why are you an alcoholic?

Just cause, I guess
What else would I be?

>>39253593
Brother, parents, grandparents on both sides were, addictive peronality, depression, poor social condotioning because schizoid and addicted to vidya my whole childhood. It's my destiny.

Because I can't socialize or sleep without being inebriated. Going on 10 years now.

>>39253639
well does it feel good to always be drunk? there has to be a reason, it's not like "why are you white?"

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Because I enjoy being drunk and I have very few pleasures. NEET. Family history. Depressed little shit since I was 9.

My arms are already covered in cherry angiomas, and I can only imagine what my liver must look like by now.

>>39254067
cherry angiomas aren't caused by alcohol, my mom has them and she barely drinks. also perfectly healthy

addicted to wine

>>39254111
Desperate housewife or brown bag wino?

am slavic

>>39253593
I don't enjoy anything when I'm sober

>tfw have a burning desire to be creative, to make things
>tfw have absolutely no talent or aptitude for anything creative
>tfw 10-odd years of depression have stripped me of any creativity and imagination, can barely hold a stable image in my head to work from
>tfw can't even recreate things I've seen
>tfw everything I try to recreate is a barely functional, poor-quality facsimile of the original
>tfw even under close instruction the quality is barely improved
>tfw I'm going to spend the rest of my days with the urge to build and create but never have any outlet to do so
>tfw my uncountable failures only inspire rage and hatred at myself for being such a failure

Just some of the money feels that've driven me to drink over the years

>decide not to drink on a given day
>experience heightened anxiety and suicidality
>drink lots

>>39253593

Used to drink at any given time, now it's once a week, starting at 12.

>>39253593
No. Just for the eclipse.

>tfw I missed it because I got too drunk
My tolerance is shit because I don't really drink that much nowadays.

4 years sober. It was an extended form of suicide. I'm glad I'm sober.

>>39253593
It's a really long story that involves a group of homosexual clowns, a Chinese Rabbi and a my Mother's ex-girlfriend who now uses the name Mike.