Secrets vents confessions

I'm giving advice to my mistress about how to find a good man to marry and have a good relationship.
I care for her and I try not to take too much of her time, so that she can get her life moving forward.

I wanna get raped!!!

I'm madly in love with my sis in law, we are like best buddies, and she has even told me about her ex whom she constantly chats to. I have done everything for her to like me but she just dusts me away and comes to me when she needs help with something.

the only reason I browse this board is because of kik/skype threads and the possibility to make friends. so far my luck has been really fucking awful because of guys in general. none of the guys here seem to be capable of being friends when they know you're a female. the one female friend I've made has been the only pleasant and friendly human being I've met so far. it's become really apparent that trying to make buds here is just a waste of time.

maybe it's just 4chan in general.

>>24818475
Ahh same here, I found it easier to use stuff like omegle rather than 4chan

>>24818475
Give me a try.

>>24818477
I was thinking reddit might be a lot better but Omegle seems good too. you can just put in interests there so that help. I might try that.

>>24818475
I feel the same. I think it's just 4 chan in general. the format and user base is kinda eaa in recent years. Also, the format of /soc/ doesn't really allow natural relationships, because people kind of just have a resume of who they are.

What kind of stuff are you into? Hobbies or interests? How old are you? I'm a 20 year old student. I like RC stuff and strategy games. Fitness and reading, I kind of have a ton of hobbies.

>>24818475
Give it another go. I'm 21, live in the UK and male. You?

>>24818475
I've found like three female friends from 4chan. They all usually have the same story as you tho, lots of desperate horny assholes. :/.

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I met someone on /soc/ I really really like him and I can't stop thinking about him! Only problem is he lives in Australia

>>24818488
Oh reddit isnt too bad. Although it doesn't have bots like omegle. There are pros and cons. Using both would be best

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My Morbid curiosity has come back again after all these years. It started way back when watching sick shit, deaths, suicides, crash's and more used to be funny. But then it turned fascinating and more and more I become enthralled into such morbid stuff. Combat videos of actual soldiers, people getting hit by trains. On board camera deaths of various vehicles. Now I have started watching Helicopter, Train, Boat and extreme sport death videos again. It isn't even on 4chan, live leak or youtube either. I found 3 of my secret sick sites that focus solely on various deaths. Some worse than others but that is the way it goes literally as they go and die. No one knows tho because as I have matured. I have learnt not to say shit. Because it is my own little fun game. Best advantage don't use social media either. Not as a brag. But saves less hassle from people. But soon I'm just going to go through the entire archive of the sickest deaths ever. No one will know and I just want to see if I can do it. I know I will not be the same after but like I said it is my own morbid curiosity. This why i'm never going to tell anyone ever.

>>24818627
I hope I don't know you. this was very scary to read honestly.

I often find myself questioning who I am, I'm a very sad person, and although I have a lot of friends, I feel more and more alone. I have a lot of issues with my gender identity and I don't want to ruin my seemingly good life, but I'm 18, and quickly ruining out of time if I want to be able to integrate into society and a passable transwoman, but I can't bring myself to do it because I'm too scared, so I'm constantly drowning my pain with alcohol, weed, coke, etc. on a daily basis, it's been 3 weeks since I've been sober and I don't have much emotion left, it makes me want to give up and fall into the drugs and alcohol until I die or forget who I am.

>>24818627
Can you link me to those death sites, please??!

>>24818641
>this was very scary to read honestly.
Some people seek comfort in beauty and life. And some in death and despair. And it's not so bad once you get past the breaking point.
>>24818692
No. This is my own little game like I stated.

>>24818475
Is it because you only found guys who wanted some sort of help with jerking off or you managed to go past that, but the conversation died after a while?

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>>24818627
I could stand to converse with you anon. I too am fascinated with the other side of tangible existence, otherwise known as death. I've seen videos of children being executed, ran over, out right tortured by sick minded adults among countless other things. I absolutely adore life as I have it, I've got a stable existence with finances well taken care of and a career path that is recession proof so I'm definitely not mired solely in the appreciation of what some refer to as macabre, yet, I'm continuously enamored with ingesting as much content as I can in relation to said subject.

Taboo isn't a word I recognize, existence is both beautiful and terrifying at all times .. at least to me. Feel free to respond and if not know that you're not alone in your curiosity regarding the inevitable end we all face.

Cheers.

>>24818654
>sounds like you already have my friend

>>24818654
Even if you face the scalper and change the outside, you'll still feel sad. At least, that's what the statistics show.
Seek therapy. You don't have to face your demons alone. You have to understand how the 'you' came to be before you can handle it properly.

I know you didn't ask for advice, but I wanted to chime in with something useful anyway. Just to not be too nice: Fuck you.
:D

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>>24818896
>I've seen videos of children being executed, ran over, out right tortured by sick minded adults among countless other things.

That is your choice really. Mine is just 12 categories of death. Go through each one from beginning to end. No matter what. that is all.

My brother has been destroying my life since he was born. Stealing parents' love and whatnot. Since he caused my depression I regularly steal and smoke his weed.

>>24818868
Will you give me just a few links if I leave some kind of contact??

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I have an awesome well paying job and hardly any expenses since I live at home. but I want to move out and do my own thing.
Also I'm over weight and Indian with a hard to say name and this makes dating basically impossible for me. I'm wondering what can of pictures can I show that I'm a fun smart guy not a creepy one. Also what should my bio be.

>>24818989
Just have your parents arrange your marriage you're literally able to get a submissive virgin girl on demand, I wish I had that option

For the first time I sold nudes to someone online. It was to pay for my dog's vet bills and I had no options. Felt sick afterwards

>>24818997
First off, I'm a guy that wants no part in that
Second, I'm atheist so definitively no arrange marriage.
Third, I'd like to meet a girl near me (southern California)

Almost lost my virgnity last night to the girl of my dreams, the girl I've been trying to get with for about about a year now. Was eating her out then she says "hey anon, If you want to lose your virginity nows your chance." So I go to put the condom on and I could not get hard. Fml

>>24818468
It's not rape if you want it.

I am moving with my gf in three months time.
She requested that I got VD tested. I did last week: all clean.

Problem is I really crave for shemale cock one last time before I move with her. My chances for such based plasure are just hookers. Also if I suck a bare dick, can I get a VD? It'd be a shame after the test.

WHAT DO?

>>24819041
Maybe you shouldn't cheat on her, buddy.
You obviouslynl know you could get a virus or infection.. Chances seem pretty low though.

I hate you.
How does it feel spending months to get me to open up? How does it feel to deny me the same a few months later when things get a bit harder for you? Was I really that disgusting as you found out? Was I really not interesting to you anymore? Was I really some sort of a time filler? You said you care, but I know you are lying to yourself. You were just bored and you found me interesting for that time period. As soon as I let myself known to you for who I am, your interest was already fading. As soon as I wanted you to open to me, you didn't want it. You said you were over emotional support, but it was you who said a few months earlier that I had helped you to get your shit together and to not let you fall back. How does it feel to let someone like me, someone who has difficulties trusting anyone open up and become attached to only be dropped a bit later? How was I not a time filler? How is my anger not justified? Have you ever considered that I might have felt something for you too? Or perhaps it was always out of question because you could never see me as anything more than an object of passing interest, something to keep you occupied when you were really bored?Something like a clothing of a fashion that will be out by the next season? What about me is so terrible? Perhaps I am too ugly?I never asked for you to ask me all those difficult questions. You did everything for me to become attached. And now you don't care, but I have always known that you haven't for a long time. You always prioritised cheap validation to something as little as two words, even if it was "Good night" because I spent so many nights, trying not to fall asleep, to only see you message me something. And now everything is completely broken.
And I know I have many faults, but I am sick and tired of being sorry for myself because I have been at it for months, yet you have never looked back to your own words, so strangely for a person that claims to be nostalgic and with a good memory.

>>24819049
Im craving for mulato dick down my neck. It is now or never. We live in different countries atm, there won't be any chances for me to do this again after i move. Cock is all I want. Then move on.
My concerns are: cheating and VD

Also slioghtly low key worried for the increasing crave for dick. She pegs me and all. Will it be enough?

Continued.

How does it feel not to have ever consider me as a human being, instead as some romanticised version of me, that once faded, was so disinteresting that you couldn't ever consider me anything more than a thing that you would write out of complete necessity? Why was it always that you said you were busy I could only solicit an answer if I ever called you out and I brushed your ego? You always were so quick to reply then, but God forbid if I felt down and was just hoping for a word or two to help me keep going - yes, I valued your crumbs from your table that much, I valued something that you would readily give to someone very easily so highly because you matter to me a lot, because I was so God damn attached to you and I was immature about it - you were nowhere to be found? How do you think I felt to see that you had time and probably the two minutes to write out those words, but you didn't?

Or do you think that all those things were nothing? You once said I know nothing about you. Perhaps you were right, but were those few months really nothing, all those little things you told me about your life, childhood, school and plans and wished for future? You said you miss that period, but how can you say it means anything when you yourself said it was nothing?

Hey fellow chick here. Its really hard to meet anyone here that just wants to be friends, and arnt horny assholes. If you ever want to talk to someone text me. My kik: blueshadow85

Continued.

Now, here I am in an anonymous thread because I can't bring myself to say anything to you anymore. All of these things should have been said earlier when you were on the line and somewhat ready to hear me out, but now I can't even write to you without feeling sick. Every single time that I have written to you all I see is good wishes and all of that, but it all feels like a courtesy. Do you actually mean it? Like really?

I remember when you told me you'd be excited for it all... I think I was very wrong to do all of these things to help you. I should have done it all for myself, but instead I put my trust in you because I wanted to see you happy because I thought I knew you and I just wanted to make you feel better. Like a child I was so foolish and naive thinking I could do anything, so oblivious of my own feelings and reality, but now, now I have waken up as if from a dream and I don't know anymore.

You won't ever read this.
Even if you do you won't recognise me.
I think about you all day.
You probably don't ever think of me.

And I truly wish I could hate you, but even when I say that it is merely a coping self defense mechanism, not my true feelings.

I have made up my mind about this. Time won't heal anything. I won't ever open up to anyone ever. You have shown me that it can only bring me immense pain. For someone who was so eager to help me awhile ago, you have ultimately hurt me.

I will do everyhting I told I will to prove that I wasn't a bag of wind, but it won't bring me joy.

World was a very warm place for me for a brief period of time thanks to you, but now the fire has been put out. There are no embers left. There was fire never in the first place. It was an illusion. I stuck to fire in hopes of it warming me up, but I just froze myself because it wasn't real.

I wish you'd knew my pain.

I'm excited to start my career in porn this year. I'll finally have some financial independence, and I can't wait to spoil my partner.

I have strictly religious parents, and I know that some of my extended family members watch the types of porn that I'll be producing. I'm not entirely scared of them finding out, but I don't look forward to the pain-in-the-ass conversations/criticisms and the awkward family reunions.

>>24819115
Do you have anything out yet. I recommend you start a subreddit and you can gain popularity and keep in touch with your fans. it worked for Cherry Crush

>>24819151
I don't have anything out yet, but thank you for the advice! I've been trying to think of ways to market myself better, and this idea is perfect.

>>24819185
No problem. I recommend you also make posts in other subreddits. For example post a pic in r/tightdresses and people there will beg for you snap/insta/ ect.

>>24818470
ur wives sister? do u talk about your sex lives? what does she look like compared to your wife?

>>24819000
what did u do in them ? which parts of u did u show ? and tell us about the guy who bought them

i befriended a qt over interweb
we skype a lot
i tug my dick to her face at least 3 times a day
she has no clue
help me

>>24819240
It was just some pics and videos on snapchat. He was willing to pay hefty dollar because he's had a crush on me for a while and I was willing to show face plus indulge in some of his kinks

he's a popular gaming youtuber I came to know through mutual friends, and I know he won't jeopardize his platform by sharing them, but still

>>24819268
You jerkin yourself over her is just making things worse for yourself. Maybe try actually seeing if she's interested and... you know... maybe post that pretty face of hers maybe?

>>24819439
maybe
i know she isnt interested
she talks about chads that fuck her /over/ and stuff
i feel like that if i wasn't as autistic something wouldve happened by now

>>24818449
I once pitty fucked my bestfriend and Its the one thing I regret most in my life even though she's quite attractive

>>24819454
Ah that sucks but hey you never know she might eventually take a liking to you. I'd cut down on the wanking tho because it's just going to make you feel worse about the whole situation

>>24819467
>bu bu but shes purdy
alright man. its gonna be hard not being hard. wish me luck lad

>>24819114
You a girl from Kentucky?

i don't feel like i can really be happy as long as i live in the state i currently reside in. there's no real industry here, there's nothing to do but get drunk/high, and since it's in the South, i've never really felt like i belonged. i'm liberal and kinda weird and a little overweight, and i've noticed that when i travel to a more densely populated area (out of state), it feels like those things don't matter as much. i recently went to Pittsburgh and my success rate on Tinder that week was exponentially better than anywhere i'd been in my state. the people i was with actually noticed a girl checking me out! that doesn't fucking happen back home. i have no idea why any of this stuff is the way it is honestly but good lord i need to hurry up and get my degree so i can get out of this shithole

>>24818654
Oh fuck it's literally me, right down to the same age. Except I don't have the money for coke.

>quickly ruining out of time if I want to be able to integrate into society as a passable transwoman
I hear that. I don't really want to transition but knowing that I've pretty much blown my opportunity to become/keep being a cute trap keeps me awake at night. I just can't fucking deal with the fact that I won't be, or that I'm not, young anymore.

I recently got my first job and literally for the first time in my life people are calling me a man (when kids brought stuff to the counter their parents said shit like "now pass it to the nice man") and it fucking cuts me to the heart

Im using drugs to numb myself and its working really well. I feel much less anxious. But i still feel sad. I miss the days when i got up early and had energy and went outside and found things to do. Now i sleep late and smoke on the couch and drink and shitpost and while i enjoy doing all this, i kmow that it doesnt make me as happy as being outside amd interacting with people and nature. I just keep making excuses for why im being so lazy. I work hard. Im gonna do something soon. I deserve a break. Yadda yadda. Its all bullshit. Im scared of something and its manifesting itself in this stagnated state of my being. I need to make a big change.

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Posted on the last thread.
met a dude on /soc/ and we hit it off pretty good. times goes on, we're boyfriend and girlfriend. fast forward to (x amount of time later) we're fucking on a regular and things are great
I stopped the pill throughout and I hoped I got knocked up.
He doesn't know.
I'm a shitty person I get it.

>>24820454
why

>>24820466
Bad judgement

Nobody genuinely cares about me and I'm unable to make friends so when I'm not working I'm usually doing nothing but thinking and being a bitter fuck

>>24818627
I feel the same as you anon. You just can't get enough.

>>24819669
man this puts things in perspective for me. I feel trapped in Pittsburgh. Good luck getting out of the South though

>>24820800
Compared to West Virginia, Pittsburgh is fucking heaven.

>>24818449
I put on the front that I'm going good, but inside I'm barely holding it together. Though the amount of effort needed is gradually getting less and less.

Still to shy to post in contact threads though.

>>24820802
I lived in Morgantown for 2 years, which I'm sure isn't anywhere near as bad as most of the rest of the state, but it was still a shit time. I sometimes really miss walking around the woods though.

>>24819669
>>24820800
>>24820809

if you guys couldn't get laid in fucking Morgantown you have serious problems

we are talking about extremely hot and extremely stupid 18 year old college girls who will suck your dick for a bump of coke here

>>24820813
yeah I don't live anywhere near Morgantown man

Bitch, you are awful at bjs. You are so bad that I actually try to make you forget about it. Also, when the hell was the last time you made me cum? Fucking never, that's what. I am seriously thinking just buying you a bunch of good-quality toys just so you can leave me alone.

Got back together with my ex. Again. For the third time.

Heres to hoping it works this time.

>>24820825
Third time lucky.

>>24819060
Chnandler?

>>24820822
Kek
Why not just tell her that, I mean you put your cock in her mouth so you must be quite close. Be in charge next time she blows you and guide her to what you like.
My last sex friend like to give head without using her hands, she'd put both her hands behind her back. I was constantly taking her hand and putting it on my cock and her other on my balls and telling her to use both at the same time. It didn't take her long before she was giving me the best blowjobs I'd had. (She was pretty good with just her mouth and had a crazy long tongue)

>>24818449

I'm obese 339lbs. It's largely the fault of society. Society made me this way. I was abused heavily as a child and sexually too. I had difficulty opening up to people all the time and still do. By the time I was 18 I was 5'6, and only 127lbs, balding, and with a dick slightly longer than 4 inches and not much better girth. But I mean I was not fat at the time, people said I had a nice face/funny personality and my hair was only beginning to recede. I managed to meet a girl. We were together for 3 years and it took me 2.5 years to open up to her fully. Then I caught her cheating and she ripped me apart. She used my past against me and made me feel horrible and she would demean me behind my back sexually to her friends. And then whenever I tried to meet other women they wouldn't even give me second thought because all they could see was a disgusting short, bald emotionally broken wreck. So no, I don't fucking care if I am obese you fucking faggots. SOCIETY MADE ME LIKE THIS. And all the fucking ADVERTISING of muscular attractive tall men in movies and commercials reinforces what is fucking unattainable for most. So now I eat tons of food because it is the only thing that makes me feel ok and I like to drink a lot of gin/vodka and when I can get it I take oxycotin, and vicodin. I hate this world i ate this world i fucking HATE THIS WORLD and I fucking HATE women and I DON'T FUCKING CARE IF YOU JUDGE ME FUCK ALL OF YOU

>>24820825
>Got back together with my ex. Again. For the third time.

Holy shit are you insane?

>>24818475
I've made a few good dude friends off soc, yeah I've seen their dicks and shit gets sexual because I want it to/allow it but I can vouch for all of them and say that they're all cool funny dudes to talk to about regular stuff too. Keep looking! Another piece of advice is YOU message them, a lot of the time it makes them chill on the creep act.

>>24818654
Don't question it, just embrace it and do it. It's easier said than done but if you keep waiting, you'll just live with regret.

>>24819012
Have you talked to her? Tell her it was nerves and apologize. Don't let her think it was you not being attracted to her or something dumb like that. Own up to your insecurities. It's hot when guys are blunt.

>>24818627
you sound like this kid i went to highschool with
he was stupid and kept talking about how this chick had a gun up her nani

>>24819041
Reddit random acts of bj!

>>24821009
>unattainable

Your vent is just the story on how you gave up.

Seriously man. Girls are fucking ridiculous sometimes, and I'm sorry you were really heartbroken. But believe it or not, it's probably happened to all of us. You see, As kids, we're really innocent, or confused and not exposed to anything. Very quickly do you realize that kids try and do anything. That's when love comes in. Kids think it's cool to go out, or they see what they think love is and try and search for it. In reality, 2 young people in love for the first time is extremely illusional. They're very innocent and don't know what love is, and they're simply exploring with each other. However, as soon as they realize they aren't for each other, the breakup is the worst thing to feel. My first true love was when I was about 12.. and she got into a silly arguement with another girl, and I agreed with the other girl and that really hurt her feelings. Other things happened, but she's still engraved in my memory because of the things we did, hang out, laugh and enjoy each other, discover each other's bodies (She had great boobs), and other stuff that we thought was love. Of course it didn't last, but she's still in my head. Always. It's almost a curse.

But seriously man. Get back on your horse, slowly start eating less calories, and start doing simple exercise and you'll be back on your feet. Now when you see girls coming at you more and more when YOU are the one that looks better after your hard work, pick and choose, bud. Pick and choose hard.

>>24818475
I don't think it's just 4chan in general, it seems to be rife anywhere online (i.e dating sites etc).

Though my luck on anywhere currently has been pretty awful in regards to attracting female friends online.

>>24820454
This is why I always stick a rubber on. Last girl I was fucking for 4.5 years couldn't understand why as she was on birth control. I had to tell her I was super paranoid of having children (which I am)
It's more common than you think fora women to accidentally forget to take her pill. I have several friends that have children due to their girlfriends doing this.

Feeling a bit irritated atm but want to not lash out at said person so why not rant to a bunch of strangers?

I do not get romantic feelings often and I am starting to feel sick about experiencing them. We broke up a while ago and you admit you have feelings and feel jealous when I flirt with others. Not only that, the response to the hypothetical situation of me dating someone is that you would get over it. I do not understand what you want and I am starting to resent you. I still have those feelings, but every time I come to terms with wanting to break off things with you completely I just keep telling myself it won't matter once I transfer.

The sex is good is probably the only compliment I could possibly give you. And I know that you hate yourself enough to love the fact I resent you, but the feeling you get from that is not something I want to do to you. You don't get sexual pleasure from it, you just get sad even though you want it. I wouldn't mind being an absolute sadist if it was a sexual thing, since I enjoy being cruel in that way. But it isn't, you want to feel like shit and it makes me wonder if that is why you keep me around.

I will probably tell them once I cool down and word things better but sooo tempted to tell them to fuck off right now.

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I'm extremely fringe in my beliefs and hate the majority of the people who post here. They are all extremely sex oriented to the point of absurdity.

My beliefs and thoughts have waned on me for some time as the only thought that encompasses my psyche is revolt against everything.

Recently I've lost a lot of weight in self improvement but I look around me and it's all so disgusting that I begin to question what the purpose of my improvements are. I feel happier, no doubt, but when the rest of the world has begun idolizing degradation and destructive habits it feels as though the human experience is only one of sadness when you focus on being better.

God has not left us, but we have left God, and in the current state of the world I cannot say I fear death entirely. I truly believe that death will bring me to a much better place as I cannot see much good in this world.

>>24821006
Nah, not worth it. Pretty much bad at the sex thing overall and dead fish in bed. And yes, I have told her in the nicest way already. She get more pleasure out of this than I do. Thinking of just cutting off this fwb and make it just friends if possible, which I doubt it.

I have a good job, great relationship for 5 years and counting now, yet i find myself coming back to 4chan and the kik threads etc to look for female attention and sexting. I have to travel a lot for work and have been playing with the idea of getting tinder and fucking while im not at home. But i won't ever do it. My sex drive just exceed that of my GF, she knows it and tries to compensate with bjs/hjs which i love her dearly for. And the times we do have sex we both come rather fast cause im rather big and (as a consequence) feel very tight so when she is about to reach her orgasm and starts to pulsate around my cock i cum too. I'd like to last longer..
Sorry for the incoherence..

>>24821157
Fair enough, there's a few of those about.

As my previous post implied i got fucked up last night and i posted a face photo and i was expecting to get shat on relentlessly and while some people did make fun of me i also got rated a 6, a 7, AND an 8 by people.
Considering i expected nothing but ridicule and low numbers I am pretty fucking pleased.

As much as I know getting in shape would be much more of a draw for getting in relationships with physically attractive people, what I actually want, is a feeder girlfriend.

I want to just get fatter, and have a skinny cute girl excited to feed me cake and fried food and rub my hairy belly and kiss it and tongue the belly button, then I'd violently fuck her while she moans out for her 'fat fat daddy'. I know it's a niche of a niche, and most of the people who like it are fat gays, but I don't care. It's what I actually want. I don't want to be some regular buff guy, I want to be fat and full and worshiped.

>>24818475
Same! I know how you feel. I've been trying to make friends on here for the past year and no dice, not just because of horny guys (I try my best to hide my gender and avoid those types), but because I don't have skype or kik and finding someone from my area (especially another girl) is rare as hell.
>>24818477
In my experience Omegle is worse but that's probably because I only do text chat.

>>24821127
The amount of degeneracy in this board is truly disgusting.

>>24819060
Jan?

I got my best friends ex gf pregnant. There I said it.

I fucking hate every single one of you utterly worthless cunts. I hope you die the most painful death imaginable.

>>24821654
Edgy

>>24821688
t. reddit

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ThomasBris


This is my boyfriends kik, I have been getting him to dress like a girl and had him make out with a man on Halloween. Would love to continue to make him gay and then out him to his friends and family. I need some help! Flirt with him and convert him please!!

>>24821710
Why though?

>>24821710
Sure, I'm in. How do I get in contact with you?

>>24821654
keep hoping lol

I don't know i'm mostly having doubts about my "friends" I always see them going out and having fun but they never seem to call me to hang out.I don't know why every time we go out we have a great time.Some times i get the vibe that The're too embarrassed to hang out with me

Ow and btw here is my kik:HungoverBadger if any one wants to vent no nudes no dick pics

>>24819060
>>24819086
>>24819114
There are some minor details here that suggest this is not who I think it is, but the more substantive issues are strikingly familiar. On the off chance you attempted to conceal your identity with slight embellishments and foreign language, please message me.

I was raped
I will share the full story one more time, and usually threads get deleted when I post something

Age 6-8
Lived in Russia at the time
Parents leave me with the neighbors to baby sit me..
Young girl about 13 takes me into another room, she undresses and I am naked as well for some reason, she has me just lay on her body as I am smaller I can fit quite well, she is touching my penis and balls, I can still remember her pussy and the way it looked, can't remember the feel though, she had me touch it and with one finger, brush it

Her mom, was in her 30s, she had me undress and I would find myself naked in a room with two grown women, and her daughter who was 5-6 years older than me. We- we would do things and I felt like I was loved by them

Fast forward, to age 13 now live in America, ended up doing things with another boy and that haunted me and still does to this day. I can't forgive myself, and move on sometimes

Age 15, would put on a dress, and a womens bathing suit for some reason, my sister would just laugh at me and think it was funny but I would just put on a dress for some reason

>I struggle with my demons and especially the one what happened with the other boy, I don't remember how long it went on, but it fucking haunts me still, We were nearly the same age and all we did was touch, but I just can't let it go, I am haunted by my past in Russia and the US

>>24821778
>inb4 some faggot says men cant be raped

That was pretty fucked up lad. Hope you're alright.

>>24821778
Jesus, that's horrible anon. I'm so sorry

I work at a shelter. We have a dog who was sexually and physically abused by their owner, and everyone wants to try to rehabilitate him but honestly I think it would be better to just euthanize him at this point. I feel shitty for thinking he's better off dead, but he really doesn't have much of a future

>>24821774
Your name begins with...?

>>24818475
This how I feel


Everyone thinks im doing great in my life, but in reality I am so lonely it hurts, I worry about everything. The people I have made friends with on here turned out not to really be my friends, but what can you expect? They are just lonely too, and are hoping to fill that void in their life, but im scared to get attached to people.


Also I jut in general hate myself, i imagine ill kill myself one day, idk when though. I just feel defeated in life

I go into my roommates room when they go to work so I can jack off with and smell his girlfriends panties for about 4 months now, almost had nudes of her but he took the memory card out of old phone they were on.

I fucking hate women but I want kids
I think the best option is a really submissive foreign girl who I like but don't really love
I'm horrified of the thought of her cheating, divorce, gaining weight and not putting out

But a highly obedient traditional type wants a super alpha chad and I'll never be that nor can I ever afford a housewife

fml

I know some basic white whore will just ruin my life like every other man that's ever gotten married in the past 20 years

>>24821778
Are you gay by any chance?

>>24822045
>not adopting

I get off on being degraded. Every couple of months doing it myself just isn't enough and I post photos somewhere with degrading body writing on my face and tits and then take them down a few weeks later.

I keep hoping I'll find a pervert who sticks and will use me into oblivion but so far no dice.

>>24822095
I dream of a live-in humiliation slut I'm constantly spanking and pissing on, randomly undressing her and making her do chores naked or even with jizz on her face and not allowed to wipe it off

I want to hookup with a 15 year old..I'm 21 F

>>24822145
Why?

I dunno..he kinda flirts with me and I just think he's hot..I couldn't really do it though..

>>24822162
Why not?

When I was 16 I dated one of my substitute teachers..it felt super wrong..he was 23..I broke it off because I wanted to date someone my own age. He was way too serious about the relationship. Anyways I'm not saying I would want a relationship with this kid..but I work for an after school program and yeah..I have had a ton of hs hit on me but I just really want this guy );

>>24822185
So, you just want to fuck him? How old are you?

>>24822045
I think you should just adopt. You are the kind of person that probably should not get married ever if you have this kind of paranoia and misogynistic views.
>>24821127
amen anon

I'm 21..and idk what I want I just know that I'm really attracted to him..

>>24822198
What makes him so attractive? His young age, his innocence?

>>24818475
You must be right. After all it's, 4chan.
But there are plenty of people who would have a good conversion with you. Try posts that are "Only for Fenders". You'll find lots of ladies there to chat with.

His age is kinda a turn off for me honestly..I do like the whole innocence aspect of it..but I don't know it's just his personality..like I look forward to seeing him, he always makes my day better..he always asks for help even though he doesn't need it..and waits for me after class

>>24822211
Yeah, I'd wait until he is 18 because if you were found out you get locked up for quite a while

Yeah it's just really frustrating..I just feel like a creepy pedophile

>>24822226
Well, technically you are a pedophile. Just don't follow through because you will be found out and you'll ruin your life.

I married the only guy I've ever been with and now I really kinda want to date again, I love him but I really like the whole beginning of relationships and flirting and getting to know someone and the passion

Fuckkkk, do you think I'm a terrible person?

>>24822245
No. Just confused.

I wanna have an affair with a submissive trap or cd. I fantasize about it every day. It's driving me crazy. What do I do?

>>24822245
In a lot of US states the age of consent is actually only 16 and in many parts of the world it's lower than 18 too, idk where you live but look it up

>>24822253
>what is statutory rape

Well, thanks for your input. it is nice to be able to tell someone about it

I wanna get raped

M, Ny

Sc:gamma-delta kik:contrabass. With the period

Here it's 18

>>24822275
Just wait until he is 18 if you like him so much.

We'll see what happens..hopefully I get over it soon

You want me to answer or justify anything when you haven't even bothered messaging me about that incident?

Either way I'll go through somethings even tho I have been through them before but you always like to believe what you want to believe.

>how does it feel to deny me later when things get harder for you
So I must ignore myself completely and prioritize your feelings ?

>disgusting, not interesting, time filler
You are not the center of the universe, just like you have problems everyone else does and sometimes it's hard to concentrate on both, and sometimes people feel so shitty that they don't want to talk to others not even their family, it's nothing to do with what you are as a person, or do I have to adjust my feelings so they don't get down when you don't want them to?

> I know you're lying to yourself
And now you know what people think as well, why are you asking me if you "know" umma liar.

>you did not want to open up to me
I believe that's entirely my decision to make, nobody can force me to open up, I'm sorry I don't obey your orders. I couldn't open up to people closer to me.


> was I not a time filler
It's a lie you tell yourself to frame me as the bad guy here. You had problems I wanted to help you through if that's hard to believe I can't do anything to make you believe so.

> I have felt something for you
No I haven't because you said you don't believe in love and you don't fall into it and I believe you. And if you do feel something me you haven't told me, I care for you as a friend.

>trusting people
I have the same problem trusting people too, that doesn't make you the weak party of the Both of us.

> perhaps I'm too ugly
If you're going to accuse me of being superficial just do it directly, either way I still don't understand why can't you believe that some times people need a break from even their closest friends.
Did you not take a break from this place when you wanted, nobody stopped you and nobody blamed u

>do I really mean it
You know that if I haven't I would t have tried to push towards something better at a point.


Do these things to help me?
Do what to help me ?
You went back to school to help me?
You worked to help me?
You're taking this too far

>you ha e ultimately hurt me
You've hurt yourself, and if you're willing to denounce imevery good intention I had be my guest.


>I wish you'd know my pain
This sentence sums up everything, you think you're the only one in pain. Gues what champ I do know it and because of someone else causing mine, happy now?

>>24818924
The stats also show that GRS helps alleviate mental health problems in trans people to a massive degree. Controlling for other factors indicates that the rates of depression and suicide seen in post op trans individuals, whilst much lower than their peers pre-op, are elevated relative due to the general population for reasons other than the surgery itself. Discrimination in the work place, in healthcare, housing, access to social security and or poverty in general, being part of an ethnic minority, and other factors all contribute significantly, far more than just the simple fact of being trans.

Surgery can help to a huge degree. A lot of the rest comes from being shat on by other people for no good reason.

>>24820812
Fuck him on the side. Ruin his marriage. Take him back and make him yours again, or no one's at all.

You were there first.

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>>24822426

I'm currently in a relationship with my girlfriend, we've been together for three years and she's my first and only girlfriend. I still love her and I enjoy spending time together but I can't stop thinking about other girls. Since she's been my only girlfriend I'm curious about other girls out there, I want to try new stuff but still, I don't want to lose her and make her suffer. I don't know what to do

>>24820812
wtf

This type of stuff happens often? This is kind of a crazy thing, how did this began?

4chan and MMOs have made me become a misandrist.

>>24822451
How about asking her to try new stuff? idk

>>24822645
Is it about the age, or the innocence?

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I'm so lonely.

I'm not fat and actually I'm not that ugly. I was never bullied. My family never treated me badly. I had a healthy relationship for 4 years, and him and me are still friends. Seriously, it was the most mature breakup ever, we never hooked up again but remained friends and there's no bad feelings between us.

I'm not stupid, (not that I'm a genius or anything) I've always done well in school, but lately, actually for the Ast year or so, my loneliness has just overpowered everything else. I really have to focus on school right now, but I just simply can't get myself to do it. I'm literally ruining my future right now, consciously but not on purpose.

I don't know why I don't have any friends, honestly. I love talking to people and I'm pretty outgoing, I -know- loads of people, but I don't know anyone I'd consider a friend.

I honestly don't know what to do at this point, and I don't have anyone to talk to. I used to be a really happy optimist/realist, but now I've just simply lost the ability to be happy it seems like.

I don't feel like I have a purpose, and I'm not talking about some super important thing that only I could do rosa es the world or whatever, but like.. I can't feel happiness and I don't even have anyone that I could make happy, since I don't have friends.

Sometimes it makes me so sad, I cry. But lately I've more or less accepted it I guess.
Well, not really, otherwise I wouldn't be posting this crap would I?

Thanks for listening, stranger.

>>24822689
You sound like me. I think you may have depression, anon. As well as your life could be, you can still be depressed.

>>24822719

I've actually already thought that might be the case, but I hate self-diagnosis and don't want to make light of depression or anything.
And I really don't want to go on meds, they scare the shot out of me, have seen them change quite a few people.

Are you gonna do something about your situation?

>>24822719
>>24822719

I've actually already thought that might be the case, but I hate self-diagnosis and don't want to make light of depression or anything.
And I really don't want to go on meds, they scare the shot out of me, have seen them change quite a few people.

Are you gonna do something about your situation?

>>24822689
>>24822726
>>24822730
A/S/L?

>>24822730
>>24822726
I very much understand your hesitation to going on meds but I think talking to a therapist might help if you're willing to do it. Meds might be another matter to consider if it's very severe. I am going in for my first therapist appointment on Tuesday so I'm very new to this myself. But I do think you should talk to a professional to maybe give some insight on what is truly plaguing you mentally and emotionally.

>>24822752
Wow it's really encouraging to hear that you're actually going to do something about it
Honestly, you should be proud

I've had the number of a psychotherapist I researched and picked out on my desk for like 3 months now and I always hang up right before somebody can answer.

I hope your appointment goes well Anon
Honestly I'm very inspired and proud of you :)

I tried killing myself last week, hung myself off my bunk-bed, nearly chewed through my tongue. It was so weird I sorta did it and then loads of random weird thoughts started going through my mind and then my body felt like it 'buzzing' loads, I could barely control my limbs or body in general. I then realised where I was and what was happening, realised i was chewing my tongue proper bad and somehow got the rope loose. Literally pissed myself haha god i fucking hate myself

>>24822734
20/F/Europe atm

>>24822777
do you need someone to talk to?

also
>nice lucky trips

I really like a girl I work with, she's pretty and her personality gels pretty well with my own, her being around is something that brings me happiness. Problem is I haven't ever felt this way, I haven't been in a real relationship ever simply because I've never tried to actively seek one out so these feelings are new and overwhelming to me.
The problem is, turns out I'm a coward, I'm scared to make any move on her, we get along but we're hardly close and it's only recently I've come to feel this way, I'm afraid of breaking what we have forever by jumping in without confirming how she feels but I hate the feeling of liking her, I think of her all the time when I'm not doing anything, I feel pathetic for being unable to act on those feelings.
I'm not unattractive or anything, I don't lack any self-confidence in that regard, but I feel like I'm just never going to make the push and am going to be stuck wallowing in my own pathetic self pity over such a small thing for ages.

I'm extremely attracted to my 47yo coworker.
She has a son older than me and a 1yo grandchild.
She laughs at everything I say and we've swapped CDs and books before. She has a gr8 ass.

25yo virgin

>>24822797
That's very kind of you, but I feel I don't have anything to offer, I don't have anything important or of value to say, I'm quite boring and I don't like to disappoint. But thank you!

>>24822765
Thanks anon. I hope you end up finding someone to see yourself, it really could help you. It's definitely scary but be brave.

>>24822822
followed by dubs, well done

I don't mind boring, and you have more to offer than you know, after all, your posts have been detailed and complete

>>24822829
Thanks, good luck to you on your appointment once again.
And thanks for answering, it made me feel a bit less lonely for a few minutes.
Hope you and I both make it out of this pit

>>24822851
Haha I'm pretty lucky I guess

Well if you leave your kik I might just message you :)

>>24822689
Kik me if u get lonely and want to talk, m/26/Canada. Also I'm a psychologist and might have some strategies to help >>24822239
kik: jd_g3

>>24822239
I'm in a very similar situation and long for the newness of meeting someone for the first time, the flirting, getting to k ow each other and be comfortable around each other. If you want to use each other as an outlet kik me: jd_g3

>>24822645
Have u ever had anyone show u or had any sexual experiences with other girls before?

>>24823000
I don't have Snapchat though! :/
What a tragic end to an almost-love-story haha
Good bye Romeo! (or probably more likely Sam)

>>24823030
Ah well it was a good try no? The stars didn't align for our love to triumph. So long femanon! And good luck with the trips and the dubs

>>24823030
So no kik chat with me ? :(

>>24823051
She wasn't falling for you was she?

>>24823037
My dearest, I have one last question for you:
your flag, is it white red and blue?
For I wonder if my suspicion might be true,
from the states you are not, are you?

Okay I definitely suck at poetry haha, but seriously, are you from GB?

>>24823057
The shakespear-theme just got me haha

>>24823051
Nice of you to offer to talk, I've got your username so if I want to talk, I'll text you ^^

>>24823076
Hey I liked your poem, was chill by me.

I am from the states, I am not from Great Britain. So now sweet Euro-love for us :(

i hate america i hate american airlines i hate chipotle germany is better

>>24823089
Haha ok cool, thanks for replying to me, you seem very interesting

>>24823093
Aw crap
Well I am too originally but I think I'm gonna stay here

Too bad!

>>24823152
My heart is filled with sadness, but yeah, too bad indeed. I wish my phone would run kik correctly

>>24822799
If I were in your shoes I'd just try to hang out with her more, until you eventually feel comfortable enough
If you guys get along it shouldn't be too hard to just hang out more and eventually you'll get a feel for the situation/her feelings toward you
Good luck!

>>24823162
Now I'm really starting to get annoyed we'll never talk again, I do like your humor (what I can tell at least)
This world is cruel!

>>24823182
Well let's make the most of it ITT then I guess. Alternatively you could download snap chat

That said, what do you like most about the place you live right now?

>>24823193
I guess I could
How come Kik doesn't work on your phone?

Well I mean as you know I'm not in a super happy mind space right now, so I guess I might forget some things that are great about this place.
But I do have to say I honestly like how multi-cultural it is. I know people from all kinds of backgrounds and origins, it's really interesting. Oh and multiculturalism always means loads of great food haha
Compared to the US, public transportation is really good here, that's pretty sweet
Oh and Beer! We've got great beer over here
So that's three things I like about this place, what are three things you like about the place you live?

>>24822689

>>24822719
>You sound like me. I think you may have depression, anon. As well as your life could be, you can still be depressed.

Is this what depression is?
I'm nearly 40 and have a lot of those kind of symptoms, although I live quite a good life. I always thought maybe I was a sociable introvert. I have a few friends but I have shut myself away from a lot of them over the last 5 years or so by just ignoring their calls and messages, now they don't even bother. I'm mostly happy on my own but right now feel like I need someone to share some intimate and fun times with.

I told myself I would never talk about this or explain it in detail but here it goes

I am tired of the corporate world, I used to be the main engineer, I used to be the go to guy. but I got tired of it stopped focusing on my career. I am still employed by the same company, but I fear greatness. When you are legit the main guy, everything falls on you and you are in control of the projects, managing people, and systems, The problem i face is i am tired of making billions for our company while there is no talk of a senior role or raises for the next 6 months, I have noticed the way other engineers act around me, and they either get jealous/envious when I am working on something so they come around and want to hang around the water cooler, where I do my business etc..

Another thing, I usually get the first picks on projects, and large work with systems and upper management stuff. For a while now, I have been passing the work around and giving it to other engineers because my work is already too much and intensive, that I don't want nor need to take on additional work as I am already a fucking god. The office environment is a weird one and I have noticed when other engineers get "work assigned to them" they act happy and excited to work on something, as if they were the first pick. lol top fucking kek, I let them take it over as I have already worked more than the rest of them and they are blind to the truth, I do not want the additional work load and do not need it.
tldr. I am a former god at the office. People remember me and know I am the go to guy and they understand when you want something done, hit up that engineer etc....

Fuck them, I am so tired of working long hours for 60k a year

>>24823258
They find, a system issue and they report it to the whole company as if it is a big deal, they don't even know I found out about it an hour before they did and I didn't report it because i didn't need the additional work, hours, or headache, so i just tell the other engineers, hey good job on that one thing etc...

>>24823167
Yeah that matches the advice I've been given, problem is we're strictly work acquaintances and I don't really have a lot of control over being with her. Obvious solution is to try and hang out with her outside the workplace but that is an ominous sounding thing to set up indeed.

>>24823236
>How come kik doesn't work on your phone?
It crashes whenever I try to open it, I suspect it's a memory problem but I have a snap chat so it doesn't bother me too much

>multiculturalism
Fantastic, I bet the food is fantastic with all the variety, and of course that yields good beer too

Hmm, I actually live in a city with good public transit, so I like that I don't have to drive to work. I actually like the cold and winters, so I don't mind wearing layers during winter if it means my summers are not as hot as the south. And third, I like the museums

>>24823242
Well, I haven't gone to a therapist yet, and I don't approve of self-diagnosis, but as anon mentioned, it might be depression, you might be depressed
And anon gave some solid advice, go get a professional to check it out

>>24823274
Makes sense.


What's your favorite type of cuisine?
And what's your favorite beer?
(Asking the important questions haha)

Oh sweet, museums are awesome.
I actually enjoy winter too, but for the last couple of years it's become warmer and warmer each winter (go figure), so that sucks

>>24823293
I'll answer those important questions if you do!

>cuisine
I've really been liking Mediterranean wraps recently. Think Greek lol
>beer
I'm all over the damn place on this haha I'll drink almost any beer, certainly try any of them. IPAs are all over the place and i like those

Snow can be so nice and so pretty, but then it can become too much or gross if it gets muddy with cars and stuff

>>24823301
Alright so I actually downloaded fucking Snapchat haha
So we don't have to ruin this confession-thread anymore
Smart of you to delete your username, but I'll need it one more time to contact you

I did the typical thing and fell for a bad boy, of course got my feelings hurt. Not just this, he has confessed some pretty fucked up shit to me, like serious crimes. I shouldnt see him anymore but Im scared to say it because he is already paranoid I will tell someone. Maybe he forgets me, or I will get something else than my feelings hurt. Fug.

>>24819060
This is so old. "Good night" was all that was left to say. You were indeed oblivious to your own feelings, and silence does not count as support, nor as permission to be open to you.

>>24823315
Still here?

>>24822773
>I tried killing myself last week, hung myself off my bunk-bed, nearly chewed through my tongue. It was so weird I sorta did it and then loads of random weird thoughts started going through my mind and then my body felt like it 'buzzing' loads, I could barely control my limbs or body in general. I then realised where I was and what was happening, realised i was chewing my tongue proper bad and somehow got the rope loose. Literally pissed myself haha god i fucking hate myself
Someone please rely to mine? haha :/

>>24823595
I don't really have any questions for you desu

But what forced you to go that route, and what do you want to do now? Do you understand no matter how bad it can get, you can always just go somewhere else and change your life, why stay in the same shitty environment when you just keep living in misery

>>24823615
I'm trying not and have tried a good few times but I always make the same selfish, thoughtless decisions as I'm basically a bad person haha

>>24818468
I'll rape u

>>24821828
Never mind. If you were who I thought you might be, I think you'd have already recognised me.

Just a vent
>Fall for a girl
>She would randomly sit next to me in mostly empty rooms
>Talk to her, we are friendly enough
>Try asking her to lunch
>Say yes, but drags a guy friend along
>Awkward lunch. Guy friend hits on her, and she wants nothing to do with it. (Ends up breaking contact for an unknown reason with him)
>Nothing happens after
>I catch her staring at me, and occasionally she doesn't look away, instead we just stare into each other eyes for a few seconds.
>She still never texts me first, but she will keep the conversation going if I do text her. Sometimes for 6-10 hrs.
>I sometimes slip in jokes that kinda tease her. No one finds them funny, but she still laughs. She sometimes teases me similarly
>She Makes it a point to try an push me to become an Emt. Which she is one, but also knows that I want to do it soon.
>She is always seeming willing to meet up, says "Definitely!" and "We can always give it a shot!" but will never commit to an actual day. But she seems kinda disappointed.


What to do? I am pretty sure that she knows I am interested in her

>>24823858
I would never fuck my sister. You're mentally unstable.

I am massively turned on by cuckold porn and I would probably enjoy being mercilessly cucked by just about anyone with the confidence to pull it off.

>>24824244
Do you have a girlfriend? Does she ever flirt with guys or tell you about guys she finds attractive? I'm fascinated by this fetish, from both sides.

>>24824247
No girlfriend, no relationship experience. Virgin in my 30s.

>>24824249
Do you get jealous of guys who have a lot of success with women? And turned on kind of jealous?

>>24824259
Well naturally I'm envious, but I don't really get angry or turned on over it. I'm a pretty laid back guy. and not very social. I'm not really sure how else to answer this question.

>>24824269
I'm just trying to imagine how you'd be if you had a girlfriend, and she knew a guy who was really attractive, and you started to worry that she was interested in him, and he started making moves on her.

It's a big fantasy of mine to cuck a guy, in fact I sort of did once when a girl cheated on her bf with me. But I can also see it from your point of view. I love hearing about my gf's sexual history and the guys who've got her into bed in the past.

>>24824276
I would follow her cues, mostly. I mentioned her needing confidence because it would be a very female-led sort of arrangement. She wears the pants. Not that I want to be femmed or anything like that.

but if I had a girlfriend, and it was still in a more conventional mode, and I worried that she was taking interest in another guy, I'd probably try and get her to admit her feelings and see how it went from there.

>>24820813
I never said I couldn't, lol. Just didn't like living there.

I've attempted to get a girlfriend multiple times with no luck but the couple times I try to trap it up on craigslist I get multiple male hits complimenting me, fuck I even shave and waxed and I'm 5.4 short and tiny stature but straight and go out time to time with males but I still consider myself straight. I think I'm fucked.

i'm pretty sure my ex's boyfriend uses this site and has been saving the nudes i post. i'd explain why i think that but it's a convoluted story and I don't care enough to type it out. little does he know i'm proud as fuck of my body and am not really bothered if this turns out to be true.

>>24824369
And you're male? Do you think he saves them because he's into you, because he's jealous of you, because he wants to blackmail you, or what?

>>24824385
yes i'm male. i'm pretty sure it's because i not so subtly contemplated kicking his ass in a vent thread a while back and i think that he's using my lewds as a deterrent.

>>24824391
Are you better than him? He might be jealous that you fucked his girl. Then again, you might be jealous that he's fucking your girl...

>>24824394
i don't think i'm better or worse than anyone, but personality wise he's a much better fit for my ex than i was. if we're talking better as in better in a fight, i would absolutely wreck that guy. and i'm not jealous of him, not anymore. i'd do it out of principle b/c i'm 99% sure my ex cheated on me with him while we were together, and any guy who'd screw a dude's girlfriend deserves his jaw rocked

>>24824406
Do you think your ex looks at your nudes on here?

>>24824428
hell i dunno. she knows i use this site, so it's a possibility. i can't imagine why she'd want to outside of blackmail purposes but even then, the worst she can do is expose my kinda shitty body or my weird kinks. i used to get embarrassed by both of those but at this point as long as it doesn't affect my chances of getting a job, i could care less what happens to me

>>24824451
Well if she was physically attracted to you it wouldn't be that unusual for her to still look at your nudes if you're going around posting them. Or even looking just out of curiosity.

What are your weird kinks? We're all friends here!

I miss my ex too much. I can't get over her. Even if I do, it's temporary. I don't believe anyone that says they understand me.

>>24824459
maybe next time, anon

I'm a bi male and I've got a crush on my bi female best friend of 2 years. I generally like guys but she's a great person and she likes to be dominant and I would totally let her dominate me. She's a huge pervert too.

But I'd never do anything cause I care about our friendship way too much and she's got a boyfriend and so do I.

I love my fiancee but I still fuck other women regularly, sometimes guys too. We are getting married in four months as well, I don't think it will stop.

My friend is slowly turning her life into garbage by involving herself with multiple men including her ex, a random stranger shes living with now for free rent in return for sex, going behind their backs lying, living a lifestyle of wanting money and just selling her body for it all while saying "Idc if I'm used, as long as I get money. Men deserved to be used"
I've tried to stress to her that these choices end badly, how those will destroy her sanity and regret all her choices she's making "just for money instead of a real job"
I guess I can only watch from far as she learns the hard way of her choices, as many do.

>>24821010
>are you insane?

No. Probably stupid though.

I just pumped my penis till I couldn't pump any more

Girlfriend broke up with me after 3.5 years about 1.5 months ago. I'm still madly in love with her and I keep wracking my brains trying to understand what I did wrong and why it fell apart. It's eating me alive half the time and I'm starting to get really depressed. She was the one thing that mattered to me and now I can't even get close to her. Sometimes I go through our messages and pictures just to feel something again. Ive never felt so low and it's driving me crazy.

>>24824826
sounds legit

My girlfriend doesn't give head out of principle and it pisses me off

I wanna set up a threesome for me and my gf with another girl but have no idea of how to get it together.

This might actually be good for me to post here. My boyfriend is being a massive fucking cunt as of late. He questions everything I say for no reason. Responds to me questions or messages with ok, yup, nup, dunno. He never wants to talk, never shows any affection. I ask a lot if we can hang out and do something and its "no I dont feel like it". I feel like he doesn't care anymore and never really did. He only talks if its a topic hes interested in as well and if I want to talk about something I like its no, thats shit, that sucks... on and fucking on like this. He's also "asexual" despite always saying how attractive other people are and stuff like that. So we've never even fucked. The closest we've done is he once gave me a handjob. when I ask for it hes always so fucking offended and then wont talk to me afterwards.

I love my boyfriend.

That is all.

i reported my best friend for raping me and i have to face him in court. i am terrified. i miss him and wish this whole situation wasnt happening. theres a void within me where his friendship and affection used to be. i mean im glad i reported him cause he deserves to b punished i just wish he didnt rape me lmao

>>24825219
>out of principle

What fucking principle is that

>>24825285
>his friendship and affection used to be
Nigga i'm pretty fucking sure if some one rapes you they're not in it because they love you they're in it because they want to please them selves off of some one else and if you won't give it to them they will take it by force.He deserves what's coming to him just keep your head up high and know he doesn't love you no matter what he says.

My sanity, though to those around me seems just as it always does to my friends and family (slightly off, always on basically) is starting to slip. I've had a charade going for the last few years where I have completely taken myself out of any romantic situations both physical and emotional and filled the void with drugs and alcohol. It is coming to a new head as of recent and I feel like i'm starting to lose my shit, and its going to cause me to be lonely for the rest of my life. Physically I have taken the steps to make myself more attractive, and am starting to think it really is my psyche. Amphetamines and LSD are not to be constantly tampered with, and definitely not mixed.

>>24825492
remember, love is crazy so the crazy ones can still get love, just not for long periods, unless it's your crazy in love, then you're just crazy.

>>24825555
Nice quads. It makes a lot of sense actually. Kinda shitty though.

>>24821778
It happens Ruskibro.

I grew up in Cuba, buncha boys and girls to play with. I'd pull down girls underwear, fondle them as a kid, played dick sword fighting with another boy, used to jump in sand pits naked. I had an attempt of rape when I was maybe 9-10 by one of my moms ex bf's. That shit fucked me up and I wasn't able to tell her about it till I was 20 or so, and on a hand written note. After telling her, she still remained with him, that fucked me up even more. Started watching porn n harder stuff to try and understand if it was normal for kids and adults to do that sort of thing (ironically most of the stuff i saw was Russian). Time went on, I got a gf, and the relationship bombed for many reasons, beside my own self esteem issues, self worth issues. You don't ask for life to be like this, you just make poor decisions, or shit happens to you. Go with God. Just don't bother dwelling on it.. life has to go on. And life is more thorns than roses, so enjoy the roses (good times) while they last, cuz the thorns (bad times) , they come anyway.

I love him so much

throughout college I wrote papers for people
they are all at least a full year below me
I have kept copies of every paper I've written
In april im sending out all the papers to the professors, around 200 people will fail courses.

I'm doing this because while I made money, I feel that justice needs to be done. They'll pay for cheating

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Reading some of these made me realise how tame my confession is in comparison

>amputee fetish (arm)

>>24825896
Hmm.. Let us know how that goes

>>24825920
Im sending it all out at the airport
then I'm leaving the county for a week
gonna be a good time.
200 people who's lives will fall apart. possibly kicked out of college a month before graduating

>>24825924
>>24825896
Thats ethicaly wrong
I mean, justice my ass

>>24825961
okay the whole justice thing is an excuse
I know full well that they trust me and think they'll graduate
it just feels like fun completely ruining a bunch of business majors' lives right on the cusp of success

>>24825868
Why doesnt he know

Use to suck on my wife's grandmothers panties everyday sometimes they were soaking with piss but smelt great. Sometimes there was small hairs to eat too.

>>24825983
He knows

Use to suck on my wife's grandmothers panties everyday sometimes they were soaking with piss but smelt great. Sometimes there was small hairs to eat too.

I can't even be in the presence of a girl without going full sperg, I'll die a virgin for sure.

>>24826039
Then its not a secret

I WAS PHONE

I'm fucking exhausted with everyone in my life that wants me to fight for them, while ignoring my own needs and my own fights. I need time to be alone and recharge.

>>24826065
You just gotta get out there and try anon. It will take many failures to eventually become more comfortable

I really want to date and have sex with one of my students.. I know I shouldn't, but I do. I might even love her

>>24826052
how old was her grandmother? what did old pussy smell and taste like?

Some chick I know is fucking everyone semi famous in order to get as close to Egoraptor and thus internet infamy as she can. And she's really, really close too.

>>24827439
how old and do u think she does too?

>>24827472
depends
buh dun duh

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yxocd3z3OLU

>>24824088
Stop expecting a woman to take charge you faggot.

>>24824088
She just likes the attention..dont waste anymore time

>>24827550
Doubtful. She's too shy to do that.

>>24827545
I'm not. I did try to meet up numerous times, but she always seems eager, but never commits

>>24827551
Set a time and place. Be forceful. If she does not commit go dark for week. Act uninterested for a bit.

>>24827567
I was gonna try to take her out to celebrate her EMT Certification this weekend. So I was gonna ask about how it went friday and see from there

I'm engaged to the love of my life and I couldn't be happier with him. But part of me wishes I had more experience before I settled down. I wish I got my fill of cock. I wish I got the chance to be with another women. To breath in her scent and hold her close as I force her pussy open with my fingers. I'm far from disappointed with my current sex life, I get more than my fill, but it's the unknown that I will always yearn for.

>>24827487
She's 19 and I'm 39. She's in my creative non-fiction writing and she is simply amazing. Her writing, her sense of humor, her mind, how she carries herself, she's unique and beautiful... it's hard to focus on class around her. I just don't want to loose my job

I think she wants to, but I can't be sure I guess

>>24827645
t. whore

>>24827652
Oh yes. Being faithful and committed to my fiance of 2+ years but still feeling sexually attracted to other people is such a crime. *Rolls eyes* There are no whores, just people who judge and can't get laid themselves.

>>24827652
Oh come on. Like most people who settle down young don't feel the same way at some point

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>>24827665
>You're just jealous because you're a virgin
Same old tune. I'm starting to actually think women have the mental capacity of a child. I hope your fiance knows that you're a slut

>>24827649
Just wait till she's out of your class

If you miss your chance well shit happens

>>24827679
Um, I never said that I thought you were a virgin? Same old fuck boy routine. Let's base our argument over something I never said.

>>24827667
And yes, thank you.

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>>24827702
Well, that was what you were implying. I don't think your feeble mind can comprehend such complexities. Stop talking to me now. We're done.

>>24827712
Not what I was implying at all. You took my comment and made what you want of it. That's a concept you most likely don't understand since you've dismissed me already. Good luck with being pigheaded.

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>>24827726
>still replies
What didn't you understand about "We're done". Fucking women

>>24827712
>>24827679
>>24827739
You're not doing yourself any favors with these replies bud

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>>24827748
>Whiteknight
Pathetic

>>24818449
My girlfriend cheated on me with my best friend and some other guy, she ghosted me when I found out, stole my money from orders on Amazon and stole my artwork. I wake up every morning after dreams of self harm and murder. I went on here to find people to help me with my depression. To keep my mind off of it but no one ever responds and sometimes i think my humor scares them away. All the guys talk about masterbation like a bunch of sex addicts. I think my mental health is declining, i find my appearance disgusting no where i used to have confidence. i hate myself more and more every day. I try to hold conversation but it just seems like people aren't interested in What i have to say. I hate everything about my job and I feel like i am at a standstill. Im not going to post my kik or anything. I have friends, they just don't know how miserable i am.

>>24827754
That is pretty fucked up. Hope you get better, my man.

>>24827754
See a professional my man

Don't put that kind of pressure on your friends in your mind. It's unrealistic to expect people to do stuff Ike that for you unfortunately.

>>24827750
>gets triggered over virgin meme no one even said to them
>starts throwing around the whiteknight meme

you're doing this to yourself

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>>24827781
Mate, you aren't going to shag her if you act like a beta little cunt. You're dismissed aswell. Cheerio

>>24827726
Ever think maybe he knows? Your Fiancé I mean. And maybe he would be ok with it as long as he knew you'd come back? Might be projecting my own thoughts but it's a point of view

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>>24827798
Stop with the cuckold fantasies please you worthless faggot.

>>24827824
Lmao not fantasies. This shits happened so much to me over the past 3 years I honestly don't care anymore.

>>24827837
If someone did this to me I'd make sure she wouldn't be able to look at herself in the mirror again without crying.

>>24827842
nobody cares how allegedly tough you are keyboard commando

your impotent rage is amusing

I desperately want my girlfriend to hate me/break up with me so it won't be a harder blow on her when I kill myself. I'd cheat if that would do it but she'd just forgive me.

>>24827851
Beating a woman doesn't make you tough. That's a fucked up way to think.

32 m virgin los angeles

kik: zsasza

I sucked a cock for my first time a couple months ago and loved it , wanting to try again but haven't meet anybody else I trust , been wanting to suck ever since

I regularly masturbate to pics of my mum n sister and love spying on them.
Anyone else do the same?
Kik toby847

I don't know if I'm asexual or just have a morbidly low sex drive. It just seems like the world is only interested in sex and pleasure. I tried getting myself off once but nothing felt good. Hell, I barely felt anything. Totally disappointing but I'm not particularly surprised.

The whole sex gig just seems immensely overrated.

28/f and zero fucks given.

I came to soc when I was 16
It was after I lost 30lbs from an ED
My self esteem was at a low
This guy I e-dated "cheated" on me and was significantly older
It was a dumb situation I know that now
But
Soc kinda helped me
The stupid high rating raised my self esteem as a self perceived 2/10 to a 5/10
Shortly after I started eating right
So I guess in short soc helped my ed lol

>>24828280
This board must be a constant disappointment for you then... Have you ever been intimate with someone though?

>>24828290
I had a bf in high school for a couple of years but just digital shit. We were wusses.

I'd jerk him off and whatnot but I never got much out of it, despite all our tryings and experimentation. I knew he felt awful over it but it totally wasn't his fault. Clit stuff is fine but got overstimulated to near painful fast.

For all I know my nerves are fucked up or something.

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I am desperately in love with my older stepsister, who I met when I was 10, am terrified to say anything, and now it's really awkward being around her

I can't attract women. I'm a lesbian who dresses in a feminine way so I guess I'm damn near invisible to other gay women. I don't want to be a butch lesbian stereotype but damn it I want to get laid.

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i like hearing how people would degrade my sister

>>24828490
What else have you got of her?

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>>24828493
tell me how you would degrade her

>>24828507
It's not like fucking me is all that degrading and that's all I want out of her.

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>>24828531
no i mean how would you treat her like a slut

>>24818449
>had a crush on a lesbian qt
>fucking thicc
>nice
>lots of common interests
>we both had crushes, but, we live on opposite coasts
>come out as trans to her
>she's SUPER nice about it
>now she won't talk to me
>she wanted to come visit me this year
>won't answer any of my texts
> I'm hoping her phone just broke and got a new number

My dad's on deployment in to Afghanistan and my mom is fucking the neighbor. I can't tell my dad he says his family keeps him going over there. I know he doesn't know because he thinks she's the most loyal person ever. She spent a lot of his deployment money paying the neighbors bills. I've tAlked to my mom about it and she says if I tell him it will kill him and I'll be responsible for it. I really cant do anything here if i tell my dad he's gonna probably lose it. If I tell anyone else I'm homeless till my dad gets back in 7 months (on a 13 month deployment)

>>24828881
Don't let yourself be manipulated. The only one in the wrong there is your mother.

>>24828881
>if I tell him it will kill him and I'll be responsible for it
No you won't.Telling your father is the right thing to do and you're mother is the one that's doing this not you.

>>24828881
Tell him when he gets back, but not until then. You'll fuck up his headspace and he might get killed. Gotta keep his mind in the zone.

>>24818449
I'm a black dude that voted for Trump.

>>24828881

TELL YOUR FUCKING FATHER. He deserves to know since he is fighting for this country. Maybe he can find you a nice step mother that isn't a huge whore.

I miss my boobs a lot. I spent the past 2 years getting into the best shape of my life and I feel good about it, but I miss the attention. I developed late and gained all my weight shortly after developing, so I had D's longer than I've had B's. I used to wear low cut shirts and show off some cleavage, buy sexy bras that I spilled out of, lick my nipples, and titty fuck. Now I might as well just be a boy and it sucks. Literally no one pays me the same attention.

>>24829400
Care to share how they look now? Doubt they look bad as you're describing it, i mean sure probably smaller but not bad as you're saying.

I have some sort of gender dysphoria and it's killing me inside.

I don't want to be a girl but I want more than anything in the world to be a cute girly trap. I'm not trans: I Iike having a dick, I don't think of myself as a girl trapped in a boys body. But sometimes I feel like I would have been happier if I was born as a girl. I just feel like I can't meet the expectations made of me as a guy. I don't really feel buff or macho at all.

I feel so crushingly lonely and the world seems like such a scary place. I have a loving family and a great group of friends but
>tfw no gf
and I don't see myself getting one any time soon. I'm annoyed with girls because they all seem like passive submissive fucks who need men to be the ones to initiate everything, but I'm annoyed at myself because that feeling stems from a hypocritical envy, because I want to be the one who gets hit on. I want to be looked after and to feel desired, but I think most of the girls I know think I'm gay or see me as a completely nonsexual entity. I've only ever kissed 3 girls and all of them made the first move. One even wanted to have sex with me but I got scared, but she didn't mind and we kept on seeing each other. I can talk to and laugh with girls just fine but I don't know how to make that talking into flirting, or when it's appropriate to make a move, and I'm terrified that if I try anything I'll get laughed at or they'll respond in disgust.

Even if by some miracle I did manage to become a cute femboy I'd still be so fucking lonely because it'd pretty much destroy my social life and any chances I have with girls.

>>24829478

I'm into female on male rape and /ss/ to the point it's gone beyond a fetish. I think it's because I'm so worried about trying to be the one who I initiates sex and flirting: I've idealised these situations in which a girl holds the power. But I've recently become an adult and have this horrible gut wrenching feeling that my opportunity to be a nice older girl's cute little boy toy has been and gone.


What makes it worse is that when I was little I had super long hair and people thought I was a girl a lot. I was actually a little shota trap, just like I dream of, but I was a really fucking annoying dumb little shit of a kid and tween so I don't really like thinking back beyond 2/3 years ago.

I still feel genuinely happy a lot when I'm out getting fucked with friends or immersing myself in vidya, books, dumb memes and other escapist stuff at home, but whenever I'm on my own with just my thoughts for company I can't think about anything else and start tearing up. I've started crying myself to sleep recently so I try to go to bed stupidly late so I'm tired enough to just pass out straight away.

I look in the mirror and see a disgusting gangly freak. I honestly don't think I'm too ugly: pretty symmetrical features, good figure, good sense of dress. But it's not how I want to look. I feel like I'm stuck in this slightly baby faced hell between looking genuinely cute and looking manly.

Sometimes I think that I could just go and commit suicide but the idea of death terrifies me, and it'd be insanely selfish of me to kill myself and upset my family

>>24828318
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>>24818449
I like sex in the missionary position for the purpose of procreation

I'm 23.

>I'm a virgin.
>Never kissed.
>Not even held a hand.
>Never talked to a girl.

Beats me.

>>24827472
70 plus. Smells of real quality Like Red Wine. Mouth watering taste. Never any cream.

Once ate the cream off one of my wife's friends knickers when she stayed over.

I fucking hate my friends

>>24818627
Same. But it isnt illegal so if someone asked i wouldnt lie. The only person thats asked though has treated me diffrent ever since. I recently stopped saving the pictures because of my new job but im still very active with watching the videos. Im not violent or even angry, injury and death is just the only thing i enjoy anymore. Only get help if you want to hurt someone.

>>24818513
Are you me


He's on the other side of the world and now I feel stupid
Probably wouldn't even have a chance if we did live near each other though ;_;

>>24821597
>As much as I know getting in shape would be much more of a draw for getting in relationships with physically attractive people, what I actually want, is a feeder girlfriend.
Haha I'm this but different
I know I probably should gain some weight to look better, but I actually just want to stay this skinny.
But I also love to make food and especially when I can cook for others
Sooo know you know those girls exist, guess I'm one of the weirdos

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Do you want to know what my secret is... I'm just a decent person.

I'm not an alcoholic or a user of illegal or prescription drug. I don't have any mental illnesses or major physical ailments. I was never abused and I have never abused someone. I'm not a liar, manipulator or cheater. I've never hurt someone on a serious personal level, I've only been hurt.

I can be funny but often times am not. I'm stupid but have my moments of insightful intellect. I can be witful but am often dull. I seem horribly boring but I have an extremely interesting and uncommon career. I can seem joyous but I'm often filled with melancholy.

The one thing that's oh so painful is the part of me a something I cannot change, that thing what people often compliment me on speaking of my "goodness" or "decency", this thing has only ever brought me sorrow and loneliness.

Sometimes I wish I could simply just change, cease to be the person I am but every time I try I just fall back into myself.

How odd it is that the thing you hate most in yourself is what people describe as goodness and decency.

>>24830369
Tell us more about your life, experiences, hopes and dreams.

I'm more and more into beastiality, and having no one to talk about it with is dricing me crazy.

I posted my kik on 4Chan not expecting any decent guys but I got one and now I'm catching the feels...I know this is such a bad idea too and I'm like whyyy

>>24829737
sounds great! why did she have cream and what did it taste like?

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I've given up and yet I'm actually happier
I spent years trying to improve my career and I was treated like dirt
I spent years trying to improve my body and social skills and I was treated like shit

So mid-2016 I entirely gave up on the life I'd tried to build, came back to my hometown, took a shitty job and a factory, gained back most of the weight I'd lost, and resigned myself to a a life of drinking beer in a trailer

And I'm happier now then I was a year ago when I was doing well enough in life for girls to like me, the first and only time I wasn't seen as a failure but I was miserable

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>>24830898
I'm not sure what there is to tell, or better yet what the point would be.
Should I tell you the truth is that most of my experiences in life have been mundane and uninteresting or should I mention the moments of wonder and excitement that I've had?
I suppose I'll give a lie of omission and skip over the mundanity that would be the majority of my life.

So about my life and experience.
At a young age I realized I was the kind of person that I would always wait last to go in line, and at an event I was always the first to start helping and the last to stop
Even back then when I was young I realized that it gave me no happiness, but I didn't do it to seek the approval of others, it's simply what I felt I should do.

For a more present look at things.
There are many parts of my work that I quite love but on a daily basis I have to deal with people who lie to me, avoid me, curse me and spit in my face.
All the while I cannot stop myself from treating them all with a most often completely non-reciprocal respect, patience and kindness.

Sometimes when confronted with verbal trickery, lying and manipulation I can get lost in the moment of what to do.
Conversely when witnessing a bad accident with a woman trapped in a car I surprised even myself acting without hesitation with a clear mind set and plan of my actions.

As for my hopes and dreams.
I could go on about the generic things of expanding of my work, hobbies and interests, but that would only be noteworthy to people who are already interested in those subjects.
I'm someone who's never been properly able to show someone else my abundance of love, not because of some disability or hindrance but because simply I was never given the chance.
Most simply put I want to find someone to love and be loved by and I want to build a home figuratively and literally and fill it with love until it's bursting at the seams.

>>24831224
Me again, thanks for the reply. Whatever it is you do, I'd hazard a guess that you're pretty well advanced and more than proficient, with everything to offer a prospective partner. Don't you think that the rest of us are just as boring, trudging along waiting for that other person to complete our expectation? I've lived my life wondering what it might be like to have someone who'd appreciate everything I do, my personality and perspective. Yet it's so far amounted to a broken heart and no sense of direction. Yet reading what you typed fills me with hope that there might just be a version of you out there that might be able to put up with me and maybe even enjoy me. I know why it hasn't happened for me, I'm an idiot. Why haven't you been given the chance to love?

I pushed someone away when I shouldn't have, but I'm too proud to admit it.

>>24831314
Why did you push them away?

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>>24831282
>Me again, thanks for the reply. Whatever it is you do, I'd hazard a guess that you're pretty well advanced and more than proficient, with everything to offer a prospective partner.
I'm not entirely sure about that, I wouldn't say I'm awfully proficient but I've had my moments. Ironically enough my profession has a certain allure to it, but I've never been able to capture it in helping with a prospective partner.

>Don't you think that the rest of us are just as boring?
I think on the surface people perceive me to be less interesting or complex, and when it comes to matters like that of what something appears to be for first impressions that's all that matters .

>I've lived my life wondering what it might be like to have someone who'd appreciate everything I do, my personality and perspective. Yet it's so far amounted to a broken heart and no sense of direction.
I think most people desire that, and most people have also received the same outcome.

>Yet reading what you typed fills me with hope that there might just be a version of you out there that might be able to put up with me and maybe even enjoy me. I know why it hasn't happened for me, I'm an idiot.
See this part is extremely flawed and frustrating to read from my perspective I'm not flawless or a paragon of anything, there is no perfect person our relationship, everything is what you make of it and you are only as "worthy" or "not worthy" as you make yourself.

>Why haven't you been given the chance to love?
As I mentioned above with the frustration I've had multiple people tell me they could not or would not be with make because of some notion of not being "worthy". Now if what they said was simply lie that are so often told in these scenarios is certainly up for debate.
Almost no one is interested in what I have to offer or can to see it, ironically enough the few that have seen it have stated that they're not "good enough" and that I should seek elsewhere.

>>24831420
And here you are. Seeking answers in the most unlikely of places..
I have to sleep anon, post some contact details if you want. You sound like someone well worth getting to know.

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>>24831450
>And here you are. Seeking answers in the most unlikely of places..
They're many odd people here, not all the stereotypical way of this place.
But yes I suppose so.

>I have to sleep anon, post some contact details if you want. You sound like someone well worth getting to know.
Why not.
Skype: RedSnapperPizza

I once was sexual with my cousin she has big tits witha slim body and big ass .. and i cant stop thinking sbout it

>>24818449
I think i'm terminally ugly. Between my social issues and my steve buscemi eyes i've had no luck on tinder since i downloaded it like 8 months ago

>>24818449
Once when I was 18 a random middle-aged fat dude hit on me in a park.

I was near a playground and playing a gameboy, so I guess I looked like a kid, and when I told him I was 18 he said I looked a lot younger.
He kept steering the conversation back towards sex and what sexual experiences we had had. I was a khv, but he said he was having sex with both genders as early as 6th grade. It was fairly obvious he was hitting on me- he wanted to take me back to his place for a beer. I was flattered, but politely declined. He was nice about it and we went our separate ways, with him saying he hoped he would see me again.

Now heres the thing, even though it made me mildly uncomfortable at the time... after the fact I kind of got off on it. I kept going back to that park, taking walks there in the hopes of seeing him again. No such luck. I masturbated for over a year to the thought of him having his way with my young body.

Nowadays for some reason almost all of my gay desires have faded, and I pretty much exclusively want to have sex with women. I still don't know why... but for a long time that fat pedo guy really turned me on. Maybe it was just such a nice confidence boost to be hit on? I'm really not sure.

i dont like how i look, i dont like my job.
last girl i liked was at my old job and i havent visited there since the beginning of winter. never even made conversarion cause i was scared.
i dont like this

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>>24818449

A few days ago I had to push away my one source of physical affection.

My female friend (I'm male) is very physically affectionate with all her friends of either gender. Hand holding, cuddling you name it - as far as I know she's not in a relationship or looking for one.

I've never had a girlfriend, so this physical affection was really nice. I would reciprocate when we weren't in public - having never felt physical affection from a woman before, I was very timid but it felt really good. But it was making me have feelings for her, and I knew for certain that she wasn't in to me. So I had to tell her to stop for that reason.

It was so fucking hard - my entire chest was knotting up and I couldn't breathe. She just said "it's okay" and kind of shrugged it off - we haven't spoken since. I thought I'd feel better, but I feel worse. Each day that goes by I feel a bit less bad, but in the long run I'm still alone, and likely to stay that way. This is the umpteenth time I've posted this to 4chan, but I still want to vent. I don't know what I'm looking for doing this, fuck.

>>24825968
that's pretty fucked up senpai

I'm a dude and when I was like 13 or 14 I used to go nude on webcam and masturbate for older men and one time I organised to meet a guy after I finished school to suck him off. I told him a spot to park a few streets away in a very quiet spot where nobody would see me get into his car. It came to the day and he sent me a text saying he was there and when school finished I was going to go meet him but then something came over me and told me to not do it so I went home and left him there. Probably for the best desu I could have been killed or injured and possible left with severe trauma from being sexually active with an older guy at a young age.

I also sometimes fantasise being that young, 12 or 14 and being taken advantage of. Kind of fucked up but yeah.

I read these threads on occasion when I have free time in the late hours of the night. I've never posted anything like a secret here though. But tonight to everyone who has posted I wish you the best. A lot of you are hurting and I feel like there isn't much I can do or will ever do. But I hope that you will be alright even though I will never know anyone on this board. May whatever you believe in protect you this night.

>>24824863
Oh did I've been there. And if she never said anything that you did and it just consumes you to no end. Like you need this information to better yourself so next time, next time you will do better and it will be different. Here is what I found. Sometimes it actually wasn't your fault. And sometimes that's the hardest thing to realize.

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>>24819114
You sound like me anon. I'm going through the same thing after 6 years of trying to make this person love me and buying into the words he said.

Leaving is legit the hardest shit ive ever attempted. Probably because ive never tried for anything as much.

>>24819114
Pity party, co dependant- and yes, the road to hell is paved with only the best of intentions. Never let another force dominate your life. Never let them jade u- u were built to withstand the damage. Dust off, try again- do not allow pain hold u back- welcome it. It is the human condition- mwa- post if u need me

I actually enjoy being poor, money is too much of a responsibility.

its breaking my heart to see my ex turning into a slut.

>>24818513
Take the chance, anon. I did but it was from not to Australia. It will be a valuable lesson however it turns out.

>>24819114
Can commiserate, anon.

>>24831120
Tasted like dry parsley sauce I don't know why the cream was there but I cleaned it off

My wife hasn't had sex with me in 6 months yet sleeps with me every night and let's me feel her up every night. I've started fucking my next door neighbors daughter bc she's young and hot af. I'm old and she likes the attention. I win.

>>24834809
>his wife was fucking someone else first
>thinks he won

Damn. This just occured to me.

In April I asked a girl to lunch. She responded without Hesitation, but the night before she texts me saying that her friend wanted to tag along.


But he kinda acted like it was his date, and sorta hijacked it. (She seemed uncomfortable with the whole thing, and stooped talking to him within a month)

Thoughts?

>>24834858
She was afraid of the date but also afraid of what would happen if she said no.

>>24834867
Maybe. But the fact that he sorta hijacked it makes it odd.

Plus all this stuff from her from before then, and after (Including only two weeks ago) makes it seem like she just wanted a friend to kinda ease the awkwardness abit?


>She would randomly sit next to me in mostly empty rooms
>Talk to her, we are friendly enough
>I catch her staring at me, and occasionally she doesn't look away, instead we just stare into each other eyes for a few seconds.
>She never texts me first, but she will keep the conversation going if I do text her. Sometimes for 6-10 hrs.
>I sometimes slip in jokes that kinda tease her. No one finds them funny, but she still laughs. She sometimes teases me similarly
>She Makes it a point to try an push me to become an EMT. Which she is one, but also knows that I want to do it soon.
>She is always seeming willing to meet up, says "Definitely!" and "We can always give it a shot!" but will never commit to an actual day. But she seems kinda disappointed. (Though has specifically mentioned days shes free when I'm not trying to meet up with her)


So, yea. That guy, and her reluctance to meet up is odd. but she is shy. So she might be struggling here