Depression bread

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>>38972331
I usually just fall asleep when it hits.

I usually take 10 sleeping pills and wash it down with vodka

Reach for the drink and put on some really sad clasical music to fit the mood whilst posting on here, and at least knowing ive got it better than others who are in far greater misfortune than compared to me making me feel somewhat less shitier, but at the same time making me wonder whats the point in life when there are so many just like me.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=liTSRH4fix4

Has anyone here seen a shrink? Does the counseling or meds actually help? I feel like I'll end up spilling my guts only to get flagged as a wack job in some system and receive no actual help.

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>>38972331
Read berserk or watch some Hajime no Ippo amv's

>>38972331
Don't ever really use r9k as a ranting board, but bear with me.

>home one leave after going on deployment
>6 months away from civilization
>realize that everyone home has moved on
>no one understands/cares
>everyone I used to hang out with is gone
>family has work, etc. doesn't want to do anything
>literally looking at flights back "home" but too expensive
>spend 1st week of 2 week leave getting drunk and browsing 4chan

What I do when I feel down is slam beers until I get tired enough to fall asleep. At least when I go to sleep, when I wake up I'm closer to going back home.

>>38973088
>inb4 'hurr navy deployments are easy'

We're still isolated from civilization for 6 months at a time. I spent most of my days standing next to a .50 cal waiting for fuckhead iranians to attack us.

>>38972331
Honestly the only thing that works at breaking me out of that is going to the gym. I've tried everything else, medication, weed, alcohol masturbating. Nothing fucking works but that fleeting high after lifting heavy weights. Then it wears off and cripplingly depressed till I get to lift again.

>>38972331
You take research chemicals in a desperate hope of solving your problems without having to actually go to a medical professional.

>>38972331
I try to find some way to make myself active again. Will yourself to do something constructive. Clean off your desk, empty your garbage cans, go for a walk, write down lists of random stuff. Anything.

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Embrace it, Don't move, cry, sleep.

At some point i'll be bored enough to move again and then i'll be better.

It's not a prison if i'm okay being there

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I just get shit faced and cry it out to Crystal Castles. Once I'm back to being numb I masturbate and go to sleep. I usually feel okay the next day. Thankfully my life hasn't been too traumatic, just lonely and mediocre.

Go for a walk, masturbate and take a hot shower