>used to be evil meth fiend doing half a gram most days every day. sometimes up to a gram a day
>spent all day being evil, shitposting on /r9k/ furiously spamming hateful things trying to get others addicted to meth
>spent all day sexting/cybering with married women trying to cuck their husbands as a sick degenerate fetish
>killing myself in my room by doing so much drugs and going crazy from the meth
>hateful person who hated the world because born with bad mind
>ruin tubes in my cock by masturbating in weird positions on meth, can't cum any more theres a blockage
>decide to open my mind to God being potentially real and give love a chance instead of cucking people
>refuse treatment for addiction, want to die on meth and other hard drugs
>spirit appears in my room and talks to me. it's female
>tricks me into letting it possess me
>gets me committed to psych ward since i wont get help
>takes away my meth withdrawals and cravings so staying off it is really easy
>talks to me all day in the ward to keep me busy and encourages me to get better
>reaches inside me with ethereal hand and touches the tubes in my cock for a short time. i can cum again afterward freely
>over time teaches me God is love and forgiveness
>teaches me how to not be arrogant, angry, bitter, rude, or hateful
>teaches me about love, kindness, being less selfish, and helping others, and forgiveness
>punishes me for my bad behavior a bit but is merciful
>police searching me for weapons and the spirit tells me to just walk off mid weapon search. I do. Cops just let me go and offer to give my ID back.
>might have been helped by an angel
Don't believe the Christian Bible is 100% right. Don't believe in an eternal Hell or that God wanted homosexuals stoned or wanted slavery. I don't think Yahwe is the highest God. But I think there is an all powerful God who is all love wisdom and mercy. Don't know his name though. He helped me a lot and fixed my life up. Still need to work on not being lazy though.
Bump for others with experiences with the spiritual
yes. i will try to be brief with mine
>early 2016, scared by conspiracy theories, particularly obnoxious christian ones
>despair, literally think i am going to hell if i don't accept something that i don't intuitively think is right
>late 2016, august, get really addicted to pot and other stimulants
>september, move in with people who do a lot of drugs, steal drugs from them quietly but take stuff they won't miss
>able to be high all the time, can no longer say no even though i know i'm fucking up my life
>seriously, there was a 24/7 craving with me
>september 20th, have a really bad trip, go outside, think i'm being gang stalked
>meet some native american homeless guy, we have a conversation, tells me to be a gnostic and stay the fuck away from orthodoxy, and other stuff like don't do drugs
>i get real spooked because it feels spooky
>go back home, sleep
>wake up and addiction is completely gone
wew
>>39368449
Nice man. It's great when God heals us instantly or very quickly. I'm so glad he did it to me.
>>39367817
This sounds like the journal post of a schizophrenic person.
Maybe he just had a bad trip and hallucinated all this shit out of a repressed desire to improve himself.
>>39368745
>>39368785
Nope, had someone help me.
>>39368745
Agreed. OP is not touched by an Angel,but touched by drugs infused dementia. RIP.
>>39368869
How does a hallucination heal my broken cock the moment it touches me?
>>39368990
Ah yes. Forgot about that! You're right you have been touched by a lady god and she repaired your dick.
>>39367817
>ruin tubes in my cock by masturbating in weird positions on meth, can't cum any more theres a blockage
>reaches inside me with ethereal hand and touches the tubes in my cock for a short time. i can cum again afterward freely
Well, that answers my question.
>punishes me for my bad behavior a bit but is merciful
Masturbation?
>getting my paycheck
>pay rent/bills
>got like 5$ left in my wallet
>found 20$ on the street while I was going to buy some ramen
>>39369327
No. She punished me for the cucking I did to others in the past. When I am lazy or selfish. And when I'd buy meth after she removed my physical cravings and withdrawals. I bought it because I wanted to have sex with her on it and I wanted to use it moderatly. She just let me buy it then tormented me after I started using it until i threw away the 8balls. Luckily she still helps me even after I did that. Haven't used meth in 2 years and 3 months now.
>>39369546
Glad you're doing so much better.
Tell her I said "hi".
>>39367817
you might have brain damage. have you seen a doctor since youve been discharged?
>>39367817
If god exists he's having a right good laugh at me. He doesn't care.
>>39369626
Yeah, my heart is fine and I'm fine. I don't have brain damage. Angels and God are real bro.
>>39369642
i mean, i personally havent experienced anything but if its helped you change your life for the better im glad.
>>39369691
Thanks anon. I hope you get to experience something from God one day.
>>39369636
That's how I felt years ago. That changed eventually.
>>39369546
Wait this astral being does you? Is she a QT?