>be me
>21 year old kissless virgin
>compulsive liar as well
>have three friends that I regularly talk to
>when im with them everything is great, but when im not life is mundane
>dont want to seem too clingy so i actively try to not talk to them constantly
>also dont want them to catch on to my loneliness, so I invent a group of friends that I tell my 3 real friends about
>these "people" ive told them about are complex and flawed enough to make them believe my stories
>invest so much time into these fictional people that even i start to believe theyre real even though i know theyre not
>my actual friends now spend less time with me because they assume im too busy to hang out with them
>tfw my loneliness is getting worse and i hate myself
how do i get off this ride guys?
Look OP, I think the best thing to do is come clean to your rl friends and just try to explain your lonely feelings. If they're true pals they'll stick by you and hear you out.
its okay to be a bit clingy with friends it lets them know that you want em around.
Hey OP, it's all gonna be ok. Come clean with your friends and if they are really your friends they will stay and want to help. This kinda thing is hard to go through, especially alone. Don't be afraid to reach out. OP is not a fag, OP needs to be loved.
postcard from your future, op
>36 yo kv
>have 3 friends that i email once in a while
>live alone
>crippling social anxiety disorder
>the only people i hang out with regularly are my parents
>i would kill myself but i'm embarrassed by how few people would show up at my funeral
start going to a bar regularly or volunteering or learn to sail or something.
>>38859319
tell your real friends you had a serious falling out with the fake friends
>>38860894
Not OP, but I ain't too far from that either.
>29 yo kv.
>3 or 4 friends. Some of them are kinda robot, other is a halfway normie living with his overbearing girlfriend.
>I have anxiety that can be quite crippling at times. Also alcohol problems.
>Still living with parents.
>Crappy dead end job.
>I don't give a rat's arse about my funeral. I much rather ask in my testament to skip the funeral (or at least be quick about it) and cremate my corpse straight away.
>23 kissless virgin
>Close to 0 parental interaction my entire life. Raised myself on the internet/WoW.
>Got so used to lying to my parents and teachers that I became a compulsive liar.
>Sex and relationships seem like a fantasy, I can't even comprehend how I can perform either of them.
>Lost my career due to shit attention span and work ethic.
>I have moved past self hatred and became nothing.
>I've asked my father and random internet strangers to murder me.