dropping lower.
My family who has been my main, if not only, support for the past year is going to move abroad without me, leaving me up to my own which is either going to end in homelessness, a forced stay in a mental institution or what is more likely; suicide.

Since I dumped M I went from having a job and working out 4 times a week to doing nothing and wear latex in my parents basement pretending I'm a tranny.

>>24910721
also I got a dude from Vancouver who want me to TPE for him and he's very pushy

>>24880314
I'm a 23 year old virgin who knows no girls at all. I get so lonely and recently I've been wishing that I had a friend to jack off to porn together and talk about hot girls.

I'm not bi, I just like the idea.

Call me crazy but I've been having thoughts of what it might be like if I somehow started talking about how hot girls are with my dad (never spoken to him sexually about anything so would be heaps awkward).

Since like I saix, I'm a virgin and been so desperate so my mind has been thinking of things even tho very insane

I love when a girl makes me wear her panties and makes me do things I usually don't do, even if I don't like to do them, like fucking my asshole or other humiliating things, even when is only online

>>24909417
just admit to yourself you'd rather be a woman already

>>24910748
Me and my dad routinely have arguments on how sexy women we see are. It's natural bro. Just don't try to Jack off with him lol

>>24910561
I'm sorry but it sounds like you need the mental institute.

>>24910424
Initials ?

Was using my moms girthy dildo from when I was 10 until I turned 19 and also dressed up in her thongs and whatnot. Used to also blow it a lot and keep my ears peeled for when she'd use it at nights, and eagerly blow it the day after.
Pretty sure I've some kind of psychological issue.

>not even female

>>24911407
how girthy

>>24911459
Something like 5 - 5.5 inch girth. Never really measured it but it was pretty thick and I was a messed up kid with a ridiculous libido.

From 15 to 19 I fucked a famous politician. He was married and had two daughters around my age, who lived in a nice but modest suburban house outside the city, while he lived in a huge six room apartment within the city. He only initiated sex with me when I was asleep and he always wanted me to call him "daddy". Even if he hadn't given me a lot of money and let me buy so much shit, I still would have been into it.

>>24911478
Which country are you in?

Presumably you could sell you story for a decent $$$?

>>24911528
I'm in the US now but I wasn't in the US at the time. I fell in looooove with him haha, that's why it's a secret and embarassing, I wouldn't want to damage his career.

>>24911551
Looking back, do you think you were really in love? Or just a teenage infatuation?

I think it's fascinating, these things are happening all the time but usually nobody at all finds out.

>>24911576
All the other men I've met have been so disappointing in comparison that I started just dating women. I think it was genuine love even though it happened in a weird scenario.
I'm not sure how possible it would be in a country like the US, there the government completely controls the media. Journalists *would* discover some damning things on a fairly regular basis and try to have their findings published, but there were informants of course and the press secretary would just have the complete issue pulled before printing, the journalist would be fired and put on a blacklist, and usually the editor in chief would be relocated to the provinces.

>>24911622
Haha this person would make up fake gossip about himself too, which was kind of mundane but all the same gossip to talk about, so if something real did end up on the internet it just looked like fantastical ravings in comparison to the likely ~real~ rumors being talked about everywhere. There was a time he started a rumor that he'd had an affair with and impregnated this ugly gymnast who he thought was too old and had a unibrow, and his press spread it through all the same news outlets that the government pays for, but people believe it and will talk about that over any of the stray real rumors that end up on the livejournal accounts of exiled journalists or whatever. I can't imagine that crap would go over so easily in the US either.

>>24899409
I just wish you were into fat tall chicks. How tall are you? I like my men short and skinny. Though if you're fat too we can work it out.

>>24897616
I are woman

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>>24899409
>i was the smallest fry, the weak link
>smallest fry, the weak link
>smallest fry
>the weak link

I'm getting married in a few weeks to a girl that is the perfect partner but who I'm not in love with

I am however in love with her best friend who would be a nightmare of a partner

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>>24880314
I'm a 23 year old F, single kissless virgin, aside from one time when I was 7 and got raped by my best friends dad.

I have disabilities. Many mental, some physical.. won't go into details here, but.. I'm unable to work and completely dependent on my mom to care for me, if she dies.. im gonna kill myself and follow.

im terrified of being locked away in a mental hospital, daily get thoughts to kill others or myself. fighting it.

im on disability. it sucks, its humuliating. but i need money for my medication.

i have 0 friends irl, and ive never had a boyfriend, or sex i actually wanted.

i would love to have a child, but it wont happen. because no guys are interested in me.

i am too far gone, im mentally young. its horrible.

i stay home all day every day, i cant drive. i dont drink or do drugs, because those make me more mental.

i usually lurk, but today i posted. my spelling sucks, and everyone trolls me.

i want to kill myself.. but it would crush my mom. someday when she dies. i am gonna have to do it :( i dread that day, im scared to not exist.

not like anyone will miss me. but im constantly wishing i was born in another body.. a normal healthy body. i want to be better.

it hurts to know all i will ever me is a ugly fat disabled retard.

i usually don't even post on 4chan, terrified of being pushed to the point of suicide.

my ego is fragile. i hate myself, i just need someone to tell me im worth it. my mom does, but hearing it from her doesnt mean much :/

im crying as i type this.. fuck. terrified of the judgement that will follow.

truth is too, sometimes i troll online to feel better about my pathetic fucked up broken self. i am sorry to everyone i ever hurt. please know, i'm worthless... god this hurt to type..

:(

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>>24912201
i'm sorry you were dealt such an unfortunate existence, truly. what happened to you at 7 years old had to have left its mark, to say the least.

please cast aside your fragile ego for but a moment and read the words i type, as a complete and total stranger toward you.

you are worth it. your existence is a joy to your mother, regardless of your self view. love her and let her love you, as you seem to be doing. you can find reasons to smile and be genuinely happy if you try, the hard part is trying.

i love you anon, so does your mother. don't forget that.

best wishes.

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>>24912223
thanks so much anon, this will sound cheesy but i actually cried reading this. you're the sweetest. thank you.

>>24912201
what the actual fuck? Is it an unspoken rule that unstable girls have been fiddled with in early life and or have daddy issues?

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>>24912233
you are most welcome, i meant every word.

life is a hell of a thing to happen to a person, we all need reassurance from time to time.

stay blessed hun.

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>>24912241
thanks you too.

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>>24912256
<3

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my cousin molested me in my sleep once
>I kinda liked it
I'm trans
>I want to use my dick before I lose it.
Ill never find a woman though.

I think men are totally unattractive but think the same thing about vaginas

I blame /d/

I truly love my girlfriend, but I think I still love her best friend too. We talked a while back when she had a boyfriend and I was single. We never took it anywhere but there was always this tension. Now its the other way around and I've been with her best friend for four years...its still there. I think sometimes we flirt super hard, but layer it so it could be seen as innocent too. We have never acknowledged that either does it but we both know we mean too. And holy fuck is it hawt.
I feel like a shitbird.

>>24912464
Its just so goddamn frustrating sometimes. Like once, a possible threesome situation arose while they were both slightly intoxicated. Both were trying to diddle me in our bed, but I genuinely couldn't tell if they knew the other was doing stuff. So I didn't initiate anything out of fear of upsetting my girlfriend. I like her too much to risk fucking her AND her best friend like wildcats. What if she held it over me later on? Damn it.

>>24912464
>>24912470

You feel like a shitbird because you are a shitbird. You don't deserve your girlfriend and I hope she ditches both you and her shitty "best friend"

>>24912483
My friends and a couple mutual ones have told me they think both girls would be very open to the three of us fooling around. I assume that's just some "hell yeah, get some bro" bs.
I want people to be straight with me, like you. Thanks, man.
You're my best friend.

>>24912493

I don't make friends with terrible people like you. You shouldn't need people to tell you these things, they're fucking obvious. Also lol @ you taking banter and talking shit seriously, you're a fucking autitst.

>>24912511
Yeah, man. I'm getting real serious.

>>24911312
They know who it is and who it is for. And they don't know my initials in any case.

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I secretly buy medical supplies to infused my cock and balls to tremendous sizes.

Someone found it once and was super confused.

I also secretly want to put on a fuckton of weight but not sure i can commit to it.

When I was 7 or 8 yo, my teenage cousin was babysitting me overnight and it was just the two of us. I kind of had a crush on her because she was so nice and pretty. So getting to be with her was thrilling for me.

We spent the evening joking around and playing and I'm not sure how but she ended up with her hands all over me and she was telling me to kiss her. Then after a few minutes of me not really responding, she got more serious and stopped and said she was just kidding.

I was so confused and disappointed. I knew that I had ruined the moment because I was too dumb to do anything to let her know that she could continue and do whatever she wanted. I very clearly remember having vivid sexual fantasies at even earlier ages, including about her.

Who knows what she had in mind, or if it was anything beyond a horny teenager "slipping up" but even today I wish she had kept going or I had convinced her that she could do stuff to me or have me do stuff to her.

No doubt molestation can fuck people up and be terrible. I wonder how many people out there like me wish they had been molested more/to a greater level in this kind of situation where you, even as a kid, are sexually attracted to your "abuser."

I get blowjobs from dudes and traps through gloryholes and nothing feels better than getting swallowed by some rando without any reciprocation save my jizz down their throat.

I don't know what I've done to make my boyfriend become so distant with me.

>>24912201
You've been dealt a shitty hand. But there's a lot you can still do. And, if you are brave, you can find real people who won't hurt you and will bring joy to your life. Acknowledging your shit luck and situation is good. There are things you can change, and it's up to you to determine what the nature of those changes will be.

Good luck.

>>24912672
they ?

I think I'm still in love with my ex. My boyfriend loves me a lot and always talks about marriage and our lives together, but I can't help but think that if my ex came knocking I'd take him back in a heartbeat. Yes I know I suck.

I went to an event that helped me through a tough time. After said event, I have begun to force changes in my personality. I now try to be the most kind and helpful person more so than I was previously which was pretty helpful. I have given up completely on actively seeking a significant other and have instead begun to treat everyone better and appreciating what people do for me and what I for them. I am getting educated, not for myself so that one day I can support who ever is bold enough and kind enough to be my spouse. I beat myself up heavily when I notice my tone is coarse.

Oh and I carry around a BD water bottle around in public.

I'm afraid of initiating conversations with people especially females. Funny really, since my two friends that I have the most contact with and am comfortable with are female. I'd like to change that which is why I'm trying to initiate more people online, especially dating sites. But not getting a response sometimes gets to me and I'd go through phases of just feeling really shit about myself.

Everyone I know thinks I'm purely straight, but in reality I'm actually bi, possibly gay. I say possibly because I'm attracted to women still, but furthest I've gotten was a BJ. And then with men, I've sucked 4 cocks and got fucked in the ass.

>>24913464
Its just easier to lay with a man.

giving bj is kinda gay tho. But im somewhat in your boat.

>>24913478
It really is though! Women you gotta work at, men you can just meet off grindr

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>>24913485
tfw i fucked one from /trash/

>>24913485
yup, guys are easy af. the hotter the guy the higher the body count.

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Top left panel is basically me except white, and every girl that knows wants me to be the other 3 panels as well, but human guys don't do shit for me.

>>24907449
Please say you're lauren. Tho i was never physically abusive, only emotionally, and i never meant to be

Why the fuck am I so stuck on this girl?

>Fall for her
>She would randomly sit next to me in mostly empty rooms
>Talk to her, we are friendly enough
>Try asking her to lunch
>Say yes, but drags a guy friend along
>Awkward lunch. Guy friend hits on her, and she wants nothing to do with it. (Ends up breaking contact for an unknown reason with him)
>Nothing happens after
>I catch her staring at me, and occasionally she doesn't look away, instead we just stare into each other eyes for a few seconds.
>She still never texts me first, but she will keep the conversation going if I do text her. Sometimes for 6-10 hrs.
>Sometimes when we text, she would slip in specific mentions the she will be free at a specific time. But I never pick up on them until it is long past then.
>I sometimes slip in jokes that kinda tease her. No one finds them funny, but she still laughs. She sometimes teases me similarly
>She Makes it a point to try an push me to become an EMT. (She just got certified)
>She is always seeming willing to meet up, says "Definitely!" and "We can always give it a shot!" but will never commit to an actual day. But she seems kinda disappointed.
>Sometimes does not respond to stuff where I try meeting up (Date like or otherwise.)

She may be nervous or insecure due to loose skin? (Lost ~125 lbs In the past 2 years, and it can be seen at times, also, her clothing choices tend to support this.

Also, for what its worth, it seems like she cycles with her view of me. We can be close at the end of a conversation, but the next time we speak we will be quite distant again. But by the end of that conversation, we will be closer. This continues on a perpetual cycle

>>24915718
Love is a fickle thing.

If you truly get a strange feeling in your gut when you talk to think about her then you def are, and should not give up.

Have you told her how you feel?

>>24916029
I definitely love her. I get that whole butterfly type feeling.

And i haven't told her explicitly but is obvious i think?

>>24916085
Tell her. If she loves you back she will understand and may open up to the next level like you want.

>>24916100
True. I really should just come clean. If she likes me the second way I like her, then it will most likely move on to the next step I guess?

Off of what I said, what do you think of my position?

>>24914743
Sorry not lauren

Because my mother has been schziophrenic I had to move out when I was 15.
They took me into a protectory. Because of social problems I didn't like it there, so when I turned 16 a female friend of mine asked me if I would like to live with her in her parents house.
Well, I did. And it has been the best time of my life. It didn't last long because we had a lot trouble. We were too young I guess.
We lived in the same room. You're right. We lived in the same room. We were never together or something, but I really began to like her.
And I think she also liked me somehow.
It didn't last long, only about a year and I searched for a own flat in my city.
In the end she has been really mean to me. She also some day told me she hated me so much.
I had major depressive disorder at that time and she knew it. She offended me for that and used my depression to make fun of me.
I never forgave her this.
She contacted me a year after I moved out of her house and told me she is so sorry and she didn't wanted this to happen and she would still like to live with me and I should come back to her. I refused and insulted her.

And now comes the sad part:
I was on a lot of drugs because I couldn't handle my life anymore and because of drug usage on that day had a amnesia. I can't remember I conversated with her. I only noticed it because on last Christmas I wanted to contact her and therefore looked through my old e-mails and suddenly found this old e-mails I can't remember.

It's 7 years ago now. Tbh I don't know why I refused to live with her and why I rejected and didn't accept her excuses because she was honest I can just say now when reading the e-mails.
I'm so sorry for her and it broke my hearth and since Christmas I can't think about anything else. I contacted her on Christmas and she was completly cold and told me she didn't want anything to do with me anymore.

I just want to cry but can't and I have serious suicidal thoughts because I was so dumb. Never do drugs, kids.