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I just really want a gf, man. The thing is nobody lives in my god-forsaken state and I'm not exactly a Chad so I will likely never get one. Feels bad man, at least I have friends

>>24379927
you'll find someone eventually

I'm 26 and broke and it fucks with my self esteem so bad. I'm two years out of a really, really bad four year long domestic abuse situation, and I'm going back to college in January, but it just fucks with me that I'm so far behind my peers.

I wake up every morning and go to bed every night just wanting to become an hero.

I don't have any idea why, I have a good, well paying job, while my social circle has shrunk it contains the best people I've ever known.
I have pretty much everything I ever wanted, but it just feels dull.
I'm engaged, it was the first ever relationship where the chick wasn't physically abusive.

But yeah, I just really don't feel like living

I'm into dogs and have let several have their way with me.

I'm sexually attracted to Sonic, I masturbate to him every night. After I finish I dream of Sonic. He has consumed my life and I have no friends because none of them are as cool or blue as Sonic.

>>24379983
m or f?

>>24380107

You creepy fucker.. I'd run a mile if I saw you IRL.

I fucked my stepsister and fucked with her head by telling her that I'd marry her, I often fantasize about having sex with her

1. I'm literally such a jealous bitch that when women on 4chan get attention I get upset and have a hissyfit

2. I'm into hardcore beast. Want to fuck pigs and horses and dogs, and have done some stuff with dogs

3. I read weird ass erotica that involves giant spiders fucking girls so hard that it rips their body in half

4. I fantasize bout being raped by strangers. I purposely put myself in situations where I can be raped

5. I want my dad and brothers to fuck me. I want them to make me their little slut. I want them to blackmail me with the photos they take.

>>24380381
2 and 3, high five.

I'm 27 and a virgin. Have had multiple opportunities for sex but always turn them down because I want my first time to be with my girlfriend but I've never had a girlfriend.

I'm decent looking but I live with my parents and am still in college. Graduating this semester so maybe I can finally get a girlfriend after I graduate.

Every now and then I go on craigslist and reply to casual sex ads and flirt with random women. One of them is a 44 year old milf I've been talking to for over 6 months on and off. I just flirt with her, since I'm not going to have sex with someone I'm not in a relationship with. She always tells me she's down for anything and will teach me everything about sex and sometimes I come really close to taking her up on her offer but then I masturbate and realize if I did it wouldn't solve my problem of wanted to be loved and in love and I'd probably feel worse if I fucked her.

I am so shit.

I used to be a drug dealer, just moved a lot of cocaine around locally.

I have a chance to get back in the game, but not sure if worth it nao.

>>24380397
>>24380397

Fuck and learn from the 44 y/o. it will boost your self esteem and make you feel more comfortable with chicks in general. Making it easier for you to find a real GF in day to day life.

Get the vcard out of your way, stop holding on to it. Religious background i take it?

>>24380407

No I don't have any religious beliefs. I feel like I would be more confident if I fucked her and just got my virginity over with. I just wanted my first time to be with a girlfriend. The idea of fucking someone just for sex with no attachment at all seems nice when I'm horny but when I'm not it seems disgusting.

>>24380425
>>24380425

That's all fine and dandy 10 years ago, but you're 27 now. Most the chicks your age will have been with a few dudes by now, or have a fucking kid.

Don't make it awkward for the future GF because you're still virgin and she's already been around the block a few times.

Not saying being a virgin will be a deal breaker for the relationship, but it might be "weird" to her. And chicks hate "weird"

>>24380425
I know the feeling man it's why I broke things off with my stepsister

I'm normally happy but me and my ex recently split. I'm feeling down I won't spend the holidays or my birthday with my ex girlfriend. I have friends but I love small things in relationships like that.

>>24380381
Don't be jealous, you can talk to me. Do you have a kik?

im a virgin and i lied to my friends and said i wasn't

I got assfucked by my boyfriends best friend while he was asleep next to me drunk. I love him and I would never do that again. I was dumb and wanted more attention. I will never tell him and I will never do the same thing again.

>>24380980
reminder this is why misogyny exists

>>24380980

You'll do it again. Once a cheater, always a cheater.

>>24381042
Not really, that was 4 years ago. Never thought about doing it again.

>>24380980
well i hope for both your sakes it works out/he doesnt find out. coz my gf cheated on me, and then two years later she told me after i asked...so...yeah...

>>24381112
I will tell him if he asks, or I will tell him when I think is the right time. I see it as a punishment for being a dumb slut.

>>24381132
I'd write it down on paper how you feel about it and your thoughts with a signed date and keep it somewhere safe. You might not decide to tell him but your friend and his friend might have a falling out and it might resurface. If you have stuff written down it might smooth things over once he cools down enough to be rational. If t happens.

>>24380922
Yeah. Brontyr.

I paid for someone I knew off and on for 7 years to come visit me because I was lonely and they were having a terrible time where they lived. They didn't want to go back so they ended up staying here.. and 5 months later we got married.

Its been almost a year since we got married and I am completely regretting every bit of it.

Getting her to do any kind of housework is like pulling teeth. She gets upset any time I explain how its unfair that I work a ton to support us yet she doesn't do her part. She just stays up late into the night then sleeps in half the day.

She bathes maybe once a week, probably more likely every 1 1/2 weeks. Its completely disgusting and any attempts to get her to she just gets upset that "I think she smells/disgusting/etc" regardless of what I actually said.

Shes overweight, and not all that attractive because of it. If she just lost weight she would be way more attractive for me, but nope any attempts to get her to not eat a shit ton of bad food is met with her getting all upset and throwing fits.

Don't even get any sex out of the relationship. Its been months since anything like that has been done between us.

And yet she thinks we are going to be buying an expensive house and having a kid in the next several years. And I cant just help thinking of how dumb I was to get into this and how much I just want out.

8/10 male. Get laid on a whim all the time. Addicted to hookers. Alcoholic. Trying to get by as normal. Fuck I hate waking up.

I love to steel my roommates used panties and sniff them while I cum...Their pussy smell is something special...when a friend of them come visit us I like to do the same with the panties of the guest

>>24381454
Do you rub their panties on your cock or just sniff them? Do you feel bad about it?

>>24381460
I don't fell bad about it...I hope sometimes that they will find out what I'm doing
And yes...sometimes I rub their used panties on my cock

I have always had a desire to be raped by an attractive young woman. And I don't mean just as a fantasy, but actual real rape.

I would love to have a MTF GF which teach me the sissy way. But I live in such a small country..
+ i'm way to ugly/looking manly to be a cute trap/ts..
+ i think it's too late for me now to get a feminine body

>>24381553
Hey me too. I mean, not by a woman, I'm a woman who wants to be raped by a dude, by I also mean actual rape

>>24381701
>>24381553
maybe you too should go on a date

>>24381704
That would be rough. We'd both be expecting the other to rape us at the end of the night.

I had a foursome with my cousin's 3 daughters when I was 14. Ages of them in order was 9, 13, and 15. The youngest one still gives me a look like she wants to fuck me from time to time.

in a NSA relationship but the feels are too strong

>>24381743
>NSA
???

>>24381701
That doesn't seem too out of the ordinary though. There's probably a sizable number of women that want to be raped by an attractive guy.

But as a guy, my fantasy involves being raped by someone much smaller and weaker than I am, which is literally something that isn't possible.

>>24381760
I don't mean an attractive guy. My fantasy involves any stranger, can be a horrible ugly guy with some disease, and I want them to brutally rape and in some cases murder me, I want them to beat the shit out of me to the point I might never look normal again.

And I'm probably much smaller and maybe weaker than you are. I think it's possible...

>>24381443
>and how much I just want out.
you definitely should!
why the hell did you marry her???

I kinda want to become a full time rubberdoll femboy.

About a year ago my wife unilaterally decided we weren't going to have sex anymore. Lots of arguing ensues but she doesn't change her mind.

Fine, I say to myself, I'll just find someone else. Advertise on craigslist in M4W looking for anything from a BJ to full sex but get nothing but bots. One gay guy answers. We chat but I say no thanks. Few weeks later he checks in and I'm batting .000 so take him up on his offer. Get a real nice BJ from him.

Decide to advertise in M4M. Now getting BJ's or fucking a guy 6 times a week.

Wife actually came on to me about two weeks ago and I said "no thanks. I'm good."

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I've acquired a fair amount of wealth at a young age. Couldn't handle the social aspect of it. I'm much better now since it's been a couple of years and I'm used to it so it's easier to deal with. Due to that I've spent a lot of time socializing online. Found 4chan to be the best place because everyone is equal and I can have a normal conversation with someone without them being passive aggressive and jealous due to their insecurities from their own failures. It's pretty pathetic, honestly. I guess that's just how human beings are. Maybe I'm just around shitty people. Obviously I expect to attract bad people, but it's hard not to get depressed about it. Made me interested in philosophy. I tried to be fair to everyone and be friends with anyone, but it seems like I can only be friends with people equal to my own status. Don't get me wrong, there's plenty of terrible successful people, but they're just better to deal with and it's not awkward because we can do similar things without me worrying about gold diggers.

>>24381970
why don't you try to put yourself in a situation where your wealth isn't a burden? Go to school, take philosophy courses, and don't flaunt your wealth. You won't be the talk of the town unless you get there on merit. Unless you're used to using your wealth to compensate for a lack of other redeeming qualities, you should have no problem keeping it on the down low.

I met this really attractive girl and have been blown away by the fact that she actually likes me back. Problem is though is that when we kissed is that I don't feel anything. I was kind of nervous for everything before that but now that we are more comfortable with each other I just don't feel it.

>>24381443
divorce her now,it will cost less money and paper work

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>>24381760
you don't have a good imagination,women can use weapons,drugs,blackmail,groups,or attack weak points of the human body

>>24379913
Should I just lie to people and pretend I have friends in order to establish new relationships?

I'm very interested in this girl from one of my jni classes but I have no friends nor anything going on socially. I've had a couple conversations with her and typically she's so outgoing and kind it just makes me reflect on how little socialising I do. Maybe she'll find out eventually but if I'm outright she'd just see me as a loser.

>>24382129
This is true. That photos hot as fuck.

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I'm really lonely.
I'm socially inept as fuck, and I have no friends IRL, the last time I hung out with someone my age in person was March.
Even the wizards I talk to online call me a fucking loser.

I have nothing going for me, I'm not especially good at anything, I'm not very funny. I'm just some dipshit who basically learnt their social skills from the internet.
People only talk to me online because they find me attractive, but I'm pretty average looking in person.
I know my best lighting, the good side of my face, etc.

I want to get out of my shell more but anytime I do that I end up hurting people or getting hurt and I'm just so fucking pissed off with myself for not knowing how to cope in these situations, yet I pride myself on being able to adapt and accept things easily.
I contradict myself constantly, and I'm terrified of the future, yet I spend my current moments waiting for it.

>>24382316
I'm in a similar boat mate. One strategy I've used is to write down good things that happened during the day, or little accomplishments. It doesn't need to be too serious.

I learned to play something new on guitar and made somebody laugh. As far as I'm concerned that's a successful day for me, it gives me a little confidence. I hope that someone else could see me that way.

>>24382345
I've tried that, but I half ass everything I do so eventually I just quit it.

>>24381712
I could rape you and then you could rape him after
Then I'd rape you both

>>24382357
So try again? Quitting everything is how we become losers in the first place, why not prove that you're still here? Resiliency is a virtue.

>>24382363
Flawless plan

>>24381850
At the time she was actually sorta taking care of things. She also had some pretty bad depression that I understood could cause some of these issues. But now she says shes not depressed at all and doesn't really seem like it.

>>24382074
If I could be sure she would just disappear from my life because of it and everything would go back to how it was I would. But I have a feeling it would not go so smoothly.

I'm a gay guy in my 30s.
Last night I hit messaged on an app by an 18 year old stud who wanted to hang out as friends.
I got to his place, went in and we sat down and watched the Simpsons. He was wearing sweatpants and obviously commando and hard.

He wasn't sure about meeting me because he didn't want to cheat on his boyfriend and said I was too attractive for him to keep his hands off of.

We were watching tv and there was a lot of sexual tension in the air. I got up and stretched and made sure he noticed my bulge.
Then I sat down, kissed him and things got naked and naughty from there.
I don't feel guilty and it was really hot. But the guy feels guilty for cheating his boyfriend. Am I bad person for wanting to get with him again? I know he can't resist me and I could get him naked any time he wants. I also know he will feel really bad after. It actually makes me feel good.

Venting: I'm in a long distance relationship with my girlfriend, and the lack of sex is getting to me. I'm thinking of whether or not to ask for an open relationship, but I doubt she'd be up for it. I love her, and I don't want to leave her or cheat on her. Although I have to admit, even when we weren't long distance, she wasn't into having as much sex as I wanted. All I asked for was three times a day. That doesn't seem like a lot to me. I don't really know what's the solution is for this. Seems the obvious solution would be to break up and be with someone that matches my libido. I don't want to give up the emotional connection I have with my girlfriend, though.

Secrets: I love eating ass (unfortunately current gf isn't into it) I love having my nipples sucked and teased. (thankfully the gf loves doing that for me) I prefer pepsi with real sugar over regular coca cola or even the mexican coke in bottles. I act like I don't, but I secretly like a few Taylor Swift and Ariana Grande songs. Few people know I like watching anime. I support feminism, not the feminazi kind of feminism, but the actual makes logical sense where women should be equal to men kind. I've used condoms during sex only a handful of times in my life, and I've never had an STD or pregnancy scare. I have a fetish for cumming inside women. I always make sure my partners are clean, and my pull out game strong. Helps if they're on birth control. I'm glad the kink community exists or I'd feel weird about being a sadist. I started lifting weights in high school because some kid would bully me and I wanted to kick his ass (he stopped when he saw I made some gains). I like chinese food more than pizza
Last week was rough. Needed some good venting.

>>24381451
Poor you.run a razor blade across your face,post pics and timestamp

Secrets:
1. I really want to get fucked by a dog.

2. Also being taken advantage of against my will. Like a sexy situation turns into I'm saying no and he forces and takes it anyway.

2. If it weren't for my husband I'd be a slut. I would probably fuck anyone who let me. I want the experiences of different people.

>>24381771
I could deform you then watch for a few years as you adjust then kill you,so I can do those two,but you will need to pay me

Guy from last thread. Blackmailed coworkers wife and released the pics. I've been told she went total slut afterwards.

>>24382593
I know this thread is made for validation but this post sickens me. Seek help.

>>24379927
where are you from?

>>24382606
Basically yeah.

>>24382595
Shiet I ain't finna pay you

>>24382606
It's common stuff, don't be an ass.

>>24382593
what kind of dog and where would u want him to cum? is there a particular fantasy u imagine, like being tied down and fucked by a dog?

I got sexy/nude pics off of my best friends facebook while I had access to it without her knowing. Tried to blackmail her unsuccessfully

>>24382633
post pics ! what did u ask her to do in the black mail?

>>24382631
I'd prefer a bigger dog that can actually do something. The cunt of course. I don't want to suck it's cock or anything, not into that. Sure? Almost any scenario would be fine.

>>24382627
Don't be an ass, he says. While he defends the adulterous dog fucker. If your natural reaction is not repulsion then it reflects on you.

>>24382644
ever acted on these slut urges? do u do anything to get u by such as watching rape porn or beast porn? r u hot?

>>24382640
Tried to get more obviously. Not sure I want to post the pics here

>>24382656
why didn't u try to get her to give u a bj or something? would u share over kik? loverofallover

i'm a reasonably attractive, socially normally non neet grill from near london, who just wants a boyfriend
>tfw my real interests are being /out/ (hiking, gardening, fishing) and practising magic (pls no bully)
>tfw interests 2niche

god it feels good to say that. thanks guys.

>>24382633
I'm guessing your mistake was letting on who you were. I used a lot of different techniques to make sure the girl I blackmailed didn't know who I was. I even had her thinking it was her husband at one point.

Changed locals

>>24382627
Thank you. *shrug* I know it's fucked up sorta, but oh well.

>>24382649
I've done two other guys that husband has allowed and been okay with (those are the only three people I've ever had sex with)

I watch a lot of porn. Sometimes it's beast. I find that most rape porn is too fake for me to get off to.

>>24382665
Would you date a dude who didn't really enjoy that stuff but did it anyway because you liked it? Just curious.

>>24382665
Those aren't niche at all. Hiking is actually incredibly trendy. I fish sometimes myself, but I live in Australia so that might be a cultural difference.

>>24382680
yeah of course, it's not like i'd force them into stuff, the london culture is very much drinking based, it'd be nice to have someone to dick about in forests with
>not literally
>maybe literally
>god it's been years
>>24382686
cultural difference sadly :c

I am edging myself to fill my balls to the limit without cumming. I want people to listen to me frustrate myself, but I don't have enough confidence. The self-doubt is making me feel awful about my kinks. It has been a week since I've came. I'm going to make myself desperately horny tonight, and then not touch my dick for another week.

>>24382678
how did u meet the 2 u fucked? how did it go down? where did they cum? were there any things off limits?

>>24382696
Post this in MSA. People will like it.

>>24382699
They were both work associates from our different jobs. I joking hit on them, they showed interest, I asked my husband for the okay and he said yeah. Then it was just hard core flirting till they made the move. They wore condoms, but in da pussy. Nothing off limits.

>>24382647
I'm female not male, dumbass. Refer to my original post: >>24380381

>>24382678
Girl I'm into the same stuff plus worse don't you even worry your pretty little face. You do you.

>>24382678
These were mine;
I'm into hardcore beast. Want to fuck pigs and horses and dogs, and have done some stuff with dogs

I read weird ass erotica that involves giant spiders fucking girls so hard that it rips their body in half

I fantasize bout being raped by strangers. I purposely put myself in situations where I can be raped

I want my dad and brothers to fuck me. I want them to make me their little slut. I want them to blackmail me with the photos they take.

>>24382715
You're awesome. I'm not into dads/uncles, but brothers/cousins. Fuck, yes.

>>24382712
r u hot? ever fucked a girl?

>>24382715
Different IDs, how was I meant to know, you dullard?

Also it's 2016, gender is a social construct, how does it feel to be on the wrong side of history?

Kinda fearing i might develop a prostitution fetish rn

>>24382727
Yesssss. I always feel weird about my incest fetish, not many people are open to it

>>24382726
ever tried to do something with a family member? what have u done with dogs?

>>24382715
are you the blonde I talked to a month ago?

>>24382740
Don't be ashamed. ;-)

>>24382593
4. I can't count to 3.

>>24382750
When I lived with my brother is dress really provocatively and when I played video games I'd sit on his lap or doggy style on the floor.

>>24382772
Probably not, I'm rarely on chan and my hair has not been blonde for a long while.

I'm out tho, kik is Brontyr. Talk to me you sweeties.

>>24382732
Some people think so. Yep.

>>24382740
Yeah. Not anything ai would ever act on, but being taken advantage of by my cousin hng.

>>24382778
Lolz. Yep. I am horrible with math.

>>24382823
wanna post a pic? what did u do with the girl?

Everyone thinks I have so much confidence, but I deep down have social anxiety, just push myself to join. I'd rather stay home than party desu

>>24382834
Nope.

I ate her out and she got off by grinding against me.

Anyways, I'm out kids. Have a good night.

>>24382672
>>24382660
I don't use kik. And she didn't know who I was, I did it anonymously

>>24382903
Then at least you dodged a bullet in not getting caught. The thing about blackmail is that you have to follow through with your threats, at least to some degree.

I'm having a really hard time adjusting to college and adult life. I miss my exes, even though I was abusive to the first and was abused by the second. I'm trying so hard with my boyfriend right now, but he's so radically different than the other two, and he's very far away. I'm just kinda' sad.

>>24382726
Like I previously said, high five for first one. You and me both mate.

I take creepshots of my daughter. I got bored jacking off to them myself so now I look for other guys to jack off to her.

>>24383311
How to get those photos?

>>24383428
How do I get them? Security cams, phone shots mostly.

>>24383311
Why can't you be my dad ;~;

>>24383448
Sorry about that

>>24383470
10/10 best apology.

since i turned 18 my mom (single mom) and left for college my mom goes clubing and will come home basically blacked out drunk with slutty dresses and sometimes even brings men and has sex with them and then they'll leave sometimes i will wait and have my turn with her thinking im still the other guy afterwards ill leave so she doesnt know i was there and so she can keep bringing guys over and at one point she even had 2 guys come and fuck her

>>24383470
>>24383476
No kidding, lol. How old is your daughter?

>>24383508
14

>>24383574
Hnnnng she's so lucky

>>24383574
Willing to talk on kik or Skype?

>>24383643
Post your Kik and I'll add you I'm with my wife right now

>>24383659
Were you the person who just sent me photos of a dog

>>24383668
How would I have I don't even know your Kik. No.

>>24383659
Ok no you aren't never mind, my kik is Brontyr

I was a hopeless romantic with 0 luck and who got cheated on until I was 20 years old. At that point, (Still a virgin) I decided to go completely casual and just have sex for fun. Since then (I'm now 25) I've just been having fun having friends with benefits and random casual sex. Then, I meet this girl, and for the first time in 5 years, I actually develop really strong feelings for a girl.

Turns out she's a lesbian. (And no she's not saying that just because she's not interested. I was told she was lesbian before I even met her).

She's also my best friend's sister.

Fuck me, right?

God damnit.

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Kate,

You're a disgusting whore who has run the gauntlet from sexually assaulting someone with a boyfriend on camera, remembering how nice and expensive the apartment of the dude who you first let in you but don't remember his name nor didnt care he didnt use protection, sleeping with people in relationships, justifying your lack of emotion to things except that which costs money, going back for seconds with the woman you sexually assaulted despite losing friends out of their disgust in the first place, letting your ex guck strangers behind your back on the bed you shared, it goes on.

It's hilarious you spent money on an apartment you hardly lived in while cohabiting with your ex, cause you had to keep up appearances to your parents when they were in town. Gotta make sure you don't rock the boat so you can secure your inheritance.

Fascinating how for a derpy, autistic slut who stops at nothing when drunk: you're a scheming, duplicitous gold digger. Figures, considering how your Mom is a trophy wife.

God bless Rony Corp for throwing your double life into a dumpster fire and dragging your weak shit out into the sunlight for everyone to see. You are branded, and everyone knows what you really are.

>>24383438
Lol i mean how does one go about getting to see the photos?

>>24381970
And if you're female heres my kik: randomguy44fi

>>24383824
Live near me and come over

I want to gripe about the weekend I had.

My current SO is down in the dumps, due to a lot of work bullshit. This entire week was spending time trying to cheer her up, my only free time was at night for a few hours. I'm also sleeping on the couch so I don't keep her up with my snoring, because I want her to get her work done otherwise she'll do nothing but complain about it. Needless to say our sex life is so dead I might as well wrap my penis in butcher paper and stick it in the freezer.

On Saturday, I call a friend whom I haven't spoken to in person for years. She's a nice girl but not exactly a model of mental health. I speak to her for a bit before realizing she's massively drunk. She's semi-articulate, but she's rambling on about cosmic shit with some actual compliments which was kind of nice. The bad cell reception didn't help; and after an hour or so the call gets cut off while she's maniacally laughing on speakerphone. I call back and get voicemail, so I leave her a text. Then I look down at my massive boner wondering why I want to stick it in crazy when I should know better.

>>24384184
On Sunday, another friend invites me over to pick up a gift. This is a girl I crushed on massively for a decade or so, still carrying a bit of a torch, but we're just good friends. Her cat set off my allergies massively that day for some reason. I shoot the shit with her and her roommates for a bit, then she shows all of us a picture of some douche who was manspreading on the subway. She then decides to demonstrate what the dude was doing, showing off her red lace panties in the process unintentionally. She continued on like it was nothing, but I could tell she caught me staring.

So thanks to a combination of deprivation, inadvertent teasing and outright lunacy, I am experiencing the thirst, but bitches be trippin'.

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I'm in love with my best friend's girlfriend. I'm sure I'll get over it eventually. Apparently 4 years isn't long enough. Someday, hopefully. I don't want to feel guilty for loving someone I can't.

>>24384195
Don't fall from grace, man. Your SO deserves better.

>>24380980
I don't think you're a bad person for cheating, and I think you've learned your lesson, but your bf deserves to know. If you're witholding information because you feel like somebody would be upset by knowing it, chances are it's information that should be told. How would you feel about him fucking your BFF and not telling you?

Imo, if you don't tell him you're a bad person.

>>24384211
Yeah yeah, I won't do anything stupid, I'll just jerk it out of my system.
It was just a really bad week, on top of all the weekend strangeness.

I'm just tired of being the giver, the supporter, the one who gets shit done. All I seem to get for my efforts these days are complaints, rudeness or excuses. No support for me at all.

God I sound like a whiny prick right now.

After you, everyone else is just another blurred out shadow.

>>24380980
You don't love him, you just need atention from someone, if you really love him you sinply wouldn't have cheated on him, but go ahead and keep trying to tell yourself tjat you love hom so you can bury your guilt

>>24379913
I slap myself when I remember cringey things I've done

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>time to output my degenerate fantasies

I want to "adopt" a girl as my perverted, submissive pet, ideally a shy NEET with pale skin (wouldn't care if she was a bit chubby as long she isn't a selfish bitch), i would look after her and cook for her.
Ideally she would be mostly dependent on me for most things, she would also agree to trained as my pet.
Her training would include lots of spanking, wearing cute clothes far too young for her, enemas, butplugs of many sizes, and lots of diapers.

I've always found it bizarrely cute to imagine taking care of a NEET girl, i picture waking up in the mornings to find her asleep on the couch after playing vidya the whole night, controller next to her hands.
Then picking her up, taking her to her bed, changing her into a fresh diaper and putting her to bed before going to work.

>one day

>>24384473
thing like what?

>>24382371
>Quitting everything is how we become losers in the first place, why not prove that you're still here? Resiliency is a virtue.

Fuck, that one hurt. If you're still here, thanks for that. Gonna walk away and get my life back on track.

I fucked my best friends girlfriend while he was at work. Her and I both cheated

Venting : sometimes I hate my morals even though I am proud of them. I know I could have one night stands easily and draw interest by playing up the fetishes I ping..... And I really want to get fucked senseless. But due to my morals I want love with my sex so I end up alone and frustrated. Gah!

I'm in a very abusive relationship and I don't know how to get out. I've been trying. Any time I make progress, he sets me back. He makes sure I'm suffering. I can see it escalating. I know, logically, what I should do--run. But I am powerless and incapable. I've even started seeing a professional for help and it's not helping. I'm afraid I might end up in the hospital before I get away. I worry for my life.

31 and still a virgin
I'm such a fucking loser

Vent.
I have a toddler and am a stay at home mom whose pregnant with the second. Their dad treats me like the house bitch- which I am but he doesn't believe I deserve anything he provides.
I try to connect/get attention from other males over snapchat because I'm bored currently waiting for the next to come along to chat & share nudes sometimes.

y'all all some bitches...
grow up and start advocating for yourself. don't post your problems in stupid threads expecting people to offer you help or support. don't just sit around feel sorry for yourself, DO SOMETHING YOU STUPID FUCKS!

>>24386284

https://youtu.be/OORsz2d1H7s

I'm 30 have no job or skills, a lifelong illness (MS) that makes me afraid to go out of the house alone, in case something happens, healthwise. I don't know what to do with my life.

>>24380425
This is my position right now. Not like I have any problems with sex or anything but just the thought of having meaningless sex is just boring but it is awkward explaining to someone I'm a virgin at 26.

The only difference is, I'm a chick so its probably a lot less of a "deal breaker" for guys.

>>24380980
>I got assfucked by my boyfriends best friend
>I wanted more attention
fuck you

I'm very lonely and want to be loved and taken care of. I want someone to pet me, buy me gifts, snuggle me, and tell me I'm pretty. I want to feel like a princess. I want my effort to be noticed.

I try hard in my relationship but I still am not enough apparently. Where can I get someone I am attracted to but who will want only me? Is this possible?

Anyone on /soc/ with mental illness/take medications for mental illness? I've been taking antipsychotics for voices telling me to kill myself and trying to manage college life on this medication is a bitch. Just wondering if anyone else is in a similar situation and wants to vent.

I have a fetish for girls raised on farms. I fantasize about them getting sexually experimentation with the animals. Rimming the horses before jerking them off and blasting her virgin pussy with half a liter of semen. Getting knotted by one of the dogs in a shed for half an hour and realizing only too late that they're stuck and hoping they don't get caught.

I have been dumped by my 2-year GF and I cried like a little bitch. I love her so much... I want to stick my dick in anything to ease my pain. She dumped me because she want the D. but I'm 9000km avway doing an internship

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>>24379913
I got married in 2012 to a woman I had been dating since I was 14. We had been together 11 years and it's difficult to explain how I felt. I was 100% certain that we were meant to be together, but I wasn't 100% in love. I had nagging doubts about missing out on life experiences / not really knowing what type of woman was best for me.

Turns out it wasn't her. We were separated after about a year. Divorce didn't go through until another year after that.

For about 5 months after the separation, I didn't speak to another human outside work and buying food at the grocery store. That ended when I started seeing someone that I had known superficially in college through a friend. We weren't really "dating", but we spent a lot of time together and were soon sleeping together. (This woman will be known as "A")

Soon after that, I started sleeping with another woman that I met through another friend (This woman is "B")... Then There was another.

And another.

And another...

Before I got out of my stifling depression, I had gone through ~18 women, sometimes as many as 3-4 at once (seeing them in a rotation every 3-4 days).

Point is, woman "A" and "B" were some of the only ones that actually made me feel anything. There were a few that were really cool, but most were unfulfilling. "A" and "B" were really the only ones that had a shot at being long term.

Problem is, "A" couldn't handle the whole "non-commitment" thing. "B" could, and so she stuck it out, thinking that I'd be worth it in the long run.

>Fast Forward 4 years to the present

"B" and I are married. She's wonderful. She makes me a better person. I'm more responsible, and I like how I spend my days. She's a "logically good fit".

The problem? I still, to this day, can't stop thinking about "A" even though I haven't seen her in 3-4 years. If "B" is the logical choice, "A" was nothing but passion. If "B" will help me plan for retirement, "A" made me want to quit my job and move to New Zealand....

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>>24387769
(cont.)

Long story short:

I miss you "A". I love my wife, but if you showed up on my door step and asked to be with me for a night, I would take you away in a heartbeat.

I don't know how to stop feeling this way.

I hate being alone but I feel too old and tired to try anymore. I'm just waiting for the clock to wind down at this point.

I'm a totally loser, like 90% the guys who posted here, last year after i get dumped by my 40 old gf (i was 19) i got depressing, tried to kill myself one day after my birthday (that i pass alone). I used to have friends, a least i though i had, but some was just shit and get me even more fucked up emotionally.

>>24387832
After lose my girlfriend, my friends and try kill myself i take a lot of medication to fool myself that I'm ok, drown myself in work and usually got ugly girls on tinder for fuck and reject for fun and sometimes i go to shemales scorts to suck dick. One of my exes ask me out last week, she shows up eventually, i kinda got expectations, remember how was fun when we are together(i dumped her, more than once) i though we gonna make out and possibly fuck, turn out that she was binding a farewell because she is leaving Brasil to marry some arab fucker. And she's just asked me out to say that because i was the closest person who she felt real love. I tried to do something but the shit is real, she's leaving. I'm a shit, i hate myself, I'm my worst enemy, i don't even deserve to breath.

I have cheated on my girlfriend of 1.5 years 5 times. I love my girl but she is boring in bed sometimes and I love the strange. I often hit on my employees at work and fantasize about fucking them anywhere and everywhere in the building. A few times I have gotten lucky and actually fucked and gotten head in my office. Best. Head. Ever.

>>24387168
How about a pic to spark interest?

>>24387812

iktf bro. How old are you if you don't mind me asking?

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>>24382316
You said everything I clicked this thread to say.

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>>24382316
I like the sound of this. Drop your skype desu, we can be retarded losers together.

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>>24388648
You a good-looking nigga doe, dont let em dem hoes drag you down

I have a boyfriend of over a year who I still love and want to be with but lately I can't stop also thinking about girls and wondering if I'm bi and it's driving me crazy

Man, I really just want to suprise sex a girl. I know it's bad to even think about it but, I really just want to dominate some chick and fuck them, making them want to come back for more. I want to dominate them and make them only want me and my cock. Wish I wasn't so young and average looking with no experience.

>>24382316
Go to bed, Aaron

I can't give a shit about other people. I help people often enough,strangers co workers, but don't feel anything. I try but could not care less if everyone else was a mute cardboard cutout. I'm 28 and trying to do the adult thing and date. But how can you date someone when you can't give a shit about their life. Its so hollow, I'm cold & rational. How can I change this? Its very frustrating. Any pointers?

>>24388394
dick bag. just break up with the girl instead of making a full of her.
>boohoo i have to find sex somewhere else instead of talking to her about what i want in bed and my needs.
fuck you.
>>24387694
Are you me? I wIant my efforts to be noticed. besides the princess part that sounds like me but I usually am the one doing the giving.

>>24388888
fool*

>>24388668
what with being bi?

>>24386764
I was a virgin until I was 31. Buck up, you'll be fine.

I live with my sister now and when she's gone I get naked, wear her used undies and fap.

Oh and also it's my biggest lewd dream to blow a femboy or a trap and get fucked by her.

I want to cheat on my gf and keep her because shes awesome and will make a great mother. Im just horny for side pussy.

>>24382316
I'm a bit like you. Wanna be friends?

>>24389235
lol ur still a wizard
anyway you got laid as a wizard, that's also an achievement

The girl of my dreams is half way across the country pursuing her Masters while I'm in a big city pursuing my career. We've both had horrible luck in relationships in the past, and I think we'd be amazing together, but the distance and the circumstances on how we met make it impossible for me to open up to her. I want us to be successful together, but I don't know how to achieve that.

Instead I post in these threads about how much I want to be with her while hoping that some day I find an opportunity to make that a reality.

>>24389619
Honestly, if you believe it to be so then go for it. It's soooo fucking cliche but seriously, go for it. There's no magic if it's ment to be it will work. It take effort. It wont be easy but if it's worth it to you it'll be rewarding and worth it.

I just came on my own face and for the first time I enjoyed it. Am I gay now?

>>24388394
>>24388888
Quints speak the truth, break up with her and stop being a douche dick with that girl

if someone whos hurt me called me right now and told me to do something, id do it without question

>>24390661
I've imagined that feeling before. You'd have major regrets after it's done though.

Man, I was gonna' post some stuff but after reading through some of these posts, I feel like anything I would say is just kinda'... trivial.

Do any of you treat the girl who delivers you nudes in pm or any social media shit? Or perhaps are there any girls here who send nudes to a guy who isn't nice to you? My guy hates me but I still make nudes for him, and I do it because I'm lonely as hell lol. The things he says makes me sad since I try my best and I don't know what I deserved to hear such words. Yeah I'm bringing this shit upon myself, I've never sexted before and I don't want to send another guy nudes again so I'll stay with him until he blocks me/until he found a girlfriend. At this point, we don't even talk anymore, I'm too annoying and uninteresting to him. I wonder if anyone here has the same problem? It isn't just me right? Like our convo nowadays is /b/ tier lel. The way he asks me to send nudes is so mean.

I like very young looking girls like 16 year olds. I'm 21

>>24384331
No, you deserve those things. And if she doesn't make you feel valued you need to talk to her about it if you want to keep your relationship healthy. If she's not meeting your needs she should either change or tell you that she doesn't plan to, so that you can decide if you want to stay (this, of course goes noth ways). But she won't know anything is wrong if you stay zipped. Cheating is just the wrong thing to do.

>>24391038
Maybe he thinks you like it that way. Or maybe he's just a fucking asshole. Either way you should just step out. You're a woman so finding a guy to dote on you can be as simple as going to the gym, logging into an online community, or posting on CL, and actually trying to talk to someone. Unless you acttually like it, I think you need to find someone who is sweet to you. Before the current guy fucks you up.

>>24391038
You're probably unattractive and your personality aint much either and he can't find anyone else so he is forced to ask you nudes. But for your selfworth I think you need to stop doing this. It never happened to me but I did see it happening to this girl who is grotesque and unattractive to the face, her personality wasn't good either.

>>24379913
>ITT: angsty 16-22 year olds
What's with all the dog fuckers, though?

>going to college
>can drive but no car
>working the least amount of time possible
>all my friends moved away or moved for college. Thankfully, my best friend is moving back home, soon
>a bit socially inept but I'm not afraid to talk to people
I just feel a bit unconfident in trying to get a grill, for the things I said, and cause I don't always have a car that I can use.

>>24391092
I want to find a guy irl to dote on desu. No more sexting for me. I know it's easy to fuck as a woman but I had bad experience with people in general which left me to become a shut in.
As for stepping out, I have a hard time to let go, and he was...so nice in the beginning. He is a controlfreak though, and I lied about miniscule things and that pissed him off to the point he got super angry permanently at me and declared me to be a lying whore. Today to test the waters I asked him if he minds it if I sext or fuck another guy and he said yes and then told me to fuck off. I think he was tsundere and secretly still cares about me, despite telling me I'm worthless to him...Among other terrible things... either way I think I'll start talking to people again irl. I don't talk to anyone else online or irl just him which made me very unbearable I imagine and I did it (deleting everyone online) so he'd stop being jealous. My confidence has been even more crushed though and I'm now scared but I'll try regardless. I've been unbearable to him because I isolated myself, I think it's also because I developed an eating disorder and talked about food all the time with him. The latter is also something I can't talk about to anyone but I think my mom noticed. In short I'm already fucked up and I'm bringing myself to more fucked up things. I need help, I thought I matured and would become a better person but I'm just ruining it more. I think I'll focus on studying and start avoiding him more until he misses me.

I'm sorry for the blog. I'm lonely and need a hug.

>>24391136
ITP: angsty 16-22 yr old. You think people still care whether or not you have a car? That stopped being a thing in the 80s. Get a bike.

>>24391158
>You think people still care whether or not you have a car?
It's embarrassing to not be able to say "OK I'll meet you outside at 11, we're going to _____."

My roommate has mental issues and emotional issues, and sometimes I wish that either he would have a huge mental breakdown and have to go to the hospital, or that he would go full-on suicidal and either kill himself or have to undergo 24 hour watch.

I also don't want to be with my boyfriend anymore. I feel that our relationship is just going nowhere. We're just with each other because it's easy and we're both mentally, emotionally, financially stable and we have our shit together when no one else does. I don't really love him anymore and I can't bring myself to say it, even though I have a strong feeling we both know it.

>>24391155
This is pretty intense. I kind of want to just give you a big hug.

I'm not the doting type. In fact I dislike dependence, and dd/lg dynamic in general, because it is (for me) necessarily an acknowledgement of inequality. But I want to give you a hug and help you straighten your shit out.

I know that's not for me to do, though. You have to do it, and it sounds to me like you're taking steps in the right directions.

I know it's scary stepping away from someone that you feel like is a part of you, but really it doesn't even matter if he does secretly care about you, because he treats you terribly and you (seemingly) don't want to be treated that way. You can make lots of friends by picking up hobbies and going to social events that deal with them - look on meetup.com in your city for local social events that you might be interested in - and picking up a physical hobby, exercise of some sort will help your body to regulate its own chemistry in a(n I expect) beneficial way for you, like beginning to produce and respond to serotonin appropriately, which will help with mood, sociality, sleeping, and being a physically active person.

If you don't workout ever it might be difficult to pick up, but stick with it. I promise it will help.

>>24391177
Like I said, get a bike, or a bicycle even.

>>24391187
break up with him. Stop letting each other waste each other's time. That's the least renewable resource you have, besides your life.

>>24391261
>Like I said, get a bike, or a bicycle even.
I'm not going to expect anyone bike 20 miles to a national forest, 20 miles to a fishing spot or some miles to come to the range with me. It's embarrassing.

Kiddo, go back to whatever you were doing before. You give shit advice. I hope the rest of you folk get that, too.

My best friend is actually someone I met on 4chan, but he doesn't know. I don't actually have real friends at this point in my life :/

My "best" friend IRL is/was someone I work with, but all she ever does is party and last time I went out with her she got wasted (again) and told someone some really personal things about me because she thought it was funny. It was humiliating and I'm trying to put some distance between us because I can't keep up with her party lifestyle.

I get along so much better with this person I met online. I think I was an asshole last time I talked to him and now I'm scared to say hi again. It's been 5 days since I've heard from him. He hasn't messaged me and I'm nervous to say hi first. I'm worried that he hates me :( idk what to do anymore. I'm a stupid idiot.

>>24391283
I don't want to blame you for your friend revealing shit, but, you're in the wrong for trusting that person to start with.

The rest of your story doesn't make much sense, kek.

>>24391290
I didn't know she was that much of a mentally unstable trainwreck. We used to go out and yeah she partied, but it didn't get this bad until recently. I had told her I was afraid of anal sex before, because we talk about this stuff all the time. So we go out after work, have a couple drinks, and she flagged down a bartender, asked him what he thought about it and asked him if he thought I should try it. Yes I trusted her so it's my fault, but I don't think anyone would h e seen that coming...

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>>24391270
>not expecting anyone to bike 20 miles to have fun

I do it... and all of my friends do it too. We ride our bicycles, together, as part of the trips we take to natural parks, and amusement parks, and local music shows, and festivals, and the farmers market, and among each others' houses, in some instances up to ~100mi/day.

Then on top of that, your point is irrelevant to my suggestion to get a bike, as in a motor bike....

Obviously you don't have to take my advice if you don't want to, but it's pretty damn good advice - I would argue that it's only circumstantially bad for you because of your self-imposed limitation of dignity. I take all of my own advice and at 25 yrs I live a happy, healthy, wholesome life, I'm on track to be a PhD by the time I'm 29, and I'm currently an internationally competitive athlete, and then on top of that all I manage to live this way on around 15K/yr, without support (except health insurance, but I haven't needed it for even so much as a co-pay in years). I literally just returned from a road trip around the whole eastern sea board and I'm going to Ecuador to go backpacking for 10 days in January. I'm free of ailments and have no drug dependence. The only downsides to my life are that my sex life is essentially non-existent right now, and I have ~75K student debt.

Pic related, it's mfw you mad about me giving good advice.

>>24391332
You've forgotten to check if your ideas align with reality. All credit to you, my friend. You're a huge fag though.

Folks, disregard this "person"

>>24391346
Nah. He has a point. If you're insecure about not having a car, you're just insecure. If you had a car, you'd find something else to be insecure about.

>>24391261
T-thank you. You're such a kind person. I hope I'll make a friend like you.

>>24391369
How the fuck are you supposed to hang out with a bitch that lives in another fucking city if you've no car?

>>24391379
Ride a bike.

>lolololololololol

>>24391346
If my ideals didn't align with reality I would expect it would be a lot harder for me to live the way I do. To the contrary, it's pretty easy.

>>24391412
>>24391418
You both don't get the point of having wheels. Can't reason with shitheads.

>>24391445
They make passenger bikes, and passenger cars for bikes, you know. And the whole setup is still way cheaper than most cars (if more dangerous).

I'm trying to limit what I post here for legal reasons etc.. But I have been going through hell for the last 2 months, and I honestly have a couple months left, I need another 4-6 months and it will be a couple of months of going through hell, but that is ok, I am a very strong man and I will make it eventually.

>>24391495
You can do it, man. 4-6 months is a time while you're in it. But a year after it's over you'll be like "that was nothing!"

>>24391379
That wasn't part of the original problem. You said you were "unsecure" (sic) in part because you don't always have a car to drive. Never in that whole exchange did you mention needing to go out of town. Furthermore, you're a college student. Only pieces of shit would judge a college student for not having a car. To me, and to most reasonable people, not having a car just means you value your education more than you do a car.

In any case, my point stands that you're using the lack of a car as a crutch.

I'm a straight dude in very good shape but my biggest fetish is fat, hairy dudes fucking hot girls. The older the guy/the more disgusting he is, the better. The girl becomes so much hotter for fucking these guys.

The only reason I'm not a virgin is because I got fucked by a guy from Grindr. Never had sex with a girl but I still consider myself (closeted) bisexual.

>>24389285
why don't you talk to her and figure out why you aren't satisfied?

>>24391804
so you into women getting degraded

b u mp

I'm pregnant and I don't think it's my husband's.

I want to be in a relationship but every time I try I start to think that being as I am, depressed and kind of not getting anywhere in life, still studying but not sure about if I want to work with anything remotely what I study.

I just think that if I'm not happy with myself then how would that reflect on the person I'm with. Thus I just let the feelings go. I know there might be women who mind as long as I'm what they're looking for minus the depression. But how is one supposed to find anyone when everybody hides these feelings?

>>24393657
Story?

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>>24379913
I have a benis in my closet but don't tell my mom and dad

I don't know how to have fun anymore , i think it's thanks to the drugs. I have a hard time to make friends. I'm not anxious or shit like that , i just never know what to say. I just happend to look like one of those girls that have friends. But i actully dont. I have no cool intrests , it feels like i'm a robot with no emotions

>>24393902
I found this amusing.

>>24393931
Extensive drug use can dampen your other experiences. It's possible I guess.

>>24393931
Hi. Well I won't tell you to be friends with me, kind of hypocritical and weird but I can share my thoughts on it.

Try to remember what interested you when you were younger, before responsibility and laying down a foundation for your future mattered.

Did you have any hobbies, passion or interest? I had always had greek mythology on my mind and when i felt lost and had no spark in me a few months ago I turned back and reviewed my childlike interests. It made me remember what unfettered happiness felt like and gave me a boost for the present.

I might not care to pursue history in my spare time but it has made me try to pursue that feeling I felt all those years ago. I'm kind of happier and feel as if I can try a bit more today. It's not great but I think it's going somewhere.

>>24394071
I've always had a thing for languages , i'm now studying russian and hebrew. I ofcourse have many more i'd like to study in the future.
But it dosent make that happy , i really love languages and i can speak 4 without a problem. Knowing that i can speak the languages i love makes me feel proud , but not really happy. It's weird.

I want to have a threesome with a fit ebony girl and a petite blond every night until both are preggos.

>>24394089
I can only speak 3 without problem so you got one over me.

Have you ever watched a movie in one of the languages that's not English and wished other people could enjoy it too? I have a black and white movie in Polish I want to translate and release subs I'm English because I just love that trilogy. Though the want is there the discipline to do it isn't which is sad.

My secret reading vice is Chinese martial arts novels, new and old because they are so different from what I usually read and I have the highest respect for the translators that do it mostly for free, donations withstanding. Maybe join a translator community as an editor, translator or proof reader?

I dunno if my ID will be the same but its me. On mobile.

>>24394179
So it's written: notwithstanding. Learnt something new today.

Fuck is wrong with all you beta cucks

I'm by all accounts straight but I really want a submissive sissy trap to pound out

Im a virgin but ive Been hooking up with this one chick a lot lately. We often sleep in each others beds, shell also be completely naked. I'll be making moves on her, giving her hickeys, playing and sucking on her boobs and fingering her too. But if I try to take it any further like going down on her shell tell me to stop.

What do?

>>24394301
stop being a beta and stick it inside like real man.

>>24379913
Vent/feels:
I know im decent looking. I have a nice body. I'm book-smart, did well in hs and graduated college with several certifications. I have a boyfriend who i love. I have a job that i love. I have friends i see several times a month. But i still feel like shit all the time. Im insecure about every feature, both physical and personality. I post nudes and suggestive photos on here and even the nice comments sound fake to me. I feel like anons are just mocking me. Sometimes it feels genuine and makes me feel okay for a while. Then days later i think back and i think "wow only one person liked my photos" or whatever. I want people to like me so bad. But i really dont care about those people. My family, my boyfriend, my coworkers, my friends all like me. Why isnt that enough? Why cant i like myself enough to not feel the need to do this shit? Fuck

>>24394301
Next time she tries to stop you bite her neck then whisper in her ear
Shhh I am the captain now

>>24393657
tell the story

I'm stuck in an abusive home. I don't know how to get out of this hole. I have no future unless I do.

>>24394412
You might need to explore exhibitionism while being fucked in public, in a safe place. Fun clubs out there to join.

I'm going thru my first real heartbreak and it's fucking destroying me and I don't know what to do.

Never felt so lost and helpless before.

>>24380397
I'm 25, but this is my exact situation aside from age. Just be strong, buddy!

>>24394992
story?

Not sure how to talk about this but figured I might as well ask for some advice

I'm currently a dedicated engineer at a company and I'm at the point where I want to quit and move to a different company that will pay the market rate and I will at least double my salary. Well a wrench has been thrown in my hands this week, and I sort have known about this for months,however, didn't really believe the news until this week when some news came out. Pretty much some new opportunities are opening up at my current company and this could mean a new position for me and a salary increase. This is happening in the next couple of months, and we have a lot of new stuff happening daily. I still fee like I want to leave, but I am rethinking my decisions and sticking it out for another year or so and when the new position is approved "hopefully" in the next few months things should be good. I just don;t know if I can wait for the next three months for all of this too happen, so far I love where I work but I fucking hate the management and that is very hard on me mentally. Even though there is a small beef between the management, they still want to promote me and we will see where I end up in the next few months. I have a hard road ahead to be honest, i just don't know what to do anymore. I have been burned before with my current manager and it s very hard to believe someone who fucked you up before you know...

>>24379968
try travel. Just spend your money and go somewhere historic/beautiful or whatever.


Secret: I haven't had sex in 2 years because IDK if my cock will work for a girl. I can jerk it to porn, but there's none of that "electricity". I haven't felt horny since I broke up with my first 4 years ago. Have had sex, but around 2 years ago I started to mostly not enjoy it and kept losing the erections. After 3 one-night stands and a girl ending a budding relationship right after the first time we slept together, all situations where I was basically rope the whole time, intercourse has such a bad taste in my mouth that I've quit pursuing it completely and the thought of it grosses me out.

The chicks with personalities I dig are always the kind who are pretty sexually active and consider sex an important part of the relationship. Wanted to kill myself for a long time, now I've moved on and pretty much have accepted that I'm just gonna be alone.

>>24381925
I mean, you can get out of the marriage scot-free because that's constructive abandonment. Look it up.

I kind of want to fuck my best friend''s wife. I think she's into me. Trying to get me to drink when we are around and she gets very touchy and even bites me. I love my wife and want to stay married, but I keep getting those what if thoughts.

>>24395611
don't do it.

Unless you see your marriage and friendships ending.

Don't do it. And don't listen to /poly/. That path does not end well.

>>24395352
you're 50% below market? If you're sure that's correct, walk in and ask for a fucking raise. Otherwise leave. your "promotion" will only take you up to what you should have been paid anyway.

>>24395620
Yeah...even if I could get away with it, she wouldn't be able to stay silent and the guilt would probably eat me up

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I know when I'm going to die, and it's soon. Nobody else knows, and nobody else must find out. Sometimes, though.. it's not easy keeping it in. When someone is giving me shit and I know that it's unwarranted or at least very exaggerated, I could just easily crush that smug attitude with the biggest guilt trip, but I am above that.

Not a soul must know of my inevitable doom.

>>24380980
I want to punch you to death.

>>24394412
I feel you. I know I'm not ugly or disgusting, and my life isn't horrible, but I feel like shit, and I always compare myself to other girls. Any compliment feels like a joke that I'm not in on.

>>24394915
Seems like a rabbit hole. She's already posting nudes, and that's not working. She needs to work on her self esteem in a non sexual way.

I'm in a findom relationship with an 18 year old NEET guy I met on CS:GO.

>>24395632
Yeah dont. What you should do is be a man and talk to your wife sense your marriage is stale. If you don't you'll cheat and cause a swath of broken lives.
>boohoo I can't talk to my wife.

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>>24379913

I'm a 30 year old virgin with a new car, good job and I get attention but between depression and rediculous standards I have never gotten past second base (and only once, at that).

That's something I'll tell people if they ask, but I don't advertise. My secret is that I want to exchange v-cards with an attractive 16-18 year old girl (16-17 is legal where I live) and maintain a loving, supportive, exploratory and very sexual relationship. If the girl were right and we fit well together, I would be absolutely willing to move in together before she turned 20 and be married by 22.

I have a feeling there are 16 year old girls who want a caring, gentle, mature and established boyfriend she could explore her sexuality with, but to just go around asking is an obviously terrible idea.

I'm a polyamorous bi male, though I don't date men, just fuck them.

Every woman I've developed feelings for in over a year is in a committed relationship. I'm out meeting new people and shit, but the only ones I catch feelings for end up spoken for, and none in poly relationships.

And I like them too much to be that asshole who tries to sabotage what they have, even when it hits the rocks. I just put aside my emotions and help them work through their issues.

At this point, I'm starting to think I'm hopelessly broken.

This is the first in a long time I've posted needing advice. I would appreciate anyone's input.

I think my girlfriend doesn't like having sex. At first when we start after foreplay and all that she's wet and into it but after a while I can tell she's getting less and less invested; she starts becoming increasingly dry and shifts uncomfortably with each move. We've talked about it, I've asked straight up if she enjoys sex and she says yes but she can't handle my size for an extended duration (not bragging but this is what she said) which leads to the dryness. Eventually I stop because I know it's no longer pleasurable for her which makes her feel guilty for not having me finish, which then either leads to an awkward forced ending session fuel by guilt or no sex at all.

And what I don't understand is her mentality of sex, that is if I have an understanding of it at all. For me, I love when my partner enjoys the sexual act were partaking in, that's what ultimately gets me off. I love making them orgasm, going down, just doing whatever they like and I see no drive like this in my girlfriend. It's very rare that she initiates sex and almost every time I do I'm never more than 50% sure she even wants to.

I don't even know what I'm asking, reading all this back seems stupid but I'm going to post it anyway.

>>24396550
Penetration may be painful for her and she's afraid to admit it to you. There are several condition which may cause this.
Or she just might not be into penetration, which isn't really uncommon.
OR she isn't into sex all that much, some people aren't and that's okay.

The problem I see here is that she feels uncomfortable sharing her thoughts with you. Your post makes it seem like you are really into a partner who enjoys sex and she may be scared to tell you she isn't, for one reason or another. Let her know you are concerned, but open to listen to her problems.

>>24396770
That's what been saddening me these past few days thinking about it, if she doesn't enjoy sex at the same level as me there's nothing I could do about it. Our love life could shift to just foreplay and mutual stuff or to unenthusiastic sex shit.

What's even more befuddling is our first year was amazing! She was definitely easier to gauge sexually and I could tell she enjoyed it. I'd get her so wet it'd feel like i was fucking a puddle. Maybe she's over sex with me, perhaps out banging her coworkers, fuck if I know.

>>24396803
>she;s over sex with me,perhaps out banging her coworkers
I am absolutely sure this isn't the case.
You need to be open to her needs, give her a chance to work out what she wants. Instead of thinking, "This could ruin our sex life," think, "What can we do to make sex more enjoyable for her too." And she needs to be apart of that conversation.

>>24396550
This sounds exactly like my relationship. I don't want to "fix her" but I'd like to know if there's anything I can do.

>>24396814
Man I swear we've had that conversation before. I'm going to try again when it's appropriate.

She said when we first talked about it she enjoys the slow loving stroke, doesn't like the hard jabby shit, enjoys some hair pulling and choking. Oh and most other positions besides missionary causes discomfort.

It's been a few months since that talk and I've been implementing her preferences as much as I can but I still get that same weird, kinda dull experience from her, thus my reaching out tonight. I don't know man it's really weird to me.

>>24396845
When I was in college I took a psychology class and we a talked about the Madonna/whore dichotomy females have to go through in their sexual life and I wouldn't be the least bit surprised if our ladies are dealing with this.

>>24380980
take this from a much, much older person - take that shit to your motherfucking grave and if somehow it ever comes up do NOT admit shit, or even claim his bestie must have fucked u when you passed out if the best friend tries to come clean - "No, I don't know what he's talking about. Maybe he assraped me when I was passed out drunk I don't know but I sure the hell didn't ask for it"

End of discussion. Use that secret shame as a reminder not to take your bf for granted.

>>24381443
"Honey this is really not working out from me. I'm sorry but I'm not happy and not fulfilled and I need a divorce."

I think that's less than 160 chars. Send it now before you pussy out.

>>24381132
If you really want to punish yourself then tell him. I think the pain will be much more therapeutic/cathartic than the self loathing/shame you're experiencing.

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So I've gotten laid three times now cat fishing as one dude, saying "oh I'm busy fuck my friend" and then they fucked me instead.

My catfish account is mainly because I'm bored and being a 6-7/10 half mexican half white man in online dating means I match with nothing but fat latinas and black girls. I get bored and lonely and just wanna flirt and talk with girls, sometimes sext. I never intend to meet up but every so often I just go....fuck it let's see if they really would do this.

And sure as shit it worked. I have a 4th opportunity to do it, but after a lot of LSD trips, self reflection and also a mild mood stabilizer, I feel like I really shouldn't.

It's weird having this conflicting emotions of "I'm so glad I'm being less fucked up." and "Man I wanna be fucked up".

>>24382166
get friends first, then get relationships

also duh?

>>24382316
Go talk to a therapist. They can help
you understand how to overcome these things.

>inb4 "it's too expensive"

find a way to pay for it

>>24382447
he knew the fucking deal before you even walked through the door

>>24382665
Hit me up on kik to talk practical magic. I'm a guy, 35, in the US and not in any particular need of a relationship or sexual validation (I'm poly and have more of that than I can manage, already), but I like talking to other practitioners when I can.

kik:derpgently

>>24382665
>practising magic
Seasoned occultist here. Feel free to hit me up: [email protected]

I love med school, but I think about killing myself every day. I find myself studying pharmacology and thinking of ways to do it and I only feel this way because I can't take the fucking pressure. I wish I could tell my teacher to go fuck himself when he says things like "don't have time to study this? what do you do between 12AM and 6AM? Sleep? Oh well, sleep less". I feel angry at every motherfucking patient that comes in the ER and lies about stuff so they can get a note not to come in for work because they are tired of working 8 hours a day, when I've been up studying and tending patients for more than 38 hours on 4 hours of sleep. I legit want to tell them to go fuck themselves on the note. They made me sedate an old woman for no reason yesterday other than to get her to stop wandering off her room and she cried so much, and I didn't want to do that to her. THERE WAS NO REASON TO SEDATE HER. I wanna kill the motherfucking doctor that's supposed to work the night shifts with me and the other doctor, and doesn't come in because fuck that, the state still pays me, let's just overwork EVERYBODY ELSE. piece of shit. But the point is, every day I dream about the goddamn emergency room, every day I think about killing myself and I'm a semester away from graduation and internship and I just wanna fucking die every fucking single day.

>>24395695
I hear you. The lady needs some self esteem but those kind of clubs I mentioned are pretty good. The people are polite, got security, other couples to talk to who can relate and the atmosphere makes it easy to forget about outside problems. They just need to be careful of most single ladies as they can be a bit crazy.

>>24397072
You can do it dude. One semester away. after that no more studying bullshit I hope. Stay in school and finish though, it's not working taking a break and losing that drive. once you being to get more sleep and become a well rested human being life will be less shit.

I grew up in Massachusetts. Born autistic. Parents and teachers believed I was going to be some kind of rising star, and they had all these expectations for me. They all told me I was something special and made me believe it deeply. They gave me extra work and special treatment in elementary school, and later on put me in advanced classes, because they believed I had "potential" and needed to be "challenged". Every time I would crash and burn, and disappoint everyone, because they set their expectations so high. I'd often get punished pretty badly. My dad abused me in pretty much every way, except sexual luckily. Socially I was a failure and made a few close friends that rarely have time for me. Never got invited to parties or anything. Any time I got invited to something, it would somehow get cancelled or I'd get uninvited. I was the laughing stock of my graduating class from day one of kindergarten until graduation. Graduated highschool, got too stressed by college and dropped out, debt free luckily. Only started enjoying my life again in the summer when I was in my late teens. When my friends had time, we would make the best of it. Right now I'm broke and SOL in the boonies of Ohio with a girl I met online. I love her but I'm not getting much out of the relationship. I'm too dysfunctional to contribute anything to this relationship or the world at large. I can't handle most low-tier jobs, and I can't function well enough in college to get a degree that will allow me to get something I can do. Things are starting to get better and I have some hope. I just wish that the universe would stop fucking with me and let me get something out of life, or just kill me already if that will never happen. All I really want is an apartment in my hometown, a stable job that takes care of my expenses and allows me to save some money, and to enjoy the little things.

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I really really want a GF to love, but I am to much of a chicken to put myself in any situation where I might meet someone.
Also, when my childhood cat died earlier this year I cried the whole time I was burying him, and then I cried myself to sleep for a week. I'm 25.

>>24397122
Things take work man, so work for it.

>>24397121
The worse part is I'm a girl, so people just expect me to fall apart for less than this shit and I've been taking so much bullshit silently, because I don't want to give the impression that "It's understandable, she's freaking out because she's a girl" and I'm literally freaking out because none of us are treated like human beings yet somehow people expect us to care for other human beings when we are all fucked up emotionally because the way we are treated, doesn't matter if guy or girl. What I'm going through, everybody in med is going through, then you have politicians where I'm from saying shit like "doctors are like salt: white, cheap and you can find them anywhere". So it really doesn't matter how we get treated, because we are instruments of the state, very much fucking replaceable. I wish I could get some sleep though. That'd be great. Thanks for the words though. I appreciate them.

>>24396959
>"oh I'm busy fuck my friend" and then they fucked me instead
How do you set this up. I catfished a girl, told her my friend (me) was going to pick her up, get liquor, and we'd all party at a motel. I picked her up, and hung out a big waiting for my "friend" to message when he'd be there. I couldn't seem to break away long enough to figure out how to message her under my catfish account. So I never sealed the deal. How do you do it?

bumping cause feels need to be felt

I have recently started dating a new lady.
She's pretty cool,
Cute,
Nerdy,
Pretty much what I'm after Personality wise.
Unfortunately, shes bad in bed, Nervous, Only had 4 other partners.
I'm up in the 40s.
She's not into oral.
She's never had an Orgasm.
And is a starfish.
A really quiet one.
I can't do it.
If its got no passion, i just lose interest.
I can't tell what shes into or if anything is good,

I'm going to end up hate fucking a previous fling who likes it rough and has loose morals.
And this upsets me.

A few years back i had a relationship with a lady who was diagnosed with bi-polar during. I told her it was fine and didn't love her any less. But she did a number on me, She changed after the diagnosis, Almost like it was an excuse for all her bad behavior. Stayed with her for 3 years after. Isolated me from my friends, would start fights about nothing, Refused sex and would guilt me for wanting it, then when i was so depressed and stressed out and didn't want it she would start more fights about how i wasn't putting effort in. After i finally got my shit together and left her, i find it hard to commit to anyone anymore. I spent a fair while alone after that. Its hard to get out of the habit of being alone, i have all my hobbies and projects, I'm self reliant. Sometimes when im with someone else i get anxious and just think "I could be spending this time sculpting..."

I might be pregnant with my friend's child.

>>24397706
>I'm going to end up hate fucking a previous fling who likes it rough and has loose morals.
>And this upsets me.
Lol it must suck to be this much of a spineless dickslave

>>24394422
Unerrated post.

>>24397706
You need to lose the mindset that "you're going to end up fucking a previous fling" and start telling yourself that "you're going to either be loyal and what your SO deserves, or you're going to tell her that "you can't be what she deserves" and leave her.

Don't be a cheater. That's the wrong thing to do.

IMO, you're pretty spineless if you'll let yourself cave to that, though. Your current SO is newer to sex than you are so she might be less exploratory, or nervous about making a fool of herself, or perhaps she's uncomfortable with the difference in your experience levels. If you want her to open up to you you have to make it so those things are not an issue - let her know that she's the one you love, she's the one you want to be physical with, and if she's not ok with something all she has to do is say so. If you make her feel comfortable she'll open up to you enough to let you assfuck her with your fist if you want.

>>24382316
>>24382357
Why don't you go to skype/kik group? It could really help you I think.
You could drop your skype/kik here too, I think many people want to help you.

I haven't shifted yet, even though I've had progress before.

Are those memories I don't want to remember, or made-up fantasies that never happened?

I need a shaman friend.
A mentor.

I need someone to love me like I love them.

I'm sick of you lying to me.
I don't know who you are anymore.

I'm lost and my only option is death.

>>24397922
Why don't you just go away to your actual life if you're really thinking about death?
You could have a better live in another place.

>>24397130
Dude, cats are best animal companions.

I'd cry, too.

It's okay.

>>24397929
Why don't you fuck off?

I'll do what I want with my life, or lack thereof.

>>24397936
I was telling that because I thought it could help you. Sorry.

>>24397072
You chose the wrong career.

>>24397939
Yeah, well saying "actual life" could mean you were purposefully being a dick to me.

>>24397944
Sorry, my english isn't that good.

>>24397944
You sound like a woman
Kys

>>24395644
How and when?

>>24397948
No, that's okay.

>>24397952
Who cares what I sound like?

You should do it, too.

Do you know a girl that look so pure you want to make her have the most dirty face ever? I know one. I knew one. I lost her one year ago or something like that, but I think about her everyday.

The first time I saw her I wanted to fuck her so hard. But in 3 years, I felt in love with her. I didn't call that love at that time because she hadn't any love interest. Maybe I was just a friend, maybe more. She was too tsundere, so I don't know and will never know.

I know why she left me, because I was a monster. But I'm better than before. I don't know if I'm a good man, but I think I'm a better man than before.

If you're reading that, my sweet little C. (or I. for your real name), I loved you, maybe I still love you. Big bro misses you.

>>24398019
What did you do specifically?

>>24398032
We did some naughty things the last 3 months. I think I asked for too much, and she didn't want to make me sad by saying no. It may sound stupid, but at this time, I didn't know that sex could be lovely, I thought it was only hard fuck.

>>24398040
Ah, that's okay.

Actually a lot don't see sexual things as romantic and use it only to get themselves off.

>>24398047
Yeah but she had some trauma related to sex and men.

And when I did some hard stuff with her, it was because I loved her, because I thought I could do anything and show my "true self".

I wish I could tell her that (I didn't have the words to say that when she left), tell her how I am now, and she could be proud of me, maybe a little.

Secrets?

My wife has had cancer for the last year and she's been going through treatment, she doesn't want to continue and just give up yet I force her to continue

When all I want to do is let her give up so I can give up as well, I'm emotionally dead.

>>24398062
It's probably best to let her go.

She wants to, you want her to.

>>24398058
Do you still know her?

>>24398104
She blocked me everywhere, so I can't tell her.

>>24398114
Do you know of she frequents /soc/?

>>24398133
She did, but I don't know if she's still doing it.

>>24396395
Dude you're not going to be in a long relationship with someone that young. They want to get out there. Honestly. If you want a loving relationship, find some friends first and build a strong foundation around 20-25 with other virgins. There are people out there.

>>24397751
Scratch this. I got my period today, thank god.

pumb

I can't get over my gf of 2 years that I left in May. I was super stressed at the time and had just quit a stressful job. A few weeks prior to the split she came to me with concerns about our relationship and how she felt like she wanted to date other people (I was her first boyfriend) and she didn't want me to be her only experience. I took the time to calmly talk to her and reason with her. Then after that I came to her with my own concerns and she 180's on me and wouldn't try to talk it out like we always had and just kept asking if I was dumping her or not. I finally pulled the plug because I felt I didn't need that stress but ever since then I'll cry randomly, I can't get thoughts and memories of her out of my mind. She's with some other guy now and posts non-stop about how happy she is to be with someone that she "clicks so well with".
My almost 6 years of building self confidence has been flushed down the drain and I don't feel I can talk to women anymore, that I'm repulsive to them or that they'd be offended if I talked to them. They all feel so unapproachable but I long for a love like I had so badly.

>>24399774
Last Friday I worked up the confidence to ask a girl in my class out, she said yes initially and I got her number. About half way through this week (we planned to go out this weekend) she texts me to tell me there's "an old flame" in her life she can't move past and she wants to pursue a relationship with him. A real nail in the coffin to my confidence and hope.

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I don't love you like I used to. Maybe you should have kept your dick in your pants while I was pregnant. Oh, and next time you want to try to log on to my throwaway emails that I haven't used in years? Remember that my laptop is keylogged. Jackass. Also, close out of the aps you look through on my phone. Your snooping skills? 0/10- would not recommend. kthxbaiiiii you self absorbed, hypocritical unromantic asshole.

PS- next time you want to give me attitude about staying late at work and insinuate I'm not where I'm supposed to be? Try looking for a steady fucking job instead.

I fail at everything i do no matter how hard i try. I constantly let my family and friends down. Id kill myself but i dont have the guts.

I married you because I was lonely and sad. I am still lonely and sad. I have never loved you. Happy fifth anniversary.

>>24399801
wait, so the dude cheated on you, but meanwhile snooped on you and tried to say you were cheating?

baka

I live alone, working a shitty job that I hate, but need, and deeply concerned that everyday I show up will be the last due to being hated by everyone there. I've been getting drunk every night. I've been buying escorts, because I'm very, very ugly -- near elephant man ugly. I've been fucking them aggressively due to being angry about my needs having to be met this way. As soon as I finish they leave without saying a word.

The line between life and death seems to be getting thin, and vague for me.

>>24379913
I'm 25 and only had one gf. Still looking for something new.
In terms of speaking with womens im really autistic, dont have a chance. Really sick of being alone with no hope of finding something good.

Sorry for my bad english

>>24400643
Do the escorts react to your ugliness in any way when you first meet them?

>>24400831
The split second expression of fear and revulsion that switches to an expressionless resting face. Pretty much all of them don't want to kiss me, and I suspect jack up their prices.

It's still a lot better than paying close to the same to have my dick stroked in a massage parlor by a chink.

>>24399774
You didn't need the stress at the time, but that doesn't mean it wasn't going to affect you negatively.

Most break-ups hurt both parties.

>>24400485
Are you me?

What do you want to do with life that you fail at?

>>24400512
End it.

You both deserve better.

>>24400643
You know even some women found the elephant man attractive, right?

Is your self-proclaimed ugliness a reault of a medical disease or is it just your normal face?

>>24400655
I'm 23 and really autistic speaking to anyone in general.

I hate being alone, too, but nobody is my brand of crazy.

>>24401019
Did you know that when you look like me all you see are scowls, twisted faces, and you can expect to be ignored, poorly serviced, and treated like shit? Women are shallow and only have looks on their mind. I'm so sick of retards like you.

My girlfriend is probably going to leave me. I cheated on her. She was the one, but I have intimacy issues and like everyone I've ever been with I drove her away.

Pretty drunk right now. If I took a bottle of Xanax would it off me, or just make me a cripple?

When I we were kids, I told my brother to kill himself because I was annoyed at him. He's suicicidal these days and my mother blames herself, but it's really my fault

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All I do is dream about a life playing around in the muisc scene in America almost every single night. I follow all these independent musicians on facebook and see all their updates "Playing in ronchester NY tonight, come along" It kills me because i'm all the way in Scotland.

Recently though I have been trying to make my own music, I made a short sample song two days ago and I got really wonderful feedback from people saying I should make more music I think this really encourages me to follow my dream further.

I get really lonely though, i'll watch a romance movie and feel depressed afterwards.. I never give love the time of day because i've been let down so often in the past by guys i've liked. It's like, I don't deserve somebody until I feel I am at my best so i'm not an insecure moron, but the waiting time is extremely killer....

oh my god i miss you so much

why do you not want to be with me

we can be happy together

please come back home

please

>>24401051
Lmfao, both sexes are shallow, dumb shit.

It's not retarded to say that there ARE people who might see you as attractive, but your shitty personality makes them see they can do better.

>>24401061
Cripple.

Why not tell her that?

>>24401067
You're a piece of shit, but only saying it once did not cause that.

He was probably already suicidal, so don't blame yourself.

>>24401086
If someone won't stick around until you're successful you need to fuck them off.

Keep trying to find someone until your dreams are met.

Vent-wise, for the last few months I've had absolutely zero motivation to do anything. I know I should be doing some things, and I want to, but I can never muster the energy or whatever to get up and do it.

Every little thing that mildly annoys me in my life now has the potential to ruin my mood for the entire rest of the day. Little things I'd normally forget about in 10 minutes, like a missed hair when shaving. I hate to see it affect the people around me, especially when it's something they did that I know shouldn't be pissing me off.

Also been stuck in another patch of wishing I had been a girl and feeling like everything I do to be happy is futile because I wasn't. Can't transition, since it's too late for HRT to make me look passable. At the same time I have the conflicting desire to be more masculine, but I guess that's since I've realized I'll never be female and don't want to be a feminine guy.

>>24395369
I'm kind of the same way. I can mostly get hard all the time in other situations, but as soon as I put a condom on, I'm instantly soft. I guess it's due to anxiety, but one of the possible side effects of the prescription I take is E.D., so I dunno how much that factors into it. I've told my gf about it and she's supportive of me, but I'm almost afraid to be alone with her since I'm worried she might get the urge for something more than oral and just get disappointed. That's why my last gf left me too, she desperately wanted to fuck and I couldn't provide for her. I can't really blame her.

>>24400565

yup. it's really starting to offend me lol

>>24401427
Does your girlfriend know of your desires?

She could still treat you like a woman whenever you felt like one.

It all depends on how open and honest you both are.

I'm still crazy for a guy who isn't even remotely attracted to me and we have absolutely nothing in common.

I keep unintentionally hurting him and I just don't know how to deal with myself.

I haven't said anything to him or pressured him or anything.

I just still have feelings for him.

Jerridd... I wish you would talk to me again.
I'm sorry I was so cold all those years ago when you went back home. I was pushing you away because I was hurting and scared as hell. All these years later and I still have depression.
I really hope you're ok and living a good life.
I just wish you would get in touch. Nothing more.

>>24401456
Sort of in a similar situation. How exactly are you hurting him? And are you trying to move on from him or are you clinging to the hope that he'll eventually reciprocate?

>>24401031
I can talk to other people and make conversation with random girls.

But when it comes to speak with a girl that i really wan't yo know. Always i fucked up.

I always find the way yo fucked every relationship i start.

Know your feels

>>24401653
I say mean things to him when I'm upset, which is common because I have depression.

The problem is I only say mean things to him, and nice things to everyone else.

I don't know why I take my anger out on him.
He doesn't deserve it.

I'm trying to kill my feelings, to be honest.

I'm trying to be neutral so we can remain friends.

I know he'll never like me back.
Nobody ever does so I'm used to it.

What about you?
What's your situation?

>>24397922
>I need a shaman friend.
>A mentor.
Interesting, do tell.

>>24401086
You feel familiar.

Most days I will stuff my holes before going out in public. Even better I love wearing skirts and flashing guys and letting see my buttplug poking through my panties.

>>24401740
It's about shifting.

I want to be a voice actor, but I'm reluctant to tell my family because they want me to get an "honest" job.

>>24401821
Fuck it. Do what you want man. It's your life. When it comes down to it, they aren't living your life and dealing directly with the consequences of your choices. You're the one that has to live with it. Nobody else. You do you and do what makes YOU happy. Not many people get to earn money from what they are passionate about. Just do it man.

>>24401812
Yes, that much is known. But how useful is it.

When once I spiraled, I knew whence, but not whither...
Spiral up or spiral down, spiral in or spiral out.

>>24401719
That's awful. Infatuation can bring out the worst in some of us. I recently developed feelings for someone and all it's done is make me incredibly obsessive, jealous, posessive, and bitter. Very unhealthy. I don't want to go into too much detail but it's basically made me a stalker yandere. He doesn't know anything about how I feel, and I hope he doesn't find out because he's a really good person and I'd like to stay friends, but I feel like I'm going insane.

And I've been trying to kill these feels too - tried distracting myself with movies, music, all that stuff and even tried breaking off contact but haven't had any luck. In fact, despite uncovering some unsavory facts, I still like him and it's gotten more intense these past couple of days. I'm not sure what else I can do. It's lame and all these feelings do is hurt me.

>>24401845
I need to know how to do it fully.

All this partial shifting is driving me insane.

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>>24401872
Traveler, good traveler, clueless and cold,
sitting so sadly with sundered soul,
if I may offer a prospect quite bold,
walk woeless with me into this hole.

Come hither, good traveler, if boldly you dare.
Whither, you ask, so plainly I'll tell:
Into the hole, then boldly we'll fare
dauntlessly down to the depths of hell.

I hope you're courageous, for you'll see soon enough
the horrors within are nightmares made real
and, though you may think yourself to be tough,
these horrors could break the strongest of steel.

And break, you shall, I'll warn you right now,
for your fears are made flesh in the depths of this hell.
And, though you may think these horrors enow,
your failures you'll face right after as well.

Undaunted, you seem, by such tidings to be;
good trait, good traveler, when you travel with me
A seeker, you seem, of wisdom to be;
come with a question, good querent, to me.

So hither, come hither, good querent, and ask
for what wisdom you need to aid in your task.
But first, good querent, take off that mask;
it won't help at all; in madness you'll bask.

For wisdom you seek, and wisdom you'll find:
Wisdom, by madness, shall enter your mind.
And madness, such madness you'll get from me.
The wisdom is costly; the madness is free.

But now quite fearful you seem to me,
though this hole is where you want to be.
Don't cry of madness you'll find in this hell,
for you know quite well you sought it as well.

Follow the cat, perchance he'll lead well;
it's said he knows every pathway in hell.
Remember he means well with his vicious verse:
"It's going to get better, but first so much worse."

>>24381756
No strings attached senpai

>>24401901
What poem or song and by who?

>>24401938
Let it be known that I know what I can do, just not how to do it.

Or what exactly I am.

>>24401942
Let it be known that I have more faith in those who admit their confusion than those who feign wisdom.

>>24401955

Wisdom can be perceived, wisdom can be strived for, but you cannot simply BE wise.

Confusion is easy though.

>>24401955
I'm not even claiming to be wise.

I just know myself better than you do.

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>>24401974
Good

Then, if you wish to know yourself better, you need only find me.

Here, kitty, kitty

Been addicted to porn since I was 5. I don't know what a normal sex life is. I have a gf and we had sex two times this year.

>>24401994
What's with all the cat refferences?

>>24401995
Do you want to do it more?