ITT: Bitch about your own life while doing nothing to improve

>>38821085
>ITT
more like ITB, In This Board

I'm sick and tired of all these fucking "black robot" and /britfeel/ threads. They need to be removed

>somebody makes fun of me as a joke
>i then have to make fun of them back as a joke or i end up looking like a loser
>it genuinely makes me angry that this is how society operates

I hate myself. I hate my brain. I hate my DNA. I want to kill myself by immolation so nothing remains of this trash.

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>graphic card burned cant play games anymore only lurk the internet
>KHHV
>no friends
>NEET
>think about geting a job just to pay the graphic card
>all the offers are so fuckin traumatic i really think about going to the psychiatrist telling him im suicidal to get welfare or some shit

>have to go to uni
>dont wanna go
>it'll be full of new qt girls making eye contact with me and teasing me
>they'll realize I'm a pussy about a month in and stop paying attention to me forever

Every semester the same shit. Every six months I'm reminded mercilessly of how much of a faggot I am and of what I am missing out on. I hate it. I wish girls cute girls didnt exist.

>>38821359
>my weekly swimming pool session
>on a whim decide to go to the outdoor pool instead
>beautiful girls in bikinis all around
>14-something mixed groups playing in the pool, starting to explore their own sexuality
>young kids running, playing around with happy faces
>tfw no gf hits me hard
>finish my lenghts
>go out of the water, trying hard to not stare anymore
>come home, open bottle of vodka
>does nothing to numb me, quite the opposite
>end up fapping to facebook pics of girl I fucked once almost 10 years ago (Im 28)

Shouldve stayed home.

>>38821085
I want to improve, but there's nothing to look forward to in the future.

I just hate being around people.
It's not anxiety or anything, I'm not nervous or scared, they're just exhausting.
If I'm able to work alone all day, I'll get home from work and feel fine. I'll go workout, do a few jobs around the house, feeling motivated.
If I have to work with other people, even if somebody is just doing their own work in the same room, it drains every ounce of energy out of me. I'll get home and try to read, and I can barely even focus on the words in front of me.

I can't keep doing this