I have the weirdest porn addition (long post)

In the last few days, after many hours on Twitter and realizing what this had done to my life. I decided to start nofap.

However, I had a lot of trouble starting and couldn't do it for more than a day. I'm still trying, though today I fapped, again to Twitter.

This addition is terrible. Here are some effects:

1. Once I saw a naked crazy begger and, instead of feeling pity or disgust, I tried to check his size.
2. Whenever I see a pretty woman, I imagined the sizes she has taken.
3. Whenever I see a man with tight pants, I will check for his size.

This drives me crazy. I am the most normal person in the world and never thought these things could happen to me.

I really need to start nofap, or else I might go even crazier still.

>>39574319
Sorry, forgot to add the 2/2 and the tl;dr.

Tl;dr: I fap to the relationship between women and penises, and I am not a homo nor a cuck

It's ok, maybe you're just gay.

You shall not lie with male as with woman;it is an abomination (Leviticus 18:22). However if start to pray everynight during your no-fap jesus himself withh come take your cummies away, freeing you of your homosexuality

It's ok everyone has weird shit they don't talk about.

>>39574385
I'm really not. No attraction to men whatsoever, nor to penises. I've had this addition for one or two years now and never once felt like touching or sucking dick.

>>39574475
I'm not gay.

>>39574504
But this makes me feel like shit.

I am not supposed to have these fetishes. I want to go back to ejaculating to pictures of girl's asses. When I started to masturbate at age 14 I wouldn't even look at porn with dicks, because I really only liked the idea of the female body. I would ejaculate to girls making strip-tease and such. Then I started looking at my own dick in the mirror, and begun to accept porn with dicks. Then I started using 4chan, and became used to dicks etc.

I repeat: I am not a homo.

I really think I need to spend at least 100 days without looking at pictures of human nudity. I don't know how I'll do it and I'm havIng trouble starting.

You do not have to act to sin, it is the same in the eyes of our lord. You cannot know that you are not gay. if you are having these thoughts you must have caught it from being around homosexuals. I must recomend you attend conversion therapy. I've caught the gay twice now and conversion therapy has cleared me of my mental illness.

>>39574574
I'll tell you how you stop.

Now. Right now, from this point forward, you will not masturbate or look at porn. I guarantee, because I know how this works, that you're looking forward to your next fap session. Take it away. Don't have one "last one". It never works. It only works if, as a force of pure will, you just decide to stop.

It's gonna suck for like 2 weeks, no lie. But you'll feel better afterwards.

>>39574616
I am not gay. Man, I really don't feel attracted to guys. I only feel attracted to dicks insofar as there are women near it. It's the relationship of women with dicks that makes me hard.

But what do they do in conversion therapy? Some aspects of it might help me, since I am, after all, also trying to escape from a type of sexual attraction (though not toward males).

Hey bro have you tried looking up pegging?

>>39574689
Have you succeeded?

I even stayed one day without fapping last week, probably more, some 30 hours or so. But then something bad happened (I don't remember) and started talking to a hot female friend, then immediately google searched to see if I could found her Twitter or that of her friends so that I could search to see what they talked about dicks.

>>39574735
90 days was my record, and then I had a moment of weakness that then turned into a two-month habit of about every other day.

And now I haven't for about 6 days. Since I've gone down this road before, the urges are gone already, although I have really sexual thoughts more often than usual. I'm also a bit more grumpy than usual.

Last time it took about two weeks for it to wear off.

>>39574724
I really have no desire for it...

I have masturbated to traps (because it's women + dicks) but would never have sex with one, and, if I were forced to, I would penetrate and not otherwise.

It might sound weird, but I'm actually the dominant one during sex. I can't be submissive.

It's like the primal part of cuckery where you are getting turned on by sexual competition. It's not really a gay thing but your perversion has developed to a point where it has become a fetish. Rather than liking dick you're turned on by the sexual competition that another man's member presents. Apparently we semi-evolved this way with the shape of the penis being optimized for displacing/scooping out sperm

Separate your fantasy from reality and realize this is just a fetish. Don't let it effect your day to day life. Maybe tone down the fapping though and noporn is generally a healthy option for everyone

After I turned my life around I became a certified therapist. What I do is get a hotel and we spend a week there. To clear you of your affliction I have a tazer I shock your scrotum with while you masturbate to this content. There will graphic images of all kinds dicks and nude male models and I perform the shocking. Naturally you will have to be tied down during the procedure. I will wear thick latex gloves with pants and a sweater as not participate in the sin myself.

>>39574769
Did you have any weird fetishes which you end up abandoning after nofap?

Did pictures of women's boobs go back to making you hard etc,?

This is really my goal. I don't believe in sin, I just want to go back to enjoying women normally, without having to associate them with their previous experiences with dicks.

>>39574811
The reality being you're going to stick your dick in this girl. The fantasy being what other guys she's been with

>>39574827
Hell yeah man, I was going down the path of traps and stuff and now it's just... odd I guess.

Although when I started masturbating again, it came back a tiny bit, but nothing like it was. Seriously, I was worried that I was becoming gay or something.

But yeah, also, when you're not fapping constantly, you can look at a pair of tits and appreciate that it's a good looking pair of tits and want to keep looking at them without getting a giant boner.

>>39574811
Your diagnosis is probably right.

I seem to care a lot about competition. I always try to be the best dressed person in the room, the smartest, the most attractive etc.

If I enter into a classroom and there is a more attractive guy than me, I will spend the whole class looking at him and feeling bad, trying to imagine what I could do to look more like him etc. Again, this is not sexual attraction.

By the way, in real life dicks don't attract me either. I still get very hard just by looking at women and never once got hard by looking at me, although I probably could by imagining and then imagining the girls he's been with.

It's just in the imagination, which is why I was alarmed when it suddenly showed up in the day I lost my virginity. I didn't think it would affect me then.

>>39574855
Yeah, I always only hear good things about nofap. I watched the interview of that "Your brain on porn" guy with Stefan ?Molyneaux, and he said it takes about 90 days for things to start getting normal, although it might really take 3 or 4 years for it to go away completely.

The cases he analyzed were worse than mine though, he talked about guys who couldn't even get hard except if watching porn. Not my case, thank God. I can still get hard just by looking at a nice ass, but eventually the dick thoughts always come up and I can't always get rid of them.

>>39575021
Yeah, it's not natural. It tells your brain that you're fucking 10's every night.

>>39575076
True. I will see if I can start it again.

Another source of instant satisfaction for me is music, so I'm gonna put some of my favorites - even guilty pleasures - into my iPod. I'll make sure it's always easily reachable. Thus, whenever I feel my dick getting hard, I'll listen to music.

I'm also gonna move my mattress. I'll put it in my bedroom only when I need to sleep. I have trouble fapping while standing or sitting, so this might really help.

>>39574919
You gotta let go of that man. Your compulsion to be the best is going to inevitably be cut short by the fact of you being human. All men are considered equal but we are not the same.

My idea of a near perfect physical specimen is Aaron Rodgers, quarterback of the Green Bay Packers. Handsome, strong, fast coupled with a amazing talent to play the game of football. He may be lowkey gay. You could be the best in something but someone maybe even just yourself will always find yourself deficient in something. Self improvement and competition are healthy ideas but don't turn it into self-flagellation. Like the normies say, "you do you".

>>39575317
True.

This will demand a lot of changes from me. I always have problems starting those changes...

>>39575427
If you kill all your demons your angels may soon follow. It's ok to be a little unhealthy or carry a vice but recognize your crutches and your chains. If things get hard just remember to get back on the wagon if you relapse. Religion helps addicts but I think abuse (as long as it's not harming other people) is ok if you're a "functional member of society". Schizos and alcoholics are looked down upon but if they're holding jobs and staying relatively within the system no one can say anything bad about them and if they do that's a personal problem. Everyone's got shit we're all just trying to make it

>>39575545
Thanks, man. I'll do my best to improve.

It was a good idea to share my problem. I had never talked about it before.

>>39575565
Aw we're all just trying to make it man. Even when we're mean know we're still here. Good luck anon n-no homo

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>>39574269
this is now a chloe thread

let's all share chloe pics

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>>39576292
I love Chloe and her meme genius legacy

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>>39576307
signing her tiny little signature awwww

>>39574269
Show the Twitter things you mentioned

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>>39576292
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>>39576532
dumbass, that's Chloe, the famous meme girl from the disneyland video