Lonely hearts of arcanine

>>39350296
I have never lost love because I've never had anyone love me besides my mum, and she's still here. I never really talked to a real life crush I had and my 2D oneitis will never leave, she's always there when I want her.

>fall in love with the girl from down the street
>pretty, and smart, and really sweet
>our dads have been friends since they were kids
>she always pushes me to try harder and improve
>our parents would joke, ever since we were little, that we would end up married
>when we got a bit older she would chastise me for not studying and say things like "I'm not going to let my husband be a dumbass"
>I went into the workforce right after dropping out of high school
>she got an offer from a pretty prestigious university
>last thing she said before she left was that she was sorry, but she couldn't let me drag her down and she had to think about her future, but she still loved me
>tfw she moved back a couple months ago and I've been too scared to go to her family's restaurant since

>i worked at a grocery store bagging and pushing carts
>i got into a girl who was my boss
>i asked my other boss if she is available she said no, she isn't my type
>i kind of flirted with her a little bit
>she quite i was sad
>i got into a car accident
>i met up with her again, a year and something we recognized each other
>i waited to long to ask her out
>she got turned off that i still lived with my parents and i liked video games, kind of said you're 29 still live with your parents
>i kind of can't take care of myself since i'm in a wheelchair, i barely walk as it is.

>>39350466
HANDIKEKED.

the closest I was to having an actual "girlfriend"

At the time I was a pale, awkward, unemployed highschool grad with no car, shitty messy hair, and glasses.
Idfk how I got this lucky (or unlucky) with this chick

>graduated highschool
>slightly chubby short friend breaks up with boyfriend because he failed 3 years in a row
>time for senior class trip, go to mall of America and some amusement park for 3 days
>she keeps walking next to me and locking arms
>we ended up hanging out and going on walks several times a week after the trip
>get my first kiss on the fourth of July watching Scream 2 on her couch
>fuck yeah
>a week later we're kissing for a 2nd time and I try to escalate and start kissing her neck
>felt awkward as fuck during and after because it didn't go anywhere
>she probably realizes how awkward I am and what a mistake she made in her desperate state
>dumps me a week later because she said she wasn't ready to get back into a relationship
>strung along hoping she'll change her mind, keep being friendly to her, secretly cry myself to sleep every night because I know it's over
>a week later the bitch is crushing over this guy she thinks likes her
>finds out he said he'd be her 2nd choice over another girl
>cries and complains to me
>bitch please
>still act like we're friends to this day, always act like she does no wrong

best summer of my life, I haven't even killed myself yet.
I was pretty convinced I'd never see another girl again because of how much of a megavirgin I am.

>be me
>average nigger
>steal and ganks bitches since I was 6
>but since I was 20 i use 4chan
>discovered it while I was robbing some anon on the street
>2005
>running away from the cops
>i flee to an local LAN house
>sweaty as a Jew jerking off at Lehman Brothers
>i see this beauty
>this redhead, 20 ish years old, big ass
>more importantly, she was wearing Michael Kors
>instantly thinking about ganking her ass
>then, clowning her ass
>as I was pulling my Glock
>I saw her browsing /b/
>my spaghettis were on orbit
>instead of just talking to her
>I dropped my Glock
>she fell down her chair, and yelled "POLICE"
>the cops arrested me

>be 15
>been taking vocal lessons for years
>had a few different teachers
>There's a recital at the start of the summer, yes it's retarded don't ask
>meet a girl, 10/10 qt, a bit shorter than me
>she's with another kid a few years younger than me who's practicing
>she makes eye contact with me and doesn't avert her gaze
>we make idle chitchat and I manage not to be autistic
>nothing comes of it
>September rolls around and vocal lessons start again, I have a new teacher
>it's the girl I met at the recital
>can't believe my eyes
>one day she asks me how old I am
>tell her I'm 15
>"oh, I thought you were 18 or something"
>she's visibly embarrassed
>she's a uni student and is like 20 years old but I'm pretty sure she's attracted to 15 year old me
>one day I say something funny I guess, can't remember what it was now
>"haha that's cute- uh, cool, that's cool"
>spaghetti is falling out of her pockets
>she slips up like this a couple of times during the year
>recital time comes around and I'm practicing my song with her
>we're alone
>we finish up practice but before I go she comes up to to me to wish me luck and give me some words of encouragement
>she comes right up to me and looks up at me with her big beautiful eyes
>I can feel her breath on my mouth, she's so close I could kiss her
>pretty nervous but I know better not to try anything
>she's not my teacher the next year and I never see her again
>a few years we become Facebook friends somehow and I learn she's married
>tfw if I was a few years older she could have been mine

>>39350738
>woman
>spaghettis on her pocket

man you lost one in a million opportunity.


Hope one day you get mad puss fren

>Alex
>I'll always love you

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>>39350426
>>39350629
Fucking roastie cunts REEEEEEE

>>39350841
im sorry fren, but I didn't understand

cmon people, bump this thread cuz i wanna cry at the expense of others

>work at a primarily female staffed coffeehouse
>when I first started I didn't think any of them were hot at all
>a girl I thought was a butterface before becomes beautiful to me
>problem is, she's a keyholder and so my superior
>also hardcore Christfag
>home schooled during teens and so she's most definitely pure
>want to make a move, get emboldened by robots to do so
>irl friends tell me it's a mistake to try it because she's probably too Christian
>don't know what to do but always make a point to work closely with her and make idle chat
>every day I learn something new about her that makes me like her more
Does anyone think I can ask her out successfully after so little time, I don't wanna be a slow cuck and fail to make a move.

>>39350903
forreal though.
I'm glad it didn't last, she got fatter. she was reasonably attractive before she dumped my ass

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>be 15
>depressed, no friends, suicidal
>attempted suicide by drinking bleach like a dumbass
>wake up in hospital getting my stomach pumped
>get sent to a psych ward for teenagers
>nobody there is actually crazy, just edgy like me
>After they admit me they push me into this large room full of other teens
>Don't want to talk to any of them
>Figure if I don't want to be bothered I should sit next to this girl who's reading a book in the corner of the room
>nope, I was wrong
>She strikes up a conversation with me
>Annoyed at first but she's really cool
>She's a bit depressive but seems to open up with me
>Not conventionally attractive but very cute to me
>Have a slight crush on her at the end of day but don't say anything obviously
>fast forward about 2 months
>Most kids here leave in like 3 weeks, we've been here much longer for some reason
>We've been close friends this entire time
>One of the nurses joke and asks if we're a couple
>She says "With anon? No, eww, that's disgusting"
>My ego is absolutely crushed
>Get upset and say something about it later that same night
>Turns out she had feelings for me but didn't want to say anything
>End up in a "relationship" of sorts, eventually both get discharged and continue seeing each other (she happened to live in the same city)
>Together for more than two years
>Her depression seems to be getting better
>Commits suicide out of nowhere
I've told this story before
I miss you J

>>39350931
be her friend anon, have fun with her, go drinking (if she's into it).

After a couple of dates (if she doesn't like the idea of "dates" call it a meeting) say fuck it and try something

>>39350931
I'd probably say save yourself the pain and don't ask out a coworker.

If she says no, it's gonna be awkward as fuck as long as you work with her and people will give you so much shit.

>>39350979
this.
I hate it when people feel the need to attempt crossing from acquaintanceship to dating.
Why can't people just start with being friends without getting pissed about being "friendzoned"

>moved into new appartment in June
>had the cutest roommate
>instantly have a crush on her
>she has a boyfriend (long distance)
>she was always so nice to me, brings me cookies, writes me little notes in the morning
>fall in love with her
>we develop friendship
>one day tell her about my feelings
>she tells me that she'd like to have sex with me, but we can't because of her bf
>from that point on hugs me whenever she leaves, even if it's just for an hour
>gives me kiss good night on the cheek everytime she goes to bed
>one night when she doe it, we actually kiss
>over the next few weeks we have an affair
>sometimes feels like a real relationship (she even kisses me in public)
>she moves back to Italy in early August
>feel like I've lost the love of my life

I could make a thread and give extensive greentext if anyone is interested

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>>39350296
I got a platonic hug from a girl for the first time a year ago (I'm 23) and it was the best I've felt in a decade. For just a few moments, it felt like someone in the world actually saw some value in me as a human being.

I still can't stop thinking about it, I just want to feel that feeling again, more than anything.

>long time ago, parents send me to fancy arts camp up in michigan for a couple years
>spending 4 weeks a summer in rustic cabins in the woods with all sorts of art fag weirdos
>pretty comfy
>develop close friendship with a girl, Jessica, who I see each summer
>we chat on AIM during the rest of the year, her griping about her parents who are divorced and hard to deal with, me about my girl troubles
>cute rich redheaded girl from wealthy family, a friend of jessica, who works in the cafeteria seems to take a liking to me
>i didn't kiss her because she had braces or some retarded reason
>years later, i find out she's become even more hot, extremely right wing and loves anime
>wasted opportunity.jpg
>Jessica tells me about another cute girl, Annie, who apparently likes me, one week before camp ends
>I talk to her a bit, but too spaghetti to make a real move
>Annie and I exchange mix cds during the year, but eventually lose contact
>Jessica's problems keep seeming to get worse. She had a bad head injury and was wearing some metal gear for a while, seemed to be messing around with lots of drugs
>time passes, I go on to college, can't attend camp anymore
>I meet jessica one last time, driving out to meet her in cincinatti from college in indiana.
>we spend the day hanging out. at the end of the day, we're lying next to each other watching Borat together
>we part ways
>a year later, I'm taking summer classes at college- lonely and far from home- I get an email from her mother
>Jessica killed herself

>>39350426
im sorry anonernino

>>39351056
So, how is your idea of hooking up with someone? Do you think leaking spaghettis from your pockets will make pussy rain from the sky? How do you think Chads get woman whose IQ's is astonishingly higher than his?


>>39351121

Come on anon pour your tears on the keyboard and tell us more

>>39350296
>>39350296
I actually met and have started almost dating my dream girl. I met her at the start of my college term, and slowly have been building up my points with her. I've been subject to a shit tonne of rumors and speculation because shes a really popular and beautiful girl, who doesn't match me at all, but it seems so.

It sounds quite minor but i'd have to green text pages to give you an idea of how long I've been judged, in a brief one, I have one working eye. All my life ive been judged and this girl is the only one to look past it, so much so, when she was laying in my arms, she lent in and kissed it. I wanted to bawl right there but just buried my head in the bed.

"oh anon! thats not love lost get out reee"

you wont help yourself pushing me away. It was thanks to you guys i achieved it, I learnt to care and talk about peoples lives with them, unlocking trust and all sorts. So thank you robots, for helping be achieve what I think is my dream.

>25 next month
>kv
>oneitis for past 11 years who probably hates me
>no gf ever
>no prospects


didn't think i'd get this far but I have at least I have an ok job and money saved up to spend on nothing

>>39351212
>So, how is your idea of hooking up with someone? Do you think leaking spaghettis from your pockets will make pussy rain from the sky? How do you think Chads get woman whose IQ's is astonishingly higher than his?

Dunno, hooking up with someone isn't really my end goal, I mostly enjoy the validation of being with a girl who says she likes me. I can at least look back on it and have an idea of what not to do in the future.

>>39351002
Why will anyone give me shit for it you moron? Why would I ask her out in front of an audience?

>>39351121
>ITT shit that never ever happened

>>39351307
Yes, but that's an very different viewpoint.

Most men in this world (including me) have an direct vision -you can say as an objective too- regarding women: the minute you met her, you figure out if you wanna slam dunk the pussy, you want to be friends, you want to be away, etc.

Being outside of this spectrum is fine, but it limit exponentially your Pussy grabbing abilities.

>>39351337
Lol, you don't need an audience to get shit.
one thing I've learned about women is they talk about personal shit to other people a LOT.

But that's just my experience. I can't honestly say I know the exact circumstances of your situation, so oh well.

And who says you have to take my advice, I'm just some faggot on the internet

>>39351372
Unfortunately, my friend, it did. And it was a lot more complicated and devastating than just that.

>>39351626
I'm not you're "friend", fuckface.

>>39351951
>I'm not you are "friend"
so he IS your friend. you're just not his friend?

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She's 7 years older than me.

Is it worth bettering my life for potentially getting with her or should I not even bother with older women?

>>39352022
Kek brah I've seen you posting this roastie before. I remember you being a faggot and kek.

>>39352122
I'm here at least 20 hours a day, you?

>>39352122
>kek

It's not 2011 anymore bruh

>>39352182
Well I'm not a NEET so I work about 8 hours a day, I'm probably on here 10-12 per day .

>>39352231
Have fun at work tomorrow wagie

>>39352246
I won't, I worked two 16 hour shifts back to back followed by 8 hours today, and 8 tomorrow.

>>39350963
this ls sad
sorry, anon

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>Be me
>Slightly socially awkward since childhood as a result of intelligence
>Just normal enough to remain within the scope of acceptability yet awkward enough to unsettle most normies
>Despite this had several failed normie and even borderline Chad tier friends throughout high school
>Was always that one kid who never seemed to have any luck with girls whatsoever
>Every time I would try to talk to one they would either ignore me or steer their conversations away from me
>Eventually bite the bullet and accept one of my normie friend's advice on texting
>Followed everything he told me to do word for word
>Shit was along the lines of keeping your responses as brief as possible and acting like a general douchebag
>He showed me screenshots of how it worked for him so I genuinely though it would work for me as well
>It didn't
>Become huge cynical edgelord in last year of hs as a result
>Was the only one in my group of friends to leave high school without kissing a girl
>Fast forward to now
>All I do is sit on my ass watch anime and channel my sperg into coding
>When I'm not doing any of those things I'm either sleeping or drinking
>Lost all interest in women and feel like an emotionless shell
>Life may be hell but at least I have rum

>>39350963
Get shit on dumb faggot lmaooo

>>39352308
Thanks anon. She was always depressed but I thought things were getting better. I guess I was just wrong. I feel guilty because I wonder if maybe I didn't notice something I should have.

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>>39352635
Very uncalled for, anon.

>>39352693
No respect for normies, none.

>be 48 year old dude
>cute attentive 21 year old at work
>literally runs over to my desk in a awkward geeky way if I ask her to come speak to me
>other managers tease me she fancies me
>in shitty sexless marriage but can't face the stigma of paying this girl any attention
>think about her every day

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My girlfriend of 4 years left me for another guy, without even a real goodbye. After basically telling me shes tired of not treating her right she wakes up the next day and blocks me and my family on all her social media and I haven't heard from her since. That was 2 weeks ago

The only way i'll ever feel better is if she gets dumped and tries to come back to me so I can reject her, but I don't think this will ever happen

>>39352737
I do not consider myself a normie in any regard.

>>39352764
She was having an affair with him for a long time and was waiting for an excuse to dump you and make it seem like she just met the guy.

>>39352771
>in relationship for two years
>not norman

>>39352737
>normies

Yeah, okay

>>39350629
>she dated someone for three fucking years
>must have bucketfuls of spectral cum in her

you dodged a bullet there anon

>>39352807
I guess this is almost always correct

it just hurts to think about

thinking about dating now, the only way I could meet someone is tinder, and my trust level is 0%

>>39352756
go for it oldanon

>>39353117
She's quite reserved and quiet so I worry my colleagues would think I was taking advantage.

>>39350296
>the one girl in my life who kinda liked me couldn't date me because of her strict parents
>even then she had someone else in mind
>no one else has ever felt attraction to me
>any other girls i liked were physically digusted with me
>i roll with it and have a 2D waifu
Hajime shinoda is always by my side

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>>39353296
Can't believe i forgot a photo of my magical girl and tokusatsu-loving wife

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>finally start wagecucking after sitting around for years going to school and little else
>meet a shift manager 2 years younger than me there, really qt and sweet in general
>instantly attracted to her
>starts to creep into my thoughts more and more
>talk to her more, mull over asking her out
>find out she's dating some guy
>crushed but try to move on
>work with her most days so I'm around her a lot
>get to know her better, fall for her even more
>become convinced I could've been with her or at least dated her if I'd met her sooner
>eventually quit job, don't see her anymore
>eventually stop talking to her, find out she got pregnant
It's been months and I still think of her every day. Knowing how obsessive I can get I probably won't be over her for years if ever.

>>39354061

how many times does it have to be said stop having a oneitis

>>39350426
You fucking nigger, go self improve and do it m8 you a have a chance that none of us will never have

Not much to say
>in relationship for one year
>partner breaks up with me over stupid shit
>find out later they were cheating on me the whole time
>they had sex at my house while I was passed out drunk
No more relationships for me, ever. I can't trust anyone.

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>21 years old, never felt true love for a girl
>sit next to a girl in one of my winter classes
>she's some shy korean girl
>she dresses in these cute old-fashioned winter jackets and sweaters
>surprised when the few times she spoke it was in absolutely perfect english
>she was also smart as a whip considering this was an advanced calculus class
>realize over the semester she's literally the dream girl I never knew I wanted
>fall for her hard
>never felt this way about another person so I didn't know what to do
>class ended without me saying more than a couple words to her, I have never regretted something so hard in my life
>never see her again

It's nearly a year after the fact and I still think about her nearly every day. I'm going insane.

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>ask oneitis out
>it actually works and she dates me for a month or so
>she decides she likes me more as a friend
>shes now confused/upset that I dont wanna hang around and be friends while she dates chad
I tried to explain but she just doesn't understand and keeps contacting me

>>39350426
GO OVER THERE FUCKING TOMORROW BRUH

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>>39350296
>3rd grade
>don't really care about girls
>start noticing this qt that's in the same class as me
>can't tell what I'm feeling
>really want to talk to her
>never do
>slowly realize that it's my first crush
>decide that if I want her to like me I have to be better than everyone else academically for some reason
>focus on getting straight A's this year
>report card time
>I get straight A's and am the best student in class
>were getting lined up for lunch
>everyone is asking each other what grades they got and looking at each others report cards
>I turn around
>my crush happens to be standing right behind me
>heart skips a beat
>hey, so what grades did you get?
>this is my moment
>"It was tough but I got straight A's this y-"
>"oh I did okay. Math was kinda tough though haha"
>kid in front of me cut me off
>she was talking to him
>she looks at me like I'm a weirdo for even thinking that she was talking to me
>cuts me in line and starts talking to him
>my hearts splits into a million pieces
And that was the first and last time I ever fell in love. I feel lust when I see hot women but I've never had emotional feelings for anyone ever since. No oneitis, no more crushes no nothing.

>>39350963
>>39351002
This.

If it turns sour, one of you is going to leave the company, and it's not going to be her.

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>>39350296
> Be 14, just entered high school
> Pretty spooked by girls, can't exactly talk to them well
> Friends introduce me to a girl, Sarah for this story
> She's a year older than me, got beaten with the short end of the genetic stick
> She hugs me right off the bat
> Feelsgoodman.gif
> Tell myself on that day that I shouldn't fall for this girl
> Weeks pass, get closer to Sarah but still resist feelings
> Learn about school dances
> Everybody tells me I should ask Sarah
> Eventually pressured into asking her to the dance
> She says yes
> The week leading up to the dance I fully embrace my feelings
> We flirt almost constantly at school, she puts her arms around me as much as she can
> Decide to ask her out at the dance
> My first dance ever, pick out a decent button up, nice pants
> Given money to get us in and a rose to give her, hide rose in my back pocket
> Show up at the school and search all around for her
> She's nowhere to be found so I find a couple friends and enter
> Ask a few of her friends about it
> One guy says "Yeah she said she'd come with me but...I can't find her."
> Realization of what may be happening, mild panic ensues
> Some of her girlfriends show up later and confirm that she isn't coming
> I mope around the back for the remainder of the dance (2 hours) discretely throwing away the rose
> Go home, toss clothes in back of closet and cry myself to sleep

And that's how I met the girl who I'd come to chase for my entire high school career and single-handedly turned me from a kid with blossoming social skills into a jaded sperg. If anyone wants I'll continue, it only gets worse from here.

>>39355884
continue plox

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>>39350296

>tfw ex's new bf is just a better version of me in every single way

>>39354760
Why not look her up on social media? Most likely you can justify it by the fact that you actually met in real life, even if briefly. It's worth a shot, I think. Even if she turns you down you would probably regret it a lot less than if you never tried.

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>>39356123
lucky you, now you got a template to surpass
if he's like you, then you can become like, and greater than him
show that faggot who the real man is

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>First year of highschool
>A girl who i've been close friends/had a crush on for 2 years transfers into my hs
>She is my classmate now, let's call her K
>We become closer than ever
>Always together
>Most of my classmates think we're dating
>A few of them "congratulate" me on dating such a qt (i was kind of socially awkward at that age)
>Awkwardly let them know we're only friends
>All of my close friends telling me to step up and ask her out
>Some of her friends tell me the same thing
>February arrives (her birthday is the 1st)
>She makes a little get together in her house
>We had a good time, got her a gift, no moves were made but it was the first time i gave a gift to a girl on my own
>The get together is almost over
>She receives a phone call and goes outside to take it
>Comes back in visibly mad and with teary eyes
>Pay not much attention to it
>Next day comes and i message a friend of hers to ask if she knew why the phone call made K mad
>Her friend tells me K's "almost boyfriend" didn't go to her house and went out drinking with his friends on her birthday and it was him on the phone telling her he won't be going
>I got a little heartbroken bc i didn't she was seeing someone but i get encouraged by my friends and plan to ask her out on saint valentines
>The 14th arrives and i buy her flowers and chocolates (i know, cliche)
>We celebrate the 14th at our school
>I arrive with the things i bought for her and ask her out in the middle of the cafeteria
>She says yes
>I get a small cheer from the people present
>I'm happy as fuck
>Arrive home from school and start playing halo reach with friends
>I get a text
>It's hers
>"Sorry anon i didn't want to reject you in front of all the cafeteria, i actually had plans today"
>I'm shocked
>Cried myself to sleep that day
>Later found out she was going on a date with the guy who left her on her birthday

We're still sort of friends, she became a huge whore and i haven't tried anything with a girl ever since

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Pretty much my prom night

>middle school 8th grade
>girl in my english class
>7/10 black haired
>out of nowhere she starts saying hi to me everyday in class
>i say hi back but some days i act chad and dont respond at all
>after a few weeks she starts saying it to me on our bus when i walk on
>friends catch on and start making fun of me over it
shut the fuck up most people on this board arent 100% robots. lets continue
>too pussy to actually have a conversation with her
>ff to freshman year
>she starts saying it on the bus again and im getting annoyed
>im thinking about starting convo with her but not really worth since no classes together
story ends here due to me being a prepubescent freshman.

>>39350296
dropping by to say good job having good trigger discipline on your pic (assuming you made it)

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>>39350296
>have epileptic gf
>had another fucking seizure again
>about 2 or 3 months since the last one
>right before we were going to sleep while in bed
>literally as we were talking about if current meds would work/be the cure because longest time without one
>tfw day before classes start
>tfw literally the only girl that doesn't act like a thot and is actually kind of a robot
i'd fucking ree if it weren't for the fact that neighbors are probably asleep.
goin to be staying up all night because why the fuck not

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I tried. I couldn't find her, there is no trace of her anywhere on the internet. Girl's a fucking ghost.