How can I stop crippling depression from ruining yet another birthday?

>>39520101
I learned to not expect more than what I am. I'm pathetic but ignorance is bliss.

Don't celebrate on the day of; make an event for close connections on a date a month or so ahead/ before the date and anyone who doesn't come is right to be labeled"shit friend".
The spell I'm casting today on r9k is called "maturity"

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>>39520101
>birthday
>"Hey, Anon, what you doing for the big day."
>ignore them and wallow in silence and pizza hut pizzas wondering where it all went wrong.
>genuinely hate birthdays, because hate myself so much, and its painful to have attention
Been this way for a decade.

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>>39520101
If youre an indianafag we could get pizza and pretend to be normies for a night.

cocaine and hookers

You'll be dealing with shame and a shitty comedown but at least you'll be happy on your birthday. And if you get limp dick, just kill the hooker and claim self defense. Who's going to take the side of a dead hooker with coke in her system?

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>>39520204
>because hate myself so much, and its painful to have attention
This. I don't know what to do about it. I hate it.

Though a large portion of the depression also stems from being unable to visualize my future. It's my birthday, I am yet another year older, and nothing has changed, and sooner rather than later my lifestyle will become unsustainable. I don't know what to do, or have any knowledge of options that could be available to me.

Everything feels empty and out of my control.

Know that you're not alone, buddy. I know it can be hard. No matter how lonely you feel there is always going to be someone out there that cares. Have a good birthday if you can.

>>39520101
Get fookin hammered

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happy birthday anon. i know the feeling i dont have any friends that i actually know in real life so all my birthdays are just me and my mom and it can be hella depressing but life in general is hella depressing so what im saying is that you should start doing meth cause its fun and ill be your meth buddy