Depression/mental illness thread? Pretty sure I am depressed

I'm nervous about even broaching the subject with my doctor and thinking every time I go to see him for something mundane he's going to see this depressed/wannabe depressed guy.

>Has anyone been diagnosed and regretted it?

I'm diagnosed with GAD and depression. No ragrats.

>Has anyone been diagnosed and magically everything was awesome and life was fixed?

Shit still sucks, but if I weren't seeing a therapist and psychiatrist, I'd probably have killed myself by now.

>>23353246
i dont regret getting diagnosed with depression. it made me see my problems clearly, although i knew there was shit wrong, but knowing its not just "me" and i can get through it helps a lot.

no. not everything is magically fixed. for me its always going to be there. theres just a matter of dealing with it properly. i take medication for it. it helps immensely, makes my brain chemistry feel normal.
id be going nowhere and thinking how pointless everything is otherwise. with no self esteem. no t seeing my future at all. i used to think it was normal to never see myself in 5 years but, its bullshit.

i've been diagnosed and medicated to no avail. about to give up completely.

Yeah, I feel it.
I'm not diagnosd, but I'm not dumb. I know what it looks like. Day after day I find it harder to get motivated to do anything, or to find joy in anything I normally enjoy.
It's made me lazy and self loathing.
The worst part about the depression is that I really have nobody to talk to about it. The few people who listen just tell me to be a man, because depression is for women.
I dont want a doctor, I dont want pity. I just want a friend.
And every day it gets harder to make one.

99% of people who people who say they are "depressed" aren't actually depressed and are attention whoring faggots. If you're actually are depressed you don't go whining about it online and you get it checked out. So to answer this thread, no OP you are not depressed you are just suffering from a mild amalgamation of edge.

>>23353323
Wew lad, watch the shitposting.

>>23353323
Oh nohs, so rustled.
Eventually you will realise how awful you are and that no one loves you. Then you'll be one of us :)

>>23353299
I almost gave up once, but it seemed like more effort than carrying on.
I've heard it's a long and painful road getting the right treatment, with there being so many and it takes so long to stabilise.
That's my fear, well one of them. If I end up on meds that give me moodswings I could easily cock up what little I've got, lose my job, alienate friends.

I actually found a bit of self cbt has kinda worked. Just occasionally pushing past the anxiety and like, socialising. Scary as it is.

>>23353327
>Hears the hard truth that has likely been repeated to me by people who care about me
>Would rather be a special snowflake
>Dislikes the truth = Shitposting
Keep living in that bubble of yours the longer you're in there the less salvageable you become.

I find /soc/ baw threads help though xD
Group therapy innit.
Have to go to work now, I'll drop in later. Hopefully make an appointment today.
Knowing my luck I'll get one for tomorrow.

>>23353323
>If you're actually are depressed you get it checked out.
>being this stupid
>not knowing depression and anxiety are highly comorbid
>itsabigone.jpg

>>23353246
went to the doctor with notes of my symptoms, (never happy, scared that im not going to exist one day, want to die, stopped doing all of my hobbies, scared to do anything, etc), diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. get blood test, turns out it's my thyroid causing it (hypothyroidism). went on synthroid to take care of my thyroid hormones, get put on lexipro to stop my anxiety and given trazadone to help me sleep when my mind is racing.

it has been a year now and i have gotten 2 raises and work, no more anxiety, missed a flight to australia (didnt give a fuck), used to think about a lot of shit but the noise went away, stopped drinking because the trazadone helps me sleep, no more sex anxiety with the gf, only get depressed when i take my pills at weird times. I'm not even scared of heights anymore because no anxiety.

I remember the hardest part of my journey was making that first phone call (anxiety to talk on the phone)

Goodluck anon, it will only get better if you do something about it.

Zoloft

> take it, mental static ecaporates, dick gets hard but I only cum once every four days and it's a 4/10
> don't take it, anxious and mean, three orgasms a night that are 11 out of 10 with lightening bolts in my toes

I quit taking zoloft after four months. But it definitely made me feel like a real normal person. I'd rather be crazy and cock hungry.

>>23353246

>>23353266
Pretty much this whole post.

I also haven't had a full-blown depressive episode since starting medication, so 3+ years. I might have a day or two of major depressive mood/thoughts, but that's not considered an episode, as it's not persisting for weeks/months at a time.

Life can't ever be fixed because life, by default, is difficult. Getting help for mental illness is one step toward putting you on the same playing field as everyone else.

>>23353246
I'm the same way. I know there's a lot wrong with me, but I don't want to be labeled MENTALLY ILL (see also: crazy af). Today it seems like everytime someone goes crazy and kills a bunch of people, they're MENTALLY ILL. And all MENTALLY ILL people should obviously be rounded up and sent to the nuthouse.

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Recently diagnosed borderline... I'm not sure what to do bc it's got such a bad stigma. Also been diagnosed ADD for a long time and PTSD for about a year, along with anxiety and depression. I take pills for this shit, adderal, wellbutrin(starting soon), loxapine(also starting soon) and gabapentin. Starting DBT soon.

Last year had a psychotic eppisode whilst still in eppisode I lied about it being drug induced everyone thought I was a huge drug head so they gave me sedditives until I was a potato then they put me on quitiapin for a while until I had to convince em it was severe stress induced or perhaps bipolar

Op returns. Meant to check in at work but I got kinda busy.
>>23353441
I'd love for it to be something like this because like this guy said
>>23354631
Dem labels, but also because an understood disorder like hyperthyroidism or anaemia, something simple like that, is easy to treat, manage, explain to your friends.
Also the black bags under my eyes, sometimes so bad people even think I've been in a fight, makes me wonder if there's an underlying "physical" cause.
I am really struggling to concentrate at work now though.

I hope the rest of you, who probably have it worse than me, get some solace from this little group therapy.

Anyway I've got an appointment. As predicted they offered me one for tomorrow but I sidestepped that and now it's Tuesday so I have some time to prepare/get nervous.
I'm just gonna go in and state tired/no enthusiasm/can't concentrate/black bags and see what he says.

I have borderline personality disorder and psychopathic tendencies.

I'm medicated, of course, which helps normalize me somewhat. I am a very happy, energetic, outgoing guy, somewhat quiet. But it's really just a face I put on. I can force myself to feel that way and force myself to empathize with other humans.

But in reality I don't really have any empathy for others. I can fool myself and others into believing I'm a normal person.

>>23354810
Good luck. I've been living in a similar state for two years. Tired all the time.

>>23354811
Is this because of borderline? I just, like I don't know what it means really. But I am empathetic when I want to be. I can turn it off in a second tho

Some days I just want to jump off a building head first. Still goin strong tho

>>23355353
Fortunately it takes a surprising amount of effort to actually get on top of a tall enough building to guarantee it :D
I'd feel bad for the cleanup crew too. I'd hate to be a burden.