>8/9/2017 >summer is over >2017 is almost over

>>38959254
I wish it was 1995 again.
She felt good.

in no time you'll be 50 and wonder where the all the time you though you had went.

>>38959329
lol 50

i'm 25 and wonder where the fuck all the time i had went.

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>Tomorrow is already yesterday
>You can already feel your mind and body decaying before they actually have
>You are already regretting not having done things you still technically have time to do

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>>38959254
>Time flying by used to scare me
>Now I wish it would go by faster so this all can end

If I didn't go on tour and get out of town for a few weeks every year I would unironically already be dead

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>>38959483
>You keep wishing that you would die in your sleep
>tfw you wake up and are forced to endure reality once more

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>>38959747
I would rather die than live through 40-60 more years of this hell

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>made promises of improving myself this year
>still the same fucking loser as last year

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>>38960115
>Too anxious to change life
>Too depressed to enjoy life
>Too lazy to end life

>Spend each day in mental agony over your inability to stop yourself from being in mental agony

fug :DDD

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>>38959254
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oe6vAXTGNEw
>yet another summer over
>27 years old
>nothing has changed since i graduated at 09
>will to change has waned significantly
>no gf or friends
>just stagnation, in a rut i can't break out of
>gym doesn't help anymore
>lost a shit ton of weight but still bored
>going to apply to a spirit store and sort out my life

>>38959365
21 here. this


oreganolioni

Im finally making small changes this year at 27. Dont lose hope anons.

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>>38960115
>back in 2012 i made a promise to myself to kick ass that semester
>was 21 years old
>am now 27 and faded out of school
>feel suicidal thinking about the wasted semesters

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>>38959254
>2016 is over
What the fuck?

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>>38960236
Same age anon. Shit sucks because I'm ageing fast now. But fuck it anon, I'm going to enjoy my life before I'm40. it would be nice to have friends and a relationship for once though.

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>tfw you can feel the Autumn in the air
>parents losing their minds due to age
>don't feel the same zest for life as I once did

>>38959254
I love fall the most.
Fall time and halloween is what I love most in this world I wish I could have a gf at that time

>>38960301
Yes I can still remember what the old feels felt like and I wonder why they won't come back.

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>9th August
>Feels like yesterday it was NYE & I was laying on the sofa watching Jools Holland and posting in a Britfeel thread

It's true, time does speed up when you get older

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>lost all my friends
>lost all my family
>completely alone these last 2 years
>OP makes this thread
>realize how much time has wasted since my life ended

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>>38961714
Thaty why we're here, Anon

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>we're now closer to 3000 than 2000

>>38959254
Summer ends in September though

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>>38961737
How do we try when you have already given up? Everything just makes me anxious, so I keep running

Summer sucks anyway.

>tfw autism
>have urges to socialize and make things of myself
>always fuck up everything because of my disability
>self aware why I fuck everything up but I'm too set in my ways
>never had parents as a kid and grew up alone dealing with a mental illness I didn't know I had until I was 30
Everything was a mistake. I should have died a long time ago, all I have been doing is scrapping by trying to combat myself. Can't even trust myself. Life is just awful.

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another summer spent without seeing other people except parents.
>days are getting darker
>tfw terrified of dark
>used to have night walks with family dog
>he passed away recently
>too afraid to go alone in the dark

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>>38961774
I just try to enjoy what is left to me, this board, Anime and video games. Even though i cant enjoy video games as much as I did few years ago. Keep going Anon, the ride never ends.

>>38961904
>no longer enjoy music
>vidya
>anime
>my hobbies
>living in general
How do I keep going if everything I have ever loved or enjoyed is dead to me now? Nothing starts my heart. I feel empty all the time, can't even feel depressed. All I know is that I don't feel good, and that's not... good.

>>38960342
fall reminds me of when I had someone really special in my life but I messed up. always a painful time of year.

>>38961927
Keep searching. Thats what worked for me at least. Just thinking about how I'll find something that entertains me pumped me up.

Or try to approach things differently, for example you could extent your hobby and
do it in a different way than you usually do.
You might find then something that you enjoy and love doing.
Thats all the advise I can give you.

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I feel like I should have been a tree or something incapable of perceiving the inherent meaninglessness of the universe. All these feelings, all these thoughts, all this pain. I want none of it. Let me grow by a river in some untamed wilderness and not have to be plagued by worries or doubts. Let me create beauty through the colorful changing of my leaves and the distinct shapes and forms of my trunk and branches. Let me be useful by transforming carbon dioxide into oxygen, letting small critters create their homes in me, and having happy youngsters carve their initials into me, creating memories they will cherish as the years go by.

now playing - the cure "the last day of summer"

I used to be so full of hope and desire. now.. nothing. I just don't care anymore. but I deserve to be miserable. went from fat and miserable nerd to kind of chad, now I'm back to fat and miserable.

im tired of getting old. I'm tired of the people in this world. I'm tired of working and not getting anywhere.

im just tired, guys.

>>38962098
Idk, I just feel dead inside. I need to go to a therapist but I don't care enough about myself to do it, but I'll keep lashing out on people because I am absolutely fed up with my life. I just refuse to change because I never had anyone to love me when I was younger. No dad, no mother, got hooked on drugs and brain washed. All my trust is broken, I can't get close to anyone anymore. I am just broken and don't know how to fix myself. Therapy wouldn't work for something like me.
I'm sorry, I'm doing it again. Talking about myself instead of listening to what other people have to say. Talking about myself instead of trying to talk what we were discussing. Just ignore me anon. Run. I'm not worth the time.

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hang in there guys.. there has to be something out there for us. some kind of meaning.

right?..
right?

>>38961927
I fucking love anime & manga, have over 100days watched and it truly hurts to know that im getting bored of anime.. I used to watch a few animes/week. Now i watch 1 every 3-6 months..

What i've realised is that i don't value my time at the computer as much as i did before. I used to think it was the most important thing for me was sitting infront of it.

I started reading books that truly intressted me. Take w/e anime, find a similiar theme you like and just enjoy it in a book. Its hard at first, but you get used too it. I also go out alot more, for a run or just a walk, feels nice.

im getting more & more normie.. i guess..

>>38962437
The same thing happened to me, but the problem is no matter what I pick up, I hate it. I can't get into it. I do something like read, but I'll drop it after a few weeks. Nothing ever sticks.
I just feel so fucking broken and no one has the answer for me, and that just makes me feel worse. I don't know why I feel the way I do, I just do.

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Christ I've never seen so much concentrated self-depreciation

All of these posts is motivating me not to end up like any of you

Improvement only starts with yourself

>>38962479
>I hate it. I can't get into it.
It took me awhile to realise it, but reading shouldn't be foreced, but something you want to do, something you value over doing something else. And ofc, if you don't enjoy the book, its hard. Im currently reading 1984, good book about dystopia. I also googled alot about my mbti type, and what stories and books are recommended by other INFPs, (which i am).

also, you might think its stupid or not, don't care.
but i tried this today, to meditate. I did it for 20min and it did feel great. Im pretty open for new things as a person.. I think thats how i am as a person. Truly trying to learn more about myself right now. The mbti test was great for that.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fXmG1x1ih1U

All you need to do, is to fucking try.

guess life's all about trying and not giving up. which one do you choose?

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>>38962557
Is this your first time in /r9k/ or something? Why even come here to begin with?

>>38962615
That's funny. I was reading 1984 and lost interest when it was started to explain what the fuck was going on with the world when winston read the reports. It's not that it's bad, I just can't get into it, and I used to read a fuckload back in high school. I'm probably just fucking broken and can't enjoy anything because of how awful I feel on the inside, even though I've been numb for years. I just want to feel again, even if it's sadness, I just want to feel like I'm alive. I have even started to forget that I've felt at all, all my memories just end with thinking what happened. I can't even begin to think how I have felt.
I'll try meditating, I have once before. Just made me feel worse and like a placebo. I think I'm just so against myself, that I hate myself so much that nothing will work for me because I don't want it to.

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>>38962742
This board could be entertaining

Other than these circle jerks of nihilism

>>38962872
I think i understand why you can't get yourself in reading. Simply not the mood for anything.. now that feel, everything seems boring and pointless.. I was like that awhile ago, maybe not as bad but.. fuck life, thought about an hero everyday..

I can't help you other than talking without, but, what i've learned is to think about how you feel and why you feel so, is it something you can change, something you want to change? but not feeling at all.. idk, might just be me bullshiting right now, sorry

not saying do drugs, but try mdma? I did it alone just a few days ago.. inb4 fking normie. Its kind of nice to just let lose, don't give a fuck about anything. Just dance everything you've out. Bought from deep web.

>>38962934
god forbid people have a place to vent about their lives

it boggles my mind that there are faggots as insufferable as you out there

>>38963055
>Simply not the mood for anything
I think this too. All I want to do is rush home every day after work and just sit here, shitposting or reading. I have already been doing drugs, it just made my suspected mental illness even worse, and I wasn't even aware of it.
I have tried thinking about it. I am unhappy with... everything. My entire life has been one giant rollercoaster, waiting for the next high, for the next low. Got tired of it and decided to just live, but I may have taken it too far.
I am a man of extremes, I only think and do as extremely I think. That's not normal, at least I don't think that is. Life just feels like a mess, and I can't even begin to decipher why. It's been years of shit piling on itself, me ignoring it and getting the help I needed, and life constantly telling me to lay down and die. That it's all in my head.
Anon, I realize now that I'm not someone that can receive help. Deep down I refuse it because I fucking hate myself and don't think I deserve it. I would rather die saving a stranger than saving myself. Would rather die saving someone else because I know how it feels to be left behind. Ignored.
I just can't do this anymore. Thinking about it just digs deeper holes, confuses me more, and leads me further the spiral.