im sorry i still love you

im sorry im such a shit person i tried hanging myself todday but i could;nt im a coward i just wish you'd talk to me though. about anything

but i know you wont because you're smart you know its better this way and im sorry i cant leave you alone or stop dreaming of you or crying over you i wish i would stop but i have panic attacks when i think about how you feel about me and im sorry

>>39297158
How do you fail at hanging yourself? Also, what's your initial.

>>39297241
i kept standing back up. it was just in a closet so i just kept standing before i lost consciousness. my initial to my name or what

>>39297033
I feel like you are me, except you had the courage to attempt to hang yourself. I wish she felt the way you feel towards me, I'd never let go of her if she did.

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>>39297348
I mean ive tried a few times different ways i just suck at killing myself but my life sucks anyways ill have no where to live tomorrow so its either homeless or a hospital and that's just the start of my problems

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>>39297033
>Hey, no worries, I understand everything, so just let me hug you. Do you feel better now?

>>39297387
What's going on anyway OP, venting out what problems you have is always better than keeping them internalized.

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>>39297404
heh we can dream
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>>39297428
That's true but more or less i just came to whine about him again because i can't stop i just feel horrible either way but excatly this makes me feel a little better. just have no where to go been leeching off a friendo just because i'm afraid of being homeless been trying to get out of state to another friends but i lost my brand new id before i could leave and of course getting another replacement isn't easy but it doesn't matter because they had break down and don't want me to go anyways because i'm not in love with them. I'd go to my moms house but i haven't spoken with her since my step dad attacked me for showing up late at night without saying anything idk i could go on

>>39297524
Hm yea I basically came to /r9k/ now to whine about her because I'm so scared to lose her. That sounds pretty rough, I wish I could be of help somehow but I'm useless. Please if you feel the need to, keep venting. It's for your own benefit and I'm interested in everyone's story

I don't think I can ever love you again because of what you did.

>>39297591
I don't know if you can call it venting anymore its probably just complaining at this point. Most people don't vent about the same problem for two years and usually get better im just some piece of shit who can't get over them self or something. Its nice because anons will try to talk to me about because they don't know how unhealthy and hopeless things really are for me. But either way it feels better than my friends who just ignore me. At the end of the day I just wish he'd talk to me I can't stop thinking about him and i'm an idiot and I did so much stupid shit said even dumber shit now they want nothing to do with me and I just want them in my life idc how small anymore. Or at least I can tell myself that but if a mircle happened and they talked to me again I don't know if I would just get worse but they're someone who makes me feel happy and I don't have another person who makes me feel that happy. There is people I enjoy talking too and I like a lot but its different. I'm not obsessed with them so maybe that's why talking to them doesn't make me feel as glee.
>>39297612
>implying they'd even feel the need to say this kind of thing after two years or word it this retarded
u tryd

>>39297742
Don't worry OP I understand how you feel. I'm so stupid and hopeless and now I'm pretty sure she's losing interest but I'm stalker level obsessed with her and she even said she wants a male yandere so she sort of just enabled it even more. Now I can't seem to escape, I shouldn't feel so much for her but I do anyway. Part of me wishes she would leave me so that I could try and get over her but she is the best thing to happen to me and I don't want to lose her because to me she is a literal goddess. But I think she's just going to leave me anyway

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>>39297851
Don't let them go. That part of you doesn't know the pain its asking for. I'm sorry they're lossing interest. I can't remember a more painful feeling then when he started to push me away from him. anyways i'm falling asleep at the keyboard so thank you for talking to me anon and I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day or night. Goodnight