Suicide feels Thread

Bumping thread just because

Redpill me on Welcome to the NHK, is it good?

>>39547450
Watch it because everyone on 4chan has seen it

It sucks though, kinda gets good toward the end, kinda

>>39547450
Its ok but the conspiracy plot point is so fucking dumb

>>39547450
>Redpill me on Welcome to the NHK, is it good?


Yes its good but its not without its flaws its too realistic its like watching yourself in a mirror if you have ever been a hikki or neet before and that will make you very depressed also the animation is kinda bland and the anime technically seems to preach that that the only way to get out of the neet or hikki life is to randomly start working or get a gf which is simply not the case.

>>39547542
>not understanding psychosis caused by isolation

Yea it's stupid and totally not related to the plot of an anti social NEET

>>39546917
Thread theme:
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=1lWJXDG2i0A

>>39547481
Alright ill bookmark it. Also can relate, am 25 living at home and in community college. Life started spiraling down at 19, rarely left the house and drank alot and not in social situations only. Suicide thoughts went from will i be able to do it to when will i do it, so i get what youre saying.

Life at the moment is pretty chill as i have no social medias anympre and has stopped comparing myself to other people and only focusing on improving my self, im doing good in school and iv stopped smoking, i still drink but very rarely. Also im looking for a place to live. I started with this after i saw a post on /x/ actually, some guy said
>life has two options, either life has a meaning or it dont, if it do then suicide will only fuck up your chances in the next life and if it dont got a meaning then killing yourself is taking away your only chance at an existance which makes a life of anime, fapping and lonliness is better than nothing

Might sound stupid but it did do wonders for me, good luck bro.

>>39547593

How is this the thread theme?.

>>39546917
im usually a degenerate and always fucking depressed to shit but today for the first time in years i feel more alive than ever because im starting to put my negative emotion towards others and thinking about hurting them, its really making me feel better.

>>39546917
>can anyone relate??.

Yes, though i am too tired to talk about it.

>>39547759
>Yes, though i am too tired to talk about it.

Give us a short story anon.

Am I a piece of shit for this
>12 th grade
>girl who is in my math class is also in my English class
>say teacher decided to read her paper to class
>ask what it was about
>she says its personal
>i ask if it about getting your first period
>laughs and says no
>hears paper the next day
>its about trying to overdose on sleeping pills and waking up in a hospital getting her stomach pumped and then going to a mental institute
>i never say anything about it
>constantly think about blowing my brains out but too pussy to do it so just decide if i ever get a terminal illness thats the time

thats been years ago and i sometimes think about it and it makes me feel like a wimp knowing girls have impulsively done such but id only ever contemplate it

am i a pussy piece of shit?

>>39548045
>am i a pussy piece of shit?

No

this is what anime does, false hope to people like us, i think thats why we're addicted to it.

>>39548071
was that rude of me even though i was kidding around to say though?

>>39548095
No, how would you have known? It was a funny joke, anon.

>>39548203
thanks youre too kind

rock on

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>>39546917
>tfw recently stopped being a hikki-neet
i believe in you anon, you can do it! the first step is the hardest but it gets easier

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>>39548302

I really hope your right anon.

How can one mentally know that they could sui by gun if they ever came down with cnacer? honestly i dont like life much even though its not bad just knowing that i could die anyway bothers me id much rather die as my choice but at the same time mentally i couldn't just walk into my bedroom and buck myself without tons of nervousness and the worry of writhing in pain. my mom knew a guy who shot under his chin and his brain nearly fell out and now basically lives in a wheelchair and my mom was just like :what an idiot. dont you know god just sits back and laughs. that was divine punishment." so id just worry that after the trigger is pulled it wouldnt be lights out.

of course this is only in like 60+ years but i wanna be able to mentally know I could with no worry. any advice? thank you

does that make sense that even though i dont care for living i wouldnt do it unless i knew for sure it would only go downhill?

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>>39548302
>tfw no pure-hearted anime gf that just wants to make you happy and smile out of the goodness of her heart because she genuinely cares and loves you

>>39548581
>Pure
>Woman
Choose one.

>>39546917
where are you from? are you living in japan?

>>39548512
thats why you always aim diagonally up in the mouth, desu

>>39548608
>2d women
>pure
choose both

>>39548635
>where are you from?

The US.

>Are you living in Japan?

I wish

>>39548661
With an actual shotgun is there hardly anyway you could live from that even if it was a minute? If I had to guess id say blood loss would be just like 30 seconds

i know this just sounds edgy sorry if it is, but thanks for answering

>>39546917
Only normies and casuals like NHK real robots understand how retarded NHK was.

>Cutie grill is interested in you after meeting you once
>Someone how she watches over you for a retarded reason
>Made friends and had to ability to converse or talk to a neighbor/old high school student
Remember they weren't very close in high school how does one even strike up a conversation?
>In acquainted with other women and people and gets invited to a bascially turned to be a drunk beach outing
>Has people to stop him from killing themselves

>>39547450
Its shit.

>>39548722
so long as you aim it for a proper JFK, fuck no. you will be completely and utterly fucking dead.

>>39546917
>hikikomori
>Satou
>hikki
>Misaki

Speak english, faggot.

>>39548850
Jfk got shot in the top of the back of the head tho

i meant up and back diagnolly like 45 degrees

>>39548892
>Speak english, faggot.

Lurk morar newfag

>>39548922
well, the back of the brain is generally where you want to aim, that's where the brain controls all the vital stuff

>>39548922
yeah no, you're deader than fuck. you're literally ejecting brain, stem and all straight out your skull at 900fps.

>>39546917
>watched
You haven't seen true despair
Go read the novel
The anime is easy mode

>>39546917
Protip- Strongest Man Kurosawa is far better than NHK

>>39548976
lol yeah if one shot can destroy an plasti bucket of water a head would probably explode even if you flinched

>>39548941
I've been coming here for 10 years, nigger.

Not everyone on here watches your pathetic chinese cartoons. Evidently I dodged a bullet though. Tell me how that anime pussy feels lmao

>>39548817
>Only normies and casuals like NHK

NHK is far from a normie-tier anime when i think of mainstream normie-anime i think of Pokemon Dragon Ball death Note and Yugioh

>>39549011

You sound like your 12 years old this is a suicide thread we adults are broken and have gone through life you still have a chance kid.

>>39548994
>Go read the novel

Actually been doing that recently i like it better

>>39549087
The anime doesn't really go hard enough and it's a bit too comedic in some places.

>>39549129

That was an issue i had with it as well.

>>39546917
>can anyone relate??.

Yeah.

Was hikki, 2004-2012. Pulled out of it for a while. Lost it again last fall.

Tried to find something like the old AnonIB hikki forum, but any extant boards kinda blow.

I'm legitimately considering suicide today. It was hot today so on my way home from college I stopped for an ice cream. "One chocolate cone please" I say forcing a smile to try and be civil. The girl behind the counter gives me the dirtiest look and says "hold on a sec weirdo"

I was taken aback, I couldn't really process just how stupid it was to say such a thing while simultaneously being filled with anger, self hatred and desperation for an explanation as to why I'm looked at like this. This shit is every day and I'm used to it but today I just couldn't take it. I said nothing and made my way home. Sad thing is she was cute too but that couldn't matter any less. Some days it hurts to be a freak to the normies and I'm actually crying. Haven't done that in upwards of a year.

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>>39549249

This is a very sad post IKTFB

>>39549249
fuck dude thats gay sorry about that

who says shit like that? obviously only ego filled cunts. pls dont do it and just know that shes the person who should be ashamed.

i know how you feel, i someday just want to die at least i feel that way but even after dry firing guns against the roof of my mouth i just lack the nads to actually do it out of fear and worry but honestly i doubt ill ever do it even though i think about it daily. knowing i think about it feels pathetic and makes me feel like apussy knowing even robin williams went more hardcore than i could muster, women have done it and i cant do it. i guess im just mentally weak but you shouldnt feel ashamed.

i wish you luck

>>39549236
>Was hikki, 2004-2012. Pulled out of it for a while. Lost it again last fall.


That sucks anon.

>>39549249
>caring about what some fucking unmarketable retard slinging frozen cow juice says about you
come on man, you're better than that. what are you studying?

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>>39549249

That bitch should have been shot by Elliot Rodger.

>>39546917

Bumping, cuz I can relate.

>>39546917
>autistic deluding himself that reality is like anime
you see where's your problem? im a NEET aswell but i never had my hopes up with that fantasy shit

>>39549329
Thanks for the well wishes. I'm sorry about your situation, these feelings are terrible.
>>39549362
Thanks for the kind words. Biology and engineering at the moment, not too sure if any of it will pan out but I'm just moving along the days as best I can.

>>39547738
you are cancer, but do that maybe its what normies do, do it on those fucking normies ;)

>>39549692
bio AND engineering? goddamn you're like 90% caffeine. what kind of engineering? I'm looking at going mechanical

>>39549692
>Thanks for the well wishes. I'm sorry about your situation, these feelings are terrible.
Is wanting to be able to do it but not really able to make you weak? especially if celebrities and women have tried it? i feel like with a gun though its less of an attempt because you know theres gonna be extreme irrevocable damage

idk sorry for bugging you

>>39549697
Fucking learn how to type in correct English you prepubescent ape

>>39548694
agree
2D> sex robot>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>3D

>>39546917
>11 years
Holy fuck man. What was your trigger?

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>>39549811
>Holy fuck man. What was your trigger?


Well the reason i became a hikki in the first place there are many reasons it started with me refusing to go to school and staying home some days just sulking in my room because i was getting bullied at school there also was tons of drama inside my family home and my family would pick on me my parents were also divorced by the way so i had to live in 2 different houses and i hated that in my early hikki years i never talked to my family and always had my meals delivered to me upstairs and set outside my room or put on my computer desk i just play online games or watch YouTube all day there was also a year of garbage in my room at my dads house which i didn't throw away until 2 years later as for my reasons being hikki well they are the following.


>Be bullied throughout both middle school and high school for having autism and being myself
>Lots of drama going on inside family home (Will not go into detail)
>Socially awkward
>Hate going outside
>Do not agree with a lot of things in this society.
>Feel betrayed by own age peers because i was not socially accepted by them
>Shit parents (Still love them to an extent though)
>Closeted pedophile (Could never tell my parents i dont wanna be disowned for an attraction i did not choose)
>To red pilled about the world to live a normalfag lifestyle i guess thats what happens when you're on the internet 24/7
>Hate most people
>One part of me loves being alone, this part of me loves to get away from everything and everyone.
>Feel protected when inside my room

Those are pretty much my reasons i guess also think my parents divorcing was probably also a contributing factor.

>>39546917
Be strong brother. A Misaki is just around the corner for every one of us. We'll get to the end of this. Believe in the light.

>>39549811
probably life.

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To connect means being ostracized. A chasm between me and everyone else. That I am not human, people see that clearly. Laying down to die would be the best for everyone is wishing it, makes it abundantly clear. They do not want my echo and will kill. Everything I once thought: wrong. A maddening realization that I was worthless to those I loved. Friends were never mine, family never loved. Lock the soul in a cage and eat the key. In this world, I have always been alone.

>>39549617

Anon if your happy with being NEET thats fine others are not though.

>>39549735
Definitely not a weakness man don't treat it that way. To me it's just differences in the state of mind and an impossibly long list of contributing factors. I could never flat out say someone is stronger or weaker when it comes to pulling the trigger. I'm just some guy whose not in your shoes but hang in there all the same man.

>>39549923

That is true anon right now all i can do is hope. i guess or keep trying.

>>39549983

I like the way you think anon great post.

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>>39548892
>Coming to 4chan
>Not being aware of Japanese culture

Get out normalfag

>>39549606
>Bumping, cuz I can relate.

Thanks anon share your story.

>>39548302

Good luck anon hope you do good.

>tfw you wake up in the morning and don't die in your sleep.

I just can't stand anything anymore. It's all so unbearable.

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>>39551107
>I just can't stand anything anymore. It's all so unbearable.


I know how you feel.

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>>39551127

I just want to sit around and get stoned all day to be left the fuck alone. Can't stand filling out all these cuck applications for a job so I can afford to smoke again.

>>39546917
Dude just get a dog, dog's need walks and a clean house once you get out there it's easy to push the boundaries of your comfort zone maybe a cutie will come along and ask to stroke the dog.

>>39549236
>Tried to find something like the old AnonIB hikki forum, but any extant boards kinda blow.

could someone explain? is extantboards a site?

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>>39551107
>you will never fall asleep, blink out of existence and live in a permanent dream state

>>39551394
>Dude just get a dog

dont have the money

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>>39551208
>I just want to sit around and get stoned all day to be left the fuck alone. Can't stand filling out all these cuck applications for a job so I can afford to smoke again.

IKTFB

>>39546917
Different situation, same feeling.

Suicide by belt works well if you don't mind your family seeing your disgusting dead body with a violet face and shit like that. I don't know if they'll be comfortable to enter in that room in the future.
I think I might go under a train. You just need to jump not too soon (it might stop) and not too late.

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>was a late bloomer
>started going to parties and stuff when I was 20
>also lost virginity at that age
>23 now
>missed out on so much stuff
>more than made up for lost sex life but never feel completely in around normies

tfw will never be a normie

I ride the bus every day. I want to die everyday

>>39552024
>Lost virginity

Get out failed normie.

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>tfw hikki
>room is filled with food wrappers and junk
>rarely eat
>spend days playing videogames and watching things on youtube
>spend a huge amount of time just staring at the ceiling
There's no point in trying to fit into society. School was too hard and no amount of work will amount to anything but a sad life filled with struggling. As a child you're fed the notion that "you're special" from the moment you're born. But as time goes on you realize that clearly it's a huge facade to give people a purpose in life. being anything but "special" is a sentence to wageslavery for life. if you're not good at anything, then there's clearly no reason to exist. i want to get off this wild ride

>>39552035
>I ride the bus every day

How old are you 15? Jesus you have no life experience fuck out of here kid.

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>>39552193

This anon is red pilled about the world.

>>39552211

You've never heard of public transportation.

>>39552193
>>room is filled with food wrappers and junk
>>rarely eat
>>spend days playing videogames and watching things on youtube

This was me 10 11 years ago when i first became hikki im a lot more clean now.

>>39552431
>You've never heard of public transportation.

Next time be specific lol.

>>39552193
>There's no point in trying to fit into society.


This

>>39552487
How fucking retarded are you, that you needed to have bus and public transport specified for you, they are practically synonymous you stupid piece of shit

>>39552832
>piece of shit

So im a piece of shit just for giving you criticism?? whatever man.

Read the novel. It's good and less kawaii

>>39552917
>Read the novel. It's good and less kawaii

I actually am currently

>>39552035
>I ride the bus every day. I want to die everyday

IKTFB same

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>>39552024
>tfw will never be a normie

True but you are a failed normie.

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>>39548581
>tfw no pure-hearted anime gf that just wants to make you happy and smile out of the goodness of her heart because she genuinely cares and loves you
FUCK THIS FEEL

>>39552193
I blame it on the "youre special anon, you can be anything!" attitude. I wish it was like back in the old days that you just did what your family did, or at least you had that to fall back on. Most people these days have jobs that you cant really force your kid into.

>>39553493

Preach it brother speak the truth.

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>>39552193
I dont even have the qualifications to take on the job of fixing myself.

>>39553439
>FUCK THIS FEEL

I know right

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>>39553852
It has gotten real bad as of late, I recently had a dream where I fell in love with an anime body pillow. It was so warm and I was smiling holding it tight in bed. Then I woke up and realized that I don't have one and never will have a credit card or the privacy to own a daki. I sat in my bed afterwards, holding back tears that the dream wasn't real.

Back in highschool these dreams were about real girls, 7 years later they are about fucking pillows.

>>39553943

IKTFB i too feel alone when i go to sleep i cuddle with my bed sheets and pretend they are an lgf that is how lonely i am i wish i had a child sex doll.

I just want to ask this because I know there are a lot of depressed anons lurking in this thread. Do any of you ever spend entire days after you come home from work or school or whatever just laying around and doing literally nothing? I do this so often it frightens me and I really just want to find out what exactly causes this ridiculous apathy. Sometimes when I feel like shit after work I just spend the rest of the night laying on the couch listening to music or just worrying about life until I go to bed like I used to do when I was hikki. It's gotten so bad that I really have to force myself to take a shower before bed and sometimes I don't even eat dinner.

>>39553851
>I dont even have the qualifications to take on the job of fixing myself.

Same

>>39554218
I do this shit as a hikki, dont have motivation to do fuck all. You really need something to push you over the edge to change your life, like in Welcome to the NHK.

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>>39554276
>I do this shit as a hikki, dont have motivation to do fuck all. You really need something to push you over the edge to change your life, like in Welcome to the NHK.


This

>>39554276
I just kind of thought that once I got a job I wouldn't do this anymore. I thought I would spend my eight hours a day working and then go home and do the stupid shit I used to do when I am alone. It worked for a while but now I don't even game as much as I used to, I just sit around and let my mind go off. Maybe it's just the depression but I really would like to figure out if there is more to it than that. If you don't mind me asking, do you have any sort of diagnosed mental illnesses or is there perhaps anything undiagnosed that you suspect you may have?

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>>39554276
>dont have motivation to do fuck all.

IKTFb same i lost all motivation

>>39554432
>don't even game as much as I used to, I just sit around and let my mind go off.

I know this feel

>>39554432
Pretty sure im depressed. I cant get motivated to do anything. For example, im a weaboo and I tried to learn Japanese. That lasted 2 hours. Even normalfag tier hobbies, like running, I tried and went out 4 seperate times and eventually I couldnt motivate myself to go anymore, it wasnt even because of pain, I could run.

I also was in your position, I got a job thinking money would give me confidence, hobbies etc..., but I had to quit eventually because I simply could not get out of bed in the mornings. I would come into work late, sit on the toilet at work for long periods of time, I just couldnt take it anymore. That confidence from getting a job just never came to me (8 months).

Living with my parents, I never was really pushed over the edge since I could just fall back on my parents. No matter what it is, I think once that safety net disappears, most NEETs and depressed people will face reality and set out to change their life. Its like that survival instinct has to kick in to make us get off our asses, but until then, I dont think we can do much. Like I think it would be rare for a person who is being threatened to getting kicked out of his house to do nothing and end up homeless instead of actually trying to find a job.

Also having people in your life to talk to you and help you through the tough times, or share any possible hobby you have with is important. But most people here, me included, are social outcasts so finding people to do this with is impossible. Parents dont count as they are usually biased in thinking youre perfect.

I never really researched the topic, but my complete lack of motivation, or interest in anything is not normal, and I kinda just want to blame it on depression. Well it might be something like ADD since I cant focus on anything for long periods of time and also have to look around at things.

Dont know if answers anything, but i just though id blogpost a bit. (Cont..)

>>39554711
>im a weaboo

How does being a weeb and depressed go together?/.

>>39554432
>It worked for a while but now I don't even game as much as I used to, I just sit around and let my mind go off. Maybe it's just the depression but I really would like to figure out if there is more to it than that.
>>39554711
Cont

I think its because growing up, i never took anything seriously, or pationately, not even videogames. I would just play them to pass the time or endlessly grind. So I never built them into a hobby, even if videogames are a bad hobby to begin with. And so when the depression starts, i dont have any hobby to save me, so i just sit there, thinking of excuses as to why I became like this.

I feel less of a normal person that those autists that write sonic fanfictions because even they have enough interest in something to create something, to do something. I have nothing.

End blogpost.

>>39554939
>Slowly stop fitting in, dont mentally develop passed being a teenager
>Spend more time shut in, which leads to being on the computer more
>Stumble upon anime which is mostly targeted towards teens
>Wow this is so cool!
>Consume anime
>Stray further away from societal norms, forget what its like to have normal interests
>When finally forced to face the music, realize youre not normal
>Become depressed

Kind of how it works I think. If you maintain some other normal interests you usually dodge the depression.

>>39555062
>>Spend more time shut in, which leads to being on the computer more

I can relate to this.

>>39547542
>>39547566
The conspiracy makes a lot more sense in the manga. IIRC those wacky moments of him talking with his house objects are after getting high/going on a bad trip, combined with Satou's crippling loneliness. In the anime they just sort of come out of nowhere.

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literally only living to spite the retards that would revel in my suicide...for now

f-fuck them i can tolerate this for a little longer !!

>>39555351
>f-fuck them i can tolerate this for a little longer !!

Same

>>39548512
>mentally know
differense between knowing and mentally knowing?

>>39554992
>growing up, i never took anything seriously, or pationately


Same here anon

>>39554218
I did this almost every day during my last two years of high school. Any time I wasn't doing thing I was playing Runescape.

Im thinking about faking a depression to be free and relax.

>>39546917
How can you tell if you're depressed?

Because I've been in a bad state of mind, at least since mid-2015, but I don't know if it's depression or something else.

>>39556267
>How can you tell if you're depressed?

Sometimes people can just naturally know.

>>39556285
Sorry, I didn't mean to directly ask OP, I meant to ask the thread in general.

>>39556267
Complete disinterest.

>>39556327
Then it's depression I guess.

Fuck.

>>39556354
>Then it's depression I guess.
>Fuck.

This

maybe you should stop looking to others to save you

Instead of fear, pity and depression being your main emotions turn it into hate

Hate everything, yourself, your parents for bringing you into this world, this entire world. Get back at it change yourself by hating one aspect so hard you do something about it, the another and another. Get a job you hate and suffer in it everyday, use that hate to progress.

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>>39556626

Sounds like you want me to suffer more.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Ei2izPLpHc true r9k theme

>>39556267

>disinterest in everything
>unable to find joy or brightness in anything
>be too miserable to sleep/want to constantly sleep because it's better than being awake
>actively thinking about your own suicide often
>fantasize about all the violent deaths you could encounter, hoping that a freak accident takes you out without feeling the pain of it
>can't relate to anyone your own age

I don't know, those are my own symptoms off the top of my head. I'm sure there's a lot more signs and signals.

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>>39551127
>>39551208
oh fuck this is going to be me one day. I never want my NEET years to end, why can't I mooch off centrelink forever.

>>39547450
It's good if you're already at rock bottom. I'm glad I decided to watch it for the first time when I already felt the worst I'd ever felt.

>>39556721

Video is blocked anon

>>39556686

yep suffer so much you either end your life or make it better.

>>39556783
>yep suffer so much you either end your life or make it better.

You must be a normalfag so you cant understand my pain i been hikki for over a decade because of - >>39549922
so i have been through hell you simply can not force a neet or hikikomori to start living a normal life it doesn't work like that.

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>>39555522
w-we can do it ... !!!! (right..???)

>>39556821
>w-we can do it ... !!!! (right..???)

I hope so anon

>>39556783

Fuck off normalfag you don't understand our suffering.

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>hikikomori since 2013
>tfw next year have to find a job or start studying again
>tfw government announces every hikikomori is gonna be forced into the military
>tfw i have to end myself before shit happens

>wanna fall over dead
>dont wanna try suicide
even with hanging it seems like that or a gun could go bad

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>>39557383
hanging yourself doesn't hurt very much. you just start to feel numb, first in limbs, and then some pressure in ur eyes and head. dont forget to set shoesies next to the chair and carve date and time into ceiling board first anon :-3 !

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>>39557530
ive felt of the two veins on my neck and pushed in on them at justbthe right angle and then in like 5 secobds my cision will begin fadibg but i let off beofore i pass out oddly it feels kinda nice.

id be afraid to shoot myself since my mom knew a guy who lived throygh it and she just was like "idiot. god sits back and laughs at people like him"

would a gun like this work affectivley if no one was gonna be around for a few minutes? im not to fond of the idea of shooting a shotgun in the mouth

>>39557530
>doesn't hurt very much
Not so sure about this. I'd say shotgun to the head is the easiest, followed by jumping from a high place onto concrete, the latter being available pretty much anywhere unless you live on some pacific island.

Anyway, if you hang yourself, do others a favour and try to take a shit and piss before you do it so others don't have to clean up after you.

>>39557383
If I had an access to guns, I'd have killed myself or tried to long ago. Instead, if I have to plan for jumping or hanging or whatever, I change my mind before going through with it. Having a loaded gun in my house would be truly the best, God bless America. Too bad I don't live there.

>>39556730
Thanks for the answer, that sums up my state of mind perfectly.

I guess I know the answer now.

>>39554992
>I think its because growing up, i never took anything seriously, or pationately

Same deal here, I watched my brothers have hobbies and social lives and shit but for some reason it never clicked that I should have them too.

I never really done anything for me, it's almost like I'm an observer not a participant in life even when I was a kid

>>39557579
where would you aim with a shotgun and is buckshot best? i just dont like the idea of in the mouth because the thought of recoil busting my teeth out makes me wince

>>39557304
Are you from Korea or something?

>>39557619
With shotgun you only have to worry to actually aim at the brain so you don't blow your face off instead. Then again I don't know much about guns themselves because like I said, I have no easy access to guns in my shithole. I only researched the easiest ways to kill myself.

>>39557304
Actually going to the military might be your chance, anon. If you can survive the early bullying, you might get pretty fit and maybe even gain some friends. If you think there are only Chads in the military, you're really mistaken, especially if other hikkis will get drafted along with you.

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>>39546917
don't let your sun go down on you op

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RsKqMNDoR4o

Just kill yourselves. It solves everything

>>39557579
>Not so sure about this.
It's only if you do it right and get the artery, causes you to pass out in a few seconds due to no blood getting to the brain.

Another simple solution if you have transport is to hit up a national park/forest in winter. Get drunk and then strip. Let hypothermia do the rest.

>>39557574
Choking is really exiting.
How did you do it?

>>39546917
I watched nhk twice, once when I was 17 and bawled my eyes out, then again last year and related even more, even though our circumstances aren't anything alike. I was only a neet for a year. I guess it was more just relating to the hopelessness.
I've been reading up on ways to kill myself recently, blowing my brains out sounds like the best idea but it's not really an option since I don't live in freedomland. An online friend recently went by CO2 poisoning, that seems comfy enough, just worried that I'll end up with permanent brain damage instead of dying.

>>39556626
no thx. it's hard to even hate anything when you're this apathetic