Exact moment you became a robot

>4 years old
>have a nightmare about killing my family and BBQing their corpses before sensually eating them
>have never seen anything so violent IRL
>crying and scared af, run to my parent's room and try to explain why I'm so upset
>by explaining the nightmare in vivid detail
>"it's nothing. I'm trying to sleep. Go back to bed."

>spend the next 20+ years fighting with horrible intrusive thoughts and nightmares literally every night

>>39366814
That is the most badass, alpha powermove you could have done, though, OP, and you were only 5. To me it sounds like you have immense potential as a chad if you can find a way to unlock it.

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>be born
>two years later
>little brother is born
>more attractive, faster learning, charismatic than me at an early age
>be 6 years old
>cousins, uncles, aunts call me into a room
>"Anon, your parents love your little brother more than you. He's always been the favorite. It's not right but that's how it is."
>spend the rest of my life reminded that I have and will always be considered less than my younger brother

Scars like that don't heal at all

>>39366814
>Be in first grade.
>teacher comes and asks eveybody to tell about themself to the class.
>happily ask the teach to be the first one to talk.
> Starting telling everything to the class about my self.
>girl cuts me off and says:"you are weird".
>entire class start calling me weird.
>run out of class crying.
Good ol' 1998 first grade.

>>39367146
>this was me at 11
>got meds
>now I'm depressed instead

>>39367808
>I'm 26 now
>got the intrusive thoughts under control with years of therapy and medication
>still have nightmares every single fucking night without fail
>no one knows how to fucking fix it
What worked for you anon????

>>39366814
>born
>lacked normal human emotions
>rarely cried as a baby

Fast forward a couple of decades, and I'm still just as soulless as ever.

>>39367974
I stopped having dreams almost completely and now I bring up the thoughts instead of them being intrusive.
I don't really know why the first one happened but I think the second is just me trying to think of a new way to punish myself.

So no helpful answer desu

>>39367393
This is hard for me to believe.

>>39366814
Well that was a fucking dumb joke.
Glad it blew up in their face.

>christmas
>little sister gets loads of big expensive gifts
>only thing I get are aldi 2euro nail scissors

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>>39366814
>3rd grade
> I would try to tag along in social groups
>follow them on the playground and laugh with them
>they'd just give me a dirty look and ignore me
>"nobody asked you, femanon"
>tried being their friend for almost a year
>eventually they started being mean to me
>cried to principal
>principal told me he can't force people to be my friends
>that moment I realized I had no friends

>>39367393
>>cousins, uncles, aunts call me into a room
>>"Anon, your parents love your little brother more than you. He's always been the favorite. It's not right but that's how it is."
Why the fuck would they do that? I need some context otherwise this may be bullshit

>>39367393
Is he Chad now?

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I always wanted to be a girl but I also wanted to fit in social situations. I got put in psych hospitals a lot and still wanted to be a girl and tried my best to be normal. Then I got laid a few times with the same girl (3 years older than me I was 19 I think) it wad physically painful bc I didn't have a foreskin. Anyways fast forwards a few years and I get hospitalized again, put on meds etc all over. I researched all the stuff that's broken with society and sucked a stranger off in his car lol. I still live with the old divorced guy that adopted me. Now I go to college and am kind of a robot I guess. I'm not really interested in participating I guess.

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>Be 12
>Hanging out with at the time Chad friends
>I was kinda annoying at the time, said a lot of dumb shit and stuff like that
">Anon, it'd be best if you didn't talk"
>Didn't say a word for the rest of the day due to the way that surprised me
>Now i get the reputation that i'm annoying and weird/quiet
Hearing that from my friends made poor little me shatter inside. That stopped me from developing socially and had have trouble being social ever since since i don't want to say something dumb and make myself look like an idiot. But at the same time me acting that nervous is more than enough to get every person i meet the impression that i'm "the weird guy"

>>39368235
That's fucked up dude. It's shit like this that can take a lifetime to get over.

>became a robot
wtf is that supposed to mean

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>be 7
>swimming lesson during P.E
>go to pool
>everyone gets into swimming suits
>I shower and forget to put my swimming shorts on
>put towel on my back and go to the others
>teachers are explaining something to us
>suddenly girls start to laugh
>they point on me
>i notice that I'm standing there naked in front of my class
>to make it worse I become embarrased and I yell I DON'T HAVE SWIMMING SHORTS!
>everyone laughs as fuck while I run to changing room

>>39368462
At least I understood that my familly didn't like the fact that I started doubting the existence of god, still have poor relations with them to this day

>>39368488
Maybe op meant realized
Some people take a while to realize it I think

Here's my roballs

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>>39368062
That is a blessing.

>>39368168
Thanks anyways man. If it helps at all, exposure therapy was enormously helpful when i was at my worst with the intrusive thoughts. Antipsychotics helped a lot too. I hope you feel better.

>>39368191
>>39368328
My family has this favoritism thing where the unfavorites are supposed to be the black sheep of the family and of course, the favorites are the ones who can be garbage but can do no wrong.

My mom was the middle sister of three and the unfavorite. Because of this, she fucked off from the family for like 15 years, had a good, happy life and decided to come back in contact with them when I was born. So, for as long as I remember, this caused the rest of my family to have a grudge against my mom and subsequently, my brother and I as well.

On that particular day, my family was mega pissed at my mom because they had a family function and neglected to tell my mom that practically the whole family would be there. I guess they thought they'd all confront her for "abandoning" the family but she saw through it and flaked but instead left my brother and I there for the day to play with our cousins.

That's when that happened and they pointed out all the favoritism shit that my mom did mostly out of habit because of how she was raised.

>11 years old, girl wants to go out with me
>decline, busy playing games.

>>39367393
i hope your younger brother fucks your wife aswell

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>be me, few years back
>14
>comfortable around women, cool with the chads, distant from normies
>large Friend group
>very in touch with my emotions
>didnt know much about dating or sex, raised in very conservative Christian household
>asked a guy to come watch a movie with me, he was new to the school and I wanted to make him feel welcome
>"no dude are you fucking gay"
>ask what gay is
>says guys who have sex with guys
> ask what sex is
>shows me a porn he has on his phone (it was a sitty cam slit fucking her negro boyfriend)
>instantly become addicted to masturbating
>ridiculed for years for not knowing about faggots or sex
>years of masturbation make me incapable of socialization
>mfw

>>39367008
/thread

pussyjuice

>>39369255
>Didn't get the birds and the bees talk until he was 14
Sorry to hear lad, your parents practically set you up for it.

>>39368347
He was and now he's just an overworked father of 2.

>>39369239
That implies I could even get or keep a girlfriend for more than a month.

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>>39368062
They say I was born and didn't have the same reactions and imitations other babies had. I was always the weird kid that didn't act like everybody else. Probably 5th grade when I figured out that people didn't like me and thought I was weird.

>>39369255
You must be 18 to access this site

>>39366814
>all older siblings are from mom's first marriage
>by the time I get into high school they're starting to shit out Phds while I'm only doing average
>Mom asks why I can't be more like her real children

>>39368402
>old divorced guy that adopted me
Explain? How did you meet him and become acquainted?

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>have to present for talent show
>me and friend decide to our memory of all the pokemon
>start presenting and face turns red due to awkward stares
>presentation gets interrupted by teacher who says it technically doesn't count
>quietly take seat cheeks burning
It sounded good in the beginning.

>>39369352
He picked me up on the open market with his then spouse before I was born

>9th grade
>was still a normie kid
>had a gf
>at winter dance
>been dating for roughly a month
>told by like 4 people at once that she's cheating on me
>instantly shocked and confused
>ask every one for confirmation
>break up with her
>swear off relationships from then on
>view them as wastes of time and energy
>never work on socializing, charisma, or confidence since I don't care about gfs or sex

Why did I ever agree to be her bf, it indirectly ruined me. So now I'm an asexual, asocial, loner trying to survive. I did get an xbox controller from her that I still use

>>39368450
I can relate.
I think moving during right before middle school fucked me up socially. I had alright friends back in elementary school. I was a bit wierd back then but isnt everyone?

I moved during 5th grade I belive? I didnt really have any friends so everyone knew as the new kid who does talk much.
At on point my teacher was like. >you still dont have any friends yet

I honestly dont know who I am. Some people know as that wierd guy and others know me as they lozer loner guy or that guy who doesnt talk much.
When I was in middle school and high school I wished so much I could move one more time and get a clean slate.

Im starting college soon but it might be too late for me. I have no social skills and will probably die alone.

>>39366814
Chad move desu dickhead parent btfo

>>39366814
>born
>mom passed me to dad
>dad passed me to his mom
>grandma passes me off onto a computer
>grew up learning everything from the internet and video games
>never learned emotions or how to express them
>plus all the other shit that comes with having a parent

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>last day of freshman year, before summer
>cute stacy I had a crush on comes over to me
>"hey anon, did you get good grades?"
>me almost sperging out because she's talking to me
>pull myself together and talk to her for a couple of minutes
>"ok anon, well have a nice summer!!"
>I'm proud of myself because the convo went pretty well
>stacy walks over to her big group of friends waiting for her
>"ok, that was the first time this year I said a word to anon!!"
>they all erupt in laughter
>...
>I spent all summer inside playing videogames

>>39368062
This is exactly me. Getting tested for autism now.

>Be in middle school
>Joking around with friends
>Jokingly hit on one of the girls
>"This is why girls don't like you anon, you try to hard"

In that moment my entire life until then flashed before my eyes, it made me think about what I said and did to the point of overthinking paranoia. I got quieter and quieter and more reclusive. It's amazing how much a single line can change your life.

>>39368062

I haven't cried in about 11 years.

Feels empty man.

>3rd grade
>Literally too shy to tell the teacher I have to pee
>Try to hold it all day
>Make it all the way to the end, but break down and piss myself in the middle of telling the teacher I had to pee
Also same year my sister had her lazy eye fixed, but mom never even acknowledged mine. Was also the same year my sister started hitting me for little to no reason, like she beat the shit out of me with her cast while we were waiting for our mom in the car and I still have no idea what triggered it and she caught nothing for it. ALSO that year for her birthday the same sister came home to a bed full of toys our dad had gotten her while I got jack all shit. Didn't truly realize how fucked up a person I was until middle school where I was called into the guidance counselor's office nearly every day trying to figure out why I couldn't function like other kids and why I had only books for friends.

>Be 14
>There's a girl I liked
>Play Magic: The gathering with her. She's really bad but I let her win sometimes
>Really cute and friendly, nicest person I knew
>Even holds my hand a few times
>I want to ask her out to homecoming dance
>Disappears from school a couple days
>She acts weird for a while when she comes back, getting fatter
>Breaks the news to everyone she's pregnant and the dad's going to be some cowboy looking dude who gives her rides home who's almost 30.
>Says she's taking that guy to the dance even though he's basically a pedophile
>She gets banned from the dance, principal won't go for it
>I don't take it well, but bottle it up inside
>Skip homecoming dance, found out the punch was spiked, but with soap, not alcohol, and everyone got diarrhea, fun fact, but not really related to me and my story
>Don't bother with other girls since most of them are skanks and hoes or weird dogfuckers (like they literally brag to the other girls about fucking their pets)
>Most of these girls were black, by the way.
>By the end of highschool most of the girls are either pregnant, have a baby, or have visible herpes or herpes related scars on their mouths
>Only virgin in my whole school, half the class thinks I'm retarded or something
>Skip prom, found out there was basically an orgy at the afterparty later and they all got chlamydia, dudes talking about getting wooden rods in their dicks by the doctors and their piss burning
>I'm pretty much turned off of trying to find a girlfriend or having sex with anyone forever.
>Sometimes when I see a girl I might like my mind jumps automatically to thinking of her with a creepy 30 year old cowboy and wondering how many cowboy cocks she's taken

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>>39371367

kinda similiar experience

>in middle school
>be normal kid and joker of the class
>have friends
>never afraid to talk infront of people etc
>new girl comes into our class
>jokingly ask her if I can copy her homework
>"stop trying to be funny anon, you're not funny or cool"
>couple of kids in my class agree with her
>I now start overthinking every joke I made in the past and who was laughing and who wasn't.
>get quieter as the years go by
>feel more insecure about myself every year
>when I finally hit college I didn't even talk to anyone for 4 years

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>be me
>known my oneitus for years
>she likes memes (not normie shit)
>we are really close
>physically grab eachother (not sexually, just random lifts or noogies)
>late one night
>text her
"Hey you awake?"
"Yeah, whats u?"
"Femanon... I love you okay, make of that what you will but i hope we can continue what we have, I think it would be this amazing thing if we could take it to the next level"
>read
"Oh anon thats so nice of you to say that but--
>world dies
i already have a boyfriend and dont want to cheat on him. maybe we could be somthing in the future."
>stare at phone
>neverdeltwiththisemotioninfeelin.gif
"haha you just got pranked"
>send her pic related
"oh anon you're so silly"
"haha yeah"
meanwhile im crying profusely and am in a pool of my own tears
"haha well see ya"
"yep"
>I've given up lads that's when i became a robot

>>39368298
>btw im a gril XD

>>39371547
>or weird dogfuckers (like they literally brag to the other girls about fucking their pets)
What
>Most of these girls were black, by the way.
That damage control.
>>Skip prom, found out there was basically an orgy at the afterparty later and they all got chlamydia, dudes talking about getting wooden rods in their dicks by the doctors and their piss burning

So this story is lies after you bottled it all up inside huh

>>39366814
>normies try to play dumb overused party prank on you
>be alpha and turn the joke around on them
I fail to see how this is a bad thing OP

>>39371547

what kinda shithole place do you live in?

>>39371547
>Breaks the news to everyone she's pregnant and the dad's going to be some cowboy looking dude who gives her rides home who's almost 30.
>Don't bother with other girls since most of them are skanks and hoes or weird dogfuckers (like they literally brag to the other girls about fucking their pets)

>>39367146
Dude, wtf with those Dreams.
>be 6
> dream about a woman giving birth
>I am in front of her I can't move neither talk I am just there watching
>The baby comes out, sudently a women out of nowhere pulls a knife
>stabs the doctor then the mother and the baby in the face
>I try to close my eyes and i still can see it
>wake up criying
I had others like that, but with death and mutilated black children.

>>39367146
Fuck. I got really depressed for some years, because I kept having nightmares of my eating my family, and thinking I wouldn't be able to control myself.
Then I saw a movie about demonic possessions and that fucked me up even more
thankfully I repressed the shit out of that, and only remembered everything because of your post

>>39371629
No, this is real. I went to school with a bunch of tyrones with zero filter.

And yes, a couple of the black chicks bragged about fucking dogs, I was weirded out too but they were somehow accepted among the other girls.

>>39371668
Sounds like a sub 1k population hick town. I knew some fucked up kids at my school, but it wasn't anywhere near that bad and I ended up moving to a bigger town about halfway through high school because my mom kicked me out anyway.

>>39371685
Intrusive thoughts. It's a mental disorder that you should definitely talk to a psychiatrist about so he can give you the pharmaceutical jew.

>>39371668
Northerneast Ohio. This kind of degeneracy is what happens when all the steel and rubber industries leave.

>>39371238
These are the saddest posts because they have an entire miserable life of pain behind them, all in a single post

Not a very interesting story but probably when my small group of close friends all turned against me one day at school for aparrantly no reason. It really shook me up and I think a large part of my trust for other humans died. It struggled alone and had to befriend the autistic/really unpopular kids to avoid being a complete loner. I later found out the reason they all turned on me was because I aparrantely swore during a car ride while one of my friend's dad was in the car, he then told my friend not to socialize with me because i was a bad influence, somehow he managed to convince all my other friends too. I know his dad was just trying to protect his kid but I'll never forgive that fucking cunt, he doesn't realize how seriously that fucked up my school years and life

>>39371720
I still have those Dreams sometimes but I am 20 and i saw fuck up shit so yeah maybe I will dream weird shit sometimes. But no 6 year old has to dream about a brutal abortion or the black dead kids the worst thing is that i can never close my eyes and in the death kids dream there was a creepy voice who would scream really hard. Call me a pussy but I think about it and it makes me scare even today

>be a normal kid
>have friends and no problem speaking to people
>fail 6th grade
>everyone laughs at me
>realize no one was my friend and I have been lying to myself
>really an obnoxious fat kid no one liked
>always yelling and being called annoying and retarded
>realize I had built myself a delusion
>suddenly my brain turns online and I become self-aware
>switch middle schools and turn into a beta among betas

>>39371547
>homecoming at 14
what?

>>39372260
Are you confusing homecoming with prom?

>>39372283
Maybe, high school is a blur of fuck ups.

>>39367146
you have OCD my man

>>39366814
i wouldve shoved it up his ass, now whos embarassed?

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>>39366814
>4 years old
>start school
>assholes start bullying me
>be considered an easy target to bully because I have no friends but am relatively mentally sound
>have to put up with this for the entire duration of primary school
>always too shy to make friends after that
Here I am now, the worthless adult that came about as a result of that bullying. I had far more vast intellect than any of them. I could have been a fantastic writer, the next JRR Tolkien, but I'm too miserable and lazy to write and years of depression have dulled my intellect.

>17
>At sister's birthday party
>One of her friends arrive early
>Parents hide him
>Sister asks ", who's car is that?"
>Parents say "it's anon's friend"
>Sister asks "Anon has friends?"

All hope for me gone.

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>>39371367
>>39371589
DELET THIS RIGHT FUCKGING NOWWW

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5th Grade. I don't remember what exactly caused it, but I turned against everyone I had ever met. For some reason I felt betrayed. I started hating them for one reason or another. I became an extreme loner and stopped caring about my grades altogether because doing well in school was something my parents wanted, not what I wanted. Before that point I was the #1 student in that school. The problem was in 8th grade when I entered into puberty, learned what masturbation was, and discovered my libido. I wanted a girl, so I tried to get along with people. I soon realized that my time spent alone had dulled my senses to the expectations of society. I had no idea how to even speak to people. Every word I said seemed to make them look down on me more and more over time. I was so bad at socializing that at one point my teachers called my mother in for a meeting because they thought I was retarded and needed to be moved into the retard program. My family were the only people I had really talked to for a few years leading up to that point so luckily my mom knew that they were full of shit. I eventually learned to blend in with normies, but I never became close to anyone because I felt that I could absolutely never be honest with them. Aside from that I hated everyone around me and was only interested in women for their vaginas. I found myself clinging very strongly to male chauvinism. Eventually I dropped out of high school, started watching anime, got into touhou games, and suffered what one person described as schizophrenia. These days the word chuunibyou is more popular. I had started believing that gensokyo was real and I was constantly looking for proof. I'm really glad that I grew out of that, no telling how messed up I would be if I had stuck with it.

>>39366814
>8th grade, I have a crush on a girl
>>said girl is a friend of mine but will literally call the police if I even dare to touch her. I think that she's just very reserved
>>One day, going-to-be Chad friend of mine slaps her ass and says "That's the worst ass I've ever seen, it's all fat!" Before running away
>>I ask if she's ok, seeming how "reserved" she was
>>She just says "I liked being touched by him, but I'm embarrassed since you where here"
>InstantAtomicBlackPill.exe
>>Realize most women are just sluts that crave for Chad's cock
>Proceed to fucking hate this society

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>be in grade 8 drama class
>the class has to get into groups of two to practice a scene
>everyone pairs up but I don't go near anyone because I was shy
>everyone goes to theother side of the room, it's just me and some girl
>teacher tells us to pair up
>the girl gives one look at me and says "Ew.", and just walks away
>sit down by myself, nobody cares
>spend the whole class thinking about how ugly I must be for that to happen
>develop self image issues, my self esteem takes a dive, and I begin to see females as unobtainable
>reject the idea of a girl ever wanting anything to do with me
>cannot find real life women attractive now

i hope that slut gets aids after getting stabbed with a heroin needle

fucking bitch

>>39366814
Is this what murrikans call entertainment?

>go through the trouble of making a caramel onion
>waste perfectly good food because it's so "funny" xD

The collapse will come.

>>39374083
>some third world shitter is crying about an onion wasted almost 22 years ago
lol

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>>39371589
FUCK ME THIS HIT TOO HARD AND TOO CLOSE

>>39368298
If that's actually what it takes to drive females to be sad, that's the most bumfuck retarded shit I have ever read, kill yourself.

>>39371589
I have a vague feeling that someone has told me that before, I just can't quite remember if it actually happened, but I feel like it did. Am I just blocking it out or what?

>>39366814
I got a stereotypical Just b urself you'll find sumbudee rejection email.

>>39374144
Murrikan slime.

>>39371297
This makes me feel awful. I would purposely go out of my way to include people who didn't seem to make friends as easily as I did. I did that because I knew what it was like to be alone. Now I feel like a giant dickhead. I didn't realize it came off like that.

>>39374373
No dude, that's still noble of you to do. That Stacy wasn't in the wrong either, it just became a bit awkward for her.

The world needs more people like you.

>>39366814
talking about making lemonade xD

>>39374880
Last year of high school I legit made this girl upset because she'd tried to be my friend all year since we were in the same class because I didn't sign her yearbook. Was actually kind of hilarious.

>>39366814
My exact moment was when i stepped into kindergarden and realized i have no friends and almost never talk to people.

13, I was on a vampire kick, later learned was due to mental problems I still deal with to this day
>On Xbox party chat with friends
>been acting like I'm a vampire for about 5 days now, even bit into my own arm enough to break the skin because I wanted to taste the blood
>friends are sick of it and start telling me off
>I squirm on the floor while telling them I'm just weak because I haven't fed recently
>they all block me and stop talking to me (I had moved away from them about 6 months prior)

I've been trying to get back in touch with them ever since I got on mess but they won't talk to me. The one that would we just don't get along anymore. Surcks man.

Don't some people actually eat caramel onions?

>>39368555
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w-what happened

>>39375482
He posted a picture of himself, which is against the rules.

>>39375400
Forgot to add this. The exact moment I fully realized that i am fucked socially was when my best friend left for high school when i was in eigth grade (she was a grade above me). Before i knew that i had next to no friends and that i was terrible socially, but most of the time i shook it off and wasnt too concerned about it, going about my usual hobbies. My friend leaving really set it in for me that I am alone, before what used to be hobbies slowly became escapism. The apex was in high school where i watched anime romcoms and put myself in the role of the guy, imagining myself hitting up these girls and them falling in love with me while i figured out how undesirable i was irl.

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>>39371367
>Tfw I used to crack jokes all the time and make the class laugh
>Now I can barely speak in front of people
Why did things just have to get worse?

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> A bunch of girls like me in middle/early high school
> They range between 1-3/10
> Clearly lusting after me, even I'm not dense enough to be ignorant, but I pretend to be
> Wonder if these are the types of girls that are interested in me, how bad must I really be
> Begin to question my self-worth
> Eventually tell myself that I don't care about girls and insisted that I was asexual and only liked anime girls (yes, this seriously happened)
> Slow downward spiral in mental health until I had the first of many nervous breakdowns on a vacation when I realized that I desperately wanted a gf and had been lying to myself all throughout high school
> Became convinced I would never get a decent gf since only ugly girls liked me
> Isolated myself from everyone
> Became incredibly anxious, scrutinized every single thing I did
> Succumbed to two crippling bouts of depression that lasted half a year each that got me kicked out of college both times
That one night changed me forever. Six years later from that night in particular, two removed from my last horrible depressive stint, I still don't function right and get anxiety attacks that fuck me over. I suspect my most recent will cost me my job. I'd care more if I actually liked it, though.

>>39369331
This makes me think of the time my Mom mentioned how when I was a toddler I fell on my hand and broke the wrist, but they didn't even know it was broken because I didn't cry until I hit it again much later.
I guess people like us were always destined to be completely disconnected from this world.

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>>39375418
i hope this is real

and original

>>39375600
you were the class clown, anon

>>39368515
Shit man, that's just awful

>>39366814
>7 years ago
>bullied throughout elementary and middle
>mostly read, few people talked to me
>my only friend was a fat girl
>invite her over
>she rapes me on my trampoline in my backyard
>attempted suicide cried myself to sleep
i've reached a new low recently because of another girl

When I stopped growing taller (5'4)

>>39375689
Unfortunately it is. It was one incident in a long string caused by a disassociative disorder. I actually believed I needed blood and felt really weak because I hadn't fed.

Wasn't even the worst mental problem at the time, just the one that showed the most.

>>39371620
>"haha you just got pranked"
Please tell me this isn't real.

>>39371620
what the fuck? sounds like underage shit. I guess you were spared the "your a great guy I'm sure you'll meet a nice girl" text ha ha

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>>39375418
>sucks man
in an original way it does

This stupid fucking thread made me remember something I forgot years ago I wish i didnt remember

And of course its about girls saying something mean and hurtful to you and it even though it was like 12 years ago it still hurts and probaby fucked me up like it did all the others ITT.

>>39375992
Behind every great robot is a Stacy with a mean comment

>>39376016
I was only like 10 or something, what the fuck why are girls so mean no matter their age.

>>39367393
do you have a scene haircut

>>39367974
You have to learn the meaning of them and fix the problems they outline.

>>39375992
>sophomore year hs
>have good amount of friends, even ran for class president (lost of course)
>girl next to me in math calls me a creeper completely unprovoked
this will never not bother me

>>39376039
There's something about girls that goes wrong with them after the age of 7. Some of them, at least. Nothing is worse than a girl between 14 - 18 though. Absolutely no crueler beast on earth.

>>39369276
His parents must have been master pranksters to keep the concept of sex away from him for 14 years.

>born
>play vidya from when i was 2-7 all the time
>barely any interaction with some kids at school
>turn 9, have a computer and full access to the internet
>9-17 spent 8 years playing roblox and steam none-stop never having a high school job
>get home from school and play vidya
>only child

i was born to be a robot tbbh

>>39366814
>kindergarten
>teacher is dressing us up as pilgrims and indians for thanksgiving with paper hats and stuff
>tries to put paper pilgrim hat on me
>doesn't fit
>"You've got a big head anon."

You fucking cunt, do you know how fucking much that hurt? Everyone laughed at me.

>>39366814
When I realized that life has Alphas and Betas. It only got worse when j started labeling any guy I saw who got girls talking to him as Chad

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>>39366814
>16
>parents start to randomly come into my room to "spend time with me"
>father even watch anime with me and play vidya
>mother watch me practice violin
>eventually father become my favorite
>it was all a test because they want to divorce
>but only when I get 18
>no more family diner
>everything is so akward
>become "that guy" in school
>give everyone one a feeling of "fuck of, go away"

>17
breakingpoint.jpg
>mother and father fight
>loud noises
>plates throwed on the floor
>next day at school qt ask me if everything is alright
I'M FINE, GO AWAYYYYYY

Still haven't recovered from not having any friend in my most important years.

>>39369083
Dawm that's fucked up , do you still talk to them . ???

>like 2nd or 3rd grade
>I'm determined to make friends
>rush to get a seat at the popular kids table
>last socialite kid wants my seat
>second tier popular kid offers me his seat at the other table
>I'm still young and trusting so I believe he genuinely wants to do something nice for me
>get up to sit with the second tier kids
>seat at first table is immediately taken by the last popular kid
>second tier kid sits back down too
>I have to sit in a single chair again instead of at a table

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>freshmen year of high school
>socially retarded, can only keep a small group of friends
>make friends with 9/10 popular stacy
>"to be honest anon, when i first saw you i thought you were really hot, but everyone knows you are a weirdo."

>>39377403
>attractive
>r9k
yeah fucking right anon pics or it didnt happen

>>39371473
fuck you. Our teachers had a shitty rule that we couldn't go to the bathroom within a half-hour of recess and I

>>39372474
>finally become friends with robot in 11th grade
>he moves back to Stralya after a year
>grandpa asks "so your only friend is moving away?"

>>39377560
youre certainly not ugly and i can see women wanting you, but that haircut is not good

>>39367146
That's called OCD my guy. I have it too.

>>39377560
>(USER WAS WARNED FOR THIS POST)
It's so close. I can taste it.

>>39368298
>mentions your a girl for no reason
roastie gtfo none of the kids in your school liked you we don't fucking like you either

>21
>day of graduation
>realize that I have no one to get messages from
>realize my friends from high school has abandoned me
>realize I made no friends during the entirety of college
>realize I can't make friends from hereafter
>take pictures with only family

I should've known "It'll all be better in college!" was a fucking meme

>>39377560
yes+no
ur avg at best. but maybe all the chads are just assfuck ugly

>>39369255
>years of masturbation make me incapable of socialization
bullshit
I seriously doubt that's the reason

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>>39371126
Heyyyy I never had any female friends in middle school which made it hard for me to talk to girls in highschool.

Now I'm starting college and I've got literally no experience with girls outside objective conversation in lab groups.

I've never even held hands with a girl and yet here I am trying to flirt with a chick who by some act of God might actually be interested in me. I would honestly rather jerk off and be alone my entire life than worry about relationships.

>>39370341
>never work on socializing, charisma, or confidence since I don't care about gfs or sex

not all socializing is dating related you fucktard

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>it was a slow process over the course of many years
>parents are rarely around
>spend most of my early years alone in my room playing with legos or reading books
>most of my interactions with parents are negative, I remember getting in trouble a lot and not knowing why
>at school too shy to I interact with anyone, not even the teachers
>got picked on in kindergarten
>in middle school got bullied by some and shunned by everyone else
>high school more of the same
>parents divorce
>made my first friend(online and irl included) in 10th grade when I was 15
>she moved to canada two weeks later(I live in south texas)
>high school ends, barely graduate, only mom comes to my graduation
>did 1 semester of college, failed 4/5 classes
>now I work at a grocery store

>>39370341
So you're defining your entire life from then until you choke to death on a Dorrito in the year 2026 on some drama that happened in middle school? Either you're 14 or the most pathetic cunt to ever walk the Earth.

>>39366814
>10 years old
>after football training
>in a country town, hadn't lived there very long and didn't get along with the chad kids
>kicking the football around for a bit when they decide to walk over and be cunts
>general bully shit you know how it is
>crying
>run to car where my dad is waiting and tell him
>*crying* babble *crying* "fucking" *crying*
>slaps the back of my head
>tells me off for swearing
>goes silent the rest of the way home
this has stuck with me

>>39375827
>getting raped by a grill
AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

>>39377560
1. read the sticky
2. pretty average desu

>>39371367
Same situation here
Here's my life story I'm bored sorry
>stepdad straight up told me, in my developing age of 12, "you can never be a comedian, you aren't funny"
>failed Stacy stuck who is stuck in limbo decides to footstool off me into normie land while I drop all the way down to roboville.
>it's around this time I start to question myself, noticing that I'm different from the others
>become recluse af
>fails classes opting to go home during lunch than finish the rest of schoo
>watch my normie friends leave me during lunch, gym, and after school, never waiting for me.
>question whether it's because I don't put in the effor or if it's because they don't really like me
>whenever I'm with him, I hear them calling out for the rest of the pact to join them, I don't get that special treatment
>never go to parties
>never go outside during weekends
>never played sports, vidya took over
>become the epitome of a loser
>some friends claim, "no really, you don't understand, people actually love you"
>it doesn't feel like it, desu I think everyone in hs saw me as the funny guy with best handwriting, but that's it.
>start college, trying to leave hs behind, still not over that hs Stacey
>drained all the entertainment out of yt and normie book, decide to go on /b/
>then a year later r9k
>realize there's people like me and that I'm not entirely crazy
>now hellbent on whether or not I'm actually damaged and not normal in a very bad way
>start to question if I'm even functional
>realize I'm way far behind the average person who's been building themselves up since they were 12 because they had fortunate childhoods and rich parents who knew how to raise a child
>start to see what USA promotes
>only the top 10% can prosper and have a good life, gl to those in the 90%
>blahblahblahblah
>say fuck it and find hobby to keep my mind from running all over the place
>pick up long distance running
>it's the ONLY thing I'm good/passionate about

>25
>still a virgin

weird. i'm less autistic than any of you guys, but still sufficiently retarded, apparently.

>>39366814
>sophomore in highschool
>always struggled with low self esteem
>finally got a girlfriend by asking her to homecoming
>after 4 months of dating her she turned emotionally abuisive
>she torn me down at every opportunity, she even tormented me about how I held a spoon
>didn't break up with her because too scared, thought I'd be alone again
>after a year she broke up with me
She destroyed me, I'm even more socially ruined than I was before. I hate myself

>>39372212
Tyler?

origigaga

>>39373963
Fuck man, this hits too close to home

>>39371473
>pissed on self in 3rd grade
>lazy eye

Are you a grill? Asian? I think I was there when you pissed yourself. I was like whoooaa, at least I'm not THAT stupid.

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>>39366814
not the moment I became a robot but reminds me of a field trip from high school
>had a trip to an amusement park
>afterwards went to a pizza buffet (cicis)
>not enough tables in the place for me to have my own table so teacher has normies sit with me
>they're all talking to each other completely ignoring I'm there
>get up to get more pizza
>come back start to drink from my cup that I had left without thinking
>immediately realize they've poured a ton of salt and pepper in it
>they start laughing
>one of them calls me a retard
>look him right in the eyes while continuing drinking it
>they all look at me uncomfortably as I finish it
>they decide to stop eating and go to a little arcade area in the back for the rest of the time

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>first grade
>just get back from recess
>raise my hand
>"I need to pee"
>everyone stares at me
>"excuse me, anon?!" says the teacher
>I look around confused

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>first day of 6th grade
>lunch time
>get in line to buy lunch
>8th grader cuts ahead of me
>tell him he can't do that
>he tells me to fuck off
>two more kids join him ahead of me
>try to force my way in front of him
>he yells at me for cutting
>dean just happens to be walking by
>I get told off for cutting
>start crying because I was a huge bitch
>"hey is this kid crying"
>everyone staring at me
>leave and go hide in the bathroom

Middle school was hell and I'm just now remembering some repressed memories

>>39377560
grow a beard and get a different hair cut and you will go from average to chad

>>39369331
What numbers count as a few to you? I've always thought 2,3,4, or 5

>>39376160
this

20yr old reporting in and just realized how fucked I am because of this life long habit about a year ago. Is there any hope for people like us?

Still battling with this addiction btw. Threw away the xbox but internets

>>39377894
It's those moments where you realize no one ever cared about us.

>>39376949
>parents trying to win you over by participating with you in stuff they don't give a shit about
damn

>>39378020
>never go to parties
>never go outside during weekends
>never played sports, vidya took over

I know these feels but for the opposite reason, I WAS invited to these things, but my parents never let me go anywhere. I'm a fucking social retard now.

>>39378066
No, I am sorry.

>>39368298
This happened to me once. Well, it was one kid. He was new and he didn't like me for some reason. He kept telling me to leave, but he was hanging around with my other friends so obviously I'm not going to leave. Eventually I cracked a joke and he laughed. We got a long after that, he became one of the best friends actually.

>>39378309
another one

>middle 7th grade
>PE 'exam' day
>get 60 seconds to do as many pushups as you can
>everyone takes turns, two at a time
>my turn
>I practiced for this
>weeks and weeks of lifting
>nervous, but confident
>drop into first pushup
>rip the absolute loudest fart
>three or four seconds of agonizing gas
>entire room of 80 goes fucking crazy
>teachers trying to hide obvious smiles
>decide to power through it to keep what dignity I had left
>finish all 60 seconds with miserable results
>run to the locker room
>puke in the trash bin
>never lived it down

>>39369344
Ouch! Your mom is a bitch.

>>39378066
Jacob? I didn't fail 6th grade favgot and if that's what you think of me then I'm glad I'll never have to see you again

>>39378413
one more

>sister, four years older, has a birthday party
>invited a bunch of friends over
>hanging out with them because I think they're cool
>hold them in really high regard, try my best to fit in
>they decide to play monopoly
>I sit out because they didn't have enough pieces
>just sitting there talking to my sister and this other guy
>coincidentally see my sister's phone light up with a text
>"god, your brother is so annoying"
>didn't see who it was, doesn't matter
>locked myself in my room
>now insecure about being annoying
>never talked to her friends again

>be about 8 or so
>female
>found out i liked girls
>didnt even know gay people existed so i thought i had another mental disorder
>decide to tell councilor (who i was seeing because of my severe anxiety)
>councilor laughs at me
>he invites my mom in
>mom laughs at me
>ask her about it years later and she doesnt remember
>ive had trust issues and self image issues ever since

>>39378389
>parents
ugh, same here robro.
More times than I like to admit, I wasn't invited to these parties partly because I always declined cause I'm a splerg bomb waiting to explode, but the times I was invited, I knew it would never work out cause my parents were always on my ass.

It still like this to this day, they don't let me do shit. I'm 20, have a GOOD job as an assistant teacher and I still have to call my mommy to let her know If im sleeping over at a friends house or not. The revelation didn't dawn on me till I was smoking weed with some friends and these girls we met in Central Park. I was high when my friend told me, "dude, you're 20years old, you're a TEACHER, why are you so caught up with your parents?" 20 years of being raised like a bitch boy really takes its toll down the line. I really want to go out and be degenerate but there's the fact that mommy will be worried that holds me back.

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>>39378413
>school did some mandatory medical exams growing up
>always during gym
>after you had yours had to go sit to the side and wait
>have really bad stomach ache during one of them
>ask teacher if I can go to the bathroom
>tells me no and to go sit back down
>ask again a few minutes later
>get told no again
>eventually sit back down and rip loud fart
>teacher stares at me
>when we get back to the gym after exams makes me run laps for "being disrespectful"
>everyone else gets the rest of the class to just sit around
>bunch of them laugh at me for farting then again for having to run while they all get to sit around

The day I hit puberty.

There's at least 20 different times that I've realized my status, all of them peppered throughout the years. None of them are good.

>>39371620
Never tell a girl you love her before you've even started dating, that's fucked, and never be the one to say it first either.

>>39378413
I kek'ed originally ofc
>>39378496
god I hope this never happens to me
this is why I don't like normies

>>39369276
Lmao 14
Try never
Amateurs

>>39378510
whoa

orange

>>39378515
you should have spoke to a principal or something, this is pretty fucked albeit hilarious especially if this is the root of your autism

>>39378648
>especially if this is the root of your autism
definitely not the root of it just one of many experiences

>>39378511

Not only do I know your fucking feels to a damn T(besides the job) you're also an NYC bro.

Damn man. I hope we make it someday.

>>39378686
>I hope we make it someday
Its gonna be hard but if we toughen up I think there's a chance. Let's never give up on this quest fren :]

if you see someone in colombus circle or somewhere in the 6 mile loop barefoot with longish black hair, that be /improving/

>>39369255
>asked a guy to come watch a movie with me, he was new to the school and I wanted to make him feel welcome
>"no dude are you fucking gay"

that wasn't your fault anon, you did nothing wrong here

>Be in fourth grade
>Be in math class
>Teacher writes out math question and asks if anybody knows the answer
>iknowit.jpg
>Raise my hand and confidently shout the answer because I'm autistic
>silence
>"That's incorrect, anon"
>Crush starts laughing
>run out the classroom

Still want to die at the thought of that,

>>39366814
I couldn't find one moment. It's all a smear.

>born
>apparently a very social kid, made friends left and right at playgrounds
>begin school
>still able to make friends
>homework starts
>can't stand wasting time like that, would rather be playing with LEGOs or some shit
>parents crack down on anything fun, lock me in a boring room until I finish homework
>no social life outside school
>still had friends from preschool, manage to hang out with them once every few months
>make some new friends, lose others
>school guidance counselor tries to get me to do homework, fails
>go to psych practice which declares I'm probably autistic, probably depressed, and most certainly have ADD/ADHD
>begin medication
>it doesn't help
>8th grade
>managed to learn some programming on family computer
>struggling in classes
>still stuck at home all of the time
>at this point I don't even want to go to parties or social events
>core group of friends mostly intact since kindergarten
>tall, fit 5.5-6.5/10 weeb girl asks if I want to be her bf
>I say sure
>no clue what's involved
>continue with business as usual
>go to her house and play console games once or twice, take her to lunch/dinner a few times, continue with life basically unchanged
>I get flustered if anyone asks if we're dating, don't know what to say
>deny it more than once
>we break up like we got together:
>she says we should end it
>I say "okay, if you say so"
>no gf since, even once I actually started wanting a gf
>continue to fail in classes
>get kicked out of that school, move to a public school a county away
>make a few new friends
>beta orbit a tumblrina until graduating
>go to community college
>make an acquaintance or two every semester, proceed to forget them after
>now stuck programming and watching netflix for """fun"""

At this point, I've really only got my family, and one friend from the first school that has basically become a minor cyber-criminal. Even some of my longest online friends have faded away.

>>39374373
it doesnt always come off like that, it really depends how u do it
it takes mastery but it can be pretty easy after some time

>>39378954
fuck am I actually austs and have ADHD?
im definitely depressed, don't need a scholar to tell me that

Any robots ever look back on elementary school report cards/teacher comments? Mine said the same thing every year: "above average academic development but has trouble getting along with others"

>>39378223
This was in high school? Why didn't you confront them instead of being autistic?

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>>39379125
The pink is me
I to this day don't know what my oneitis crossed out in her message

>>39366814
It's hazy but this is one of the moments I can remember feeling like things probably weren't going to be okay

>Be like, 7-8ish
>Dad is yelling at me
>I don't remember what, but I did something wrong that wasn't really a big deal but was a huge deal to him
>Telling me not to cry
>Choking back tears, feel like saying something, but can't
>Dad picks up on this
>Asks me why I'm not saying anything
>Tell him "I wouldn't want to offend you."
I meant that genuinely. In my child mind, I thought it might hurt his feelings if I just told my dad I didn't like being around him or something.
>Get hit with an open fist before I know what's going on
>Suddenly, I'm on the ground
>Dad repeats what I said in a stereotypical gay voice
>Mumbles something about raising a sissy
>Have to pick myself off the ground to finish talking about my punishment
>He asks me if I'm okay with my punishment, but I know if I say no, he'll probably make it worse

I have no idea why it was this one in particular, because stuff like that happened a lot. It really shouldn't have bothered me like it did. I mean, there's probably some stuff that happened in high school or stuff my brothers did that I've forgotten about that was worse than this.

>>39379250
First part looks like "introverted".
The second looks like it starts with "didn't". You can't make out the indentations of the letters on the back of the page?

>>39379319
>>39379250
Make that "perverted" for the first space.

>>39366814
You were destined to be a chad anon

that was alpha as fuck

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>>39376949
>give everyone one a feeling of "fuck of, go away"
I know that too well.
>permanent scowl on my face so that everyone >would leave me alone and not talk too me, >throughout Middle School, High School, and >even some of Elementary School. during lunch >stare at my flip phone and tap random buttons >like I'm preoccupied, or busy.
>cant talk to, or hold a conversation with anyone, >give vague answers to non yes-or-no-questions
>mfw don't want to improve myself, don't want friends, don't want to be happy, I just want to be left alone.

>>39378223
>field trip
field trips were to worst for me and I think they did some real mental damage now that I'm reminiscing
>field trips meant I had to put up a front and it was a literal life or death situation
>I had to pretend I had genuine friends for the whole walk to wherever we were going and back.
>train rides are worse because it's easier to get left out of the cliques, and you can't squat from one clique to another like when you're walking
>get to trip destination
>super on edge, trying best not to look like loser
>say trip is watching an opera/play
>we have to pick seats
>fucking rushing pushing people out the way so I can find the few that I can call friend
>typically don't make it in time and the seats next to them are filled
>tfw they didn't save you a seat or chose to sit with the popular Stacey's instead of you
>sitting next to people you hate or hate you for HOURS
>try to look like I'm having fun by engaging in useless small talk with groups next to me
>the other side of the audience where my friends are is looking a lot more interesting than the side I'm in
>give up, and slouch in my seat
>notice oneitis on the other side sitting next to Chad ofc
>they are having so much fun
>play/opera starts and lights dim but I don't care about the damn thing
>can't make out oneitis many more but my eyes imagine a lot of things
>can't tell if head is playing tricks on me or if oneitis and chad are actually making out
>empty feeling inside my heart deepens x10000000
>feel like crying, want to die, but have to sit down and enjoy the field trip that was considerately thought out by school admisintration
>play/opera ends and the place lights up
>oneitis and Chad giggle their way out of the auditorium
>long walk back to school
>given up entirely at this point

it's no wonder I hated school, I didn't want to be judged by normie standards because I couldn't stand up to them. No one understood me except oneitis because she was robotish like me.

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>>39379319
Na, pictures on the back ruin my chances of making out what she said. Also the pages are thick as hell, not
much of the penning went through.

Here's hs
my name is Giancarlo btw, it's a really long fucking name I want to change it. Any suggestions besides faggot? I tried giankii and swan, going to try just gian see how that goes...

>>39379482
Part 2 idk why my phone likes to post sideways sometimes sorry bros

>top left
>your hands have always been soft keep it that way. Slut
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

i remember writing in Hannah's book "I'll miss your big tits"

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>>39379513
Forgot pic originally ofc

This is going to be a 3 part story, the downfall of my sanity.

>6th grade
>transfering to a new school
>apparently this is a middle school/elementary school hybrid
>was bullied a bit at my old school, but they didn't really do anything
>year starts out great
>meet some people
>make quite a few friends, 2 of which I still have now
>those guys are the only close friends I have
>befriend this one kid who's a little off
>we had similar interests
>take the piss out of people for fun
>one day, I decide to take the piss out of him
>I had a really fucking rough week
>continue doing it
>he starts crying
>start doing it daily
>the school tells me to stop
>no
>school starts putting me in 8th grade classes where they hope I'll behave better
>which I do
>I still have some other classes with the rest of my class though
>still take the piss out of him
>also this one kid who had slight anger issues that I would poke the bull with
>basically became a problem for the school
>after a while they told me to go to a room by myself and a staff member
>after this, my parents put me on some kind of ADD meds that are supposed to also work for ODD
>outright refuse at first
>cheek it for the first few days
>after a while, they notice that I've been cheeking it
>I basically taught myself the entire second half of the 6th grade
>I had my other friends visit, but I wasn't allowed to go outside
>basically these guys could take jokes
>this slowly starts to wear on me, especially since I also gotta do some activities on my own
>I never expose who I am inside unless I think the person can help
>I have a half nervous breakdown
>'well thanks for being open with me, do you feel better'
>no
>class puts on some kind of play
>they let me go in for practice
>take the piss out of him during downtime
>tell me to sit out
>I draw the play cards to show scene transitions so I at least do something.
>year ends
>graduate with class and leave him alone
It would have been better if they expelled me.
Cont.

>>39379482
>>39379531
I'm so glad my friends in middle and high school were decent enough not to draw dongs in my yearbook.

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>tfw don't even know when it started

From birth I guess.

>sitting at my high school graduation
>some old friends try to talk to me
>realize i dont know anyone anymore
>never see anyone again

i thought everyone was miserable like me

>>39379810
It's cause I used to draw penises on everyone's classwork/homework sometimes so big it covers everything they wrote on the page rendering it useless

>>39379482
>>39379531
>>39379870
Kek I did the same thing. Great times.

>>39366814
fuccckend kekd

>>39379786
>7th grade
>I have no trust left in authority
>those who I was told I could always trust caused ALL my new emotional problems
>everyone who did worse shit to me got off with literally nothing
>me making fun of some kid lands me in ISS for half a year
>a few guys in my class act like idiots making fun of this one literal tard in another class
>I find it funny
>join in
>after a while, the school comes in and tells the class this diversity bullshit and how we're all different
>nobody took them seriously
>running joke that this one aggressive kid is gay
>every time we make fun of him and he tries to punch us, we would cover our assholes running away
>continue making fun of the anger issues kid from last year
>talkshitgethit.jpg
>this happens like once a month
>separate us for different classes, basically one of us goes with our class for 3 periods and the other for the other 3
>start drawing in, but still somewhat outward
>started bringing in headphones with me since I didn't have anything better to do
>get into a half fight with one of the 8th graders
>basically they poked me like a girl then dove back into the open, hoping I would get seen
>everyone around called him a pussy
>5'4 8th grader ran away from a 4'8 80lb 7th grader

And so I taught myself 7th grade Math, Life Science and History I think.

>turn 14
>almost instantly start getting severe cysts on my face and body
>have absolutely miserable high school experience
>think it cant possibly continue
>almost 27 now and still struggle

its quite a feeling to know without doubt that god hates you

> one day something bad happen a make me embarrass :'(

Happens to everyone you spergs grow a backbone

it all started when i was born
>be me from 1st to 5th grade
>not medically considered autistic, but i was autistic for sure
>laughed at everything and was pretty much the pitied kid with the equivalent of downs
>shit my pants once a year because i was that fucking retarded
>other kids knew me as that kid
>up to middle school, became less autistic but my attitude changed entirely
>now not autistic or retarded, but smart and instead distant from everyone
>every that looks at me mumbles under their breath school shooter
>this hurt feelings
>occasional burst of retarded comment
>this goes on all the way to hs sophomore years
>drop out as a junior
>to this day am failure

>>39379967

Agreed, but gotta ask the obligatory "why are you on here then" question.

>>39379901
Cont.

>2011
>Summer between 7th and 8th grade
>puberty hits
>my dog fucking dies right in front of me from old age
>parents get me a second pill
>begrudgingly take it
>school year starts a week later
>visibly depressed
>"oh wow you're so much better behaved, good job"
>don't really say anything
>don't really do anything else, since now, I have a reputation or something, I don't remember my exact thought process
>obviously depressed, like, chin almost pinned to my fucking chest
>light in my eyes is gone
>I don't talk much anymore to anyone
>I start sitting alone at lunch
>wow you seem like a different person
>this all coming from the school staff who I tormented with paperwork before
>realize that people do not care how you feel, so long as they're happy themselves
>my heart had become hardened
>don't really connect with anyone
>nobody understood me
>the effects of probably a net year of isolation had taken a toll on my mind
>my voice had gone to a monotone
>I had already seen how condescending and uncaring people can be when you're in your most vulnerable state

I always kept everyone in positions of authority and overall looked older than me at an arms distance

I'm 19 now.
I regret every day of this. I honestly wonder what my life would have been like if something else had happened instead

>>39377894
Your dad had every right to smack you one. You should have learned to not be a little bitch and stand up for yourself

>>39378066
Fuck off Ben you know that's not me.

> last day of elementary
> Go up to crush with yearbook
> Ask her to sign
> She does with a confused, uncomfortable grin
> Do i know you?
> what, no.
> When i started masturbating I developed agp and would crossdress in the mirror and blow loads to myself because I used to kind of look like her.

I'm very fucked up. My bestfriend taught me about masturbation when we were like 9, he guided my hand across my dick and demonstrated himself.
I want to die.

>>39380170
Ive put a barrel my mouth while wearing my mom's lingerie.
Ive contemplated bringing a weapon to school.

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>>39377926
>fat grill
give him a break anon, he was a kid

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>>39377894
Thus is the initiation for truly becoming a robot.

You must be shown the opposite of apathy.

You must learn first hand that nobody cares about how you personally feel, but only how you make them feel.

Even those who claim to have empathy.
They want to cheer you up, because you feeling sad makes them sad. For them to not feel sad, they must make you happy.

People are always motivated by self interest. No matter who, no matter what.

Once you have learned to never, EVER let your guard down, that's when you can say you are a robot.

When everything bounces off of you, no matter how kind or how mean.

I had already become cynical at the time this happened, the action itself is insignificant but rather the concept behind it.

It was 10pm, on my 17TH birthday. I wanted to reach level 100 in WoW on my main on that day.

"You have school tomorrow, go to bed"
"just give me a minute"
this goes on for about an hour
>Go to bed RIGHT NOW or you're not getting your computer all next week
>ding 10 seconds later

>So you guys can't stick to anything but the rules without any exception, not even on my own birthday?

I was a late bloomer by about 3 years, so I basically had the hormone levels of your average 14 year old

>>39380250
should probably add,
>>39380033
is how I became cynical in the first place.

That was just how I learned to never, EVER let your guard down for any reason at all

>>39371620
>memes (not normie shit)
>sends her filthy frank meme
?

>>39371238
Fuck man, I've read an article about a study from babies/toddlers that were separated from their parents at an early age which results them having apathy towards their guardians. Toddlers not showing any emotional connection, reasoning was the babies were "afraid to love again" because of the pain they went through.

> that's the moment I realizes even babies can become robots too.

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>I just turned 16
>in love with this very cute girl
>she was always around her friends
>tried talking to her but her stacy friends told me she hates me
>allrightyoufuckingcunts.gif
>despite them telling me this I ask her out
>"who the fuck are you wtf"
>I-I'm anon, you know we are in the same class?
>"ah anon ! so you're the one who tells everybody we are a couple?!"
>what?
>people are gathering around us
>she tells me to fuck off and that i am an ugly cunt who will never have a gf
>everyone starts laughing
>punch that cunt in her face
>.
>..
>...
>silence
>whatdidijustdo.webm
>run
>stay home for weeks playing vidya during schooltime
>why am I like this
>switch schools

I didn't deserve this guys

>>39366814
>Be born
>Not crying at all
>People assume alpha baby
>Actually had heart murmur and needed urgently care

>>39380170
This is originally FUCKED

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>>39367393
its the same thing for me but it was my cousin

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There was no early defining moment of being a robot to me.
I appear menacing and untrustworthy to others and I was taken advantage of and bullied for this by my siblings (who are close in age) and all of the unsavory classmates I've had. Authority never trusts me.
I think it's my facial structure that may be the root of this curse, but it might be heavily influenced by my quick and fiery emotions or my timidness the rest of the time.

Never being able to speak up for myself or get "dibs" on things, being the lastborn, led me to a life of loneliness and no friends.

Due to this condition, my life is peppered with robot events and very little lasting happiness.

>On school camp to a dam outside my city in 5th Grade
>Have a disorder where certain foods (mostly fruit and vegetables) are considered extremely inedible by my brain, despite being totally capable of digesting said food without any complications. Wasn't really the taste of food, but the texture and feeling of foods.
>Never knew I had this, parents just thought it was me being fussy
>Seated at these long tables inside the camp hall, with the teachers at the head of each table
>Was having spaghetti bolognaise with a serving of shepherd's pie
>Got through the spaghetti bolognaise with some difficulty (learning to get over onions, but still have problems with tomato chunks)
>Get to Shepherd's pie, take a bite and expect Aussie meat pie but find peas and other disgusting shit inside it
>Gag, stare at it while everyone continues eating
>Eventually everyone is finished and goes to wash their plates
>Teachers notice that I haven't finished and ask me what's wrong
>I say that I don't like it
>They look at me like I committed the Holocaust, tell me that I'm being rude to the camp managers, and shovel the pie into my mouth
>Gag violently, trying to mumble out that I can't eat it while they berate me for being inconsiderate
>Can't take it, so I throw up onto my plate
>Teachers are furious at me, force me to stand outside my tent for 2 hours in the dead of night in the middle of Central QLD winter, while starving because all of my undigested food were now in a bin and on a table being cleaned up
>So scarred from this that I refuse to eat when I stay at a friend's house, unless I'm certain that I can eat whatever they give me
I feel like such a fucking pussy for not being able to eat my greens, but I just can't help it.

>>39366814
>1995
>5 yrs old
underage plz go

>>39366814
>birth
Dasgh4ui3z72asd

>>39368298
FUCK OF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF

ATTENTION SEEKING WHORE LEAVE AND DIE

>>39380734
>27 years old
>underage
WAT
A
T

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>>39380719
My ex girlfriend was just like this.
It is NOT endearing.
You and your kind need to go extinct NOW

>>39367146
You actually are a shaman, don't fight those thoughts, negotiate with them

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>>39373129
> i learned the hard way myself
that's why we all must keep working on bettering/hardening ourselves instead of emotionally depending on some girl who might just leave you in an instant for a local chad.

>>39373963
I can't even count how many times I had similar things happen in high school.
I feel like I'm slowly getting over my self esteem issues at 21, but I've got a way to go.

>>39366814
>>On vacation with my family, like every fucking year, and I hate it because I 600 miles away from my only friend. It's basically 2 months of complete isolation w/out internet
>>Parents wants to go to a festival or something like that
>>"Come on Anon, you're going to have fun, I'm sure!". Yeah, you surely know what is fun to me, you asshole
>>I tell them I don't want to go(I had legitimate social anxiety), and stay steady on that point.
>My dad eventually forces me to go
>>As I'm dressing to go, dad comes at 1 inch from my face and shouts: "Anon you're a fucking asshole, you're spoiling our vacation!" While showing me his fist, thinking that I am too weak to to respond (he was 2 inches taller than me at the time and literally twice my weight, since I was extremely skinny)
>>That's it, I lose it, I throw a punch next to his face, that breaks a hole into the door behind him.
>>I shout to him "You never cared about me! If you did you wouldn't make me come to this shit hole for 2 months every year!"
>>MouthsDropsToTheFloor.gif
>Everyone is now scared of me
>>I go to that festival anyway, without saying a word for the whole night (I communicated through text messages)
>>Being betrayed and abused even from my dad, the only person I could somewhat trust, really destroyed me. I never trusted anyone ever since

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>>39378510
is this bait?
originally75

Literally testler.

>>39366814
I didn't become a robot. I was born one.

>>39380418

>punched her in the face because you're a sperg who can't take a joke
>didn't deserve this

fucking lol

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>5th grade
>Be constantly made fun of cuz of bowlcut
>Had a circle of friends
>Or so I thought
>Always wanted to do weird shit with them like videogame roleplays
>Invited 5 people to my birthday party
>Only 1 showed up

>Constantly harassed by this other kid on the bus who was a giant compared to me
>Have younger brother who's actually autistic constantly being bullied by kids in my grade
>Try to stand up for him
>Get mocked in return
>Younger brother hates me now
>Bus driver one day goes up to me one day and asks if I have "physical problems"
>Go to back of bus because I thought he was calling me stupid or something
>Bus driver follows me to back of bus and yells at me
>Walking on bus one day and accidentally "break" some 3rd grader's flower
>Her dad goes to my house and complains to my Aunt (My mom shared a house with my aunt and uncle at the time)
>Mom makes me write apology letter to 3rd grader
>Principle soon arranges a seating chart for me and my brother where we both have to sit at the front of the bus

>Go do this music program thing
>Basically you have to sing while your parents watch
>Only one who doesn't smile or looks enthusiastic
>I get put on a behavior contract because of my "bad attitude"
>They would award me with marbles and each marble allowed me to use my computer for 30 minutes
>All throughout middle school, whenever I wasn't enthusiastic about everything my dad would threaten to put me back on a behavior contract

>This kid in the hallway randomly asks if I have autism
>I don't why, but I suddenly start crying
>Earlier that year I started crying in front of my class and most of the people make fun of me

>Fast forward to end of the year
>All of my friends turn on me
>They all say that I was mean to this kid or something
>Try and convince them that I was doing no such thing
>None of them believe me
I FUCKING HATE YOU JOE!!!!

>>39375474
carmelized onions

>>39378408
I've had something similar happen, but instead of cracking a joke I cracked his skull with a rock and left him in a bush on the school playground, teacher thought he had ditched the rest of the school day and he wasn't found until later in the evening when his parents got worried and started looking for him.

>>39368298
>>follow around on the playground and laugh with them

people who do this should die

>>39371473
>Didn't truly realize how fucked up a person I was until middle school where I was called into the guidance counselor's office nearly every day trying to figure out why I couldn't function like other kids and why I had only books for friends.

Same with me, only it was high school.

>>39367974
Smoking weed stops you from having dreams

>everyone in this thread can remember shit that happened to them before they were eight years old

wtf?

>chad doctor decides Im not worth touching pussy ever
>cuts into my mother to take me the hard way

>>39366814
>dad left my mom to be a manwhore
>he became increasingly disappointed that I wasn't a chad
>bitched about how I never had any friends
>at 7 became interested in computers
>when I was 8 I found a forum where manchildren played rps with their toys and figurines
>spent all day doing that
>never even occurred to me that I was socially unacceptable
>now that I know at 21 I still don't care

>>39381670
Events that affect you greatly tends to stick with you forever.

>>39379482
frocio
risposta originale

>>39378223
You should have thrown it in their face.

>>39381714

the penultimate virgin

>>39368062
My only two emotions are neutral and mild amusement

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>>39380033
>visibly depressed
>"oh wow you're so much better behaved, good job"

school staff are fucking scum

>>39370341
>I'm an asexual
no you aren't

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My mum once told me that when i was born, I came out dead and stayed like that for a minute. My parents and the doctors thought I was a stillborn until I woke up. Throughout my life I've always been weird, a brainlet and have mental disorders. Do you guys think that one minute of being dead at birth could've caused all this?

>>39382044
Maybe, did they sever the umbilical cord before or after you woke up? If before, then probably. If not, then no, because you would still have been getting plenty of oxygen to your brain from your mom's blood supply.

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>>39372318
>>39377651
I was diagnosed with OCD only a few years ago. The retards thought I had antisocial personality disorder because of how violent and disturbing the thoughts and nightmares and compulsions are. I'm still working on managing it... It's not like this could have been taken care of 21 years ago or anything if they had just listened.

>>39382141
I don't know, but they probably would've severed the cord and put me in one of the glass box things they put babies with troubled births in.

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>learn when I was 14 that my mom never intended on having me and was planning on having her tubes tied in 2 weeks before she accidentally got pregnant
>also learned that my mom left my father for another man 2 years after having my sister and then got back with my father before having me
>born with pneumonia and fucked up feet
>bullied entire life because of feet
Some people simply weren't meant to exist.

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>>39371547
Liked the story anon, also never see anyone else here that plays MTG.

>>39382277
You've peaked my interest. Post feet

>>39369255
>14
Holy shit, I was fapping to /g/ on here when I was 14

>>39381714
I was taken out of my mother with some sort of machine. Don't know what kind of hole I came out of but that machine must have grabbed me by the head because to this day my head is deformed. One vertical half of it is at least half a centimeter further forward than the other. Funny thing is that no one has ever brought it up. It's like they've never looked at me long enough to tell.

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>>39380734
>2017-1995=<18

>>39371547
>Play Magic: The gathering with her. She's really bad but I let her win sometimes
Story with every "gamer girl"/"girl gamer"

>>39381441

i would of killed myself origammily

>>39382426
Just google images of extremely outward feet and you'll get the idea

>>39371620
>he thinks females could ever comprehend memes
Dude,kill yourself for being so much of a fucking beta orbiter tat you overlook a roastie's flaws. Not to mention, how come you didn't knew she had a boyfriend ? i'll tell you why. Because you are a desperate failed normie who hits on every female in hopes of graduating from your virginity, you didn't even knew her long enough to know that she was in a relationship

>>39375418
You fucking retard I experienced second hand embarrassment

>>39379482
>Giancarlo
You could call yourself Gianni, or anglicize it to "Johnny" if you want to go turbo normie.
I didn't have very many friends in HS, so my yearbook is just about bereft of sigs, but I also am an oldfag who grew up in the dark ages before it was popular to draw dicks everywhere.
I haven't looked at my yearbook in forever. There are no pictures of me in it anyway (seriously, literally none at all) because I was mostly invisible all those years and I'm pretty sure that no one I knew then even remembers me now.

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>>39382446
1995+5=2000
2017-2000=7

>>39381527
Cool. Did you kill him, or did it just fuck him up really hard?

>>39381670
i can remember back to when i was 3, i never got how people couldn't

A bunch of boys like me in middle/early high school
> They range between 1-3/10- mostly manlets
> Clearly lusting after me, even I'm not dense enough to be ignorant, but I pretend to be
> Wonder if these are the types of boys that are interested in me, how bad must I really be
> Begin to question my self-worth
> Eventually tell myself that I don't care about boys and insisted that I was asexual and only liked boys from YA novels (yes, this seriously happened)
> Slow downward spiral in mental health until I had the first of many nervous breakdowns on a vacation when I realized that I desperately wanted a bf and had been lying to myself all throughout high school
> Became convinced I would never get a decent bf since only ugly boys liked me
> Isolated myself from everyone
> Became incredibly anxious, scrutinized every single thing I did
> Succumbed to two crippling bouts of depression that lasted half a year each that got me kicked out of college both times
That one night changed me forever. Six years later from that night in particular, two removed from my last horrible depressive stint, I still don't function right and get anxiety attacks that fuck me over. I suspect my most recent will cost me my job. I'd care more if I actually liked it, though.

>>39382882
kys
Origono no no no
>>39375668

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>>39382636
>2017-2000=7
no wonder you're unemployed

>>39377651
>>39372318
How is that OCD?

>>39382428
>/g/
>fapping on /g/
stop lying newfag retard

>>39383235
You mothernigger, /g/ was not a technology board back then you utter lying piece of dumb reddit shit kill yourself newfag

>>39366814
That's alpha as fuck. You turned the joke on them.
But the fact that you don't understand this means you're probably an autist.

>>39382940
I'm trying to point out that he's being kind of a fucking roastie.

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>>39382476
>group of online friends from /r9k/ have said for ages that they want to play d&d
>have all sorts of ideas for campaigns
>offer to DM
>they are ecstatic
>one guy doesn't even show up for the first session
>next session one of them gets a gf
>they trickle off
>despite everyone raving about how much fun they had after each adventure they stop asking to play by the second month
>I put in weeks of effort creating a campaign for them, streamlining all of the shit we used to play online, taught most of them how to play, was always accommodating with rules and reasonable about any issues that arose, didn't whine to anyone but here when we stopped playing
>they were all male
>btw I'm a grill
I've known plenty of other women that are competent with games and/or really care about them. You've just had a bad experience.

>>39383517
>tfw too scared of men to play tabletop games with them but also worried that if I start a "grrrls only" group it'll fill up with feminists who try to make me wear a pussy hat
>tfw too stupid to figure out tabletop simulator

>>39366814
I don't get the joke and I'm a few months from being a wizard. Why go through the trouble of making food that nobodies going to eat?

>>39366814
>Honey, you know what would be good for our baby anon?
>If we move into the middle of fucking nowhere

I really fucking loathe my parents

>>39367974
prazozin for nightmares

>>39380080
>a 10 year old will figure that his dad hit him for being a pussy and he should be stronger next time instead of crying

>>39366814
when i started having leg cramps because i didnt leave the chair

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>>39380418
>everyone starts laughing
>punch that cunt in her face
Holy fuck lol you were 16? im sorry anon but this has got to be the worst one in this thread.

>>39368298
>femanon
Fuck you. Stop being an attention whore cunt. You could have just said anon but no, you had to signal that you are a grill for attention. Seriously FUCK YOU and fuck off back to instragam cunt