This past year I have been considering killing myself in the most painless and clean way possible. I think about it every single day. Not going to get in to the reasons as to why. I want to focus on a feeling when I think of suicide.
When I think of killing myself, my body starts to tingle like I'm being lightly scratched all over my upper body. My body also gets warmer and it makes me feel good, almost relieved. Does anyone else experience this? What is it? Is my body calling for me to end it's existence? It seems as if my body is showing me that suicide will bring pleasure to myself. idk
>>38526334
Maybe you have a suicide fetish?
Try placing a medium sized bag over your head, using rubber bands to wrap it around your neck, you'll fall unconscious in a few minutes and die painlessly afterwards.
>>38526334
Also livestream it if that's alright?
>>38526334
Have you considered seeking help? Say what you want about Dr. Goldenstein and his meds, but if you're at the point you are now, feeling nothing may actually be better.
>>38526334
I wouldn't read too much into it, it's probably just the the sense of relief you associate with suicide.
I'm not gonna tell you what to do, OP. Either way it doesn't matter. If you do end up killing yourself, though, you're turning your chances of experiencing happiness someday from a positive number to absolute zero.
>inb4 that's what it is right now
That's what you're telling yourself. You're in a pit right now and I don't blame you for wanting to escape. I just wish there was something more I could tell you. Good luck, anon.
>>38527055
This... might be the case.No spoilers because THIS isn't a wagie thread.