Secrets

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>>39312521
I neetpost all the time but lowkey depressed I cant be a normal bluepilled wagie and float through life

>>39312559
Yeah, there was a time I thought being a 'working stiff' -what we used to call them, would have been a bad end for someone 'special' like me, but now... I kinda feel like I missed the boat.

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>>39312521
I only make LARP-posts.
*BRAP*-posting is my favourite

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>>39312521
My cousin (7) gave me a lapdance when I was 10

She said we were playing house and that I was the father and she was the "little girl"

>>39312626
What kind of responses are you looking for?

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>>39312835
Other LARPs in return. The ones where anons say I made their day or something are probably the best though.
*BRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAP*

>>39312939
I always laugh at brapposts but I'm probably in the minority.

>>39312939
>>39312956
I recall one time on /pol/ somebody was talking about 'resisting jews' and somebody posted a picture like that, asking how anybody could resist this?

Then somebody posted BRAAAAAP! and another anon quoted the picture and the brap post and said, "just like that, Jew resisted".

>>39312521
I want my mother and brother to die as much or more than i want to die.

>>39313707
What did they do?

Still live with them?

Me and my mom used to bang.

>posting your secrets here
>***anonymous***

kek

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>>39312521
Oh boy here goes, kind of a long read.

My dad died from cancer when I was 17. I'm 21 now and I never tell people about it because I keep feeling like it'd make things awkward. I've also been in three car crashes, and I developed psychosis last year after walking onto a freeway trying to travel from one city to another by foot, because I was stranded in a city a couple towns away from where I actually live. There was so much rain when I was walking that I got completely drenched, started getting cold so I took off my shirt and pants and dried them both the best I could so I wouldn't go into shock or anything, and I kept walking right along the freeway with car horns blaring as they kept zooming past me. I was walking for at least three-four hours, called the police to pick me up in the middle of the freeway and they took me to a hospital to get examined where I then had a seizure, a couple days after I got out of that hospital started hallucinating and developing psychosis. I stayed in two different mental wards for three months after. I was on anti-psychotics, then I stopped the medication against the doctor's orders because I didn't feel like I needed it anymore after I got out of the psych ward.

I never talk to anyone about this part of my life because it would break my perfectly crafted persona.

>>39313993
Most people won't care/ will be sympathetic about the cancer thing, but the psychosis is definitely need to know information.

>>39313944
Are you that guy from that other thread, or is there another guy on this board who fucks his mom?

>>39312521

I shat myself at a football game once

>>39314109
Don't know what you're talking about with some other guy. Where would us mother lovers be if not here though?

>>39312521
I camwhored for old men on omegle when I was 16 because I was lonely and had no self esteem and wanted to feel like I was useful to someone. I hope I wasn't attractive enough for anyone to record it.

What the fuck was wrong with me.

I shit on people's dogs and cats a lot

>>39314225
m/f?

>>39314239
Do you have to tie them down first or what?

>>39314202
I've seen at least 3 different threads where some guy claims to have fucked his mom. Not sure if it's one person, or multiple people.

>>39314264
Well it wouldn't be me. I wouldn't be surprised though if other people. Everyone's a little messed up here at least.

>>39314263
If sleeping no that's my main aim I don't fuck with tying them down. My favorite is really wet diarrhea blasts

>>39314263
Male. So don't get your hopes up.

>>39314323
My hopes weren't the only thing I was getting up, but, alas, all for naught.

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>>39314239
>deliberately shitting on pets

>>39312521
I want to be a girl and it causes me great distress. I would never pass so I wouldn't transition, but it makes me want to die all the time. No one will lever know.

>>39314279
Still...wtf man, why?

>>39314353
It's a rush honestly

>>39314386
This might be a shock but people can't type things on the internet that aren't true

>>39313800
I still live with her. I need to solve this error as soon as possible, but i'm a moneyless loser.
What they did is being horrible people who never learn, what she does in particular is make my life miserable, have psychotic episodes and take her stress out on me, mock and punish me for being distressed by these things, and it's always been like this, from early childhood. I have been raised to hate my family.

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>that feel when you will never tell /r9k/ your juicy secret

>>39314455
How juicy is it? Are we talking medium rare steak juicy or juicy juice juicy?

>>39314424
Tell me a story from your horrible situation and maybe I will tell you a story from mine.

>>39314478
layers of texture, fill you up, like you just got a mouthful of pure frothing flavorful dimensions of sex and there was only more where that came from

>>39313993
How can you develop psychosis from walkin on a road for a couple of hours?

>>39313006
>It's a backwards gassing

>>39314499
Let me see.
>open a business with brother and other partner
>big mistake
>should've know better
>really should've known better
>business fails and stress from relationship with partners is immense
>i finally crack and come home outright crying
>she gets nervous and anxious and starts berating me and telling me what a fuck up i am and how this whole business was a bad idea from the start
>it is now about her and how my decisions hurt her
>completely ignores my breakdown and makes it worse

If i had a gun or an appropriate place to hang from or even a sharp knife i would have killed myself that time

This is a large example of the things she has been doing all my life.
It shouldn't be enough to make a man want to suicide, but if you let this kind of bipolar shit raise a child you get a robot, a broken, suicidal robot.

>>39314323
You still sound cute desu

>>39312521
I cyber bullied a kid at my school until he killed himself.

>>39314523
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tellme tellme tellme tellme tellme tellme
tellmetellmetellmetellmetellmetellmetellmetellmetellmetellmetellme
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>>39314586
>>she gets nervous and anxious and starts berating me and telling me what a fuck up i am and how this whole business was a bad idea from the start
>>it is now about her and how my decisions hurt her
>>completely ignores my breakdown and makes it worse
Wow, that fucking sucks

And believe it or not I do know your pain. My father is often the same way. The problem is, I think, something I like to call 'emotional exhaustion.' Like with some of the things (literally) crazy people do it would be bad enough, but when they're pulling the same BS they did when you were a child, it wears you down until you start to go a little crazy too (as if your genetics weren't enough of a problem).

>>39312956
You're not alone, m8. I can't help but ken at them cause I'm immature as hell.

>>39314661
Yeah, i have gone crazy. I literally look at my own mother and think "i wish you would die already".
And i have to live with that thought, i'll always know that this is me.

>>39314672
*kek
Phonefagging exposed

I am so fucked. I like you way too much.

>>39314386
Because it was easy and we lived alone together. Kind of happened overtime, another way to spend time together and make each other feel good. To be clear though we're also white trash.

I guess the worst would be that I have an extreme sexual attraction to my oldest half-brother. He's 12 years older than me. I've come onto him before and I think if I did it again he might give in.

My peepee is smoll :(

>>39314707
Sorry for your troubles, but don't actually kill/hurt her. Just try to get away.

Some people are just toxic.

>>39314869
Thanks, anon, you're very nice. I'm gonna sleep now. Goodnight.

>>39314936
np, goodnight.

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>>39312521
I was masturbating while my Dad was beating on my mom and could have stopped him but I didn't. Just kept on jacking that dick to some degenerate porn with tears streaming down my face.

I'm in love but can't/shouldn't tell him. and I care about him more than I should.

>>39315055
Are you a woman in your 30s?

>>39314999
Shit. This is not good my dude..

Im a certified autist who's been suicidal since 18 yrs old. Im 26 yrs old now. Walked in my dad dead a few years ago. No contact with "mom". No other family. Make decent money, but theres no point. Women dont like me. Im done. If you actually read this, thanks.

>>39315243
I hope you're doing better mein Freund

>>39315243
I read this. Are you decent looking or is that what's holding you back? I hope things will look up for you

>>39315055
This is my situation too. How are you dealing with it?

I date soulless people and don't even care how miserable it makes me because I'm afraid to make a real connection with another human being.

>>39315315

Ive been told im decent looking. Got kind of a baby face but losing bodyfat makes huge difference. I see a lazy eye but ppl swear they dont. Thanks for the encouragement, hard to get nowadays unless im on 4chan . how sad is that?

I still pray and feel like it has some meaning.

>>39315344
I'm not dealing with it very well/at all really. Why can't you tell your guy?

>>39315416
Because I'm in a relationship with someone else. I don't want to lose their friendship though or make them uncomfortable so I will just take it to the grave. How about you?

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I have great taste in anime

>>39314225
I did the same for the same reasons if it makes you feel better...

Other stuff I never told anyone is that I became so delusional for no reason when I was 17 that I started cutting my knees to write messages with the blood on my mirror so it gets to the other side? I don't get what was going through my mind.

Also I was molested by an old man on the train and enjoyed it and I pissed my bed as an adult

>>39314225
I did this but for 4chan users when I was 12 about 13 years ago. I've been browsing 4chan for more than 50% of my life, fuckin hell
Anyway, I used to smear myself in the attention because I wasn't getting any irl. Bullied most of the time, I would start crying if I get myself to beat up someone after they're on the ground I'd start crying really hard I don't know why people used to think I feel bad for the kids I hurt but I'm honestly still not sure what it is... it still happens if I get in a heavy confrontational and stressful situations, as soon as I get to a place I feel comfortable in i'd start crying non-stop for hours. What the fuck is wrong with me

>>39315571
I don't want to dump my girlfriend bc friendship and not wanting to make her feel bad
But the sex is still good

I think about killing myself a lot

I always wonder what'd it be like to die

I think I'm gonna kill myself
There's just not a point
These are my final words and it makes me sad knowing that they are on 4chan
Goodnight

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I'm a pedophile. I'm attracted to girls aged 5-11, give or take a year.

I have bedwetting problems. It happens once every few weeks.

I like to wear adult diapers and wet them. My boyfriend even bullies me about it, which I also like.

>>39315624
>great taste
>posting this pleb-tier shit

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I can't bear to live with myself. I genuinely don't know who I am anymore, this struggle continues to wage on day after day to no avail.

I have a social life, hell, even a Girlfriend but it's all fake. It's all built around a persona, none of it is real, all bullshit that's been spoon fed to them through convincing means. I get no excitement through this, just when I thought a relationship and friends would fix things, it doesn't. It's a fucking sham.

I feel so desensitized at this point. It just isn't the same. I feel so distraught, so empty, so just absolutely void. I've been struggling with sleep recently, lost my appetite and have to force food down my mouth before I end up in the Hospital on starvation notice.

Is this my karma? Do I have to endure this personal hell for eternity with no escape, no signs of betterment, nothing? Is this hell?

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>>39312521
My main secret is my horrible 4chan addiction. Besides that I was obsessed with a cosplay whore for long time, not anymore though.

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>>39315981
shit he was right all along

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>>39316039
There's nothing wrong with being a pedophile. Also nudism photos are actually legal, but why take the risk when loli hentai is better in every way?

>>39312521
Like >>39314225 I camwhored for older guys on omegle when I was younger and occasionally put on my moms underwear and trapped for them. I did it all for the attention, I liked these creepy old men showering me with compliments and saying how sexy I was. It made me feel good about myself because nobody in my life acknowledged me and when they did, they usually called me out when I fucked up on something.

It felt good at the time but now I will live the rest of my life with that at the back of my mind

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There was a time of about 6 months where I would mastrubate next to my sleeping father.

I don`t even know why.

>>39316067
I camwhored for a spanish girl I met in an IRC channel for like 3 years, she was 13 years older than me but she used to masturbate on me doing things she'd tell me to do when I was around 11. She started getting naked as well and we'd have this 5 times a week, best time of my fucking life. We're still friends and we send each other stuff by mail once a year or so. 22 now and sort of happy about what I did.

I like this guy who just wants sex, but I've always liked him and wanted something more.

>>39314225
I didn't camwhore but I went on chatrooms and social media sites to get chatted up by pervy old men.

I sometimes still do it when I'm low. I still get hit up but not as much when I was younger. Never cammed or anything though. I just like the compliments and being hit on.

I used to be a catfish for around 4 years. As in full on pretend to be a girl at all times on the internet. At my low points I sometimes catfish on sites for an hour or so.

It never got sexual, that wasn't the reason for it.

I do a lot of coke. When I'm high, I'll find myself gorging on National Socialist documentaries, or stuff pertaining to the topic. It's all fascinating and I just take it all in. Although I'm not a National Socialist, I just find Adolf Hitler appealing, there's so much mystery surrounding him and the inner workings of National Socialism that I cannot fathom it properly.

>>39313993
What is your perfectly crafted persona like if I may ask?

>>39316620
Are you into the occulty National Socialist stuff with all the conspiracies behind closed doors or more the person behind Hitler?

I'm gay and no one knows because I don't want all my friends to think differently of me

>>39316858
Ever done anything online?

>>39316811
It depends. I don't look into the occult, esoteric stuff often -- Just not my cup of tea. Granted, if there's something interesting than I'll look into it but most of them seem to be the same or follow the same "plot."

Adolf Hitler himself though was quite fascinating. From his young age to rise as the Chancellor of Germany, just utterly fascinating. I'd say he'd find himself browsing this board and his early struggles are eerily similar to what you see here in terms of the plight of your "average robot." He was very, very timid and exerted "beta" values (If that makes sense.)

You can somewhat sympathize with him. Adolf was merely a young boy thrown into the Great War, surrounded by absolute blood shed only to be spit back out onto the street corner of a nation he no longer recognized.

>>39316863
Not really, I've started to give up

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I've been on the verge of killing myself twice now. I took the bus downtown and was leaning over the ledge. I have the urge to do this and each time I go out I fear it less and start to want to have that last exhilarating experience of flying before this repetitive Groundhog's Day-esque reality comes to an end.

I have ED and that is why I am afraid of dating ever again.

>>39316991
Viagra, my dude. Or Cialis, for daily use.

>>39316999
It's psychological. Would it still help?

>>39316999
Yes. Very likely. Talk to a doctor or psychologist.

>>39317031
I live in a small town so that's a no-no.

>>39317051
How the fuck is that a no-no? You have doctor-patient confidentiality you fucking brainlet.

>>39317058
Fuck no, nigger. I am not risking shit.

>>39312521
My inner labias looks really, really weird.
>inb4 post pic
Sometimes I watch porn just to check the girl's labia. Mine is so ugly and that really put me down. I also never have sex.

>>39317068
Let's see that puss-puss, bb.

>>39317058
Most doctors don't actually care about confidentiality.

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>>39317062
Okay, so you're gonna continue living with erectile dysfunction even though if you talk to a doctor or psychologist when they are legally obligated to keep their fucking mouths shut. You're being retarded. You just seem like you want to have a fucking problem at this point.

The only place I desire to put my penis is in the female anus. Why am I like this?

>>39316463

What was the reason for it?

I used to talk a LOT to listeners on 7cups and I realised that a very good portion of them (maybe over 50% are these males pretending to be female).

The most annoying thing is when I catch one of them and confront them, they always refuse to explain their reasons and just block me outright. That's the thing that creeps me out the most.

>>39317100
You seriously think doctors don't go home and sometimes chat with their wives about their patients? Especially if literally everyone knows everyone in the town?
Sure.

>You can tell me anything..
That is a meme.

I'm a hairy woman. I have more back, abdominal, and leg hair than most men. I also have facial hair. I want to kill myself.

>>39317118
They do it for attention, voyeurism, transsexuality or all of the above.

>>39317144
Drink more plastic water, eat soy and wax your hairy ass.

>>39317118
>>39317155
Mine was the first, attention and escapism. Definitely not transexuality. I catfished as a girl for two reasons
1) It initially started on an online game so I'd get a lot of attention as you do with girl characters
2) Being a girl would be as opposite to myself as I can be.

I just constructed this false, better life for myself that I'd tell my friends. It was my method of escapism from how much I hated my life at the time.

I was never found out, one day I stopped because I felt myself getting more and more close to these people and more and more guilty as time went on. So I cut myself off because it got too devastating for myself and them. I never faced them about it. They probably figured it out by now though.

Anytime my best friend and I are alone together I have a faint, but clear arousal towards him. I have no intention on ever acting on my sexual urges with him, but if he were to come onto me, I firmly believe I'd let him have his way with me however he sees fit.

Before anyone asks, I'm not cute and we're both men. I love him but I'm not in love with him, I do, however, have feelings of lust towards him. I'm not ashamed of my attraction towards him either, but this is my secret.

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>>39312521
>I tell everyone around me that I'm fine, even those who know I'm taking anti-anxiety meds. They think I'm only anxious, but most days I feel as if I'm fundamentally broken as a person.
>I have increasingly gay thoughts (traps, dick, etc)
>I think I want to fug my friend
>I don't even enjoy vidya all that much these days, I'm just too much of a perfectionist to attempt new things
>I tried to whore myself out for silver on WoW as a female night elf in a moonwell "hot tub" when I was 13 or 14. I don't recall being particularly successful and things never got to the erp level, but I found that I liked pretending to be a girl. I think this started my gradual progression to only playing female characters whenever given a choice.

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>>39312521
I killed a patient in afghanistan due to my own sheer incompetence as a medic, i will never get any better because i am a brainlet hiding behind a facade of verbosity

>>39315898
Anon don't leave us. I'd rather be friends with you.

I just want to find a cute sissy white boy to wife up. I don't want to lewd online, I want a real relationship. Don't care if it's LDR, but I need something genuine.

Seems like it's always either an issue of them only wanting to lewd or location differences. I think I'll eventually find my cute robot bf, but I'm sure it will be a long and frustrating search.

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I would jerk off on Omegle when I was 13.

>>39317414
Become an trap

I'm a semi-famous rapper but I lowkey browse /r9k/ almost everyday.

>>39314560
Walking on the side of a highway isnt fun desu
in hard rain it's even worse
I can see how someone could be a little fucked after a few hours of it

me and my little sister touched tongues when i was 11 and she was 7 as a challenge then told my mom about it and she told us to never do it again

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>>39312521
Regret making up with my bipolar ex. He changed as a person but I just don't care anymore. Now I'm moving in with him in a foreign country all alone. Wish me luck.

>>39317414
I've always preferred playing female characters as well, though i've always justified it to myself as having a qt to look at while i murderize shit

Recently tho, i've started fapping to trap videos and futa doujins
When you fall from grace, it's a long way down, anon

>stole my grandmother's MScontin and Oxycontin while she was dying in agony from cancer literally 3 feet away
>molested literally every one of my siblings and cousins that were younger than me, this went on for more than decade
>regularly shoplift, mostly cough syrups but also shit I need that's expensive like dryer sheets and batteries
>try to fap only like once a week, so my cum gets gelatinous and plentiful and then I eat it

Shat myself before a plane ride. The night before I needed to poo but it wouldn't come out, in the morning in the airport I let out what felt like a gassy fart.

When I finally got to the hotel toilet some 5 hours later, I realised that it wasn't a gassy fart, it was a shart. Absolute mess trying to clean up hours of poo that i fucking sat on all that time, had to flush my poo poo covered underwear as well.

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>>39318989
>try to fap only like once a week, so my cum gets gelatinous and plentiful and then I eat it
I see you are also a man of fine taste

The recent accident I was in was really a failed suicide attempt. Since I was a pedestrian and that the video and all witnesses to and of the incident say that the driver was to blame I'm going to be major paid soon. Idk, maybe getting hit by a car is how I'm going to fix my life?

>there is literally no kind of porn I haven't fapped to, including zoo, pedo and hc bdsm and I hate myself for it and I wish something else brought me joy

I tried to buy 4 chan from hirro. I had plan on shutting it down for fun. I was really curious what would happen.

>>39319386
Thanks for giving me the premise for my next dark comedy.

I'm being blackmailed by a robot and I like it.

I've spend 5k to fix my apartment so I can move out without anybody judging me. For year I was depressed and my apartment went to shit. I refused to get maintenance to fix it. So the wall-paper was falling off, dust everywhere, roaches..ect.

After an accident that emded up with me losing my right leg below the knee and smashing my left leg to shit I found myself in the ICU.

the nurses during the night shift were fucking horrible at their jobs and lacked any sort of skill at showing patients that were in pain some sympathy.

Any way, let me explain this here. A catheter is a nice long tube that gets shoved into your dick right up into your bladder. I devoloped a complication with pissing after a nurse had taken it out and it was night shift and I could not piss.

few hours later I am sweating buckets and in bad pain amd the night shift nurses giggle at me saying I am beimg a pussy for being afraid of having to have a catheter re inserted while awake.

Lngg story short nurse comes and does the deed. The pain was horrendous. They joked more and then left.

Few hours later I can't piss again and nurses in my ICU unit nowhere to be seen. I cant move because of injuries so I start fuckin shouting because it feels like my bladder is gonna burst. A fellow patient (He got fucked up from a seizure) started half shouting/gurgling for help for me as well.

A FUCKING HOUR later nurse comes in with an attitude telling me to calm down and shived that fucker right up in me once more.

After she made jokes about it so I asked her to come closer for a sec because I wanted to show her something. She leaned in and I slapped her as hard as I fucking could and called her an insensitive bitch. She went deathly quiet and left.

Never got in trouble and a day later I was moved to general ward.

>>39320284
As a doctor, I'm glad you did that. Nurses are subhuman

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>>39312521
when i'm completely alone, in any place and at any time, sometime I just run and jump aroung the house pretending to be an adventurer or a space pirate or a warrior or any kind of fantastic character living an exciting adventure.
While i'm doing this i sweat copiously and i simulate the sounds of the fight with my mouth.
I'm 19 now, the last time someono caught me doing this i was 13 or 14 maybe but i've been doing this since i can remember

>>39317688
good thing u didnt kill a real person then

>>39317130
>>>39317100
>You seriously think doctors don't go home and sometimes chat with their wives about their patients? Especially if literally everyone knows everyone in the town?
>Sure.
>
>>You can tell me anything..
>That is a meme.
absolutely. i have some ocean front property to sell this guy if he believes that utopian shit. people are garbage. they do whatever they have to in order to get through the days and weeks of their lives. if having a laugh with their wife or gf or drinking buddy about your limp dick is what helps with that, then, yep, it will 100% happen. no one has any honor or integrity or anything else. it's all situational and relative to other more personal needs.can't even trust priests for fuck's sake.