/depression/

>>39200764
don't want to do anything beside being on my pc

am i depressed?

Playing Vidya feels like a chore since I'll want to 100% each game, and feel like I'm playing it more for it to be done, rather than enjoy it. I've just been laying around all day. Maybe I'm tired. Felt the same way this past week

>>39200864
Do you enjoy things in life right now?
>>39200937
Iktf anon

>>39201599
no i don't enjoy life or my lifestyle

>>39200764
I'm much better than a few months ago. In the morning it's OK but past 12:00 if I'm not immersed in some show or game I immediately feel it. This lack of hope. Lack of will. lack of everything. Angry and sad for no reason. I was just watching a Mass Effect playthrough, planning on buying it, and closed it telling myself "it's too long, you'll never finish it" (Nevermind I finished a whole lot of RPGs a few years back)

If you look at me with dark-tinted glasses, I'm a failure. No skill, no good feature, no friends, no gf, cold relations with family because I can't be emotional

>>39200864
You may have lost inspiration in life due to stagnation. I wouldn't call it depression but it can make you feel blue when your life lacks some spice or variation

im so down bad i don't wanna use my computer. i used to want to be rich and now i don't give a fuck about money or anything anymore. i love it

do meds actually help with depression? the way some guys describe being on meds sounds exactly like depression to me.

>>39200764
>How are you?
My misanthropy is acting up again. Depression is the worst it's been in years. Urge to self-harm again rising.

>Booze?
I'm over it.

>>39202273
yeah they do if you're truly depressed, otherwise no

>>39202346
how do i know if im actually depressed? i have massive mood swings. I can be happy one minute and just go to shit the next. what sort of meds do i need to control that?

>>39202433
I asked myself this a lot of times. Every time my mind would try to convince me that I'm not really depressed but then I get urges to kill myself and a total void, complete hopelessness. It's been going on for months now. I don't feel as I used to feel.

>>39202433
you most likely depressed, if you're really up and down constantly really badly it could also be bipolar

Feel like shit today, didn't even call in.
Fuck em if they try to fire me, fucking ingrates.
Smoking dat herb, not crazy about this hybrid bullshit.
Still want to kill myself because no matter how good things get, I'll always know that they're actually bad.

>>39200764
I'm getting ready to drink, my penis doesn't work anymore so I can't fap the last time I did I busted to Bailey Jay and it took me 4 hours my dick was rubbed raw

Dysthymia fucking sucks.

>>39200764
I'll spend most of the night looking for dickgirls and maybe find a robot discord to group fap and swap dickgirl pics.

>>39200764
Got some fried chicken to eat and mostly shitpost here all night like usual, I might watch some of Buck Angel on her YouTube channel.

>>39200764
Self harm is for dumb 14 year olds, I deal with mine by drinking and porno addiction over the years /r9k/ forced me to fap to shemale and traps I hate this place but love fapping.

>>39202759
I like dickgirls too but fapping with other bots seems pretty gay senpai

>>39202784
Does Buck Angel have a penis (boiclit) or a vagina?

>>39202856
Na Buck has a big clit not a penis but a grape sized clit to suck on

>>39202807
Yeah, because drinking is much healthier than self-harm.

>>39200764
>how are you?
Pretty bad, I always have this pit in my chest which can get painful if I'm not preoccupied. I also try to use humour to hide my constantly unenthusiastic, irritated and self-hating attitude. I'm starting to get more delusional during social situations but most of the time I can look back and realise how nonsensical those delusions are, although the delusional feeling still lingers when I think back to it. I don't know if I should get diagnosed (I'm 95% sure I would if I went to a shrink) because it might ruin future career prospects. Implying that's realistic.
>are you making it?
I suppose so, the only productive thing I do is go to the gym. I feel like if I don't go I'll spiral into a much more severe state of mind. My studies are terrible and I can hardly sit through classes. I also obsessively analyse the thought processes of everyone around me.
>self harm? how?
I cut my upper arm once and I had a phase where I hit my head a lot. That was a few months ago and I doubt I'll start something like that again.
>booze?
I'm always trying to get drugs somehow. I smoke weed at least once a week usually. I'm always trying to discover a new form of escapism.
>suicide?
I only get those thoughts during extremely regretful/stressful situations. For the rest of the time, the idea of not existing and being in an infinite sleep is to difficult to accept.

I only ever express these feeling on /r9k/. It's hard for me to believe it's actually happening, so how could anyone else possibly be convinced?

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Doing pretty good after a more than a 3 years long anxiety and depression powered rollercoaster.
Actually got a promotion at work and got accepted to the college of my choice.
Good times don't usually last, but I'm enjoying the moment.

Remember anons, you're gonna make it. Without meds, without retarded self harm. Just give it time. Don't overthink stuff and be happy from the little things in your life.

>>39202892
It is faggot now go do some more self harm like a underage fuckboi

>>39203000
>I don't know if I should get diagnosed...` because it might ruin future career prospects
Employers don't have access to your medical records, anon

>>39203000
How big is your penis do you think it's size causes you anxiety?

>>39203167
He might be talking about the military they don't take crazy little faggots like him

>>39203180
Not him but penis size has a direct affect on anxiety if you have a 7 plus cock you are more confident , smaller penis means less confident and more anxiety.

>>39203167
But what if they do in a couple of decades?
>>39203180
It's 6-7inches long, don't know it's girth though. It doesn't cause me anxiety but the 6'6'', 6'' meme can be worrying, because I'm 6'3''

>>39203180
I know my penis is 6 inches erect and causes me lots of stress not that I will ever use it unless I pay but even then being so small I don't know if I could hire a hooker I want to fuck a trap pretty bad..

>>39203160
Enjoy your pre-mature aging and hangovers, tardis.

>>39203230
7 inches with a 6 girth would satisfy a woman or man, if you are above 6ft you are g2g below is where women start shunning manlets.

>>39203230
"What if in a few decades" is kind of a useless thing to think about..

>>39203246
I think the average erect cock is 6.5 inches so you are just under average.. at least it's not 5 inches like a dicklets but you are close to being one.

Learn how to give:

https://uhriginal.com/2017/08/18/help-yourself-by-helping-the-homeless/

>>39203230
A few decades? What's the point you might not even be alive by then. They might as well measure penis size as a factor for getting a job!

>>39203180
I'm 9 inches. Still don't get laid. That's the only thing that causes me anxiety.

>>39203299
Help the homeless with a sledge hammer to the head, KYS all homeless people are drug addicts and should be killed on sight.

>>39203349
Sucks to have a big penis and not using it.. I have a small dick and don't use it oh well. What about Grindr?

>how are you?
hi, my name is anon, i am good, thank you
>are you making it?
yes
>self harm? how?
no
>booze?
i smoke a lot of weed
>suicide?
yes

>>39200764
>How are you?
Fuckin, great. Ever since got rid of my gaming addiction I feel like a bless. I am 6 months clean.

>Am I making it?
No, Im still a useless piece of shit with cronic social retardedness. But life feels so much different.

>>39203349
What's the girth on a said 9 inch long dick? The record is a 13 inch long cock some white dude

>>39200764
I have been sleeping 15 hours a day for the past 1 year.I will eventually end up killing myself.

>>39203397
Are you a dicklet and a NEET?

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>>39200764
is this the virgin OC thread?

>>39203358
This.
A wise man once said "Give a poor person a hundred dollars and they will buy 5 of those snowmen.". They're poor because they are shit with money and their priorities. They're gonna go down to the liquor store and buy more booze and cigarettes when they can't even afford their food.
Buy yourself something that makes you happy instead.

>>39203377
not him, but even though Im straight, I always wanted to have my butt stuffed. Should I grindr?

>>39203377
I'm not gay.

>>39203403
I think it's 6.

>>39203282
>>39203330
You guys make a good case. I can't help but imagine getting denied a really cushy job because of it though. That is probably completely unrealistic and in the long run, getting help now will most likely negate any possible effects of the possible release of mental health documents. Thinking about going into therapy makes me anxious though, I don't wanna deal with roastie councillors and front desks. There's something in the eyes of front-desk-type women, especially the old ones. It's like they want to twist you up or something.

>>39203430
NEET not yet baby, not yet

Attempted uni for a week before getting demolished by it. For the first time, I honestly couldn't focus enough to learn anything. Ideas would come into my head briefly, and fade away immediately after. And when I'm outside, I get headaches and feel terrible no matter where I go. The Anhedonia's remained as strong as ever, but I can no longer keep fighting it while my studies get more and more difficult. Even a proper diet, meditation, and exercise did nothing to combat the main issue. I'm going on medical leave for at least a semester, and once I improve a little, I'll come back.

Call it a mistake if you'd like, but my only other option is crashing and burning a few months later rather than now. I can't take this shit.

>>39203450
Anon you're throwing around so many fucking assumptions it's ridiculous. You have no idea what the front desk-person will be like, or the "roastie" counselor

>>39203442
I hear Grindr is 100% chance to get laid or sucked, I'm straight but if they had traps on their I would fuck one I don't think I would let her put her Girl cock in me though

>>39203445
One anon said he uses Grindr and watches straight porno while getting his dick sucked I guess some is better then none right?

>>39203457
Why not? Nothing wrong with being NEET just get on Neetbux anon. I web all day and jerk off to dickgirls life is great.

>how are you?
i feel strange. i'm currently working on a song - spent almost all day yesterday and most of today on it. i've been meaning to write it for a long time (had a melody and some lyrics in mind) - and it's the best i've done in several months but since i've been so emotionally attached to the idea of this song i sort of have that feeling like i just want to throw up, really anxious for some reason
>are you making it?
getting along alright
>self harm? how?
not since i was a teenager
>booze?
later. i have the self control to be that moderate 2 or 3 beers at the end of the day kind of guy
>suicide?
not today

>>39203552
British front-desk people are almost always slug/snake women. I'm sure it will be. Even in videos of the clinic I'd probably go to she's a slug-type. They're usually nice but it's like their brain sinks back when they see you. I can't explain it. Counselors are usually bitter women with shit degrees, like rats. If you're a desk-jockey or counselor I don't want you to be offended, it seems like you might be one, are you one? This seems odd but I'm pretty convinced of what I'm saying.

>>39203450
Go to therapy my doctor is around my age and is hot as fuck she dresses like a slut too love it I'd stuff every hole she has if I could.

>>39203653
I would love to just suck a dick right now, provided its clean and well taken care of. I dunno why.

Again, Im 99% sure Im 100% straight.

>>39203431
saved

to be honest original senpai

>>39203531
Get on medications you spineless bitch they can help but no you would abuse them most likely.

>>39203737
Why do you say that? Do you have any evidence to believe I'd abuse them?

>>39203531

sorry to hear those feels. i just started a phd program at a new place several thousand miles away from where i grew up. i know 2 people out here so it's really just a devastating loneliness. have you thought about giving it another week or two? i've been here for like 3 weeks now and every day gets a little easier - maybe you'd be able to handle it after you warm up for a bit?

>>39203728
See I don't find dicks sexy I mean a trap with tits and a limp penis I could fuck for days but your right might as well suck a dick I imagine it's warm and soft but hard. Why not try Grindr I might.

>>39203723
This is unironically convincing me to go. I know you're baiting me and I'll end up disappointed.

On a side note, I keep going off-track with animal-based delusions. I almost called hot counselors succubi. You know what I mean though right? These are good analogies, my belief in them is going up and down.

>>39203695
yea well I would never be able to do that. Lotsa pressure from family/relatives to have a workaholic life with 4 kids and a large house like they do.

Yea thats not gonna happen.

>>39203672
Yeah, that actually sounds a bit worse. And pretty stupid.

>>39203717
Okay, anon. Whatever you say.

>>39203706
Called anxiety I get that too after I got a TBI I started hearing all kinds of music auditory hallucinations mostly classical it's fucking weird but it's beautiful wish I could write it down, this one anon was a skits and said he could here a violent angry black man screaming at him rap lyrics he wrote them down on thread it was weird haha

>>39203754
Because you sound like a faggot and most people end up abusing them.

>>39203766
I'd still have to get through the awkwardness of being with a stranger. I just know that part would be super exhausting for me.

>>39203769
Oh I hear you my man I look forward to my sessions just so I can see her nipples when she bends over

>>39203773
Just wait till they die and get their shit fuck senpai pressure do a few suicide attempts apply bud win win

>>39200764
Depression is a rut you have to dig yourself out of, threads about depression are helpful if we're talking about getting out of it and being positive, but wallowing in negativity is an endless loop that leads nowhere.

Avoid negativity, surround yourself with positive people.

>>39203791
Not really I mean if you can't have sex with women fuck men pretty simple. At the end you still got off it's the same result anon.

>>39203839
Smoke some weed or drink a few beers have them come over and suck you off men on Grindr well are men no B'S just say I want my dick sucked that's it then leave and they will

>>39203758
I've thought about it, but what stops me is the realization that it would be shitty like my last job, but instead of being mindless drudgery, it would be difficult and get worse as time goes on. Could I push on? Absolutely. But I have the opportunity not to, and right now is the perfect time in my life to take a short break and get things together. So I'm doing it.
>>39203829
And what about you?

>>39203878
Oh yes I wanna get away from responsibilities so bad. Doesnt really seem like they gonna die off though lmao

>>39203919
I want my pee pee to go in their poo poo

>>39200764
>how are you?
Pretty good atm but i m goig in a new highschool in a week and it really scares me. I ve been neet for over a year now and i really don t know how i can make it though another year of hell. Worst even, my mother forced me to go to a school far away with a dorm where i m staying H24 for 4days a week, i ll litteraly never be in peace

>are you making it?
I hope i ll go though that without too much trouble, but it seems unlikely

>self harm? how?
I stopped the day i knew i was going to a dorm and everyone is going to see my retarded scars. Fuck it only makes things worst. I used to cut my arm and my thigh

>booze?
>tfw can t buy it
I m scared my dad will find out the boose i ve stolen from him.

>suicide?
not for now but i feel it coming sooner every single day

>>39203829
How do you even abuse antidepressants? Not like you can snort them like Vicodin

>>39203920
I don't abuse mine and they help but I have sucked off a few friends

>>39200764
>how are you?
Not very good
>are you making it?
I truly hope I don't
>self harm? how?
Trying to decide between going for arteries or just hanging. I have about 4mg of xanax and 3 knocks me out, so either way I think I can avoid panicking. Suggestions are welcome.
>booze?
Nope, I don't have any
>suicide?
I'm gonna try tonight

>>39203929
Fuck it man go to hospital say ya gonna cutnwrist idk 3 days in hospital all depressed neetbux, are you hoping they all die soon?

>>39203985
It's good to hear about your progress. What were your original symptoms?

>>39203442
Umm just saying so could be wrong jere... but if you want a MAN to shove his penis in your anus pretty sure that makes you GAY or bifurious at the least

>>39200764
I'm better than I was back in winter, lots of stuff coming up and working on them. Never harmed myself, I drink occassionally, never gonna commit suicide no matter how shitty I feel. Everyone feels sad, everyone has troubles, as soon as you realise that, life will seem better.

>>39203959
You can abuse benzos for anxiety

>>39204015
Im gonna have to look that up. How long do they keep you on? Potentially forever?

>>39204019
Panic disorder and hearing seeing dead people suicidal ideation etc etc I go to therapy once a week and med doctor every 3 months meds help so think therapy is BS though helps some people but not me I tell everyone to get help can't hurt

>>39204014
Go to hospital you faggot no need to suicide get help

>>39204039
But what if Im only attracted to women in my life, in real life.

Sure sexually I would like to try all kinds of things. I think the buzzfeed sjw term for me is "bi-curious"? I just identify as straight though

>>39204089
As long as you act like crazy fuck and keep going hospital therapy and meds ya for ever

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>how are you?
i'm alright. stressing about money problems.
>are you making it?
arguably yes. i'm currently making a transition.
>self harm? how?
getting drunk every night for years.
>booze?
very yes. if i can't buy it i steal it.
>suicide?
i'll do anything to avoid this ending.

dying by suicide is secretly my greatest fear.

>>39204130
Would post your benis for us senpai

>>39204130
You are def bisexual might as well Grindr suck a cock get sucked and fuck man holes to find out if You are lucky you can get a dickgirl

>>39202273
>>39202346
>do meds actually help with depression?
They don't unless you're a brainlet gullible enough to fall for a placebo

>>39204205
ehh, kik?

>>39204130
I'm attracted to women but paid 300 to fuck a trap silly for 2 hours was the best xp of my life, her penis stayed limp the entire time and I dropped 3 loads in her.

>how are you?
depressed and missing oneitis
>are you making it?
on the outside, yes
>self harm? how?
i fast sometimes, sometimes voluntarily, sometimes not
>booze?
no, don't like alcohol
>suicide?
no, too much of a people pleaser

>>39204258
I don't have kik M8

>>39204292
me neither, i was gonna create one just now

>>39204270
You would make a good trap if you are a people pleaser you could be taking dick after dick like a good girl

>>39204292
also, send benis back if our deal is done?

>>39204258
I have a thick cock if someone post? I should look for that robot discord

>>39204258
Not that guy but why do you want to swap dick pictures? Can't you just look up penis on the internet?

Can someone tell me how a thread about how you are doing turned into traps and penis discussion?

>>39204347
well dont fuckin ask me im straight remember lmao

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Anyone tried TMS therapy? I'm starting it in a couple weeks.

>>39204327
I'm going to look into kik is it Grindr pretty much or just sexting?

>>39204366
overtime, everything degrades back into the origin

>>39204373
Haha what the fuck thanks for a laugh bruv, if you had a massive dick I'd look but not homo

>>39204396
nah its just like discord or MSN messenger

>>39204389
I've heard about it supposed to be ok but who knows all depends on the person

>>39204398
Ya but I mean is this board really that gay? This is at least 6th thread I've seen talk about "dickgirls" and gay shit not even on subject

>>39200764

Drinking a shitton of booze and the urges to start all over again from zero are stronger than ever

ok so the hot twink who said he was straight created a kik with the username readyplayeron PM for slightly above U.S. average reported penis length nudes

>>39204539
My penis is 8.5 what are you looking for?

>>39204539
Jmnhot add and will send a benis pic I guess do you trap?

>>39204571
eh we'll take that. but again, PM me so we can leave this suicide ridden board alone

>>39200764
Im not sure if im depressed or just lonely

I have basically no friends and have shit social skills. Recently I lost all motivation in everything. I dont seen the point in doing anything. Im not smart or talented and any everything I try ends up going no where. I used to be into diy stuff but ended up wasting $2000 and never finishing the project. I got really into exercising for a while but eventually I lost motivation.

I used to drown everything out by playing vidya and watching movies but now those just feel like a chore. Watching porn just makes me sad that I would never find that kind of intimacy with another person.

I never leave my room except for school and work. I joined my school marching band but I honestly dont know why. I played trumpet for 7 years and im still shit at it. I want to makes some friends but I cant relate to anyone there and pretty much everyone there hates me or feels sorry for me.

I would drink myself to sleeps but Im only 20.
I tried making home made wine but I lost the motivation after a week.

I tried cutting my arms but I dont see a point. It just hurts and I dont feel anything else.

I would drink my self to death but im only 20. I tried homebrewing but I lost motivation after a week. I would do weed and shit to forget the pain but I got no friends to get drugs from

I want to die but Im a massive pussy. Im a huge failure to my parents. Im probably going to die alone.

>>39204539
Twink? I might make a kik how late you gonna be up?

>>39204539
How old are you not trying to get the van

>>39200764
Me on the left
>>39200937
Iktf bro, think I'm done with games for the moment, maybe I'll try books or something

>>39204539
Any pics you can post here? I mean of someone else ofc. Do you discord?

>>39204650
>>39204679
Im just gonna go to sleep now. Its almost 4am here. Good thread today bois, decent effort

>how are you?
real bad, was on zoloft but its doing way more harm than good.
>are you making it?
no, ill never get used to that moment where I wake up in the morning in another installment of my pathetic life. it crushes me.
>self harm? how?
almost let it all go when i was 15 near my birthday. tried to exsanguinate myself. sat on the bathroom floor bleeding, i think i lost a pint. Now i look back on that and just feel sympathy for myself. I was just a fucking kid with confusing and dark feelings and not much help.
>booze?
alcohol burns my throat, it also tastes bad.
>suicide?
hopefully not, for anyone who's been in that headspace, you know its a spur of the moment thing.

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>>39200764
It doesn't go well. I honestly don't know how much I'll be able to keep going before ending it. I hate my life.

>How are you
I either feel empty, sad, but most of the time I just plain hate myself for being a worthless sack of shit.

>are you making it?
I quit school because I was too stupid, I've been sitting in my room accomplishing nothing for the past 5-6 years, I rarely leave my house and I barely take care of myself, I've just recently passed 400 pounds, I've never had any friends but at least this has made it so I've never felt lonely.

>Self harm? How?
Only recently have I started harming my self. It started out as just punching myself, hitting my head in general, but has slowly progressed into my cutting my hands with a knife a lot, but doing it in such a way that I don't leave deep scars.

>Booze?
I don't drink at all, but I have considered making it a regular thing, just anything so that I can forget who I am temporarily, even if it fucks me for life.

>Suicide?
Yes. I've thought of suicide since I was about 7, I've always hated myself. It's almost as if I was born with self loathing.
However I have been thinking about it more often in recent years. I have yet to do it though because I'm a pussy, and because I don't want my mother to find my corpse, she and my dad would probably commit suicide since they aren't mentally healthy either.

>how are you?
Ready for this semester to turn out just like the last couple of semesters, where I spend most of it skipping classes in my room because I can't be assed to go through my morning routine and leave it. I just thought what's the point of showing up if I can't even pay attention anymore. I was so burnt out and I know everyone could tell. One of my professors confronted me about it and told me how my grades suffered. I thought maybe this time I should use my Asperger's card but she interrupted me mid-sentence and it never happened, maybe for the better.
>are you making it?
Kinda. I'm finally doing serious work at the lab on campus that I should've been working at last year. Maybe if I get my shit together I could actually get a reference or two from them worth using. How good your work is doesn't mean shit when it takes you 10x longer to do than someone more motivated. But at least maybe I could improve with this next project.
>self harm? how?
Feeding my body shit and doing jack shit to the point where I'm the heaviest I've ever been. It's gonna fucking suck working this weight off.
>booze?
Just turned 21 so maybe?
>suicide?
Broke down the other day because of a few links I clicked from Google searching "reasons to live." Now I feel inspired to just go day-by-day and keep living for the people closest to me (and maybe, just maybe, for myself too)

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>>39200764
why is not thinking considered alpha?

is that because this meme was made by a self conscious virgin?

>>39205140
What is a reason to live anon? I cant think of one. Nothing makes me happy. I have no friends and am a huge disapointment to everyone. My parents deserve better then the shitty autistic son they got.

>>39205265
Well, for me it's been smaller things like food and booze, games I haven't played, anime I haven't watched. Yeah I'm gonna have to go back to doing real world shit more often which starts to feel stagnant and throws me back in a rut, but I feel alright even if I have just a few hours to get away from that, even if it's lying on my bed. I've also tried doing things I used to do when I was younger, like piano. I'm actually better now than I was all these years because I'm taking it seriously.

But behind all of that is the fear of hurting the people closest to me, which even if there's just one person I wouldn't shoot myself. And even if there was nobody close to me I'm still too much of a pussy to go out, buy a shotgun, and shoot it on my nosebridge.

>>39205447
That last bit really hits home. The only reason I still havent killed myself yet is probably because I been a huge fuck to my parents and I cant put them throught that. I often with I would get terminal cancer or something, so I can die without everyone being so disapointed in me

>>39205578
I've told my friend before that I already know how I'm gonna die, and I'm certain that it would be from suicide if no freak accidents were involved. Thinking of my future on a scale larger than a month terrifies me, so I don't think of it often. It has this weird effect of me not considering the repercussions of the things I do today. Like, I used to care about my health more so I could improve my appearance and become more social, but when that failed I couldn't give a shit anymore. I don't choose health for the sake of being healthy and living longer because I'd rather not live longer.

Maybe I'll just live long enough for Un to send a missile to my city /s

>>39205578
But I still, and have always maintained, that living day-by-day or month-by-month is better than living for a future that isn't guaranteed. But it kinda makes it hard to live in a society where people are asking you where you see yourself in 5 years.

Going off ssris. Been drinking a lot. Occasionally press a steak knife into my thigh. To squeamish for anything more. Would love to die most nights, the only thing that makes life worth it is planning out and going on plong hikes.

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she left me a while ago

can't get over her

nothing helps

suicide seems welcoming

Iv been fostering a Pit bull from my local kennel and since she left my care to go to the kennels to be adopted i have had horrible depression,drug abuse issues and I'm to poor to afford the adoption fee.

>>39206678
She had separation anxiety and is scared of dogs. She was trembling when I took her back
I feel it's my fault that she's going through horrible anxiety

>>39206710
All I can do is eat cold and flu tablets and drink to stop me thinking of what I'm putting her through

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>>39200764
It's a good meme but the Chad one is way over done where it's not even funny.

>how are you?
Great
>are you making it?
No
>self harm? how?
Being alive
>booze?
Probably just come tonight, don't have enough alcohol to get drunk tomorrow when I try to kill myself again
>suicide?
Let's hope

Haven't read down the thread yet, but hopefully you're doing well OP.

>>39207532
kek meant to say coke not come, probably gonna do both tonight anyways

>>39203431
You may want to reframe it.

>>39203431
You should just put "Special" in quotes and

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>>39200764
>been better, been getting into my feels lately. Listening to Young, Dumb, and Broke on repeat
>idk man, I don't even know what making it is any more
>No, no self harm. Can't bring my self to do that
>I wish I had so right now
>No, but sometimes I wonder

It's the same shit, but a different day....pic perfectly describes how I feel

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>>39200764
daily reminder that the difference between an incel and a chat is literally a few millimeters of bone (see pic)

>>39200764
terrible, being evicted, health problems as well
not even close
by coming here
I have a little whiskey but with how I am feeling I don't even feel like drinking
soon

>>39201599
not him obviously but I lost the ability to enjoy things long ago

Just got home after three weeks of work in Japan. Home is so boring and depressing after the constant activity and regular companionship that I had over there, especially because my sleep schedule is totally fucked from jet lag. I miss the food, the booze, the convenient train access to everything, and most of all the hordes of cute feminine women I saw every day.

I spend most of my time drinking, playing shitty video games, and jerking off to degenerate cartoon porn or watching my chickens fuck. I'm not well. Every once in awhile I get a burst of confidence that I'm starting to better myself, but then I relapse into jerking off to increasingly depraved shit. I should just kill myself before it gets worse.

>>39209069
>he likes getting cucked by a rooster

Also, nice digits

>>39209028
What good are hordes of cute women if they'll have nothing to do with you?

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>how are you?
Bad.
>are you making it?
Debatable, I'm going out with a cute girl but I have tons of problems and she said she doubts I'm going to be able to deal with them. Somebody else can't believe in me. Yay. I can't focus on uni. I'm still feeling bad over my mother passing, it gave me a huge fear of people leaving my life.
>self harm? how?
nah
>booze?
No, but I smoke a lot to cope with the sadness.
>suicide?
I'll hang on for now