>have been literally alone for like 4 years
>By alone I mean 4 years of house>work work>routine with literally no contact with anyone other than work related people
>I suddenly receive a call from a "friend" after 4 years of no contact
>He asked me to help him in his food stall at the festival
>I accepted because I had nothing else to do
>The day comes.
>The place so fucking crowded families and music everywhere
>I was working non stop, it was pretty exhausting while the friend was talking with customers
>When things calmed down a little bit, I looked around and something hit me
>Every one around my age is walking around with families or friends
>They were laughing, joking, so fucking happy.
>Suddenly I started thinking about how lonely I am and about the events that led me to this lonely shitty life
>My anxiety suddenly went through the roof
>I went to the toilet and stayed there
>My eyes started watering, thinking about the lost years that I will never get
>Thinking about how things will be like that forever
>The urge of going back home was unbearable
>I called my "friend" and told him I don't feel well
>The train was full of couples and families
>That sight became like suffering for me
>I just put in my earphones and looked at the ground until I reached home
>When I went back I just lied on the bed staring at the roof for about 30min
>Sadness is killing me.
I wasn't like that before, but after so long being alone, being around people became pure suffering for me.
Who is like me here?
How do we change this robots? Please I don't want to end alone, it is killing me.
>>38866270
I would like to add that I am khv
>>38866270
I'm jealous. People won't leave me alone for even one day.
I'm killing my loneliness by hanging out with my volunteer group. I urge you to volunteer and make friends.
>>38866333
>working for free
More cucked than a slave.
>>38866333
I volunteered before. Literally nothing happened . The problem is that thew knew each other before (university volunteering) so I was left out from the beginning
>>38866333
What did you volunteer for?
>>38866270
>he still lives in the past
Lmao, yesterday will never come again
Talk to people at work, get lunch with them and shit. Nowadays most of the people I hang out with regularly (outside of work) are coworkers.
>>38866388
Pleasuring niggers at my local refugee camp
>>38866405
The biggest problem is that my coworkers are trash.
All of us don't talk each other a lot and everyone of them is just in some sort of clique like a bunch of highschool girls
>>38866270
I was in a similar boat. When I started trying to make friends I realized why I didn't have any in the first place. Most of my generation are internet addicts and are either aggressively stupid or introverted.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LCvDdYOoFS8
>>38866270
>he wants friends and family
how disgusting, being schizoid is the best shit ever