>Tfw still a virgin at 19
>Tfw you realize you will most likely never find love
>Tfw you've tried to be normal and date in the past but your just to stupid to know what your doing
>Tfw you realize your almost 20, at which point life is gonna eclipse everything and there's no going back
>Tfw you realize the only people who will ever love you are your family
>Tfw you want to kill yourself but your afraid about how it'll affect your family
>Tfw you just want something to change but your to pathetic to actually do anything
Really starting to lose faith in everything I used to believe in and everything now. Might just say fuck it and so it already
>>38722649
You're still young.
Lost my virginity at 20. To a pretty girl I loved. It was an awkward first time (whose isn't) but I improved rapidly. We both have pretty high sex drives so we'll meet and fuck a few times a week.
A year ago, at 19, I thought the same things you did.
Everything changed. I kissed a girl, held her hand, slept with her, heard her tell me she loves me, give me the fuck me eyes, tell me she loved how I fucked her, etc.
Just a year. I changed myself and put myself out there. You can do it too anon.
>>38722649
If you stay in that mindset it only gets worse
>19
jesus christ its like a 16 year old girl whining about not getting the new iphone
>shit at texting girls, flirting, etc
>other guys my age have been practicing since middle school
>I'll never fill that experience gap
>>38722649
>tfw i more or less felt the same at 19
>i was a khv then, but at least i had a friend i hung out with routinely and gamed with
>now I'm 30 and still a khv
>>38722698
Honestly reading this one thing might stop me from pulling this fucking gun, not trying to be dramatic or anything but I seriously question why my dad told me about the gun in the house, something about if there's ever an emergency but whatever, not the point.
Could you tell me what you did, like how you got out of your comfort zone? That's been my problem, maybe I'm ugly, I'd but I've worked out and tried to stay fit (not fat, but think tall and lanky)
Please please help me anon
>>38722801
You don't feel bad though? I'm just tired of talking to girls and just feeling like I'm going nowhere