>i always play a character when i go out anywhere >normalfags

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>>39578968
wrong pic
fuck me
i can't even do this right

I've done this my entire life.
I'm not sure who I actually am.

>>39578968
>>39578979
>>39579023
Just get out of the closet and tell them what you like. If it backfires and hates you for it then they're not real friends are they?

Time to go full Chad OP

Just stop acting. It's not worth it. You're surrounded by people and you still feel alone, what's the point? You might as well be watching a movie and pretending you're the main character.

>>39579023
I developed like five different characters at one point and after a while none of them or my real self felt real.

>cant say offensive jokes
laughing at your miserable american ass, slavs live the life of offensive jokes

>>39579042
>tell them what you like
>"yo andy this weed is good but what really gets me going is cross dressing boys and Japanese cartoons meant for children"
I'll pass

>>39579042
Having fake friends is better than having none at all

>>39578968
Then don't act anymore and stop complaining you annoying normalfag cunt.

>>39580251
So you just posted to complain, rather than actually fix your own dumb ass? Do you not understand that overcoming your fear of being hated is literally the only way you will escape this suffering? Either you do it, or it just gets worse over time and the only time you will have anything resembling peace is when you're alone. This will very quickly lead to the life of a shut-in.

>>39580355
I want to be a shut-in though people suck

>>39578968
just b urself bro i'm sure it will all work out in the end!

>>39578968
recently realised that I do the same. I always thought it was just because being around others and being alone are two different mental states. but looking back now that seems silly. I am not anything resembling myself, but the reason I did not know that is because I have lost touch of who ""myself"" is. infact, I don't think I ever knew who I was to begin with. I've never really probed my self-awareness much. I don't think about what I do or how I behave or why. I guess I'm kind of autistic that way. when I'm with others, I am confident. I am actually funny, I know my way around social chat, I can talk to anybody. it's not that the confidence or the humor is forced, it comes to me. I just feel good in social situations. I lie a lot. what I am ashamed of I hide, and what I believe people will approve of I embrace. >inb4 fakeness like that cancels out any "confidence" you thought you had.
I am confident in certain ways. I can talk to new people easily, initiate conversations and keep them. I'm not afraid to stand up for myself. I do it when the situation calls for it. though I am also insecure about certain things that I don't want people to know about. and of course there are normie-tier things that you must adhere to in order to seem normal.
when I am alone, I am some strange mixture of anxious and apathetic. depression and recreational druguse made me hyper selfaware and made me realise that the guy I am when all eyes are on me and the guy I am when I am alone are completely different fundamentally. I kept getting worse when by myself but didn't change at all if you were to ask anybody that knows me. it's like a mask at this point. it has become full on conscious acting.

>>39581399
in the end I think it comes down to insecurities. a deeprooted belief that people will never like or accept me for me.