Just got out of a mental hospital for trying to commit suicide. AMA

>>39438969
Do you want to hang out? (Maybe pun intended)

>>39438981
I'm very lonely so yes. I don't care if it's a pun or not.

how did you get the balls to try? what method tried?

i just fantasize about what its liek to kms but im too pussy to because know every neighbor would hear it an feel like that would make people come and id lie

>wanna be able know I can kms at anytime I want
>know ill always be too weak to do it
>even though many people have blew their brains out it still feels very lonely and depressing tp think about doing even though if i had a serious illnes id wanna die but still be too pussy

i feel like a wimp because i feel like even if i was in pain id always be afraid of flicnhing, th pain, people coming and trying to keep you alive and how doctors would treat you if you did this

am i a pussy if even highschool girls have hung themselves but i would be afraid to

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Are you okay? How are you feeling now? Do you feel like you need to go back or did they give you a reason to live?

Were there cute depressed girls there?

Can you own guns anymore? Did they take any you had?

>>39438969
I was in a mental hospital for 3 days a few years ago for the exact same reason. it wasn't a bad experience honestly. I'd become so isolated by that point that the social interaction was kinda refreshing

>>39439005
I was there for a week, just pretended to be fine so they would let me out. I feel even worse now, I have no future.

>>39438969
I'm not in love! I'm not in love! I'm not in love! We are not in love!

>>39438997
Where's your ass at?

>>39439007
Not, just a lot of black people and fat women.

>>39439016
I knew a girl in highschool who tried oding on some kinds of pills, is something like that considered less "extreme" then say using a shotgun? even if the person with a shotgun fliched on accident? biggest fear would be shooting once and not being able mentally to shoot again and being remembered as a loser

>>39439050
The shithole of a state they call Florida.

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>>39439016
>implying seeking attention is a bad thing
>especially when you do want to die but don't know how to ask for help
You should really kill yourself, for real. You're too retarded to be allowed to live.

>>39439037
>pretended to be fine
You feel worse because when offered the help you need, you didn't take it. Fucking retard. Get some goddamn help and unfuck your brain. Please. I don't want to be an ass to you when you're so fragile but sometimes that's what people need. A reality check. And yours is, you are a stupid motherfucker--exactly what you likely say to yourself. But, you can change it. First step is going back into the psych ward and confessing all of your issues, and getting help for them. I believe in you. I truly do.

>>39439078
>The shithole of a state they call Florida.
Ah I feel you there man, I'm just in the shithole state known as texas, and I got out of the mental ward about 2 months ago, so I know how you feel on all these feels man.

>>39439016
I pills, drank a bottle of tequila, and tried to slit my wrists. Medics say I would've died if my mom (yep, I'm a complete loser) hadn't found me.

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>>39439055
Damn, so there were no girls like pic related.

>>39439122
I'm glad your mom found you. That's a sign that the universe wants you to get better. It can't force you to get better though. Only you can. Now please go back to the psych ward asap and get the help you need. There's nothing wrong with getting help or asking for it. What's wrong is not helping yourself when you desperately need it.

But...don't beat yourself up for that either. Just breathe.

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>>39438969
What was your attempted suicide method?????

>>39439078
tell Val hi for me

>>39439055
any qt black girls tho?

oh god how bad was getting your stomach pumped were they dicks to you and how bad was that charcoal shit

>>39439092
I tried to give it a shot, but Florida is ranked 50th in mental health. All I did was sit there 24/7, there weren't any therapists just other patients. Only reason I was there for over 72 is because they were so useless they wouldn't even see me to be evaluated for the first several days.

>>39438969
why kill yourself when life finds a new way of sucking every day? it's like the only lottery you always win.

>>39439155
Benzos and a lot of tequila. Tried to slit my wrists several times but barely got anywhere.

>>39439162
Not really, mostly just crazy old black men.

>>39439201
see

>>39439177

and can you no longer own guns? did they take any you had?

>>39439228
I can't afford a firearm, plus with my psyche history I probably can't buy one anyway.

>>39439177
I honestly don't remember anything past slitting my wrists. I just remember waking up up in a hospital bed.

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>>39439142

Not OP but when I was in the psychward for a month their was a qt asian like that. I wanted to date her when we leave but she was already taken by a homeless guy who was 43 years old. She was 18.

>>39439344
how bad did cutting hurt? did you sever any tendons (hopefully not)

and id consider cuts to be the most extreme suicides are using guns and shotguns "easy ways out" that take no balls?

tell us your life story op. whats going on? your age? do you have family?

>>39439396
I was so drunk I didn't really even feel it. And I didn't sever any tendons luckily. Apparently the room was covered in blood.

>>39439459
youve got balls i wish i did. id choose a shotgun but god failing at that would be awful

>>39439441
Just another neet. 18 with family. Dropped out of school and fucked my dream of joining the Marine Corps, I don't have anything anymore.

>>39439494
>18
>NEET
I fell for this fucking meme to and I'm 18, biggest mistake of my life.

>>39439515
ok so why are you a failure/fuck up?

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>>39439494

> fucked my dream of joining the Marine Corps
Same except I wanted to get into the leaf military. CJIRU was my goal.

Did you finally get the attention you were craving? Go eat a shotgun shell you 18 year old momma's boy faggot.

>>39439547
Because I was born a ginger, was never allowed to go to school, fucked up my one chance at teenage love and having a girlfriend. Have actual autism, so yeah, it's pretty safe to say I'm a failure.

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>>39438969
K, I've been in a psyche ward in 3 different hospitals, have been 4 times, one being for a month for ECT. Since you tried to kill yourself did they try to get you to do ECT? Also how did you fail at killing yourself?
I'm at least intelligent if I tried to, jump off a 100ft or more drop into the ground, or go to a firing range, slightly complicated if you have no tactile awareness, hanging. Let me guess, are you a woman?

>>39439581
not him and not suicidal but is firing a shotgun in the mouth more "extreme" than taking pills? also whats the odds if fired 45 degrees back and up that youd need to be able to fire it again or botch it since the recoil could move the gun? even then could any emts save you?

>>39439643 me
Sorry was in other thread did not see

>>39439201

>>39439183
Why don't you give your life to a strong man or mommy gf? Or become a butler/maid and server some rich fags daughter until she grows up?

>>39439659
With a shotgun you'd blow your fucking head off.

>>39439706
There was a really cute nurse in the facility, but there's no chance he would ever love me back. You need education to become a butler/maid, I have nothing.

>>39439580
Same, except I wasn't so ambitious, I just wanted to do infantry.

>>39439494
Why are you so upset? You can collect NEETbux now. You never have to work a day in your life!

>>39439746

Well then ever thought about investing in weed? Maybe going hiking through the mountains?

>>39439659
Jesus.. not the guy you were talking to but simply aim at the fucking head (put it on your head) and pull the trigger, It is as simple as moving. You know like when you born? Moving move your body parts?

>>39439183
Oh wow 50th? Most likely a lie..
>>39439643 This is me.

Try Missouri.

I now reside in Florida also and my last visit was in a Florida hospital, Ft Myers area. It was the best treatment I ever had in a hospital in my entire life. This is Anecdotal though.

>>39439357
The thought of that filthy old homeless fuck corrupting that qt asian and having her do unimaginable things for money and drugs, is making me DIAMONDS.

>>39439775
i just meant is a shotgun a more extreme or serious method than taking pills is?

>>39439122
I'm pretty sure they lied to scare you off trying again with really lethal doses this time.

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You think being a suicidal neet is bad?

Try being a unassumingly successful robot with everything but a will to live. That's just irritating. It's easy to have nothing and want to die; it makes sense. What if you've done everything you're supposed to do and you still have no reason to go on besides putting all that struggle to waste? What then? I can't even rationalize death as a satisfying way out.

>>39439889
Yes of course it is.

>pills
High chance of survival, often done to get attention

>shotgun
Dead

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>>39439754

>Infantry
I heard that it's ridiculously hard to get into infantry now. The only people getting into that trade are insanely fit and ones who also have a college degree get priority.

>>39439853
He was native and had blue hair. My self esteem took a nose dive that day. They got married last I heard.

>ambitious
yeah but CANSOFCOM are the only people who are actually getting deployed. I was applying for Weapon's tech first and then

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>>39439889
... Yep, it sure is.

What's your super duper original gender?

>>39440121
MtF

real men would have picked a violent enough method to not come back

>>39440152
I figured. I'm in the same-ish boat. It doesn't get any better in "recovery". All you do is brainstorm ways to succeed next time. The last was my third attempt. Hopefully my next will be my final.

>>39438969
did they actually help you or did you have to act your way out?

>>39440022
When I was finishing high school Canada was still in Afghanistan, so I probably wouldn't have had trouble getting in. I have back problems among other things though, so the military isn't an option for me.

Why CJIRU? It seems pretty obscure and specialized to be someone's goal. I haven't even heard of it up until now.

>>39440344
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>>39439037


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>>39438969
>Just got out of a mental hospital for trying to commit suicide
If you got out it's because you succeeded.

>>39440005
Probably because subconsciously your mind is telling you to shut the fuck up and continue what you are doing? This is for your last sentence. Just keep at it.

>>39440364

>Why CJIRU?
I don't know why really. I think it just had to do with the fact that they're a specialised SOF group. Plus they get a good amount of deployments. From what I heard their training is ridiculous, like doing 20km full ruckmarches with their chemical suits and gas masks on the whole time.

>>39440529
Doing what I've been doing ruined the only relationship I think I'll ever have, albeit shitty and miserable. I have nothing to expect except meaningless quantitative success with no experience worth living for.