Self harm thread? Post own scars, wounds & stories etc.

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My hip is healing pretty good. Not that I will ever find someone who could see me naked so I think it doesn't matter anymore

>>24092782
My scars are a constant reminder of how stupid i was
Cutting was a bad choice and i wish i hadnt permananetly fucked up my body.
Im glad i gor help and moved passed all the bullshit

I dabbled in it 3 or 4 years ago?
Cut myself like once
I was more into burning

>>24092944
I was clean of this for a couple of years. Stopping is harder than starting with cutting

Self-harmed mostly on my right arm since 2007, bad mistake, arm looks wrinkly as shit and I feel much less pain than with my other uncut arm

>>24093084
>I feel much less pain than with my other uncut arm
Well that's not a bad thing if you don't want pain anymore right? Looking for a positive thing haha

Mental illness is hardly something to glamorize.

>>24093122
I know. This thread isn't really meant like that, if that's what you were thinking. Just for sharing.

Started again recently because fml, I forgot how annoying it is. Having to wear long sleeves and trousers in this heat, bleeding through your clothes, getting blood on the sheets.

>>24093266
I have actually been asking for help everywhere but they say I'm 'still so strong and positive' so they really take their time to find help for me... I actually can't wait 2 more years, so I think I have to cut my arms a lot or something and go sleeveless to my therapist next week. Maybe she will understand it this time.

So I'm only hiding it for family and children around me.

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I tried to kill myself.

Get on my level.

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Uhmm, clinical depression with severe anxiety and paranoia. My girlfriends about to break up with me so this will be happening again.

You're all pussies crying for attention over stupid shit.
Next time do us all a favor and finish the fucking job. Do something right in your life for once. Fucking losers.

>>24095134
>cant read

>>24094909
Cool failure bro. Get on the level of pathetic faggots who actually had the balls to go through with it.

>>24095134
>>24095139

Fuck off if you can't deal with this thread. I'm also leaving the pathetic ugly dick rate threads alone without crying about it.

>>24095194
This.

Deeply insecure people always have to cover up for themselves by looking down on others.

I just laugh at them for the subhuman trash that they are.

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I don't SI anymore but I used to every day for years. A typical session was either carving the same spot for hours or I'd just slash every reachable piece of skin that I had like 700 times. I've also broken my hand twice.

>>24095194
Cutter girls are hot. Even more rapeable than your standard whore.

whiny faggot suicide dudes are disgusting. please get it over with already.
ps never dare to address me if you are that disgusting and pathetic :)

>>24095318
I'm probably a disgusting suicide girl then haha.
I am a girl that does this yes but I never talk/whine about it to the people around me. So I'm not really the pathetic attention whore cutter, yes; I made this thread but that's just to share some stories.

>>24095369
Oh. i apologise; had assumed you were the long hair beardo dude i was harrrassing.
post some oc? do you have many deep/wide scars?

>>24092937
male or female? hard to decipher from pic

>>24095377
>>24095400


The only pic posted is from me. So female.
I'll post some more later. I have one that is really deep and long, the rest are more scratches compared to that like those on my left hip, because they were mostly done with a needle or piece of glass

>>24094909
How did you do this if I may ask? Using something sharp there is really hard unless you were indeed really going for it
I'm killing myself the easy way now

>>24095464
I took a really really sharp knife, knelt down, and cut hard 2-3 times at that spot. I was pretty stupid and thought I could make myself bleed to death that way. What happened was I lost about a liter of blood, then it stopped flowing, and I didn't even get unconscious.

>>24095454
ur scars arent half as bad as my other friend who is a way deeper cutter. Will post some OC later on. Plus ur figure is good, any other angle to see how it looks, frontal shot?

>>24095516
>frontal shot?
For/of what?

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My biggest scar, 30 cm or something. I really hate it, but sometimes it can look kinda cool when you can see a little bit of the scar above my clothes

>>24095621
ur figure since it sounds to me to u got self image issues

>>24095648
I wouldn't worry about it. It doesn't make your body any less pretty. ^^

I hope you don't cut anymore? Because that's kinda sad IMO.

Sending lots of e-hugs in your direction~

>>24095648
Beautiful. Did you use a razor? knife?

>>24095661
Definitely have the self image issues, since the first day I can remember. But I don't think that it wil get any better if I post my pictures on here haha.

>>24095662
Aw thank you. I work out every week but I still feel like those little things are just ruining it for ever.

>>24095677
That one was from a knife

>>24095709
everyone is different, dont see a thing wrong with urs personally, plus its in an area most ppl wont look at so ur fine. from that pic high 8/10 for figure tho, looks real good, scar included

>>24092782
I never cut myself. Don't see the point. I set myself up to get hurt, both physically and emotionally. Picking fights, starting arguments, belly flopping into pools from high platforms.

I've almost been killed a couple times, but never gotten lucky. Someday.

>>24095709
>I still feel like those little things are just ruining it for ever
Nah, I really mean it: going by the picture you sent, that scar really doesn't make your body any less beautiful IMO.

I also work out nowadays. Good to keep the endorphins up!

>>24095772
>>24095868
Thanks :)

>>24094938
Oh I can see you needed stitches aswell.. I hate how they make my scar look.
I hope you will get through this without too many scars, on the inside and outside

I regret my scars a lot, at least the ones on my thighs. I often dislike the ones on my arm because they are visible more often and its so embarassing having been emo as fuck, but at least they are symmetrical and almost pretty. The ones on my thigh just ruins my legs, looks like stretch marks and make me look older. I really want to do some kind of scar remove pastic surgery, do anyone knows what options i could look into? Does laser or something work? Only a few are raised, most are just silver lines 0.1-10 mm wide

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I cut my self once. Never saw the point. Why do it?

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Relapsed and cut in May. Hadn't cut since December 2014, I think.
I don't cut to kill, just to release some tension, but angled the blade wrong and cut a bit too deep.

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feelsgoodman found new fetish; i like being told to do it most of the time

>>24098782
Is that from burning?

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>>24099014
yes, went from release to a fetish

bunch of retards itt, pls just kill yourselfes

sincerely
everyone

>>24099092
Never saw someone saying this in a thread about doing drugs, that is just as self-destructive. Everybody has their own way

>>24096315
Yeah 8 stitcheson that cut, room mate found me passed out and phoned an ambulance. Hit me up on snapchat if you would like to talk about this shit. Jonnys-here

>>24099055
I used to burn a lot to release stress, when things got too much I would jab myself with a lit cigarette

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>>24098703
That is really nasty, where abouts was it on your arm?

>>24098703
>Relapsed and cut in May. Hadn't cut since December 2014

Wow same as me.
2015 was the best year of my life, didn't have to cut at all. But then the hell started again, family members left me and some people I really loved died, all this at the same time was really too much.

>>24099442
How are you coping now?

>>24099446
Tomorrow I have to talk about antidepressants, I already started with a low dose but I don't believe that any pill can help this emty feeling anymore.
People really take their time to help me because they all believe I am really strong, but I think that's just on the outside.
I'm still cutting today and tommorow I will go to the doctor with short sleeves... I hope someone will understand me this time.

>>24099476
I'm on anti depressants also been on them close to a year now, they aren't magic I still feel terrible most of the time but they help in some aspects. For example I have much less panic attacks now. If you would like we can talk on kik or something, would be doing me a favour desu.

>>24099494
Yea I think they are helping me with the panic attacks too. Actually I don't think I would ever have started a thread or talked so much in English without them because I would be way too shy haha. Glad I did it though :)

Yes sure, what is your name on kik?

>>24099576
Left my snapchat further up

>>24099579
Sorry I don't have snapchat

>>24099589
Uhm I think my kik is 'jonathonjonny' haha :)

>>24099612
Why do you cut?

>>24099594
We'll find out haha

>>24099612
I don't think this looks bad/ugly at all though
What's that on the lower left?

Used to cut from age 15-17 like other typical retards. Been clean for almost 3 years.

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>>24099660
Heh forgot pic.

>>24099668
Can hardly notice them, your lucky :)

>>24099660
Congrats on not being a retard anymore then I guess haha
I don't think anyone will notice those scars unless you mention it

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I've been cutting since I was 18, I think. I'm 45 now. Took a 6 year break when I started smoking pot in college. Met my ex husband to be at age 24. The turmoil of that relationship started me cutting again & I have continued even after I left his mentally abusive ass. I have stopped smoking pot though. I have 491 days clean! Of course quitting pot opened Pandora's box & I'm feeling stuff I tried to suppress my whole life. I suppose it might be worth saying that I have "Severe Depression" & "Borderline Personality Disorder." I think it has been close to 58 days since I last cut myself. It has been 10 months since my last suicide attempt. I know that all this might sound a bit dreadful but I'm feeling pretty good lately. This is due to adherence to taking my meds & doing most of the good for me shit that I don't really want to do. (picture is from 2015. Cuts & scars on top of scars)

>>24099705
Thank you. I actually get the typical dirty looks when I wear sleeveless shirts though. Only a kid has ever said anything about it which was pretty awkward.

>>24099707
I'm sorry you have had to go through so much pain, on the bright side you said you are feeling good lately so thats great to hear, stay positive if you can :)

>>24099629
I cut to disrupt & distract myself from my feelings. People like myself have feelings that are too intense. More than one might usually feel for a situation either good or bad. I only cut when the feelings are sadness not happiness. I'm learning healthier distraction techniques now.

>>24099735
Left my kik further up if you want to talk

>>24095194
Another loser screaming for attention.

Let me guess, life is tough and I just don't get it.

Do something right for once in your life you fuck-up and walk in to traffic.

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i got drunk last night and had a shitty 12 dollar pocket knife

i by my front door with a dent in the wall and i live in a studio so i'm assuming in my drunken rage i threw it because it wasn't cutting deep enough

>>24099962
Any reason why?

>>24099968
my life is a fucking wreck, i wrote it all out lat night for a baw thread on /b/ if you guys wanna read it

>>24099972
Try to stay positive buddy things have a way of working themselves out

>>24099985
ahaha you sound like me a few years ago

let me just copy and paste this, three parts, three posts. go.


Family.
>grew up in an abusive household that was lower-upper class
>due to this no one ever believed me if i tried to tell about my abuse stories
>principle of prestigious catholic school: "maybe your dad wouldn't do that (hit me, berate me) you if your grades were better."
>mom divorced my stepfather when i was 12ish
>to replace him with someone that not only was worse from an abuse standpoint, but brought in drugs and steroid use
>basically in abusive drugridden household until i was 17 and my grandmother decided to take me out of it
>grandfather is richer than god, controls me with money
>has numerous times threatened to take away my college funding and outright disown me if i don't go to the schools he chooses, do the majors he wants me to do, etc.
>grandmother just says "that's how he shows his love"
>present day
>recently, mother almost died
>grandmother forgave her and the boyfriend that beat the shit out of me when i was 16
>keep in mind this boyfriend is a bodybuilder on steroids
>was told my mom 'wanted to make things right,' get ready to go talk to her last weekend
>mom doesn't apologize for shit, her boyfriend doesn't either
>next day big family get together
>forced to act like everything's fine, and that the abuse never happened

>>24099990
Friendships
>first 'group' of friends i had was in middle school and all online
>around freshmen year of highschool they decided to dox me and post my info all over /b/, got pizza raids and shit (this was before the swatting meme thankfully)
>later in highschool manage to find new group of friends after they ditched me
>blackhats
>swatted, have to go dark or w/e to try and have a normal life
>go through the rest of highschool as a drifter of sorts, one person decided to talk shit on me to nearly everyone because i was weird or some shit
>so i never formed any close irl friends
>go to college
>think i can make a new start
>holy fuck no i can't, i don't have any social skills due to my fucked upbringing
>make friends during the whole gamergate thing just because i want to fit in for once
>said friends are awful, any time i try to open up to them they act as though my problems are false and don't have any meaning
>stick with them for about a year now
>present day-ish
>on my birthday i have an absolute fucking mental breakdown and get drunk
>one of the friends in that group tell me they 'can't believe i did that while their dad was in the hospital' as if my mental breakdown was nothing
>fucking snap
>grow a pair and tell them politely but firmly that it's not okay that he's trying to act as though my problems are meaningless and that i should put my life on hold for his
>he blocks and removes me and trashtalks me to everyone
>well there goes that group of friends
>make new one, either way
>meet most recent ex through it
>ex breaks up with me
>i'm an emotional mess so i can't stay in that group of friends due to the ex despite the fact i was there before him
>lesson learned: do not date within friend groups

>>24099996
Relationships. Last one.
>first relationship was abusive, he kept me in it by insulting and berating me, 'no one will love you except for me,' things like that
>due to this he bleeds me dry of any personal money i have
>he breaks up with me when i try to resist his shit
>great
>meet another guy
>manage to date for the rest of highschool and into college
>wow this is going great
>cheats on me with 3 guys because it was an LDR and 'I have needs'
>okay
>have a few meaningless relationships after, mostly online
>meet a guy i think is perfect
>like, we match on interests, music tastes, fetishes, even little things like home decor tastes
>for some info on myself, i'm really conflicted in interests, i'm a weeb yet i also enjoy modern art and design, minimalism and shit. most weebs have no taste.
>wow you're perfect ilu
>haha sorry but despite the fact i lead you on for a month (dates, physical interaction, etc) i don't wanna date a guy for arbitrary reasons i won't list
>oh
>but you're basically perfect and if you were a girl i'd totally go for that
>i'm not kidding he basically said this
>few months go by
>drunken breakdown happens, friend in friend group comforts me
>we both comfort eachother because he's pretty damn depressed too
>we hook up and date
>holy fuck he's awesome actually
>not as perfect as the last guy but damn he's still really nice
>earlier this week
>relationship was going perfectly fine from my perspective
>'i don't want to do this because there's distance between us'
>he lived in a different state but the drive wasn't impossible to make
>all this happening WHILE my shit with my mom happened, how she almost died and such
>can't even seek comfort in a guy i loved

please tell me again how things just work out :^)

>>24099865
So how's your life? Good enough?

You probably don't know what you're talking about.

>cutters calling each others scars cute
You people are the definition of degenerate. Stop celebrating a harmful practice. Get help. You're even worse than the fat acceptance idiots.

>>24100000
I'm sorry all that happened to you, just try to stay strong.

>>24100049
>Get help.
My brother tried the whole "get help from the system" thing. I still wear the necklace he was wearing when he hung himself.

>>24100000
Fuck. The fact that you are still alive after all this shit makes me think that you are also strong enough, or in this case, too strong.
Which you can take as a compliment but it actually just really sucks.

When people say to you that you will make it and that you can handle it because you are so strong, but you actually don't even want to be able to handle it anymore.

>>24100081
>When people say to you that you will make it and that you can handle it because you are so strong, but you actually don't even want to be able to handle it anymore.

holy shit someone finally fucking gets it

i hate being this 'strong,' it's all i get from people. people tell me it like they're bestowing this huge compliment on me but it's more a burden.

i wish i was able to just give up and jump off a bridge holy fuck. i hate being 'strong.'

>>24100065
Did I say anything about the system? No. The mental health facilities across the western world suck balls. But you have family, friends, housemates, colleagues. I'm willing to bet that more than a few would be able to help a little. Instead of sitting alone in your room drinking and cutting or getting high, go and talk to someone.

And before you say "you don't know what it's like man", I've suffered with depression and anxiety attacks, helped 2 of my old classmates stop cutting, and helped an ex deal with suicidal thoughts and clinical depression. All 3 used to be on high dose anti-depressants and fuck knows what else, none of them need them anymore.

>>24099707
>>24100065

God I don't even know what to say. I'm so sorry for you, idk I wish I could give all of you a big hug, if only my computer and awkwardness where not in the way

>>24100107
>I'm willing to bet that more than a few would be able to help a little.
You see the part about my brother still committing suicide?
> talk to someone.
The one person who I could really talk to unabashedly is now dead.

>>24100094
What you just said is exactly what I think every night before I go to sleep

>>24100107
>But you have family, friends, housemates, colleagues.

This is not true for everyone.

>I'm willing to bet that more than a few would be able to help a little.

And what if they don't want to because they don't understand how serious it is, or they have their own problems?

Even if you do know what you are talking about, you don't know how this is for others.

Why the arm? Wouldn't you want to cut yourself somewhere hidden, like the inside of your thigh? Or do you cut your arm so people will see it so they can give you attention and feel like someone actually cares about you?

>>24100151
Personally I found my bicep was the best place to do it. But for some people yes feeling like somebody cares is nice.

how do i get a good looking scar i want to have scars like those dudes in the movies like jon snow and ned stark

>>24100192
Become king of the north.

>>24100127
Neighbours, your doctor, a local policeman, that weird old man who lives at the end of your street by himself and would probably welcome some company because it's been a few years since his wife died and his kids don't visit anymore. There are countless people you could talk to. And if they don't want to, then find someone else to talk to. It doesn't matter who you talk to, it's better than keeping it to yourself.

>don't know how this is for others
When I was 14 my friends sister threw herself off a bridge onto the motorway. When I was 16 I found out that 2 of my friends had been cutting. When I was 19 I got a text from another friend who told me the reason I'd not heard from her for 6 months was because she'd been locked on a psych ward after a failed suicide attempt. She tried another 3 times in the next 12 months. When I was 21 my girlfriend told me she was severely depressed, and when I was 22 I spent a week of nights crying with her in my arms after she told me that without my support she'd have killed herself. A few months later a mutual friend hung himself in his dorm room. I've never been suicidal myself, but most of the friends I currently have and the people I maintain contact with have. If there's anything I do know, it's what it's like for others. I have done everything in my power to support those people, because I know how important it is to have someone to talk to. I don't care how dire you think your situation is, there's someone out there that will listen. Don't fall into the depressive trap of "nobody cares anyway, so why try".

>>24100151
Why should it be hidden?

>>24100222
>there's someone out there that will listen
why are you implying that if there was someone to listen it would make it all better?

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>>24092782

>>24099589
If you're still looking to chat - AWickedMan on Kik

>>24100229
I'm not implying that, I'm straight up stating that.

>>24100222
I'm just saying that it's different for everybody. Yes I believe that you were and still are a very important person for them, and you probably do understand a lot then. But there are so many more types of people who all deal with it differently and you seem to ignore that. And a lot of people are not lucky enough to have someone like you, please keep that in mind, for yourself and for others.

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started when I was 8 or 9, ended mostly at 14... few relapses since then but hasn't been in a few years

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>>24100275

>>24100261
lol okay
good to know you're willing to extrapolate your opinions to all neurochemical makeups

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>>24100277
all in all it ain't that bad
I think I might tattoo over some when they're more healed

>>24100281
Probably as healed as it's going to get

>>24100275
both beauty and tragic, post more picture?

I used to cut when I was a sad teen girl. Scars look so dumb and are a daily reminder of a shit time in my life. Wish I found a different outlet. All of you showing off your cuts are fucking retarded and need therapy.

>>24100341
I wonder how much you use to cut because of judgemental cunts...

>>24100281
are you embarrassed by them when you go swimming?

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>>24100324
okay, they look better at different angles/light
>>24100357
I used to be but now idgaf, they aren't that bad I guess

>>24100381
Any reason you cut?

>>24100381
nice (:

>>24100381
thighs the only place you cut?

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>>24099360
It's on the inside of my left forearm. You can just barely see it, but there is a scar right underneath it where I had to get stitches back in 2010.
>>24099442
Sorry to hear, bud. Hope things are looking up for you now. I'm going through a ton of shit right now bit too (significant other cheated on me, paycheck was cut in half at work), but I haven't cut since then and trying my best not to.
I know some days are harder than others and I've been a bit scatterbrained with my pills as of late, but I'm still trying to look towards the positive...wherever that may be.

>>24100462
How long have you been cutting?

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>>24100471
Started about a decade ago. It was pretty bad the first few years, but I mellowed out for a few years in between. Sort of had a mental breakdown around my birthday this year, though.
Here's my right arm. I am right handed, so I mostly lash out at my left, as you can probably tell.
The only thing I regret is not being able to get decent inside sleeve tattoos, but I didn't start wearing short sleeves in public until 3 or so years ago.

>>24100526
Aw damn that sucks I'm sorry. Any main triggers?

>>24100257
I don't even know who you are

>>24100462
It is actually getting worse every day here.

>I haven't cut since then and trying my best not to.
That's a start, hold on :)

>>24100452
I cut my arms a few times but then I got caught because of it so I stuck to my thighs after that.

>>24100412
Childhood abuse, anxiety disorder and bipolar

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The newest members

sincerely hope y'all get better, one thing i found, which is a real shame, is that most ppl that cut have self image issues and 90% of them dont even look at all bad. Quite a sad thing rlly.

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It's been a while these are years old

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Burn marks never go away either

its so weird how this works.
you get an urge, do something in the helps someone will see and help you.
and then as soon as you fucking do it you realise what a knob you're being and make sure nobody sees

rinse repeat every few months

fuck this.

>>24102088
in the hope*

any girls wanna send vids of themselves cutting, kik me jmozz00

>>24099142
No it's not lmao, drugs are not all toxins slowly killing your body, their harmfulness to pleasure and energy ratio can be very good. Case in point: non-abused alcohol.
No, illegal drugs aren't much 'different'.

>>24099233
as for self harm i usually punch myself in the head ^^

>>24102339
I also do some things that are not visible, like punch myself or pull some hairs out
It helps when I'm not feeling that bad, but still need to feel some physical pain and I don't want anyone to see it

>>24103788
Sometimes pinch myself until I bleed lol

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Got super drunk one night and went onto /b/ with a lighter and a variety of items that could be heated up and applied to human skin
This is the result two years later.
I try not to get that drunk anymore.
Lighter for scale

>>24104489
Damn was It just because you were drunk?

>>24104497
Maybe? Sometimes when I get tipsy I like to burn myself. It just feels really good.
Usually it's a bit more controlled than this one was. I at least had the foresight to do it above the sleave line. I was suuuupppeerr drunk that particular night.

>>24104489
I burned myself once with my hair straightener, by accident..
Fucking hated that, it was the worst type of pain haha
So would never burn on purpose

>>24104976
That's what I hear a lot. I'm just one of those freaks who enjoys getting burned. It's a unique type of pain

>>24105012
We're all freaks ;)
Yes it sure is different

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>>24092782
>be me
>be 13
>self harming and doing stupid shit for two years
>body dismorphia af
>felt like a 300 lbs chunk
>actually 90 lbs scrawny kid
>smoked heavily well into the age of 16
>attempted suicide twice because genuine self loathing
>both attempts I get so fucking close but someone always has to be a fucking hero
>but I'm older now and the scars aren't really visible unless someone stares right at them
>quit smoking
>I've gained weight but I only feel better about myself
>depression rolls in and out like the tide
>still thinking about dying the difference is that I've found more creative outlets.
>chubby dude now and I feel more comfortable in my skin than ever
Honestly things will get better and the people that are concerned for you actually want to help. It just takes finding someone who you can talk about without having them judge you.

How would any of you react if someone wanted to drink your blood or lick your wounds? I have developed a taste for blood but i only really get a chance when coworkers/friends get injured.
Saliva is supposed to help heal as well.

>>24105848

I wouldn't mind it if I wasn't so depressed while doing it haha

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>Was the only reprieve I had from my own thoughts, used to punch my arm splattering blood on the walls

Stopped more or less nowadays but my arm tingles whenever I get the urge to do it.

>>24105848
I don't care if someone wants to drink my blood. Not from my body though. I used to collect it and save the blood in the fridge so it would stay bright red. My therapist convinced me that is a bit kooky

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I'm not sure if this counts or not.

I liked the look of a meatotomy and a big peehole. So I decided to just do it and gave myself a partial one.

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Haven't cut in a while. I always get these nasty keloid which stay bright red for years. These specific ones are about 7 years old and are just starting to lighten up. Wish I could cut more since it feels so good, but theyre to gross. :/

How do you cover this fucking shit up? I want it off my skin already.

It's way too noticeable. There's got to be some ointment for this shit right?

>>24103788
This

>>24107287
Yeah bro, oils. Bio oil, vitamin e oil, argan oil, etc. Keep the scars well moisturized especially if theyre newish

>>24107305
>especially if theyre newish
They're a few years old from when I was an edgy teen.

Some have puffed out though, am I fucked for life?

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been self harming since 2012, don't really want to stop

>>24100236
Lol
Now I want to try this

Alex, if you're reading this by any chance please dont harm yourself again. I'm sorry for how things went between us. I'm not sure if you would, but just encase.

Made a good friend from this thread, don't give up hope everyone

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been cutting my thighs since September 2008 (grade 8) this is the worst of it but haven't cut since Jan? Or Dec? But you can tell a lot of time is spent. And no, I don't have a dick, that's just a pad :D I think about cutting myself every single day, I always want to cut myself but I guess swimming and future relationships stop be from doing so, although I wear swim trunks, and I don't plan on dating..

Also have scars on arms and calves.

>>24108166
Why dont you want to stop?

>>24110017
dont see anything wrong with ur legs, even with the scars, looks gorgeous to me. As long as ur personality isnt revolved on seeking attention theres no reason why u shudnt be dateable, am sure ur a stunner

>>24110017
good luck explaining that shit to your kids

>>24107049
If you look at it like scarification, it counts I guess