>Be 25
>5"10 for 396 lbs, eat like shit, fap to traps, collect guns and be a robot.
>After another failure at keeping a job, decide this is it
>Contemplating suicide or a way to make it stop
>Take the hard way
>Slowly as fuck, go back to sport, only eating healthy stuff
>Actualy go out of my room for more than food and/or bathroom
>Slowly stop taking pills for depression, severe anxiety
>Mega operation Almost NoFap for the time being, fap only 1 per month and to vanilla shit
>Stop smoking (the hardest part)
>Fast forward 1 year
>At that point my life was more painfull than before, way more
>Actualy working, weight is now 264lbs, people talk to me and i don't sperg like before
>People at the gym stopped laughing at me
>Some kind of self confidence is slowly creeping in
>WaitThisIsKindaGreat.avi
>Continue eating healthy foods, sport, socialisation, even got a normiebook account
>For maximum self test, launch operation NoFap at all
>Fast forward another year
>Be 27
>5"10 196lbs in shape manlet
>Able to talk with Chad without looking my feet, some girls even talked to me, feel somewhat confident for the first time in my life
>Decide it's time for a reward, that or i will rape someone soon
>Go fap to some Vanilla shit
>Something close to CumBucket
>Wait, i didn't felt shit
>ProbablyExcitation.mp4
>Fap, again and again and again, 7-8 times a day for 2 weeks straight
>I don't feel shit when cumming
>Go to see a dick doctor a.s.a.p
>being almost normal help for the phone call and all
>She (and boy does she was fuckable) look and manipulate my junk
>BoyItsKinky.bat
>Have actual diamond dick
>She smile
>Shame is about to kill me
>"It's look like in order Anon, i will ask you to take some blood sample and do a prostate exam"
Cont
>Everything is normal, so normal that i'm actualy healthy
>After few appointement, she quickly came to conclusion i have Secondary Anorgasmia
>That mean i don't feel any kind of pleasure when i go off
>She don't know where to start since in 2 years so much shit have changed inside my body that it's a mess
>Don't know shit how to make it go away
>"it will take time"
>I've worked so hard, so much for that
>Actualy Devasted
>Been 6 months now, tried everything
>Be it natural, drugs or shady shit
>Sexual frustration is starting to make me violent
>Fight with people for the sake of it
>Back to smocking
>Went back to 250lbs
>Back to fap to traps
>Don't talk to anyone
>Decide today is the day i will kill myself
If even destiny want to fuck me in the ass after all those efforts, all those tears, i'm done, i'm so done.
>>38590836
life is not about sex anon
>>38590922
Tell me that when next time you fap and you won't feel shit, this time and the next 500 next times.
>>38590922
it literally is lol
>>38590836
>grow up fat
>be half caucasian half sandnigger
>get bullied at school
>get beaten at home
>mom gets new boyfriends all the time who abuse me
>grow up and drop out of college
>shit job and no education
>get son and wife
>start repeating my mothers behavior
>treat them like shit because of mental problems and upbringing
Some day I'm gonna do it, I just need to stop being a pussy.