Self Harm Thread Post own scars, wounds & stories etc.

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clean for about a year now. I believe in you anons :)
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>>24212361
I miss Cardinal and her videos where she cuts herself.

muh dik
someone carve Jim <3 on their arm :3

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>>24212361
1/3
Years old. Found a new way to vent my energy thankfully.

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>>24212361
2/3

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>>24212361
3/3

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Bit over a week and a half. Got ditched by random tinder chick in the city with no battery or money to get a cab. Cut it with a glass bottle and walked home. Needed 5 stitches but I never felt any pain. Watching it get stitched was really interesting I guess.

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well my upper body is a mess , i still have some names and numbers carved

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>>24214943
better quality

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>>24212361
Just about a year since I've stopped. I constantly wear long sleeves to cover them. Makes summer hell but the pale skin and long sleeves hide them.

>>24212361
I've been clear for about 5 years and counting. I tried taking a picture for the thread but the scars are barely visible at all. Most people don't notice them and to be honest most people didn't even know that I did. My biggest problem now is biting the inside of my lip and my fingers.

>>24214880
You just walked home with that? Didn't you lose blood?

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Stabbed myself with multiple times with a branch I broke off a tree in a fit of angst lol

>>24214880
>>24214943
>>24214955
Kill yourself retard

I havent self harmed in about 4 years, its been 6 or 7 years since the deep cuts that left me scarred
Fuck this shit

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>>24212361
I'm hurt ;(

Kik: Kakarotoluvcats
21/m/bi
I want to be treated like a whore and fantasy with someone about how he/she would castrate/mutilate my genitals.
I love when people are descriptive.
It might look that i should not be posting here, but im really easy to push to self harm, i had needled my dick and torture my balls punching them.

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It's an old picture.

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>>24217294
>>24217294
This is recent of the front side.

>>24212361
Show me your ass

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>>24217297
I make these by pressing my skin into something for long periods of time or like sitting on something pressing all my weight down on it.

>>24214943
>>24214955
qt
>>24217294
I remember that (:
Is that really you?

>>24217307
Same thing done here.

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>>24217312
>>24217312
Pic didn't show up.

>>24217309
Yup, i can timestamp the scars if you want.

>>24217313
!!!
You're gorgeous.
Have you stopped cutting?

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>>24217313
This is the last old self harm pic I have. I'd have to take new pics to show more.

>>24217317
>You're gorgeous.
You can't even see me.

I did for three years until the other day.Recently been doing it these past several days.

>>24217324
Well show him something sexy! Damn he was nice to you!!!

>>24217294
>>24217297
Oh wow your drawing and arm is beautiful

>>24217305
Hahaha fuck off

>>24217324
Well alright I stand corrected
*your legs, thighs, arms, butt, scars, and especially cuts are gorgeous.

Any special reason you started again?

>>24217329
What are you talking about?

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>>24217340
But I was about 30 lbs heavier in most of these pics.

>>24217350
That was the last one one I had. Those cuts are pretty faded too, these are still really vivid scars tho: >>24217294

>>24217350
Well that just implies that you are gorgeouser currently.

Nice work. Scalpel? Very intricate.

>>24217340
>scars, and especially cuts are gorgeous
>especially cuts
The open wound it's self????

>>24217360
What do you use to cut?

>>24217366
Razor blade. Do you find open wounds to be hot?

>>24217307
>I make these by pressing my skin into something for long periods of time or like sitting on something pressing all my weight down on it.

What
How
Teach me this

>>24217368
Well yes. I mean if it's not nicking an artery or obviously infected or anything.
Can you post the scars from those old deep cuts from r9k?

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>>24217371
How are you that careful with it when I use razor I end up with wounds looking like a deformed vagina. Pic related

>>24217370
Razor blade, I can show you. one sec.

>>24217371
I admire your razormanship! I can barely carve capital letters in the style of early latin or late etruscan. On myself at least.
Yeah; I'm a weird degenerate &c.

>>24217383
Too deep, you slash too fast, you can do it shallow if you do it slow and still have line control. Identical to a tattoo almost. I draw all the time like on pen with paper tho.

>>24217376
>Can you post the scars from those old deep cuts from r9k?
Yea on sec.

>>24217399
Pls cut me

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>>24217399
>>24217399
>>24217388
This is what I use.

>>24217322
>>24217322
For this face I used a drawing that I had done before. It actually turned out really good at the time but I don't have any better pictures because I was too mentally ill at the time (brain fog) to take good high res pictures and save them. I have a lot more cuts all over my body head to toe even on my feet and face but these are all the old pics I could find currently.

>>24217411
Feather's a nice brand. I prefer a straight, but it is effort keeping it honed.

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>>24217322
This was my drawing design that I did this cut based off of. I drew this pic related as well digitally I use a bamboo tablet. He's a character in my imagination from a story.

>>24217417
Do you cut? Why don't you post some of your pics?

>>24217411
How long did the colour take to fade to white? I have one on my leg that took 6 years. One on my arm that's deep that hasn't fades at all in nearly a year

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>>24217425
I've posted most on other threads. Nothing new really other than slashes my latest obsession

>>24217426
Well the cut is from 2013 and its 2016 now. The date was in this pic: >>24217294

Why don't either of you post your cuts/scars?

>>24217431
I like your freckles.

>>24217432
>>24217432
I use lots of lotion too and I think that helps a lot to make the color fade to white. Btw.

>>24217425
I don't save many. And they rather pale in comparison to your skill and commitment.

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>>24217456
These two:
>>24217350
>>24217322

I only did as I was trying to quit. Drawing helps, here's a self portrait I did of myself, a lot of my scars included.

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>>24217437
Thanks

>>24217481
I don't cut anymore just slash. I need to be careful I don't want to go back to the hospital

>>24217485
>I don't want to go back to the hospital
Yes I know that feel.

>>24217475
Nice art. I'm glad you were able to get the cutting under control.

>>24217505
Been diagnosed with anything?

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>>24217485
Yea I don't want to go back to the hospital either that's why you can't do it so deep you need stitches.

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>>24217518
>>24217518
Yea a shit ton of stuff, obviously depression and anxiety both general but also ptsd, ocd, possible bpd but I don't think it ever got put on charts. Also stuff in the way of social interaction so specifically social anxiety and agoraphobia.

>>24217534
Fuck other than the ptsd, I'm exactly the same. Doctor's currently thinking bpd, so I'm starting lithium next month. Are you also a shut in?

>>24217547
>>24217547
Yup, and a NEET.

>>24217549
Same here had to drop out of school this year. Do you have kik or anything?

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>>24217547
>>24217547
We have so much in common...

>>24217560
Doubt that however I am interested in your story

>>24217554
>had to drop out of school this year
How old are you?

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>>24212361
>Self harm thread
Is this board filled with retards?

>>24217564
Well I only said that because you said other than the ptsd you are exactly the same with your diagnosis and we are both shut in, I assume you are NEET too?

>>24217570
I'm 21, dropped out of college my second year. After taking a year out due to health problems anyway.

>>24217576
Yeah I am. I'm sorry I thought you were being sarcastic.

>>24217554
I don't use kik.

>>24217574
yes just like any other board on 4chan

>>24217595
What do you use haha

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>>24217591
Other than on reddit selfharmpics I don't meet many cutters or people with the same/similar diagnosis.

>>24217615
What age did you first require medical attention due to your mental health?

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>>24217607
I have skype but give me yours so I don't get a bunch of adds from assholes.

>>24217644
Jonnyscape

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>>24217625
I got help at 18 but I probably needed it younger than that.

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>>24217664

>>24217615
>reddit selfharmpics
Is that a good subreddit? i dont reddit much
>>24217664
>>24217683
hnnnnnnnnnnngh

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>>24217688
It's the only one I really go to.

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>>24217696
>>24217696
Well it's the only one I really go to lately.

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>>24217700

opalcocoon is my skype, dont add me if you are looking for sex stuff.

>>24217713
Like your phale skin anyways.
Ever had one of your scars infected?

>>24217802
>scars infected?
You mean cut infected? Every cut sort of gets infected as it starts to heal.

>>24217805
Did you delete me lol?

>>24217818
Yea, I didn't know how to answer your question so I just deleted you.

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>>24217419
>He's a character in my imagination from a story.

You sure about that?

>>24217824
>>24217832
Uh oh caught out. Back to the sub r
?

>>24217805
Yes. I once saw a documentary about a tribe in Africa,they were cutting and after that they put on the wounds a kind of leaves that infect their cuts. After the infections were gone away and the cuts healed the scars that remain had some depth.

>>24217832
He's not the toxic avenger though, just deformed like him. Not every deformed person looks the same. Look closer.

>>24218062
Also my character has tumor growths like the elephant man and toxic avenger has more just melting off face parts, though mine has a big of drippy melting flesh too.

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I'm 36 years old been battling cutting for 20 years now. It's been a rough life 4 me. I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis two weeks before Thanksgiving last year. My boyfriend broke up with me then. I'm gay from Pennsylvania. Anyone Kik me chubbyguy1980

Don't you hate it when someone throws accusations towards you then after proving them wrong they ignore it.

>>24218087
>>24218087
I can add you to my skype group we have a lot of gay people in it, what is your skype? Do you have pictures of your cuts?

>>24218087
Just promise me you will never cut while wearing that shirt dude. It's a cool shirt you don't want any blood on it

>>24218126
>>24218126

This. Exactly.

If you add my skype I'll add you to a group call. Nice people only. opalcocoon

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I fail at cutting. I never cut too deep, but deep enough to make some blood draw out. It makes me feel more alive and makes me feel better when I do.

>>24218216
one reply was enough but thanks for the double (you) I guess

just like posting your skype once in a thread is already enough.

>>24218247
It's never enough.

>>24218247
Left me with blue balls

>>24218247
Only one person added me andthey aren't replying.

>>24218340
I'm disgusting physically and personality.

>>24218340
I added you but you removed me after i fell asleep. I mean pretty rude on my part but idk man

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>>24217309
>qt
Thanks
>>24217322
Umm, you remind me of bloodchan , she was really good at drawing, i would've thought it was you , but your arms/hands are very different looking
>>24217547
>bpd
I was diagnosed with bpd when i was 15, and i don't think it is actually have any relation with cutting , cutting is simply personal freedom , same as smoking and drugs and even less harmful if you think about it people just tend to make a big deal out of it , it's simply a cooping mechanism in my opinion
>>24217574
>Is this board filled with retards?
Probably .. yeah

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>>24218331
hey, at least you didn't cut them right :P

>>24219135

> I was diagnosed with bpd when i was 15

bullshit detected, you can't be diagnosed with a personality disorder until you're 18 years old.

>>24217683
dam bitch u are fine, even them scars are sexy

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Eight years since I last cut. Potato quality pic, scars are a little more noticeable

>>24217700
Just a heads up, you are very attractive.

>>24217683
Oh its you
Interesting

>>24219712
I'm going to start

>>24219811
>>24219811
Thanks but not in personaility and only in this photo because MySpace angle

>>24220339
What's wrong with your personality?

>>24220354
I have really low self esteem, but at the same time seek validation to the point where it's never enough, general brokenness like bpd. Btw cutting is apart of bpd at least doctors have told me it's a symptom that they see across patients who also have it.

>>24220533
That's just what I was told also I read a book called 'I Hate You, Don't Leave Me'; it's a good book to read if you want to know more about bpd.

>>24220533
>>24220590
I liked that book. I suppose personality disorders technically mean you have a personality that doesn't function super well in society. But that doesn't mean that you're a bad person or unlikeable or anything.

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>>24219720
I don't know if you're retarded or simply ignorant
>bipolar disorder is rarely diagnosed under the age of nine; but occasional reports indicate in it can present as young as six.

>>24220679
>or unlikeable
I'm pretty sure it means this but thanks for like the effort.

>>24220685
I kind of agree with this person more, bpd usually presents in teenage years right? I had doctors tell me that before. It's often from childhood trauma, also I think? I'm not a doctor obviously but this is what I think I know from seeing so many doctors for so long and knowing a bunch of other people with mental disorders.

>>24217560
I came....

>>24220719
pfft. maintaining friendship may be more difficult but it's not impossible.

>>24217713
>>24217700
>>24217696
>>24217683
>>24217664
I came... again

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>>24220719
No i'm retarded . i wrote i was diagnosed with bpd (borderline personality disorder) which i don't know anything about , i meant bipolar disorder which is another thing ..i'm ignorant and i thought bpd is bipolar disorder
>>24219720
I'm sorry anon-kun .. you meant bpd which is not bipolar disorder , and i don't know if you're right or not about bpd , but i'm 100% sure "bipolar disorder" can be diagnosed at a really young age ..
>Can a shitty pic of cuts make you forgive me ?

>>24220756
Oh okay. Cute body btw.

>>24220745
>>24220751
At least I'm good for something. Cool.

>>24220756
i realize a professional photographer in ideal circumstances would still fail to capture the extent of your beauty but goddamn. a tum like that deserves a better quality jpeg

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>>24220763
Thank you, you have a cute body too !
>>24220768
>deserves a better quality
Dude you are asking too much from literally a retarded weeb , but i have a couple of higher quality pics though

>>24220820
Are you a boy?

>>24220830
I only ask because you are so tiny and slender.

>>24220848
I cant wait till I'm that size.

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>>24220830
>>24220848
>>24220858
>Are you a boy?
Yup,and you have a normal body not even close to fat , probably would be best described as slim

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It's too hard to take pics of it in this light, but I'll say what I did.

I have Borderline, and I'm basically incredibly emotionally unstable. Long story short, the first and only girl that I loved basically broke up with me and told me really fucking hurtful things. I had an anxiety attack and severe realization, and the only way I thought of to snap back to reality was severe self harm. I'd never done anything serious before.

I unscrewed some scissors I had, so the blades were apart, then I got a Bic lighter. I held a blade over the flame of the lighter for like a minute, bit down on a washcloth, and branded myself as hard as I could on my arm, several times, including an "X" shape of sorts.

It was like two months ago and the scars are visible, but not obvious. If I'm in daylight, it becomes very obvious, though. I hope the scars fade enough to forget about, at least.

>>24220878
>Yup,and you have a normal body not even close to fat , probably would be best described as slim

Thanks but I've been called fat recently especially.

>>24221351
>I've been called fat recently especially.
Did you gain a lot of weight? because those pics are fit , i won't even try to justify it, it's obvious you are slim af unless you gained shit-ton of weight
>>24220954
They will probably fade sooner or later , tried any lotions ?

>>24221481
>Did you gain a lot of weight?
No I lost weight recently. These were taken yesterday:
>>24217713
>>24217683
>>24217664

>>24221351
Certainly don't seem fat. You still cut though? I know I've talked with you before on /soc/ and I thought you said you'd quit.

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>>24221501
You have a really good body then , can't see why would anyone would call you fat , like that would be fucking retarded , would trade bodies any day , you have a real nice tummy,hips not so skinny so it's just the right size
>Keep the tits though

>>24221553

You have a pretty good body yourself from what I can see.

>>24221502
I was clean for over 2 years until this Wednesday, I THINK it was wednesday that I did the small cuts, everything else is old. It's hard to remember the exact day because of brainfog from depression.

>>24221553
Well a person said that I looked like I was 300 lbs but after I showed him recent pictures he said it wasn't that I was fat that he wouldn't date me it was because I was a whore for showing nude pictures.

Your body is nice I think you might be about 20 or so less lbs than me, I'd like to loose about 20.

>>24221648
>until this Wednesday

no anon why ;_;

>it was because I was a whore for showing nude pictures

what a dick...

>>24220756
BPD is Borderline Personality Disorder and it cannot be diagnosed before age 18, even though the signs and symptoms are often clear to mental health professionals prior to that. BPD is associated with self mutilation.

BPAD is Bipolar Affective Disorder, more commonly referred to as Bipolar Disorder or just Bipolar to some people. Used to be called Manic-Depression. It's not really associated with self mutilation in the way Borderline Personality Disorder is...

They are not mutually exclusive, meaning it's possible for someone to have both disorders.

has anyone tried to cut but can't because their skin is super strong?

i've tried at least 3 times, maybe i just need to force my entire body upon a blade

>>24222612
Use something sharper.
Your skin isn't so strong that you'll die if you ever need surgery lol

>>24222636
it's a brand new hunting knife !

i tried with a thumbtack too, but it kinda felt like it was gonna go through to my muscle

Ignore stretchmarks, these are from 3 months ago
>>24220763
>At least I'm good for something.
Please, don't underestimate yourself. I meet you in virginfags thread and I know you're borderline, low self-esteem and shit, Dunno why but really I don't like see you that low, specially if I know you're such a kind person
>>24221648
>he said it wasn't that I was fat that he wouldn't date me
>it was because I was a whore for showing nude pictures
Fuck that bastard, you don't need him, I whish you the best and I hope you be better, I don't post my face on virginfag threads, and from the bottom of my heart, thanks for give me a thin light of hope that there could be some cute girl like you to have some interest on me ;^)

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>>24222683
forgot pic, it's not a big deal, even when I lost a lot of blood my skin recover very well
>>24221648
btw, you're not fat, you're almost perfect for me, still wanna kill the fucker said you fat whore. Words are just words, they mean nothing if you don't give a fuck at them. Please, don't let them hurt you.

I don't have any pictures, but I have scars on my knuckles from when I would punch walls out of anger.

I had a fucking problem.

Anyone else think it's odd that if someone cuts you as a form of sexplay, that's bdsm, but if you cut yourself, it's always considered mental illness?

>>24223100
I'm pretty sure cutting each other during sex isn't considered normal or desirable by most people either. People who like to be cut during sex probably don't have a problem with self-cutters either.

>>24221584
Thank you i really appreciate it , i'm fine with my body but change is fun every now and then and her hips are so cute , although i'm aware i have feminine features but not even close to her hips , so that's why i would swap lel
>>24221648
Then congratulations you now know he's an asshole , just consider yourself lucky that you didn't get into a relationship and then realized how retarded he is , and also being slutty is attractive to many people , you're comfortable with your body, you like showing off , so go for it , i don't know why someone's opinion should change anything
>>24222252
Oh, thank you mister ! that was really helpful
>>24223100
Well bloodplay is pretty normal in bdsm communities yeah , but it's still regarded as a form of mental illness and something serious outside by normal people , so it's all the same

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lel

>>24223857
Damn I wish I could do that to just grab all my fat and get rid of it before I get stitches lol

>>24222757
I def should be told im fat so that I can starve myself and lose the weight. but the whore thing idk what I can do about having nudes on the internet now, plus showing people means they will tell me what i need to fix about my body.

>>24223917
I know that feel but it will prob look really deformed after and prob pretty dangerous too.

>>24224958
damn...seeing your pics is strange for me. I always thought my scars where huge, however compared to you and some other users, i'm an amateur... I can count maybe 2 big-ish ones, 3-5 medium and 5 little cuts...damn

>>24224964
>>24221553
How do you people deal with relationships ? I am quite ashamed of myself and the scars are hard to hide. I worry people will judge me for them.

At the same time, I am always thinking about it. Seeing people around here is kinda "stimulating". It makes me wanna start cutting more seriously ....am I alone in this?

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>>24224964
With fat you look deformed anyway

Just posting a random old pic

>>24225049
I have no clue if you are a girl or a boy,either way your arm is very aesthetic...Anyway, seeing as you started this thread. Are there any website etc for things like this?

>>24225046
>Seeing people around here is kinda "stimulating". It makes me wanna start cutting more seriously ....am I alone in this?
Nope. I know exactly what you mean.

I only sort of have an online relationship. I say that I am monogomous only on fetlife so not as many retarded heteronorms message me. Other than that Im actually single, but havent really had a irl relationship in years.

>>24225063
/r/selfharmpics try there.

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>>24225046
Sorry anon...
If you start cutting so bad thanks to the thread I made you should kill me

>>24225063
Girl, I have these boob kind of things and stuff

And I don't know, I started these threads because I never saw something like this. Not that I really looked for it outside of 4chan
I only know websites for dead people haha

>>24225070
>>24225075
Thanks. It's weird for me...I have always dealt with this alone. It never really crossed my mind that there are other people like me out there. I have never seen self harm marks on others.

Do you like to talk with others? I would love to chat with people like me.
>>24225077
noo, it's not on you! This thread has been eye opening, I am not alone, there are others like me out there!
Like I said, this is the first time i have ever talked about this. I started at 13-14 maybe ( still one of my biggest scar) now i'm 24. In these years not once I have talked to anybody about cutting or anything related...I always had this notion that I'm the only one...

Would love to talk more with you, if you are open to the idea. This thread might not be important to many...but for me this is an important moment...I think...

>>24225070
>I only sort of have an online relationship. I say that I am monogomous only on fetlife so not as many retarded heteronorms message me.

So the relationship is real but it's not monogamous or long-term? Because if you're lying anyway you don't actually need to string a guy along.

>>24225110
It's not real., its just a friend who agreed it was okay to tell others.
>>24225105
>>24225105
I started at that age too. Google coldnessinmyheart or emo girl needs serious help. They both are VERY extreme btw so view with caution.

>>24225143
I'm serious about that caution warning btw.

Emo girl needs serious help on documenting reality was the first very extreme cutter I had ever seen in which I experienced a sense of jealousy or like I wanted to become that. I also had a friend who recently died from cutting, he was pretty extreme as well.

>>24225105
>This thread has been eye opening, I am not alone, there are others like me out there!

:) I'm really glad this thread could help someone that way, I didn't even think of that when I made it
>I started at 13-14 maybe (..) now i'm 24
Do you still cut now? Then we both have our anniversary this year! lol

And sure, can you post your kik or something?

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>>24225160
This was him, it's his name that I have tattooed on my arm

>>24225143
>>24225160
damn...the emo girl looks so extreme it feels like a movie or fake...
how do you do it? I am a guy, and I am honestly scared of doing it. That makes it more enticing because when I get over the fear i fell like i "won". The pain after it feels kinda good... still, what you are able to do is both fascinating and scare to me...

>>24225182
>because when I get over the fear i fell like i "won".
And the pain. That's how I feel too. I use a razor.

Anyone here find DBT helpful?

>>24225235
but I repeat, how can you handle it ? Isn't the pain too much? looking at your pictures, actually talking to you is like talking seeing a sports celebrity...Sure you can go play football,basketball etc outside, but compared to the pros you are nothing...

>>24225177
damn...RIP ! that was extreme! Do you also have scars on your face ? or just your body?

>>24225256
Yes, very. I've also had emdr for ptsd.
>>24225258
One on my face but it's on the side so hard to take a photo of. If it's painful you aren't using a sharp enough razor, stitches hurts more than the cut.

>>24225270
>If it's painful you aren't using a sharp enough razor, stitches hurts more than the cut.
This is true
Never felt the deep ones, but the stitches.. fuck

Also why I use glass now, just want more pain and less shit at the doctor

>>24225270
>>24225282

So the more I'm thinking about all of this, the more "wrong" it is. And i'm talking specifically about you two... Seeing girls self harm is like some "cosmic injustice" to me...it just doesn't feel right and I know it's probably based on sexist thought.

Anyway, my problems would be solved completely if I would be hot ( or if people would threat me like an above average girl).

In my life, I try to fight. I go on and on, try to keep people arround me, try to accomplish things, but I always fail. I can look at my facebook chat and see probably 500+ messages sent to girls, trying to befriend,seduce or just talk.

I try and I try but I am always a loser. I honestly don't have anything to work with. You on the other hand, both of you, look hot. Talking to people, putting yourself out there, having people understand and listen to you...these are vastly more likely happening to you than to me...


It's hard for me to judge aOYwtGy2, but even from glimpses you have amazing body and overall you look really attractive. For 6bC99LQW it's simple, you are straight up hot chick material.

This sounds like I am devaluing your experiences, maybe we all cut but probably we all have different reasons. Still it's harder to take seriously considering all the priviledge/potential power you ( and women generally) have in society...anyway, this attitudes probably also causes a lot of harm, and In many way I have gotten past my bias, maybe this will be interesting for someone to read...

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>>24225343
Well you are only saying I shouldn't cut because of my body, you didn't mention my art or thoughts or anything. So you basic point is girls shouldn't cut so that they don't look ugly?

>>24225364
nope. I am talking more about internalized sexism and how it affects people. Without getting into politics too much ( I should have probably made my point more concise...) I think being a pretty girl makes it impossible for you to really suffer as much...

As in, if someone tells me a girl he knows cuts herself, I immediately imagine someone very ugly, my brain can't process a pretty girl doing this "she doesn't have a real reason for it".

Of course this is bullshit, and I know it, however this is the kind of propaganda that goes into male heads... Even if I see you and the other girl who posted with scars worse than mine, my brain doesn't want to accept that...does this make more sense?

>>24225364
you shouldnt cut because its a destructive act, I've always found expressing my feelings through writing or drawing far more cathartic than any self harm and is a far more sustainable way to try and work through your issues.
>>24225399
sounds like you've been browsing 4chan for far too long, reasons are relative to the person, just as easily as your brain dismisses a pretty girl not having a "real reason" to self harm someone else could dismiss your reasoning for self harming and on and on..

>>24225399
oh well i was molested from ages 8 to 11 and then raped my first time having sex and when i tried to kill myself na dpassed out i was raped again, so i guess in some ways this is a consequence of being attractive to people in any manner.

>>24225399
it is kind of shitty you think that, but I'm really glad you acknowledged that that's not really the case. i've been told by people "why would you do that to yourself? you're so pretty" and i never really understood their mental process behind that thought.

>>24225399
But yes it makes sense.

>>24225343
>Anyway, my problems would be solved completely if I would be hot
Why? Is your only problem in life that you are not hot? Was that your reason to cut?
If you mean that people aren't attracted to you, then either way they are assholes or you have the brandon syndrome. Because it's not about the outside.

>these are vastly more likely happening to you than to me
Not to me, people are done with all my shit.
When I tell my stories they cry more than I have done in all those years while going through all that. They say they can't believe that I had to go through it, say that I am very strong, and leave. But I am not, because I am alone.


Anyway, girls poop too, girls cut too.

>>24225410
I don't browse 4chan all that much...I was indoctrinated like this since childhood, most men are.

My post was more of rant and self reflection. It's been many years since I've gotten to the same conclusion...I can be dismissed just how I dismiss others, it's all relative.

the point I was trying to make ( and seems like I failed to make it clear) is just how much this propaganda still affects me years after. I see you as a person with their own life, dreams, disappointments, loves etc and I realize your reasons are as valid as anyone else, yet my brain sees "hot chick" and my subconscious is telling me something is not right here..

This is probably how many people would feel about me. Honestly though nobody actually knows...in the rare situations someone asks, I tell them it was a work accident ( pretty obvious lie) or I tell them they are wounds from "the war"...

I do not know how a friend or a girl would react, honestly. Do you guys think posting a pic would help me out?

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>>24225364

just wanna say that your artwork is fuckin amazing.
are you on DeviantArt?

>>24225457
No, I only have a imgur:
http://imgur.com/a/DjiBP

>>24225441
>most men are.
maybe in your neck of the woods, I can't remember ever thinking like that nor having those kinds of ideas expressed by any of the other men in my family.
on the other points.. from what i've read it seems like you have a lack of empathy

>>24225465
holy shit DINOSAURS! fuck yes

why no deviantart? the community there is pretty comfy

>>24225433
I know nothing I say will really help. I do not know what to say other than I am sorry. the world and people can hurt us in so many ways...

>>24225435
many people don't know the mental process between these thoughts. I was hoping to kinda share the flawed "logic" of it. It's been years since I knew it is wrong and a stupid argument, hope thats clearer now.

>>24225439
the post under this kind of explains the thought process and reasoning. I didn't want to insult anyone in any way...like I explained, I don't agree with this logic and I didn't for years...

I think trying so much without success broke me in some way. I have many other reasons to be depressed, however trying and failing is the "final nail" so to speak.

Being rejected over and over change me. It has been 3 years since I broke of with my GF and more than 3 years since I had a friend. In that time I literally didn't meet anyone. In 3 years not a single beer, not a single concert, clubbing,talking,playing videogames, anything with anyone, friend or girlfriend.

If I where to die right now, only a few family members would show up. There is not a single other friend that would even know...

Being a hot girl (or being treated like one) would solve all my problems really. It would make it possibly to start to rebuild my life one step at the time. it would make me "matter" to anyone, even if superficially...

This state of constant loneliness is what "broke" me in a way. Now I'm 24 and I can't compete. I don't have a job, I don't have money, I don't have anything really. I am all but invisible and I don't have any strength left to change this...

>>24225472
maybe, but you probably lack patience to read my comments, or you just don't care about what i'm saying.

I made it absolutely clear why I wrote that comment. I made it also clear that it has been many years since I held that opinion. I also do believe many men think that hot women have it easier...this ain't exactly some sort of controversial statement.

If you don't get my points, there's really not much to discuss.

>>24225465
Amazing art! you are really talented?

As a "peasant" eastern European, what is that pink thing? looks like a toy. is that green stuff weeds?

>>24225472
>you have a lack of empathy
This.

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>>24225489
>It has been 3 years since I broke of with my GF and more than 3 years since I had a friend. In that time I literally didn't meet anyone. In 3 years not a single beer, not a single concert, clubbing,talking,playing videogames, anything with anyone, friend or girlfriend.
Same here. If you apparently think I could be 'hot', you now know that it won't change anything.
>If I where to die right now, only a few family members would show up. There is not a single other friend that would even know...
Also this, I can think of 2 family members who could show up on my funeral, but first they have to decide which one shows up at which time. Will all kill each other if they meet, so even when you have no friends left you don't have to count on a christmas family time either


>Being a hot girl (or being treated like one) would solve all my problems really.
Do you still think that way after my last post? Seriously, if you are really nice smart and attractive from the inside, you don't have to be hot to get the attention. You just have to speak and they will want to hear more.
If you are not a nice person, you don't even have to be hot either because people already don't like you. Then you should just look at yourself.

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>>24225046
>How do you people deal with relationships ?
I don't know about everyone else but for me the hardest part is people who want to help and stuff , these people are too annoying to handle , if someone doesn't like my scars whatever , i genuinely don't care unless i'm like obsessed with them (probably wouldn't stop for them either) , And people will judge anyways if you have scars or not they will nitpick you to find anything bad about you and how they are trying to reform you, i don't think you should care much about how people will see you , because it really won't matter in the end , and if you are talking an actual relationship i can't see someone rejecting you for some scars and if they did then they're not worth , most of them will actually try to help in the name of love and caring , which is probably the bulshit they say to themselves before sleeping but in reality they are like anyone else they are just trying to feel better about themselves and themselves only , to feel like they achieved something that they helped someone or did a good deed , any relationship where your partner tries to understand you and "help" you is probably something you don't want to be in
>You can always cut a cross and say you did it under religious influence
>>24225343
Cutting is due to first world problems , it really doesn't matter which first world problem

>>24225493
no, i read your comments and i didn't really get a sense of empathy/ an ability to relate to others fully. That and a need to shift responsibility for your problems/ issues in life somewhere else "if i was a hot girl" when you'd be better suited channelling your thoughts towards how you can realistically improve your lot in life instead of the fatalistic attitude you currently seem to hold.
Nobody will care about you if you dont care about yourself.

>>24218088
What did you ask?

>>24225529
I dont really...
>>24225539
I am not saying its 100% rational, im saying how it feels to me. It"s hard to believe things about the inside. I always tried to be a good persin but what i got in return was riducule. Theres a lot more going on when it comes to seduction...i just cant take the numbers game. Talking to hundreds and hundreds if women just to get a single date is soulcrushing, i dont think many women realize hiw things are from our perspective.

I am talking realistically. I would need 2-300 friends on facebook, 50-100 hours of work just to get 1 date. Sex? Love ? Anything more ? And we are talking a part time job. And i have actually dobe this before,i didnt make up the facts.

>>24225625
>good persin but what i got in return was riducule

>>24214943
>i still have some names and numbers carved
Why? What are the names and numbers? People you love? Telephone numbers?

>>24225625
Well I'm really sorry it's like this for you, and just saying that I'm 99% sure nothing will change if you look differently.

Actually, it would take 40 euro's to get sex, maybe 400 for a full day her acting like a real loving wife

I can understand why the others here say lack of empathy. Not saying I agree,
but it doesn't seem like you are interested in the human anyway, not in yourself or others.
Just try going to some whores and cutting yourself and others anon. Might be time to stop suppressing your inner psychopath, it will feel better, serious.

>>24225653
Well i guess its no surprise really. Its female priviledge. You cant or dont want to see things from my pov. You also ignored most of my comment, its probably hard for you to see things from my angle, you probably think i am talking nonsense...

When i, as an ugly, akward and "nice" guy do something good, people dont see me as a person, they see me as a thing, as "labour being done ". In time they begin to take me for granted

I have done this for years in many forms. If you would calculate "good person " as work/effort done for others without expecting anything, then i am a good person. I have hundreds,thousands of hours accumulated towards many people. I never expected anything in return and i never got anything. Not respect and not friendships, i was a sucker to be used...

Am i bitter ? Of course. At the same time i do not care anymore. I didnt have any friends in 3 years, and i dont expect this to change...

>>24225695
It is what it is. I cared about myself and i cared about others, however now i dont think if i can. Only if the right girl appears magicly and has patience with me, but thats a dream.
40 euro is a lot for me, and just going to a pro is not something that interests me. I like relationships more than just sex

>>24225695
>try going to some whores and cutting yourself
That's stupid advice no offense.

This thread made me sad, thanks

>>24225717
>>24225439
>Why? Is your only problem in life that you are not hot?
Can you answer this? Is just getting rejected so many times the only thing that's making you feel so bad? I can't really believe nothing before that happened to you, maybe the thing(s) that made you like this with getting rejected as a result

>>24225731
Well better advice for you then, don't take half of the sentence or it doesn't make sense
You could have known how I meant it

>>24225077
Nope can't see

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>>24226313
lol fuck you
(no pun)

older pic again
still healing, slow as fuck

>>24226355
Still nope

>>24226355
whats dat ass look like w/out those pesky panties

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>>24226380

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>>24226375
okay, nope then

>>24226380
Like an ass, without panties

>>24226398
Yep

>>24226390
Hahaha what the fuck? you need to go to sleep, now!

>>24226456
Tits or gtfo

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>>24226583
It's my own thread m8

>>24226617
Fine

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I win the thread

>>24226731
Nice repost

>>24226731
No you didn't, if you could the winner was already dead.

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Does splitting my dickhole open count?

I used to self harm excessively until I was finally faced with an actual life threatening situation that almost killed me and I realized what a narcissistic piece of shit I was being.

sobered me up real quick, hopefully this isn't what it takes to stop some of the people in this thread.

>>24227004
why & how
also when you pee does it just flop out like turning a glass upside down?
i'm really curious

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>>24227134
>why
When I saw pics of someone else who had done it I like the look. I just decided to go for it.

>how
A few sessions with an X-acto knife. The bottom obut 1/16-1/8" has actually healed back otgether since that last pic. I need to find a way to keep it from healing back together when I cut it again.

>when you pee does it just flop out
During about 90% of the piss it's the same as normal. When the pressure gets low it does dribble and splatter a bit more, but I can just put a finger over part of it and it's pretty much like before I did it.

>>24225751
It goes like this:
1) something bad happened
2) I am slowly losing my mind and life begins to suck more and more
3)years pass, it is getting worse, less friends, connections etc less everything

4)I'm trying, but the rejection is too much. It is because a)my looks b) my lack of money c) my personality is fucked up after a while.

So, I look in the mirror and accept these things. The problem is however that I don't have room to improve. To improve my income and personality I need to work on it, to do that I need some motivation, to have motivation I need at least some success and "training".

I need to go on a dozen dates and get better at it, learn to be less awkward, how to talk and so on. That's what I'm talking about. Because I can't do this, everything else stays the same.

You have the option to date 10 guys, even if you don't like them, even if they are on the chubby side, assholes etc. You can look at the experience and learn something from it. I don't have that experience so I can't learn and grow as a person and try to put my past behind...

Just looking at a pictures you look beautiful. It's interesting that you feel more comfortable posting cuts than nudes or more of your body. I would think the former is less personal...It's different for anyone though. However using any metric I can think of you are a beautiful chick. If we would meet I would probably be flustered and shy around you :P

Wow, fucking toxic thread

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>>24225664
Mostly randoms , nothing actually that happened in my life (mostly because my life is boring) , but just names and numbers that interest me in general
I had numbers like "9855" which relates to the days Elisabeth Fritzl spent in captivity
I had also "concertina" which is probably my favorite song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PlVfd__AHqM
And "12358" when i was interested in the Fibonacci sequence
But really it's mostly random numbers and names that don't actually relate to anyone or anything in my real life , because cutting gets boring with time so you just cut whatever interests you , last number i did was "3030" which is a song i heard and it had that pretty cool story about some post-apocalyptic dystopian theme , Random shit in general
>3030 is the one i have now

>>24228094
I must say, your posts are interesting.

As for the pics, your body is so damn slender, I thought you where a petite girl at first...how tall are you? This is the first time I have seen so many scars on the body. Do you cut everywhere ? I had a thought of cutting my dick and I shuddered.

>>24228094
Also, if you are comfortable, I would love to see more of you...I think you are beautiful

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>>24228745
I'm 5'7 , I cut everywhere in winter , because long sleeves and no shorts , so i have more freedom with cutting , in summer i only cut my upper body though because anywhere else would result in unwanted attention from moralfags , and don't ever think about cutting your dick silly , the veins are just too much of a risk , and thanks for the compliment
>I got ass blasted due to this pic in one of the body rating threads, kek

>>24228880
You have trap asethetics, has anyone ever told you that?

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>>24229237
Someone called me a femboy once , so i guess that count ? but i'm not into crossdressing that much (too much effort to look good) , anyway thanks i guess , i don't know if it's a good or bad thing desu lel

>>24227727
>It is because a)my looks b) my lack of money c) my personality is fucked up after a while.
>To improve my income and personality I need to work on it, to do that I need some motivation, to have motivation I need at least some success and "training".
And you can't improve your looks? You don't need anyone or anything for that, work on it so that you will feel a little better about yourself, even if it's almost nothing. Do everything you can about your body, buy something nice that makes you feel good, even a cheap bracelet can make you happy if you look at it
Just start with a little thing you CAN do and it will slowly get better, people will notice you have a better appearance when you have a little thing to feel good about


>>24228094
5 years ago I also had some moments where I used to carve some numbers, but mostly roman. Never heard of someone else doing that!