A reminder You may be a chunk of coal but you all will be a

>>39525819
why lie to us? the truth is most men don't make it

I've been waiting on the good times since my early childhood ended.

>>39525878
its not a lie friend just keep at it things will get better I promise
>>39525887
Just keep going it may take a long time but the dark times will leave and the light will be in your life

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>>39525819
what possible good future could lie ahead for a schizophrenic and crohns disease having poly drug addict. at least i dont have to worry about money i guess

>>39525982
I'm not sure my friend I've not been in your shoes but just keep taking small steps everyday things will get better and even if it doesn't just keep trying I believe in you

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>>39526011
well im fortunate enough to have my moms support, my dads all but disowned me cause im a bad image for him when his coworkers ask how his son is doing. but my moms always with me and im so grateful for that

>>39526062
there you go we have to take the small positives in our life
You're dad sounds like not a good guy so don't worry about him just keep going and think about what your mom would want for you
I'm sure she wants you to lead a happy healthy life so just keep taking small steps and you will get there

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>>39526136
thanks mr bob ross poster

>>39526161
I know some random person from the internet isn't going to help but I want people to be happy so if I can help in some small way than its worth it

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>>39526315
youve helped more than you think.just a few words can mean a lot

>>39525819
>you may be a chunk of coal but you all will be destroying the ozone layer one day
FTFY

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>>39525982
omg! i have chron's disease too! it's debilitating and horrible.

>>39526539
yea do you get the perianal abscesses thats the worst part of mine honestly

>>39526675
nah. That's way worse than what I have. I'm sorry.

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>>39526912
yea shit sucks i have to get a needle on the inside of my buttcheek to numb it before they drain the abscess not very fun

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>>39526945
any friends?

>>39526958
i know a crank dealer that wants my dick and who sketches me tf out but hes the only real person i know here. i have a group of online friends so its not all bad

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>>39527011
are we long lost friends? im gay too.

and i don't have many friends either. i mean. i have a bf. but aside from that not much

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>>39527137
dog the crank dealer just sent me a text to call him privately and quickly i think im just gonna pretend im asleep lol and yea we might be i guess lol

>>39527137
fuck it dog im going in im gonna call him better to do it while im twacked than when im crashing wish a brother luck

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>>39527288
you should stop doing drugs in this way senpai. i hate to project but you should face your problems instead of running from them. At least then you can get prescribed medication that will help you and at the same time you can get high

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>>39527336
so i called him and it was actually a unexpected surprise he said he got some extra product so i could get some cheaper if i copped tomorrow.

but seriously you are 100% right i do drugs to escape reality and it hurts the people around me namely my mother who is pretty much all i have to be quite honest, she was an alcoholic so she always is supportive but never enables she doesnt know ive relapsed yet and when she finds out i dont think ill be able to look her in the eye. i was sober for 2 months (well i cheated a little bit and took some kratom from time to time but thats a very light drug compared to what i normally do) but yea theres just a lot of arrested development thats happened in my mind due to my drug use since i was 12, like most it started with weed then psychedelics then opiods until i finally found what i was looking for in meth, the first time i smoked it i stayed up for 2 days without sleeping and didnt even crash damn thing even had an afterglow. So i guess i still chase that high. I got money for my birthday which was last month and i just dont know what to do with money besides spend it on drugs its kinda sad but damn ive been doing that with my money since i was 12 so i guess i figured why change now. When i was sober i knew i was going to relapse the minute i started putting drugs back on a pedastal again, and voila guess what happened met a sketchy meth dealer on grindr and now im back to using (although i eat the stuff now instead of smoking it, helps prevent meth mouth) but yea this is a long tweaky ramble i know i need to stop but right now is a particularly stressful time because i may have to cut my father out of my life and my grandad who practically raised me while my mom suffered great depression after my birth is gonna die within months. Honestly if shit isnt better by the time evangelion 4.0 comes out ill probably just an hero. which is a cruel thing to do to my mother but i dont know man to live is to suffer as they say

>>39527638
so glad I was kept off drugs in my youth. look at this lost soul, he's a dead man walking.

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>>39527797
i a tweakin man walking u lil nibba

>>39527797
fuck you
>>39527638
Gotta quit dude. You have too. It's probably making your chron's worse too.

You have to do it for yourself. I would wish you luck but you're the one who has to make the change.

>>39527638
>met a sketchy meth dealer on grindr
where did things go so wrong in your life? do you suck dick for drugs?

>>39527881
funny enough he actually offered to suck me off for extra crank but i dont know where this man mouth been

but as for what went so wrong, a lot of it has to do with my formative years, my father was never really in the picture he showed up once every 3 months bought me something expensive then ran off as if he had done his duty of parenting me. my mom was an alchoholic so during high school i started getting into more serious drugs but by the time id get home from school shed be black out drunk, not to mention all the weird guys she met online that she brought over just to drink and fuck with (our room were far away so i didnt have to hear anything or else id probably be shooting heroin right now and have pawned all my computer products)what was i saying yea she brought over all these sketchy dude so she would get drunk i would get high and it was like the drugs were the ones really parenting me since no one else was there. Dad cared about his job/new family. Mom cared about getting drunk and fucking strangers, so the drugs basically were my parents. or at least im pretty sure thats how i ended up eating methamphetamine and staying up for weeks at a time

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if anyone read all of this then all i can say is thank you for allowing me to express myself i didnt come on 4chan tonight thinking id be talking about where everything went wrong in my life but hey when life gives ya lemons. moral of the story: dont do meth
thanks for letting a piece of my life into yours im gonna go fuck some nerds in tekken now

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I'm going to be burned to fuel some autists 3 terabytes of bronie dick nipple porn.

>>39525819
I haven't started trying, how do I start?

>>39528297
what/?????

what teh fuck does that even mean