have u ever tried or know someone who self harms?

i used to be a self harmer. ask away. havent done it for about a year maybe 2 now.

>>38562895
if you do it stop
if you don't don't start
Because it'll be really hard to explain scars without getting sent to some psyche ward.

>>38562895
I cut, but mainly in places where it doesn't get noticed, like my chest, thighs, and dick

>>38562895
I knew someone who self harms.
She intentionally harmed other people too.

>>38562895
Yes, but I was fucking 13 and it wasn't even harm. It was more inducing pain, something to burn in the memory of some failure if you will.

And yes, I know at least two girls who do/did that. One did it very hidden, one who is actually leaving scars on purpose.

>>38562941

i think im a bit of an outlier. i spent a few years doing drugs in crazy quantities and frequency. in and out of mental hospitals, rehab, detox. that was a lot of the reason for cutting. i stopped cutting when i sort of came out of this mental haze, (which i only know i was in through hindsight). maybe i replaced it with more drugs. maybe i replaced it with something else. i dont know. i dont remember it all that well. once my thinking got to a certain level of "straight" i stopped.

>>38562895
I used to cut until I started smoking weed. Then I got diagnosed with schizophrenia, stopped smoking weed and became an alcoholic.

Now I've got my life together, don't cut, drink or do drugs.

>>38563088
> with schizophrenia
sorry to hear that man, must be hard

>>38562895
I cut myself once without knowing what it was when I was 8. Feels good desu but don't do it because fuck scars.

I have scars all over my arms and thighs hi

>>38563128
how do u hide them then?

>>38562895
unfortunately yes, me.

>>38562895
me too anon. it's annoying but you live with it

why would anyone cut themselves? that's more than insane.

>>38562895

Go to Nick's thread when it's up, loads of self-harm there. Most often it's Borderline issues and emotional regulation through physical pain.

Thread is Psychological Issues. Next one is #104, I believe.

yeah, I did it only while panicking, its rly gay desu

>>38562895
i used to do it quite frequently. nowadays i hardly ever do but i have a bunch of scars all over my arms/legs.

>>38562909
Whyd you start anon?

>>38563945
i remember that thread. i think it was made yesterday or something

I have a few times, but mainly contained it to upper thighs.

>>38562919
Feels bad at work. Have to wear short sleeves. It's been a long time but the scars remain.

>>38564429
it will remain for life but if you use some higher class creames those can be really light. i've tried them, work fine.

>>38562895
yes and i regret it very much

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I've been sent to the hospital 6 times from od, hanging lol. Still trying though!

>>38563623
The pain is fun. It's a good way to calm down racing thoughts.

>>38564535
Dunno about you, but especially in the cold they take on a starker hue.

>>38565367
how can you say pain is fun? how can pain be ''fun''? calming, ok but fun??

I know a guy who keeps up with this self-berating attitude, cuts himself with butter knives and is always harping on about being sad and shitty, but refuses to acknowledge me or anyone else when we try and talk to him, and not even about this stupid shit he does.

>>38562895

>have u ever tried or know someone who self harms?

i know someone who got depressed and stepped in front of a bus. does that count as self harm or did you specifically mean someone who cuts themselves. they stepped in front of a bus but survived and are now disabled.

>>38565540
wait, they purposely got in front of a bus to get disabled??? wtf

>>38562895
The way I live my life is an act of self harm.

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>>38562895
Some adopted teen roastie never tried cutting mostly because it's fucking gay. I instead take part in self destructive behaviour aka alcoholism and coming here on a daily bases.

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>>38562895
in high school there was a girl in one of my classes who had self-inflicted scars all along one of her arms. one time she insulted my looks and i said "at least i don't cut myself" and she started crying. my mates thought it was hilarious.

>>38562895
self harm is gay af

>>38566565
don't judge something you dont know anything about

I stopped after I cut too deep with a serrated blade and cut through a huge chunk of my shoulder and hitting a vein or an artery. It even did that thing you see in the movies where blood spurts out every few seconds into the air. I thought for sure I was going to die and that scared me enough to where I don't do that shit anymore

lol fucking pussies you're not a real cutter if you don't go to the bone lol

Went through a period of burning my arm with cigarette ends, ended up with like 20 round scars. Didn't realise how retarded it was at the time, they're mostly gone now thank fuck.

I like skating so I am always hurting.
tfw good enough to try cool shit, not good enough to not fall on my ass.

>>38566925
did u cut horizontally or vertically?

>>38562895
I used to self harm
Woke up one day and I just stopped
Cut myself with razor blades

>>38562895
I self harm but with my nails because I dont want cut scars
I have some permanent scars from this in my hand and byceps
Sometimes I forget whem Im on the pool and just say that is a scratch
I dont know if Im fooling anyone but I think its too stupid so none thinks is self-harm

I cut my shoulder so nobody will ever notice. Honestly its the easiest way to keep myself from feeling things I don't want to feel. EVerybody who sees or pretends to care gets so antsy about it and then nothing in the end anyways lol

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>>38567440
i know, i have those too

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Don't start on this. It's addictive and hard to stop. Then you have scars that never go away.

>>38562895
I've only ever encountered one person who self harms that I don't fucking hate, and even at that I don't like her very much

>>38562922
> and dick
What ? Why would you cut that man ?

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>>38562895
Had a female friend who would hurt herself, it wasn't because she was raped or some traumatic bullshit
Possibly one of the few females friends that I've ever gotten close to and never wanted to fuck, if she harms herself then don't dip your stick in that kind of crazy

Yes I cut myself. I do it when I have extreme negative energy like anger and/or racing thoughts. I like the feeling, both emotional and physical, and I like seeing the blood. I once cut myself so many times, hit myself in the arm with heavy object and the blood were everywhere...I felt dizzy, laid down on the floor and felt relaxed. I really like it. I know it's bad and I try not to do it, but I really like it and I miss it. My favorite object to cut with is broken glas.

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We are made from chemicals
but what holds us together
is much more than that

>>38567708
i cant explain to people why i ''like'' seeing my own blood

>>38567785
oh sweetie, please try to stop while you can.

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>>38567806
I did stop
The picture is over a year old
Still have a lot of visible scars sadly

>>38567785
>>38567842
pretty neat, but why would you write shit ? that s retarded

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>>38567884
It helps with the pain more than just straight cuts

>>38567960
>>38567842
i take pics too. idk why. i cant explain. i just like to observe my own blood i guess

>>38567960
why do you do it bro

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>tfw can't tattoo over it for another 12-18 months

>>38567960
it s kinda funny the way it doesn t bleed, all the blood tay in the scratches

No but i like to get one of those crappy red bic pens and scatch at my wrist so it looks like cuts


Autism

>>38568067
It works great at numbing emotional pain
Better than any benzo I used and it's instantaneous

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>>38568178
i can feel your pain

>>38568360
then why do u play criss cross on your legs its disgusting
if you have an urge to relieve the pain just slice it dont make fucking ornament patterns of it you psycho fuck

>>38568430
>>38568430
Well fuck you too mate

>>38568500
fuck you is the best you can do anon? maybe you dont deserve anything else in live but slicing yourself like an orange.

>>38568527
*life
grammatik macht frei lol (OP)
don't roast each other btw

>>38568581
stay out of it anon

>>38562895
No, it's gay and it hurts.

>>38568755
why would i, it's amusing to watch u bitch about it

I used to talk to a girl on skype who cut herself. I hope she's okay.

My little sister has cuts on her arm. It's awkward for me to even think about it. She acts a like a normie so it surprises me that she would do something like that.

>>38569343
it's called cutting for attention. why does a roastie doing this surprise you?

>>38569232
then check her if you care

>>38567440
I used to scratch with nails and keys in the upper part of my arms and belly, sometimes people asked me what was that and just said I scratch to heavily

>>38569366
I've tried. She won't add me back.

>>38569395
facebook, twitter, ig, gmail?
come on bro, u have shitloads of options

>>38562895
I tried scratching because I read that it doesnt leave marks, shit is even worse than the scars I have.

>>38569433
her facebook is gone, i don't know any other way to contact her

>>38565437
Yes. It's better than feeling nothing.

>>38569479
google her name and surname. it's lame but maybe she has something.

>>38569360
Well she hides the marks when she goes to school. But yeah it seems like roasties are the only ones who cut themselves.

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I used to bash my arms with a hammer whenever I fucked up bad back in high school

>>38569591
can't you like...ask her a specific reason why she does it?

>>38569667
I'm too socially retarded to talk about a sensitive topic like that. Plus it's not like I can give any advice when I hate myself too

>>38562895
I used to cut and burn myself, there are a lot of scars on my arms and legs. I did this on and off for about seven years, now I've avoided the behavior entirely for the past two. It's difficult to explain, but the pain actually felt good when I would do it to myself. The strangest part is how it would help me remember things, specifically thoughts and feelings that I found difficult to maintain. For instance, I would look at a specific scar and remember to be determined.

I know I'm a fuck up.

>>38569709
what about your parents? do they know about it?

>>38569758
it's called a coping mechanism and its very common actually

>>38565734
I'm guessing they tried to kill themselves in some stupid pussy way, and are consequentially retarded

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Has anyone else here ever considered getting a pet medicinal leech? I hear letting them feed off you gives the same release as cutting but is much safer (as long as you don't share your leech).

I think it might be nice to actually feed something with my mental illness other than just hurting myself.

Pic related, but they don't always get this big.

>>38569774
Just my mom. Both of them are emotionally distant so that could be a reason why.

Honestly, self harm is such a sensitive topic for anyone. I mean what could you tell someone who does that?

>>38569900
jesus christ it's like feeding a snake!

>>38569907
try to read as many articles about is as possible just to understand what's going on behind it. tell her you understand and maybe one day she opens to you about it if she knows you're there for her

>>38569900
who would want that thing near himself?

>>38570135
4chan anons and other types of faggotry

>>38562895
Self harm isnt part of normal people lives

>>38570561
it is part of a lot of normal peoples lives, its just not always as plain as cutting yourself, but there are many ways people can harm themselves

>>38570793
you cant be normal and cut yourself at the same time

>>38570793
now why would you say something idiotic like this

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The idea of self-harm has always been a shitty, idiotic concept for me. Why would you even consider it a choice? You're just swapping out the emotional pain for physical pain. We'll all die in the end, no use in trying to cut it short.

>>38569900
that's pretty cool actually
now i want one

>>38562895
Can somebody explain to me why this is done so much?

>>38562895
Sure, I've harmed myself. Why? Is it bad somehow?

>>38571599
eat one and tell me how it feels

>>38571457
im not cutting cause i want to die or trying to kill mysel

i like the feeling, i like the blood, i like the rush and it doesnt hurt THAT bad either

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>>38571677
why would i eat my pet?

>>38571772
because its fun and it gives you additional blood. it's like anemia prevention

>>38571696
what about the scars mate?

>>38572044
yes, thatds the biggest downside and thats why im trying to stay away from it

>>38571980
my stomach acids would burn him though. i dont want to burn my little leechie

>>38572111
b12 from its blood would come into your stomach and find with IF and then you'd be fully loaded with b12. imagine ur nervous system after that

>>38572178
jesus f christ i'm illiterate . sorry

I cut myself on my triceps. I used a razor blade and somehow I thought they wouldn't scar, but they did.

I wish I could go back in time and slap my past self.

>>38562895
I used to burn myself a lot, and i went through a phase where i would bite chunks off of my biceps. Now i just strangle myself with a belt pretty often. It's hard to do it enough to pass out. Usually I just go limp for a second. I just don't want to do anything that people could see. I'm 28, I can't be walking around with fresh cuts like a faggot emo kid.

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>>38572178
not worth trading my pets life.

>>38572298
>i would bite chunks off of my biceps.
>>38572298
>i just strangle myself with a belt pretty often.
have you ever considered like...psychiatrist? I'd suggest jesus but let's say you're not that religious

>>38572338
then how would you call him/her?

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>>38572363
i wouldn't need to call him over.
i would put him in a nice cage, and feed him 3 times a day so he never goes hungry.

>>38572550
your pet would go overweight in a few weeks fab. that would be animal abuse 101

>>38572579
leeches only get healthier with more food.
and you can bet i want my leech to be big and strong

burn and cuts lining down my arm. And red tinged skin from when I poured boiling water on myself in june. Haven't done since though. Makes clothing choices a lot harder

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>>38562895
>all these cutters
>It's summer
Ho ho fuck, you bastards let me love you damnit, why must people be so mean, even to their selves.
A question for those who cut, Why? why would you let them win? They who would want you dead? Cutting is just a step on the way to suicide

>>38572930
because its a way of punishing yourself, letting go of negative emotions, letting go

>>38572702
>i want my leech to be big and strong
i love how this ended up

>>38572930
Pain releases a chemical inside your brain that gives you pleasure or something. Also it makes you feel like you're in control of something.

I haven't cut for 7 years though, but the scars are still there.

>>38573131
it's called dopamine, it's a neurotransmitter

>>38562895
beautiful way for autistic people to express themselves
cut horizontally not vertically

>>38567960
You do exactly what I do down to the crossing. I can't say I take pictures though.
>>38563623
I mutilate myself to express my anger. The repeated cuts, the words, and the amount is taking out my anger on myself. I guess, in a way, it is no different then those who take out their anger on others through violence.

The difference is I feel great distress at the thought of hurting others in any way so I take out all my anger on myself. It destroys the feeling of anger.

>>38573267
>I feel great distress at the thought of hurting others in any way so I take out all my anger on myself

there are anger management courses even online to check out

>>38572342
No. I'm not a faggot, I will not see a psych. If I do, they'll lock me in a mental hospital. I was just barely able to lie my out the last time, and doctor even said she knew I was lying, but couldn't prove it so she had to let me go.
And no, I'm not religiius, I went to church and shit until I was like 14-15, then my parents said if I still didn't believe, they wouldn't force me to keep going.

>>38573420
>they'll lock me in a mental hospital
that's for sure
>>38573420
>barely able to lie my out the last time,
you dont say...so you were at the doctors before

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Most of this is from a couple months ago and still hasn't gone away. Wish I stayed on my thighs and never started on my arms. I didn't think these shallow ass scratches would stay so long.

>>38572930
Ironically enough, it helps me take my mind off of stuff like that for a while.

>>38573702
Oops. Meant to ask if those'll fade anytime soon.

>>38573702
try shea butter products. it helped me to make my scars as pale as possible (OP)

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>>38573057
>Let go
Let go of what? your inhabitions? the need to be liked? the fact you have to go pee?
>>38573131
>Control
Control of what? The only person you control is yourself, and why would you ever hurt yourself?
>>38573267
> my anger on myself
Now, the question here, is the anger towards yourself, or is it towards others.
>>38573702
>Helps you relax
>My machocist nigga

>>38573605
Yeah, failed suicide attempt. Really, really fucking drunk, tried to hang myself. The neighbors saw and called the cops. It took me forever to tie the knots properly, and then when I finally had them, and kicked the bucket out from under my feet, the rod that I tied to snapped. I was going to just do it off my back deck after that, but the cops showed up while I was tying off to it.

>>38573866
I dont know should I laugh or feel sorry. Both most likely

>>38573842
Will do. Thanks, m8

>>38573937
try anything that has fat in it.
I also did masks for face. i'd put it on my arm and wait for it to just do its job and i'd pull it off. it really cleans the skin!
try moisturizing your skin before going to bed and early in the morning and just wait. in a month you'll see changes
if i want faster effects i put creams and bandages on and it clears the skin faster and makes cuts really light

>>38573844
The anger is obviously toward others. I just take it out on myself so I can approach the situation without the feeling of anger. The other fact is it also brings on extreme guilt to take out anger, not necessarily in a violent sense, on the one who has caused it.

>>38574056
i dont mean anything bad but you cant go through life like that. there will be so many situations that will make you angry. you have to have some kind of mechanism that's not as destructive but rn it's easier said than done for u. (op)

>>38574041
>try moisturizing your skin before going to bed and early in the morning and just wait. in a month you'll see changes
That's something I should be doing in general, actually; thanks for the reminder. My skin fucking sucks. Thanks again for the advice, anon.

>>38574148
dont call me anon, you lower class...thing

>>38574211
Pls nigga. You can't say anything to me worse than what I've already thought myself.

>>38574273
i'm not even black
and it wasnt my intent to offend you. i tried to help you with advises and you called me anon. fuck you

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>>38574056
>it also brings on extreme guilt to take out anger, not necessarily in a violent sense, on the one who has caused it.
>Why does it make you feel bad, when you bring justice agaist the one who caused you injustice, being the bigger man can be as simple as revenge or as a terrible as a court date.
It's also not very healthy.

>>38574377
U wot. We're all anons here. I don't get how that's a negative here.

>>38574439
I dont find myself an anon. because 1st of all. i am part of many things on 4chan 2nd i've been here for years

>>38574467
Alright whatever. Regardless, I appreciate the skincare advice.

>>38574467
>anon
anon is short for anonymous, and now pls look at the top left corner of your posts, dumb dumb

>>38574553
At least I'm not dumb enough to deal with fresh cuts problems
Mine are at least faded scars because I've actually had balls to outgrow bullshit you still cry about

>>38562895
Does punching yourself count? I'm too afraid to cut. I tried it once but then then when I cut my thoughts instantly turned to "ow, fuck, what are you doing?" That doesn't happen when I punch or beat my head against the wall.

>>38574640
that still counts. Everything you do intentionally and it hurts you is self harm (op)

>>38562895
I've never tried and never will bro

>>38562895
Brother used to do it when he was younger. I remember when I was 12 he almost killed himself due to blood loss from cutting, and now his arms are so scarred from it he hides them with long sleeve shirts, even in the 95 degree summers here.

>>38574640
You should try your best to stop anon. I started with hitting myself and then started scratching my skin because I couldn't face cutting myself. Now after years of doing that I use actual blades.

Any form of self-inflicted pain is not good and can lead to more severe self-harm later.