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About me? I'd say I'm pretty smart, to be honest.

>>39538479
>go to college but fail because of lack of concentration from frying my brain at 13-15 with weed
>be gifted failure, that all my old aspirational "friendos" dont want anything to do with
>can't continue one on one conversation because too socially retarded to understand how to converse with other people normally
>rely on spell check because I make spelling mistakes every second word

I've had bad cognitive issues my entire life up until recently that have made it near impossible to concentrate and learn.

I can't remember large chunks of my life, especially from my childhood. Most of my life has been a weightless daze.

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>>39538545

its unsettling how much i relate to this

>no friends because they became normal functioning adults and dont want to be seen in public with me, a social retard
>friends only hang out with me when i buy them drugs
>used to be good at writing essays but now needs spell check for every word

why even live

>>39538559
>I can't remember large chunks of my life, especially from my childhood.
That's normal for everyone silly, even smart people don't remember barely anything from their childhood.

>>39538479
i am 22 and cant tye my shoes
i hate being dumb and velcro
at least i graduated high school to be honest

>>39538559

me too

i dont even feel alive at this point its more just like im tending to a flesh vessel while time passes

i cant even tell my real memories from my fake memories (delusions/dreams/hallucinations)

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the first time i tried driving i drove a rental car into a ditch and then proceeded to drive over and broke my uncle's power box on his farm

completely wrecked the rental car and havent tried driving since

>>39538692
>i cant even tell my real memories from my fake memories (delusions/dreams/hallucinations)

That isn't a problem for me at least. I've had severe dissociations my entire though and never developed an identity because of it. I was basically catatonic throughout my childhood with reversed vegetative symptoms, staying immobile for hours at a time in states of acute depression and anxiety.

It caused me brain damage and gave me brain fog that lasted up until a few months ago.

>>39539068

i dont know how to stop my brain fog because i am literally always dissociating as time passes by

are you normal now?

I used to be really sharp and have some kind of super focus when learning and I could remember things incredibly easily. But about 5 years ago I started getting a brain fog that just won't go away. I forget things constantly and it takes me a lot longer to learn new information, assuming it even sticks to my brain. I graduated top 10 in my high school class and now 5 years later I work in landscaping with immigrants who can't even read their own language and I struggle to keep up their thoughts and have to be corrected often because I can't even get a handle on planting trees and shit

>>39539117
Yes. It went away after I started taking Lamictal. Then it felt like I could actually think like I should be able to once I started taking Wellbutrin a few months after that.

In my case, I have rapid-cycling bipolar II; you might have a different problem. Bipolar can literally give you brain damage, hence the brain fog and memory problems and dissociations. All of this was obfuscated by my social and behavioral difficulties, however.

>18 years old
>In HS
>2.0 GPA
>No skills
>Waiting to graduate with bare minimum and live in NEETdom
>Realize I can't because Mexican parents will force me to become a wagecuck, or send me off to die in a Mexican shit hole.

No redeeming qualities either. Definition of loser. Only good thing is that I'm a White Latino.

>>39538806
I drove my father's's truck into a ditch, and ruined my grandfather's barbed wire fence. Gave up since then.

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>want to shave my ass and my face
>shave ass first
I feel you

>>39539731

anon i am so sorry

i do that sometimes with soap use the soap bar and swipe it like a credit card and then remember i need to use it for the rest of my body

>>39538479
I'm definitely stupid. I somehow always find a way to try the most needlessly complicated and non-intuitive solution for very simple and common tasks.