Unhappiness Thread

>>38903332
It's constant and somewhat debilitating but at least I know it's all in my head, just don't know how to deal with it.

>>38903332
Same with everything except im probably a 5 out of 10 and i dont go to school and i think about suicide just about everyday being a 24 year old socially retarded shut in makes me want to end my life

>>38903332
Sleep is our savior.

Have you tried alcoholism? I've been drinking much more than I ever have recently and I must say it makes the existential depression much easier to deal with.

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Nothing brings me joy.

>>38903332
Basically same except switch out only going out for school with work, and I'm not quite suicidal yet.

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>>38903332
>decide to watch old anime I use to enjoy on adult swim
>it's a coming of age anime
>triggers free fall into the depression pit
well there's another anime I no longer enjoy

>>38903538
Well i was thinking about doing that but im still afraid of dying from liver failure

>>38903538
I've heard it makes it much worse in a long run. Same as pills, weed and all that kind of stuff.

I'll never forget a fucking buddhist monk made fun of me for having anhedonia.

I have been writing brief thoughts of my "self" to help.

>>38903585
Anhedonia is a meme, same as the most of mental disorders, it is something else that is wrong I believe.

>>38903588
Tfw when you can't answer yourself who you are.

>>38903332
I've lost most of my best friends throughout my life, I still talk to one or two but very rarely. I lost my long time girlfriend in college and haven't had a meaningful relationship in like 4 years. My parents are divorced and I lost hope in family. I lost my best job because I said something stupid to a client after working 4 hours overtime while I was crazy tired. I have been in and out of depression, and nearly lost my mind living in solitude while spending every last bit of savings I had on weed, cigarettes, and empty nights out with acquaintances in scummy downtown overpriced clubs. I lost the respect of most people in my life, one way or another, for various reasons. I have lost days, weeks, if not months or years due to bad choices, laziness, or crippling anxiety keeping me in bed instead of pursuing a better future. I have been at the gun range a couple of times when my depression was really bad and actually started cold sweating over the overwhelming urge to put the barrel in my mouth and pull the trigger.

I've lost a lot, and I'm not happy about it.
But each time I was incredibly unhappy I pulled myself back out and got back on my feet.

Don't let your list of shortcomings define you and trap you, anon.
Tackle each one as an obstacle and get back on your feet.
(Also stop watching porn.)

>>38903564
I bet it was Fooly Cooly wasn't it?
>tfw you never swung the bat

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>>38903332
>at therapist
>tell her I can't stop dwelling on the past on the past
>tells me to remember the happy things in life
>tfw I never experience a truly happy moment
>all my memories are boring
My day was objectively better before walking into that office

>some of my first memory as a child are of me trying to get skin cancer
>i want to die but didn't know about suicide
>be pretty depressed teen, feel no joy
>self harm, attempt suicide
> went to ER once (not caused by myself)
>get pills prescribed
> "careful with OD, it can affect your cognition (memory/hallucinations/etc)
>OD's but dont die
>never really had my own thing, no anime/games/talents/skill
>was diagnose and told to get pills, parents freak out and stop taking me to therapy
>going to college outside country
>try alcoholism but feels hopeless
>do nothing all day
i have no personality what so ever, theres noting unique about me, i dont like anything, im not obsess with anything.
whats wrong with me?

>cutfag
>read up on it, redpilled
>looked into restoring and following Foregen
>can't seem to get over it.

>>38903585
can i get a greentext senpai?