ITT: Words that were said to you that still hurt to this day

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>Don't worry. I know you're anxious but no matter how long it takes, I'll always come back to you<3

She never came back.

>>38884862
Think we need to hear what this was about, anon

>>38884952
Friend tells me she never saw me as a real friend even though we knew one another for a long time. Admit to her about my depression in hopes she'd help and give me advice and instead turns away and tells me I make her uncomfortable.

>>38884862
>you act like you're too cool for everyone but I got to know you and you're really weird

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>>38884862
>Anon, why don't you ever talk?

>>38884862
>i dont like people like you
Normies told me that you just need to stop being a self loathing waste and to go out and talk to people.
Not only did i not enjoy it like they said i would, i was quickly shunned by the normies i tried to socialize with.
The only winning move is not to play robots.

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>>38884862
>"you're just shy"
said my mom seconds after telling her that I needed help

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>>38884862
>when are you going to give me that ring?

I die with this regret. Maybe I deserve to.

>>38885296
Story please anon. Was your so?

>anything regarding my voice

I hate my voice so goddamn much that I can barely speak in public.

>No I don't want to dance with you, ugly.

I'm glad that bitch is enjoying single motherhood now.

>>38885431
>lack complete self awareness in middle school
>coerced into dancing with girl I didn't want to
>stop halfway through the song
I'm sorry femanon if you're here

>Who invited you here?

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>I wish you could make me better, daddy
Me too.

>>38884862
C'mon fatty.
at 12 by a family member

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>>38885392

It's not so interesting a story.

> I went to undergrad, met a grill my first week there who was kinda weird and I thot mean to me, always showing up places she knew I would study at to poke fun at me for something or other (bc she liked me and I was too autistic to realize)

> In short order, we click in a way I way I never have with another person before or since. One of the first nights we spent together just talking from 8 pm to like 4 am in the lobby of our dorm.

> We date for 3 years.

> Never get other friends bc we always do everything together.

> She likes to pretend she's planning our wedding all the time. Who to invite, what cake to have, etc etc. bugging me to give her a ring

>I say I'm too poor for a ring. She gives me a family heirloom ring, her great grandmother's engagement ring. Says I have no excuse now.

> I become really shitty boyfriend bc always stressed/anxious about not getting into medical school.

> Eventually forget her birthday bc I had organic chem exam.

> This is just the latest in long line of shitty things I did.

> She starts complaining about this guy in one of her classes who really "annoys" her. Once again, I am clueless autist.

> Don't return her call for 4 days over summer break bc studying for MCAT (med school admission exam)

> She breaks up with me.

That was five years ago. She's been married to that guy who "annoyed" her for two and a half yrs. I hope they have a wonderful life together and she gets everything she ever wanted in life. She deserves it.

I haven't been on a date since. I guess I deserve that, too.

It still hurts, but I guess most of the pain has been replaced by numbness. Mostly, I just feel estranged from most of the world outside of this place.

I did get into medical school. Even just recently graduated and started my intern year. My favorite thing about medicine is that it gives me almost no free time to think about how badly I fucked my life up, and how I can't get it back.

>>38885751
Im like you anon, except i was too careless to realize my gf was way too deppressed to be on her own.
She killed herself the same night i dropped her off at her home.

We are two of soul anon, i love you.

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>>38884862
>you know you can talk to me and junk im here for you goob,

My best friend/love who bailed on me for my friend and dosent talk to me anymore like she used to

It fucking hurts 8 years blown away like that

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>>38884862
>"You make me want to kill myself"

Looking back she was insanely abusive and acted like every mental illness she had was completely my fault.

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>>38885870
>>38885751
>>38886026

What do we do now?

Do we just waste away until death?

>and?
It hurt more than I can explain

>why do you stay home so much

Im sorry my anxiety and depression had to kick in

>>38886065
We just keep on chuggin, friendo.

>>38885751
Damn thats a shitty story, but try not to beat yourself up so badly about it, she was probably going to leave anyway and did a really good job of making you feel shitty over it to stop herself feeling bad

>>38885897
whats worse is she keeps saying she will talk to me but dosent have the time

>when she has been talking to my friend during those times.

Im still friends with him cuz it aint his fault its hers and i could care less ive full given up but hey im still here

>why does your dick look so WEIRD?!
Now that time has passed and i realize being uncircumcised is unusual in america i understand why she freaked out about it but still thats a good way to fuck a younger guy up in the head.

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>>38884862
>kill yourself and quit ruining our lives
Kid from summer camp said this to me when I was 11. My friends and I would greet each other with shit like this in high school later on, but this was different. This guy meant it. I could see the hatred in his eyes. He honestly wished I was dead. That was the summer I became self aware about the fact that everyone I'd ever known up to that point hated my guts and wished I was dead. Now I feel the same way about myself.

>>38885178
>i got to know you
Isn't everyone weird in their own way once we really get to know someone?

>you gotta make those layups anon
Some context. This was said to me by my 5th grade teacher who was black and used to play basketball in high school. He wasn't talking about basketball when he said it but because my understanding of metaphors in English was limited (I'm from Eastern Europe) I interpreted it literally. I used to go to the park on weekends to practice basketball and there must have been some homeless black guy on the sidelines (probably wasn't homeless and was there with his buddies to play basketball or something but I don't know for sure) and he saw me struggling to shoot the ball into the hoop. Told me that I had to arch the ball into the hoop. I tried doing what he said and it worked fantastically. That made me really happy because I had been practicing for a while and not improving at all so what he said made me really happy. He cheered me on when I did make it in saying "there you go!" which almost brought me to tears. Eventually I stopped practicing because arching the ball in required too much set up and it wouldn't work in actual games. The other day I was playing some counter strike. I was doing really terrible (have been since I started playing it again recently). I missed a really easy kill that would have won us the round and I said something along the lines of shit or damn in voice chat and one of my teammates said that it was alright but I've got to make those layups. Then I remembered how to this day I have been terrible at everything I do and how in that moment I was terrible at what I was doing and how even when I had genuinely tried to improve at things I was still unsuccessful and I started crying and we went on to lose the game with me at the bottom of the leaderboard. I didn't play Counter Strike today.

>>38886362
Context required, how do you think you ruined that kid's life?

>At the beginning I loved you so much I couldn't stop thinking about you, but then there was just nothing.

God fucking damn it all

>>38886533
He and everyone else he was with told me. They all looked at me like I was scum. They didn't really bully me (it never got physical), they just didn't want anything to do with me. I was homeschooled for a few years before that so I was really socially isolated. My mom sent me to summer camp and I soon found out that I was incredibly annoying and everyone hated me. They made sure to remind me of it every day. After that I learned to act like I was normal. Now I don't trust anyone and I hate myself.

>>38884923
>Seymour
Goddammit you brought back the sadness.

>>38884862
> You'll be alone for 2 months here, I won't be surprised if you take the car run it into a tree and top yourself
> You're boring, son. You're dull, you're not normal and you can't even have a conversation.
> Nice "depression", you'll never make me pay for those fucking pills or therapy. You're a loser, no girl would ever want you.

All from my dad, I'm 20. He's also challenged me to a fight on multiple occasions, used to choke me when I was younger. He's not around anymore.

>>38886705
Did you killed him or what

>>38886402
Yeah it was more that she started it out with something nice. It was my gf at the times friend

>>38886414
you can improve, we all know it
make those layups

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>You're a miserable, salty little bitch
>age 11
Thanks ma

>>38884862
>what are you still doing here? don't you see you don't belong here?
As said by a girl in a dark room with slow music and dancing couples back in the day when I was at my friends party.

>Given the choice between your life and a random dog, I'd save the dog

I don't date dog people anymore

>>38886760
Just got sick of living here, moved to another state. I'm on my own now

>>38886859
I've had a similar thing happen.

> This is a party, it's for people who know how to have a good time not miserable people like you anon.
> You're just not loose, if you tried more you would.

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>Don't worry about it, I've never been into a guy before
>Well nevermind, there were these 2 guys...

>>38884862
>I should've aborted you, you fucking abomination.

>>38885137
You can't just dump your problems on others and expect them to be happy and helpful for doing so

>>38885225
>rather than fix myself and be a normal human being that people want to be around I'm going to lock myself in my room like a loser

>>38886705
well im glad he's not around anymore anon

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>he's probably just disabled, all he does is play games and not talk to people
age 10 , cheers mother

>>38887115
Not him, but I always lose interest in socializing with others even though I enjoy it usually or even crave it. I don't know why.

I like edgy shit like on here. The banter and memes are so entertaining that real people can't really compete.

>>38887404
>I like edgy shit like on here. The banter and memes are so entertaining that real people can't really compete.
It's even worse when you try to translate 4chan humour into real life. People just can't handle the banter.

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"You are a manchild, there is no hope for you. You are a pathetic weakling and I've had it with your whining, leave me alone."

The last words my oneitis ever spoke to me.

>>38886414
Anon, you sound so adorable. I want to play CS with you, even though I am really bad myself.

>>38887584
No, they can't. Even things that I don't consider edgy freak some people out.

I'm beyond desensitized at this point. I see the world completely different than the vast majority of people ever will.

>>38887687
Yeah. People in general think I'm funny but I always go too far with my humour and this drives people away. Especially girls. Truth is, some got used to it and sorta liked me for it.

>>38887313
I'm glad you're glad. I'm empty.

>>38887727
Seems that we're in the same boat, anon
How've things been lately?

>>38884862
>"you are my outer circle of friends" - my best friend

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From my mother who was dying of leukemia. An aunt came by to tell her my cousin came home with his first girlfriend:
>I'm sad I'll never get to experience that for myself.
She didn't say it out of spite or anything. It just stuck with me. Made me feel like an immense fuck-up more and more as the years went by. About 10 years later (26 years old) I got my first girlfriend. As my birthday present I asked her to join me to visit my mother's grave. I think it's something my mother would have appreciated.

Of course, a few months later the next painful words were said to me by my ex:
>We need to talk.
At that point in time she was pretty much the only reason for me to feel good about myself. I feel like I wasted my entire youth behind my computer screen. When I met her I felt like I had a reason to go outside. To smile. When she broke it off I was afraid to go back to the life I had. I'm still trying to do new things, to keep myself from becoming a shut-in loner again, but it's not easy.

>It's okay to feel things
t. Mom
>That's what psychopaths say
t. 12th grade English and philosophy teacher
>What's preventing you from shooting up the school?
t. that same teacher
>I'm glad you're afraid of blood because it means you can't be a serial killer
t. a good friend
>You're pretty much the textbook image that I think of when imagining a manipulative psychopath
t. that same friend

>If you are going to fry food please ensure that the stove top and surrounding area (microwave, stove front, wall etc) look the same as they do now. Cleaning up after yourself is your responsibility. Thanx - Refer to the agreement signed.
This note from my landlady may seem rather different from the other comments, but it's the most hurtful thing that's ever been said to me. I actually held on to it as a memory of emotional catharsis. You see, I'm not a psychopath or anything like that. I suffer from extreme social anxiety that prevents me from opening up to anybody. Recently, I rented a basement from a couple in a city where I had a work placement. My anxiety got so bad that I could barely go upstairs to the kitchen and cook for myself. I was constantly afraid that they resented my presence and did everything I could to go completely unnoticed. The sound of their footfalls above me would send me into a state of silent panic and it would frequently take me several hours to work up the courage to eat. Some nights I didn't eat at all. At any rate, I was frequently making dinner somewhat late in the evening and wanted to spend as little time as possible upstairs in order to avoid inconveniencing my hosts. Another persistent fear was the fact that I was somehow making a mess of the kitchen. I did everything I could to clean it up as thoroughly as possible, but this was sometimes impeded by the fact that I couldn't bear to be seen. The only way that I could get myself to eat at all was by convincing myself that all these fears were just delusions and they didn't mind my presence.

>>38891034
When I received that note, it completely destroyed that crutch I had created and my whole mental support framework came crashing down. I cried for several hours, not just over this particular incident, but over the fact that I will be a slave to the expectations of others for the rest of my life. I have no desires or ambitions of my own and live only because of my obligations. That night was the night when I first fully realized that there is no escape because I'm expected to take care of my disabled sister after my parents die.

>I can't even kill myself. There is no way out. I'll be a slave forever.
These are the words I silently repeated to myself in agony. I couldn't even scream in pain because it would have been an inconvenience for my hosts.

>>38885137
what a dumb thing to do.

>best friend tells me he considers me his bff because he found me funny
>that was it
>always putting me in uncomfortable situations and making me feel awful funny

>"too cool to come inside and enjoy the party?"

>it is all in your head

>>38884862
"Il always be your friend anon :)"
Cunt ditched me in highschool.

>>38885751
Your story reminds me of that one Bruno Mars song

>>38884862
"It wasn't love. I'm not even sure why honestly. Don't get me wrong, you're a cool person but there really isn't any reason why I cared. It was just infatuation"

I know I'm lucky I got someone to care in the first place, but this was after our breakup (my 1st and only relationship in high school) and it kind of shattered my self esteem/view of relationships so I never bothered since.

>girl was supposed to Downward Dog in Yoga Class
>teacher came next to her and asked her to participate
>turned around looking at me and with disting equal to the one on her face, she said "No!"

>4th grade
>pretty normal kid
>I could be seen playing by myself
>dragging broken branches and playing with action figures
>one day have to sit next to this 6th grade repeater.
>shrieks saying "Git this retard away from me!" multiple times
>4 minutes of this before a stranger asks if I want to switch places

>apologies
>I try to say "no it's ok. we just don't get along."
>but the stranger just goes "Stop talking to me! Bleh. Bleh. Bleh."

>"You are the biggest disappointment of my life."
I know that already mom.

>"Anon is so boring to talk to".

>>38891910
It really sucks doesn't it. Never felt like anyone understood you, and all you ever tried to do was level with them, but they refused to show the same respect to you.

When I was young and had had my training with meditation and stuff I heard a voice of 'myself' making fun of me and saying with devilish manner: heh, how is it going?
Implying I can't do shit and I'm a loser and it was right. The only time I heard something in a trance.

>>38891910
>>girl was supposed to Downward Dog in Yoga Class
>>teacher came next to her and asked her to participate
>>turned around looking at me and with disting equal to the one on her face, she said "No!"

I don't get it

>>38892853
She thought he was a creep who would stare at her. Just google the position, jesus man.

>>"I don't know what kind of closure you need"
>>"I wish you wouldn't talk about yourself that way"
>>"Let me know if there is anything you need"
t. The only girl who ever touched me or showed any mild interest in my character.. haven't spoken to for 2 years

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>online friend of 3 years
>one day I ask him to play borderlands 2 with me
>he agrees
>we finish the tutorial
>he ends the skype call and leaves the game
>ask him why he left
>"you're boring"
we haven't spoken ever since, I still have him on my steam friendlist but he has been offline for 3 weeks, he probably blocked me

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>stop talking about yourself
>all you talk about is work
>you know I won't leave you so you hurt and make fun of me
>mfw all these were just projections he cast onto me

>>38885751
why would her saying the guy annoys her be a sign? like why would she find him annoying then want to marry him?

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My best friend of 9 years once told me that he pretends not to be friends with me when around other people because it's embarrassing.

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>>38892666
checked famarino constantino originality is key fuck rules

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>"I never loved you"

Feels bad

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>>38884862

>It was your falt that you still liked me, not mine. If you're going to talk to me with second intetions, then don't talk to me at all

>you're weird anon

friend tells me after breaking down to him about my depression, haven't talked to others much since

>>38885586
Father of twins and another on the way here, got me right in the feels. Whats the story

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>"Anon I love you"
My ex said that a few days before she broke up with me. I hear it in my dreams.

>be like 13
>overweight and self consious
>have a bum leg for six months from a sports injury and cant work off the weight
>christmas
>dad and uncle and I are walking around the mall
>uncle hands me a book
>"hey this is just like you!"
>big book of moobs
>spiriling depression, never leave room, never lose weight.

>>38886414

Hey man, I'm LEM and I'll be happy to teach you <3

>>38884862
>I love you despite what you are
What am i daaaaad, what am i?! FAAAATHER!

man why does this thread make me so sad

>>38887378

She was just worried about you

>>38893305
maybe it's relatable

>It's the Aspergers isn't it?
>I'll send you to boarding school
>You could make a saint swear

All by my parents. I just wanted to be a good kid but I was always the bad one for some reason

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>>38891098
Where do you live anon? I wanna help you and be your friend :(

>>38884862
>You will be nothing in this world you shit
-Ol mum telling me when I was 10

>if you want to say your goodbyes to your grandma you had better do it soon

Text from my mum who was looking after my grandma. I will never forget the pain when I read those words.

>>38884862
>You're a virgin at 22? How is that even possible?

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>>38893450
>grandpa died june last year
>grandma cried throughout the whole funeral
>I didn't feel anything, was just waiting for it to end so I can go home

>>38884923
DONT FUCKING DO THIS TO ME ANON

DONT MAKE ME FEEL THIS SADNESS

REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

>you fucking little basted I hate you
Thanks mom
>I don't really want to be your friend anymore anon, you know I love you and I care about you so much, but my boyfriend was here first. I hate having to choose between you and him, I just wish I could have you both
Female friend, we were in love with each other but she also loved another. Little sloot

Fuck life is gay

>What do you do for a living
>Why aren't you working
>What have you done all these years

>>38893197
fuck i just did that to someone.

fuck why am i such a scumbag

>Did you really think I loved you?
oh god, it hurt so much, it still really does

>ugh, you look like a poor person

Fuck you bitch, it's not my fault I couldn't afford $200 shoes and a $150 jacket when our family could barely pay the rent.

>>38892945
>autists

there is such a thing as reading between the lines. not everything is literal.

>>38893438
Canada. I move around every couple months due to the nature of my obligations.

>>38893844
I'm also a canadafag, I'm in Edmonton Alberta. What about you?

>>38885751
Goddamn anon I really feel for you :( there's a good girl out there waiting for ya brother

>>38893634
it's not physically possible to love more than one person (romantically). most people mistake a crush/infatuation coupled with sexual attraction that develops into love (not romantic love, but easily confused when combined with the sexual attraction and previous crush/infatuation - which is usually quite short). for actual romantic love. that's why they have get a crush or perhaps even fall in love with another man/woman after years of marriage. because it was never (prepare yourself) true love.

if I could offer some advice to you pathetic trusting autists.
>don't trust peoples words/actions = supposed intentions
>don't trust peoples supposed intentions = words/actions
people are machiavellian by nature, some are halted by their empathy/learnd honesty, some less, and some don't suffer from epathy AT ALL.
have you never been deceiving? have you never deceived/lied/acted so well (in your own opinion) that you believed you had managed to deceive some people who are otherwise quite intelligent/observant? guess what; you aren't the only one. EVERYBODY does this. you have been fooled many many times, and you will be fooled many many times more. don't trust anybody

>>38893875
Currently in PEI, but I'll be in Ontario for a couple months as of September and grew up in BC. Would love to go back to Alberta at some point in the future. I was completely enamored with the badlands.

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>>38894032
It's the very reason I'm on this board and a social outcast. Because my initial reaction to any given situation is to trust that people will do the right thing, even though I know they won't I just keep holding out for then, I can't help myself. I'm inherently good by nature and it kills me inside that I seem to be the only one I know of that does the right thing.

I'm an outcast because I'm honest and caring, I hate this world.

>>38893235
Jesus Christ, is your uncle always a cunt? Did he apologize?

>>38892790
You know it, anon. Eventually you just get tired and decide to withdraw. Just get by day to day until death. Then people say
>why aren't you as happy anymore?
or
>you're so different

And then you realise, you don't even want to try to be understood anymore.

>>38894101
Oh right on, what are your obligations? If you don't mind me asking

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>>38892853
I meant
>said with disgust equal to the one shown on her face
>no!

Also this is Downward Dog

>you fucking retard!
- my internet gf said to me multiple times when i angered her (him) with my stupidity. i am very self-conscious about not being smart and i keep thinking baxk to it because she meant it yet keeps saying i'm smart in my own way

>where's the anon i knew three years ago? you've become so sad and different lately
- my mum told me when i told her how i was really doing

>>38894155
well, you are what I would want in a friend. genuine honesty and good-willed nature. unfortunatly skimming out the truly honest from the dishonest can be tough. very tough. I hope you find a friend/partner that can reciprocate your honesty.

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>>38884862
Literally happened like 5 mins ago

>get a girls number the other night

>work up the courage to text her "hey it's anon from the other night you up for a drink in the week"

5 mins later

>"Would you be mad if I don't remember who you are anon"?

I'm so fucking done with even trying anymore fuck this, why act so interested if your gonna pull this

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''I wish you were never born''.

So do I mom...so do I

>all these winning feels
>when i speak both robot n normie

>be me
>be expatriate away from home country
>be suicidal (diagnosed BPD)
>open up to my mom about suicidal feelings

>don't you dare commit suicide here, you don't know the legal implications, plus it'll take a lot of money to take your body back home

>>38894169
Uncle was one of the nicest people in my family. This was only comment to the contrary. If it was anyone else it wouldnt have been that bad of a comment.

No apology, I laughed along with them and played it off.

>>38893692
Do you mind if I ask why? I'm not really sure why my ex broke up with me and it might help me understand.

>>38894225
It's just work and school that have me moving around. I do co-op, so I'm constantly alternating between academic terms and work terms. That's one of the reasons why it's difficult to put down roots or form meaningful connections with people. Since I'm never in one place for more than four months at a time, it all seems so disposable. All the relationships you form are transactional, based on fulfilling some task for others and receiving something corresponding in return. It's pointless to get to know them on a deeper level or to expose yourself.

More fundamentally, the obligations that weigh on my conscience are those to my family. I come from a family with a great deal of money and property and am the only male of my generation. My sister is mentally and physically disabled and my only first cousin is only seven years old. On the other hand, I'm known as the genius who skipped a grade and will be responsible for keeping everything together. I'm so sensitive to the needs of others that the only way to cope with the pain of existence is to completely turn off my empathy. Thus, all that I'm left with is what I believe is expected of me. I'm obligated to act as though an ambitious, strong, loving son would, even if the feelings have vanished.

>>38884862
>I know that you'll find someone so much better than me who will make you extremely happy.

I don't think I can, guys.

>>38894890
Sounds similar to me but I came from poverty and have shed my family obligations. I do love my family and help them when I can but I learned that if I didn't say no to them then they would continually use me despite that it was making me unhappy. The only obligations a person can have is the ones he choses to undertake, like if I were to have a kid. I would undertake the obligation to raise the child the moment I put my dick in a girl without a condom, no exceptions. But life is full of choices though, I guess once you finish school then you'll be free to live your life the way you want. And it might sound cold, but you taking care of your own needs first is what's important and if your family loves you then they will understand that. Good luck anon

>>38894354
>gets drunk and doesn't remember a sperg
>he freaks out like this
She dodged a bullet desu

>>38884862
>Breakup letter from a girlfriend that was into the idea of multiverses
>"P.S. In another universe, we're happy together forever"

CRAWLING IN MY SKIN

>>38895185
She wasn't even drunk though and she gave me her number

>you're not good at anything but computers

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>be yourself

Unrionically this was the most hurtfull thing someone has ever said to me
I've been constantly bullied and rejected by society because of my mental illnesses, and end up as an emotionally numb person. I was sitting in class and a girl looked at me being detached and said " you'd get a gf if you just stopped pretending to be this depressed schizo and acted naturally"
They don't want you to be yourself, unless you fit the perfect image of a fonctional human being.

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>90% of this thread is people crying about things their ex-girlfriends said to them

And this is how we know we lost the war to the normalfags.

Been here since 2011 and it's never been this fucking bad.

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>>38896702
lurked a little in 2015 and it was miles neeter. rip in shit

>>38894893
They only said it so they could make themself feel better for abandoning you, anon.

>>38895217

That's just cruel... did she mean it as an insult or was it supposed to be sweet?

>you're nothing but a fat, worthless piece of shit, you've ruined my life

My dad when I was 8 and staying with him for the first time after the divorce

>>38894185
And that's when people start to perceive you as a mentally ill weird fuck, who never talks and always flubs a conversation when spoken to. It's a slope that you stumble onto at first, then you're head over heels, slipping and sliding, bouncing up and down as the slope gets more pitted - eventually you crash into the wall and stand up. You look over yourself and reflect on the scars, the scrapes and bruises you have accumulated. You begin to walk, some wounds heal while others fade into scars. Each step is a controlled fall into the next, with each step you distance yourself from the fall you just took.
Then you look up. You are right back where you started, already making the plunge into the slope. A little sooner and you could have caught yourself and stepped back. A little sooner and danger could have been circumvented.
But you notice too late, a split second of realization is all that is allowed to you. Then you start slipping and sliding all over again, hoping that this time the crash at the end will be softer this time.
It never is.

>I don't want my son to have a fucking Associate's, alright?

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tried, but can't even remember.
ISTP GOD.

>if you email me or call me again I will contact authorities and get a restraining order against you
Some women just don't know how to be civil. Always turns into threats as soon as she doesn't get her way.

>~13 years old
>Tell friend in confidence that I fancy some grill
>Stacey overhears me and comes over saying OMG I CANT BELIEVE YOU LIKE HER
>DO YOU WANT ME TO GO ASK HER OUT FOR YOU?
>no, fuck off
>she goes and does it anyway
>stacy grabs her flock of harpies and goes to bug the grill about it for a solid 30 mins
>grill comes storming over to me and shoutd NO as loud as she can
And I never made a single effort after that

>>38897190
>if you ever email me or my son again, i will contact the police and get directions to the closest donut shop

>>38884862
>Anon, you're going to marry the best girl in the world if you stay the way you are
I'm sorry Grandpa

>I wish you were never born. God wants me to be happy.
I wish you really did leave mom. Me and dad would have had a happy life without you.

>>38884862
>kill yourself faggot.

Someone in b

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>>38884862
"youre worthless!!!" 20-30 times a day since i was 4. thanks dad

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Anna the scouse prostitue, when i was undressing killed me inside by saying "its so small are you sure it will work?
I repplied "its how you use it that matters."
Only to still have a semi on an hour later.

Heartless bitch, i hope she ends up in some back alley with her thoat slit with semen in her arse by some Tyrone.

>I wish I never had you. You ruined my life.
Drunk mom lettin it all out. Felt bad man.

>>38885137
advice like what? just see a therapist stop bothering your "friends"

>>38884862
'Get those sausage fingers away from me' - oneitis, 5th grade

Nothing hurts more than being randomly insulted by somebody who was being nice to you previously. Its not like I was trying to touch her or anything either, I just put my hand on her desk.

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>>38887097
>>38891258
>>38897570
3 women identified

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>Why are you complaining about being cut by a rusty nail? You probably enjoyed it.
Fuck you, "mum."

>>38884862
>You are always waiting people talking to you

>>38896702
This year is truly the worst, the board is run by gays and normalfags now, most likely it's just going to get worse also. The board is absolute shit, riddled with retarded normie problems and pictures of guys' assholes. What the fuck is the point in this board anymore when it's like this.

>>38884862
>"you're using this diagnosis of depression and anxiety as an excuse"

>"youre so weird"

>>38885586
Can you please make a green text of it? sounds depressing

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>you say you only need 1 friend to be happy, but you're not even trying to be happy, you're just selfish

probably true desu

>how can his parents be so smart and him be so dumb?
>t. my bus driver for 7 years

fuck you mr morgan

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>>38891098
>I can't even kill myself. There is no way out. I'll be a slave forever
This.

>>38886414
I'm global. I'd play some MM with you

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>"Anon, I would be so angry at you"

When I told my oneitis I was going to have to kill myself. She was really pissed when she said that and I partially hate her now. Still going to probably soon though.

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>why are you so ugly anon?

>I wouldn't care if you killed yourself, if Leon killed himself I would be sad, but if you did it? I would expect it

My best friend, Leon was a kid he would rarely talk to and was a year younger than us

>>38884862
>me: fuck now it's r-raining, fuck
>friend female I love: you're a pussy moaner, get out loser

>I really do love you, but I know that being with you is bad for me, and that you're not willing to change for the better.

The reason the only person I ever loved broke up with me. Now I only go for basic bitches that are younger than me because I don't want to commit to a relationship.

>>38901163

One week later
>do you want to be my gay friend, anon?

>>38887598
>can't even green text
no wonder your oneitis thinks you're pathetic

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>>38884862
>if I knew you were gonna be like this I would have never had kids in the first place!

>>38897123
Well. The definition of insanity is repeating an action and expecting things to differ.

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>>38885751
>that fucking spacing
please leave this board and never ever come back

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>>38897714
>What are you gettimg so close for?"
and
>shut up and get away from me. Bad enough I'm in the same class as you

Both in 5th grade by seperate Stacies I almost never interacted with. Both became ghetto coalburning trash by 9th grade.

>You will die alone and no-one will show up to your funeral
The other kids told me this when I was 7.

"You can't do anything. You're a loser."
One day I will prove you wrong.

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>>38884862
>Accessing a website so easy that even anon can do it, can't you anon?

>Stacy, why are you degrading yourself to anon's level?

>Chad to school's cum dumpster: I'll give you $50 to kiss anon. Cum dumpster: Hell no!

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>"if your mother never took you from me, you'd be a different man"

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>>38901906
>that image
>that file name
>breaking rule 5
you really are a faggot aren't you?

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>"this is why you're gonna end up alone"
she was right

>living with aunt and uncle who give me away for adoption in second grade
>live with foster mom for two years make friends but never that close
> enter 4th grade meet this kid alex and we instantly become best friends.
> now december of school year, getting adopted by foster mom
> tell bestfriend, he doesnt really say anything so im thinking he doesnt really care
> the next day tells me that he bets my Adopted mom found me in a dumpster and that my parents threw me
> dont really respond r
> go home and cry for an hour wondering why he would say something like that
> next day don't really talk to him and avoid him and continue avoiding him for a month
> asks me what he did. I don't bother explaining and start talking to him again
> still best friends 11 years later never mentioned again, he actually forgot I'm adopted somehow


after that I don't ever mention that I'm adopted to anyone. I look very different from my white mom since I'm half mexican but I just say my dad was never in the picture.

>your face looks weird

At least she's a junkie now.

>>38885428
What's wrong with it? Too light or what? Mine's way too deep and I have a smoker laugh.
I try not to even speak because of it.

>>38897567
not even drunk, mom told me she hated me and I was the worst mistake she ever made. and then later denied saying it

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>>38884862
>stop complaining you're not that bad, all you need is to stop thinking like you can't accomplish anything
I still didn't accomplish anything yet every fucking time this is the shitshow I get from everyone from parents to distant family and even co-workers, yet nobody helps me believe in myself

I've posted this here and on other boards but I'll do it again

>Freshman year
>all sorts of girls from different middle schools coming to one high school
>SurelyIhaveachancenow.jpg
>Cute girl thinks I'm hilarious
>we'll call her erica
>always getting cozy with me
>I have a disorder that when things go good
>I go autistic
>For some reason start insulting her
>Call her chewbacca because she has peach fuzz on her lip
>Plug out her computer while she's doing an essay in english class
>One day shes trying to call her mom for a ride home
>Blurt out into the phone "Erica likes penis! : v )
>However
>No matter how far my powerlevel would ascend
>She would just awkwardly laugh it off
>Eventually she moves on to another guy
>He starts hanging out with us
>One day after school he's with me and Erica
>Decide to go max power even tho its a monday
>I say "Erica you have something in your hair lol"
>"Oh Where"?
>Lean over and spit in her hair because I think its gonna be a funny joke
>Yell out "RIGHT HERRRR!!"
>She has a look that I lack the vocabulary to describe
>It a mix of horror, sadness, shock and despair.
>If someone saw they would think she was raped.
>The dude who was with us then proceeds to beat my ass like there's no tomorrow.
>was quite surprised but figured out quickly his reasoning
>Erica watches us.
>It reminded me of my chinese cartoons.
>When the main character swoops in the nick of time to save the girl.
>I was a pretty fast thinker and already knew the outcome of the situation
>Realize I have no chance of winning
>Realize that I have to escape
>Realize that I must go home and learn how to endure shame
>Realize that I might have something wrong with me
>I was able to escape the beating and had to have my mom pick me up at a walmart 3 miles away from the school.

The worst part is this isn't even the most cringest moment of my HS career.

Or even my life

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>>38884862
>Why are you trying to fix your hair? You're ugly beyond repair!
Hold me lads.

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>>38884862
>I wish you fell down that day.
>Maybe it was better we stopped that day.

>Why can't you just act normal?

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>valentines
>work up courage to ask girl I liked in HS on a date
>I even got some nice chocolates
>as I am walking up to her I see her talking with stacy friends
>"Anon is probably the ugliest guy in our English class"
>"Who do you think he will ask out?"
>"Probably you (crush)"
>"ew no, don't even joke about that"
The chocolates were bittersweet when I ate them. I've yet to spend valentine's day with someone.

when we think, mostly before we sleep, sad memories and thoughts fill our minds

i hope one day, when we think, we can smile and want to think before we sleep, want to wake up for tomorrow and want to enjoy our relationships, instead of suffering through and because of them

i use to be bullied, had depression and no friends, playing TF2 all day with 2 people i had never seen. i was 15 then

i am 18 now, and i can tell you that there is only one way to escape this cycle, it is just focusing on something to stop you from thinking.

eventually you will acquire skills in whatever you have worked on and they will take you closer to success, and thus other people, and maybe now a friend, a mentor and a father figure is met all because you competed in a sport, grinded a craft or studied for qualifications

never give up

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>"You ruin everything!"
-My mom

>"You didn't even care that mom was dying of cancer."
-My sister

Then there's just actions that certain people do around me like;

>Become incredibly close with someone to the point that we hang out every day and they just up and stop talking to me

>My closest friends hide things from me, but will tell each other everything and then make fun of me for not being in on what they talk about

>Being the "Funny Guy" in every group so I can't ever be serious about my emotions and anything I want to talk about inevitably just becomes a joke

i never really understood what was wrong with me for the longest time. since 6th grade i've had a constant sense of dread over me. i try to brush it off all the time but i understand that it may be a type of depression that i can't avoid. this has led me to be unable to understand other people's emotions. I've had great friends and I've been the class clown since then but I've had no friends outside of school. finally i knew how lonely i was. so i pushed away all of my friends and i still remember the last the last thing my last friend told me

>you're really gonna die alone. you don't understand what its like to be in love or in a romantic relationship. i've been you friend for so long because i was trying to help you. i don't know what's gotten over you but i hope you die.

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>>38903634

Thanks for the kind words in this depressing thread, anon.

People will probably meme you for being 18 and thinking you know how the world works but it's mostly just existential assholes.

Our happiness is controlled solely by our will to make a change in our lives or just learn to accept what we have.

But sometimes holding out hope for something better can help you get along.

>>38903692
>>38903692
>>Being the "Funny Guy" in every group so I can't ever be serious about my emotions and anything I want to talk about inevitably just becomes a joke

this desu. I've been that funny guy for 8 years and ive told my friends that i really just want to kill myself because i have no real value to anyone. they laughed it off and said not to joke about suicide

>Go back to your own little world
Said to me when I tried to join a conversation in jr high.

>>38903791
That's something I really hate, is when you try to seriously talk about depression and suicide and because people are uncomfortable and don't want to talk about it they brush it off.

I just want friends that I can actually talk to for emotional support but there's seriously nobody in my life like that.

And any time that I get something like that they push me away or just completely ghost on me.

I usually dealt with my autism by getting into fights so people were too scared of me to say stuff to my face. When I was 19 my dad said that he had failed raising me after I told him that I have no drive to go to college, get a job, or move out, I guess that hurt a bit.

>it doesn't get better
-psychologist

>i don't care about your depression. it's not real. you're looking for an excuse for attention and it's sad
-mom

>you're a piece of shit
-sister

>i hate you. you mean nothing to me. we used to be friends but you've fucked up so much that i can't believe youre my son. the only reason why you're still living in this house is because of your mom.

>ew
rejected by a girl the first and last time
>do you honestly believe someone cares about you?
classmates i though were my friends
>you'll end up hanging yourself in your room
other classmates
>Being honest with you, you are right, you'll never achieve your goals, still i dont think killing yourself will be the solution
therapist
>your birth was a mistake
mom

>>38903848
i used to have a friend that would let me talk to them about my depression but i never realized that she would screenshot our conversations our quote things that I've to her friends and usually they would all laugh at me.

life has not been easy for me. i truly believe that i will kill myself before 40

>Oh I forgot anon was here!

I was literally sitting in the back seat of the car.

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things i was told in 5th-8th grade
students
>why do you even get up in the mornings
>oh he has to be in our group?
>i hope you die alone its what you deserve
teachers
>stop complaining for attention
>why are you so quiet? thats why you dont have any friends

who else is /sadboi/ even tho i just graduated highschool i still think about this stuff late at night

>>38903928
>your birth was a mistake
i felt that one anon

>>38904158
>i felt that one anon
thanks anon.
kind of a shitty thing to say.
and the one that most hurts me about all

>>38904238
heres an idea, go get some slut pregnant then leave the baby with your mom then leave, occasionally come back to brainwash your child into hating their grandmother and kek at her

"why dont you just kill yourself"
-mum

>>38884862
>I'm proud of you, anon
Said by my mom. I know it's probably stupid to feel bad about that, as it is a good thing. But those words destroyed me. I have never done or achieve anything to make her feel proud. I haven't done anything with my life so far and everytime I try, I fail. It feels like she's lying to me, just trying to support me with what little hope she still has. I always had good grades in school, and because of that she could only imagine great things for my future. Things I can't achieve anymore. Hell, even an ordinary mediocre life seems more unreachable by the day. She's always been so good to me, and there's nothing I would like more to actually give her something to feel proud of. But I just fail again and again and every time it gets harder to try again. I feel this huge guilt that I can't do nothing about, as everything I try just makes it worse. I was given a precious life and I completely wasted it. I'm a useless piece of shit.

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>>38884862
> Spend all of High School and half of college trying to get with oneitis
> Have heated argument with her after long period of tension
> She stops talking to me
> Sends me one message a few months later
> "I used to love you."

What I wouldn't do it finally put a glock to the roof of my mouth

>look at that fucking loser crying, hey, look everyone

wonder why i am completely emotionally dead and only feel something at 4 am drunk looking at pathetic baww threads

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>>38884862
>You're not relationship material, you're not even dating material

>>38904128
That 2nd one is the suckiest in school.
>teacher says partner up
>get put in a group with people or a person you don't interact with
>they/he look at the other classmates and smirk or laugh at the situation
or
>ugh! Why do I have to be partners with HIM
It hurts more when you're in a school with one class. You have to see the same people everyday and those words or those smirks make you realise everyone hates you.

>>38885751
>My favorite thing about medicine is that it gives me almost no free time to think about how badly I fucked my life up
another med student here, you are the exactly kind of autist I hate, you reek of emotional failure and things will catch up with you by your 30's

>>38902458
Tell us anon, i need your stories so i feel a little better about myself

> I said I was sorry. Why do you take everything so seriously? It was nice and fun yesterday, but nothing more than that.

- After making out with me at a party (2nd of two separate times this happened...)

>>38902458
I can't help but feel like that dude is a white knight faggot. I mean sure he could react with a simple "wtf are you doing" and maybe a shove but to start beating your ass seems over the top "protectin' muh gurl" type of autism

>>38885286
That is really messed up anon

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>>38884862
>I'll never lose love for you
I've been single for 5 years now and shes married

>you have a really ugly laugh / smile

Sorry my happiness offends you bitch

One time I was in and H&M changing room with the weird curtains and i didnt close them all the way and i was in my underwear. Some girls walked by and saw my through the little crack and they started laughing at me and said "look at that guy haha"

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>>38884862
>confess feelings.
>"You're joking, right!?"

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>Stop smiling, everybody hates you and wishes you died

>>38884862
>tfw no ones ever really talked to me outside of some friends and people I had to work with in group projects

Feels bad man

I guess there was this one time where my first grade teacher said that my parents didn't really love me. I never completely believed it, but my parents had always been kind of neglectful, part of me thought that she was telling the truth.

>We should take a break, this isn't the end of our relationship. Just a hiatus until I have more time to focus on the relationship
She was married 3 months later to a former friend of mine. Still hurts real bad from time to time, even though I realize I'm much better off without her.

>We're on the same page then?

I know they're not words but

>talking with "friends" at school about videogames and they say we can all hang out and I give them my address to pick me up
>excited about it all day
>never hung out with people except to do drugs
>get home
>tell my parents I'm going to hang out with my friends and that they're going to pick me up
>wait and wait and wait
>don't show up and never contact me
it was over 10 years ago and still hurts my feelings to think about

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>be me, thought i met "the one"
>be together for about a year, but about to do long distance
>sad, but was optimistic that everything will work out in the end
>steady contact eventually declines
>being an autist, i panic
>sent messages that made me look really clingy
>eventually comes to a point where i ask if she still had feelings for me
>she responds with "i don't know, i don't think i love you anymore"
this happened about 3 years ago, still crippling me to this day, don't think i can ever truly open myself up to anyone ever again

>Why don't you just talk to me like a normal person?
She told me a lot of awful shit

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A little bit of a different situation than most of these but it still fits
>junior year of high school
>talking to oneitis over skype one night
>"we can talk about anything right?"
>heart sinks, I already know what it's going to be
>"I did something bad and now I'm bleeding down there and I'm scared"
>just fuck my shit up
>still remember that night painfully to this day

>Do you think about her (my sister) when you're inside me?

My ex girlfriend, after the first (and only) time I have ever engaged, or will ever engage, in sexual role play with her. It was concensual incest role play, and we'd agreed on it and talked things through about how it wasn't actually about our respective siblings. I don't think she realises how much damage it actually did to me to this day. From then on I was not honest with her on a sexual plane, and it was just fucking.

Alternatively

>you're just like your dad

Thanks mum. You and my ex and everyone else seems to be convinced I'll cheat.

Jokes on you, I didn't then and I don't want another fucking relationship now.

>>38902020
are there any other adopted robots here?

>>38906420
Did she masturbate or did she have sex?

>>38906715
obviously sex otherwise I wouldn't have given two fucks

>be at museum
>teacher says: "hey anon are those your cousins?" *points at a group of stuffed up proboscis monkeys*

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>Your brain is not stupid, love, it just works differently.

Said my mother when I was 10 or so, trying to make me compensate for dyslexia.
I smelled the bullshit even at the time. But I answered like i believed her.

It's not a terrible condition. But the feeling of "I've disappointed my parents so much I managed to fuck up even when I borned"
I'm sorry...

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> she told me that you annoy her anon, why do you alway have to fuck friendships?
My fucking stomach hurts and i want to puke everytime i think about that.

>I don't want you to be there for me

>>38891663
That sounds pretty friendly bro, its a nice way of inviting someone in

>Sorry, I wasn't listening

>He might be fun to dom or have fun with but I'd never actually want to be with him
>I'm sorry Anon, you're just not my type
Girl who tried to get me to date them in high school, I knew what she wanted but I was too autistic to know what to do about it. She says this shit the day after hitting on me very overtly.
>Girl cries when they're in a group in math because I was really dumb
>I love you Anon
My grandmother died a few months later.

>>38907538
I too had a girl that liked me in junior high but I was too autistic about it. She ended up being a cheerleader when we got to highschool.

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>>38906090
>"You're being serious? Right?"

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Nothing anyone has ever said to me has ever stuck with me in a negative way. Not for long. I just don't form relationships with other people and I don't really pay attention to anything that happens to me, so even really cruel or sad things people say I usually end up forgetting. I've never really had any meaningful moments with anyone negative or positive. Almost all of the most significant memories I have are entirely solitary, existential crises, particularly pleasing fantasies, moments of making things and the like.

I don't really dislike other people either, and I'm not really inept at social interaction, in fact most people tend to think I'm funny and amicable, but I really can't have a conversation about anything I care about with other people because the idea of someone else caring about something that matters to me is nearly unthinkable, so I just don't bother.

>We will definitely be together again, I just need to clear my mind.
>Shes going for my best friend now

My best friend in high school told me that in grade 9 I would always follow him around and kinda annoyed him but now we're really close. Although it was a compliment it made me realize that I could be really clingy with friends and not even notice it. Now I can't talk to new people without the overwhelming feeling that I'm constantly annoying them and they want me to go away. I'm always quite and never initiate anything because of this.

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>that's sad that I'm the only thing good in your life

>"You're a weak cup of tea"
>"Kid, you're just a spit in the bucket"
At least ex-cons are creative.

>

>>38885751
>>38885870
>>38886065
>>38886310
>>38891879
Originally off yourselves

>>38885286
i feel it
they don't understand just how terrified I am of talking to others

>>38893305
Fuckin A man I was just getting over some depressive episodes but the genius in me went to this fuckin thread. Now I just want to smoke and get lost in my thoughts

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>jesus you're boring. why'd you even come over?

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>>38884862
Many years ago an old friend of mine had me play the beginning of DMC3, and he basically directed me step-by-step which was annoying as hell.

He would often talk about people "lacking spatial awareness" and how when playing video games you should NEVER get hit etc.

I recently played Metal Gear Rising for the first time, having never been a fan of hack'n'slash action games, but being a huge MGS fan for years. Every time I got hit while playing his words came back to my mind and I felt bad.

>>38893822
Bitches like her need to die or get a good ol raping. You shouldnt care what she thinks. Shes a cunt who cares about frivolous things and lives a fake life.

>>38896798
Is 8ch better?

>>38885751
You've got to go back you fucking newfag

>>38885751
What happened to the ring though?

>>38901022
Wow you are pretty edgy

>"what's wrong with you?"

>"why are you here?"

>"sorry, I think you're really nice but I just don't like you "

>>38904569
This gets to me. I'm also stuck on the same treacherous path that you are on yet my parents still believe in me. The only reason I try (and later fail) in the first place is because of my parents believe in me when I lost all hope myself.

I've considered suicide, but I know that will hurt them and be incredibly selfish of me.

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>reminder that if you had a gf at any point you have no right to moan about how "lonely" you are
>reminder that if you had a gf at any point and you're "lonely" it is 100% your fault and I have no sympathy for you
>reminder that normies are a blight on this board

>>38892902
Why haven't you talked to her anon?

I know you will probably not answer because it's been 17 hours since you posted this...

>>38901163
did you actually cry or did it just rain?

>>38907649
Holy shit... you strike me as being really smart. Can we get in contact? [email protected] ;3

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>>38903952
That happens with both me and my younger brother
he's a lot more normie than me, though, and he's made the right choice of no romance whatsoever
i sincerely hope he does better than I do

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>don't get me wrong I like you, but look at you, no offense
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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Nothing hurt me anymore, i just don't a shit to anything

>>38908647
Yes, the percentage of true robots is 80%.
The traffic is less so its a cozy little group.

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>And I like you anon but not exactly in that way. I dunno you've just kinda been my best friend since the 8th grade and I've never really thought more about it.

JUUUUUUUUUST

>you're stupid,
>you can't do anything right
>you're nothing like your sisters,you're a burden
>i would've abandoned you if you weren't my child
>i'm waiting for the day you leave this house
>you have no life , you're not allowed to have friends, you have no freedom
>you need to get married in order to have your own freedom

>>38909365
>reminder that fucked up people tend to get into unhealthy relationships with abusive people
>reminder that staying with an abusive relationship is worse than being alone
>reminder that being alone might not be a choice to some people
>reminder that a normie isn't someone who has had a gf before..a normie is a montonic person who has embraced the ideas of society and has no mind of its own ,

>>38910675
>tee hee, chad beats me, (still love him tho <3) so im totally one of you guys here!

>its because....i like other person

"if you ever kill ypurself ill find you in heaven and beat the shit out of you" - even tho there isnt a heaven shes still a fucking bitch mother

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>You were just one of like, a hundred?!
seriously? who the fuck says that

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>why are we even friends? xD
>stop liking stupid shit
>get over it! after trying to talk about how sad I am all the time and how i want help
>also btw my life sucks and i want to die despite mommy cooking for me all the time because i'm lazy in my nice upper-middle class home and having been to Japan where I got a girlfriend
>refuses to come to my house unless i have weed, because he's too good for it
>the house my poor family rents is practically a dumpster

The only reason we still hang out is I used to steal cigarettes for him in high school. I wish I lived near my online friends, they're way better than him. He's a stereotypical liberal. An upperclass white neckbeard redditor who only pretends to give a shit about poor people and minorities.

>>38910935
that means she'll be in such emotional pain she'll want to pay you back

i think it means she loves you

that's the way i interpret it and I'm a horrible pessimist

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>you just live here for free, you are worthless

>>38885137
You should tell those problems to really close friends, not some bitch you know for a long time that, obviously, was not your friend. People that truely care will ask if they sense something wrong with you, either that or go to a therapist, not saying it will cure you but it won't hurt. Anyway, hope you get better, anon

>>38893026
If that's true your best friend sounds pretty fucking pathetic desu

>You're fucking nothing. You were nothing before you met me. Without me you're nobody.

From my wife of 2 years

Nothing normies say can hurt me

>>38896702
>>38899382
It's almost as if people get bored of pretending they're emotionless after awhile

>>38884862
>Are you autistic? You have a hard time detecting sarcasm.

I'm not even autistic and they made me feel like I was less intelligent than them.

>>38911428
Leave the bitch

>>38887097
Should you expect them not to care?

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>Anon, I only really feel comfortable talking to Stacy.
I'd been trying to connect with this girl and she'd seemed quite similar to me but as a girl. I never talked to her much but she was the beacon of hope in my life. She was the closest thing I ever had to a friend, so the pain from those words was unbearable. She moved to Canada that summer. I never got to say goodbye properly, and I've missed her ever since. I lost the phone that I had her number on, and I'm still too shy to use social media, so I really have no way of connecting with her again.

>>38885286
This exact shit also happened to me

>>38911428
did she say that while fucking you with a strapon?

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>"I won't give up on you, I promise."

"What? Did you think we were just going to grow up and get married together?!"

Online ex of mine from 6 years ago.

It hurt me back then but I got over it. Still fap to her feet and nudes I got from a friend to this day hah

>"I miss you too"
The last thing she ever said to me before ghosting me forever.
Then I found her blog where she talks about me as some kind of weirdo stalker that she just spoke to because she felt sorry for me not having any friends, it ended in "leave me alone you creepy guy" (even though she instigated the relationship and everything in it, I'm not really a "go getter" type)
The post was mostly about getting sympathy from her followers, I don't think she really expected me to find it, she had no real excuse for me.

I've also been called a rapist as a "joke" by multiple women.

"we don't really know anything about you" - people who i had been friends with for 5 years. it just blew through me like a cold wind, i'd spent so much time with these people and they couldn't remember anything about me

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Something that happened to me in high school

>be me in early High School
>had a crush on a girl for years
>sitting with friend at lunch time
>crush walks up to us with her friend
>"hey anon would you like to date me?"
>can barely contain myself
>almost have an autistic meltdown on the spot
>eventually yell in her face
>"YES PLEASE"
>looks at me like i murdered her mother
>crush turns to my friend
>"what about you anon's friend? Would you like to date me?"
>fucken wot?
>ask wtf is going on
>crush looks at me like I am mentally retarded
>crush's friend asks us if we would like to date her too
>finally realise what is happening
>girls having popularity contest to see who is more desirable
>mfw i actually thought my crush liked me
>tears form in my eyes
>crush and her friend start laughing
>"anon, you didn't think I actually wanted to date you did you?"
>"that's gross! I will never want to date you anon, yuck!"
>cried myself to sleep that night

>>38884862
>You are fucking basic,
Ex last words before she dumped me.
Now she's on her way to become a depressed piece of shit. Who's laughing now bitch

>>38884862
>2013: I never want to lose you, you are important to me.
>2015: I never want to see you again. I regret knowing you.

>>38884862
>"i'm just not good at talking to people one on one"
>meanwhile she's spending all her time with chad
I fucking hate lying bitches

>>38884862
>He's just got some kind of shitty aura.
>Don't talk so loud, he's sitting somewhere nearby.
Thanks, "colleagues".

>>38884862
>you're 22 but I feel like I'm dating a 17 year old
happened a few months ago, still hurts

>>38912174
normalfag out
>>>/soc/

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>you will die alone - My cousin
>you are a failure, dude - My best friend in school
>Yeah, but i like HIM - all of the girls I had something going on

I'm just tired of being alone, man. Shit fucking sucks.

this isnt words really, but their reaction

>get haircut, very short like 2 inches but i have exaggerated features
>walk into registeration, dreading what would happen
>one kid notices and points at me, 2 seconds later everyone notices
>class erupts in laughter, including the teacher and my "friends"
>sat there drowning in their laughter, teacher makes a joke

>>38912237
also meant for >>38911863
origami

>>38884862
Not to me, but about me.
>He's over 30. Normal people that age don't act like that.

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>Meh Anon we went out for like a month could you call yourself an ex ahahah

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>sorry anon it was just a dare teehee, I don't really want to date you
Fuck high school

>>38885428
get a book on the side of your head separating your ears and mouth.

Thats how you sound in real life. You can change your own voice gradually or just embrace it so it becomes a tool of confidence. Hope you read this

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>>38884862
In Y7
>why do you even bother trying to fit in? nobody likes you

In WoW, the only place since primary school that i actually felt like people actually wanted to be around me and enjoyed my company
>dude you're nice guy and a good player but we just can't let you be our main tank, we need someone who is respected by the entire guild

>>38884862
>nobody here wants to be friends with you
>you can't do that
>you're fat
>(via a friend) he is ugly, I don't want to be his friend
>you're not funny
In a nutshell

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>>38885286
>"depression? anon, you don't have any to be sad about."
>"t-thanks dad..."

>unlike parents we don't have to love you
>i never loved you
>you are a monster
>you are a psychopath
>you disgust me
>die

everyone is tsundere in my world

>>38894354
"Wow, that hurts babe. I'll forgive you over dinner this weekend, how about that?"
Ezpz

>>38906010
This is why I don't smile in public anymore

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>(((friend's))) gf comes up to me one day while I'm walking to a bus stop and we talk together while waiting for bus
>next day friend is cracking up laughing shows me a sceencap of a skype conversation with her
>"nobody is ever going to love anon, his parents should've just abandoned him on the side of the road, he's so ugly holy shit"
>"haha y-yeah..."

>>38894418
That is a perfect excamle of what relationship parents have to their kids. It's not about emotional support or even understanding each other.
In the end it's all about expactations and how "succesfull" you can become.

>No, I don't think I'm interested in you anymore

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>6th grade
>talking with friends in class about who we like
>oneitis passes by, "hey what are you guys talking about?"
>"oh uhh.. nothing haha"
>"ok whatever"
>go to recess and one friend leaves to go to bathroom
>comes back
>"hey man I'm really sorry"
>"about what"
>"stacey came up to me and asked what we were really talking about again so I just told her and said that you liked her"
>YOUFUCKINGMORON.wav
>after school oneitis comes up to me
>"anon you're nice and all but I don't really like you like that. Sorry..."
>used to actually be friends with her in school and hung out after school (we had an afteschool program thing where students would just hang around in the cafeteria and playground while teachers and volunteers watch)
>didn't really talk to me at all after that
>any time I had to be near her after that was incredibly awkward

I really fucking hate people