i think i ruined myself spiritually. in like 2013 or something i first looked at gay porn, softcore, but before i did it a voice in the back of my head said "If you look at that you'll be ruined". i looked at it anyway. now the joy is sucked out of my one hobby, videogames, and i am a minimum wage working loser with no friends, depression, no upward trajectory in life, and possibly a porn/videogame addiction: probably, actually, more like. don't know how to come back from this. i am gay i'm pretty sure, maybe prison gay, but i'm not about to go to religion because my religious upbrigning was pretty abusive. idk what to do really. i kind of just laze around all the time. i don't want to die because i'm terrified of hell, but i also don't want to keep living like this, but i just keep doing it anyway. idk what the fuck to do. help
just be urself dude
>>5812075
that's kind of what i got to. i read Crowley and i like the whole "Do what thou wilt" meme, but it just feels like all the light and joy has evaporated from my life. i mean i guess i was depressive before 2013, but like i just feel like my life is getting emptier with each passing day
>>5812088
I've spent the last decade of my life drowning myself in stimuli, drugs and porn, I'm barely human anymore. My advice? Turn the fucking computer off and leave the house.
I was doing far better when I was working and had shit to do, and was around people.
>>5812070
>>5812088 dubs! wooh!
if you're looking for joy i'd recommend Ojamajo Doremi. It's the best thing thats ever happened to me. teaches u all kinds of important life lessons.
guide here: >>5811492
i could say this or that, but i think just watching doremi would do you good.
>>5812099
dubs, wooh
>>5812113
jesus fine ... this show gets shilled so much on this board I guess i'm going to watch it
>>5812118
well-liked for a reason... well it's difficult to explain properly but you won't regret watching it.
>>5812137
you make my life worse
>>5812070
get a boyfriend
not a fuckbuddy but like an actual boyfriend who loves you and stuff like that
>>5812075
Why is Popuko such a Spicy Gal?
>>5812113
you know, I thought about it, and probably yes, a children's show is what a lot of people on this board need considering they were never taught basic life lessons apparently
>>5812175
you should probably just abandon all notions of what you think a children's show is anon, this show goes beyond it...
>>5812175
I'm glad you said it for me, I think he's a brilliant troll really. The notion of a childrens cartoon ailing a depressed adults life is that ultra+ memery.
>>5812175
>>5812181
hope u decide 2 watch it someday, frens. it's rly the only way 2 understand
>>5812070
you'll be fine
>>5812070
better start praying the gay away. you don't want to spend an eternity in hell do you?
>>5812070
Perhaps it's time to complete your transformation into a fujoshi, true.
>>5812070
https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+1&version=KJV
Matthew 7:
7 Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:
8 For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.
John 14:6
Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.