I wish I could read textbooks with someone

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It would be nice having someone vouch for the amount of time and effort I put into something.

It's tedious having to reread something multiple times because my brain stops working. It doesn't matter how simple the sentence is, I have to wait until I want to understand it. I read out loud to a family member, but English isn't his first language and he thinks I just form words with my mouth and glaze over what the content means. So he can't tell when I actually do this and when I try to understand it. Plus he thinks I go too fast, when that's just me going through a burst of motivation. I can go through an entire chapter not understanding a single word even if I read at a word a second, but I can paraphrase verbally if I do understand it. Paraphrasing every sentence gets tedious though and most of the time he pretends to understand what I said no matter how simply I try to put it. Try explaining anything about electromagnetism when the guy doesn't understand the words "electron", "proton", "wire", "magnet", "electromagnetism", "current", "flow", "river", "stream", etc.

Fuck, I just finished a For Dummies book for fun and I feel like I already forgotten everything I read. It's the same as if I never read it. What do I have to do to hire someone to sit down and listen to me read? How much would it cost?