Psychological Issues #116

Hello guys, hows everyone doing today?

>>38827852

I'm talking about the events of today with Coats, wish me luck.

>>38827860
Good luck mate

Let us know how it went

No idea what you're talking about desu

Anyway Ive been feeling pretty damn bad yesterday
Today seems better, havent even smoked
But I feel the need every time I think about it

>>38827860
Nick, I think I'm a trannny

wat do

>>38827912

Live out your dreams, baby.

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>>38827912
>>38827912
>Snip off penor
>Offer boiperson

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>>38827912
Throw yourself off a roof.

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>>38828158
Yes sir, super duper man

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What do you think about suicide? Is it so wrong to just end it?

asking for a friend hehe.....

>>38827912
Dear god, don't become a trap, save up enough money to surgically remove pp then undergo all that other shit.

>>38828859

It's wrong because you could heal your depression and enjoy life again.

>>38827788
how do i deal with my inability to change my antisocial, manipulative behavior?
I want to change and view people as more than just objects, but it only happens very very rarely.

>>38828949

Try connecting to your own emotions first, then imagine those in them.

Exercise: focus on someone you know well and imagine their day, think of their experience of life.

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How do I deal with my cravings for Nick's cock?

>tfw no normienick bf

>>38829244

Have you tried seducing said Nick?

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>>38829271
I don't know how. I'm not a normie like Nick. I can't talk to cute boys like him.

>cheated on workout
>cheated on nofap
least I applied to McDicks

>>38829422
Nofap is a meme friend. Don't do it unless you want your cock to shrivel up and get ED. Just do noporn.

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>>38829422
Also, is pic related healthy or no. That was my genuine score.

>>38829298

You're doing it right now. Don't be shy.

>>38829457
I mastrubate 4 times a day. I need some kind of discipline in my life.

>>38829459

Worrisome. Very.

>>38829484

If you're not in pain or lacking time, you're fine.

>>38829457
You have a problem if nofap causes you not to be able to pop a boner

If anything not using your willy will make you get hard af

>>38829548

Nofap is a bad idea. You can get health problems from not shooting your load in 2 to 3 weeks. You will shoot while you sleep, most likely, but yeah, not recommended.

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>>38829548
At first yeah but after that you'll get problems.

>>38829484
Yeah 4 times a day is a lot keep it to 3-4 times a week and avoid porn.

>>38829460
n-nick-kun i... i-i don't know how to tell you how I feel.

>>38829624
>n-nick-kun i... i-i don't know how to tell you how I feel.

Use simple words.

>>38829638
N-nick-kun... I... love... you... It breaks my heart to know that you will never black me.

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Life feels awful, but at least I'll have my vidya back soon enough(hopefully).

>>38829688

I can't black you because I'm not black.

>>38829705

Damn...

https://www.depression-anxiety-stress-test.org/take-the-test.html

http://www.celebritytypes.com/dark-triad/test.php

https://psychology-tools.com/empathy-quotient/

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>>38829725
>I can't black you
I knew you couldn't. That's what makes me depressed. At least I can still fantasise about pounding your black ass with my monstercock.

>>38829855

Can we get serious now?

There's only you and me here, might as well.

I feel so paralyzed with free. To scared to live my life so, I just watch other's live their lives. I feel so guilty and alone. I don't have any passions anymore. I'm not work to deal with my CPTSD but, I don't know what I want to do in the mean time. I just pass around the room some days like a cage lion. I hate going outside.

>>38830160

You need friends, I can give you some.

Do you like chess?

Do I need to seek professional help? I'm getting kinda worried about myself and I don't know if something really shitty is on the horizon or what
>cannot sleep at night, I go to bed at like 2 or 3 in the morning every night now, and wake up feeling like utter shit at like noon every day
>having bad dreams constantly, wake up with tears in my eyes sometimes (today I had a dream that my mom was yelling at me for something stupid and getting really nasty to me and I was crying in my dream and I woke up with tears in my eyes)
>feel anxious more than usual, get knots in my chest all the time and get stuck into thought loops like crazy sometimes, unable to forget what I'm obsessing over
>can't let go of this girl who I should be done with by all rights, she's pretty much moved on but for some reason I can't move on, so I've just resigned myself to a life of loneliness
>exploding at people around me for no reason sometimes, start yelling over trivial shit and make them all mad and hurt; worst thing is i realize that I'm hurting them and hate myself for doing it after it's done
>feel fine when I'm with people but as soon as I'm alone the melancholy starts to creep back up and I can't figure out if I was truly happy when I was with others or if I was just pretending
>spacing out sometimes, not like to a noticeable degree but I can feel it when I do it
Hopefully I'm not being melodramatic and I'm not asking for anyone to solve my problems I just need to know if I should seek help

>>38830339

This sounds like a lot of classic things, Hill.

Is this your first time here?

>>38829568
>2-3 weeks
Ha. Get on my fucking level. 1-year here, sex drive is now probably completly kill.

>>38830580
Yeah, I've bitched about a lot of this stuff on /r9k/ in general before but not in one of these threads

What's nick so busy about lately?
Busy booty nick

>>38830718

That can't be good, man. I have the sex drive of a teenager, so I guess there's that. Try to jumpstart your libido, it may take some time to get the machine going again but try.

>>38830727

Is that a trip you made for this thread or you're a regular tripfag?

>>38830802
I did. I've tried almost daily. But after what happened, I can't finish. Get overwhelmed by sad.

>>38830862

After what happened... You tied all this your orgasms?

Great voice by the way. It'd be fun as fuck to listen to you telling some southern tales. I dig your accent.

>>38830802
Just a trip I made for the thread
Named after this https://youtube.com/watch?v=oxyKqH2E4sM since I feel it sums up my situation pretty well

>>38830975

OK.

As you may know, this thread has evolved into something like a tribe that supports each of its members.

Everyone's busy elsewhere for now, but if you're interested in a support group, we're here.

>>38831010
Plan to come back tonight or are you finished?

>>38827788
I've failed you guys.
>start watching unity tutorial series
>the programming seems easy enough
>get halfway through
>feel crushing despair since I know I have no idea what I want to make and any project I tried on my own would just be generic Scope Creep: Zero Storyline edition trash
>end up playing vidya
>shitpost on 4chan like usual
>repeat again the next day
>actually get somewhat busy for a day or two
>no motivation to pull up unity afterwards
>fail nofap only a week in
Christ I can't do anything right.

>>38830950
I see her face. And emotions overwhelm me.

Thanks. I don't really know any tales, but I may get on later to talk and hang out. Needed that yesterday.

>>38831153
Hey meta. Feeling better today?

>>38831153

I don't know. Sound doesn't work for me.

>>38831172

I can help you with creativity. Tell me what you want to do roughly and I'll come up with ideas.

I do have entire video games planned out but it's just ideas.

>>38831010
I think that would help, I just don't know how to get help for all this shit

>>38831220

For security reasons, I will ask you to open a free accouint on lichess.org.

If you like chess, it's an awesome website, truly. From there I will lead you to our tribe.

>>38831176
Was I down? I was drunk, vaguely embarrassed and disappointed through the protective inebriation, but I felt alright. How are you?

>>38830034
4chan stopped working for me.

I don't know man. I don't think I really have any real issues besides boredom, lack of motivation and maybe some social anxiety and I can live with those. Boredom is why I'm doing this in the first place. No narcissistic parents here.

>>38831215
>Tell me what you want to do roughly
I was thinking something along the lines of a metroidvania sort of thing or some kind of dungeon crawler.

The sheer amount of art assets is also daunting, as I'm shit when it comes to art of any kind. I'm somewhat okay with 3d models, but the supporting textures will not look good. That's what free to use assets are for I guess, but still it just hurts to know I can't do it all.

>>38831215
What are you using? Headphones? Have you tried the speaker or something else?

>>38831338
I'm usual. You said you'd feel down today, was making sure you alright.

>>38831353

These significantly lower your quality of life already, even if you can live with it. You're not happy and should seek to be.

I have no problems in my life except my lack of motivation
I know motivation is kind of a meme and self discipline is more important but I can't seem to do anything with my time and I feel like I'm wasting my life
I was extremely motivated when I was younger because of how edgy/angry I was all the time and how I hated the world, which is not the case now

What should I do? is there anyway to make me permanently angry like a drug or something

>>38831365

I tried the speakers but apart from the connecting sounds, no voice.

>>38831357

Sounds cool, actually.

>>38831416
Shitposting makes me happy. Every time I write a gay response to you I feel real happiness for a moment.

>>38831432
>I know motivation is kind of a meme and self discipline

No. Doing what you need to do is more important than motivation, but if you don't like doing it, it will never work.

You need to have fun.

>>38831462

Really? I'm sure we can do better. Are you legit gay though?

>>38831500
Having fun is only going to make me waste time more, I want to achieve something, not have fun
I need to be angry again to motivate myself but don't know how

Am I still allowed to post in the thread? Is doing this alright?

>>38831555

I have fun when I work out and I'm changing my entire body. I'm achieving something. If you think something needs to be a pain in the ass to be efficient, you will fail.

>>38831585

Of course. More than welcome.

The chat is too spastic for me.

>>38831657
Yeah, I can imagine. I just do what I do here, ignore anything not about me so I can keep up.

>>38831521
I think I might be bi. Predominantly attracted to women and until recently I considered myself straight but without getting into details I'll say that I find myself attracted to some guys too. I'm maybe like 1 or a 2 on the kinsey scale although that one does feel like a meme. I pretend to be gay for you because I think it's funny.

>>38831412
I appreciate it, Hero. Things feel a little bland right now, but I'm ok. Not too hungover.

>>38831436
Hmm, well I hope you'll try again if you're interested.

>>38831723
>I pretend to be gay for you because I think it's funny.

I can handle that, big boy.

>>38831850
That's what I like to hear sweet cheeks. Anyway, is there anything for me to do here besides trolling?

I can't afford real therapy. My parents could help me with that, but I'm too scared to tell them that I'm not happy, since my father have his own psychological issues and doesn't know how to deal with this kind of stuff.

I have something that doesn't let me trust in my friends and I only have superficial relationships with them, no need to mention I've never had a gf, so I had been dealing with my own shit alone. For the moment I just want to be able to have a normal human relationship with someone, not necessarily a romantic one, just being able to trust somebody would be nice

>>38831745
No problem meta, glad you're ok.

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Depression sucks. Having no friends sucks. Being tired all the time sucks.

I don't have a question. Just saying.

>>38831880

You could tell me about your childhood.

>>38827788 It's my sister's birthday today, I don't really speak to her but I still wished her a happy birthday and genuinely hoped she had a good day, because I know what it's like to have bad days. And I genuinely hope you all have great days too, whatever that may be for you, and may you find peace with yourself and the enviroment behind you.

>>38828861
you actually can't, in most civilised societies you have to live as a woman with benis for anywhere from almost a year to years before you can get it cut off

>>38831943

Vocaroo answer incoming.

i feel like i have no personality whatsoever. dont know what to do about this, i can act really social-able yet my 'friends' never invite me to anything and theres no emotional connection. i feel like im going insane and should just recluse myself since theres no point anyways.

>>38832036
I was shy, but charming as a kid. I was afraid of breaking rules and making adults angry at me. I was closer to my mother than my father and when it comes to my father my memory is hazier I think. I guess he worked long days and came home late often. I remember being scared of him when he was angry but I'm fairly certain he never hit me. I have a brother with whom I was very close. I remember there being a small thing where my brother told a school counselor that our father hit him. That was bullshit though I'm 99% sure. When I was around 10 my parents started fighting a lot about our home being messy and shit. Then they got divorced. I spent all of my time playing videogames even more after that. Didn't have lots of friends outside of school during my teenage years. During my teenage years I did really fucking well at school though. I was consistently the kid with best grades in the whole school. I was afraid of the dark for very long on and off I guess. Sometimes I still am. My father was from the countryside so he frequently used the word nigger for which my mother and sisters and I of course as a good little goy reprimanded him.

The text may be somewhat incoherent and non linear. Maybe there's more I could tell but this is all I could think of for now.

Also, one thing I've noticed. When I share details about my life with people I meet, I tend to cut them off quickly thereafter so don't be surprised if I quit showing up.

>>38831943

http://vocaroo.com/i/s1yIX82pRX73

Here you go! It's a bit long.

>>38832420

http://vocaroo.com/i/s0GhdItKTrD2

VOcaroo for you toooo.

>>38832793
My father didn't really criticize me or anything. I remember him being a funny and loving father, but when he was angry over losing his wallet or something, that's when I was scared of him. And I think for no good reason other than me being easily scared. Btw about my brother, I had this cousin we used to hang out with as kids and there are two instances of them scaring me intentionally. One new year's eve they left me alone in our bedroom with the lights off in the evening and another time they surprised with some shit (I don't remember what exactly) that caused me to fall and hit my chin on a toilet. I don't feel comfortable asking my brother about the hitting thing. I would come off as vulnerable and weak + showing concern or affection aren't my strong suits. Also, our home wasn't really messy, just slightly cluttered and dusty. There was some mold too I guess, but my mother did clean up the house regularly and I think she was even too affectionate as a mother. She didn't demand much from me and when I started getting fat in my preteens, she made excuses and said it was okay. I didn't get super fat or anything, just chubby at least by American standards. I guess you'll call that abuse and maybe you're right. I didn't really learn any good ways of life like exercising and eating properly until I was 16. Before then I went swimming once a week which was immediately followed by a visit to McDonalds. My father didn't use the word nigger constantly, but still more often than other parents here. He still does, but he's not the reason I became racist. During my teenage years I only saw him once a week.

I'll have to go to sleep soon, but I guess I'll be back tomorrow, first with some shenanigans.

>>38832446
>>38832793
i'm not either of the people you responded to but my situation similar so listening to these helped

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>>38829725
It just feels like I have no agency in my life, mostly to how motivated I am. Even if I don't get the job I have a volunteer thing planned, which should help keep me busy.

>>38833152

http://vocaroo.com/i/s1dfjqr5W9SU

And one more for you, Hoe.

>>38833163

I'm glad! That's why I make it public. Feel free to save, share, etc.

>>38833440
Cool. I'll be back tomorrow then. Good night.

>>38831259
I used to like chess but I suck at it so I don't really play it anymore

>>38833465

nightyy night Hoe

>>38833567

Make an account, from there I'll take you to the group. They're all having fun without us for now.

Tell me more about yourself!

>>38833595

I'll quickly say that I wasn't obese, maybe a bit overweight. I did have a double chin kind of and tits and flab around my waist.

Also, I think a big problem I have is being easily misunderstood, especially here. I'll respond to the second vocaroo tomorrow.

>>38833634
>I did have a double chin kind of and tits and flab around my waist.

That's obese, man.

>>38827788
BOOM BANG BOOM

>>38834387

Kek be praised, oh Coats.

>>38834400
Checked
>>38833289
Also this was me, but I forgot to fill out my name.

>>38828902
How do I do it? I hate therapy

I wish I could get myself to stop procrastinating and start creating stuff(drawing, music). Why am I always afraid to fail and keep being a perfectionist?

>>38834612
Just vent to us bud, it's what we're here for.

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>>38827788
!!ATTENTION!! - The thread you have entered was made for the purpose of datamining 4chan users!

Remember to ignore, sage and hide all CIA nigger threads! - !!ATTENTION!!

Thank you for listening.

All right my dudes. This is a question regarding schizophrenia/schizotypal and meditation.

Schizophrenia for Pavlov constituted a person childlike, dull, apathetic, unconventional tendencies and beliefs, repetitive behaviors said to be in unity chronic hypnosis-- some defensive mechanism for an impacting negative development socially. Something like that. I also found that it is more specifically a type of schizotypal disorder.

Tell me, do any of you champs feel similar? Are you schizophrenic? Normal or no?

I was easily able to identify myself with his definition. Not in fat neckbeard-weeb loser type of way, but i'm sometimes too dumb like a child i imagine. Also, very dull and every dream of mine very vague, and I feel as if the future doesn't exist nor the past and ultimately i feel drained of energy, i can flourish thoughts with little depth even if I may find them of my interest. I think I'm in denial, some defense hypnotic mechanism, maybe.
i've been meditating two times a day for 3 weeks, and feeling very empty even though thoughts are no longer running wild.

Should I continue? Does it fuck your shit up?

>>38834670
i wrote and rewrote 3 drafts to your question. I don't even feel like I'm worthy to give you an answer since my life is shit. You just gotta do it man. Take pride in your failures and your growth, and remind yourself every time you fuck up, that you use to be a pussy who wouldn't even try.

>>38834807
>You just gotta do it man.
You mean I just gotta b myself?

>>38834903
don't be yourself. the current you is just some procrastinator. pretend to be an artist that creates something until you actually create something.

>>38835010
This honestly made me think
I've been trying to write lyrics and I always play with themes but nothing ever comes
I guess it would be better to be a failure than a faggot who didn't even try

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don't know why I bother with uni, I have a goal insight but I just can't seem to put effort into it. failed all 4 units last semester and appealed for it not to show up as Fail on my records but it was rejected and am on notice for academic suspension so now feel even less motivated

am on 3 kinds of drugs and it does very little, have tried 4 diff stimulants to try bring up motivation and less lying in bed but nothing works, I'm so tired all the time or more like I can't stand standing or sitting in chairs for more than 10 mins

blood test and MRI of brain showed nothing abnormal

>>38836592
the past is behind you my guy. no point in mindless ruminating the way you are now. just take make things better for yourself slowly.Even if you're not prepared for them, the things in the future are moving to the present, Anon. Also, could you give some more background, your field of study, what made you want to do it, when the lethargy started, etc.

>>38837288
doing a bachelor of science major in bio and chemistry to get into med or vet school, i can't imagine myself being somwhat satisfied in any other field than medicine

ive had bad lethargy for approx 3 years where I sleep 10-12 hours, never really dealt with it as I was a NEET for 2 years and it didn't bother me

>>38837826
do you have school right now? If not, I'd suggest just staying up more often and reading some course material in bed.