anyone else see a certain romanticism in their suffering and

>>39588552
Yup. I miss the times. While I know for sure that I'm happier now, I am not sure that that makes now better. I think I prefer now though.

>>39588552
No. There's nothing romantic about this. Suffering is suffering and the only solace I take is that not everyone has to suffer an existence like mine. I wouldn't wish it on anyone else.

>>39588552
Absolutely. It's a beautiful tragedy, and even the awful parts I find so strangely comforting and endearing. All it needs is a fitting end in which I die alone, remembered by nobody but my own parents.

>>39588552
It's beautiful in its own way. When I was younger, I wished I could stop time during my winter break and stay comfy in my room for the rest of my life.

>>39588552

well, of course. I'm creating parallel worlds, talking with ghosts and spending my nights crying or on aimless walks because of this girl. Shit's pretty romantic. Shit's also pretty absurd- which is its own aesthetic pleasure. I'm a masochist, I really enjoy physical and emotional suffering so I can't even complain.

I'm basically living the high life. You know, except for the suffering part, but whatever.

>>39588552
People tend to romanticise certain shitty things like depression or drug use to make themselves feel better
I do it too, but it leads to nowhere

Yeah, being deeply mentally ill is at least honest and self-defined, even if you're at the whims of your biology.