I feel my life fundamentally changing right now and I just want to have a thread about it
Suddenly and for the first time ever I feel that I want to be a father one day. And like an affectionate, new age hippy father with lots of hugging saying i love you.
Right up until yesterday I was always 100% sure I wanted to die childless. End my family name, disperse my estate to the community, help depopulate the planet and all that. I felt no hesitation at all.
I felt that having kids would just be one gigantic, ultimately pointless hassle. Now I actually want to go through the bad early years to get to a close adult relationship. Something better than the adult relationship I have with my traditional, conservative distant father.
Definitely not right now, but definitely at some point. I guess this is maturing? I can literally feel myself getting older, crossing the threshold of a new life stage, it's joyful but also scary.
>>39318845
Congratulations man, these transitions are ambiguous and diffuse for men. There are no rituals for becoming "a man", but we do transition. These changes are terrifying in a way, but I'm glad you can find the joy in them. Genuinely proud of you here anon.
>>39318939
thanks have another cool room photo
i might just dump a few of the best to celebrate, love this folder
i would love to have something like this
this one is on airbnb somewhere in the american south, forget exactly where
last one i think, dream bedroom
I am going through the same thing down to the distant conservative father. I realize that close family bonds have been lacking in my life and is like to give someone a chance to have a family that matters to them. I thought having kids was a waste of life, but I'm starting to realize the Internet really was what wasted my life.