Robots, what turned you into a bitter husk of a person? >

>>39045600

I'm in the same boat, bro. You try and you try and all you get is negative feedback. You get shocked no matter what button you press, so eventually you quit entirely.

My life plan right now is to keep drinking and playing video games until something happens or I get bored. Then it's off to that noose in the other room.

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>>39045600
Checked

I think robots tend to have similar reasons for turning into robots. My father had severe mental illness, was verbally and physically abusive, tried to shoot me and my mom and sister one time, my sister has had cancer 3 times already in her and survived all 3 times. After my mother finally realized my father was certifiably mentally ill we left and moved in with her parents. It's just been years of trying to start again but my mom has mental illness too so it's just been years of trying to making it all work. Currently I'm in university just struggling my way through in hopes of getting a masters degree.

>>39045600
>Bullying
>Abandoment
>Daddy issues
>Had to left everything I knew and love behind
>No friends

Overprotective single mother that prevented me from developing necessary skills to deal with adulthood.

Hateful satanic manipulation at the hands of a demon posing to my mother as a benevolent extraterrestrial.

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>>39045691
I'm so sorry robro. Keep pushing through.

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>>39045600

>am fat
>am extremely weak
>am turbo-hyper-manlet
>am anti-semitic
>am Jewish

Enough said...

I too have tried and have a personality of a rock.
Been socially shadowed by friends I tried contacting on FB, even a good mates dad ignored my message after he contacted me.

I think they find me repulsive socially because the stuff I say feels dead 'stiff' and put on to hide a clear looser like tendency. Puts them off.

>>39045742
>jewish

You deserve all the suffering you experience and more, disgusting parasite.

>>39045600
I think it was being friends with a brad and seeing him getting laid and rubbing my face in it.

t. wizard

>>39045765
>rubbing your face in it

Literally? He made you watch while he fucked is bitch? Now that's an alpha male, I bet you came just from watching that superior male copulate with the female you will never have.

>>39045764
Well, you're only telling me what I already know, so this doesn't help me very much, does it now?

>>39045742
you fell for the internet self hate jew
please just try and not use the internet no matter what it takes for 1 week. store up on media. and test how you feel

I had an opportunity to mix with people from school years ago and gain a network of friends. I closed them off for gaming in my teens.
Regret that. Now am near friendless. Bored everyday. 24 btw.

>>39045826
already tried that. I didn't go on the internet for like 3 weeks, and it didn't make a lick of difference.

>>39045809
I just hope you known that you're part of a problem that has plagued humanity for millennia. Do you even have a soul?

>>39045839
weird i feel fucking awesome the second day. what did you do in the spare time?

>>39045841
stfu he said he was antisemitic, so he understands the Jewish question

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>>39045841
No, I don't. Also, why are you repeating yourself instead of adding something new to the conversation? That's fucking pointless.

>>39045807
no, not literally

but gloating about it and putting me down

he's not alpha at all

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>>39045600
Im not really bitter, more kinda numb
>never bullied
>yet never really accepted
>people who i thought i was cool with called me a freak and laughed behind my back
>hatred for myself for not taking more chances and risks
But i generally still love life and try to see best in people

>>39045863
lose weight and be like Emil Maurice. You can save yourself by dedicating your life to our mission and renouncing your jewishness.

>>39045845
I went to work, and then went home and did puzzles and went to sleep.

>>39045600
I honestly don't know why I am the way I am, severe social anxiety issues, but I don't know why I'm like that. I'm not even really autistic or anything

I really don't understand. Most people I've known who, like me, had traumatic childhood experiences almost all turned into hostile, fearful or downright evil manipulative parasites and although I can understand how these kind of traumatism can kill a person inside, it was never the case for me. I was raised in rrug cartels, lived in poor, violent neighborhoods, was regularly and extremely brutally beaten at home to the point where I almost died a few times and that's without counting the psychological and emotional abuse. All of this seems to have only worked in favor of boosting my empathy and ability to compassionate with people since having endured tremendous suffering makes me relate to the pain of others and I have become a kinder, more generous person from it. It left some nasty scars and a truckload of isdues. I've become so accustomed to torture that I've basically become a legit masochist. I almost enjoy getting myself in dangerous situations that can severely emotionally hurt me.

Still, I could never imagine giving in to the hatred, fear and frustration that came from these traumatisms. It's too dark a place for me to settle. I just don't understand why others like me decide to settle in hatred.

>>39045942
traumautism

>>39045912
I doubt it. He was like one eighth jewish and didn't look really Jewish.

I'm 100 % Jewish, look really Jewish, and am 5'3. There's not much hope of me pulling that off.

>>39045872
>he's not alpha at all
bitter virgin

>turned 26
>never had a gf
>rejected by all girls i have had an interest in
>khv
>recently unemployed, doubt ill find a job soon or at all again
>living with my mom, barely leave the house
no real reason to keep on living if you would call this life, i have no friends, no hobbies, now hope. i hope i get killed today.

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For me it was shitty family life. My parents divorced when I was 5, my mom was a prescription medicine abuser, my brother was a violent criminal and drug user responsible for sending my mom and stepdad to the hospital on numerous occasions, and on top of that I'm an assburgerfag and the household I grew up in was poor as fuck. Thankfully when I was 17 I got to move in with my dad and stepmom but by then the damage had been done and I was irreparable.

>>39045998
Are all people having sex alphas?

Exactly...fucking retard

Middle school and high school ruined me, I'm 27 years old still can't get over it. Everyone just says "that's the past you have to move on", yeah okay. Those years are super important and mold you into the adult that you become. I was never physically bullied, but I was outcasted and had my appearance made fun of even by my own "friends". I will never be able to have confidence.

>>39046073
compared to you, yes

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>>39046027
ya, me originally too

t. wizardo

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>>39045600

Finding out that your life is simply existing for nothing. God I hate living. Someone just end my suffering.

I like this one girl but she fat shames me for being who I am. Like fuck! I can't help having bad genetics!

>goes to grocery store
>wakes up with two empty boxes of 40 pizza roles

Is that such a bad thing? I'm a really nice guy! I'll compliment you and have a hug with you if we properly introduce ourselves. Damnit, why can't the ladies appreciate my kindness. It literally depresses the shit out of me.

I'll typically compliment a women on how nice she smells and that her aroma is more pleasing than other females. I just commented on your fragrance, give me affection bitch! Let me have intercourse with you!

>>39046076
Is that all? What were those insults about?

>>39045722
I too know this feel. I wish I could go back and fix things, but I think that it's a little late for that now, and I just have to play the hand that I've been dealt.

>>39046076
I'm 24 and I still cry about all the bullying I went through in school. I wish I was homeschooled.

>>39046157
how bad could it have been?

friends being douches to me, the rape that no one believes

>>39046117
Because you're the nice guy meme idiot. You're not nice. You're a self entitled asshat with low self esteem

>>39046195
>asshat
Not him and haven't read his post but your opinion is already discarded.

>>39046180
so you're not a virgin? fuck off /r9k/ then?

>>39045600
this is my first time on /r9k/ and I wanted to see if this is a unoriginal post that will get me muted

>>39046169
I was tortured everyday to the point where I became suicidal at 12

>>39046209
you're a newfag and not welcome here

>>39046211
physically or mentally though?

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1. Learning it's normal for shy men to visit prostitutes

2. Learning my boyfriend lied to me about being a virgin, and visited multiple prostitutes

Fuck men. I waited my whole fucking life for a shy, sweet guy to date and marry. I'm going to make a Tinder account.

>>39046224
i don't mind because this is a shit board anyways

>>39046271
the fact that this didn't got me muted is petty

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>>39045600
We're all dead inside, we're just waiting to be dead on the outside. That is life.

>>39046234
Both. I have no self confidence now and I am terrified or people.

>>39046271
gtfo already faggot cuck

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Messy divorce while I was young teen, no real father figure, intense existential dread that stems from a pessimist/apathetic worldview

I feel like I'm in purgatory and that's exactly what I want, i'll exist until I don't and that's it

>>39046374
this didn't got you muted? what a fucking joke of a board, I thought making posts would be harder

>>39046363
I was never bullied, but I get so nervous if I look other people in the eye that I start crying. How the fuck do I deal with this bullshit?

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Death and suffering is the natural state of man. Life is nothing more than the painful and short prequel to eternal non-existence. Embrace your doom, for it is your true form. Death exists forever, life does not.

>>39046410
start looking people in the eye, is that simple. it's the same way for everything, if you want the pain to be less annoying, apply pressure and if you want to desensitive your penis, touch it more

>>39046468
I've tried, but it doesn't seem to work. Any other advice?

>>39046400
why havent you kysd yet fag

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>>39046468
It takes me nearly 40-50 minutes to ejaculate, it's not even worth it for me.

>>39045600
The second I was born I became an angry piece of shit because I realized I had to share the world with the rest of you stupid fucking nigger jew faggots

>>39046500
>I've tried, but it doesn't seem to work.
You didn't try, if you had tried, you would see how simple that would be.
If you really tried, prob it wasn't for long, stare longer

Also, this stupid video got recommended to me a while back, I don't know if it works because I'm not retarted to be afraid of looking at people's eyes but check out if this works.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5w3cYtJekpw

>>39046559
You're literally just giving beeeee yourself tier advice. Have you ever even had anxiety before? If not, I don't really give a shit what """advice""" you have for me.

>>39046522
I'm not trying to act like Mr. Doctor, but try NoFap and NoPorn, that seems like your problem.

>>39046594
>beeeee yourself tier advice
This is why I hate some kind of people, unless you offer them a magical pill that will make their problems go away, they won't listen to you. Try watching the fucking video

Endless job failure. Endless failure at anything I've ever tried. Slow. Sleep apnea. Endless relationship failure. No talent, skills, ambition. Doesn't know how to drive. Both parents had extreme mental illness and did horrible shit to me. Mental illness going back generations on both sides. I'm also fucking crazy. Morbidly obese and have been fat 95% of life. Low testosterone that is now nearly non existent. Social skills were never good and now are non existant. Horrible resume. Booze and drugs. Cannot stop seeing/pointing out the misery of existence. Not into anything Normie's are into nor geeks or anyone else. Not into anything anymore. Memory and attention span are GONE. Haunted by guilt and regret. Wannabe creative type but all that I've made or written is shit. Totally broke. No family left whatsoever. About to be homeless in a week or so. Friends tired of my negativity and increasingly boring/hopeless situation have all distanced themselves or just cut ties outright. Endless humiliation. Urges to outright murder innocent people rising every day. No hope for a future. Starting to hallucinate and hear voices . 33 years old. Sleep on couch. Roomeate hates me for many justified reasons.

Too much of pussy to an hero. Will probably do the first day of legit homelessness. Oh yeah when I was way younger I did some fucked up shit and it will never leave my head. Between all this and no dopamine releases no seratonin no endorphin rush (as far as I can tell). Yeah empty pathetic husk who spends all time on this stupid non PC version of tumblr basically.

>>39046632
>If you don't agree with the exact advice given by me, you are rejecting all advice given to you by everyone and want a magical pill to fix all of your problems.

This is you. It really does beg the question, how can one person be such a narcissistic cunt?

>>39046603
I fapped less than 100 times in my life, I have no foreskin and my penis just never had any real sensitivity too it.

>>39045600
ITT: Excuses

Debate me

>>39046707
I'm >>39045742
what the hell should I do to fix my problems?

>>39046671
That's the kind of reaction I want you to have with people, but instead of having a monitor in front of you, try that with people in real life. You seem like a smart guy, so tell me, how will people's opinion affect you and your life in the long run?

overprotective mother
emotionless father with some sporaric episodes of alcoholism
ignored by females, no gf (that did major harm to my self-esteem)

I had luck with my friends though, I wasn't bullied.

>>39046719
>>>/fit/
also
>manlet

you will make some real fast gains

>>39046733
Are you asking how people's opinions should affect me in the long run, or how much I value other people's opinions/ let other people's opinions control my life?

>>39046750
I was referring more specifically to being Jewish and anti-semitic.

>>39045991
I am pretty pol (not nazi pol, but awakened to in uncomfortable truths and can never be a normie because of how i entirely reject pop culture), but you should not hate yourself for being jewish.

Most of the hatred for jews stems from their nepotism and them being at the forefront of pushing degeneracy.

You are just an individual. There is a lot of admirable qualities jews have such as their intelligence and many are traditional.

I will never have friends and I am completely atomized. That is a horrible way of living.

>>39046719
What are your problems?

Ignore this >>39046750 for now, at least

>>39046782
Are you referring to being of Jewish "ethnicity"? As long you don't have those retarted curly things, you are good. If you are talking about beliving in Judaism, well just be proud of who you are or start accepting that life after death is eternal oblivion. Also there is no way my previous sentence is true or not, there could be God or not, your idea of the afterlife is good as mine.

>>39046790
But Jewish """""acceptance""""" is exactly what leads to the death of empires.

>>39046756
Imagine talking to a random person on the street, how will that person's opinion of you will shape you or your future?

>>39046265

How old are you? He lied to you about being a virgin because women in western society are notoriously cruel towards male virgins. The ones that deny that happens are always the meanest ones.

>>39046884
not at all.

origamily

>>39045600
>stupid bad luck ruined my career and every alternative I try
>social isolation

Those two are my biggest issues in life. I died long ago as a person and now I'm just an empty shell of a person going through the motions.

>>39046896
Then why should you care or be afraid of people overall? I know this pair of sentences won't wipe your anxiety of existence, but they will (hopefully) help. In the end, I cannot go to your house and force you to talk and meet people, that job is up to you.

>>39046850
>there is no way to know*

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>>39045600
>>39045600
I moved across the country at 17 (now i'm 21) immediately after graduating high school because my parents had an idealized vision of what living in Portland, OR would be like. I guess you can thank trash like Portlandia for that. Anyway, that dragged me away from all my friends and the 2 or 3 of them that remained in touch with me online drifted away and became die hard leftists. I don't judge their decision as it's the current zeitgeist, but I never got on board with it for better or for worse. I'm not talking Democrats, i'm talking Soviet apologists that post cold war propaganda on their Tumblr.

I had been a long time 4chan user since I was a wee little underageb& and after becoming so isolated I really only had this place to turn to. Meeting people in college wasn't really working out, and I dropped out after my campus had a month dedicated to "reviewing" white history and minimizing the efforts of white individuals on American history. I'm now working a pretty great job with room for advancement so I don't regret it too much and I feel like I've managed to at least hang on to my dignity.

>>39046076
>just move on anon!
>just forget all those horrible things people said to you, I forgot all the horrible stuff I used to say to weirdos
>oh haha but your not a weirdo!
>I learned to forgive myself for my mistakes so so should you
>hold on my boyfriends calling me

Nobody has ever treated me nicely. Ever. Not even people that are paid to be friendly like waitresses and salesmen. A couple decades of this has made me hate every person alive.

>>39045600
>spent all my time on anime and manga instead of improving my social skills or my looks
>my utter lack of social skills, mixed with a gross body and weird interests, set me out as a total outcast from society
>have come to peace with the fact that people dont want to be around me

>>39046947
Its not rational. Its more of a primal, unconscious feeling of fear that I can't control.

>>39046891
RULE 1. IGNORE ALL ROASTIE POSTS

>>39046265
>1. Learning it's normal for shy men to visit prostitutes
It's not.

(real) Autism and being ugly.

Its the worst combination a guy can have, it lead to bears of bullying and no female contact.

>>39047031
Reflexes are an unconscious act most of the time, some people are born with it and others are not, but one can train their reflexes. I think you can apply that to your situation, if you start talking more to people, that "animal instinct" will probably go away.

>>39047092
Idk. I don't even like other people. I just want to not have to deal with niggers, kikes or spics ever again.

>>39047107
Don't want to sound normie, but you have to do stuff you don't like to become the best version of you. I cannot guarantee that you will never talk with those kind of people never again, but if you want to remove that fear of talking and staring to people, you will have to talk with people.

>>39046157
>I wish I was homeschooled
I started getting homeschooled after being bullied throughout middle school and the start of high school. Honestly I'm not sure it helped, the damage was already done and all that taking me out of school did was make it easier for me to start isolating myself even further. Of course the reason I was bullied so extensively in the first place was due to my overprotective mother that coddled me as a child, taking me out of school in my mid teens really just made me even worse in the end.

I'm not sure I regret the homeschooling though, by that point I was probably socially retarded on some level no matter what I did.

>>39047225
but why, anon?

origamily

>>39046850
I was referring to ethnicity.

Because I have a lot of negative traits, both physically and psychologically, shit like being a manlet, fat, ugly, balding, small dick, boring as fuck personality, etc etc etc

The average normie have it way easier than me

>>39047267
Why what?
Why should you talk to people?
So you can stop having that irrational fear

Why should you stop having that irrational fear?
Because you classified it as your main problem and it seems that you want to remove that

Why you have that irrational fear?
I don't know, ask that to yourself

>>39045600
Realized that the world is fucked beyond belief

>started studying in elite high school but was too lazy to study and dropped out
>never had a job or went to another school after this
>in my 20s realize I have nothing
>parents allowed me to become a manchild instead telling me to grow a spine

>>39047226

How old are you? That sounds exactly like someone I know.

>>39045600
Alcohol and 9 years of 4chan

>>39047441
>How old are you?
23

>>39047312
Fuck it, you can still get laid, also there are advantages of being a manlet, for example you will lose weight and gain muscle in a dime, and that will boost your confidence and will get you laid.

>inb4 i'm too ugly
do it

>>>/fit/

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I was going to type out everything that lead to me being a shut-in that's falling apart but I haven't the brain power nor the heart. Basically, my family ruined me. Being tossed around by three single women fucks a boy up and teaches him nothing about life. All women do is instill fantasy and lies into boys to keep them out of their hair while telling their daughters how to manipulate males. I believe deep down woman as a whole just really, really have a deep hatred for men. Why I don't know. But holy hell being raised by a single woman should be illegal. No boy should have to through it.

The only girl that ever gave me a chance left me because I would just play video games when she came over. I also didn't have sex with her and she thought it's because I don't find her attractive but that wasn't the reason. So I'm still a virgin.

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>act exactly like kuroki tomoko in any given situation
>in school always acted so retarded trying to bee a coolio person that everyone started talking behind my back and everyone despised me
>always alone and being bullied for that
>pretty much a laughing stock
>not able to get any friends even online because am retarded
>everyone telling me im absolutely pathetic and i have no reason to be depressed
>everyone is a cunt im tired of people

Seriously im good looking id be able to get a bf, but i am always absolutely shooked that i would act stupid so im like a complete robot yet im scared so i end up saying something retarted anyway. Ill just live my whole life alone and no one will ever even know i existed. If i would ever have a bf or friend i would be so loyal and caring towards them. I fucking hate thots who are absolute scumbags to everyone and dare look down on me

>>39047503
what the hell is the point in getting laid if you're not white?

>>39046195
wew lad falling for this bait

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>dad died when I was 17
>I loved him but i felt nothing

>grandma (his mom) died month ago
>I loved her but i felt nothing

>Close friend of mine killed himself 5 hours ao
>He was one of my best friends and yet I feel nothing

its ok

>>39047503
There is absolutely no advantage to being a manlet.

>>39048423
how can you say you love those people when you felt nothing?

>>39048666
>666
don't listen to the devil

>>39048666
Thats the thing
What if i did not
What if all the people i like dpnt really mean anything

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>>39045600
>lived most of my childhood in the shadow of my older brothers and sister
>parents are always proud of them and don't like my quiet nature
>people project my brothers and their deeds onto me despite not being like them at all
>people always get my name right after confusing it for my brothers' names
>when I enter the middle school my sister went, teachers get disappointed when I'm not as academically gifted as my sister
>fail to create any bonds since most of my class are women and only chads and normalfags are male, I'm basically the trashbin
>try to ask a girl out, she rejects the offer but what manages to sting more is the fact that she goes out with my older brother a month later and enters our house while I'm playing vidya giving me this disgusting, fake smile
>I only put together a few years later that they we're probably having sex
>eventually move to another school where the shadow of my older siblings do not reach
>somehow gain a few friends with things in common, mainly because it was an all guys class
>as the years go by, I start to become self-reliant, finish school, and have a job I earn my living with
>while my sister marries into another family but has a shit ton of debt, my brothers both drop out of school and become genetic dead ends with debts.
>parents only have me to turn to for anything
>when I prepare food one evening while my parents have their friends over, they discuss me and my siblings
>Then in the middle of their conversation, I hear this:
>"I never thought my little boys would become that lazy. anon is fine but I wish he didn't lack the personality of his father and brothers
>lose the last bit of care I had towards my family

I'm always last fucking place for everyone, an alternative that no one wants. I'm pretty sure my birth wasn't even planned for. Why can't anyone just accept me for who I am?

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My ugly, deformed face.

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A mixture of all these:
>Doing drugs at least once a week or more.
>drinking alchol at least once a week or more.
>Dumping my gf for being to clingy to the point where she would think I was cheating if i didnt text her while I was at work even though i had no signal.
>my mates ditching me and the social isolation as result.
>Bring banned from driving
>taking the redpill and finding out some really unplesant truths in life.
>Taking the blackpill and learning were all fucked nothing is going to solve our problems, might as well sit back and let socitey destoy its self and make a new one all over again.
>Learning I probbly have schizoid personality disorder.

i literally do not know. the longer i think about it the more i start to believe it's chronic depression or some shit.

>happy childhood, a lot of friends etc
>always good in school, never did much for it
>fairly attractive, 6'1
>people like me for some reason, invite me all the time
>towards the end of puberty start hating people
>decline all invitations and just sit in my room
>people from class still try to talk to me all the time, invite me out etc.
>wish they would just leave me alone
>had a couple of dates with a few girls, always disgusted at how shallow and boring they were and quit contact eventually even though they were interesting
>currently student, not studying but still getting through

is this what chronic depression feels like /r9k/?

was i meant to live the normie life?

>>39049400
even though they were interested*

>>39049438
learn to type dumbass

>>39049443
phoneposter and cba to pay attention

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>>39046318
So true! When death comes I'll welcome it like an old friend. At last we'll be free.

>>39045600
Well I was bullied pretty often because of my face until about 10th grade. From there on, I guess people just stopped giving a shit as they got older and let me be. The damage was done though and I recently turned 24 as a KHV because I'll never be able to interact with normalfags the way I should.

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>>39049487
This, and also
>>39046467

Schopenhauer was right all along

>>39049487
If only Death wasn't such a bitch that makes us go through so much to kms.

>>39046671
>This is you
This is all normalfags basically. It's funny making them chimp out like the niggers they are by rejecting their (((advice))).

>>39049582
Being born is a curse. Every day that goes by I regret the day when I was dragged into this wretched existence without my consent because of my parents selfishness. They forced me into existence. I hate people who claim that life is a blessing. It isn't. It's long, painful, and boring.

>>39049612
I'm glad that death is eternal. At least when we're gone we'll never exist again for all eternity.

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>>39049612
>try to commit suicide
>can't fucking do it because of our animalistic survival instinct
>mfw

born a retard or something.
from 8-10th grade i hung with the cool kids. tried putting on a bad to the bone act. annoying smartmouth in class, picked on the weak kids, smoking around the corner...didn't have any contact with girls tho. not positive anyway.
eventually realized how retarded i was acting and that ''intelligent underachiever'' was a fucking lie.
once i stopped being an asshole people distanced themselves from me.
had a rough couple of years after that coping with the fact that i'm not cool and never was.
got a job i actually enjoy. now i'm just waiting to get my own place so i don't have to deal with my stupid family all the time.

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>>39049712
You should consider reading the book "Better Never To Have Been" by David Benatar, it's talks about subjects like these, give it a read if you're interested

Watching countless deaths of people I don't know and realizing that the world is totally corrupt and there is nothing a person like me can do about it

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>>39049762
I bought a rope, need to practice.

Unlike a lot of guys on here, I could have been a normie. All my friends growing up were. I just didn't have fun around them and playing their social games. I became bitter once people tried forcing me into being what they want. Now I'm not bitter as people leave me alone and I have surrounded myself with people who accept me for who I am. Still no gf as I refuse to change to gain the affection of women.

>>39049254
It's never too late to change a reputation

>being 5'4

i truly believe that there is nothing for me in the future. I will never experience a decent job, a comfy home, and a partner who will love me till the day i day. Will probably kms within 3 years after i finish college unless some miracle happens.

>>39050263
until the day i die *

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>>39049712
You sound like fucking Abradolf Lincler from R&M. Seriously, try reading what you wrote in his voice.

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>>39049868
Thanks for the recommendation Anon. I hope that when you're time comes you'll die quickly and painlessly.

>>39045600
Having a 2/10 face is a death sentence.

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>>39050303
Thanks anon, i hope for the same to you too

>>39050299
>have abraham lincler
>gets beat up by black person calling him racist

the comedy writes itself! NOTHING MEANS ANYTHING EXCEPT RACISM IS BAD!

>no connection to any family apart from single bipolar mother who didn't allow me to develop social skills properly
>constant mood swings
>ARF
>Never being able to please anyone no matter how hard I try

>>39046662
dude I'm crying. I hate this world so much

>>39050374
What is ARF?

>>39050421
This internet group I got involved with that ruined my life

>>39045600
Shit family. Luckily learned that early on so that i only used them as a reminder of what not to do, who not to be. Still not to good with women but good job wise and i can be as happy as an anime girl when drunk and locked away from the world.

>>39045600
Are you me or what??

>Original comment

>>39050208
>Still no gf as I refuse to change to gain the affection of women.

This is going to be a big one for me too. The idea of dating seems way too intrusive at this point. I drink too much and smoke too much weed to want to do anything exciting anyway so there's some self sorting to be done too.

>>39049254
Hey anon if it's worth anything I think that you're a good person. You obviously work hard and your family are retards for not appreciating what they have. Good luck in life m8.

>>39046662
You should check out Boogie2988. He was dealing with a lot of those things but rose above, and he's doing great now in his early 40s

>>39045600
Years of negative reinforcement and normies making it really obvious that i am unwanted.
Also, over protective dad who wouldn't let me build my perosnnality by interacting with my peers.

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>finding out I'm a faggot
>finding out my cock is fucked up because of my own stupid habits
>understanding I'll never get a qt bf like I always wanted and am going to approach gay death and be incel forever
>understanding I'll never go back to my somewhat comfy pre 11 childhood and am doomed to years of wagecucking

>>39050734
>gay death

what dis?

thinking for years that I don't need to socialize and staying in my bubble until I realised that it's not true. Also being timid and ugly.

>>39050798
>ugly

There's your problem. If you looked like Chad none of the other shit would matter one bit.

>>39045722
yeah also that. Overprotective parents that loved me too much that brought me up in a bubble of isolation.

>Bullying
>parental angers, grew up between in a divorced family where neither parent could make ends meet until I was about 12
>both took it out on me and now act like they never did it
>schizophrenia diagnosis at 14

Fucks me up to this day. Don't like how I feel on pills, don't like how I feel without them

>>39050772
When you cross the point of being a cute young lad and turn into an ugly old fuck. Can vary from mid 20s to mid 30s.

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>read thread
>am dying of laughter by the depressed posts

Do I have a dark sense of humor? Of because it's all relatable? Anyone relate?

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>>39050982
its because you have downs syndrome.

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>>39050982
Care you are too close to the edge.

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>>39045841

You seem a little tense, friend.

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>>39045600
>Constantly rejected by girls despite being decently attractive and extremely intelligent
>Forced to watch as objectively inferior males soak up all the pussy
I'm pretty much desensitized to it now. Hopefully in ten years I'll have a cushy job and I can laugh as the hypergamous used-up roasties come crawling back

>>39045600
>neglectful mother
>physically abusive father
>got beat up regularly by him, plus getting my ass whipped with the metal end of a belt
>horribly poor as shit
>bullied mercilessly at school
>complete social outcast my entire life
>only two relationships I've been in were completely onesided on my end and was only for the purpose of using me for drugs or money
>extensive pleural scarring from severe untreated pneumonia as a kid because poor
>can barely walk without wheezing
>anxious and depressed for years
>developed regular panic attacks
>diagnosed schizophrenic at 19
>everything is fucking treatment resistant
>grew addicted to dissociatives since they're the only thing that remotely relieves my depression
>stuck using mostly cough syrup because still poor and can't hold down a job
>probably damaged my stomach lining from downing multiple bottles of cough syrup everyday
>caught in a permanent philosophical hole of nihilism
>think about death every minute of every day
>can't even get the emotional release of crying about it since that physiological response was beaten out of me by my father
feels bad man

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>>39046265

>one man fucks me over

Fuck men desu senpai

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No idea. I've been this way as long as I can remember. I'm not bitter so much as empty and indifferent. Never been on the receiving end of any trauma or abuse. My parents were loving and attentive. I hated school but I had friends and was never bullied. Some kids tried but I didn't give them the reaction they wanted, so they left me alone.

An old friend of mine recently joked that he thinks I'm a schizoid. I took it as a joke too, but I suspect he might be right.

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>>39050299

>he watches reddit and memey

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>>39051211
Jesus christ buddy, why even keep living at this point? just do it my friend

>>39049400
Check out schizoid personality disorder.

>>39051343
I've tried at least a dozen times now and failed every single time, ibuprofen overdose (I was 16), noose, electrocution, tapentadol overdose, stabbing myself, heroin overdose, carbon monoxide poisoning, chlorine gas poisoning, strangulation, xanax and alcohol, just to name a few

>>39045600
>Get hit on by 4 girls through life. Pretty normie-ish I know.
>I sperg it up with 3 of them, the last one actually likes me and we date for a year.
>Find out she has slept with over 20 guys before.
>Get depressed.
>I have struggled to be with one, and with no effort she has been with over 20.
>Redpill.jpeg
>I stop doing anything except smoking weed and browsing shit on the internet.
>I tell her, that I think it's time to break up, and the feeling is mutual on her (I know it's because of my issues).
>Go live at my moms. Still browsing, but drink instead of smoking.
>Fast foward 3 years, and I'm still here.
>Feeling tired all the fucking time.

>>39051468
>ibuprofen overdose

retardation mode: ENGAGED

>>39051501
I was 16 and desperate, give me a break

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>>39051468
Just lay down your neck on the train track, it's easy, fast and completely painless, good luck anon.

>>39046700
And the jews strike again!

>>39045600
sums up most of this board, myself included

>>39051548
I live in the middle of the rust belt, maybe one train passes a week, no way to reliably do it. They don't publish the schedule either since it's exclusively industrial too

>>39045669
yep... im going to be 33 in 2 months and video games havent filled that void in almost 3 years. The date feels like its getting closer and closer to snapping or an heroing.

>>39045600
>Family stress importance of doing well in school and getting particular job
>Believe them and ignore everything else to achieve this
>Achieve it
>Now no longer care about anything at all

And here I am. Tbh I don't care about it either so at least that's good.

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>>39051530
ok im sorry my dude

>>39045691
I know you'll make it through this. Win your fight.

>>39045600
One day I reflected on my adolescent life and I cringed at everything I ever was. Now I am nothing but a parody.
I'm constantly glassy eyed and spiritually defeated, my only hope for redemption is my art.

>>39045691
keep pushing through you glorious son of a bitch. if you've made it this far you'll make it the rest of the way I'm sure of it

>>39051812
Post art friend. I started recently and I hope 5-6 years is enough to git gud.

>>39045600
AUTISM BULLING DRINKING CHRONIC MASTURBATION TO UNREALISTIC PORNOGRAPHY (AND 4CHINS)

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being a 5'3" adult male has pretty much removed my desire to live

>>39045742
i know i'm late but i love you fellow jewbot. stop trying to fit in with the /pol/tards and just realize that you're a human being and that your ancestry doesn't make you any less valid as a person.

>>39045600
It's gotten to the point where work, and my cat, is all I really have left. I can't do human interaction, I've come to terms with the fact that it's mental illness, there is no solution, it is what it is. The joy in my life expired a long time ago.

jesus some of your lives are completely fucked, i feel bad for wanting to die now, sorry guys.

>>39053371
Jewbot here.

Just wanted to say that you sound like kind of a fag.

>>39053525
its ok, anon. I'm sue you have reasons for being upset as well.

>>39046662
this may be the saddest post ITT

>>39045600
depression

origamily

>>39045600
Gf thatI loved unlike any other girl I'd ever dated, the only one I saw a future with cheated on me and left. I act happy and all to friends and started working out, but I'm still fucked up over it almost a year later.

I don't really know. I had a decent childhood. Moved around a lot. Parents were kind of overbearing but not too much. I never really connected with people as a kid though. I didn't play any team sports until I did cross country in high school and even then I ran alone most of the time. I never did anything competitive as a kid and even now don't really like competition.
My parents were always on the poverty line too and there was always an undertone of barely-making-it to my life. They'd never let on but I could hear them talking behind closed doors and saying things like "can't make rent."
I started browsing 4chan when I was 11. I watched a ton of anime in middle and high school and got really fixated on all sorts of damaging stuff. Ideal partners and pure love and overly romantic fantasies borne from romance shows and threads on /c/. I haven't really gotten out of that state of mind.
Another possibility is literal autism. I haven't been diagnosed but I meet a lot of the requirements and my brother and my cousin have it.

>>39045600
don't you die on me!

origamily

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Parents raised me straight edge, ingrained the idea that people who party, drink, and smoke are bad. Create a god complex thinking I am better than anyone else. Realize I'm not special and become a sad boy. I'm very sheltered.

>>39045600

The collapse of the Soviet Union was probably the catalyst for everything.

>>39047714
I would be your friend, anon.

Oregano

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>>39057094
I, myself was never allowed to leave the house, anytime i made friends at school my parents wanted me to disassociate with them.
fuck over sheltering parents.
All i wanted was a normal life, and my piece of shit dad was an alcoholic and my mom would enable this shit and never stuck up for me when he would abuse me.

I've never known how to have conversations. It either feels forced, which people notice, or I talk as much as I'm comfortable, which makes me look like an asshole because it's not socially acceptable to talk so little. So I'm either awkward or an asshole, to everyone. Of course I have hardly any friends.

Literally the only thing that's helped is either being high or treating all conversations like a video game, where everything I say is like a dialogue option. Makes it easier to just say what I know should be said.

>>39045600
Being a minority kek
It's not my fault my parents were retarded and brought me here when I was like two and I can't even function in my own country now

>all these posts blaming parents and upbringing
At least own your fucking destiny. Its no surprise you all want to die, fucking pathetic

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>>39057228
Shit now im remembering how we never got to do any vacationing because he was always funding his alcoholism. we maybe went to the beach 3 times when i was 10-18 years old.
anytime i would mention this, he would go "yeah but we had good times at the beach" i want to fucking die.

>>39045600
i'm not bitter. I'm pretty sure i'm schizoid. I just browse for /r9k/ for the memes and laugh at other robots

>>39045600
There's no single event. Spent my childhood getting screamed at by my parents (I kept to myself and never got into trouble but they still yelled at me and grounded me for minor bullshit like not having enough friends) and bullied in school. Grew up, got a job in Silicon Valley, thought I'd have chance, but everybody still hates me and all I do at work is get held responsible for other peoples' mistakes.

I had both an overbearing mother and a jealous father. A one-two combination that's sure to fuck up your functioning as an adult. They were both alcoholics and cokeheads and domestic violence was not uncommon.

> realize everyone is a profile picture
> discover heavy metal & erotic asphyxiation

Independence has a cost but
Alphas have it worse. At some point you decided to not live the lie of competition. Fatter, uglier, dumber people succeed because they're okay with being cucked. If you were really miserable, you'd choose to be liar again. You're not helpless. You regret.

Kill yourself or laugh your ass off.

>>39051355
fuck i think that's it

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>>39045600

>obligatory bullying because of difference and possibly asperger's
>neglect from parents in the first 10 years of my life
>inability to accomplish anything so my life was a constant stream of failure

> Also constant bullying and harassment
> Addicted to vidja to escape the poor conditions i lived in and social seclusion
> Not /fit/ but not underweight so im in a kind of awkward body type so no GF
> Shitty personality
> No /feels/ anymore
> I w a n t t o d i e

>>39045600

>neglectful parents in the first 5 years of my life
>single mother household meme ensues
>constant bullying to being different from most of the other kids
>life is a constant stream of failure because i couldn't accomplish anything

>be physically and psychologically abused throughout my childhood
>have my entire life torn away from me countless times
>get shit on and bullied throughout high school
>friends I did have were fucking losers and dropouts who eventually stabbed me in the back despite me treating them better than family
>endless hostility and disrespect from strangers and acquaintances
but the one that topped all of them off was my first love.
fucking cunt used me for whatever I was good for, then when she got bored of me she ruined my life which made me lose all hope in humanity and especially women.
so now I'm just a fucking asshole that everyone except my parents hates, and the only reason my parents still like me is because they know they can take advantage of me.

>>39045600
It's a mix of poor upbringing, bullying, low self-esteem, bad genetics, and fear of rejection.

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>>39045600

my high-school and middle school experience was this
>parents pressure me to get the best grades
>become autistic fuck
>one of the shortest in class
>ugly clothes
>ugly face with shit teeth and the big bog nose people always shittalked
>girls laughed at how disgusting I am, chads always using me to make fun of me, excluded from their groups

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>always alone when was a child
>childhood depression
>start developing symptoms for a connective tissue disorder at 12 (specifically one that doesnt start showing symptoms until puberty)
>have to give up playing sports and being athletic
>recluse to the internet because literally everything including both physical and mental health continue to decline
>have math disability and can barely handle money even as an adult

im literally just waiting around until i absolutely cant take it anymore and kill myself

>>39045600
dunecoon born in a western country though I'm berber so I don't like look like a fucking paki at least, lived in a shitty district full of immigrants, bullied because I didn't want to ape afro-american thug culture like the rest, violent father and submissive mother, both didn't care much about religion and I have never set a foot in a mosque so I grew to dislike islam

I didn't do too bad in school

theoretically speaking, if I was to smash my car head on into truck or tree at 100+km/h, what are the chances I'd survive

I can't shake the thought in my mind that I'll survive it and be worse off

>>39059298
next to zero if you don't wear the seat belt
don't do something that could endanger other people

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>get to high school
>break out with extreme cystic acne all 4 years
>continues well into my 20's

literally nothing but myself and my own failures. literally all my problems stem from my own laziness and anxiety

>>39045600
>Robots, what turned you into a bitter husk of a person?

acne

>>39045600
You seem rather morose for someone who isn't affected by anything.

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>vitiligo
> terrible acne
>short

>>39050982
I kinda understand where thats coming from lol

>originaltk

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>>39057391
>MAN UP
this post is not original

>>39057391
Are you seriously saying parents have no bearing on how a child turns out?

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>>39045600
>having had a shitty childhood where i couldn't feel safe whatsoever
>having had a shitty wife who got on tumblr became a feminist and just anihilated me from my own family that i made with my dick
>getting rekt by no borders

now i need blood

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Simple. If society doesn't want me? Why should I want society?

>>39045691
fuck man and I thought I had gotten dealt a shit hand
Godspeed anon

>>39045600
I never socially matured. My upbringing was very difficult at times and now I have no hope for getting a gf due to how boring I am in reality.

>>39045600
>my own disappointment from countless "attempts" of getting my shit together
i've given up hope which has made me a bit more free, but at the same time giving up has made my depression far worse
>years of bullying and social isolation
this just makes life boring, i really only need a gf that i care about and who cares about me

>I was never very good at anything
>whenever I tried to get good I was mocked and excluded
>escapist fantasy literature from age 8
>I was at least reading at ASOIAF level by 10 because I remember calling some protoroasto a whore on the school bus
>spent most of my time observing people and patterns
>wow people are terrible
>change school
>pretend to be chad
>get friends and gf in 6 months
>start to not be a bitter fuck
>breakup
>friends were gfs friends, she was kind of a slut desu senpai
>budding sense of self worth shattered
>isolate myself from everyone until I was back at square one
>tried to pretend chad when I left school but my heart wasn't in it
>people can tell when something isn't right about a person
>25yr old wagie now
>no friends, no gf, no hobby, no interest, no point in trying

i'm already a fucking shell in the senior year of highschool

i swallowed the blackpill at a very early age and got into dark internet culture and general morbid shit when i was way too young and it's just made me numb, to the point that i just prefer to be indifferent and not comment on any issues around me. i don't want to speak up or comment on most things because it's null and moot trying to talk to people my age anyways, so i end up back on this depressing shithole where i can finally be me.

>>39045600

Tried to lose my virginity in high school and couldn't get it up. The girl told the whole school and then my entire life was a series of mistakes from that point forward.

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>>39045600
I didn't even have a bad upbringing which makes me feel guilty and extra worthless when reading about how other people were fucked from the start. I'm pessimistic to the point where I'm afraid of doing things and even stop seeing the point anymore. I try to cut myself away from anything in life because they can only be sources of suffering for a failure like me. Stopped having friends for years, don't want a girlfriend, no career ambition and would even break away from my family if I was capable of it but as if it wasn't obvious already I'm pretty poor, definitely don't earn enough to live alone confortably. Even just thinking of comparing myself to anyone makes me feel unpleasant but it's something I can't even stop doing.

>>39045691
You can break the cycle. Keep studying and pushing yourself socialy.

>>39049254
seems to me your family is the problem? I'd say to cut them out of your life and see