ITT: What's your biggest problem / fear?
My largest problem is that I feel like I live a double life. When I interact with people, I act hardworking and the model of moral fortitude, but when I'm home I become lazy and fap to trannies and shemales.
I tell myself I have to stop it, but there's no one to keep me accountable but me, so I feel like its always a struggle that always leads me choosing the path of least resistance and keeping with the status quo.
As a result I never feel like I'm interacting with people where I am revealing my self. I keep myself in a constant state of fear thinking about the possibility of other people finding out about what I'm so ashamed.
Connected to that, I think what I fear most is being alone as a result.
>>38790151
that by being passive and understandable to others I have turned into a coward that won't fight back, this has caused me to lose my mental sharpness and any hopes for a future
>>38790151
that is like the blandest double life of all time
>i'm an upstanding citizen
>i like to relax at home after a long day's work
>i like chicks with dicks
fuck off you stupid bitch, every normie just like you thinks they're "living a lie" if anything having such thoughts proves you're a normie.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GZDl_R8Zp2E
I'm in a similar situation but I'm not Fucking gay like you
>>38790151
I leave absolutely everything to the last possible minute. If there's something that I should do, but don't have a definite time limit on I simply never do it (e.g. I still don't have my driver's license and I'm almost 30)
>>38790151
I always have a fear of being inadequate or falling behind my peers. I used to be an anime watching, ugly loser in middle school who got the shit bullied out of me, had maybe 3 or 4 close friends, and literally no one else. Not even my own brother liked me. Early in high school, I got depressed because my oneitis got a bf and that shit actually crushed my soul. I wore the same exact outfit for a year (had 5 pairs of black jeans and white T-shirts), and fell behind on my schoolwork. I got C's and B-'s and I felt even more depressed. I wanted to fucking top myself. I started to blossom late in high school and became a normie, smoking weed, dating girls, and chilling with a large group of friends. Now I have a normie office job, have a large and solid group of friends that I've known since HS, and have regular sexual contact.
I still have nightmares about those dark days. It's a fear of social abandonment. I tried so hard to crawl out from hikikomori life and if I got sent back, I think I'd literally go for the high score. Nothing feels better than finally being accepted into an in-group of people who love you for who you are.
>>38790871
forgot about devo, ty anon
Listening on my HD800's
Being left behind.
Everyone I know around my age is ahead of me. People about to finish college, some are already working. I'm not even at university and still have 3 years of studying in front of me. I still don't have a drivers license and I don't think I'll have it until 4-5 years have passed.
It's so fucking ironic that back in school and highschool I thought I was better than the rest and that I would get farther in life than my classmates.
>>38790151
I have a fear of ever having sex. Last thing I need is some roastie to laugh at my small dick