>tfw alone drinking myself to sleep again because it's the only way to quiet the voices
>tow mom comes in to remind me what a piece of shit I am
>the think about killing myself like I do everyday
>tfw no one will reply to this thread
God please let me die in my sleep tonight, I'm begging you
>>39572620
How did it get to this point anin?
please stay hydrated anon
youll be daijoubu
>>39572655
That's a pretty long story anon and one that no one cares to read, but thanks for replying. You made me feel a little better just for being there
>>39572620
JUST fKiNG DO IT ALREADY PUSSY ! !am getting shitfaced on cooking wine thinking about how much of a massive disappointment i am to my parents. *hugz u*
>tfw you fall for the self improvement meme
This is awful. My brain's full potential wasn't meant to be reached, it sucks.
Commit suicide. Original comment.
>>39572714
you're living a lie brother
>>39572773
>living
i am a walking corpse, fk u hulk hogan !!!!
>>39572658
There's water in alcohol right? I'm getting plenty hydrates
>>39572714
Haha thanks that bait and switch honestly made me chuckle a little
You guys are alright
>>39572695
id read op
>>39572714
>tfw no one actually cares about your success either way
>>39572620
>drinking cause its the only way to quiet the voices
boy do we deal with things differently i do meth to make them LOUDER
no but honestly anon i feel for you do you see a psychiatrist for your chemical castration pills? im not kidding they do help the voices be less present
>>39572620
>>tfw no one will reply to this thread
That's where you're wrong, kiddo
>>39572811
To make it short
>be raised by alcoholic mom
>she leaves me and twin home alone as toddlers to get smashed
>get diagnosed with depression and ADD in elementary school
>am that kid who huddles in a corner
>get put in psych ward doubling as a school for a few years
>abused and bullied by kids there
>graduate from that to a behaviour intervention program in middle school where I make friends with insane violent kids
>don't know how to act around normal people
>move in with my dad in another city who's never there either
>fail highschool because I was never taught anything in my containment classes
>foghting depression and suicidal thoughts the whole time
And here I am, friendless, alone and alcoholic myself who's never accomplished anything.
>>39572766
why are you being edgy on the internet?
>>39573023
i had an alcoholic mom and a never present father too ended up schizophrenic drug addict
fun stuff
>>39572998
what does meth feel like ?? how many permanent teeth have you lost so far??? post ur face scabs pLZ
>>39573029
an anonymous imageboard where there are no consequences to say the least
>>39573064
I want to fuck your slugboi ass
>>39573064
feels fuckin incredible m8 like ur the god damn mayor or some shit. still got all my teeth and i dont pick my skin off believe it or not
>spent life manipulating people into thinking their subjective and limited-omniscient observations had universality and they weren't alone in the subjective wiring of their brain but they in fact had a share of reality yet to be discovered
>don't have friends because nothing reliably means anything, not clever enough to stay on the beam
>already tried transposing failure into art but now it's like, "alright here it is" and what did that even achieve
>it seems all rational depressives end up killing themselves with little post-script reflection, "what they should have done?", etc
Would it be better to continue with the cycles of loss and discipline or just go back to drugs and vague sexual pursuit in all directions?
>>39573060
oh whats up dude
>>39573137
im gonna need that rewritten in cursive and on my desk by tomorrow morning or its detention for you
>>39572998
>>39573060
I feel for you too anon, we were doomed to grow up as broken people and to eventually take our own lives
Drugs are pretty easy to come by around here too but I haven't touched the hard stuff since I know once I did there would be no coming back or recovering. I can't even put down the bottle for a day. My best wishes for you and it's nice knowing I'm not alone in my upbringing and the inevitable outcome. We died a long time ago and are just waiting for our bodies to catch up, aren't we? For what's it's worth... I love you as someone who is an echo of yourself in your time of deepest sorrow. I hope it ends peacefully for you
>>39573153
not much gonna take some kratom and pop 2 clonazepam
trying to stay off the harder stuff i methposted in my friends discord last night and i dont want him to mute my dumbass
>>39573167
>tfw nothing you say makes any sense to anyone but you and it's almost as bad as only knowing you exist being told you don't make sense every time you talk
>>39573086
sorry anon! my slughole is for chad only, not dumb stinky robots !! xd
>>39573093
i dont believe you, and thats a very strange way to describe how the drug feels. do you get more energy??? describe the mental + physical sensation plz. always told myself i would never do meth but starting to think it isnt as terrifying as D.A.R.E. led me to believe.
>>39573187
thanks man i love you too brother, touching the hard stuff was the best worst mistake i ever made.
>>39573206
does your name begin with a C
>>39573137
You're pretty smart to deduce all of that anon and you're right about all rational and objective depressed people killing themselves. Once you swallow the blackpill there's no turning back from the course to oblivion laid out before you where all is reduced to small momentary distractions from the inevitable
>>39573244
>sorry anon! my slughole is for chad only, not dumb stinky robots !! xd
FUCK OFF MY COCK IS HUGE
REEEEEEEEEE
>>39573137
>their subjective and limited-omniscient observations had universality and they weren't alone in the subjective wiring of their brain but they in fact had a share of reality yet to be discovered
that sounds correct tho
>>39573244
its not the devils drug its portrayed as but that doesnt mean you should go anywhere near it your face goes numb and you feel like your the biggest baddest guy in town even though your just a dumbass neet with nothing better to do than hard drugs
>>39573254
now who dis b stumbling upon me r9kpostan
FUCK ARE THE U FEDS
>>39573246
>brother
We really are brothers in our suffering, aren't we? Thank you for lessening my loneliness because of it. I wish it would stop for you but I knows it's as likely as halting my own which is zero
Just know when I end my life I'll be thinking of people like you in my last moments
>>39572620
If you wanted to die you would'ce done it, so not only are you a piece of shit, but you're also a lying piece of shit.
>>39573244
and i should add u literally feel the effects it has on your brain. i havent done it in 24 hours or so and im just now able to look an image post and not be sure if its a jpg or gif because shit would move anyway
>>39573435
nibbler u got the wrong person i aint no roastie im mr nibbler
>>39573406
sacrifice yourself to me pretty please !! will make use of your lifeforce for mostly good reasons..!!
pLEASE !!
>>39573417
T-thanks anon, I need this kind of motivation. Tell me more about why I deserve to die... please
>>39573473
Only you can do that. I don't know a damn thing about you other than that you're a depressed shit. Just lock yourself in your room for a day with no computer/phone/tv. That should put things in perspective for you.
I'm also drinking alone op. What state you in? Wanna drive around drunking with me. I'm in West Texas and got a Dodge charger
>>39573459
>sacrifice yourself to me
How do I do this? Letting someone else repurpose my life force towards something positive sounds like a bretty gud deal
>>39572804
I don't think there's water in alcohol.
Alcohol is like the opposite of water for your body.
>>39573526
I'm in Washington or else I would join you :(
Maybe in another life anon
>>39573406
ay my brother mi compadre its the least i could do man i at least got somethin going for me i deleted my gay meth dealers number so now ill just be using the soft stuff the doesnt destroy my brain slowly. and my mom has recovered from her addiction fortunately so i have her, shes 2 years sober now. it doesnt undo all the past neglect but she literally cried in front of me begging for my forgiveness so Ive kinda let my resentment toward her go. my dad is still a real piece of shit im so glad hes in florida hope he dies in the god damn hurricane. anyway we are one of soul amigo hope u find peace somewhere down the line
>>39573564
That sucks but at least it was worth a shot. Driving and drinking ALONE gets old after a while, even the cops ignore me.
>>39573533
oh sweetie.... no. you still kill yourself, but i bind your life force to a soul gem and keepsies for later use.. so how about it shnookums? can i be your dark mommy in death ; )
>>39573648
slubgoy fuck off leave the mans life force alone u god damn whore
>>39573676
i am offering him a greater purpose in death, than a life full of misery and inceldom... FOR FREE... r u kidding, you FREAKS Should be lining up to off yourselves for my cOLLECtioN !!!
>>39573772
> going on a vietnamese farming forum and larping as some mistress of death vampire mofuckin thing
dont u people have somethin better to do?
>>39573821
>dont u people have somethin better to do?
why even bother asking retard???????????no !
>>39573648
>can I be your dark mommy
in death?
Yes, please use my soul owever you want. It's all yours...mommy
>>39573857
good cause i dont either i got all night dog
>>39572804
Beer/any alcohol does not hydrate you. Its why so many people have hangovers. From the dehydration. Drink some water between the beers. You'll feel a lot less hangover
>>39573558
>american education strikes againYou have been muted for 0.1 seconds, because your comment was not original.
Well I drank too much and now I'm passing out. Goodnight all you wonderful robots and thank you for posting in my thread. I love all of you, sleep tight
>>39574239
good sleeps anon, you've earned it
>>39573894
well what are you waiting for anon?? that soul gem isn't going to fill itself...
>>39574239
haven't finished my wine and feeling depressed about not having anymore, FUCK UUUUUUni-ni