Has anybody here ever tried to commit suicide before? Why? How?

>>38759684
I have three times but I was also not eating at the time so I was to weak to climb the wall on my apartment buildings roof.

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Thousands of times I've put a gun in my mouth and have unsuccessfully tried to od. My life is awful. I'm mentally ill. I'm 30 now. Nothing gets better. I'll never be able to go to school. I'll never be able to have a job. Everyone hates me. I fall at everything I do. Anything I make is universally hatred by everyone. I'm ugly and always will be. If I say anything people tell me to shutup or that I'm annoying them. Honestly I'm not sure why I even continue living. I guess I just feel so bad about leaving my brother and my parents with my corpse to deal with. Maybe I can kill myself over the Mariana trench our something so they won't recover my body. I can't even go into public anymore without having panic attacks and shaking. It took me two hours to go to the site and buy bread the other day.

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>>38759684
tried to jump off a bridge two weeks ago. was already on the railing but couldn't do it. fucking brain starts telling you that things aren't so bad even though they are. gave up and returned home feeling horrible. I wish I had jumped.

>>38759684
>Told myself if I didn't make all A's in my junior year of undergrad then I would kill myself; since I probably wouldn't get into medical school
>procrastinate and make one B
>procrastinate suicide attempt
>eventually get into medical school

Moral of the story: do what you know.

Yes. No one gave a shit. I hate humanity.

>>38759684
Tried hanging myself with a belt from my ceiling fan but the fan broke off the ceiling.

>>38759869
What caused your anxiety, anon?

>gun in my mouth
>I'm crying really loud
>dog walks in looking scared and confused
>I love my dog
>decide that as long as I love anything in this world then suicide is a bad decision
>slept on the floor next to my dog that night

>>38759684
>at military school
>actually doing quite well, never get yelled at, fly under the instructors' radar
>have complete breakdown in bedroom one night
>get bayonet off of training rifle that they stored in our room
>it's dull as shit but I keep trying to slit my wrists with it
>uppclassman hears me and basically carries me to school psychotherapist
>discharged, put in mental ward for two months
Good times

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>>38759684
>hold knife to neck
>push
>feel it sllightly popping through skin
>get scared
>hibernate