Tell me about your life 5-10 years ago

10 years ago:
>in high school
>just broke off contact with oneitis rather than orbit forever
>dating a chubby qt
>no license
>no car

Now:
>working part-time and running my own business part-time
>still in love with my high school oneitis
>married to a chubby qt
>no license
>no car

Life hasn't changed much.

Exactly the same as now, NEETing is not very adventurous.

>>39282581
10 years ago
>just gotten out of mental ward
>working a shit tier contruction job
>get absolutely hammered on vodka and bentzos all the time

5 years ago
>in uni again
>happiest time in my life

Woe is me, I wasn't meant to last. NEETing again.

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>>39282581
>Tell me about your life 5-10 years ago

I was just starting high school.
I was insecure, I was anxious, I was shy. Above all I was lonely. I had just moved to a new city with my parents, after my dad got fired from his job working at a bank - this was during the financial crisis, I believe - and the atmosphere among my family was tense, with money being stretched pretty thin.

I didn't know then what would follow, what high school would be like, what kind of friends I would make, what kind of person I would grow up to be. But I am happy with the way things turned out. I made mistakes but they all shaped me into the person I am today - and I like the person I am today. I am not perfect, sure, but I am happy.

4chan had a pretty formative influence on my life, I must admit. A friend I made in high school - one of the only people I could truly call my "friend" - introduced me to this site in sophomore year, and ever since it's become more and more important in my life, especially when my family had to move again my junior year. It was then that I became closest to what I am like today, cut off from the world to some extent, with little offline interaction with others - it was then that I started browsing /r9k/.

Since then, I've effectively stagnated. I feel like I am going through the motions of life - going to college, going to class - but not really making any relationships, not really changing as a person at all. That being said, like I said above, I am not really overly concerned about this... I feel like I am doing alright.

About that time, I was a straight up hard core hustler, working my ass off at my job and working deals on the side. Hours were long, the money was big, and confidence in my market was at an all time high.

Lots of risk, lots of action, everything was going straight up like a rocket.

>>39282724
is the chubby qt your oneitis at least

I was still your normal robot piece of shit, I just drank more.

>>39283463
No. I love them both.

then
handsome and outgoing young man

now
a shadow of my former self

It was about the same but with less anime, more videogames, and instead of being sick of having to attend university, I was sick of having to attend middle and high school. More social life by nature of that, but also more having to be around people that I really didn't like.

>>39282581
me 5-10 years ago:
>be in middle school
>Just changed schools due to massive fucking bullying
>Actually make friends and not be eviscerated by everyone else
>this_is_huh_wow.mp4
>As middle school progresses, I make a lot of blunders and end up without many friends
>Go into High School solo with people from the school I transferred from, letting my memories haunt me, like some abstract vietnam flashback
>Highschool ends up no less different than middle school, but I find good company with people outside of school

Me now:
>be software engineering student
>make a really decent amount of friends in the first year.
>don't make any stupid mistakes
>people who, under previous circumstances, I would avoid like demons, make really good acquaintances.
but, when one field prospers, another withers
>At the end of the second semester I get atrial flutter
>summer fucking ruined
>put on therapy, with Alcohol and Coffee being permab& from my life
>can't even drink my sorrows away
>currently studying for exams

The only thing that remains constant throughout my life is that I don't have a GF, because of my disdain, fear and mistrust of girls. I still have issues from my elementary and middle school days.

>>39283091
What were you doing?
Why did it change?

Maybe I'll be in navada or Amsterdam being a legal escort. My father's inappropriate behavior towards me has made me realize that I am just a pussy. Pussy is what all men want? Might as well get paid for it.

Much better than this
Orifjivcj

>>39283756
>being a legal escort.
>My father's inappropriate behavior towards me
Lmao every time
Also you misunderstood the OP

>>39283870
Dyslexia is one hell of a disorder.

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>>39282581
5 years ago:
>middle school
>bulling
>no frend
>go to library everytime
>end up changing schools during a year
>make friends at the other school by buying them candies
>become fat

10 years ago:
>no memories whatsoever
>i just remember i was a weird kid nobody liked

Now:
>full blown neet
>still fat
>nothing to see forward to
>will kms soon if i have enough courage.

>>39282581
10 years ago
>downward depression spiral is starting
>luckily managed to land a chick that thinks being depressed is cool and having a boyfriend that wears black with black hair and smokes and is lethargic and apathetic and all that cool jazz completes the goth/emo look she was going for
>sex regularly but grades and social connections elsewhere rapidly failing
>can already tell i'm going to go nowhere

5 years ago
>depressive spiral in full swing
>managed to trade in goth/emo chick in for a new model that wants to fix me
>dropped out of highschool 3 years prior
>heavily considering making cooking my job because its one of the few things i enjoy

now
>everyones gone and i heavily contemplated suicide just about every second of everyday

>>39282581
>tfw the span of time between 5-10 years ago was nicer than my current experience

Being an adult is super meh

>>39283756
>boohoo I'm a whore because of d-daddy, it's his fault

You're a shitty human being. Yeah, sacks of shit like you are only wanted for their pussies.

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>>39284067
Abuse usually fucks people up.

5 years ago

Wasn't doing much.
A lot thinner.
Never had gf.
Failed learning trades and the depression was there but it was more mild and I was less aware of it.
Drank energy drinks more than booze.

10 years ago

High school.
Scared but happy.
Had hope.

Now

Broken mess with no hope or future. Hate myself more than anyone else could. Deep set depression and mental issues.

>>39282581

10 years ago
>teenager with gf, rent apartment together
>school with friends
>part time job
>parties and other activities

5 years ago
>single
>constantly dream about ex and the old happy times
>in uni but grades and motivation is constantly declining
>depression
>no job
>no social circle

>>39282581
10 years ago:
>go on a trip with most of my high school class
>graduate from high school, top of class
>travel abroad for the last time in my life
>first summer job (it's in a factory)
>drive across half of my country in one night
>move out of parents' house
>start university
>go back to old summer job for a week in the winter
>last time (but don't know this) when in contact with a long-term best friend
>discover 4chan

9 years ago:
>in university
>really start getting into programming
>leave 4chan
>also play lots of video games
>same summer job as last year

8 years ago:
>still in university, practically whole year is related to studying so no summer job
>computer starts to break down and will be unusable 2 years later, until I replace some parts
>get my first laptop
>become sort of friends with one guy in university, this lasts for a year

7 years ago:
>in university
>have a summer job (programming)
>play Far Cry 2 and Minecraft, and make shitty videos when not studying/working

6 years ago:
>still in university
>buy my second car
>move back to parents' house
>fix my old computer
>rediscover 4chan
>get first scientific publication

5 years ago:
>graduate from university, with great grades
>get a laptop
>get a job (first, last, and only "proper" job I ever had)
>live with parents again so have to commute to work 2 hours every day (1 hour / direction)
>suffer from mild to moderate insomnia
>start losing interest in video games
>post a lot on /r9k/
>move out of parents' house (again)
>look forward to the end of the world although deep down know it won't happen

Now:
>NEET
>severely depressed
>feel like life peaked 3 years ago and ended 2 years ago
>no friends
>addicted to social media
>no hope
>constantly thinking about kms next year if get the chance/courage

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>>39283555
>At the end of the second semester I get atrial flutter
Wow this is exactly what happened me, and in a similar context of making some social headway.
>tfw an empty life of sadness and mental turmoil starts breaking you heart before you are 20

>>39284668
did you quit your job? if so, why?

>mid 20s
>live with my mum and brother
>spend most of my free time browsing 4chan
>employed as a pizza delivery driver
>drink pretty heavily during my free time
>deeply depressed

Nothing's changed much except I'm unemployed, my brother moved out years ago and I don't drink much any more.

>>39283667
This was during the real estate crash. I was working a job and doing rehabs / rentals on the side. A huge amount of work. The whole point was so I could bail on society, which I did, in a sense. So, now there's not that much craziness. Either that, or I'm used to it and it's not special anymore.

Anyway, who gives a damn, eh?

>>39282581
>2007
>10 yo
>no friends even as a child
>chubby
>never into sports
>more of a NEET than I am now
>stuck in my room all day, playing with my bionicles and bootleg gundams

A-at least I'm not overweight anymore.

>>39284668
did insomnia cause all this? you seemed to be on a good path

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10 years ago
>started hs
>dream about becoming the most popular guy from hs and a musician
>discover forums and make a lot of friends there
>will eventually become sort of an small celebrity on the internet
>hs was comfy

5 years ago
>dropped hs because I failed a test and they wanted me to make the whole year again
>having some serious and cringy dramas with my oneitis (she accused me of being a stalker)
>social media took over the world so my forum escape died that very year
>thankfully I made 2 friends from there and a ld gf
>first gf experience ever so it was a rollercoaster
>I started to realise I wanted to be a film director and a musician
>feel happiness and hope because of this and feeled loved for the first time in my life

today
>neet
>virgin
>ldgf dropped me 4 years ago
>second ldgf dropped me 2 years ago
>both "friends" I had don't talk with me anymore
>no friends not even online
>no motivation
>cant go to college because my Stacy sister it's never getting her social studies degree, 9 years already and there is no money for me until she finish
>do nothing all day except for vidya, anime, movies, music and books
>body is weak because of years of being laying in bed
>I have literally spended 6 years in bed
>mom is getting tired of me
>my only hope in life is to go to college and become a real film director and is pretty much an imposible dream

10 years ago
>starting middle School at new school
>moved in with shitty stepdad
>no friends
>life is dog shit
>play lots of vidiya like halo 3 to escape
5 years ago
>into mlp shit
>in hs
>have some friends
>play vidiya and shit with them
>spend most free time on pc to escape
>still live with shithead step dad
Things are better now though especially because that fuckface is out of my life. I still a miserable khhv and fill most of my time with escapism though.

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5 years ago
>going to uni, barely any work to do, spend my time playing vidya with friends and enjoying life, paint when I want to, learn some guitar and work out, chill and comfy

Now
>no friends
>no future
>vidya has lost its appeal, just play an hour a day to try skip some time/as a break
>work all the time and too tired/down/stressed to paint much

I'm trapped here and I see no way out.

5-10 years ago
>biggest bully in highschool
>got in more fights than I could count
>sent 3 or more kids home crying as daily ritual
>got fucked up on whatever I could get my hands on
>raped 3 girls one of which was my sister
>slashing tires and breaking windows on random peoples cars
>beat a kid so bad his braces came off
>sent 4 people to the hospital by jumping them with my friends

Somewhere along the way I took a look at myself and realized what a disgusting human being I was. I dropped out of hs and worked a few odd jobs for a few years before going back and getting my degree. I've become apathetic, still enrolled in uni but 4 years older than everyone else. Turned myself into a robot on purpose because I don't deserve to enjoy any aspects of my life. I don't want to see my genes passed on. I'd kill to go back and change things, or maybe do something to right the wrongs I've done but I can't. It haunts me everyday and it's so fucking painful.

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10 years ago
>the summer before I start middle school
>cut contact with all my old friends
>I remember my little sister bullied me for being shorter than her that summer

then we have 5 years of cringe until

5 years ago
>summer before 11th grade
>become explicitly aware of exactly how my brain is messed up
>graduate from super manlet to semi-manlet (taller than my sister now)
>popular older girls were interested in me because I was a wild boy I guess
>didn't fug them because I was literally too wild all I wanted to do was take drugs and fuck shit up

5 years ago:

>15 years old
>playing a tonne of vidya
>had a small number of friends but spent most of my time alone
>eating junk and drinking a shit tonne of mountain dew
>generally content, kind of meh

10 years ago

>10 years old
>had a normal amount of friends, even female friends
>skinny
>home life was kind of hectic due to this being around the peak of my dads drinking
>played WoW, Runescape, PS2 games and such
>played outside a lot
>pretty happy

Now I'm a 20 year old skinnyfat virgin NEET with 2 friends who I never see. At least my dad quit drinking I guess

10 years ago
>15
>10th grade
>"that weird metal kid"
>did nothing ever except watch anime and play guitar
>actually a decent shredder
>wanted to be a game developer
>spent no time learning how to do this and instead decompiled other people's GAMEMAKER games, retool it and try pass it off as my own
>worked at hungry jacks
>teased constantly because girlfriend at the time was a MASSIVE HAMPLANET
>pretty sure she is why I have an ssbbw fetish now
>broke up because she was always mean to me and it hurt my feelings
>threatened to tell people I raped her if I broke up with her despite never even seeing a boob
>dad hated me because I was a fat, lazy, rude, shithead who smelt funny all the time

5 years ago
>20
>worked at a call centre
>failing uni very hard
>drinking almost every night with people from work because I thought it meant we were friends (we weren't and never were)
>diablo 3 was released and I was very upset it was faggy and colourful like WoW
>still living with parents
>dad still thinks I'm a useless piece of shit
>constantly wish I had my abusive hamplanet gf back because I'm so lonely and have never had another gf since
>wank pretty much daily to her fb pics where I can see she's lost a shitload of weight, but edit them so the progress looks like she's gained it
>always broke because of drinking
>zero idea what the fuck else happened in this period because I did nothing except drink and masturbate and hate my life because call centres are hell
>beaches and shores was the r9k wordfilter
Dunno what the hell happened to this place for the cry to change from bitches and whores to tfwnogf

Now
>finally have my bachelors degree
>moved out into own place
>do IT hardware repair for too much money that will be taken away from me soon when the contract ends
>pushing through cyber security studies
>have realised the few friends I have are good and good to me
>not broke anymore
>dad says he is proud of me