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>>38728515
God doesn't abandon people. People abandon God.

More music. Some applies to me personally, nostalgia makes me sad.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NqWcpEZ3GY0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G-Vg2YS-sFE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QWtsV50_-p4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=egY8rUpxqcE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tL_TFXbSnLY

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tfw nobody ever replies to your feels threads

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>>38729266
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jT0fIfiw7Sg
I hate when they tell me that I should be happy by myself when all I want in the world is to love someone as much as I would like to be loved. I already tried everything to fill the emptiness inside that is the lack of genuine affection, acceptation and emotional neglect. At this point, I don't think anybody else, not even me would be able to fix me.

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Bump.

Pic is a dog

I have a cyst on my back the size of a quarter and it feels bad. It hurts. I want to stab it with something and relieve the pressure but I don't have anything like a needle.
It's too deep to pop by squeezing. Impossible angle for a blade and that would probably just make it worse.
Wat should I do?

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>>38728515
>grow up in alcholic household
>rest of my family wasn't any better
>entire family seem to hate each other (aunts, cousins, siblings etc.)
>I actually have aspergers so growing up in all of this really fucked me up, I had nobody to go to
>only person that actually showed me love and care was my grandma
>I was shy around her because I wasn't really used to getting attention and care, also sperg
>she would take me to the store and buy ice cream and play on the swingset with me
>she also used my knit all the time and made mittens and socks for everyone she knew
>nicest person I've ever known
>when I got older she said she really wanted me to come live with her and grandpa on their farm
>the school I was starting was closer to their home so it made sense living there instead
>mom wouldn't let me but I didn't care too much at the time anyway
>whenever I met her she told me I should come and live with them but I never did
>I kinda stopped seeing her as the "tension" in our family got more severe becuase I was afraid of bumping into my aunts or cousins if I visited her
>time goes by and grandma gets cancer
>she barely has a month to live and she's only 68
>I didn't visit her at her deathbed becuase I was too scared
>she died at home in her bed and the only other person there was grandpa and my uncles wife, she held her hand when she died
>first time I cried in many years was at her funeral
>tension in our family has kinda gone down since her death 6 years ago
>nobody seem to visit her grave anymore
>I go there from time to time to clean it and tend the flowers
>my Chad grandpa seem to be over her
>he's close to 80 and he's banging all the neighbourhood women even half his age
>he doesn't even have a picture of grandma in his house
>I really miss my grandma

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2cdyBbS7rcI
I dont want to be alone anymore anons...

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>>38729536
also this was her favorite song, I think it's swedish or something and they played it at her funeral
I tear up instantly whenever I hear it

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5TpSBdP5K_w

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>>38729610
>So the years went by, I stayed the same
>And she began to drift away, I was left alone
>Still I waited for the day, when she'd say "i will always love you."