Hi anons, I'm just here to vent.
Why am I sharing a picture of my room?
>3 years ago I was complete social outcast.
>Stereotypical r9k anon situation, no friends, no gf, no car, no money... Just my computer
>Moved to another city, found a job, start making money
>learned about this Magic the Gathering shop that is open all night
>End up going to this place regularly, made some friends.
>Spruce up room so people can hang out
>Buy a second computer and TV so friends and I can start a lan game
>Buy 2 copies of the same game for both computers so we can both play together
>A friend wants to teach me music so buy guitars, amplifier, and micropone
>Bought a BB gun to shoot shit in the backyard
>Got into skateboarding
>Start losing weight due to physical activity
>People start to visit me frequently.
>everything was going great. I had a job, good amount of friends, even was
beginning to develop a love interest.
>Everything was going great, then...
>New friends start to learn more and more about who I really am
>Do something akward and ended up showing people how autistic I am
>Stepdad starts getting mad at me for bringing people over late
>Friends are scared of stepdad
>People realize how weird I am
>They stop talking to me
>Become a shut in
>Love interest forgets about me and finds someone else.
>Guitars and amp start collecting dust, haven't touched the skateboard in over a year,
and I use the second computer on my bed for only porn and watching anime at night.
I got a taste of what life was like for 5 months, and just as I was starting to
like myself again, it was all taken away from me. All this stuff in my room is
a constant reminder of what life could have been if I wasn't such a fucking loser.
I wish I never knew what it was like to have friends, I know people like to joke
about suicide on this board but I've been sitting here for a year wondering why I haven't
plugged a 45 into my skull yet.
tl:dr I was a normie for a few months and now it's all gone.
>>38780845
I hope everyone points out how I fucked up the green text.
>>38780845
What awkward event transpired? What city did this happen? What city did you leave from?
>>38780845
>nu-male the gathering
Stopped reading right there. Gay card game for nu male feminists. Real niggas play yugioh
>>38780923
I'd rather not say where I live now, but I moved from a little town called Bradenton.
As for the akward event, The Magic shop I would visit allowed alcoholic beverages to be consumed in his shop. Got drunk one night and told everyone how I used to be a brony, apperently started making the "cum inside rainbowdash" meme that was never funny before I passed out and woke up laying at the shops back door, went back inside and the shop owner said I was never allowed to visit again.
>>38780988
fucking alcohol man, thats why I dont drink that shit.
>>38780988
I gotcha, bud anon i dont think alcohol is quite your thing. If i drink i get black out drunk and ive neve spilled the beans quite like that.
>>38781082
Saying alcohol isn't my thing is a total understatement. There is no cringe compilation video out there that can make me more uncomfortable then the memory of the night I fucked everything up.
>>38781139
Im sure you could mend it.
So i havent told anyone my dark secrets.
>be drunk playin CoD
>beat black friend
>call him a filthy nigger
>everything went better then expected
Why don't you trim the excess on your guitar strings you fucking nigger. You're not cool. I hope you poke your eye out.
>>38781172
Nobody answers my texts, and the ones who do are always "busy doing something else".
I tried making friends with my co-workers but none of them are interested.
>>38781210
I think its just Americans, they seem like cunts. Happy im from Canada, though my mostly white Canadian region is turning into pajeet land
>>38780845
You were not a normie, you were more like a average Reddit neckbead. Close but no cigar.
Get back on the board and post board!
>>38780845
I was a semi-normie for two, maybe three years. I don't know what to say though because we have different stories. Besy advice now is sell that useless shit, and pay for a trip to gookland, and visit a love hotel, and safely lose your virginity
>>38782310
What was your story like?
>>38782329
>be bullied in school
>no friends
>attend meme therapy sessions
>regularly cry into bed, even pisses it
>change classes
>last year of inter-school goes pretty well
>average student, but excellent at english
>over the final year become more confident
>first year of high school begins (at age 14 where I live)
>goes great, make a few Chaddy friends, still mocked but I shrug it off
>somehow acquired large self-confidence
>make jokes and always raises hand in class
>start working out
>switch schools after a year because of offer due to excellent english grades
>2nd year at high school is great, but I dont make any friends
>exchange trip to america and I believe I made it (genuine friendship with Chad penpal, he doesn't know about me)
>3rd and last year of high school begins
>tell myself I'm a normie now
>fall in love
>gets rejected
>rejection is imprinted like burning memory
>gradually lose self-esteem and confidence as depression hits
>realize I barely made any friends and I'm an outcast
>become more of an outcast
>now I see it: khhv, never hung out with anybody outside of school, barely knows how to behave in society
Sorry if that does not make sense. Tldr I ascended to semi-normiehood but in the end it seemed to be an act and depression ruined it. One year ago I could talk normally to smeone and now I cant do that anymore because of constant lack of self-esteem. Cant stitch a few sentences together. It feels so fucking bad knowing I used to feel so much better. So in that way I guess I can feel you.
>>38780845
Okay man.
I've a way better idea because rn you described me a faggot with magic, skate, guitars and lan.
And man, I owned all these shits WHEN I was autistic.
Now you'll go to /fit/, become /fit/ and /fa/. But GYM is the EXTREM PRIORITY.
Then every clothes will fit you and you will see how autistic are your "normies"
>>38782610
Here's the picture so you don't miss my fucking post!
>>38781204
>mfw collect all the delicious grime
>months of playing without breaking a string
>it's so good
>i'm so erect from it
>i cum
>all over the guitar strings
>HUH
>then pick up that fender
>and play it watching the cum flick off the strings
>PURE FUCKING KINO
>>38782538
Rejection hurts man. I don't know why it's so rough but god damn does it sting.
>>38782719
It ruined me, but depression which is a very harsh feeling , couldn't come from that alone. I really dont know why I became this way when I was headed to be a normie. I've regressed in some way. What stung most is realizing how alone I was all along. During my high school years I did really take the bluepill
>tfw to stoppid to play guitar
>tfw to autistic to skatebord