Have you ever considered joining a monastery?

do you really think a nunnery would have you?
come on, you aren't a spiritual person. you can't hack it as a mate or as a sister, just buy the cays already.

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>>39094088
>I'm protestant
>I'd have to stop masturbating
>I'd feel worthless in a monastery

>>39094256
Depends. Are you Orthodox?

no 90% are closet gay

>>39094989
What circumstances led you to where you are today?
The thoughtfulness in your post made me wonder why you'd bother.
It isn't necessarily reflective of a degenerate.

> 30
> never had a job
> no contact with last friend since 5 years ago
> selective mutism
> haven't spoken to anybody in months
> have gone years speaking only a few sentences
> Sit alone all day
> greater than 10 years being neet has exhausted my interest in media
> porn does nothing for me anymore
> masturbation has become regular maintenance than pleasure

I've thought about this too. Is the vow of silence a real thing? I've already been doing it most of my life. Most days I sit and ponder stuff since nothing else does it for me anymore. I function well under strict routine and guidelines. Maybe some sort of monk life is my calling.

the stereotype Monastery thing hasnt been a thing since pre 1960.

they are mostly hang outs for closeted gay men

>>39094088
>The religion angle gives me a third option, aside from having a husband and a herd of children (not likely) or becoming a strong independent womyn with 40 cats and crippling depression (in progress) I could become a nun. Orthodox monastic traditions are absolutely glorious, but I think to join a monastery one should have a "calling" of some sort, not just be sad and lonely.

When I was younger, not long after it became apparent Nature judged me unworthy to live as actual people do, I contemplated joining a religious order. I could cloister myself in silent halls where reminders that human affection was an impossibility would never intrude. My face repulsive, perhaps I could attempt to find some peace where beauty of the spirit was privileged over that of the flesh. Mother Nature refusing to love me, perhaps Father God would.

The thing about the life of a cenobite is that there is a good reason it's considered a vocation. The vast majority of monks and nuns could have lived very happy lives with mates, with families and children, but they believed religious life could provide even greater happiness. The sacrament of marriage, holy though it was, was forgone for one holier still.

Attempting to escape the demons of Melancholy, Lust and Wrath by fleeing to holy ground is an exercise in futility. The wretched carry those unclean spirits within them; they aren't exorcised the moment an initiate takes his or her vows. Consider the possessions at Loudon. Sister Jeanne, exiled from a world she desperately wanted to participate in, wasn't awarded with sublime visions; she was tortured with sweat-soaked nightmares and nauseating fantasies. God and man beyond her reach, isn't any wonder the Devil claimed her?

The unlovable monster attempting to find happiness in the religious life is just as absurd as him trying to attain it in the secular. For Hell's hideous sons and daughters, Heaven and Earth are equally impossible dreams.

>>39095193
maybe go to therapy and fix your broken mind while you still can have a life

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>>39094088
grew up Eastern Orthodox and although I've no idea about life on the inside the energy of those places is amazing

I'd say you definitely need some sort of "calling" but who knows, go visit some, see how you like it
also props for seeing the true faith and good luck

>>39095101
I honestly don't have a bad life outside of being extremely lonely and having social anxiety. I'm on the last year of a masters degree and have a half decent job in IT. But I don't have and never had any friends, nor a bf and no perspective of a one.
The existence of God in a Christian undestanding is the only thing I have always been sure of and the one thing that keeps me going. I don't like the Catholic angle of a nun "marrying" herself to Jesus (the eroticism in Catholic church is a whole other issue) but otherwise a monastic life appeals to me. To imagine, that I would not have to worry anymore about the wordly things, a job, a mortgage, looks, clothes, computers, technology etc. Spend my days praying and working. But I honestly don't know if I'm meant for this.

>>39095193
Some Catholic orders do have a vow of silence. Are you religious at all?

>>39095317
Great anon, now you made me sadder. Perhaps you are right though.

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I have considered it as an alternative to suicide. I am religious, so I think it is wrong to kill myself. If I get to the point where I just can't deal with living anymore and I feel like I need to let go of my life it would be better to hand my life over to God than to end it.

>>39095505
>Some Catholic orders do have a vow of silence. Are you religious at all?

I was baptized and that was the last time religion has been a part of my life. Some relatives go to church and others don't. Nobody is pushy about it like people often complain about on the internet.

>>39096010
This is my thinking too. It's like a suicide to the world.

>>39095505
Thanks for sharing. I hope things work out for you.

>>39094088
Are you really so irredeemable that you'll never find a husband? I can give you a herd of children if you want.

cam you join those Shaolin monasteries where they teach you martial arts? i'd do that

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>>39094088
>Get baptized when I was 18
>Serve a mission overseas, basically living like a priest, with all the rules of the mission field service
>Graduate from a private church Uni
>Fail to find a spouse, while surrounded by more members of the same church than anywhere I've ever lived
>Move home
>Zero dating prospects
>Zero job opportunities
>My old friends are building lives and families
>I've now been a neet for 2 years, stopped going to church, pretty much lost my faith

Now I am stuck with the morality I've gained from church without ecclesiastical justification.

If I just went through the motions and found someone from the same faith, I would have to lie about having faith, but we would have the same moral values. However I think it would be a really shitty thing to do.

If I try and find someone outside of the church, we would probably have some very different values on morality and child rearing. Plus, I've waited on having intimate relations till marriage and if I date someone who hasn't, I'd feel like that was all for naught.

I sometime wish I had been Catholic, it would be nice to live the same lifestyle and at least make a living while serving others. Now I spend most of my time thinking about how much I've fucked up my life and if it's worth continuing.

>>39094088
I have considered this. The story of Joan of Arc (I call her Jehanne out of respect because that's how her name is spelled) really hit me hard, because I too am a virgin who gets visions from God.
Even if she and I aren't tied together, she is still the patron saint of those ridiculed for their piety, which I am.

>>39096506
What are some of your views on raising children and stuff? You sound like a really fascinating person.

>>39094088
>social skills nonexistent
What's the internet for? You can find a good husbando over the internet really easy. Also not to hurt your feelings or anything but christianity is a dying religion. By the time you're old there won't be many christians left.

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>>39096610
>Also not to hurt your feelings or anything but christianity is a dying religion. By the time you're old there won't be many christians left.
That's wishful thinking.