secret/feels/vent thread

>>24481330
Secret - The Pierces
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HzNFwxsSPwU

So, the right answer to 'do you think I've gained some weight/do these pants make me look fat' is to respond by taking command of the situation to shape that ass into whatever you want it to be, through hot sex, and plans for exercise or fattening up, right?

The whole point is a desire to feel attractive and not meeting her own standards, so she's challenging you as a means to displace that insecurity on bitterness towards others. What you need to do is call out that statement and make her feel embarrassed for trying to cause problems, forgiving her by working out the stress through physical exertion, and then taking the burden of planning around it away from her by telling her exactly how she should be going about shaping that ass up for you. I mean, that's how I feel it should be addressed, as a chance to take charge in the relationship.

I posted this somewhere else too

Yeah I'm poor. I live in my friends shed.
I'm deeply emotionally troubled and have made some horrible decisions. My only help is from myself and my one friend who let's me stay with him while I try to find a place and work myself up to manager at a job. I want so badly to restart somewhere else, but I've done that so many times in my life so far, and I find it's a lot harder now that I'm alone, with no family, and no really good friends, because I always keep to myself, mental illness vicious loop entangled with my apathy or bad decision making

I'm currently 19, and I've been through a lot, especially these last 2 years. They've been an adventure and a huge challenge with some accomplishments and failures. I turn 20 next month but lately something's been going wrong.
I feel like my mind is decaying. It's actually felt like it's bee very gradually and surely decaying. And by that I mean certain things have been getting worse. I feel like a huge chunk of my intelligence has gone away. I have trouble comprehending speech. I also have a lot of trouble speaking. I slurr my speech while sober. I can hardly even write anymore, my nondominant hands legibility is equal to my dominant hand at this point. I never feel well rested. The days I don't work I sleep for 14 hours a day or more hoping to feel some relief from this constant tiredness. I'm afraid to go to the doctors. Also my current way of life theres be no way I could do it

Sorry I just needed to vent, don't have anyone I can comfortably talk to about all this

Cheating on girlfriend of 1.5 years. In an LDR, have discussed marriage, children, moving across the country to be with them. Don't love her anymore. Sext two girls, have a sugar baby who sends occasional nudes and chats with me, involved in 'romance sexting' with another girl, trawl soc for other girls to trade pics with, occasionally pay still another girl for Skype shows. Have no shame. Think that all the cheating helps me cope with an unsatisfying relationship. Might stay with her for the rest of my life because she's got mental issues and I don't want to break her heart.

>>24481991
Just break it off with her because she's going to hurt even more when she finds out what you're doing on her own.

>>24481330
I have a crush on my close friend, she has hinted that she likes me as well. We live far away, and now she wants to come visit. But, she wants to bring her new room mate with her. She'll also be bringing him when she moves out here for a work thing.

Is it safe to assume she's not interested in me like that anymore?

>>24481682
This is pretty good. Kind of a lot of ways to fuck it up though.
>>24481974
If you can, use your little free time to develop a skill you can take pride in. If not that than start seeking a place where you can develop a skill for free or even get paid to do it. Like an apprenticeship or something.
>>24481991
Breaking up with her is literally the best thing you could do, you scumbag.
>>24482008
Honestly, just be completely straight with her. Best thing to do in crush situations. Make it clear that its fine if she just wants to stay friends.

pmub

I'm so lonely. my only serious relationship lasted two months and I drove her away with my mental illness. I need to take time to work on myself, but I still want someone by my side, that I can share my life with. I lost my virginity to my ex, and I haven't been able to get laid since. I just don't know how to meet people. I say the wrong things. The best sex I've ever had? Came from a heroin addict I fucked during my stay in a mental hospital after trying to hang myself. I'm learning to like myself more every day but I wish I could get other people to like me too.

I hate being all alone since five years ago, I hate being with someone whose makes realize I'm all alone, I hate I don't belong anywhere, I'm tired of don't have where I can vent but this anonymous board, tired of no one knows me, no one cares about me, no one give a fuck about me, not even the voices in my head, not even me.
I hate myself because I can't feel nothing but this apathy and hate, because I'm too coward to just cut deep enough and end this shit, instead, I'm crying while I'm writing this, because no matter how hard I try, I cannot change myself but trying to destroy me, I know I'll cut myself but won't die and I'll wake up just to still hating this, because I cannot feel love for something or someone anymore. And because I realized the problem is me, not the world.

>>24482790
How old are you?

I want to be more of a slut than I am but I worry what kind of trouble it will get me into. A lot of my fantasies involve guys who are pretty much assholes, and I feel disgusted with myself, but then that is part of the turn-on, so it's self-reinforcing.

>>24482883
Examples pls

>>24482921
Was in the uni library on Thursday trying to get some work done, fairly late in the evening so not too many people in there. Two obnoxious loud guys come and sit near me and don't shut up the whole time. Typical 'lads' that I really dislike being around. But I was horny so these feelings of disgust merge into arousal. Like I played out this whole thing in my head of me telling them to shut up and them saying something offensive back to me, and me being pissed off but somehow revealing I was turned on, which escalates into them thinking they have hit the jackpot, taking me home with them and me fucking one or both of then later in the evening. Of course in reality I didn't say or do anything and just sat there annoyed, and horny, and then wonder what the fuck men like that do for me anyway.

>>24482003
Yeah this

>>24482008
Well how far is the distance?

>>24482939
women......so complicated lol.

>>24483244
I'm as confused as you are believe me

I really hate myself but keep going because I want my daughter to have a real dad. My parents lived together but they really didn't parent me. I have two sisters, one older and one younger and my parents never showed me love. One of my two sisters was always causing trouble and I knew that if I just did what was asked of me, stayed hidden and out of the way that there wouldn't be any trouble.

Now I can't handle my emotions because my entire life's emotions come up whenever I feel anything.

>>24483250
where from?

>>24483276
who you? where from you? why post confuse?

>>24483276
I'm from the UK if that's what you were asking. I'm not going to be any more specific than that obvs.

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I'm fairly good looking, confident, intelligent and ambitious but I haven't had sex in close to 5 years because I've spent most of the last 15 years unknowingly in mild depression.

In the past 2 years I've started an exercise routine, launched a business and taken responsibility of and for my life, but I'm still desperately lonely and have no real friends.

For the first time in my life I actually want a relationship but don't interact with anyone so it's all for shit.

Everyday around 4-6 I get all wracked waiting around for you to text me. I check my phone every five mins and get pretty bummed when nothin happens. I really wish it didn't mean that much to me

Don't know if I'm lucky or what, but this happened over over summer with I girl I am interested in.

>I invited her to hang out with a friend and I on short notice.
>She said she was busy, sisters graduation. (Turns out it was true)
>For some reason I did not trust her.
>So I sent her "I don't mean to sound like an asshole, but if you don't want to hangout, just tell me"
>She did not respond to that accusation. (understandably)
>A month and a half later I decided to apologize. It basically went like
Me- "Hey, I'm sorry for what I said. I was not right for me to accuse you of that"

Her- "Hey, Thanks! I appreciate the apology. I've just been very busy over the summer"

>doesn't seem to be any real lasting affects from that. Everything resumed as usual.

>>24482003
>>24482114
>>24482984
I don't want to be alone. She doesn't want to be alone. She is in a very dark place. If I can keep cheating on her without her knowing (very small chance, it's an LDR and I only cheat thru my phone) then I can bear being in a relationship with her. Don't know what to do.

Everyday I wait by phone from around 4-6 waiting for you to text me. I check my phone every five mins and get pretty bummed when nothing happens. But it's sort of okay not waiting around and getting antsy, I wish it didn't mean that much to me

>>24483330
sounds like a bitch to me m8

>>24482826
26, why?

>>24483346
Meh. She is not at all. Infact, she is one of the kindest people I know. (But is stupidly busy. 7 classes and two jobs)

>>24481974
See if a free clinic can test you for Lyme Disease.

>>24483330
>>24483382

Well... She behaves differently towards me than towards her other friends.

She seems kinda shy or nervous almost. But she is always "busy" when I try to meet up with her. (but claims that we should hangout, but never gets back to me)

I really don't know what her deal is.

If she saw me as just a friend, she would probably treat me the same as any other friend

If she saw me as more, then I would think that she would wanna do something one on one, and get back to me about meeting up

If she saw me as neither, she wouldn't carry on long conversations with detailed replies. Wouldn't claim that we should hang out, wouldn't have given me her number without hesitation


Shit she does or did towards me:

>She is shy, and kinda doesn't acknowledge me unless I say something, then we can talk for a good while without issue. This is even when it is just us standing next to each other before class.

>Does not initiate texts, but is willing to talk for hours with detailed replies once I get her going

>I have seen her looking at me from a distance, sometimes locking eyes.

>When I asked for her number, she took my phone and punched it in. (It was the actual number, obviously)

>When I asked her to grab lunch the first time, she said she was busy that weekend, so I offered up Monday, which she accepted.


Last spoke almost two weeks ago.

> "Hey, are you free anytime soon? I would like to grab coffee and chat"

> "Hey! I'll have to get back to you on it. Taking 7 classes this semester on top of working the two jobs and getting stuck babysitting this weekend has been filling up my schedule."

> "No worries. I just figured that we should meet up soon"

> "Definitely!"

Being beta and black is the worse combination. Chicks I'm interested in don't like fucking blacks, asians look at me suspiciously and I can't even hire an escort cause all of them have no blacks/AA. Fuck this gay ass earth.

I'm so fucking tired.

Just... tired. I just want to die. I hate every person I meet nowadays the second they start talking because they have some stupid fucking opinions and when I present them with facts they get mad but still insist their opinion is the correct way to see things.

It's just.. it's EVERYBODY nowadays.

I have a girlfriend but we had a threesome and I can't stop thinking about the other girl I want both of them

>>24484128
>Attractive people problems

>>24481991
Can I get in on this? Do you have a throwaway email or contact? I'm unhappy in my relationship and would like someone to sext.

>>24481974
I feel like you're worried that slowing things mental function means your brain is in an indefinite decaying state.

Well it's just that. Indefinite. You may be not at your "peak" but it doesn't mean your life is a narrow parabola and you're on the downhill slope for good.

If I'm correct you just need to rethink your everyday decisions or lack thereof and try to "live in the present".

I'm so fucking sad.
My bf is probably going to dump me for being a pathetic friendless neet, and I have no one to talk to.
I don't really know what I'm going to do, I'm so sad. I've been crying for hours and it just won't stop.

I just want to be happy, and i want for someone to care about me the same way I care about them.
Guess I'm too pathetic for anyone to love me.

>>24483368
Just curious tbhpham.

I know some of those feels.

>>24484177
>Guess I'm too pathetic for anyone to love me.
You got that right.
Remember, it's down the road, not across the street.

>>24484177
You're not pathetic. We all want the same.

>>24481991
>>24481991
Same predicament anon. Im in an ldr, love my boyfriend, but sometimes I feel like I'm not living out my age to the fullest. I wanna fuck and sext and be a whore 24/7. I personally can't bring myself to do it tho.

>>24484177
cheer up your boyfriend should like you for who you are

>>24484197
You should be who you wanna be and do whatever you want to do. We all end up dead so use time wisely.

>>24484197
sounds like your really having some problems

>>24484197
Do it

>>24484177
You're literally talking to / at many people! that's cheering right?

>>24484215
Eh depends on how you look at it. On one hand I've got the love of a really great guy. On the other hand, I don't seem him often, I don't really know if he's loyal, and I don't know if I'm ready to stick to one dick forever. I'll just stick with rubbing one out to dick rate threads for the time being. ;)

>>24484186
Sorry, too pathetic to go through with that.
>>24484189
I guess you're right. Doesn't mean I deserve it.
>>24484205
Yeah, but I think I may be too fucked up.

I was a serious irredeemable racist troll in my early teens to 20s who even made a (hollow) death threat to an ethnic person about his child over the internet when he was 15.

I have changed mentally since then and feel horrible about it. If I could I would take all of it back. The guilt weighs very heavily on my mind and I can't take it almost anymore. I wish I knew concrete way to atone for the terrible things I said to people

>>24484244
Stupid nigger.

>>24483334
Kik?

>>24484244
*when I was 15

Was what I meant to say

>>24484239
speaking from experience, no one is too fucked up; there will be a time in the future where either the world explodes or you decide to just go 'fuck it' and realise you're worth something. if your boyfriend is with you then he can see it even if you cant.
Now; go hug this out and grow a pair :P in the end, if he didn't want to be with you he wouldn't, and you are self perpetuating into a realm of being pathetic by thinking about 'What Ifs' THEY ARENT REAL.

hate being considered a vanilla wholesome guy.

I'm thinking of getting some tats or something.

>>24484244
get over it... you're are your own issue here, they have probably got over it... or been shot by the police.

>>24484293
have you tried claiming to identify as an attack helicopter? nothing vanilla about a death machine my friend!

>>24484239
Of course youre totally deserving of love and happiness. If it's not THAT boyfriend, it's going to be another one that will be able to see you for the true gem you are.

>>24484285
well if you're still here, it's pertransiet.gladius

I would have left him for you if you were straight forward with me like I was with you. It's not that I don't love him too, it's just that he seized those moments that could have been ours and didn't play games with me to find out whether or not I was interested. Sometimes I can't sleep and when I do, I dream of us. Sometimes I wish you still talk to me like you used to. Sometimes I wish it was you that accepted me for who I was and fought for me when I became so undecided. Life works in funny ways but a part of me hopelessly waits for the day you show up and take me.

>>24481330
I'm 19 and I have a creampie fetish. During sex, it bothers me to wear a condom because it isn't the penetration that gets me off, it's the idea that I'm going to load some of myself into my partner.

This wouldn't be much of a secret by itself, so here it is. I've only ever had three girlfriends, but I've had about 50 sex partners by the age of 19. Almost all of them were gay men and the rest were older married women. I have literally zero attraction to men and no intention of reciprocating sex with them, but the best sex in my opinion is being able to bust a nut deep in their asses or having them swallow my load down their throat.

>>24481330

I was diagnosed with ASPD, my life is a constant fight of these many impulses that i have.

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I'm 24, Muslim, and fantasize about married life every single day. I have terrible baby fever I want a shitload of kids so bad. I want a super religious wife who covers her face and has never seen a penis

Not to bully her around just to know that she's mine and I'm hers

I'll sacrifice a lot to be a good husband and give her a happy life

I dream about coming home to a bunch of kids hugging me at once, kiss the wife slap her ass and make dinner together

I'm also so scared of girls I blush and stutter over simple things so that'll never happen plus all girls are sluts and all marriage ends in divorce

It's a powerful fantasy though

>>24485129

Kek. What's the problem? Can't you just get your family to arrange you a marriage interview or something? As long as you have a job you'll probably land some young virgin they were planning to marry off anyway.

>>24485129

Sounds pretty good to me, muslimbro

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I'm a pretty good looking guy and I'm pretty outgoing and all that. But I'm terrible at flirting or picking up dudes. I have a big dick and I want to use it but I'm bad at flirting. Despite being outgoing and social, I am very shy when it comes to new people.

>>24484484
D?

>>24485129
If you're a muslim not born in the west, then your standards are normal

>>24485398
No

>>24482883
White girls are such fucking garbage. I bet you say "women do too like nice guys" and shit. Enjoy your chlamydia.

>>24484097
>Well... She behaves differently towards me than towards her other friends.

>She seems kinda shy or nervous almost. But she is always "busy" when I try to meet up with her. (but claims that we should hangout, but never gets back to me)

>I really don't know what her deal is.

>If she saw me as just a friend, she would probably treat me the same as any other friend

>If she saw me as more, then I would think that she would wanna do something one on one, and get back to me about meeting up

>If she saw me as neither, she wouldn't carry on long conversations with detailed replies. Wouldn't claim that we should hang out, wouldn't have given me her number without hesitation


Hello me, I didn't know you visited /soc/, I thought you kept yourselve to baww threads in /b/ but since you're here, I'll give you a tip on that girl

You fucked up. BAD. I don't know when or how but she liked you, probably had a crush on you and all, untill you fucked up, now she just wants to be friends but she's still closer to you tan to most

>>24486532
Maybe I did fuck up, but I don't know what I did. If it was due to me. It could be due to a third party?

And, yea, I kinda figured that there was something their from the start, but faded to a degree. But I don't think its completely dead with her.

But I don't know if she is actually closer with me than most. I kinda doubt that.

I just hope that there is a way for it work out in the end.

>>24486557
It's exactly as if you were describing my situation, except you are a few days behind, I talked to her best friend, who's also a close friend of mine and explained it tot her, and she told me about the whole thing from my crush's POV.

Turns out she liked me untill I tried to convince her of changing her career plans, silly, right? It had been almost three months of me trying to figure out what I did wrong and she had to tell me.

And even tho I derped a few more times before asking her bff for advice, she told me that I had a chance, and that she'd help me.

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Has /soc/ ever cheated on their bf/gf? Why or why not?

To stay true to your lover, or to run on rational thinking and satisfy your desires?

>>24486602
Ah.

I have no mutual friends with her. Only friend of hers that I dealt with is a kinda sketchy fellow from class. He may be the one who could have temporarily ended the chances of us being a thing.

Other wise, I did basically nothing that would have fucked it up really.

>>24486622
My point was that after three months of thinking what I could have done wrong I had no idea of it untill her friend told me, so you may think that you've done nothing wrong simply because you can't imagine that something you've done was wrong.

I'm losing weight slowly but surely, but I still want to dress like a woman and try my best to feel confident in my body. I can't find the men who just want to have some fun, get sucked off, or have some fun like that. It's hard in the South. I either meet really shallow guys or creepy dudes. It sucks. I wish I could go out dressed, but it's difficult financially right now. All I want to be is the best gurl I can be, but even though I think I'm pretty good at sucking cock and submitting, I just can't find anyone and it's really depressing for these times where I want to just let myself go and be a whore.

>>24486636
Ah. I see, but there is really no way of finding out what I did. (As we don't have any real mutual friends. Frankly, she doesn't have many friends at all. She's either on the phone with her sister, talking to R, or is quite)

Maybe I was too easygoing when we (Her, R and I) met up before class. R essentially led us around. (And made a few too many sex jokes)

Had access to my best friend's facebook, looked up for some naughty pics in messages, still fapping to her. Tried blackmailing unsuccessfully

>>24486667
Feeling ya but from the other point of view, so many whores it's hard to find interesting girls

>>24486620
Yes, see my posts earlier
Although it's nothing physical, and I think the only reason I started was because the relationship wasn't working well for me and it was long distance

>>24486667

I feel ya anon. I live in Alabama and it sucks.

>>24485906
Thank you. Immense relief.

>>24486713
I'd be as interesting as you'd want. Haha

25 yo virgin.
I've tried to actually hit on girls for about the past 10 days now.
So far, it's surprisingly positive.
Apparently, I have absolutely no problem finding girls who are into me, and I'm truly amazed how easily they start reciprocrating when I get them to talk about themselves, touch them a little, do some playful bantering etc.
I still need to relax more and allow things to progress naturally, as I have no Idea yet how to actually go from talking/touching etc. to making out and fucking.
I also found out that rejection ain't no thing, it indeed even feels much better than the dull self-loathing that builds up when you never even try.
And it's a strange thrill to overcome your fears and do things that seemed impossible suddenly with ease.
Fuck internet dating, fuck waiting around for thingsto just happen.
I'm gonna learn how to do it, and how to do it right.

I'm a guy and idk what it is but I have a specific look about me and girls either love it or think I'm gross.

Girls will give me looks in which they're obviously checking me out, especially if I wear my glasses. But then other girls treat me as if I'm a lump or something. I think its probably because I look younger than I am; I'm more "cute" and more of a pretty boy than a stud. It doesn't bother me but it's just a weird thing If eel like venting about.

>>24487102
Thanks for the inspiration. Thumbs up and good luck to you.

>>24484177
I think I can relate to you quite a bit.. I do Have friends, and Im trying to improve myself, but even though I do have friends, I dont Have anyone to Talk to.
Im a vrigin (19), but I dont even give a shit about that, but I never had a real gf, and Have "friends" since Im 18. I do want someone to Love me like I love her, like you.

Most of my friends are Just friends of friends. I maybe Have 1 or 2 "real friends", but even them I dont Trust or like them that much.

I Just want a friend for Life, to share my Life with. To share my Love with.

>>24487193
leonardo di caprio's a pretty boy... shut up

I think I'm bi. I don't know if a symptom of being alone in life or not, though.

I'm scared that I'm never gonna find someone that I actually have legitimate feelings for and that those feelings are reciprocated

I feel like since I'm getting older I should hurry up and try to find friends and a romantic partner, but I also hate myself and think I'm complete shit and don't think anyone could ever love or have an interest in me. I'm also terrible at maintaining the relationships I do have.

>>24481330
The people that I attract, I'm not attracted to at all.
I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. They're all lovely, warm and genuinely nice people. I can even recognise objectively that they're way to good for me.

I don't develop feelings for anyone anymore.
Halp.

I hate that in order to change and better myself, it would probably mean rejecting D****** because I don't think she'll ever care about me the way I care about her. Plus she's already exclusive with someone else already. I wouldn't be surprised if the next time I hear from her, it's a wedding invitation.

I fucking hate myself and want to die.

I am crushing hard on a friend of mine that is 33 years older than I am and I am really confused.

Its taken me around 5 months to get over my last gf, but im not over wanting the deep relationship i had with her. I know there are plenty of girls out there that would make me happy, i just cant seem to attract anyone. Ive asked out a few and none have ended well, none even resulted in a date. Online dating hasnt done shit for me either. Now all my loneliness is mixing into depression and it sucks.

>>24489228
My Dad is 35 years older than my Mum and they love each other to fuck

kill yourself nev

I secretly want to be a submissive house husband to a strong/dominant wife. I wish I could perform all of the roles like cooking cleaning, spending more time with my kids, etc. ;-; It's really embarrassing and I know I'll probably never live a lifestyle like that.

>>24489522

Don't be embarrassed by a desire to be a homemaker; it's a legitimate life choice even for a man. It doesn't make you a loser or anything.

Just, hopefully it's what you ACTUALLY want, and not just a sexual thing.

>>24484285

Would you want a sugar daddy?

>>24489529
It's what I actually want because I feel like it would make me feel more fulfilled, AND it's also a sort of a sexual thing.

I wish I wasn't nilhistic. If I loved myself maybe someone else could too.

Part I:
So I really like this girl from MA, she's beautiful, artistically capable, intelligent, and has lovely hazel eyes.
I first met her on a chat website, where she was quickly naive to find a liking to the room owner/liar. They had a thing going, which like the rest of his posses of internet slave woman, went sour. I wasn't attracted to her just yet, but after a few moments it devolved into a habitual conversing back and forth. I realized I was ensnared to her mannerisms and beauty, and it coincidently made way for us to mutually masturbating together on cam.

Recently I made a trip to her father's house where she stayed. We had sex for four nights, we watched movies, ate at Panera, and shopped for snacks. I felt really distraught and sad when my time with her came to a close and I returned back to my mom's place here in AZ.

I've come to know what details of her past she wished to share. Her first boyfriend, who she met when she was 14, was a fellow of upper middle-class background. On numerous occasions had they travelled on invitation of his family to locales such as Jamaica, and California. They spent their time experimenting with psychedelics, and doing other common teenager activities. It was until, from what I can recall, that post-graduation they made an attempt to live together along with an acquaintance, renting an apartment. She did work to pay for her share of the rent, but was unhappy with her living situation, given that their acquaintance was a dumb drug peddler, who invited questionable people, whom of which would snoop through her belongs and on occasions have taken things.

Growing despondent of her boyfriend temporarily, she started to have yearnings for a colleague at her job, which she engaged in sexual acts with. After a falling out with her boyfriend, she temporarily started to have loose encounters with other coworkers.

>>24489580
Part II:
After a few embarrassing stories, some of which she regrets. In one circumstancewhilst she was intoxicated, she preform fellation on a another coworker who she was not interested in. She then rekindles her first love temporarily, only for it to become short-lived due to him moving out to California to work.

Losing her job prior to her 19th birthday, she moves back into her father's home, where she began to go online to socialize, becoming recluse from her friends. The only other man who she has been with prior to me was a friend of hers, either from work or from school, who she slept with after a trip to see a movie. Aside that, she has remained relatively celibate prior to my developing feelings for her.

Now I really like this girl, aside from what questionable antics dwell in her past. I have never had a girlfriend, but had sex with a total of 4 other females, whom never blossomed to the extent of the adoration I have for her. The problem being is that I see that she isn't willing to commit to me, and I worry too of the potential for her to possibly invite some other man to her bed.

She is set on her dreams to be an artist, ranging from being a tattooer, graphic arts, or even theater. Her reasons to not loving me are vague and vary, from saying she is still affixed to her ex / incapable of loving again, that she's a whore, or that she is not willing to remain chaste as of yet in her life.

I feel defeated, unreciprocated, and I genuinely would give all the worldly riches and disavow fame to be with her. Recently, we had a argument where she became angry at me for my disclosure of what we had done during my visit, or her past insincerity to me. This stemmed from a private conversation I noticed between her and some european tattoo artist in the room where her online "ex-master" publicly humiliated her with nudes surreptitiously procured by a candid viewer of our bodily expositions with one another.

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I just want to go home and fuck my wife.

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>>24489649
Part III:
I reckoned when we later began to talk about each others' failures to act accordingly that she was self-harming. After assuming she was doing so, I do it to my self with a steak knife, where I dragged the knife across my shoulder repeatedly.

Going further, I pressed the knife into my skin not knowing of how strong is before it gives way. Lancing my shoulder, I quickly withdrawn the knife to have blood pouring out of me like a water balloon. I had my mother drive me to the hospital given the amount of blood that was rapidly pouring out. They give me a local shot of epinephrine, and stitched me up.

She was upset that I did that, and today we spoke. She was watching Attack on Titans, and enthusiastic about the new episode of the walking dead. But after ending a conversation with me, she's turned off her phone, and is just in general incapable of reaching.

Now what's in my mind is, what is a 19 year old girl doing without her phone turned on at 4 AM for the past 5 hours, when she is clearly going to bed at 5 AM.

Song related: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OMOGaugKpzs

maybe CFS/ME i have that and it fucking sucks

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>>24489214
And another near sleepless night. I simply don't know what to do anymore.

>>24489533
I'd consider it. Kik?

I just wish Soviet was here to snuggle with me.

I hope hillary wins,not because i beleive in her policys but because i will most likely get drafted into the war she is starting and hopefuly i will die on the battlefield and finally bring honor to my family.

>>24489738
The best thing to do is... not to bother with her anymore! Surprising, right? Have a drink n chill one night, accept the reality and move on the next day. Not like this is neccessarily your fault (could be but doesn't have to), so stop wasting time on a lost cause.

I keep having urges to be unfaithful to my girlfriend and I don't know why. Been together over 2 years, both happy but I can't stop thinking about it. Even started making fake accounts so I can speak to women, men and even fucking traps. I'm disgusting

>>24489671
She's leading you on dude, it's obvious. She probably loves the attention she's getting from you,returns enough attention to keep you interested and keeps you strung along. The turning her phone off and ignoring you stinks of "treating them mean to keep them keen" because the second she replies you'll be all over her like a rash. Easier said than done but you gotta walk away from her

I love him. He's 30 minutes away, and I love him. He's been one of my closest friends since I met him. He holds me close, pets my hair, and kisses my head when I'm sad. We get into "kissing battles" where we go back and forth taking turns kissing one another in a random spot (head, arm, side, etc).

I confide my dreams, my fears, and my goals to him. I trust him. I love him. He makes me feel like I matter to someone. He makes me feel wanted and cared for. I feel like the world stops and time stands still for us.

He's the one I text when I can't sleep in the middle of the night. He's the one I think about when I get up in the morning and my last thought before I go to sleep.

Timing is terrible. As it turns out, I met him shortly before my life would fall apart. As it turns out, I'm moving cross country in five days.

I can't stand the thought of being without him. I want to make it work. I want to try a LDR. I want... I want everything with him. He's everything I've ever wanted in a boyfriend, in a best friend, in everything...

And I can't bring myself to tell him any of it. The idea of spending more time with him over the next few days breaks my heart because it's just one more thing that's going to turn into "just a memory" once I leave. I don't want another reason to be in love with him. I don't want another thing that's going to shatter my heart when I leave.

I don't want to say goodbye.

I'm depressed because I can't do anything I want to. Even if I did it would fall apart due to a lack of motivation. I push everyone away because they aren't always at an arm's length and that's the only way I feel close to someone. Everyone is dumb and boring. I want trump to win just to see what happens (even though I hate the fact that Bernie didn't have a chance). The last girl I was seeing I dumped because she didn't do what she said she was going to the day before. I didn't really like her anyway but I don't want to be alone. I want to be happy but with no work applied towards that goal. There is nothing and no reason to try hard, I'm going to die and it'll all have been useless in the end (it doesn't even matter). I love a girl still after being dumped 3 years ago. I still think about her everyday. I'm a good person and a bad person at the same time. Selfish and altruistic. I hate myself most of the time. Fuck work, fuck normal American life, this is all boring and pointless.

JK I love myself and everyone. Haha got eeim.

>>24489825
We've been broken up for 4 months on Tuesday. We've been on a separation "break" since the beginning of September. I've called her twice. First was after I saw her post here about asking for a stage name to be a stripper or cam girl, which was an issue that we talked about a lot while together. We had couples counseling towards the end and we both have very huge sex addiction characteristics, and that line of work would be very destructive to her. In my opinion at least. Even if she doesn't love me, and even if my love has softened due to separation, I care about her immensely. I realize it's a lost cause but I can't help wanting to be there for her because she's a really fantastic human.

>>24489487
My problem is I don't know what to do. She sort of adopted me into her family since mine sort of ditched me. I don't know if she feels the same way and if she doesn't and I pursue her I'd risk losing everything I care about.

>>24489873
If she's going downhill don't let her drag you as well. Nobody is worth it as your life should be more important to you, especially since it doesn't sound like she appreciates your concerns.

>>24489864
Why are you moving? And can he not go with you?

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>>24485416
Lolno I've lived in Iowa my whole life
I wouldn't mind if she was overweight or anything

>>24481330
I'm kinda peeved by my gf basically forcing me to give up weed.

Don't get me wrong, I am by no way a stoner (on average I smoke once a month if at all), but lately she's been emotionally pressuring me into giving it up alltogether.
I can understand her reasons (her sister is basically choosing a slow death by drugs atm), but the fact that she's basically forcing me into giving it up makes me want to smoke just to spite her.

I'm a licensed attorney. My in-laws have no idea and think I'm a successful lawyer, but really I've been unemployed/underemployed for the last 6 years.

It's been both because of and the cause of major depression. Which they also have no idea about.

>>24489937
It's... difficult for me to take care of myself. Depression and worse. At this point I might as well write a pastebin about everything...
To summarize though: although I've lost (most) hope of reuniting, I still want to be there for her. I still love her through and through.

>>24482883
Post skype and I will pimp you, slut. All I do is turn out the bitches, all day, every day.

>>24482883
FInd yourself a guy who can fake the nasty guy bit, but then can turn around and be a normla and nice person as well.

I've always known sexuality isn't black and white, but considered myself 90+% straight.
But last year I met a new friend through one of my best friends, we got along super great, and became very close pretty easily. No homo whatsoever.
But then we (us 2 + 2 other closest friends) did mdma together, and in the week following that my romantic feelings for him became very real. I confessed the feelings because we're cool like that, and he took it really well, was flattered even, and very understanding.
I still find him very attractive, but am no longer infatuated. Gay sexuality still is a big turnoff for me, but I've noticed that sometimes gay romance really makes me feel funny in my chest in a good way. I've thought about it a lot, and am still a bit confused.
Also, I'm a little over 30 years old, if that matters.

>>24490716
well if you enjoy emotional masochism like this then keep that going, else i'm pretty sure you know yourself what is the best decision to make

>>24489750
Dunno if you're the same person from earlier, but I posted mine up the thread, just search my ID. Tbf though I don't really know what I'm looking for. It'd be nice to talk to someone in a similar situation.

>>24490896
Easier said than done. It takes some tremendous acting by nice guys to be able to make you feel like he's being authentic.

Im in a long term relationship but we barely have sex anymore and I feel like Ive lost the magic. I honestly want to marry this woman and have kids but lately I've been missing the life I used to live in another country. I had whirlwind romances, drugs and no responsibilities. I know im older and more responsible now and I don't think I could go back to living that life but I miss it so much it's started to become unbearable. My psycho ex got in contant the other month after 3 years no speaking and I basically told her shes a horrible cunt but the truth is when I think back to that land, with her in my arms and a hedonistic wind at my back I would almost trade my amazing partner for the risk, the exitement, the 4am walks on top of bridges with a head full of ketamine and my ex to kiss. And thaat makes me so guilty but I can't help it. Help.

>>24492394
Have you thought about doing some impulsive, crazy shit with your current girlfriend? Maybe not to the extent of your past, but maybe winging some vacation with her that is unplanned may do you some good?

>>24481974
http://vocaroo.com/i/s04Hbl8Zn7Ys

I know that at least part of you thought that for me it was all about pride and while I admit it was a big factor in everything, it wasn't the entire point of it. There was obviously more to it. We clicked and that's not common for me as I'm sure it isn't for a lot of other people. Everything was fine until more of your degenerate sexual nature began to surface. It only got worse when I started to realize who you hung out with and the type of person you really were. The levels on which we connected on were not as dynamic as I originally thought. I grew to despise you knowing that you knew better and still did the wrong thing. I hated you, not out of pain or anger, but simply out of contempt. I saw who you actually were and you disgusted me. You broke my heart mercilessly and I hated you for that too. I can't wait until it all finally catches up with you though. You can't help but create unsustainable relationships. You'll destroy everything before finding anything meaningful and live your life moving from one host to the other.

I hate you.

>>24493715

I thorougly enjoyed that

Boyfriend recently changed the passwords to his old Skype and Fetlife accounts (the ones he was still using and trying to cheat on me with the other year.)

Still thinks I'm an idiot.

Jokes on you, buddy. The second we're back in the country.

>>24494234
On that note; Every couple of months I check the shady accounts he used to fuck around with and claimed/promised to stop using. I'd never snoop in his main accounts/the ones he's honest about having in the first place.

>>24493743
Whatever you need to tell yourself in order to make moving on easier.

D.

I miss you. You have such a lovable voice, and I miss hearing you sing. You were supposed to be here by now, remember?

I'm sorry.

I fucked my boyfriend's flatmate on their couch.

probably gonna kill myself tonight /soc, sorry to be a downer just felt like i needed to tell someone

>>24494439
Are you replying to each other?

I have such a busy life and I just want to smoke like a loser and cross dress. I barely get time to explore it or that side of myself. Such is life.

lost my girlfriend of two years, have nothing left in life. ran away from home and been living in hotels for the past week, tempted to suicide.

I'm an emt.

My partner today is a woman I'm not really attracted to nor would hang out with outside of work.

That being said, I would fuck her mercilessly if she came onto me.

It's entirely the idea of being at work in the bunk room alone together.

And she has a fat ass.

>>24490974
Still me. My advice, get off /soc/ & be honest w/ your girl. I'm in a similar position as her & it's got me fucked up w/ everything. You both deserve happiness, not a miserable life. I'm not doing right by being on here either.

>>24494439
Life goes on... As does time.

Holy shit do I need to vent.
My wife is crazy and I'm pretty sure she has borderline personality disorder. I feel like I'm constantly walking on eggshells around her. The simplest things make her angry and she goes nuts and even hits me. Now, we're in an open relationship and she's got two guys on the side and I'm too beta to get another girl. I think I'm in love with her sister and that drives me crazy because she's off limits. Plus she probably doesn't like me. I'm super stressed about money so now I have two guys pay me $60 a week to suck me off. And now, I've turned to stealing. I steal anything and everything and I've gotten really good at it but it's only a matter of time until I get caught. It's been months since I've had to pay for meat. Yesterday I stole a fuck ton of games from target and Walmart and sold them to gamestop. I made $64 off of them. That felt good.

>>24490972
I'm just giving up on life. Not offing myself as I should but done with putting in any major effort to better myself or condition.

>>24496558
Can't really think of a compelling reason to stop. Was sure I loved her, now not so sure. She's failed to satisfy needs (not just sexual) because she's going thru a tough time. Haven't been in a relationship this long or serious, how do I know second thoughts aren't normal? I feel like if I can get thru this patch until she's feeling better I might be able to love her again.

I can't get over the thought of my super manipulative ex girlfriend that definitely cheated on me. She's the only person I've ever loved and now she's gone. I'm a total creep who can't talk to other people well at all and I've regressed into a very very dark place.

Worst of all, I find myself slightly aroused by cuckolding porn because it reminds me of her. I hate this.

>>24494439
>don't know anyone whose name starts with a D
>I don't sing
>I was never meeting anyone

Ok.

I secretly want to know what a cock feels like up my ass... Have played with toys and I think I want the real thing... Male BTW

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>>24497561
a hot dildo?

I spent most of the year getting used to allowing myself to feel like a "normal human being". I thought I got used to it and tried to balance out some of the emotions again, but now I'm starting to feel the crush of humanity again. It's and uncomfortable mix of vulnerability and need that I'm not sure I will ever get used to no matter how much I try. And yet at the same time I feel too weird compared to other people to fit into society enough to tend to my needs properly. One half in, one half out.

I have good friends who I think understand me on a deeper level, but I still feel lonely and fundamentally unloved, while thinking I ideally shouldn't care at all. I'm confused and can't tell if this is any better than when I was just bitter and hateful all the time, which ate me up inside. It's like I've taken an emotional painkiller, it doesn't hurt as bad, but I'm also not sharp and focused any more.

Basically I'm confused and lonely and probably just need to get on with shit. It's just frustrating and emotionally confusing for me right now. But at least I'm not sorry for anything.

here is a vent,

i still feel bad for all times i yelled at my ex, never laid a hand on her but she was very annoying at times to where she would relentlessly bug the shit out of me, but you know i miss it. i hate that she couldn't accept me going into the Marine corps. i had no family or friends at the time and so the marines drew me in. i leave next month and i want nothing more than to be with my ex again, she was the most beautiful girl in the world, and she just stopped loving me after a year. all because of my career. i shouldn't miss but god i do.

I give out my Kik to make Dom gay/bi guys get off because I like the validation I get. I'm a straight male who due to lack of self confidence barely gets laid yet these guys adore my dirty talk and ass pics. I just want a cute girl to cuddle up to. Which is even more pathetic considering I'm normally very stoic but this deception plus the ass kicking I'm getting at work makes life difficult. Danke for reading

>>24498170
Just not the same, I don't know how girls get off with toys, it's so fake and has a bad feeling, though I guess the real thing would be weird also, feeling a cock just pounding away, pumping me full of cum.... Sure that's weird too, but toys suck

I'm not even sure where to begin with how I feel anymore, it's all just one giant mess.

My life was fucked from the get-go, I was a chubby bordering fat kid when I first started school, so I was immediately the target of the class. I'd go to school, come home, get 4-5 hours of peace, then get to listen to my parents arguing for god knows how long. They'd argue every night, maybe missing 30-50 nights a year. They also weren't really stable parents in general, they'd be good, then a few minutes later they'd be bad.

Through all of school until I dropped out, I was bullied. I had a few small groups of friends, but it was more that I was the guy they'd invite to group things, but no one would want to hand out alone with me. I don't think I've ever once had a real friend. I kept eating more and more until I was fat bordering on obese.

I dropped out of school at 17 and got a job where I got fucked. It was an apprenticeship and the boss would never let me learn what I had to learn and would then complain that I couldn't do anything right. I was the center of all jokes in the workplace. One of the guys though liked me for some reason and would try help me out as much as he could at work, which was nice, but ultimately wasn't enough. Eventually I was moved from the shop to the factory area for work, because my boss wanted to get rid of me because I couldn't do anything, and he couldn't legally fire me. In the factory the age group was much higher, I was 17 and everyone else was 35+. I was half bullied in there, no one would actually insult me or anything to my face, but it was obvious that had no respect for me and I was a walking joke again. Eventually they just wrote me up for tiny things I did wrong and fired me outright.

>>24500156
I had a group of friends while I had a job, I thought they actually liked me and wanted me to be around. They'd call me up and we'd do shit together almost every weekend and hang out during the week a lot too. I was too gullible to see that they were just making me pay for everything, because after I was fired from work, I said something about almost being out of money one time when we were hanging out. That was the last I had heard from them except for once when they called me up asking me for something again, but I think they knew what I thought at that point.

Now I've been NEET for 3 years, going on 4 and can't communicate with people. I've made friends online over the years, but I usually do something to fuck it up or something happens and I overreact and cut contact. I can barely function outside without feeling like I'm going to explode. Consumed by apathy which I think is a self preservation thing. I can't feel feelings without crying. Joy, sadness, anger, disgust, surprise, trust, anything, it doesn't matter, I'll cry from it.

I do nothing at all with myself and I don't know how to change it. I'm too scared of seeing a psych because that means telling my family, even though it might actually help.

I just browse 4chan, watch anime, cry, and get drunk which means posting myself in the fat guy threads for any semblance of attention and feeling wanted in some way.

That's the end of my shitty blog posting. Sorry.

I feel so unappreciated, my boyfriend literally hates me, he just started ignoring me and blocked me off his social media. He gets mad at the littlest things. I don't even fucking care anymore though, I just want to have broken hearted sex but I'm trying to fight my urges.

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Going on 21 with no real friends. I have a handful of leftist hiveminds I hang out with at my uni that are decent people, but if I even mentioned that I lean conservative they'd collectively disown me. Politics aren't even that important for me, but I hate how I can't say what I actually think about stuff in front of them just to fit in - there are many things I have to shut up or lie about. So not really friends.

I'm out of state, and I've had closer friends from high school that I haven't said a word to in years, so I know I'm not going to keep in touch with any of them. I feel very disconnected from my family - they're a spattering of conspiracy theorists and turbo normies with stones for brains. I'm sort of close with my brother but all we do is joke around, and he's also kind of a dick.

I've had plenty of female friends but never a date or anything. I've only felt interested in one friend after I knew her for a few months, but it was late Senior year and I never said anything before we went our separate ways. Goes without saying nobody has ever asked me out. I know that my desire for a girlfriend is mostly insecurity, but I legitimately want to experience intimacy with someone before I die - I don't care about sex or how the honeymoon high would wear off after a few weeks, I just want to experience it once. At this rate I don't think I ever will. I'm already balding and getting weird pains in my back - I'll die a wizard.

I'm not a happy person - I never have been. Hedonic treadmill and all that, I just have to accept that I'm going to be unhappy for the rest of my life unless I make radical long term changes to the way I see the world, (which I probably won't.) I'm very successful in my studies too, but I'm miserable on the inside. I'm not going to kill myself because I don't want to bring that kind of pain to my family and colleagues. I'm just a vessel of misery, and I have to take this misery to my grave.

>>24500409

[Cont.]

I do have a Tulpa of 8 years though that I love deeply. She's the best thing I've got going in my life. I obviously can't experience physical intimacy with her (i.e. I still desire a "real" girlfriend) but as far as companions go, she's the closest friend I've ever had and I couldn't imagine living without her. So there's a secret worthy of being in this thread, not just foreveralone complaining.

>>24481330
I can't ever remember desiring to do something with my life, I've never had any ambitions and at this point in my life I just go through the motions. I feel dead inside.

>>24491178
>>24490896
Yeah, I don't want him to fake it, the depravity is all in it being real.

>>24500206

Hey i'm sorry baby, you know you're my baby.

I'm thinking about break off my friendship with my only friend. We live 2 hours apart anyways, and the last time she came to see me it just left me an anxious, depressed mess. I couldn't think of anything to talk about or do, I felt like a shitty, boring mess the entire time, honestly I don't know why she's even my friend. I've also been really bad about responding to her texts the past few months, and I rarely text her first because I can't think of anything interesting to talk about. I just feel like I'm too broken and boring to maintain any kind of normal human relationship, and since I'm just wasting her time and making myself feel worse trying to pretend I should end it.

I just told someone above me that I have a problem with a co-worker because he treatened to kill me twice in a two month period and hired a guy to beat the shit out of me 3 weeks ago. I don't know how this will go...

I wish I get get out of my manic depression cycle.
Some days I feel like I could fix all of the problems if I was given the chance. Other times I just want to go on a long walk into the forest with only a firearm.
I just end up not doing anything with my life, working a shitty job I don't enjoy, slowly killing myself with improper diet and lack of meaningful social interaction.
Ever since I was young enough to have cognitive thoughts, all I could think about is the impending doom of the entire human race.
I am torn between never ending creativity and inspiration, and endless amounts of apathy.
The thought of a happy middle ground seems like an impossible goal.

>tfw I want to vent about my bf but he could be here lurking...

>>24501172
Do it but change some details

>>24481974
what kind of friend lets you sleep in the shed
instead of on the couch in the living room
or in a sleeping bag in their room

>>24501172
if you need to "vent" about your boyfriend
perhaps you should try talking to him for once in your life
if you can't even communicate with your boyfriend about things that bother you
you shouldn't be in a relationship in the first place.

>>24500968
> impending doom of the entire human race
> Some days I feel like I could fix all of the problems if I was given the chance
Take the initiative, make your own chances

IMPENDING DOOMS TO ALL MANKIND
> 1. War, Conflict,
Ambassador peace between Nations, and religions
or
Convert, all to the same Christian Religion, Mormon or Catholic
or
Conquer all nations into a single empire
or
Purchase all people and nations under the Hire and Ownership of a Global Umbrella Company

> 2. Earth cools too much, Core freezes solid, Magnetic field collapses,
> solar wind stripes away atmosphere Oceans Boil, all life goes extinct
Create Artificial Magnetic Poles, North and South
Giant electromagnets or Electromagnetic rings
Must have multiple redundant power sources to prevent field collapse
Solar, Wind, Nuclear, and Battery Backup
and
recognize "global warming" and "Climate change" as the scams they are
designed to destabilize the global economy
and cool the planet faster by maintaining the current ice age
planets aren't supposed to have ice caps or glaciers

> 3. Sun nears end of life, goes red giant
> Earth swallowed up in the plasma of the sun
> Atmosphere and Oceans instantly Boiled away
Only way to escape this is to colonise nearby solar systems
to do that we need to create faster than light travel
or we have to build generational / sleeper ships
and we need enough ships to take all life on earth with us
either way we need as much material to build those ships as possible
Part 1 we colonize Mars, and set up a research station on venus
Part 2 we colonize one of Jupiter's moons
Part 3 we perfect Fusion and Fission Reactors, Invent Fusion-Fission-Cycle Reactor
Part 4 we invent cheap and efficient Near-Light or Faster-Than-Light travel
Part 5 we Mine the entire solar system for all materials
Part 6 we Build the First Generational Ships
Part 7 we stop living on the planets, and finish mining the solar system
Part 8 we Syphon off the entire sun for fuel, stock each ship

>>24500968
>>24501311
IMPENDING DOOMS TO ALL MANKIND
> 3. Sun nears end of life, goes red giant
> Earth swallowed up in the plasma of the sun
> Atmosphere and Oceans instantly Boiled away
Part 9 Divide the fleet and travel to the 5 or 10 nearest uncolonised stars that have planets.
Part 10 Colonize Habitable Planets
if no Habitable planets or star is too old
Part 11 Mine entire solar system
Part 12 Build and Stock new Fleet
Part 13 Syphon off entire Star for Fuel
Part 14 Divide the fleet and travel to the 5 or 10 nearest uncolonised stars

> 4. Entire Galaxy Colonized and Mined
Part 1 Gather All Fleet ships and materials
Part 2 Build Larger Intergalactic Ships
Part 3 Divide Fleet and travel to the 5 or 10 nearest uncolonised Galaxies

> 5. Entropy Heat Death of the Universe
Part 1 Get away from the Center of Universe
Part 2 invent a way to control and manipulate the laws of physics
Part 3 Invent a way to travel to other realities
Part 4 invent a way to cause a Big bang to create a new universe
Part 5 Colonize this new Universe
Part 6 Scientists become GOD

>>24501311
>>24501341
I liked the part where everyone became a Mormon.

>>24501347
some may think they are weird
but they're mostly really nice people
minus a few blacksheeps

>>24501196
I'm afraid he's repeating bad things he did in the past tough he said he has changed

>>24501231
we do talk often, there are things I'm still trying to get over and trust him again

I'm a guy who is super into being dominated, and I just told my ex/friend/FWB that I'd be interested in "doting on" her in any way she wanted.

She got what I meant and now we're planning a weekend where we have the house to ourselves. I can't wait.

im not seeing a purpose in life and having to know, that nothing i did or will do has any impact on people makes me insane.
i feel like my whole existence is pointless, i mean, i didnt accomplish anything, i disnt influence anyone and in the end...ill be forgotten. it doesnt matter what i do or what not. i want to feel love and joy dir and with people, but i also look like shit what makes that even harder..
i sometimes want to end it but in the end im just a lovely fuck ranting about his oh-so-hard life

My gf keeps saying she's gonna lose weight, then gives up really quickly. I wish she'd either go through with it, or learn to love how she looks now, because it's exhausting trying to explain that I love what she looks like, but I find it really unattractive that she hates her body so much.

Also, she said she wants me to humiliate her by fucking other women. Wasn't all that on board at first, but I've thought about it, and like the idea now, but when I told her I'd come around to it, she overreacted and had an emotional meltdown.

What

>>24484244
You're such a faggot.

b u m p .

My long distance girlfriend has completely fucking disappeared without a trace, for the second time, and I don't know if I feel awful or just relieved.
The first time she disappeared it was for a period of 6 months, and in between her appearances she had apparently had a relationship that turned abusive before re-establishing contact with me.
I know that at that point I should have turned her out completely for A: vanishing and B: entering a relationship while just HAPPENING to not have contact with her prior boyfriend
But I put all that shit out of my head because I'm a lonely person and my relationship with her was the only relationship that didn't directly turn toxic I've had.

Now that she's gone again, though, I don't feel the same fear or depression I did when she first vanished, I just feel empty, and a desire to fill that emptiness that isn't going to be resolved by hoping she decides to pop back into my life 6 months from now.
It also doesn't help that the main form of interaction we had was sexual and that otherwise we didn't relate much, aside from a shared sense of humor.

I was glad my last ever girlfriend cheated on me. I was getting sick of her bullshit and I secretly wanted her to actually do it so I had a valid reason to dump her. I stuck with her for a long time because I just wanted some affection, once the affection stopped and just the bullshit remained I wished for her to do something bad enough to justify the dumping. It happened. I've now been single for over a year and a half with my libido getting lower every day, which I love. I just don't want to bother with any kind of relationship right now.

b u
m p

unattractive to literally everyone

fat*, bad personality, etc

what am i supposed to do, 18 y/o virgin never gf

*people tell me im buff but, backed up by the fact that no girl is attracted to me or has ever been, im actually fat

It's hard to explain the fact that I don't feel anything other than when I am unsober or physically hurting myself (I don't self harm intentionally) without sounding like an edgy faggot.

I don't feel happy.
I feel horny about once per year-- seriously. It lasts about half an hour, and in that time I am too scared to even touch myself because I don't want to "lose" the sensation as my orgasms are not noteworthy. And it fucking sucks. I've been told that I might be asexual by friends, and I really hope that that isn't true as a sexual dysfunction seems cureable as opposed to asexuality.

In fact, this idea that I'll never be horny-- that I'll never feel anything except sadness and cynicism-- bothers me so much that it makes me want to an hero.

I have no hobbies. The only thing that I am mildly good at (art) is something that I despise doing. I have no interests. My personality is boring and socially awkward. I am unattractive on many levels. I never commit to anything.

I wish this country had guns legalised so that I could easily kill myself.
I've only just started drinking, and I've spent the past few weeks sober as I have no money. I'm waiting on benefits. I just want to drink, or be unsober in some way.

That is all.
Thanks for letting me vent out my stream of consciousness. Maybe some other anon can relate.

>>24481330
Last major girlfriend falsely accused me of rape when we broke up and runs her mouth whenever I start seeing someone else.
They always believe her, always leave.

The few friends I have left know her friends, or know people who know her friends, it always gets back to her somehow.

Third time this has happened and I just want her to leave me the fuck alone.

Bein social awkward is nothing new here i guess. For me it resulted in 8 years of being single. Decent looking. Decent personality but never go out of myself to find a girl.
Yeah i know its my own fault.. Never felt too sad about it though.
Now the thing is.. I had blood in my sperm, went to the hospital with pain in my testicals. The meds didn't help, blood is gone but the pain is still there after almost 2 weeks.
Afraid to go back to the doc as i fear they will suggest having them cut off.. I start to believe my body is repelling my testical since "i don't need them anyways"

No idea why i even posted this but thanks everyone who read this anyways.

I think i'd rather die than having them cut off. 28yo btw and sorry for my poor english

bumpf

>>24504000
er, how is that a girlfriend

I just dropped the love of my life at the airport. We had spent a year together. I think she might have been the one..

I fell in love. I have many times too. But this one is one of the hardest goodbyes I have had.... should I go get her? I feel like o have to. But I kinda want to find out if life is going to be harder without her.

>>24481991
She will forgive your cheating, but she will not forgive staying with her out of pity. It will hurt her more then cheating could ever do.

I'm 26 and am completely fucking up my life
>no relationships and a virgin
>have a degree in "PolSci", doing manual labor
>terrible BO despite 2-3 showers a day...
>socially awkward; suicidal

I don't know how to fix this. Family say I should study. But after a terrible tragedy a few years back, I just don't see the point in doing anything, yet know I have to do something before it's too late.

>>24481330
Pt 1/2
25 yo Virgin here
I've made myself from an Autist to an outgoing guy with lots of genuine friends, who is able to make new ones wherever I go. I can speak well publically, lead others, gain their respect and occasionally even admiration now.
It's been afucking long road. from being relentlessy bullied I went to being mostly ignored. I never wanted to be friends with the other nerds and outcasts. I tried, but they were boring, wierd and bad friends to boot. IÄd rather stand around with the interesting kids being ignored and very occasionally made fun of, never saying anything because I was afraid of talking to people. Every fridy night, I'd sit at home and feel that feeling wrench my guts, that feeling that everyone else was out having a great time but me. But little by little, i improved, and left school with several people who are close and genuine friends to this day. I moved to a different town to study, where I kept improving and finally one day discovered that I can do really well with people, and do not need to care the tiniest bit about those who dislike me.
Since then , for the past few years, it also seems that I've become very attractive to girls - I've had some relentlessy hid on me, just grab my hand and pull me to the bathroom at clubs, abandon their friends and sit next to me in class - in short, so much that I can conclude there is only one reason I've never been laid:

I never tried.

Because when I realised how I had gronw and made myself into the man I always wanted to be, I wanted to simply enjoy the fruits of my labor and not face any more hardships. But it was good only for ashort, time, before slowly, more and more I started to hate myself again. And now I know why.

>>24510033
Pt. 2/2
It's not time to rest yet. I now have that same feeling again that drove me to find friends first way back, only I konw get it when I konw others are getting laid and I'm not. I can talk fine to girls, even flirt with them now, but when it goes towards kissing them, showing my intentions and getting them into my bed, I'm as clueless as I was back when I couldn't raise my voice, as fearful when i couldn't look into people's eyes and averted mine instead.

I have to do it ALL OVER again.

The fear, the pain, the awkwardness, the embarassment, the failure - ALL of it.
And I didn't want to do that. But such things catch up to you, and then you pay - with interest.
My fear is not that I remain a virgin for the rest of my life.
No - it is that my courage fails me, that my persistence falters, that my endurance crumbles.
Because after I solved this problem, this road wont stop being stony, hard, cold, windy, filled with obstacles and beleaguered by those who wish evil.
And I'll only have made my last step on it when I fall over into my grave.

Posted this in another thread but it fits here too and venting is helpful I guess.

Met her a few years ago and we instantly clicked. I had never grown so close to someone so quickly before, and I haven't grown so close to someone so quickly since. But we became best friends. And from that friendship, romance followed naturally. But that was cut short quite quickly, I got an opportunity to move back to my home country on the other side of the planet and I took it. We split as we didn't see any point in long distance but agreed to stay in contact as friends.

And we did, but we just kept growing closer and closer despite the distance and time difference and busy schedules etc, we ended up falling head over heels in love with each other.

When we confessed our feelings we agreed that we didn't want to jump into a relationship until we could see each other in person. She was going to visit next summer, and that's when I was going to ask her to be my girlfriend officially. Until then, we agreed we could see other people as long as we let each other know.

This worked fine for a while but then I kissed an old fling, she didn't like it and completely flipped. I tried for about a month begging and pleading for forgiveness but it didn't work. The begging and pleading only made things worse because I didn't give her space because I wasn't thinking straight because I was so heartbroken.

We haven't spoken in about a month now.

She started seeing someone new a few weeks after I kissed the old fling. I don't know if it's a rebound/monkey branch or whatever.

I love her. I really believed in us. Despite the distance we kept growing closer and I really believed it could work. I still do. I want her back so badly. I don't know what to do.

Considering messaging her after Halloween but I'm scared she won't like it and it'll ruin my chances.

Today's my birthday

I have approached life with a flippant attitude, burning bridges with friends because I was always afraid every relationship I was in would eventually let me down, so I never remained friends with people for very long and always kept my distance from them. Lovers, friends, family, all pushed away, all kept closed off, all kept cold

And now that I'm older and temporary friends and lovers are harder to come by, I have absolutely no one to share my birthday with, not a single soul, and I'm beginning to realize that this will be the rest of my life. I will never have anyone close, I will never have a confidant, someone I can always rely on, I will never have someone to share this, my one and only life with

All I have left to look forward to are years and years of isolation and loneliness and the gnawing empty feeling that love should have filled

>>24510190
Happy birthday anon

>>24481330
I haven't had sex in four years and about two weeks.

>>24510068
And another thing I just realised:
I've ran away from and never pursued women, because my greatest of all fears always was going back - going back to being that shy , self-conscious, helpless boy. But when it comes to women, I AM still that boy, as much as I may have truly removed myself form him in every other way. Losing my virginity was always hugely important to me -now I realise why.
Not as athing that makes me look like a Man in front of others, but because it means that I have overcome my greatest fear, and finally shaken off the yoke placed on me in my youth.

"What you resist, persists"

That's why I need to go to them, and change from a well-spoken , confident man to a stammering little boy again, so I may learn to be a Man truly and in *every* way.

Or my fear will rule over me until the day I die.

You know what? YEAH! I really hate that bitch, she's a fucking asshole and I'm sicken tired of having to talk to her just because she's still part of your group of "friends" therefore, I really don't want to publish your retarded pictures on Instagram and I also don't want to look at the other assholes from that group all plastered over my fucking dashboard. Who the fuck does she think she is to ignore me? After all the shit I've been doing to help, after I fucking sent her the books from my classes which she should have already read, she's a fucking ungrateful midget twat who tries to pretend she's nice when she's just a fucking grump bitch who can't even pretend to smile and just shits up everything and lets you alone just because she's mad. I don't want you to be unsecured in this bullshit city, I know that if you could you would just let yourself get stabbed to death, but I care about you and I'm Mad because that fucking bitch isn't a useful dummy for thieves.

But guess what? I will keep being indifferent to her, if she ever tries to say hi or something I will just ignore her until she gets it and stops being such a bitch, she wants to be a bitch? She will get the treatment a bitch deserves. Fucking midget.

>>24509920
>a terrible tragedy a few years back
What was it?

Sorry to hear of your difficulties

>>24485129
Why wait for marriage? Isn't it acceptable for you people to just start raping?

I've known since I was little girl that I like other girls. I think I'm a lesbian though. I can't come out to my family, ever.

>>24481330
>in long committed relationship that is up and down and up and down and up and down
>dont know how to feel love anymore
>meet a friend of a friend from another country
>great girl, funny and cute as a button
>start to get anxious as fuck before meeting her
>realise i have a crush on her
>nothing is going to happen though because i'll never break up with gf and implying she would ever go for a guy like me and even if she did we would still live in different countries and even if that worked out it would still would have to work out between us

is there no end to the suffering, i just want to be comfy with girls. i can't deal with all the bullshit anymore, but i dont want to lose my gf because if i tell her i want to break up she will go batshit insane

help

help

>>24510981
If that is really the only reason you stay with her, break up. It'll happen sooner or later - the only other option is YOU going insane eventually.

>>24511064
but i dont want her out of my life, she is a really good friend. i just dont feel the passion anymore. but if i break up with her she won't want to keep in contact with me, she'll be too hurt. i dont want to lose her, i love her

just not sure im still in love with her

Life is gay.

>>24511080
Do what I did and cheat. even if you don't actually do it, you'll be forced to come to a couple realizations. either you love her so much you're willing to gamble on hurting her to stay with her (and ultimately keep her happy in the hopes that the spark can be rekindled) or you'll realize that you can be happy with other people and really have to reevaluate being in a relationship with someone else

what ive learned is that you can have your cake and eat it too, but not without a cost. but it's not worth staying in a relationship that makes you unhappy just for the sake of being in a relationship. you have to realize that, and it has to be forced into you.

I've been talking to multiple girls both irl and over the internet just to sustain my own selfish desire for love. The reason I can't settle down is because I'm either still sort of hung up on one of them or I don't care about any of them.

I fucking hate women. I know it's irrational, I know it's not "right" but I just do. Every woman that's ever entered my life as made it notably worse.

>>24511825
I've been there. I had that view of women for about 6 months or so until I managed to snap out of it.

It's an extremely toxic mindset to have, and if you happen to browse /r9k/ (or similar forums for that matter; even /soc/ might not be good for you if you're at this point) like I did when I had that very mindset, I suggest that you stop immediately. They will only feed your hatred.

I hope that you are able to find a woman that can help you realise that not all women are born with a goal to ruin other people's lives for their own benefit.
I've yet to find such a woman personally, but a few non-attention seeking women on YouTube that fit my vidya/political/etc interests made me appreciate the fact that there are some good ones out there.

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Im 19 and poor as fuck. I've considered doing camming privately on skype with people but no one likes fat girls. Asides from that, I'm stable mentally and have no baggage yet I can't get a job due to my college hours being so intense.

>>24512715
kudos to this guy,but i would add that if that guy (or even you) only come in contact with nasty women you and him are probably not much better than them overall and you should keep that in mind

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>>24513635
how big we talking?

>>24513923
I'd say I'm at number 4. The shame on her face also matches mine. I am spiritually relating to a chubby size chart anime girl right now. Wow what a life I live.

I'm heavily introverted and feel as though Im losing grips on my relationships with my friends. Workng full time just drains me all fucking week, and by the time I get home friday I dont want to do anything for the next 3 days. I feel like i will never be able to not feel drained now as long as I work. I feared this part of my life and its becoming true. I knew it was going to happen as the same thing happened in high school. College was better because I could skip class/class wasn't 7+ hours a day.


I don't know what to do

>>24513955
I would pay

>dad is a violent schizophrenic paedophile from a rough city
>my mum was also violent
>parents moved from Manchester to Taunton in 1981 because racist
>had my sister in '89 and me in '92
>used to beat me, lock me in cupboards and wash mouth out with soap when I was as young as 3
>had to watch and sometimes get caught inbetween parents physical fighting
>mum and dad divorced in '95
>mum took me and sister to Manchester women and childrens home
>met a guy called Frank
>he used to beat me and my sister, swung us by our ears until they bled
>dad found us and took us to Exeter
>sexually abused me, physically abused me, mentally abused me and verbally abused me
>used to go crazy a lot, heavy drinker. extremely violent
>dropped sister off at cop station in June of '97
>I'm with this crazy bastard until late '98
>go into care
>am withdrawn
>I molested kids when I was a kid (even living with my dad)
>my foster dad cheated on my foster mum so there were a lot of fights there
>foster dad has punched me on occasion
>I tried to fuck foster sister
>killed her hamsters and a dog
>pyromaniac
>thought about mass murder a lot
>thief
>vandal
>I attempted burglary once
>zoophillia

Anyone in England want to end the normies with me?

>>24513955
yeah 4 isn't bad, everyone has preferences, 2-3-4 are my preference.

>>24513955
Would definitely enjoy talking to you at least.
I love girls with some weight because it doesn't affect their mind. You might have some common decency.
Snap is: John.nottony
If you ever feel like chatting.

>>24484197
This is normal and healthy... as you get older you develop more emotional needs until later after you live you act out all the desires

>>24482790
I always wondered about my cold attitude, and why can't I be brighter like everyone else wants me to be. Accept your apathy, accept your nihilism, accept you. Be comfortable with you. Only then, you will then smile more. Care about you, and not what you want from everyone else. What do YOU want to do for YOU?

Take care of yourself, anon. Find solace and self-acceptance, and satisfaction in your selfishness.

Hope I helped.

>>24482883
Have fun. Go get ran through... safely. You're just horny... everyone has a phase like that. Hell, I did. Still am horny all the time.

>>24514167
You had an asshole phase? Are you glad you did? I find myself attracted to some really obnoxious guys, want to give into it and hand myself over to be used and abused, and not feel bad about it after :/

>>24483293
Plenty of ways to find a fuck buddy. Get into the world of escorts or swingers. Bust them nuts.

>>24514167
>>24514172
That's me you replied to but ID has changed

>>24484117
Relax. Treat girls as your friends, and other girls will flock. I had two female roommates.

>>24484124
We are all stupid in some way, anon. Don't torture yourself.

>>24484177
Don't degrade yourself like that. Go get some sun.

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I'm a guy in a relationship with a girl but I'd like to find another girl to just talk to sometimes, share pictures, maybe dirty maybe not, she could or could not be in a relationship, idk. I'm just curious, I guess.

>>24514172
Had? I'm pretty cold, except having an immense soft spot for people on /adv/ and 4chan in general. Be you. Just be safe. I'm married with a kid, and a frequent lurker of 6 years on this site. I'd be lying if I didn't say that I have fantasies similar to that.

>>24514250
>Had? I'm pretty cold
I meant by my question did you have a phase of sleeping with asshole guys rather than are you one yourself - I initially thought you were female for some reason.

Yeah the fantasies are super hot

>>24514263
I'm a guy. Just like how you liked asshole-like guys, I like(d) dumb barbie bitches. I would act prudish toward them, except a few that I fucked in college. And the one that I plowed frequently had a bf that she married. I creampied her so many times. She would let me do deplorable things to her. That kinda got to me and haunted me for a little, but hey... we are all a bit dark. Nothing wrong with that. Have fun.

I think im turning into a robot and i really dgaf

>>24514671
Yesssssss, letting someone do deplorable things to me is what I crave

Woman I was with for 12 years left me a few months ago. Still feeling like shit. She is the only woman I've slept with. That said, I guess I'm a lover in the sack and never just fucked a bitch before. I'm a bit apprehensive about the prospect of fucking a woman just to fuck one for pleasure. Ugh.

>>24514700
Why did she leave you? Did you see it coming?

>>24514708
After that long things can get pretty stale. During this, she met some prick at her new job (who is 15 years older than her) that basically stole her away from me.

>>24514692
Why? Is it truly pleasure you seek, pleasure for the sake of having been pleased, or is there something else that causes these feelings? In the case of the former, may you find what it is you seek, but in the case of the latter, your inseparable dignity will bear the costs of what you have wrought it. How is it that you wish to cure the symptom, and not the cause? For what has generated these feelings in your body, truly, it shall remain; and what shall you do, should it grow and demand even more of your body and soul? Seek therefore the Light, and I pray that it may shine upon your path.

>>24514692
Got a kik?

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>>24514714
Shut yo ass up.

The only gf I had was LDR, countries away, saw her once a year when I visited her. Broke it off when I moved to a different country. I've felt lonely for all of my miserable 24 years of this shitty thing called life.
Joined the military a year ago hoping a complete change will help me. Still depressed and lonely, not even working out is a good vent for me.
Just tired of being alone all the fucking time. Cant take this shit anymore.

>>24514700
Dude that was me very recently. Was with her for 10 years.

The first time with someone else was hard. I didn't know how to separate out love from sex. Really the only way to do it is to just go for it and eventually you will get used to busting a nut and it meaning nothing. Feels good man

>>24484293
Fuck man, me too.

>>24490037
Nothing pisses me off more than people trying to dictate what you do in your life based on others' fuckups.

>>24501347
Funny enough Mormons have a relatively big role in The Expanse, hard sci-fi set 600 years in the future

Naturally they are retarded

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I'm 18, and I already know my life is fucked.

Have been browsing 4chan since 2011-12ish, and I've been on a downward spiral since then.

My grades suck, lots of people think I'm a junkie and a failure, and nobody knows how hard is it to stay collected when you're falling apart inside.

I'm rarely happy, or even content when I'm not on some kind of drug (alcohol, pot, mdma, amphetamines, whatever) and it's not due to overuse, I stopped pretty much everything and reduced pot to 2 times a week for like 2 months and it didn't get better.

Now to get to the point, why am I so unhappy?
First of all, I jerk off to some really, really, really fucked up porn, we're talking about stuff you're only going to find on various shitty .onions.
Secondly, I am extremely unsure of my sexuality. I'd say I was 90% gay, but most porn I watch is for some reason non-white, while I pretty much only feel attraction towards white males. Oh yeah, I also really want an anthro bf, so wanting something that'll never exist or would be extremely awkward if it did is on the list.
I also have absolutely zero romantic experience, and I live in eastern Europe but that doesn't really matter.
When I'm not on drugs, I think about them a LOT, and scenarios that would happen - pretty much fantasizing.

You know what's ironic?
I look normal, am extroverted, my parents are well-off and I have a relatively normal relationship with them, so to most people I look like any other guy.

Though, most of my closer friends tell me I'm a very sad/depressed person after we talk for a while.

This comedown fucking sucks. I want to sleep.
The only reason I haven't killed myself is that pretty much nothing is worse than death, might as well make the best out of what I have.

>>24514915
cont. because tweaker rambling

Despite all the fucked up facts, I'm still a very emotional and empathetic person and it's killing me inside - I actually prefer being depressed over not feeling anything. I love cute kids and pets in a non-sexual way like any other person would, it's like I have two personalities.

I crave power in a group of people and hate authority, and I'm a low-key attention whore... (everyone wants attention, though) I pretty much can't stop talking when with friends and when someone else is talking I'm just waiting for my turn. Basically, I want irl (You)s.

I wish there was anything useful I was actually good at.
I'm alright in interior design/layouts, and I'm pretty much an encyclopedia about cars, engines and drugs but that won't do me any fucking good in life, will it?

I'm also extremely obsessive and will spend hours researching a random thing just to "create" or hypothesize some imaginary thing a company could develop.

>>24514779
Yeah... I don't even know if I want to fuck a girl just to fuck her or to wait (for who knows how long) until that right person comes along. I'm not an unattractive guy, but I've never ever had any type of social media account and don't plan to so...

>>24514941
>>24514915
Fuuuuuck it feel like I'm reading a post from myself if I didn't get my shit together. Granted it ain't that much improved.
Shit man, honestly start working out. That's what got my better but I've stopped as of late and can feel myself slipping back

>>24514973
I went to the gym two times but was a bit too self-conscious to keep going... (I was a chubby, short 16yo at the time, now I'm just short)
Even if I wanted to go right now I couldn't since I've had botched tailbone surgery over a year ago and I'm still recovering - I can do pretty much anything other than swim in a pool but I still don't want to risk it.
I'm recovering alright now so I should be at 100% physical ability in a month or two.

b.

>>24513648
I don't know about the other anon, but personally, I stay indoors. I have two male friends, and that's it. I don't interact with anybody, really.

My judgement of women during that time was based off of my childhood that turned radical once I started browsing boards such as /r9k/.
I was an annoying, attention-seeking kid no doubt, but the experiences with the women in my life (my mother, my many step mothers, and so on..) were out of my control entirely.

>>24514063
; -; bless you, anon.

>>24481330
I'm a ghost. I only pretend to live.
I have a girlfriend but somehow i want someone hotter.
I can't be. I'm gentle for not being seen. I want to be someone. I'm no one.

I want to fuck many sluts, but don't have the guts. I lack so much of self confidence..

I feel like i'm wasting my life.

Theres a girl that is very attracted to me who is pretty cute but not particularly interesting, and another girl who I am very attracted to, but I dont know if she has feelings towards me or not
Should I go for a guaranteed positive response or try my luck and risk rejection/disappointment?
Then again im not a relationship oriented person and would probably be happier alone than in an unfulfilling relationship

i secretly want to be feminized and used as a dirty little fucktoy, typing this gets me a little hot and bothered. god im a freak

I don't know where else to ask this i have no beer at home the beer stores near me are closed. Is it weird to go to the tity bar alone just for a beer?

>>24481682
This is a real good way to end up single. If you're ever purposefully trying to make your partner feel embarrassed, you're a dick.

>>24482008
stop asking the internet and ask her

>>24482790
go see a therapist bro. that's depression.

>>24483266
see a therapist if you can afford it. if you're doing your best, that's all that can be expected. your daughter will forget the mistakes and love you for being there.

>>24483293
you have the discipline to start a business and exercise, then you have the discipline to force yourself to be social and find someone to bone. its just the next step in your road to self-improvement.

>>24483330
good on you for apologizing. pride has no place in successful relationships.

>>24484097
she likes you, she's just swamped. give her time and don't pressure her.

>>24484124
you're the common denominator in all that hatred, bro. maybe you're the one who's insufferable.

>>24484244
be as good as you can be now. everyone hates who they were when they were young .

>>24485090
no shame in that my dude

>>24487102
you're killin' it bro. keep going.

>>24489018
most people are at least somewhat bi. you probably are. no shame in that friend.

>>24489214
stop giving one person so much control over your life an emotions.

>>24489522
i'd love a man to do that though

>>24489864
tell him or you'll regret it further

>>24496852
sounds like you and your wife deserve each other

>>24499463
she probably stopped loving you because you yelled at her and marines make angry dudes angrier, not just because of the the career

>>24500158
see a fucking therapist. stop wasting your life. contentedness is within your reach, you just have to take the first step.

>>24500206
he's trash. dump him.

>>24502045
congrats g

>>24502880
she sounds fucking bonkers bro

>>24504000
fuck that shit. find a real girl in real life to have a real relationship with.

>>24504945
no girl is attracted to you because you spend all your time hating yourself.

I need a cock to suck

>>24518034
>fuck that shit. find a real girl in real life to have a real relationship with.
Hard to do that when you don't really go out and socialize and there's nothing happening around you that would interest you to do so.

If anything I've at least learned to be more demanding and vocal about what I want out of a relationship instead of just letting things be

>>24505103
get a restraining order dude.

>>24510190
happy birthday. stop being an ass, find that one friend you miss, apologize and be friends again. it's not that hard.

>>24511825
you're the common denominator. stop picking trash women. a large percentage of all people, regardless of gender or race, are fucking trash. stop picking the bad ones .

>>24513635
lots of people like fat girls

>>24514237
flirt with your girlfriend before you ruin what you have because you're "just curious"

>>24518041
go out and socialize then, dude. if you want a real human female, you have to go out and find her. be more demanding, be more honest all the time. find someone who likes what you like and wants what you want and go get it together.

>>24518054
>go out and socialize then, dude
This has always been my problem, even as a young kid I just don't want to go out and do things. I think it has a lot to do with being forced into 'socializing' by my parents in very destructive ways as a kid. I'm not even anxious, I just don't have any desire to go out and do THINGS. I don't even know what people my age do.

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one of my better friends ex girlfriend came on to me earlier and the week and i kinda shrugged it off,then we hung out the yesterday night and she asked if i wanna have sex (nothing mean just attracted to each other) I said probaly not and nah cause myfreindship is more important than a fuck and i dunna if my friend would be cool with that so i decided friends dont fuck friends ex's, but i was still attracted to her but nothing special just like "yeah if you hadnt dated him im be down but oh well" we hung out today and in the car he brought up somthing to do with her, and I was like "hey man so anon hollered at me for some sex btw" but for some reason it came out sounding all guilty and shit , idunno why maybe its just an uncomfortable situation and I felt kinda bad even with out having doing anything.. so it got tense and the car and when we stoped at the house and he called his ex whom he still fucking and i guess she told him what i told him, and i asked if "yo we cool" returned " with a yeah we cool man (genuine)" but I guess all day we hung out i acted weird, well becuase it was a pretty tense thing plus weekend party for 4 days no sleep some drugs, but the vibes were bad and when i got home he texted me saying i was acting weird and his lady friend was to and what i was doing, I hit him back just saying I was playing overwatch whic is what i was, and "y wyd?" no response. I probally shouldnt have acted like a spazz and weve known each other for years and are really close so i dont some stupid shit to fuck it up because im not good at explaining things.. ohwell i love him (like a friend) he's senpai and i hope hes not to hurt and me and him and his ex who we do hang outwith still can all be cool cause im not trying to fuck anyone just hang out

>>24518590
The old stream of consciousness literary style :)

>>24518600
thank you

>>24484484
K?

My gf is too vanilla for me. I love her to bits, and i know full well i wouldnt find a better girl to spend my life with, but i cant get her to be kinky. Weve tried the odd thing but it just doesn't do it for her at all. I feel like I get kinkier by the day, whereas she's going the opposite direction. So I find kinky girls on soc and play with them to vent the depravity inside of me. I'd love to find a girl in a similar position to lean on, to share the things wed like to be doing but can't.

23.
Ugly,
Virgin.
No GF.

I've fucking tried EVERYTHING to fix this, tried being more confident, tried lifting weights, etc but i'm still too fucking ugly for someone to find me attractive. Why doesnt a girl ever come up and talk to me.

>>24481330
https://instagram.com/p/BMEG7tqF8Ar/

This brief clip pretty much sums up humanity

>>24481330
https://instagram.com/p/BMEG7tqF8Ar/

This brief clip pretty much sums up humanity

I want off this scuzzy/scsi internet

>>24519000
Have you tried talking to girls?
Failing that , to aquire a social circle and meet them through that?

>>24518034
i hardly ever got angry though, out of the millions of times she was annoying i only yelled twice.

I have been cheating on my wife for two years now with girls that I used to work with at Cedar Point. Well, I found out today that one of the girls (who lives in Washington) is pregnant. All 4 girls know about my wife.