Psychological Issues #111

deep issues with authority
crushing loneliness

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Are you a licensed psychologist/psychiatrist?

>>38726812

Give me an example of issues you have with authority and how it plays out. The more details the better.

And use a name if you want me to remember you. I didn't put that requirement in the OP, but it's the tradition here.

>>38726826

Nope.

>>38726887
Well I'm my own enemy. Each time I try to set goals for myself, I rebel against them. I'm a justice warrior, I wanted to be a journalist to save the world... But I realised journalists are paid opinion writers, so the only way to get paid is suck the jews and kapital. Not for me.

I live in fear for my life, I dream of having a steady job, dream of security, settling. Tried to become a schoolteacher (civil servant position), but I couldn't stand to be the policeman crushing the children's personality. Looked into alternative schools, but even that, it's too authoritarian.

Have huge inner conflicts because dad was a narcissistic go-getter, and mom was a self-sacrificer.

Also I'm the ugly duckling, I always have unpopular opinions, I crave to be loved and respected, but I always play the devil's advocate. I'm brighter than lots of guys, but I see the girls going for them because I'm broke as fuck and always depressed. I can be a good friends though. I'm chasing old ideals. Doesn't make me happy though.

I noticed lots of famous poets from my cunt were sons of high military officers and commanders. I'm afraid my fate is being a wanderer. I'm exhausted though, and loneliness, as I mentioned, is crushing.

>>38726887
>Nope.
Then how the fuck are you diagnosing anons over the internet you retarded cunt?

>>38727018
not him.
legit psychologists and psychiatrists are full of shit, usually. They don't know what they're talking about. The wounded healer is the only one who knows.

>>38726998

All right, Andrew, that's a lot. Let's take things one at a time.

About authority, do you see any inherent value in there being an authority? Say, as a teacher for instance.

>>38727018
>Then how the fuck are you diagnosing anons over the internet you retarded cunt?

I'm working on getting a degree, however, and one thing I can tell you is that the program for that doesn't have much info on the things we deal with here. Not having a license doesn't mean I have no experience, practical and theoretical. The experience I have cannot be taught in a university.

I also know therapists, directly and indirectly, and having a license is far from a guarantee that you're in good hands. Judge by results.

I would have stopped a long time ago if it didn't work, but it does.

>>38727033

A lot of truth to this. One of the saddest experiences in life is telling a therapist about a condition they have no personal knowledge of. Not saying it's always required to make therapy work, but unless it's some very specific form of therapy, it will help to feel understood and accepted.

>>38726786
A few months ago I started on olanzapine (5mg per day) having smoked myself psychotic (synthetic cannabis, regular cannabis and tobacco).

I've quit smoking now. My last cigarette would've been a week ago. I've been feeling very bored. Stuff that used to entertain me no longer does, unless I'm with company. For example: I can only really enjoy TV with friends.

I stopped taking olanzapine since I no longer feel I need it. Second night in and I feel better. Should I stay the course or is it real risky to withdraw from olanzapine?

Also, can olanzapine cause anhedonia? Or is it most likely the nicotine withdrawals?

>>38727151
>olanzapine

Take my words for what they are here, when it comes to medication: it's only a guess.

For any decision you take, consult your psychiatrist first and foremost, so that whatever happens from those decisions can be supervised by him.

Yes, it's possible that medication increase your anhedonia, as many medications are intended to "calm down" your system, this may make you feel numb.

Nicotine withdrawal can be some of the most intense there is; I knew someone who found it easier to quit heroin than cigarettes. I guess it varies from person to person.

>>38727151
>I stopped taking olanzapine since I no longer feel I need it.

While I've quit stuff on my own, if you have a doctor (a psychiatrist), it'd be better to consult them first, especially if the problem is psychotic in nature.

If you feel better, though, it may be a good thing. Doing both things at once may not be all that good of an idea, though. Take it easy!

>>38727105
>Say, as a teacher for instance.
Yeah lots of kids need authority and discipline. Esp. those who don't get it at home. I loved the idea of becoming a good father figure for the kids. But you have to respect the national curriculum, so you're bound to be an asshole to some kids.

Yeah authority can be nice. I loved to read about the 1930's spanish war, where the anarchists were fighting the fascists. Some anarchists have become great war leader, like Buenaventura Durruti https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Durruti_Column. Among anarchist, a war commander was temporary, and he showed the example, instead of just sending his troops to death.

I'm currently trying to become a programmer, but either it's not for me, or I'm too goddam lazy.

I don't really care about "being an authority". If I git good at something and earn respect, ok, I'll have authority. oh btw, I've tried to remember a quote by F. Scott Fitzgerald. "He [Hemingway] has the authority of success. I have the authority of failure".

The authority of failure... That's all me. The world is shit and evil... I actually tried to get into a school for child protection. But they shit on the wounded healer. They smelled issues with authority from afar, especially a Lacanian psychoanalyst in the jury, they smelled bad sheep... Then I aimed for more alternative child protection schools, but I didn't have the money. Meh, kinda aporetical post, s'rry.

>>38727223
>But you have to respect the national curriculum, so you're bound to be an asshole to some kids.

As much as they must respect your authority, you too have to respect the authority of those above you, those who pay you, in fact.

>>38727223
>I don't really care about "being an authority". If I git good at something and earn respect, ok, I'll have authority. oh btw, I've tried to remember a quote by F. Scott Fitzgerald. "He [Hemingway] has the authority of success. I have the authority of failure".

I've studied Hemingway quite a bit. Here, however, it's a different type of authority, as you know.

>Lacanian psychoanalyst
>scary

Off the bat, I'm wondering how much of that is projection, meaning, are you 100% sure people just smell it in you without you giving signs of just that?

Let's see some concrete obstacles. What in the national curriculum was a problem to you?

>>38727299
>What in the national curriculum was a problem to you?
It doesn't really matter, it's just that I wanted to be a psychologist, not a schoolteacher. As a schoolteacher, I couldn't have stood disciplinging children like me, lashing out precisely because they were disciplined too much at home. But while training to become a school teacher is a bit like the military (it's state-funded here), becoming a psychologist, you have to have the means to pay it yourself.

>how much of that is projection, meaning, are you 100% sure people just smell it in you without you giving signs of just that?
Well, I tried to get into those schools at 29, and when they asked me about my CV (resume), I had to talk about a long stream of "failures" and doing a different thing every year if not NEETing. So I tried to bullshit them, but they were pretty aggressive, so eventually I dropped the honesty card, I told them about my personality, my childhood, how I had overcome lots of violence and everything. But they were priviledged bitches who didn't want someone with a past. I was just putting forward what I had accomplished, to free myself of difficult stuff, but all they wrote down was "difficult stuff". Really awful bitches. I talked with a girl later, much younger than me, a bit shy, and she told me they asked her, completely out of the blue, "are you a virgin?". wtf does this have to do with becoming an educator? In France we have an awful tradition of "competitive exams" known for the sadism of the juries. If your profile is blank, you're in, if you have a long history, you're out. And desu, Lacan is full of shit. The psychoanalyst couldn't even quote him properly. She was just a fangirl.

Oh yeah, I remember now. I remember I told them that my stream of "failures" could be explained by my past search for "purity". That I had had a "tough father", not pure, and as a reaction I had searched for purity too much. But now (then), with maturity, I had questioned that search for purity,

>>38727469
>cont.
and was looking more for equilibrium and "souplesse" (resiliency?). That's when the psychoanalyst started giving me bogus Lacan quotes about purity.

Now back to the point, I didn't really fail that entrance exam, but at least they succeeded in putting me into a rage, and as they were fucking late in the schedule, I had to go to the group roleplay test right after, and I was so furious I didn't go. (the group test is where your personality inside a group is most studied by the jury, and furious as I was, I thought I didn't have a chance)

sorry for the long posts/difficult case, have to go to sleep anyway, but keeping the tab, I'd see a reply tomorrow even if the thread is dead. thx anyway.

>>38727516
Your story is really interesting. Thank you for telling it, I'm sure I will understand a lot of things.

>>38727469
>It doesn't really matter,

It does in that it would enable me to have a more precise understanding of the issue.

>>38727469
>becoming a psychologist, you have to have the means to pay it yourself.

So it's still possible, right? You'd have to get a job in the meantime and then you can study for that.

>>38727469
>So I tried to bullshit them, but they were pretty aggressive

They probably sensed the bullshit and went for it. It wasn't gratuitous.

>>38727469
>But they were priviledged bitches who didn't want someone with a past.

Have you tried seeing things from their end? They meet someone who comes to get a job with them, and the first thing you do is try to bullshit them. Would you hire someone and give them your trust if the first thing they did was lie to you? You don't need to be privileged to be more than partial to people who lie.

>>38727469
>"are you a virgin?". wtf does this have to do with becoming an educator?

If true, that is indeed more than weird. Was this a religious thing? If she had no ring and they wanted to know about things like that, it could be some kind of explanation, but it remains outside decency, clearly.

>In France we have an awful tradition of "competitive exams" known for the sadism of the juries

Le concours !

Yeah, it's pretty fucking stupid too.

Lacan is indeed shit, as most of psychoanalysis was.

I do think going too far in psychological issues during a job interview is best avoided, as they're only there to see whether you'd do the job well, but they probably led you there.

Some mentally unstable people get jobs where they can act like sadists with power, that's an absolute thing. Don't feel too responsible for what happened.

>>38727516
>Andrew J. Cairns
>Therapy?

Pretty funny.

>>38727516
>and was looking more for equilibrium and "souplesse" (resiliency?).

Flexibility.

>>38727516
>group roleplay test right after, and I was so furious I didn't go. (the group test is where your personality inside a group is most studied by the jury,

I can't do those, play pretend never works for me. Acting isn't the same as doing a job, to me. I'm not an actor.

I've stopped taking all of my medication cold turkey (antidepressants) and I've been (obviously) feeling more sad because of this. But I hate the feeling of being medicated and feeling emotionally numb all the time. Any ways to deal with feeling sad without drugs?

>>38727686
>Any ways to deal with feeling sad without drugs?

Yes. My general guideline about medication is that unless your condition requires it, then you're better off not using meds.

Case in point: schizophrenia, use meds; Borderline, don't.

You need to take a name and describe your symptoms.

>>38727706

I've been diagnosed with depression, I have some current symptoms associated with it (hopelessness, sadness, apathy, loss of interest in things, insomnia)

I've had more in the past but they've been resolved or just don't show up as much.

>>38727808

All right. Sam, you need to know that I view depression as mainly a symptom and not a condition, so to speak, because depression is a reaction to something and most other conditions include it, like, almost everything where the person is conscious of their problem (without necessarily knowing why it's happening).

Do you know why you're depressed?

>>38727840
I have absolutely no idea why I'm depressed. It seems to happen comepletely randomly

>>38727686
> Any ways to deal with feeling sad without drugs?

Yes! Exercise is huge. Find some form of physical activity that you like and do it it every day you possibly can. Stop eating processed junk food. Eat real food. Consider meditation. Cultivate a healthy social life with people you trust who care about you. Supplements for depression: SAMe, 5-HTP, St. John's Wort, Cod Liver Oil.

>>38727925
Thanks Anon, I just really hate the feeling of being so dependent on drugs, it drives me up the wall.

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>>38727874

All right. Can you give me more details on your symptoms? Do you experience panic attacks? How does your mood change? Do you have sleeping issues? Do you use substances to regular yourself?

Do others in your family have any mental illness of any kind?

>>38727925

Apart from the very last part, I agree with all of this. Working out is one thing that helped me a lot, for various reasons.

Here's the guide I used to share.

>>38727963

A good work out will have a direct effect on your mind, I swear. For many months, I worked out more for my mind than for my body. It gave me more peace for 10 hours after the effort, and in the long run, it really helps as well.

It can't do much against schizophrenia, but it can't hurt either; just as an example.

>>38726786
Hey Nick

A thread or two ago i posted, and you asked me a question and i kind of just disappeared, i fell asleep at my desk writing the response and i couldn't post most of today or yesterday due to my date

The question was something along the lines of
>i wonder how you react to being loved
or feel to being loved, something along those lines.

If you want to continue chatting about this let me know, i'll understand if you don't want to and stick to the threads fitness theme though.

>>38728078
>If you want to continue chatting about this let me know,

I do!

>>38727973
General hopelessness (I'll never amount to anything, why bother my life will turn to shit soon anyway, etc)
I'll feel sad randomly, for sometimes no reason at all, I can also get irritated pretty easily too.
Sometimes I just feel complete apathy, it's like I don't feel a thing.
I've lost interest in things (hobbies) that I used to happily, and just lost interest in trying to do well in anything I do.
I have some sleeping issues, I usually can't get to sleep (I don't have electronics around)
I don't do any drugs.

There's multiple family members that are bipolar (diagnosed and medicated)

>>38728124

Do this test, it's good. I've compared it with my own official tests from my own therapy and they check out very well. Virtually the same questions.

https://www.depression-anxiety-stress-test.org/take-the-test.html

I also would like to know how long the cycles of your people last, those with bipolar.

>>38728121
okie dokie.

Well, when my father told me he loved me, i just told him i did as well. I don't think i actually did, it was more of a reaction response then a genuine one, at one point just thinking about him dying or it being brought up in conversation would bring me to tears, after a while it stopped.

I would talk to my father pretty horribly sometimes, i never felt bad when i was doing it either. I never felt bad afterwards, i was just worried he too was going to kick me out of home, otherwise i would have been fine.

It's a really weird thing, he treated me perfectly (besides sometimes yelling at me 'theirs something seriously mentally wrong with you kid i swear') yet i still treated him like shit.

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>>38728165
I'm unsure of the exact cycles since I don't live with them nor talk to them about their bipolar disorder

>>38728185
>'theirs something seriously mentally wrong with you kid i swear') yet i still treated him like shit.

What made him say that?

Give me examples of you treating him like shit.

>>38728280

Yeah, that's a mighty depression you got there. Really bad one.

Do you know if your people can change moods in a single day? Can you tell which cycle they're in when you meet?

>>38728296
There were times where i hit my little brother, or i spoke to him real nasty or just straight up ignored him and he would scold me for it and say that infamous line of his.

I only ever treated him bad by speaking to him like a piece of shit, he said i always come off as really smart-assey and how i'm going to get my head kicked in one day. I never did anything physical with him.

I think the reason he said those things (and i came to this conclusion myself, he's never verified it when i brought it up in argument) is that he needs something to blame it on, and he doesn't want to pick the option where his kid is just an ass hole who doesn't care about anyone.

>>38728314
Yes, when I meet up for an extended time I can definitely tell they CAN change moods in a single day, but usually they seem to be in one.

I can't tell exactly what cycle theyre in if they haven't changed in a few days but I do know if there is a change if they do switch cycles.

>>38728356

Try this:

https://psychology-tools.com/empathy-quotient/

Disregard the autism bit.

>>38728378
>I can definitely tell they CAN change moods in a single day,

Real bipolar lasts for weeks at the very least, and months more usually. It's not bipolar, it's Borderline, a completely different condition, but often mixed up. I have no idea how licensed therapists confuse the two, but I see it being confused all the time. It's literally as though they can't read a simple description.

To nail it further, if their moods change due to actual events, then 100% Borderline and not bipolar. Medication won't help them, it's not the same disorder at all.

Being raised by Borderliners is guaranteed having an effect on you.

Tell me how you feel about your parents and why.

>>38728412
I feel pretty positively about them, my dad and I don't get along but we don't hate each other, we both are control freaks and want things to be done our way. Other than that, it's very positive with both my mother and father

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>tfw Nick comes earlier so that no regulars will expect the thread to be up
>devilish

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>>38728412
Probably not great, all things considered.

>>38728478

Not a bad score compared to the general population here, but yes, severe empathy deficit.

Don't blame it on autism or anything else, it's too soon to know, but that would explain your behaviour as a kid. The only question now is whether you really were born this way or whether you became that way as a defense mechanism. Both exist.

Do you remember repressing your emotions as a child? To avoid being punished, mocked, or anything?

>>38728504
I wouldn't tell me mother if something was wrong, usually because she never cared or took any notice, OR because she would make a huge fucking deal out of it and i would hate her for it.

My dad would sometimes mention how i was such an amazing little boy, i have videos of and i was really caring, used all my manners and wasn't really a hassle on my parent(s).

I do remember a few times where i didn't mention something that had really affected me, due to fear of punishment/embarrassment it was always a complaint of my parents i never told them anything that was going on in 'my world' as they called it.

>>38728545
>usually because she never cared or took any notice, OR because she would make a huge fucking deal out of it and i would hate her for it.

Huge red flag here. It's like the worst of both worlds. This may have forced you to feel less since you knew expressing that only meant problems.

>>38728545
>i never told them anything that was going on in 'my world' as they called it.

Another red flag, and I remember the same thing from my own parents.

>your world
>really our giving up on you little Anon

My parents always made everything "mine" when it came problems. It wasn't that they were abnormal cunts who did everything wrong, no, it was that *I* was this and that, in *my* world. I too learned not to share with them quickly enough.

How come you didn't resort to your father for when something was wrong?

>>38728600
My mother and father 'officially' split when i was 13, but they had moved into separate houses before that when i was 11 , i got stuck with mum.I always felt like me and my father didn't have anywhere NEAR as strong a connection as he does with my little brother. They both like cars for example, i don't care for them. In my early years i never saw exercise or the outdoors as friendly where he was always yelling at my brother to get.

I hate to self diagnose, but i do think something went wrong somewhere throughout the years, it doesn't make sense the such staggering differences between my personality now and when i was <10

>>38728642

What happened after age 10? Did you have many friends, relationships?

>>38728675
It was more a number i threw out then anything meaningful, it's a bit before my high-school years.

I never really had friends in primary school, i moved around to what i think ended up being a change of school every 1-2 years, so friendships never lasted.

I probably could have salvaged that in high-school, but within the first week i already completely ruined all chance of having a positive social standing.

I've never had a '''relationship''', i have had sex, i don't seek partners long time because it's not something that I've *ever* felt like i wanted.

>>38728749
>I probably could have salvaged that in high-school, but within the first week i already completely ruined all chance of having a positive social standing.

Details on that.

>>38728749
>I've never had a '''relationship''', i have had sex,

And that.

>>38728412
My empathy quotient is 21. But I don't have any problems with making new friends or even help who has a problem.
What the fuck? This really surprised me. I've just done the test because I was curious.

>>38726786
I'm in two minds (kek) about the diagnosis thing. It could prove counter-productive potentially since it could, in the eyes of newcomers, reduce people to their diagnoses - and in some cases the diagnosees might be inclined to play up to them/ limit their self-perception.

>>38728783
>first details
It was the first week of high school, in Australia you're 12-13 when you first go, i'm in french and this girl keeps looking at me with a bad face and flipping me off. She throws something at me and the teacher thinks i did something wrong, and i get kicked out of class.
This is probably where i mention when i was younger i had a really bad temper, i have it in control most of the time now but it still flares up when people are fucking stupid.
Long story short, on my way out of the classroom i punch her in the head and flip the table onto her. I get suspended for a week and no-one ever speaks to me unless they're forced into a group activity with me (besides the one kid who had literal autism that i was friends with, i liked him)

>second details
I don't really know what to say, I've had sex just no boyfriend girlfriend stuff, i don't get lonely and I've never had a crush except for once when i was in 4th grade and there was a girl i liked (i still dream about her sometimes, actually)


I feel like i'm shitting up the thread, is it supposed to be moving this slow?

>>38728802
>But I don't have any problems with making new friends or even help who has a problem.
>What the fuck? This really surprised me. I've just done the test because I was curious.

Low empathy doesn't mean you can't be social or don't like to help. Motives may vary, though.

Maybe you make friends for very clear reasons known to you, and same with helping.

>I like cars, so I'll befriend this guy who likes cars
>I will help so if I ever need help, I will be helped in return

Maybe.

>>38726826
I'm an actual licensed psychologist and I can tell you this Nick fellow is 100% full of shit. I shudder to think that depressed/suicidal posters would follow his terrible advice, thinking he has some sort of expertise. He does not. He's a self-important little twerp.

Good morning, Nick. I don't know if it's morning where you are but you know what I mean.

>>38728870
>>I like cars, so I'll befriend this guy who likes cars
>>I will help so if I ever need help, I will be helped in return
Can relate to this, although I tend to help just because it's the right thing to do, and because I'll regret it in retrospect if I don't. For example, on the bus the other day the driver came up the stairs to force a passenger to get off a few stops earlier that his ticket indicated. I feel confident that this was because of racism. A few moments too late I realised that I should have stepped in and paid the excess. But at that point he was already off the bus. I've had that at the back of my mind for almost 3 weeks.

>>38728849
>She throws something at me and the teacher thinks i did something wrong, and i get kicked out of class.

Amazing. This is sexism at work. I never assume girls can do no wrong, because I actually pay attention (I'm a teacher).

>>38728849
>Long story short, on my way out of the classroom i punch her in the head and flip the table onto her.

Fuuuuuuu...That's brutal. Are you aware of just how extreme this is? Not saying you weren't slighted unfairly, but I need to know if you realise just how extreme that was.

>>38728849
>I get suspended for a week and no-one ever speaks to me

Yeah, I can imagine they were scared of you. I also imagine nobody threw anything at you ever again.

>>38728849
>I don't really know what to say, I've had sex

You make it sound like it's easier to get sex than to buy a sandwich,

>>38728849
>I feel like i'm shitting up the thread, is it supposed to be moving this slow?

The thread isn't up at this time normally. I one-upped everyone else. I've been devilish. Don't worry about the thread, nobody looks at the thread before posting, they just post. Don't worry. You're not shitting up anything.

>>38728888
>I can tell you this Nick fellow is 100% full of shit.

Here's a bet: I will ask you for a concrete example of "shit" and you won't give one for the excuse of your choice.

If it's 100%, any piece of advise should do, so if you don't pick one, I'll pick one myself, and I'll see you not be able to disagree. Play wisely.

>>38728906

Hello Oscar!

>>38728926

Trade/trust.

>>38728870
I have made every kind of friend, even friends who were used to smoke and act like edgy teens in the past.

I help because I like to help and it's a question of morality: as an Albanian, my parents have a really severe doctrine of socializing, friends are very important and you must always help, friend or not.
When I was a child, I really enjoyed when a nice person helped me or I helped someone. So I grew up thinking that helping is so important: in fact, I always try to find a way to help someone, even if I know that I'm not the right person to ask some kind of help.

I'm and I was way more friendly than my "normie" friends at school who (an example) hated and still now hate people who smoke cigs, etc. This is just an example, obviously.
I live in Italy, a very social country ( https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=y0p43g-UFHY ), and my parents are Albanian so they educated me as an Albanian, and Albanians are a bit more social than Italians... So I grew up with a social skill to make every kind of friend without having real problems with what kind of person he/she was.

>>38728975
>Yeah, I can imagine they were scared of you. I also imagine nobody threw anything at you ever again.

There were a couple of guys who tried to start shit, act big and what not, it never lasted very long though.

>Fuuuuuuu...That's brutal. Are you aware of just how extreme this is? Not saying you weren't slighted unfairly, but I need to know if you realise just how extreme that was.

I mean, i suppose but not really. I was pretty angry, I've done worse things to people who have done less, but she was a bitch and deserved it.

>You make it sound like it's easier to get sex than to buy a sandwich,
I don't mean it like that- but it is easy to allude to wanting a relationship, then after doing the dirty ghosting said person or just flat out telling them you want a no-strings-attached deal (I've done both, choose the latter if you can)

>>38729031
>I help because I like to help and it's a question of morality: as an Albanian, my parents have a really severe doctrine of socializing, friends are very important and you must always help, friend or not.

That's great, actually.

>>38729031
>Albanians are a bit more social than Italians...

Is that even possible?

>>38729025
Not sur eI follow. In the case of the bus guy there would have been neither trade nor trust.

>>38729140

Not for that. This is more related to the eating contest and wrestling mania, I think.

>>38729152
Hm? How so? Performance/ the perceptions of others?

>>38729199
>Hm? How so? Performance/ the perceptions of others?

Possibly. You're very eager to intervene socially where most people would rather not; in this case, you could be the noble man who defends the minority against injustice. What makes me think it's this more than anything else is that you probably don't like minorities all that much yourself. I could be wrong.

>>38729099
>That's great, actually.
So, why my empathy quotient is 21? I can't understand this.

>Is it even possible?
Yes, because Italians are losing all their traditions. Every city in the world sponsors the tourism showing their own language, Rome doesn't: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Wr2YJoQeYsE

Italian teens start acting like they have no country, they don't even know the difference between "State" and "Nation", I know it because it is always difficult to me explaining new-gen Italians why Kosovo is Albanian.
And they start acting edgy and cringe because it is trendy. Globalization erased Italian traditions but not Albanian traditions, because we don't even have a real market: my uncle make his own food and all the water he uses comes from a source near his home, this is an example. Globalization exist thank to the markets, but where markets can't arrive, there is no globalization.

>>38729225
Hm, yeah that sounds fairly accurate. I suppose I missed out on a chance to 'do good' rather than caring for the man. Almost like I imagine someone is keeping score.

>>38729292
>So, why my empathy quotient is 21? I can't understand this.

Suppose you see someone fall and hurt themselves, in a video, do you feel anything in your own body?

Interesting comment on Italy and globalisation. I'm surprised, I would have imagined Italians to be more about traditions than that.

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>>38729308

That is what I imagined.

>Nick strikes again

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>>38729352
It is quite uncanny. You're on the money with startling frequency. Have a Pepe.

https://youtu.be/47iXIEkNYvM

Sharing this musical moment with you. Pretty trippy video too.

>>38729383

I'm gitting gud.

Thanks for Pepe.

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Currently listenin'
https://soundcloud.com/d41n/melting

feels of urban city night-life

Isn't that good enough though? The result is that more good being done, which serves my general idea that it's important to increase the net good in the world. I may feel nothing for the person but it appeals to me on principle.

>>38729460

There's no good enough or not good enough. It would have been a good thing, yes, provided there was a real injustice being done, of course.

The result is more good, yes. The point is that your motives are different.

Not sure you would help a man if your help was noticed by nobody, not even the man you helped, and no God.

>>38729335
>Do you feel anything in your own body?

I think anything. But when I was a child, I always watched with my family an humor Tv program called "Paperissima" where was common to see and laugh to a kid who slipped off etc. Paperissima was so popular in Italy that evryone remembers it still today.

Maybe watching Paperissima when I was so young could have influenced me today? I rarely feel something in my own body when I see someone who hurt him/herself.

>>38729513
But I don't believe in a God particularly. It's the principle not the deity. More about a cosmic balance. I'm not doing it for a reward. You could argue that I was trying to exercise control though. Over the hue of the collective soul.

>>38729520

The same show was popular in France, so I watched it too. I felt less back then, and more now. If someone hurts themselves, I will feel a lot in my lower belly area and legs, depending on where the person gets hurt, but it's a lot, I may move in reaction to it, as well.

I don't think that show influenced you.

My father would laugh so hard at people hurting themselves that he would cry tears of laughter. I don't know anyone who has such a reaction to people getting hurt.

>>38729544

I think most things you do are heavily based on you.

>>38729577
Well if I can make the world a better place, it's a better place for me. You're right though. I cannot imagine them not being. Solipsism and all that.

Hello everyone.

Just popping in to say hi.

>>38729635
Hi Dan. Having a good Sunday?

>>38729292
>explaining new-gen Italians why Kosovo is Albanian.
>implying it isn't serbian

Justifying Kosovo being taken from Serbia is the same as justifying eastern Ukraine being taken from Ukraine.

>>38726786

I've been diagnosed as clinically depressed (multiple deaths of loved ones which range from natural to one being shot point blank and burned alive).
I've lost everything and will soon be cutting off my only family member soon.
Zero motivation, can't remember things, can't socialize and when I'm alone I have auditory hallucinations.
I have a wife but I isolate myself to the point that it doesn't seem like I'm really there.
Issues sleeping, haven't ate in a couple of days and picked up smoking cigarettes again.

I feel like a train wreck, tried going to therapy but I don't need to vent/hear how people have it worse. I've been on a lot of anti depressants but nothing has worked. (On and off since 15, now 30 years old)

Been suicidal lately, hung myself but the bar broke and wife found me a couple of months ago which landed me a psych visit that didn't fix anything. Wife thinks I should get disability since I've been in and out of psych wards the past couple of years but my pride won't let me do it.
Life is passing me by and it isn't getting any better. I'm to the point where I'm debating on divorcing her so she doesn't have to deal with me and my issues.

Sorry if this reads badly but I haven't slept yet, thank you to whoever reads.

>>38729633
>You're right though. I cannot imagine them not being. Solipsism and all that.

I think object permanence is the issue here: if reality is unsure, then so are other people.

>>38729653
Yeah, pretty good. Spent most of the day driving buses around town, which sounds pretty autistic obviously. But I've found out it's easier for me to focus on language learning when I'm in a bus. If I'm sitting in my room, it's like sensory deprivation and very soon I get tired of it, but when I'm in a bus, whenever I look out of the window I see something new which refreshes me and makes it easier to focus.

How about you?

>>38729729
Got up fairly recently. Playing some Tekken. Probably ought to do some housework and go to the shops. If I'm not careful everything will close. Just not very motivated.

>>38729635

Hello Dan!

Nice trips in the thread number btw Nick

>>38729686
>I feel like a train wreck, tried going to therapy but I don't need to vent/hear how people have it worse.

Why would you hear that? Did your therapist belittle your issues?

>>38729824
Hey Nick, how are you?

>>38729757
I always try to do the chores in the morning because then whole day feels much better, that's just me though.

>>38729729
>Spent most of the day driving buses around town,

So you drive buses, for free, while learning languages? That's hardcore.

Hey Dan, you probably missed my message last night. I started the practice thing too, and it is hard. Even the basic checks took me like 20 moves sometimes, sometimes more. And the rest is all new to me, so I'm super happy because now I know how I can improve my chess.

I will have to train even those basic checks to git gud.

>>38729840

Kek be praised.

>>38729862

Sore all over, the good way. From yesterday's work out, which was intense.

>>38729841

She tried to compare our lives and I let her know that it isn't a tragedy competition then I stopped seeing her.

>>38729862
Could do the vacuuming but don't want to disturb catto

>>38729894
Good call. Fuck her.

>>38729894
>She tried to compare our lives

What the fuck... I'd like to know more about that, because that's just fucked up. She talked about her personal life in comparison to yours???

What you went through is heavy as fuck, and anyone's personal issues aren't to be "measured" objectively, because it's all about how you're affected. Someone can be affected more by something objectively "less", so it doesn't matter.

Is she fucked in the head or what?

>>38729901

I know those feels, man. I feel horrid vacuuming early morning due to my place's walls being paper thin.

>>38729865
>So you drive buses, for free, while learning languages? That's hardcore.
It's not hardcore (I have a permit so I can ride as much as I want). It's just that if I had to spend three hours sitting in my room and doing vocab drills I'd get probably get insane (or more than I am anyways) but if I have fresh stimuli, things to look at, it's so much easier. Only problem is the autistic undertone in this activity.

>And the rest is all new to me, so I'm super happy because now I know how I can improve my chess.
Yeah usually the last one of every kind is the most difficult and sometimes I can spend 10 minutes looking at the board not being to figure out the 6 moves to do the checkmate and so I have to get a hint.

On the other hand I found out that most of these checkmate patterns I would never consider because it means losing valuable figures although winning. That's probably a huge limitation to my game, because I tend to be overly cautious about losing figures.

>>38729335
>Do you feel anything in your own body?

I think anything. But when I was a child, I always watched with my family an humor Tv program called "Paperissima" where was common to see and laugh to a kid who slipped off etc. Paperissima was so popular in Italy that evryone remembers it still today.

Maybe watching Paperissima when I was so young could have influenced me today? I rarely feel something in my own body when I see someone who hurt him/herself.

Oregonal comment

>>38729921
I hate living in a place like that. Used to live in this old apartment with a guy below who would bang on the ceiling whenever the TV was on. Then he'd start using his wallbag for an hour which shook the house, out of spite. Fuck that place.

>>38729901
All is good then. Having a clean room has lower priority than undisturbed catto. Kinda surprised you're a cat person to be honest. I always though you would highly value dogs. After all they are loyal, resilient, tenacious and can get extremely aggressive very fast.

>>38729884
>Sore all over, the good way. From yesterday's work out, which was intense.
DOMS are surprisingly satisfying. Gotta give you that.

>>38729925
>It's not hardcore (I have a permit so I can ride as much as I want). It's just that if I had to spend three hours sitting in my room and doing vocab drills I'd get probably get insane (or more than I am anyways) but if I have fresh stimuli, things to look at, it's so much easier. Only problem is the autistic undertone in this activity.

But... is this your bus? Are you a bus-driver on the weekends?

>>38729925
>Yeah usually the last one of every kind is the most difficult and sometimes I can spend 10 minutes looking at the board not being to figure out the 6 moves to do the checkmate and so I have to get a hint.

The more moves, the harder it is. I frequently get hints too when I'm just moving pieces at random because I don't see how to get to the check. It's how we learn.

>>38729925
>On the other hand I found out that most of these checkmate patterns I would never consider because it means losing valuable figures although winning.

Same! These are moves I never make for that reason, and also because I'd never even think there could be a mating opportunity there.

>>38729554
I'm still not understanding why the result of that test was 21, lmao.
Do you know? Let's forget that.

>>38729940
>I think anything.

Do you mean nothing?

I think you've posted that already.

>>38729959
I do prefer cats, but I've often thought something like a mastiff would be cool. A utile animal that wasn't too excitable. Only my gf would probably try to fuck it and we don't have the space anyway. I know she's into dogs so wouldn't trust her with one. Don't want to get cucked by Fido while I'm at work.

So I'm on a road trip with my family for a week so far, we're currently staying at this appartment with only 3 rooms with 6 people, so there is always someone in a room. Problem is I go fucking crazy when I don't get my lone time and they don't know that and neither do I want anyone to know. Currently locked myself up in the bathroom and got no clue on what to do, any advice?

>>38729959
>DOMS are surprisingly satisfying. Gotta give you that.

Yep. Good stuff. Not too painful, unless it's from squats.

>>38729974

It could be for the same reasons as Facet: you do those things for other motives than empathy.

>>38729667
Kosovo can't be Serbian, it's impossible.
The only Serbians in Kosovo live in the south because the government of Serbia forced its own citizens to migrate to the south of Kosovo just for strategic needs.

Kosovo was officially Albanian before 1918.

Anyway, I'm afraid I can't talk about it here: if you want, we can discuss on Telegram or on /pol/.

>>38729917

She told me about her husband leaving and her dad having ptsd and holding a gun to the family. It was brutal but I kept a straight face. Kept telling me normie shit about going out, making friends and all will be sunshine and lollipops. Even told my wife she should see a therapist since in her words "I'm a lost cause and I've completely given up". My last words to her were "The way you analyze and rationalize is why you are alone and people have been institutionalized in your care"

>>38729973
>But... is this your bus? Are you a bus-driver on the weekends?
It's public transport. I probably should have said that first.

>Same! These are moves I never make for that reason, and also because I'd never even think there could be a mating opportunity there.
I wonder how much can you remember of if doing these exercises will help you recognize the same situation with different table. I'll probably do all the exercises, then reset and do them again until I can reliably detect them.

>I frequently get hints too when I'm just moving pieces at random because I don't see how to get to the check. It's how we learn.
Yeah I try not to move figures at random, I think that's next to useless, you're better off getting the hint.

>>38729986
>Only my gf would probably try to fuck it and we don't have the space anyway. I know she's into dogs so wouldn't trust her with one. Don't want to get cucked by Fido while I'm at work.
Well this escalated pretty quickly.

so i feel kinda bad about the other day. i feel like i just popped in and belittled other peoples views and then just dropped of in the middle of the discussion.
i dont really feel like resuming the religious talk, it just turns me into a hater that i dont want to be. part of me cant stay by those opinions either.
however i'd like to answer one question from after i left.

>>no feels, no problems
>how does one do that?

as soon as something comes up that makes you feel, you ignore it and think of something else or do something else. sometimes it's enough to just look away. sometimes you need to replace it with something that gives you other powerful feels. like imagining life with super powers, playing vidya or watch some porn.
dont feel bad and you dont have a problem, simple as that!

Oh yeah, safe to say I didn't like the new planet of the apes movie.

They talk now, which lost its real coolness factor it had in it the second ceaser said anything besides that "NO" from the first movie.

>>38730005
>Kosovo was officially Albanian before 1918.
So? It's not anymore. Just because some land belonged to another nation in the past doesn't mean shit. Would you also say that Latvia, Lithuania and Estonia are Russian?

>>38730056

Evolution, my man. Can't keep those damned dirty apes down.

>>38729980
Yeah, sorry, I mean nothing.

There was a problem with the app.

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>>38730020
>Tfw cucked by Rex Thunderknot
Holy shit why the fuck wasn't that original?

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>>38729986

Ironically, Fido means faith, as in faithful.

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>>38726786
>tripfag
>"not a psychologist"
>some misaki ass nigga trying to compensate for something

Stop falling for (((their))) lies you fucknuts. Go to an actual psychologist and get the fuck out of r9k if you actually want to get better. Or, keep on jerking your dick to traps or reading green texts.

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>>38730080
Yaay I got a macro!

>>38729994

Tell them you need time on your own. If you need an excuse, make up something like daily meditation or something.

>>38729998
>It could be

I think that the test isn't so reliable. https://www.ted.com/talks/jon_ronson_strange_answers_to_the_psychopath_test/up-next

Anyway, thank you for your patience and help.

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>>38730095
>Don't fall for free Jews when you should be paying the Jews

>>38730095
I've talked to a real psychologist, it isn't same as posting anonymously on a mastiff albanian breeding board.

Also, Nick. Do you think if you're here you can 'get better'? Or at least 'get normal'? My father used to hope I'd snap out of whatever I have and be a good kid again.

>>38730014
>She told me about her husband leaving and her dad having ptsd and holding a gun to the family.

How did this happen? Sometimes a therapist will say personal stuff, but usually when there's a very good reason. What was her reason?

>I lived tough things too

isn't good enough. Mine only shares personal things when it's a ridiculous detail, like, "I quite like country music," and such, but never her own trauma. My guess is she's been assaulted as a child but she'd never tell me.

>>38730141
You could ask her outright. Or try to coax it out of her by triggering her. I know you wouldn't do that, but I'm just saying you probably could.

Here's a question: if you had time rewind powers, would you?

>>38730065
Do you know the difference between nation and state? Are you trolling me? Latvia, Lithuania and Estonia have never been Russian, nationally thinking. Idem Kosovo: it has never been really Serbian, maybe Serbia had those lands but the population, the culture, the music, the language was and is Albanian.

Currently I'm writing from Vlore, Albany. Do you know where is from the taxist who brought us from Tirana to Vlore? He is from Kosovo, but he talks Albanian, he eats Albanian, he listen to Albanian music, he is Albanian. More than 80% of Kosovo population is Albanian

>>38730095

>paying a psych to kiss your emotional boo boo and keep coming back for a bill

It's a revolving door, how many psychs have told you that you're cured and don't need their services.

>not taking r9k at face value

Common sense dictates that most of the shit posted here doesn't apply to the real world and should be seen as entertainment.

.......The goy are onto you, Nick!

>>38730020
>I wonder how much can you remember of if doing these exercises will help you recognize the same situation with different table. I'll probably do all the exercises, then reset and do them again until I can reliably detect them.

Oh, some easily, most not at all until I redo the whole practice session, which I will. Maybe redoing the same one several times until those patterns stick. Just like syntax from another language. The purpose is that these patterns stick out to me in a real game. I believe that's doable but will require practice.

>>38730020
>Yeah I try not to move figures at random, I think that's next to useless, you're better off getting the hint.

'Zactly.

>>38730042
>i dont really feel like resuming the religious talk, it just turns me into a hater that i dont want to be. part of me cant stay by those opinions either.

I don't even remember. I remember Facet dropped the ball on me and my apologetics.

>>38730042
>dont feel bad and you dont have a problem, simple as that!

That's the root of most mental disorders that come from what you do and how you think. It's simple, but shit. Process these emotions, or you will pay a heavy price.

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>>38730202
how many psychs have told you that you're cured and don't need their services
Hate that feel desu

>>38730095

Half the members go to therapy, or would if they could affford it.

(((poltard)))

>>38730115
>I think that the test isn't so reliable

It is. In our experience here, it really is.

>>38730114
Aight, guess I'll just use some bs to get a free room

>>38730132

You can get better yes. Here or elsewhere. Here is a starting point. It's the only thread I'm in on this board. It helps to cut the excuses and the BS. A support group is helpful to have.

It also helps to listen to silly happy music:

https://youtu.be/8kzi96BN-yw

>>38730141

I'm guessing she was trying to get me to understand that traumatic things happen but it was over the line for me since I calmly explained that I was just giving backstory. It became a contest of "woe is me" to her and in the end made me feel like she wasn't the right fit. (She had done this multiple sessions to the point of where I felt I was listening to her vent and analyzing her life)

>>38730300
You like music alot, Nick?

Do you play an instrument?

>>38730184
>More than 80% of Kosovo population is Albanian
So? Just because some of "your" people live somewhere doesn't give you the right to take another countries land (and don't give me shit about historical, it's been almost a 100 years since 1918).

Do you think Harghita and Covasna (districts in Romania) belong to Hungary because hungarians are the majority there? Do you think Malmo belongs to Ethiopia?

Just because you live somewhere doesn't mean the lang belongs to you. Do you support the annexation of eastern Ukraine and Crymea?

>>38730164

I believe I have outdone her a few times, but not always on purpose. If you remember, I had a suicidal neighbour, a Russian woman, and our brief meeting ended in me giving her an appointment ticket with my therapist's name on it. The next time I saw my therapist, I mentioned this, and asked if my Russian had already called, and T said no. I said I hoped she'd get in touch and everything.

Some weeks later, I asked again, out of curiosity, and I get quickly shut down, "I can't tell you such information."

Yeah, but you could for as long as she DIDN'T get in touch, uh? Well, I'm glad she got in touch, that's that.

But now I'm not 100% sure.

Once I mentioned French kissing, it was actually relevant, and her reaction was, "It's so nice."

Y-yes, yes it is. So nice.

>>38730164
>Here's a question: if you had time rewind powers, would you?

No, because it'd cancel the rest, and I'd have to live with memories of things that never happened, depending on your version. Without memories, I'd do the same exact shit, so no changes.

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>>38730237
>I don't even remember
i was laying more on hero if i recall correctly.

>Process these emotions, or you will pay a heavy price.
that's why i've been hanging around here for the last couple of months or however long it's been.
though asking me to process emotions is like asking a caveman to perform surgery.

I have BPD and Avoidant PD. How the fuck do I build decent relationships?
I have no family and have developed stuttering due to being mistreated by a nanny when I was 3.

>>38730209
>The purpose is that these patterns stick out to me in a real game. I believe that's doable but will require practice.
Yeah this is pretty surprising for me to be honest. This pretty much means chess is a memory game?

I always thought of chess as a game where you can see the patterns through your good cognitive abilities and if you can't, you're fucked. I always kinda approached every game with a clean slate and never tried to memorize any common situations (thought that was dumb).

This changes quite a lot for me since I thought memory plays pretty much no role in chess other than memorizing how the pieces can move.

>>38730132
i believe i've been "getting better" during my time here. though i dont really understand why or how, it just feels like progress.

>>38730184

Personal bit here: my father has a very strong hatred of all Albanians and all related people (and pretty much everyone, really), so I grew up being told Albanians were just savage rapists and wife-beaters. While I never fully believed him, it made me scared of humans (because he did this with every group of people) and I really believed him. Kinda therapeutic for me to read you, in a weird way.

I was a little racist by age 8, because whenever The Fresh Prince was on, my father would call them a pack of dirty niggers and change the channel, giving me the impression that these were very bad people (people, not even characters, fiction and reality is almost the same to my father), and I always avoided that show.

Until my best friend and I watched TV and came upon it, and he was very happy, and told me it was funny. So we watched and I thought it was funny too, so I unbecame racist. I was 8, cut me a break.

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>>38730202
>It's a revolving door, how many psychs have told you that you're cured and don't need their services.

Mine asked if we should reduce the time we see each other (mainly concerned about my finances for that one).

I maintained my 2 and a half hours a week. THERE'S WORK TO BE DONE.

>>38730202
>Common sense dictates that most of the shit posted here doesn't apply to the real world and should be seen as entertainment.

If by "here" you mean the board, sure. If you mean the thread, as long as you keep in mind who posts what, sure.

You and your Jewish fear is not very real-world-based, you know.

>>38730358
Laaaaaame. I'd probably kill everyone I know, and rape most people too. And a lot of torture. Literally consequence-free. Break out that Ring of Gyges. Except that in fact, this is even more consequenceless. Even for the others. Seeing those things would only deepen your understanding. Even better if death counts as a reset. I'd love to die in all kinds of ways.

>>38730306
>(She had done this multiple sessions to the point of where I felt I was listening to her vent and analyzing her life)

Red flag of bad therapists.

>inb4 "U DO DIS, NUK,"
>I'm not paid here, so I'll share my own shit too, and we can all have fun together

>>38730337
Doesn't mean Kosovo belongs to the republic of Albania, but the land is populated by Albanians and therefore it is Albanian. Just like Republika Srpska is Serbian.

>>38730403
You watched a staged show and found it funny, therefore niggers aren't inferior. Nice.

>>38730325

Yes. I taught myself to play the guitar and I love playing piano, but no formal training for either. I like to improvise and invent music, but never do because it feels like a sad waste. I've lost hundreds of little songs by not playing them anymore.

>>38730448
U DO DIS NUK

>>38730337

THE BALKAN WARS, PART II

When I was a kid, a lot of you guys flooded to my country. You were called "Yugos" and it sounded like a very, very bad word at the time. I would sooner have gotten called a whore or a son of slut than a Yugo.Then I learned it was just short for Yugoslavian, and was surprised.

I remember a little girl with big buggy eyes, she didn't speak a word of French and she was very scared, at school. The girls in my class immediately took her under their wings for protection.

>that little girl was probably 5 to 8, now she must be 32 or something. Insanity.

>>38730463
>Doesn't mean Kosovo belongs to the republic of Albania, but the land is populated by Albanians and therefore it is Albanian.
That makes it better? This alone justifies why immigrants should be shot on the borders. Fucking shitskins.

>>38730362
>i was laying more on hero if i recall correctly.

Oh yeah, Hero is your American Christian man.

Nice poster, where did you make it?

I saved it.

>>38730363

Have you been in therapy yet?

What happened to your family?

What's your name for the thread?

What did your nanny do?

>>38730508
Well it kinda depends on who it is. If it's serbians, croatians or slovenians, that's good as far as I'm concerned. But anything else is shitskin-tier and insulted rightfully.

It's just slavic/turk mix for the most part. And I mean, who wouldn't insult turks?

>>38730529
>immigrants should be shot on the borders
I'm not disagreeing with this.

Kosovo is still mostly Albanian according to demographics.

>>38730428

That's good, hoping the therapy is working.

I was talking about the board.

>Nick may be part of the goy infostructure making money analyzing us and giving his research to the goys of mental health

It's all shits and giggles

>>38730337
Are you braindead? If some people have always lived in a land, that land isn't theirs? Albanians have always lived in Kosovo, Serbians are slavs and everyone know that slavs invaded the Balkans because they initially lived in North-Easthern Europe. Tell me why Kosovo isn't Albanian if it has always been Albanian. Are you a functionally illiterate person?

Nothing like some early morning rage at yourself to get the blood flowing. How are you guys?

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Is this a bad time to mention I'm a Serb?

>>38730575
And this still doesn't justify land being taken from a country.

>>38730095
don't bother with this thread anon
bunch of circlejerking no-lifes run by a nut who loves the sound of his own voice

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>>38730374
>Yeah this is pretty surprising for me to be honest. This pretty much means chess is a memory game?

In part, yes. My opening moves are done by memory and I improvise if my opponent does something I didn't expect. Some players learn entire chess games by heart.

That's why you can improve your skills. It's not just coming up with great ideas during the game, it's more about having studied them and memorising patterns.

>>38730374
>I always thought of chess as a game where you can see the patterns through your good cognitive abilities and if you can't, you're fucked.

That's how I used to think chess. And that's why I kept losing. As soon as I learned a few tricks, I saw the potential to get better, and my game improved.

>This changes quite a lot for me since I thought memory plays pretty much no role in chess other than memorizing how the pieces can move.

Now you know it matters a lot. Once you can remember patterns, it'll be easier to compose moves AND defend yourselves against the same moves. I'll probably be able to defend myself better sooner than I can attack better. If I start recognising attacks, I'll be happy.

>wait a minute, scooby, u tryna do an Anastasia mate, amirite, fagut

>>38730601
I don't really care who holds Kosovo de jure, it's none of my business, but don't the Albanians in Kosovo deserve a right to self determination in your opinion rather than having Serbs in Serbia control their policy?

>>38730437
>I'd probably kill everyone I know, and rape most people too. And a lot of torture. Literally consequence-free. Break out that Ring of Gyges.

You are terrifying.

>>38730470

I laughed xD

>>38730591

Why did you rage?

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>>38730532
most of my experience with religion comes from americans in media, which is probably why i spend a couple of years being a militant atheist. i feel like most christian americans in media are very devout for no reason other than tradition and a strong desire to be a real murrican. other highly religious people i can feel some sort or admiration for, or maybe it's just envy that they can place their faith in something bigger. i dont know.

>>38730532
>where did you make it?
that link you posted in the meme thread. i got quite fond of making them.
http://www.keepcalmandcarryon.com/creator/

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>>38730644
I thought we discussed this. I'm a nice guy.

>>38730600

Kek.

>>38730605

Don't be jelly, no one is rejecting you.

My voice IS pretty cool! It's all chill and shit. It has therapeutic qualities.

>>38730611

koot

>>38730585
>Are you braindead? If some people have always lived in a land, that land isn't theirs?
No it's not. If you want to take it, you should go to war. Did you notice how I said "you"? That means without your big NATO buddy who is in it just to fuck Serbia over.

Fucking shitskin. Also now this conversation ends.

>>38730640
Serbs claim the land because Kosovo is the most important center of Serbian culture.

>our capital vas there numerous times
>1000+ churches and monasteries were there (some burned by Turks, other burned by Albanians and Nato forces)
>much of our culture originates from that area
>it was our for many years whilst it was never a part of Albania (other than when it was occupied during WW2)

and much other shit that im not in the mood for debating now because i really couldnt give a fuck about it, it should be ours but in reality its pretty much its own fucking country at this point and theres nothing we can really do about it.

>>38730672

I understand. Mass media reduced American religions to a silly show, but it wasn't that way before. I believe most American Christians to be in earnest, some to be mentally ill, and many to care solely about the heart part of things, and not theology.

But yeah, I wish I could believe too. I almost managed it for a long time.

>>38730640
They do if they fight their own battles. Not if it's a NATO vs Russia proxy war.

>>38730616
>It's not just coming up with great ideas during the game, it's more about having studied them and memorising patterns.
That's pretty much the only way I have played chess up until now. Pretty big game-changer.

>>38730669
Trying to record that stupid thing. I actually really want to talk about it, so struggling to even do that pisses me off. Punched a book on my bed while my energy drink was also on the bed. Like a fucking moron.

shouldnt have posted here now i feel even sadder

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>>38730754
it shouldn't have come down to this.

>>38730678

Kek.

My mute time is still over 2 minutes.

Does anyone want to know about

THE BOBO BEAT DOWN?

>>38730735
>That's pretty much the only way I have played chess up until now. Pretty big game-changer.

I told ya!

I also recommend watching this video:

https://youtu.be/xh4sO1ICS_Q

The audience is kids, but this is where I learned to think about openings. Before that, I opened with whatever the fuck I wanted: even rooks.

Fun trivia: chess players from the 18th century didn't open with knights very often, they opened with bishops.

>>38730749
>Trying to record that stupid thing.

Am I making you upset? It's a concern of mine. I'm quite scared of making you upset.

>>38730775
Go on then what's this bobo thing?

Okay, seems I went a little /pol/. I'm gonna take a step back here.

Gonna get something to eat. Be back in an hour.

>>38730711
I suppose it all comes down to how far in history you are willing to go.
But yeah, as of now there's nothing you can really do.

>>38730735
So, by right of conquest?
By that same logic, Russia is justified in taking land from the Ukrainians. Land mainly inhabited by Russian speakers.

>>38730754

Why is that?

This wasn't original. Posting this in 2 minutes.

>>38730781
Not at all, Nick. I'M making me upset. I just want to finally talk to somebody about this fucking thing. And I fail to spit the goddamn words out.

>>38730804

https://youtu.be/128Ts5r9NRE

Relevant to your interests.

Just thinking about that time I did acid. I tend to say I experienced ego death. I felt one with all things. However, I think my understanding of it might have been off. Rather than
>Oh, cool - we are all one, divisions are imaginary, peace and love dude
I decided
>Oh cool - I'm God. Makes sense.

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>>38730423
good nice happy birthday to anon

>>38730815

Since nobody mentioned it, this isn't Tanny, and nobody is Tanny. But this isn't the person who pretended to be Tanny in the beginning.

>>38730834

I feel bad that it's making you upset. I hope it'll be fine.

>>38730853

That's exactly what I was going to say. Not ego death, universe death.

>>38730423

Happy birthday! (I had missed that post, as happens often.)

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>>38730892
Are you sure?

I'm pretty sure I've been Tanny 90% of the time after the revelation.

>>38730900
Don't feel bad. I can do it once I stop crying. There's nothing at all to feel bad about. I want to do this.

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>>38730925

I don't know who you are.

Check out my wobot, gais.

>>38730719
religion, spirituality and all sorts of supernatural stuff in a strange subject for me. back when i was feeling better i used to believe in various magical stuff, though never god. it made sense back then and it made me feel good. somewhere along the line i shut it down, now im having a hard time accepting anything that i dont understand the proof of it's existence.

>>38730806
i was kind of surprised by you going /pol/ on that subject. everything east of austria is pretty much the same place in my head. then again knowing you and eastern europe i suppose i shouldnt be surprised at all..

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>>38730940
>Don't feel bad. I can do it once I stop crying.

Don't cry, senpai! It's gonna be OK.

>>38730925
But why adopt the character rather than a new name?

>>38730644
You're not going to like this, but I want to share my feels on the matter: You say this quite a lot - about me being terrifying, I mean. The thing is, I have a sneaking suspicion it's a smokescreen. That is to say, you feel the same way, or perhaps something far darker. As such, by saying it's terrifying you create distance from yourself. Compare to the detective in the murder mystery who is actually the killer. It's a strategy I've used myself, so it makes sense to me. I hope you don't take offence.

>>38730964

The one thing I can personally testify to in terms of "supernatural" is telepathy, because I have experienced it.

>>38730970
To cause a bit of confusion of course.

>>38730951
>wobot
speaking of woebot, what do you think of this Nick?

https://woebot.io/

i've considered trying it out, but im hesitant.

>>38730970
>You're not going to like this, but I want to share my feels on the matter: You say this quite a lot - about me being terrifying, I mean. The thing is, I have a sneaking suspicion it's a smokescreen. That is to say, you feel the same way, or perhaps something far darker. As such, by saying it's terrifying you create distance from yourself. Compare to the detective in the murder mystery who is actually the killer. It's a strategy I've used myself, so it makes sense to me. I hope you don't take offence.

I understand what you are saying, but I must say that you are projecting here. It's almost as if by deviating my words back to me you were trying to create that very distance you describe between you and yourself.

I have zero fantasies of murdering or raping people. I would not want to do either even if there was no consequences, even if I were rewarded for it, even if everything reverted back to normal without anyone remembering anything. Murder and rape, and torture and all that are strictly negative to me. I don't enjoy them, or the idea of them. It makes me feel bad to think this happens on a daily basis and if I think about it too much, I stop functioning. I once read an article about Chinese tortures, modern day, like, right now, and I was upset for 3 days.

That is why I find you terrifying, not because I see you in me, I don't. I see the Chinese in you, if you will.

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Nigga, that Bobo Beatdown thing is way closer to reality than I thought!

Crash Course is a great channel.

>>38730985
for lack of a better word i consider religious experiences supernatural as well.
i had a couple of supernatural experienses happen to me, but nothing i could verify. so i disregarded them thinking i was mistaken in some way. now im having a hard time remembering what it even was that happened.

>>38731039
Well a ching chong nip nong to you too.

But yes, I have felt similarly about the atrocities in Africa and the ordeals girls have suffered at the hands of Muslims in England. But in my scenario there's no damage so it's ok. Still, I get what you mean. In the right circumstances I could enjoy death and torture and you couldn't. That makes sense, what with the empathy and all.

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>>38731070

memed

>>38731110
>That makes sense, what with the empathy and all.

Yeah. I only enjoy violence if nobody gets hurt. In video games and such. I realise what I like best is hunting, more than violence, and I think FPS games attract men for this reason more than just violence. Same with city-builders and games where you organise stuff.

>>38726786
>- psychological tests

TEST ME DOCTOR

>>38731024

It asks to sign in with FB, so I dropped it. Bots tend to be a stupid bore to me. They're easy to figure out.

>>38731168

What would you like to be tested on?

>>38731039
Would you shoot a newborn baby for a million dollars if there were no consequences legal or otherwise?

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>>38731196
i don't know, what types of test do you got?

>>38731212
>Would you shoot a newborn baby for a million dollars if there were no consequences legal or otherwise?

No.

>inb4 you could save other babies with a million dollars

>>38731226

All kinds of tests, all kinds.

Some of my best shit has to do with depression and empathy, and also if you're a secret Jimmy Saville, that motherfucker.

hey guys, why's this thread so early?

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>>38731238
>All kinds of tests, all kinds.

WHERE?

>>38730544
Been in therapy for two years now. My mother died and my father just ignores me. My parents had problems with their families prior my born.

My nanny locked me up in my room with no lights every night for a week and that gave me intense fears and anxiety.

I dont know how to use a name, sorry.

>>38731164
But if you're hunting you're killing animals. I would love to go hunting and of course make use of the materials after but it's not a simple matter here, plus there's not really a culture of it outside of the elite class. Does that mean you couldn't enjoy combat sports or would that be alright?

>>38726786
I'm considering adding snippets of diagnoses to each member's name (with the member's express agreement), so that others know who to look for if they want to. Until now, I individually told anons about who had what.
I like this idea, for example i found it very useful to talk to Cyr because he had the same experiences as me.

>>38731238
>>inb4 you could save other babies with a million dollars
I'd use it to buy a nice house and shit and live comfily for the rest of my life. But yeah you could do that.

Is there nothing that would get you to shoot a newborn baby, like ending world hunger or poverty or getting 100 million dollars?
If you say no, I won't believe you.

>>38731283
>I'm considering adding snippets of diagnoses to each member's name (with the member's express agreement), so that others know who to look for if they want to. Until now, I individually told anons about who had what.
I like this idea, for example i found it very useful to talk to Cyr because he had the same experiences as me.

i forgot proper meme arrow use

>>38731255

Right here:

https://www.depression-anxiety-stress-test.org/take-the-test.html
http://www.celebritytypes.com/dark-triad/test.php
http://www.bbc.com/future/story/20151123-how-dark-is-your-personality
http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/do-i-have-ocd
https://psychcentral.com/quizzes/borderline.htm
http://www.pdchat.co.uk/psychtests/stpd/stypal.php
https://pcsearle.com/screening/screen_des.html
http://aspergerstest.net/aq-test/
http://vistriai.com/kinseyscaletest/
https://psychology-tools.com/empathy-quotient/
http://www.educateautism.com/infographics/sally-anne-test.html
https://www.psychologytoday.com/tests/health/mental-health-assessment

http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-test.mv
http://www.4degreez.com/misc/seven_deadly_sins.html

>>38731314
HOLY SHIT DOC THIS IS A LONG FUCKING FORM. i will be back when it is done

>>38731262
>My nanny locked me up in my room with no lights every night for a week and that gave me intense fears and anxiety.

Of course, was she retarded of vicious?

You write a name in the upper bar of your quick reply window.

>>38731270
>Does that mean you couldn't enjoy combat sports or would that be alright?

Barring physical issues, I could beat a motherfucker, yes, as long as I know he doesn't mind getting hit and sorts of enjoys the pain like I wouldn in such a context.

>>38731283

Going to reorder the list by names. And remove Tanny.

>>38731354
Hey now, there's no need to remove me Nick.

>>38731339
>as long as I know he doesn't mind getting hit and sorts of enjoys the pain like I wouldn in such a context.
Noice, and quite unexpected. A thread cage fighting tournament would be pretty entertaining. I have an inkling that Hero would dominate though.

Psychological Issues Thread Regulars

Atlas !YiwP2pBVzo
attenuated !!oXJDpK2abs7
Charlie !!g+ifZJDNiIY
checkers !!AWl2YAu3pjs
Dan !!PN2b+OY1wIv
Facet !AhnkjmgKCA
Hunch !MZE8PCD5tA
hurtbro !!NctRL2wsiyk
Johnson !!Ucq/Rc2ZT2h
Mac !!zyvLbPc8BEP
Mac II !!6lVQFpZ/l1n
Medman !!Sooz56wUGqu
metapsych !a/rF/lI3WM
Nick !!fj+6JtTXdtt
Sneed !1gTIDmVKgc
Winter Coat !!Hk4v4zKE1XV
Zeno !!fyiIl19MUvj
Ziggy !fJMyvXO.mA

Say "pancake" if you aren't on the list.

>>38731354
>remove Tanny
yeh that'd make sense
>Tanny !!8uqjvCcoSkX
basically just means a more dedicated anonymous.

>>38731288
>Is there nothing that would get you to shoot a newborn baby, like ending world hunger or poverty or getting 100 million dollars?
>If you say no, I won't believe you.

It would be a very hard choice. Pragmatically, I should, but that baby wouldn't deserve it, and I am not convinced at all that I could do it even if I decided to to save other babies from worse deaths. If I managed to do it, it would probably haunt me for the rest of my life and none of the good done subsequently could help me recover. That punishment might be enough to do it while feeling like I deserve it.

Not guaranteed. Babies are precious.

>>38731417
a surprisingly original pancake

>>38731439
Tanny basically just means me.
Nick why did you skip this >>38731288
It's a legit question.

I think most normies would shoot the baby for less than a million dollars and if not that then certainly something else.

I'd do it just to see what it felt like. Provided no harm would come to me.

>>38731463
What about this second part >>38731482

>>38731482
We're on the same page Tanny II. Plus, I'd love a million dollars. Though it depends on the setup; as I've discussed before I might abstain if everyone was doing it, just so I'd look cooler.

Psychological Issues Thread Regulars

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attenuated !!oXJDpK2abs7
Charlie !!g+ifZJDNiIY
checkers !!AWl2YAu3pjs
Dan !!PN2b+OY1wIv - gets rages, has core beliefs about genetics, Chads, and Stacies, drinks
Facet !AhnkjmgKCA - DID, BPD, C-PTSD, APD, used to drink
Fordas !!lPu9w3615Ed - compulsive liar who means no harm, or so he says
Hunch !MZE8PCD5tA
hurtbro !!NctRL2wsiyk
Johnson !!Ucq/Rc2ZT2h
Mac !!zyvLbPc8BEP
Mac II !!6lVQFpZ/l1n
Medman !!Sooz56wUGqu
metapsych !a/rF/lI3WM - OCD, drinks
Nick !!fj+6JtTXdtt - absolutely perfect, empathy god, well-endowed, will help you for Pepe's
Sneed !1gTIDmVKgc
Winter Coat !!Hk4v4zKE1XV - OCD, BPD, DID; suffers video game hell
Zeno !!fyiIl19MUvj
Ziggy !fJMyvXO.mA

COMMENT

>>38731417
>tfw Nick doesnt put you on his list

im not a special pancake after all

>>38731507
If everyone was doing it, the world would be twisted place. Everyone would be having their wishes fulfilled in exchange for killing a baby. Nothing would have any value. I'd go on a rampage against the normies then.

>>38731364

Whoever you are, anyone could be you, it's become a useless trip as soon as you(?) posted the password.

>>38731482
there is very little i'd do this for, maybe end global poverty or to skip to gay space communism

>>38731552
>>38731364
This is a good point. Adopt a new trip forthwith

>>38731377
>Noice, and quite unexpected. A thread cage fighting tournament would be pretty entertaining. I have an inkling that Hero would dominate though.

As soon as I realised I was strong, I fought way more in school, but on my terms. I didn't hit directly, I manhandled a motherfucker. My special attack was I'd hold a nigga from behind, around his waist, lift him up in the air, arch backwards, and I'd shake that cunt like a protein shake, left to right, super hard. I did this to boys taller than me, it left an impression and pissed off the shaken. I only did this to position myself in the hierarchy so I'd not be messed with.

>>38731552
Ok this is me and it has been me, like I said about 90% of the time.
I was also one of the Zoidberg imposters yesterday.

>>38731542

Psychological Issues Thread Regulars

Atlas !YiwP2pBVzo -eats too much
attenuated !!oXJDpK2abs7
Charlie !!g+ifZJDNiIY
checkers !!AWl2YAu3pjs
Dan !!PN2b+OY1wIv - gets rages, has core beliefs about genetics, Chads, and Stacies, drinks
Facet !AhnkjmgKCA - DID, BPD, C-PTSD, APD, used to drink
Fordas !!lPu9w3615Ed - compulsive liar who means no harm, or so he says
Hunch !MZE8PCD5tA
hurtbro !!NctRL2wsiyk
Johnson !!Ucq/Rc2ZT2h
Mac !!zyvLbPc8BEP
Mac II !!6lVQFpZ/l1n
Medman !!Sooz56wUGqu
metapsych !a/rF/lI3WM - OCD, drinks
Nick !!fj+6JtTXdtt - absolutely perfect, empathy god, well-endowed, will help you for Pepe's
Sneed !1gTIDmVKgc
Winter Coat !!Hk4v4zKE1XV - OCD, BPD, DID; suffers video game hell
York !!4s2CyeE0tqk - very special pancake
Zeno !!fyiIl19MUvj
Ziggy !fJMyvXO.mA

>>38731552
i'm not using it, incase that's what the (you)? meant

>>38731602

Wait, the Tanny in this here thread wasn't Fordas?

That's confusing shit. Are you Fordas?

>>38731602
>I was also one of the Zoidberg impostors yesterday.
god damn you made that thread impossible to understand :D

>>38731615

I thought it was you.

>>38731631
no, i haven't used that trip apart from when i posted drowzee porn in response to a request for nudes

>>38731631
No I'm not Fordas.
I co-opted the Tanny name yesterday and used it for shitposting as a stereotypical fembot.

>>38731602

Psychological Issues Thread Regulars

Atlas !YiwP2pBVzo -eats too much
attenuated !!oXJDpK2abs7
Charlie !!g+ifZJDNiIY
checkers !!AWl2YAu3pjs
Dan !!PN2b+OY1wIv - gets rages, has core beliefs about genetics, Chads, and Stacies, drinks
Facet !AhnkjmgKCA - DID, BPD, C-PTSD, APD, used to drink
Fordas !!lPu9w3615Ed - compulsive liar who means no harm, or so he says
Hunch !MZE8PCD5tA
hurtbro !!NctRL2wsiyk
Johnson !!Ucq/Rc2ZT2h
>loner anon !!TDUaeGudFbP - Tanny and Zoidberg impersonator
Mac !!zyvLbPc8BEP
Mac II !!6lVQFpZ/l1n
Medman !!Sooz56wUGqu
metapsych !a/rF/lI3WM - OCD, drinks
Nick !!fj+6JtTXdtt - absolutely perfect, empathy god, well-endowed, will help you for Pepe's
Sneed !1gTIDmVKgc
Winter Coat !!Hk4v4zKE1XV - OCD, BPD, DID; suffers video game hell
York !!4s2CyeE0tqk - very special pancake
Zeno !!fyiIl19MUvj
Ziggy !fJMyvXO.mA

>>38731637

I has autism. Please fuck my ass.

>>38731660
>stereotypical drowzee
fixed that for you

>>38731660
Turns out the word co-opt doesn't mean what I think it does. Reality is crumbling around me.

>>38731637
Yeah. It was the most fun I have had in a long time.

>>38730965
I sent you a thing, but it's not what I said it would be. Sorry. I feel hollow after the tears.

>>38731687
>co-opt
>adopt (an idea or policy) for one's own use
what's the issue?

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>>38731660
>used it for shitposting as a stereotypical fembot.

Considering we knew Tanny as a flamethrower-building girl, she wasn't stereotypical.

>>38731714
I... think that's the wrong meme

>>38731507
>>38731550
would one million dollars be enough to kill a baby? i mean it's not even enough to live comfortably for the rest of your life.
i wouldnt be able to kill a baby for selfish reasons, and i dont even like babies. though if it was for world peace, end of disease or to save the whales i'd probably do it.

>>38731614
kek, i suppose the description fits as well as im not really sure what my problem is. and as i remember you havent been able to put a label on it either.

>>38731705
Google translate fucked it for me.
I guess reality isn't crumbling around me then.

>>38731687
>Yeah. It was the most fun I have had in a long time.

Is it more fun than putting a finger in my peehole?

>>38731697

Don't worry about it! I don't want to cause you any pain with this stuff.

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>>38731614
>Atlas !YiwP2pBVzo -eats too much
Priceless. Not my joke but I'm going to let that one stand for this thread.

>>38731714
Yeah, but if I remember correctly I constantly mentioned I'm female and called everyone a misogynist neckbeard for no giving me (you)s.

>>38731732
>would one million dollars be enough to kill a baby? i mean it's not even enough to live comfortably for the rest of your life.
Where I'm from, it is.

>i wouldnt be able to kill a baby for selfish reasons, and i dont even like babies. though if it was for world peace, end of disease or to save the whales i'd probably do it.
I like babies, but I don't see a problem in killing one. Especially if I benefited. Plenty of babies in the world and they're not really conscious so it doesn't matter.

>>38731772
Hi babe.

Hey everyone. Am back.

>>38730815
>By that same logic, Russia is justified in taking land from the Ukrainians. Land mainly inhabited by Russian speakers.
Yup. Only thing really pissing me off here is the NATO involvement.

>>38730964
You know, there are many grudges between eastern european nations and they don't go away in a generation or two.

For example, the czech world for germans is "Nemci" which literally means "the mute ones" as we couldn't understand them. This shit drags on.

Not to mention all the other conflicts like for example with Slovakia and Hungary.

>>38731714

Wrong meme, sorry...

>>38731732
It depends on the setup. If there was some guy offering it and like four other people were clamouring for the chance then I'd plead with them to use their conscience, go at length about how they're regret it for the rest of their lives, it was murder of an innocent, etc.

If there were four people saying how horrid it would be and no one would ever do that I'd blow it to pieces and I wouldn't even blink. I'd enjoy it. More for their reaction than for the baby dying. But that too

>>38731732
>kek, i suppose the description fits as well as im not really sure what my problem is. and as i remember you havent been able to put a label on it either.

Honestly, I have zero memories right now. Any member without a description is someone whose problems I don't remember.

>>38731808

That was mainly for you :D

>>38731815
>Hi babe.

Hi sweet cheeks. Do you like girls who work out?

>>38731850
>For example, the czech world for germans is "Nemci" which literally means "the mute ones" as we couldn't understand them. This shit drags on.

Poles have something similar, even the word sounds close. I think theirs means "nobodies" or something. The Polish word for Italians means "the hairy ones".

>>38731944

How many Zoids do we have here today...

>>38731850
>Yup. Only thing really pissing me off here is the NATO involvement.

If all countries simply took what they wanted, we would be thrown back quite a few years into a time of constant warfare and changing power balances. That could be fun actually.

>>38731897
I only like flabby crab people.

>>38731850
hey dan, in case you don't know tanny was a figment of my imagination.

>>38731944
Lol I didn't know that about poles. Sadly we don't have that. Though we do have an expression

>To speak like a hungarian

which means no one understands you.

>>38731850
>>38731969
Yeah and the Tanny in this thread was me.

>>38731964
>If all countries simply took what they wanted, we would be thrown back quite a few years into a time of constant warfare and changing power balances.
You mean like the Albanians?

>>38731969
Oh well. Was fun anyways.

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>>38731897
I know you're not actually Zoidberg (female) but the only pinup I ever owned was of pic related. RIP in peace, your sex tape will not be forgotten ;_;

>>38731978
>which means no one understands you.

We have this with the Chinese.

>>38732010

That's a man, baby. (Fuck, not original. 2 minutes, it's too fucking long, goddam.)

For anyone who is sending e-mails, just know that I am actively working my butt off to read and respond. There are a few of you.

Just give me some time, I'm getting there.

>>38732000
>You mean like the Albanians?
The Kosovars were living under another ethnic group, it was an independece struggle. Not exactly imperialism.

Now like I said everything depends on how far in history you're willing to go. The Albanians claim that the Illyrians were their ancestors and therefore they have a claim to the land. The slavs came later but still a long time ago and held the land for a very long time.

Also if we go by the "might makes right route" it can be applied to real world as well. Chad deserves all he gets because he is superior.

P.S. I actually like Serbs more I think. Just trying to be objective I guess.

>>38731815
>Where I'm from, it is.
where's that?

>they're not really conscious so it doesn't matter.
i agree on this, which is why i would do it for the greater good. killing for my own sake just feels meaningless, i wouldnt feel good being able to say that i dont work, i just live off the money i made killing a baby.

i accedentally ran over a snake with my bike today, it kinda bothers me. it got hurt for absolutely no reason.

>>38731850
>there are many grudges
yeah, i think this is whats throwing me off. i see all of southern/eastern europe as one big grudge. then im having trouble realizing that there's different grudges in that one grudge that i see.

>>38731869
you just gotta make life difficult for others in any way you can?

some years ago i would probably just do what the other people did, i wouldnt want to stand out and risk 4 random people disliking me. maybe i would be more inclined to kill though, greed was a large part of my life back then. now i would probably stand my ground in not shooting. and use that fact to make the shooters feel bad. i dont care about the baby, but i care about the choice, about being better.

>>38732071
>Not wanting to be raped by Amazons
gay

>>38732088
Sure I'd care about being better, but if everyone else is already 'doing the right thing' then there's no incentive anymore. Better to get the benefits of killing the baby.

>>38732075
>Also if we go by the "might makes right route" it can be applied to real world as well. Chad deserves all he gets because he is superior.
Are you trying to tell me this is not true? Or that people do not operate with this subconsciously?

>>38731882
there's probably nothing to remember. i tend to hide who i am and i dont even understand myself.
do you atleast remember seeing me here?

would anyone be interested in a long post about flame throwers? nick thought you guys might be interested

>>38732088
>where's that?
Nice try schlomo.

>i agree on this, which is why i would do it for the greater good. killing for my own sake just feels meaningless, i wouldnt feel good being able to say that i dont work, i just live off the money i made killing a baby.
I would go live in a nice house in the middle of nowhere. Nobody would know and if they did, remember "no consequences" so you wouldn't be ostracized by them.

>>38732123
I'm not saying it isn't true.
It very much is.
I don't really care about Chad and his STD infested cock.

Also btw, NATO is strong and therefore it's allowed to intervene wherever it wants to intervene. If NATO cucked and partitioned Russia would that not have been nature's justice happening?

>>38732150
Sure, or just any cool material like that. Used to own the Cookbook myself, but lost it and it's too risky imo after 9/11

>>38732123

"Might is right," is really about the right as in the "authorisation", not right as in the opposite of wrong.

>>38732117
well if everyone else is doing the right thing and you're not then that makes you worse. for me that's a big no no.
other than the million, do you see other benefits?

>>38732147
>do you atleast remember seeing me here?

Of course. For quite some time even. Some time, we shall discuss frankly.

>>38732150

Post it, they'll love it.

>>38732195
kk, for reference nick asked about the irl war use of flamethrowers.
In war the flamethrower actually had limited practical uses, essentially relegated to clearing out pill boxes, foxholes and forests, the classic m2 flamethrower used by US troops could only shoot for 7 seconds, so quite limited. However the psychological effect of the weapon was immense, there is a very primal fear of fire ingrained in almost every human, it was one of the few weapons that would cause Japanese troops to surrender, there was little more terrifying than the concept of being burned alive in your fortifications, In WW1 the flamethrower was not implemented to kill people directly but by shooting the flamethrower into enemy trenches, the soldiers in the trenches would scramble over the top, paying little mind to the machine guns waiting tot mow them down. However this psychological effect was a double edged sword, an american flamethrower operator from the pacific theatre was quoted as "the average lifespan of a flamethrower was about 10 minutes" being a weapon that was so obvious when it was used, and caused such terror in the opposition, the Japanese soldiers would normally expend large amounts of resources and effort purely to kill the flamethrower operators. Japanese snipers in palm trees knew they would die a horrible death if the flamethrowers got in range so if they spotted one they would not stop trying to kill said operator until he was dead or the sniper had run out of ammo.
cont

>>38732088
>then im having trouble realizing that there's different grudges in that one grudge that i see.
Yeah, many. There are a couple big sources of grudges. One being the Hungarians. They have beef with Slovakians, Romanians, Serbs and probably others. Then obviously Serbs who have beef with just about all of their neighbors, most notably Croatians. Also Russians obviously who are hated by Ukrainians (because of the holodomor among others), Poles (long historical rivalry) and Finns since Russians took parts of their land.

And that's just the big ones. Then also in some states you have subgroups that hate each other. Then you have all these ethnic groups who don't have their state. Like Rusyns.

It's pretty complicated. Saying everyone hates each other isn't far from the truth.

So much for this lesson of the "Introduction into slavic grudges". Don't forget to do your homework and I'll see you next week!

>>38732215
Just for the thrill. And to swallow its soul but don't tell Nick or he'll get upset