Think I might do it tonight, boys. Wouldn't mind a bit of conversation before then.
Cleaning my room before I go, probably gonna smash up my computer and whatnot before going.
>>38882202
join my discord and talk with me and my friends there first
>Cleaning my room before I go, probably gonna smash up my computer and whatnot before going.
who are you trying to fool, me or yourself ? if you wanted to kys you wouldn't be worried about such trivial things
>>38882202
Why do you want to do it exactly, OP?
my friend killed himself today, got me thinking I should follow him into death.
>>38882202
>Think I might do it tonight, boys. Wouldn't mind a bit of conversation before then.
I want to go with you
>>38882244
No more options. No money, no jobs, no education, no friends, no joy. Every time I think I've got it under control something else fails and I'm right back here with some drink and a gun.
Runs in my family though, probably a chemical imbalance. I'm not able to feel happiness anymore and I'm sick of trying. Only thing that kept me from doing it was the fear of having my mother find my body, but I'm going to walk out to the lake tonight and call the cops beforehand so they find me instead. I've had enough trying only to get dirt thrown in my face.
>>38882202
>tfw I planned my suicide when I was only 12
I've indoctrinated myself to the point that I don't even care if my life is going good by the time I do it.
>>38882572
Not going to try to stop you but, just make sure you're ready to leave this world, leave without a regret, do whatever you want before you go, however small it may be.
I may be following you soon anon.
>>38882572
there's always options if you want them, assuming you are physically healthy and not in legal trouble
you can leave your current life behind and start fresh, you don't need money but it will be hard work, so you have to want it
all i'm saying is don't let "no options" be the reason, the reason is you're too lazy/depressed to pursue the hard roads
>set a possible future date for myself
>happy, carefree, can do anything because i don't ultimately have to worry about consequences
>productive state makes me want to live again
>immediately go back to being sad, feel like i will only fail if i continue, can't find the energy to go on anymore
can anyone riddle me this shit
>>38883147
you don't have to worry about consequences because you're eventually going to die anyway and nothing you do matters
K've been keeping track of the train schedules. I need to see if they have those protective guards on the front of them.
>>38882225
You're an idiot.
Shit like this is actually very common in suicidal people. It's not uncommon for people to find loved ones dead after they do shit like cleaning the house and stuff.